i hope we all figure it out
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fish in a birdcage and the crane wives really be summarizing, causing, and curing my mommy issues
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I'm still alive. Hardly but still alive. Work has been insane!!! I still have your drafts. I want to work on them but my work schedule hasn't allowed it yet. I'm hoping to get to them very soon. I'm so sorry for the wait but I am so thankful for your patience.
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just got A from a history test i didn't study for and just masturbated the whole day before
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I HATE CORPORATE WEBSITES
I HATE TEXT THATS TOO PLAIN AND SMALL ON PLAIN WHITE BACKGROUNDS FOR ME TO READ
I HATE CONFUSING CORPORATE ASS WORDING THAT I CANT UNDERSTAND
I HATE HAVING TWELVE MILLION STEPS INCLUDING TALKING TO A ROBOT ONLY TO GET TRANSFERRED TO A REAL PERSON WHO ASKS YOU THE SAME FUCKING QUESTIONS THAT THE ROBOT ASKED
I HATE CAPITALISM BECAUSE IT NECESSITATES INACCESSIBILITY BECAUSE DISABLED PEOPLE DONT TURN A PROFIT
I HATE HAVING TO PAY FOR A SUBSCRIPTION JUST TO USE A DEVICE THAT I ALREADY FUCKING OWN
I HATE THAT I NEED THIS SUBSCRIPTION TO GET A JOB
I HATE THE FUCKING HOOPS IM REQUIRED TO JUMP THROUGH JUST TO FUCKING SURVIVE
WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK I FUCKING HATE THIS
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Don't just build the altar. BE the altar.
Treat yourself as Holy.
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Niggas will really “can you do my retwist?” they way into ya draws y’all be safe out here
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there's something that amuses me whenever i wear/use things that otherwise i would've HATE to put on when i was younger ( closeted to be precise )
like right now, i spent the past hour putting on makeup ( eyeshadow and eyeliner ) and im BEAMING as i looked at myself in the mirror. i feel so. waa. if this were back then, younger me would've DREADED even the thought of makeup anywhere near me
i used to hate nail polish. now im starting to grow my collection of nail polishes and wear them whenever i could/non school days. i used to hate clothes that even had a tinge of feminine look to it. now i wear frilly shirts, corset, lace choker. of course, that wouldn't go without saying that i do still wear masc and baggy clothes. its just that im no longer that averse to the idea of being slightly feminine. i used to hate long hair, now i have a combination of curtain bangs and a currently growing mullet ( does it count as wolfcut ? im not sure. )
and those thoughts amuses me a lot. why ? it made me realise something. i'm not a girl ( obviously since im a trans non-binary man ). that is true. but i denied wanting to present femininely. because femininity is something many still view as "inherently weak" and the such. and being the kid that i was who doesn't want to be viewed as "weak" and hates being put in a box or even following norm for that matter, i was repulsed by anything that's associated with feminity. it got to the point where i became a "pick me" kid back then, that i'd criticize other girls who were "too girly" or who wore makeup all the time behind their backs, or hell have a "too girly" mannerism. anything that's feminine. i was essentially misogynistic, if im being honest. ironic since im AFAB, eh ?
after i came out ( to myself mostly, and a few friends of mine as well as social media where im quite open about my identity ) 3-4 years ago, i was initially so adamant and quite uneducated about my own identity. i remembered that i initially came out as non-binary and was scared that i wasn't valid if i don't conform to the "androgynous" stereotype. hell i tried so hard to follow masc mannerism that it feels so stiff and unnatural. then as the years go on, i experiment with labels, came out again as trans non-binary, and started experimenting with how i present myself. it was then i realised that i didn't hate being feminine at times. i was just conditioned to be ashamed of being feminine.
i love eyeliners. i love nail polishes. i love frilly shirts and blouses. i love skirts that look cool in my eyes. but i was simply shamed and conditioned into thinking that feminity is something "less" than everything else.
being feminine also doesn't take away the fact that im a trans man as well. it doesn't make me a "girl" just because i present similarly to my AGAB.
im just a man who can be fem and masc, or anything in between.
it's quite an interesting and amusing ( long ) thought. to me, at least.
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Guys, I’m officially no longer single..
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