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invalid-request · 26 days
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Strength, resilience, self-love, independence, optimism, etc ...
I don't like these things, they don't make me feel "empowered", they don't give me that "Fuck yeah!" feeling that others seem to get
I feel like a traveling spirit that got off at the wrong train stop.
This particular world is not for me.
This world where I need resilience because I am being attacked
Strength because sometimes I must hurt others
Self-love because no one else will love me
Independence because we aren't there for each other
Optimism because we're naturally overwhelmed by how bad things are
I thought I was someplace else entirely. Why would I want this?
Every so often I feel something deep within me wake up, say "Hoooly shit, we're still HERE? I told you years ago that we need to move on from this life. Oh well, I'll check back later," and it goes back to sleep
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milann · 7 months
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fuck
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FUCK!!!
i'm so, so sorry..
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one-of-them-queers · 2 years
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When I die I want everyone to continue with their lives as if nothing happened. It’s not as if I mattered anyway
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soft-hibiscus · 1 year
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You
TW: suicude, gore, horror
I keep picturing you. 
Cold and alone.
Laid out on a cold, grey slab.
It kills me to see you.
White and red and blown apart. 
But what kills me the most
Is seeing you bright and golden,
Alive - and standing in front of me. 
Oh God, I want to scream when you open your mouth
And you tell me “it wasn’t you.”
Because deep down inside, I know that it was.
Those words you say, they aren’t true!
I’m hurting! And yes, I feel bad about that.
Because I know, deep inside, so were you.
But when you come by, you look deep in my eyes,
And for a moment I swear that you’re telling the truth.
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bananapeel0 · 2 years
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NOT A SUICIDE NOTE
I wanted to kill myself yesterday but i wanted to be at peace .its wierd but i realised how acceptance and revenge can act as an ensemble of peace. And I don't ve neither to choose frm .why? Cuz i only know how to give my love ...i never learnt how to love myself or forgive myself ...and I don't think i ll ever learn. So everything circles back to one thing tht you can do to free yourself frm all this..i also wondered if the gates of heaven or hell would be waiting for me ... One thought also arises wht bout ur parents.well i don't owe thm anything it wasn't my decision to be bornt after all. and friends..it's just a modernised bartar system which the society gave it's validation...remember no one is there in your life for you ...it's either they re getting something out of it or you re just being used for the time being ...no one stays when you re at the vertex of parabola in your life....this would ve made you thought ki only family stays but no your house is a factory and ur family is the owner of it. yes ..they d want good for you but not for you bcz they d look good in society if their children are successful.....n it doesn't matter cuz all your life you ve been raised and taught not to speak against...but are you tht weak to kill yourself over tht ..um no i m not..
My head is always cooped up with voices ....yup whispers , screams,melodies you re listening to music and you have to double check if it was the sound in my ears or in my mind.. i need pills to sleep...n trust me not sleeping can turn a good man into a non recognisable one... I ve started to forget simple things like some dementia shit..its just hard to breathe and feel my blood flowing thru my heart making it beat but all i know i m already a ghost of wht i used to be ......well it's been 6 months and coming back to my initial argument i couldn't find peace..i m still figuring it out so i can go away in peace....i tried slitting my wrists in the past but it hurts ..n i just wanna be happy in peace when i die...i bought some 50 mg pills this time thts double the power i used to take so if i take em with caffeine it should do the work.....i hope it does the work i can't face this world if i ll be alive..
I have grudges for most of the people around me but there's this girl's mum...she felt so motherly.....well i m grateful for tht. I hope all her problems and family feuds fades away with time..umm yup thts it...everyone else just took away pieces of me to a point i feel not worthy of being a human...yah or simply i m not humane enough...to me to be human is many things at once strong and vulnerable, hardheaded and intellectual, a revolutionary and yah don't take it wrong ,a gansta..... I feel i m not toxic my life is but whatever i decided not to ruin anybody's peace and let them be maybe forgive them too
And I couldn't complete my prose about this gurl i was writing it was gonna be beautiful....i wish I could ve kissed her just once ....but IT IS WHT IT IS.
Well i hope quantum physics develops more altho I would be around to see it..ok
Just a few more hours i ll be free frm everything ....
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dumbsuicidalteen · 2 years
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one thing about me is i am not doing so well
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bl00dyratking · 1 year
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i wish i could tell everyone how bad im struggling 
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binkrls · 1 year
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invalid-request · 9 months
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They tell depressed people to love themselves.
They also tell them to ignore the suicidal part of themselves, as if that part of them is cuckoo bananas.
Yeah, that's not how self-love works.
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enbynoah · 2 years
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I have a good job, I got accepted into my dream university, I have nothing to complain about other than the fact that I really miss Her, but still, all I can think about is [redact] myself
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one-of-them-queers · 2 years
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82% of trans people have considered suicide
Over 40% have attempted to kill themselves 
However, trans people are 50% less likely to consider suicide if they are in an accepting environment.
ACCEPTING PEOPLE SAVES LIVES. TRANS KIDS AREN’T GOING TO HURT YOU BUT THEIR TOO FUCKING LIKELY TO HURT THEMSELVES INSTEAD. IF YOUR TOO FUCKING BIG HEADED TO CALL SOMONE BY THE NAME AND PRONOUNS THEY PREFER THEN YOU MAY AS WELL GO AN KILL THEM OUTRIGHT. ACCEPTANCE MAKES A MASSIVE DIFFERENCE!!!
(Data collected in March 2022)
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depressed-ravioli · 1 year
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I wouldn’t mind not waking up tomorrow.
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pinkishgod · 2 years
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Tw // suicid3
Losing them
When you don't know wether someone important to you is alive or dead is the most painful feeling. When you see that message saying "I love you and thank you for being in my life" is the scariest ever and causes that nauseating feeling when you feel really nervous. The next day you feel anxious waiting for them to respond to the tons of begging messages for them to stay. At that moment there's nothing more important than that message saying they're still alive. But when you don't get that message. You'll live in an internal feeling of still hoping that they send the message to you.
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dumbsuicidalteen · 2 years
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one of the worst parts of self harm and suicidal ideation is when you’re sitting next to someone you love so much and all you can think about is how badly you want things to end
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