2013 2023

5X01: HELL IN HAWKINS

As the Upside Down bleeds into Hawkins, its citizens try to determine what comes next. Mike learns the value of friendship, Eleven comes face-to-face with her past, and Owens gets a bit more than he bargained for.

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recent video edit about tbosas. I poured my heart and my soul into it, please give it a watch. 🤍

i was told the sunlight was a cure by hanif abdurraqib

i don't know why i am the way i am

not good enough - boygenius // i know the end - phoebe bridgers

Phoebe Bridgers 🕸🦷

Either way, we’re not alone

I’ll find a new place to be from

A haunted house, with a picket fence

To float around and ghost my friends

Oh, I’m not afraid to dissapear

The billboard said the end is near

I turned around, there was nothing there

Yeah, I guess the end is here.

Endgame.

Q: When is a good time to leave a fandom? A: When there's no future to look forward to and a past too painful to look back at. Welcome to the 2023 Killing Eve fandom and here's the latest news. There is no news. There is nothing in development. The stars of the show have parted ways and moved on to new projects and so have many in the fandom. But don't take my word for it.

Good question. What else is there to talk about Killing Eve? How long can you be bummed the fuck out by that ending? How many times can you watch that sweet kiss between Eve and Villanelle and wonder what kind of life they could have had together if only a better writer than Laura Neal was in command of their destiny? How many times will you think about a Season Four rewatch only to wonder why bother? Wine improves over the passage of time, but nothing's going to make that shitty ending better. Anger and resentment can only take you so far. After it fades into disgust and depression, it's just a grey cloud hanging over your head while it eats you up inside.

KE fanfics have helped me get through the depression and disgust I felt after the finale, but the seething rage at Neal and Sally Woodward Gentle though---that has not gone away.

I keep thinking there's something more to say about Killing Eve and how it went from being born for greatness before sliding into mediocrity before the bitter disappointment of the finale. I keep thinking that, but really what more needs to be said about it?

In the immediate aftermath of "Hello, Losers" the KE fandom went hunting for bastards to blame. The obvious targets were head writer Laura Neal and chief producer Sally Gentle and coupled with some truly awful interviews by the pair in Collider, Decider, and the Hollywood Reporter, they went out of their way to justify being cast as the villains. Afterward, more witches needed to be set alight, and some fans, including some I personally respect, settled on Sandra Oh as next to dragged face down over concrete for not openly denouncing the finale (Jodie Comer escaped the scorn by swiftly pivoting to her one-woman play, Prima Facie, and shutting up about Killing Eve entirely). I've never thought the scorn for Sandra was merited or justified. Most of it hinged on a vaguely worded "quote" from a Gay Times interview in 2018 that has been hung around the actress's neck as evidence she never believed in a same-sex relationship between Eve and Villanelle. I read it differently, but I admit to perhaps being biased on the behalf of a mature Asian woman cast in a role written for a much younger White woman. But mostly I don't think it's entirely fair to blame any actor for the failure or even give them too much credit for the success of any given show. Even in Prima Facie, there's still a playwright who provided the dialogue and a director making sure everything comes together to put Comer in the best light. In film, television, or plays, collaborating successfully with other talented people is the secret sauce that separates success from failure. This is a hard, fast rule and something any KE fan who watched the plunge from a Phoebe Waller-Bridge to Laura Neal can attest to. New Yorker film critic Richard Brody wrote in response to the 2022 Academy Award nominations, "It’s rare for actors to give performances better than the film they’re in. Actors, whatever power they may have as stars, are still, in effect, employees, working under the command of directors."

I agree with Brody, and add when there is constant churn and turnover in the writer's room the actors can't act their way out of it. Indeed, the saving grace of Season Four is the consistency of Comer and Oh who often created the best moments out of the table scraps of Neal's uninspired and clumsy scripts. They succeeded in spite of Neal, not because of her. Very little blame has been directed toward Oh and Comer for the work they did as actors in Killing Eve's fatally flawed final season. They did their best with the little they were given to work with, but even these two accomplish award-winners could not redeem the damnable, disgusting mess of a last go-round that was Season Four. But it's not enough to sustain my enthusiasm or direct participation. It seems unlikely I will ever not be a fan of Oh and Comer, but what I'm not particularly interested in is turning a Killing Eve blog into a Sandra Oh or Jodie Comer blog. No disrespect to Big Swiss, The End We Start From, The Sympathizer, or the second season of Invincible, but none of those things have anything to do with Killing Eve. This is why this blog began years ago and why it will end days from now. Stepping away simply makes more sense than hanging on. There is nothing else to say about Killing Eve, but even if there is, I'm not the one to say it.

cant lie that was a little underwhelming but also cliffhanger???? poor girl omg.. very curious what is that blue entity also dbk did not die!

the american accents are also killing me icl this is princess yue all over again

If a man cant get pussy they should just have a vagina and use their chopped off dick to have sex with it

artblock has struck again :agony:

so i heard we’re doing wip wednesday…

Endings are hard.

I can’t believe I just finished writing the final chapter of opposites attract that will post Monday! 

It was one of those stories that was almost impossible to find an ending, because I wanted those two to have a perfect ending. But, I thinking ending it here, the way I just did, leaving things a little open for a return, that’s probably for the best, because it’s one of those stories that literally can just keep going! 

Is it normal to kinda feel a little bit of grief at your own story though? Cause honestly, I think this was my favorite one I’ve ever written! 

So here’s a pretty gif of shirtless Jensen so that you guys won’t be to mad at me for saying good-bye for now to these characters, cause let’s face it, we’ll have to check on them again in the future. This is one story I just don’t know if I can ever fully let go. 

𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢 🥀

THE END IS HERE

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