thinking ONCE AGAIN of the cut in 15x18 where Jensen Ackles’ eyes go from literally brimming with tears to barely teary when he turns his head, but clearly without releasing the tears, because WHAT WAS THAT CHOICE ??
thinking about if, instead of just standing back and letting the empty take him, cas had been laying in dean’s arms, head on his chest, listening to heart beat too fast for comfort, just waiting for his fate and dean having the desperate, useless hope that his arms around cas’s shoulders could somehow keep him safe from the black ooze seeping into the room. and thinking about dean literally feeling cas’s body slipping out of his arms, and tightening his grip to no avail. cas knew it never could have helped, but just appreciated feeling dean’s chest rise and fall under his cheek for those brief few moments.
Love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality. No one can become fully aware of the very essence of another human being unless he loves him. By his love he is enabled to see the essential traits and features in the beloved person; and even more, he sees that which is potential in him, which is not yet actualities but yet to be actualized. Furthermore, by his love, the loving person enables the beloved person to actualize these potentialities. By making him aware of what he can be and of what he should become, he makes these potentialities come true.