15.03.2023

The idiot decides to be transparent with her mistakes and imperfections

living the summer life

25th of december,

marry christmas to those who celebrate today! and for those who don’t I hope you have a great day overall :) I personally do not celebrate christmas on this date, but I love you the holidays and I can’t wait for new year’s!

Update from me! I’ve been busy on the upper GI surgery placement at the hospital, I’ve gotten more comfortable taking comprehensive histories from patients and practising my examination skills. I changed my wallpaper today to signify a change in myself. My driving theory exam is in 17 days and I’m so nervous but trying to study for it and pass on the first go! Very exciting. Also, all the checks are done and I have booked my first shift for my HCA job, I really think it’ll facilitate my learning as well as money! 💗

I’m trying to become the best version of me.

january 12, 2021

First of all, happy new year to everyone! I’m sorry I haven’t posted for the past few weeks, I’ve just been tired and overwhelmed lately T-T. Like, I’ve turned in all my college apps but the wait is literally destroying my mental health more and more every day. Ugh, I can’t wait until it’s over.

I’ve been working on my mental health lately tho, and I think I’m (slowly!) getting a bit better! Yesterday was a bad night (I stayed up until like 3 am listening to sad songs and writing fanfics ;-;) and for like two hours this morning I couldn’t even get out of bed, but I encouraged myself to get up and I lowkey just romanticized everything I did, from brushing my teeth to washing my face and it just felt super peaceful. I’m definitely gonna start doing it more often.

I also moved back into school on Sunday! We started out virtual last week bc of COVID and moved back in this week. We have J-Term, so I’m taking a course called Encounters with Trees rn where we basically learn how to identify trees and walk around nature parks and all for a few hours each day. Even though it’s extremely cold and my legs are really achy by the end of it, I’ve really enjoyed them because they give me time to just let my mind wander and think.

I’m also slowly chipping away at my New Year’s Resolutions! My main ones are to lose weight (which I’m currently doing!), work on my mental health and reduce my screen time. I’ve realized that the main reason why I spend so much time on my phone daily is because I read on it, and I’m thinking of asking my mom for a kindle instead of an IPad so I can reduce my phone usage :))

Oof, that was pretty long! I hope you all are doing well, and I’ll see you next week! Byeee ☁️

june 7 2021

just because I'm done with undergrad doesn't mean I'm done learning! this summer I'm going to be studying, practicing, and coding a lot for different reasons: my job, tying up loose ends of my thesis, and for plain old fun (okay, as much fun as I can have when I feel like throwing my computer out the window). I guess that means this is a CS studyblr now too? honestly I'm a little shook to find myself on this path. no one ever encouraged me to do CS in high school and I always just assumed I had a humanities brain! stay tuned for more emotional breakdowns as ya girl tries to stumble her way through some complex tasks with a basic knowledge set...

Sat, Mar 27, 2021

Spent a long time journaling outside today, which was really satisfying.

Now I’m in the library working on my thesis, but these other girls in the study room keep talking and taking off their masks to eat gummy bears which they’re chewing so loudly I can hear from 10 ft away 😡

APR 26 / 21

okay but april felt like it was 4 hours long, how is it the last week already? i need to get started on my may spreads!

04-09-21

Hi guys. Today I study for the test I have tomorrow. Hope ya doing well <3 keep going!

Two weeks study challenge

Day 4: How can you improve on taking care of your mental health?

By trying to reduce my mobile phone use time.

14.03.2023

Quietly not giving up on this hobby

12.01.2023 100 days of productivity: 43/100

And the fireworks are through Here we are, me and you Feeling lost and feeling blue

15.11.2022 100 days of productivity: 5/100

Grey day today. I thought of summer, and of this little grey gentleman that was so fluffy and cute. I feel a completely different person from the one I was 3 months ago, when my future was unpromised and I'd yet to land a job.

~ Reminiscing about the leisure and satisfying meals of free weekends.

Reposting old gifs

20.12.2022 100 days of productivity: 40/100

Today there is free food at work again! A seasonal Dutch snack 'olliebolen'.

05.12.2022 100 days of productivity: 25/100

I did not expect myself to have already gone through a quarter of the productivity challenge! It feels like a tradition at this point where I always undergo these challenges during the autumn-winter phase. I like how this gets me in touch with creative planning.