how it is like to be a transformer:

1) be too small and squishy

2) think about past

3) cry

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I miss Olivia. She was a very good daughter, and I really did care for her. I didn't mean to leave her alone, I didn't think I would die. I am sure someone went to care for her. They better have.

-Grey Mann (TF2)

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I dared to look at the Cybertroniankin/Transformerskin tag on social media and was met with a wall of ex-otherkin(and I lightly use the term ex-otherkin, there's no such thing) talking about how it was a “phase” and making fun of the idea. Ridiculous.  Its ridiculous how when at the time you tell these brats that when they are pretending or playing Otherkin for fun that it isn’t how this works, they throw up a stink, creature drama, the whole works.. but then you end up right years later when they are no longer “kin” and you’re still here stuck with the damage they caused your community. Funny how that works. And you know by ‘funny’, I mean in a way that's not funny at all.  Being Otherkin isn’t a phase. You either are or you are not. I didn’t choose this, none of us did. But you outsiders come charging into our spaces, turning definitions upside down, making a mockery and internet meme out of something that is serious to us and leave with no mark on yourselves. You don’t care because it doesn’t effect you. You never gave a shit because it’s not your problem. You were never Otherkin, so why would it be? People like me, those of us who are stuck with the aftermath of Otherkin socially combusting on popular media left picking up the pieces, can’t even distinguish each other from one another now. It was difficult enough to trust before, to try and be open and feel safe talking about these experiences with people who at the time convinced you, and themselves, really hard that they were that thing.. but then tore away from it when they got bored. They didn't just have a “harmless phase”, they hurt all of us.  Whats done is done though, and there's nothing that can set back the way things used to be. It was never perfect, but it was never this bad either. I realize I’m ranting, there's just nowhere else to let this out. I always hated being fictionkin because inadvertently you know that this is how it will always be in the end. There will always be people who want to have this experience when its convenient to them. They “want to be their faves” or “oh kin, this character is just like me” until they move onto the next hot topic.  I’ve been on the Otherkin side of Tumblr since 2012, been Otherkin since 2007, and it’s just been incredibly sad to watch everything go. 

I kind of assumed my childhood anxiety was the bare minimum and what any kid with anxiety had (considering I had to strongarm my mom into letting me see a doctor after dxing myself online, years after being dismissed from the counseling office with a stress ball after I tore out chunks of hair in response to a B- or not knowing a word or something, idr) and only recently I'm processing that maybe my mental health problems have always been relatively bad and I was actually being dismissive of how much I had to struggle

https://discord.gg/9BBBdWAHwU

No kids, no dickheads 

*at full volume*

I WANT TO LOOK AT MEGATRON.

used this drink maker picrew to make my ideal glass of energon,,,

no crushed ice option tho. riot.

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I've come to make an announcement, Galvatron is a bitch ass motherfucker. He FUSION CANNONED ON MY FUCKING WIFE. That's right, he whipped his bulbous little cannon out and he shot my fucking wife. And he said his cannon was "tHiS bIg" and I said that's DISGUSTING. So I'm writing a callout post on transformerskinfessions dot tumblr dot com. Galvatron, you've got a small alt-mode. It's the size of this walnut, except way smaller--

-Wheeljack

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I get the weirdest co-shifts possible like these characters do not line up at ALL they just happen to be from the same thing. Like when I get a Cave/Caroline shift like. Are we trying to make GLaDOS here? Is that's what's going on because that's what you get when you mix those two. Or Miss Pauling/RED Scout like I don't know what is going on there but like. I don't even know but it's happened. Luckily I don't get co-shifts often but they never make sense.

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My Awakening as Starscream

The story of my awakening as Fictionkin, as Starscream the First. I wrote this many years ago but never shared it here. Now, I figured it wouldn’t hurt and might actually be educational for other fictionkin and non-fictionkin alike.

It all started when I was around only 4 or 5 years old. I had found myself enthralled with the F-15 eagle fighter jets in the movie, Top Gun. Its not the average favorite film of kids my age at the time, especially for a "girl" in the 90s. If that movie was on the television, I was watching it. I could feel the jets, what it was like to be one, and felt on this something I couldn't describe other than that I was one. This is the moment of realization for me, when I first awakened to those thoughts and feelings, and from there they never ceased. 

There are moments I remember quite well as a child. Swinging on a swing-set and closing my eyes, letting the winds wash over me and feeling as if I was flying. Or staring up at the clouds as I did so, watching a plane go by and imagining myself as one, up there creating cloud trails. I had only been on an actual plane once on a trip to Florida, afterwards my family avoiding them in fear. Yet I would eventually take a plane trip again later on, to which I rather enjoyed. 

Since as long as I can remember I've also had a strange connection to vehicles. I always felt like they were alive. I gave them names, I spoke to them. They weren't just "cars" to me. It's something that has stuck with me through out my life. I had the deepest relationship with a car I would get much later, my first car, but I don't want to veer too off topic now. The bottom line is they were always people to me. 

Fast forward to the year 2002, when I was around 8 years old, and the feelings became more narrowed. Transformers Armada had aired on cartoon network. I remember scrabbling downstairs early mornings to watch on the little gray box of a TV we had. It was then once again I felt the pull towards something.. something I was missing, a piece of myself that felt right. I never missed an episode, I was obsessed. I still had not quite figured out why at this point, I was too young to understand, but again, the feelings never stopped there. My favorite character was obvious to me from the start, though I tried to avoid that. I remember telling myself, "I can't like that one, cause he's the best". Its funny now I think how absolutely me it was to say.  

I began collecting figures sometime after that. My first figure being a Heroes of Cybertron Starscream. My collection really built up from there, and without taking much notice was filling up mostly with decepticons, and a large proportion of Starscreams. It was.. unintentional, almost subconscious actually. Whether it was at the shop, or wherever, if there was a section of Transformers, I was immediately drawn to the red white and blue seeker.  

Following that, the year 2007 rolls around. I am about 13 years old, and my connection to the Transformers and cybertronians is still strong. My friends and family refer to me often in connection to it. A commercial comes on and I hear, "___ your robots are on tv!" or a cool car rolls by, "look ___ its a transformer!" I've blanked out my human name for a few personal reasons. Anything in relation was usually brought to my attention. This is the year I became aware of the Otherkin community. I found during this time another moment when something clicked for me. Reading about these others experiences, what they described in feelings of homesickness, phantom sensations, and that overall description of not being human, I found myself. The thing that I had been feeling this whole time, put into words, and a community of other people who felt the same, I was ecstatic.  

From then on I have been putting together my own thoughts and feelings, unraveling the past of who I was, and still currently feel I am. Discovery has truly never gone away since starting this journey. Everyday I still feel there is so much to learn of myself, so many things I don't know, and hope to someday find out. I remember questioning Soundwave at one point, casting aside all the years of jet feelings, as I still wanted to avoid Starscream at all costs. Something inside me didn't want to see or accept it. I.. don't know why, but coming to terms with it wasn't easy. 

I couldn't deny the phantom shifts. Large jet wings on my back, thrusters on the heels of my feet, the feeling of hydraulics in my legs. Everything felt mechanically alive and it felt right. I wanted to feel my plating shift into place, to fold in on itself and allow me to take to the skies as I once did. I knew I was a jet from when I was very young, and this was why. I wasn't just a jet, I was Cybertronian. A bio-mechanical were-jet. A Transformer. 

Knowing what I was and who I am gave me closure to the thing that had been itching in the back of my mind for my whole life thus far. Though knowing this was only half of it. The past of it also creeps up on me in ways I least expect. Memories of things I'd done, places I've been, those who I'd known, and things I'd come to hate. There are 2 sides of the coin when it comes to the past. The good, and the bad. 

There was a time I was dating a guy. For some reason it pinged on me that our relationship was very familiar. I am not going to go into details of this 2 year back and forth adventure of breaking up, getting back together, and then breaking up for good another time.. but there was always something about him that reminded me of Skyfire. I couldn't unsee it. We were both in college together, studying the same course, and ended up partnered together for a project.. it all went off from there. Of course, it didn't work out, it very familiarly did not work out. It was never supposed to. It was one of those odd coincidences that I felt followed me from life to life, as I have a very strong feeling life does tend to repeat itself in ways. 

Its hard to explain. I like to compare it to the movie: Cloud Atlas. How the story switches from era to era with the same people, but they are born into different lives, different roles, but they are repeating. I feel like when it comes to reincarnation we live the same story over and over through different obstacles. Things tend to often give that feeling of Deja Vu. 

A year after that I met my current partner. I didn't tell them at first that I was Otherkin, as it was something private to me. I never imagined they would ever know, as I never told my previous partner. It wasn't something I talked about with people outside the community. Somehow it did come up though. There was something about our meeting that again had this ping of familiar-ness, that we already knew each other. And we did. I found Megatron. I don't want to say it was fate, but something caused our paths to cross again and there we were, together like old times.  

In that moment I truly felt connected to myself, I knew who I was. It has not changed for me ever since the very beginning. My past is my present, and I can not change who I am. My awakening has been a lifelong event, but I'd say the moment I watched that "Top Gun" film was the day a whole world opened up to me. -Starscream the First (Sept 6 ,2015)

Would anyone be interested in joining a tf kin server 👀

Calling all Unicron Trilogy Kin?!?!

I've seen at least one other person from the Unicron Trilogy on here... Maybe there's more. I'm super lonely lmao

Anyway, hello! I'm Thrust! I'm 25, Autistic, ADHD Alien and generally brainweird transguy! I'm looking for literally anyone else from the Unicron Trilogy. I don't have a preference!

I don't really have special memories that ooh canonmates would know, though I was extremely close to Tidal Wave and I am the same mech as G1 Thrust (long, weird story), though during my Armada life, I was unaware of that past. I was arrogant and haughty, but ultimately I just wanted everyone to be at their best. I'm a lone Cone, and it would be cool to meet others from Armada/Micron Legend!

Please like this post or DM me if you're interested in chatting!