🎵 Just the two of us 🎶

and two goldfish…

…and our wife Layla

…and Jake sleeping deep down (in Spanish)

…and Khonshu, who is still around.

Quite a crowd, don't ya think?

a lot of people are using nex as a queer talking point without even mentioning they were choctaw and 2S. without even mentioning that this - harassment, assault, murder, disappearances, lies/indifference/denial about the circumstances of our death - is typical of the violence we face. not once have i seen non-native people address that we, as natives, face this same treatment within queer communities. that queer institutions use our land while declining to offer native-inclusive and -sensitive care. we suffer at the hands of white lgbt+ people just as much as we do at the hands of people outside the community.

nex is not your NB pariah. nex was a 2S, NB, choctaw child. thousands of native people go missing and are killed and no one cares. many are two-spirit. many are LGBTQIA+. many are "queer" in ways only defined and recognised by our closed cultures, that you may never hear of and may never understand.

if you are going to flock to nex, you are not going to take them from us post-mortem. they were choctaw. they were native. their tribal affiliation has already been falsely reported on. if you are talking about nex, you will talk about how unwelcoming and dangerous your communities are for us, too. you will talk about how natives face this violence constantly, everywhere. you will not remove nex from the context of them being choctaw, ever - or you won't say their name at all.

even when we die, you don't care about us. i am telling you to care about us if you want us to stop dying.

a small moment of kindness that touched me today. speaking about our struggles as grad students in class with classmates. our small group is all BIPOC; another latine and two arabs, one who is palestinian. we are speaking very honestly about our fears and frustrations. feeling useless. feeling scared. upset at the world and its horrors. angry at other peoples' silence. but at the same time so so full of joy and hope. i talked about being scared of being forgotten, and we continued on with our group task of creating a liberation health triangle.

professor transitioned us back to the full class and while our professor began speaking again, my Palestinian classmate--so beautiful and with the most wonderful curls--leaned close to me and whispered "I'll never forgot you." I almost didn't hear her so i whispered back, "what?", and as sweetly as the first time she said, "I'll never forget you. And I'll never forget what you said last semester. You were the first person in this entire program who spoke of your frustrations. I felt less alone."

the walk home from class was very cold, but i could not help but let myself repeat the moment in my head over and over again.

happy new year, army!

another year with armyblr and another year of things i am thankful for uwu while i'm busier than usual and cannot make the things i used to make all the time, i'm still so grateful for having this creative outlet and having a place to share the love i have for these seven boys with people who love them just as much. you're all so special to me!!!! i want to recognize some of the people who've been extra kind to me and have made my journey on this blog as miraculous has it has been -- however, i cannot state enough that anyone who's ever interacted with my blog is so, so special and important to me. the work i do isn't just for myself, it's for everyone. i'm so glad to share my creations with anyone who wants to receive them!!! ♥

some of my mutuals who have been nothing but kind and supportive of the things that i manage to do while working my crazy work weeks -- i can and would move mountains for you all. you are so, so special to me and i love you so endlessly.

@jiniekook | @seokljin | @cordiallyfuturedwight | @aprylynn | @rjshope | @raplinenthusiasts | @starcatching | @heybaetae | @kimtaegis | @yooboobies | @bisexualrapline | @userhobi | @userjiminie | @sugaftrm | @jjwannie | @sevencoloredstar | @livelocks | @jkvjimin | @taegularities | @thv-hyung | @sopekooks | @kithtaehyung | @kth1 | @jimin-gaon | @jeonjcngkook | @ncytiri | @eoieopda | @cosmicdreamgrl

(part 2 coming in a reblog bc of tumblr's silly limits!!!)

Yūrei kuina AU

in which kuinas soul becomes bonded to the wado ichimonji after her death until zoro fullfils their promise of becoming the world's strongest swordsman. She isn't visible to anyone but can slightly effect people's emotions and helps to ward off minor spirits. Her form becomes observable but not clear to those close to death.

thinking so so hard about LaughingStock and how that'd go down. disastrously, probably

[For when you get back]

Not fun at all question: if genetics had worked differently and Mark had grown to resemble either his dad or his grandpa rather than his uncle, how would the expectations around him have changed? ( Plus, how would he feel about it if it's not a problem to ask)

I think that Mark's grandparents may have been a little more lenient on him like they were with Sarah if that were the case. Like, the relationship with his grandad still would've been bad because, at the end of the day, Mark would still be Mark, and John could never really move past the fact that his grandson didn't enjoy 'masculine' things like hunting. Deborah might've been a little less cruel though. Because she wouldn't have seen Dave every time she looked at him (though she certainly doesn't refer to her estranged son by his chosen name).

Tbh the worst part about Mark not looking like Dave is the fact that he'd fully look like his father rather than just having his dad's eyes and I think that would make him feel even more terrible than he already does.

thinking ab goodtimeswithscar again. a man of so many masks, all with the same charismatic smile. a man who underneath those masks is so dedicated and loving and lonely and petty and chaotic and silly that it cant be contained. a man who watches and blends in and smiles and laughs, because thats the way hes learned to survive. a man who loves so much and so deeply and loyally that it kills him. a man who, when he stops loving like that, ends up winning his series. a man who is defined by trickster status but wants nothing more than to be defined by the friends he keeps. a man who fights against the want to love people and the want to survive. a man whose every interaction is transactional. a man who sells everything, his heart his soul his bones his blood, just to live another day.

hey babes, it looks like a few of my recent new followers here are under 18. I'm not gonna chase you out but you need to know I'm in my late 30s and I post a lot about sexual topics, including but not limited to recovering from sexual assault.

this is the internet and nothing I post is going to be worse than anything you'd find elsewhere but I do want to be cautious. on the one hand it's perhaps useful for you to get perspective on how an adult grapples with some of the same struggles you're probably facing. on the polytheist front, I know for a fact that the Infamous Fascist Guy talking about Dionysos doesn't turn away underage folks, which makes him an easy person to go to for information (yikes), and ideally you would seek out alternative sources that... aren't... fascist (I'm flattered to be chosen). which is an argument against restricting who interacts with this blog. on the other hand I know unregulated occult spaces (online and irl) are great at fostering unhealthy power dynamics between more and less seasoned practitioners, and even delusional thinking esp in newcomers who lack experience with discernment. which is not something I wanna encourage.

any "ban" on underage readers/followers is unenforceable - if you're rule compliant, you'll self select away, and if you're intent on staying, you'll falsify your age. so anything I say about it is really more about my own sense of responsibility than making anybody else do what I want.

I'm not a fucking cop. you're going to learn about what you want to learn about somewhere. teenagers are curious, and not oblivious to the realities of the world - all my dirtbag high school friends watched porn, several of them went to prison, most of them shot guns, my sister was pregnant at 17 - I know you're finding out what you want to know, one way or another. but I want to be mindful of my own impact on you.

if you are underage, my preference would be for you to ask me for recommendations of other resources, unfollow me for now, and then if you're still interested come look me up again when you're a bit older. you are explicitly welcome to ask me direct questions rather than following the blog. I don't want to be censoring my posts for an underage audience, and I don't want to be giving you material that's not suitable for you. plus I lack the constitution to feel comfortable yelling about dildos in a room full of 16-year-olds.

I'm not the boss of you and it's literally impossible for me to enforce my preferences, so I'm requesting that you respect them, instead. 🤍 thanks friends.

<3

it's crazy to me how so many of you were (and still are) complaining about fusebox using ai to write (and probably make the art of) the latest seasons when we learned about it but. it's the same people i see making AND using character ais of the islanders. you are feeding the fucking ai. you are hypocrites

Please give more info for your Frontiers au, it makes me very happy

HI YES ALWAYS

this is late because i wanted to have a little more to show you than i had before but Anyway

ok .ok so

each character in the game had their own Main Issue/Thing. amy's was .idk love and wanting to share it with others. knux's was his ancestors and his own past, learning to get off angel island once in a while. and tails' was all about his independence

but for sonic it was really hard to find something sjdnfj since he doesn't really have anything to go off of (flat character and all that) but. i got thinking about how cyberspace affected each character and just how it Works

from what i understand, being stuck between cyberspace and reality has no feeling to it, no sense of being 'grounded', and all that other fun stuff .

and that sounds like a living hell for sonic

he can't do anything. he can run but it doesn't give him the same feeling because there is no feeling. the most he can do is just sit back and wait till everything's fixed.

y'know what just take this

not finished but it gets my point across and also im so normal about these two

LET ME ASSIGN YOU AN AESTHETIC WORD.

CAFUNÉ. cafuné means running your fingers through someone's- perhaps a lover, hair. it's such an intimate, affectionate way of showing love. if you got this result, you're a romantic at heart; very sweet, delicate, precious wandering soul. aren't you scared of your heart being too big for your body? somehow, you remind me of that pretty coral pink that bleeds into a soft indigo when the sun is slowly setting.

what i'd like to tell you is that we can't save everyone, and that's okay. you're doing your best, and it's enough.

tagged by: @danversiism!! <3 tagging: you!!

Happily sitting in the little aspec sandbox I made for L at the start and her entire deal with Im*gen and I'm very happy for them and I am also broadening the tags I have blocked because allos are about to be very annoying. And that is their right, but no thank you.

If anyone is ever interested in learning more ab or getting into tumblr rpc's, holds out my hand forever,,,, we can be so so silly as a treat,,,,,