It's been almost one month and I'm still so obsessed with Faith in the future! I'm still listening to it every day and it still gives me goosebumps with every drum background and every guitar chord, every lyric that speaks to my heart, every time he sings like he's right by my side telling me things I need to hear.
I love it.
I'm truly madly deeply in love with Faith In The Future.
It’s the day of my Louis show. It’s past 3 am and I should be asleep but I am feeling a lot of things right now. I have loved Louis since early 2012, when I heard his angelic voice on the chorus of One Thing and then in the second verse, and I b am going to see him for the first time ever in about 17 and a half hours. I became a fan of One Direction because of Louis, I have been a Louie from the first tube I heard him sing. To be here now, to see Louis in a solo show singing his solo music, it is everything to me. It is literally a dream come true. It is what I always wanted for Louis and what I always believed he could do. I enjoyed 1D, even loved it, but it was Louis who reached deep into my soul and warmed me from the inside out. It was Louis who made me feel at home, who inspired me with his lovely soul and kind heart and resilience and strength, who made me feel comforted and hopeful, especially in the moments in my life where nothing else really did and it was bad for me. When my head is in a bad place, Louis makes me feel alive and like I can go on, I can find a way to make it though. Louis’s solo career has been a journey, a rollercoaster of emotions and worry and happiness and everything in between, but Louis’s music and the connection I feel makes it all worth it.
I love music. I love listening to music, across all genres. I love the connection between an artist and their fanbase. That to me is special and worthwhile and that personal connection is what I look for in music, in any kind of art really. And no other artist has ever made me feel the way Louis does: this connected to their songs and their spirit; this invested in their joy and career and, quite simply and at the core of everything, their music.
So I am ashamed of the Australian leg of Louis’s tour. I don’t think the Australian crowds as a whole have been good to Louis and that breaks my heart. LATAM and Asia were so much better to him, so wonderful and amazing and respectful and passionate in the best way. As I am Australian, I don’t know that I deserve to see him, especially when so many wonderful fans of his haven’t been able to. Thank you so much to my mutuals who have encouraged me not to feel this way. I really appreciate how kind you have been. And I am sorry for rambling like this, I just have a lot of feelings as I said.
So thank you, Louis Tomlinson. You have saved me and countless others, and you deserve wonderful things in your solo career. You are home, Louis, and I can never truly adequately express just how much you and your music mean to me.