I never planned to be an adult…. Why am I here ??
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It's hard to focus on your future when you're suicidal.
"What do you see in your future?"
Nothing. Maybe death if I'm lucky.
Either way, I've got no hope
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(jeżeli ktoś nie lubi czytać o myślach sam00bojczych to niech lepiej nie czyta tego posta)
Chciałabym se p0dciąć żyły mocno i głęboko aby kr3w lała się bez przerwy, umrz3ć w spokoju i nikogo nie oglądać, wiedzieć że już nie będę musiała żyć dłużej na tym świecie.
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Sorry I haven't replied to your messages yet. I'm too busy thinking about killing myself.
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i dont think i can make it to my 20s
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i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to
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Chronic Pain and PTSD Nightmares.
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Unless i don't get murdered or get into some sort of accident first, the only certain future i see for myself is my suicide, while being miserable and alone.
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I don’t even know where to put this. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts all week and I wanna die so badly. I don’t feel like I can talk to any of my friends about it because I don’t wanna burden them with something else bud god it’s been so bad. I don’t even know what to do. I really wish I had a normal brain I wish that I was normal
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nienawidzę tego że mam ochotę sie p0ciac ale nie moge bo boje sie ze ktoś zauważy
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YALL I BETTER NOT GET DMs ABT THIS POST i s2g im fine but i just need to be able to write this out to the void where it won’t burden anyone specific and dump on them, and also where mandated reporters cannot use it in a medical setting to keep me from going home bc none of the psych wards close to me have accommodations for wheelchairs and severe degrees of chronic pain . sorry but ye >_<
Tw for suicide and grief and shit. it’s just everything man, it’s EVERYTHING !!!! ToT
i dont know. i dont knoooow aaaah!!! idk how i woke up after 4 overdose attempts this past week and didnt even go to the hospital. nothin nada fuck all babey. off balance and feeling heady ? FUCK YEs??? But jesus christ i guess now our only hope is renal failure as a complication later down the line (JOKING). Lol. maybe idk. well ive sort of come to the conclusion that if 100 pills of diclofenac on tuesday followed by 48 bendadryl tablets the next night PLUS every thing we took on Monday night and monday morning with alcohol isnt enough to due meh in~ well BABEH~~ maybe it’s just not my time >_< also my entire outlook on grief has changed drastically in those 3 days. like i get it now i understand a bit better than any other attempt ive made in relation to friends who were successful in their suicides that sometimes everything is too much and hurts too bad and sometimes the only way to stop that hurt and those aches and that pain is to apologize to those around you that love you and . be like. hey im sorry that my peace has to come at the expense of your grief but i CANT do this. </3
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