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i am absolutely obsessed with your alpha dave because you just hit that itch for me when it comes to the idea of guardians being the worst version of what their kid version could become. i've always wondered that, if the alpha guardians had the same concept the beta guardians did, how would they be-- especially dave, cause the striders relationships with their guardians are always so like. volatile? just the idea of dave growing up with no one to give him proper attention or care or love, (1/2)

and instead of bettering himself he just turns to the constant attention and eyes of the public when he becomes famous, because he NEEDS attention, he needs people to want him and crave him and look up to him and shit. and alpha dave just going down this spiral of doing more and more wack shit to get the public's attention, doing hard drugs with nasty circles he shouldn't be getting himself in, cause he's constantly chasing after the euphoria of people "loving" him. thats all thank you for listening to me go on and on like a maniac. tldr alpha dave being the worst version of who dave can be is an idea i am absolutely obsessed with partially due to your interpretations of him. ur art and ideas are stellar about the striders (2/2)

oh my god I love you. yes this very much how i envision alpha dave to be and it really falls into my stringent devotion to the concept of "universal karma" i.e. where beta dirk strider was so aloof and in his own head alpha dave strider must exist as an extreme direct inverse of that. needy, demanding, overbearing. this man, much like beta dirk, was not built to be a guardian. I think he kind of sucks super bad and it's so awesome. i could go on and on and on about this but I already have another ask in my drafts about him that’s hit 1k words with no end in sight and who knows when that’ll be ready. thank you for your kind observations. picture me smiling at you right now.

#alpha dave strider #ask #lucy art #I would have given him a coke nail here if I thought I could’ve make it look good #and also. like. tangentially. but very related.#the reason i view him as a cocaine addict isn't just because ohhhh hollywood superstar of course he does drugs #though that definitely enables his access #coke is a death trap for those with no spine and no self esteem because it makes you feel on top of the world.#if you're miserable and spiralling if you're insecure whether or not everyone in the room hates you you can snort a line #and abruptly perceive yourself to be the hottest shit ever #have read stories of many doing coke and thinking they're the life of the party only to be told afterwards that they were being a jackass #there are many such cases of diffident actors becoming cocaine addicts for these reasons #and that everyone hated them for being there #that's fundamentally dave to me #definitely a product of the environment. I think he has ALWAYS been quite insecure but in an environment like this the stakes are amplified #like it's a social game. everything is a social game there. and he is NOT a naturally confident man #the thing is with a lot of the high-profile coke addict actors the thing is like. they're alone. or they perceive themselves to be alone.#alone in hollywood afraid they're just not cutting it not fitting in with the scene not making ''friends''#which is really more attributable to the social scene being so cutthroat and highschoolesque #a bunch of self-centered preps who would be nobodies if they hadn't grown up in wealthy families and shit like that #and I don't think dave would've come from an upbringing like this at all. alienated this guy craves attention and peer approval #doses and mimosas.flac #this is almost opposite of my view of dirk and i often use dave as a tuning fork for him #i had typed up a whole essayramble here and when i saved tumblr wiped out half the tags. did not realize there was a limit.#i suppose i will save to topic i discussed for its own post. thank you all for reading my tags as usual #sorry i edited your three asks into two asks so this post wouldn't get super long. hope you don't mind.

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