Have you ever seen a black rose? online only

Is your coffee machine plugged in right now? we don’t own one as we don’t drink coffee Do you write words on your knuckles? I tried few times for fun XD Have you ever been a SCUBA diver for Halloween? wtf Have you ever taken a picture of a sandwich? sure Have you ever seen elephant droppings? I haven’t  Would you like to visit Play Dough Land? :o What’s your opinion on Katy Perry? copycat Who was your favorite character from the cartoon Recess? Spinelli, then Gretchen

Have you ever lost your parents in the grocery store? yeah, I still do and I hate that  Have you drawn a star today? not today but when I was in hospital this week Are you older or younger than fifteen? much older If you can remember, what was the last thing that made you feel nostalgic? Recess being mentioned Are you the type of person who prefers to stay in or go out? stay in Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? yep Are you starting to realize anything? sigh... Would you live with someone without marrying them? why not Who was the last person you talked to in person? *mom enters my room*

Who were the last 3 males you talked to? dad and two doctors

If you have a pet, when did you last pet him/her? omg I realized I was so tired that I didn’t even say hello to my dog wtf... What genre is the song that you’re currently listening to? indiepop/electropop Does the person you love/like have a car? What colour is it? nope Have you ever received a compliment on anything you’re wearing? plenty of times Which word(s) do you generally use to describe someone attractive? (e.g. “fit”, “sexy” etc.) wow beautiful, pretty, attractive, cute, adorable, piękna, that she looks amazing/awesome/great, śliczna, urocza, słodka, cudowna...

*it reminds me of one very embarassing high school story: były wigilie klasowe i wyszliśmy rozbawieni z sali, a na korytarzu stała śliczna dziewczyna i na cały głos powiedziałam “ale laska” potem zorientowałam się co właśnie zrobiłam i robiąc facepalma wymaszerowałam ze szkoły, a za mną śmiejące się przyjaciółki, nie dały mi potem o tym długo zapomnieć, a E.W. nawet obczaiła kto to i próbowała się dowiedzieć, czy jest ona lesbą, ale okazało się, że ma chłopaka i demonstracyjnie całowała się z nim na moich oczach parę dni później Have you had any caffeinated beverages today? just water Have you eaten any chocolate today? What kind? I haven’t Name something you like, that starts with the letter ‘L’. lamps I’m not a moth tho :P When was the last time someone wanted you to do something, and you refused? not sure when was the last time and/or what it was about How many people have you hugged today? 2 Do you have a favourite hair colour or eye colour on your preferred sex? been really into very dark brown eyes and arm lenght or a bit shorter brown hair mostly like Rosa Salazar (latino and asian women) that’s why Sarah been so my type

but my biggest tumblr crush was Raquey Strange

and my youtube one - Rachel Maksy

*vintage ladies <3 The last song you listened to – does it remind you of anyone? it doesn’t remind me of anyone, it’s from K-12 album

What was the last compliment you received? mom complimented my hair today

Are you more prone to being the social butterfly, or the wallflower? wallflower

Would you rather go to a Katy Perry or Taylor Swift concert? none but Swift if I had to choose

What pattern do the sheets on your bed have? no pattern this time

What languages can you count to ten or higher in? englihs, polish, russian Where did you get the underwear you’re wearing? Auchan

Are you good in painting yopur nails with your left hand? not even with my right one lol Do you feel uncomfortable sharing drinks with other people? very Do you call any of your friends by their last name? that would be weird How long does it take you to get out of bed in the morning? long? Have either of your grandparents ever told you a sexual joke? I don’t recall Would you rather give up the computer or the TV? gave up TV Which room in your house tends to be the coldest in the winter time? bathroom Are you trying to grow out your hair? need to cut my hair but not bangs

How many times does the letter ’t’ occur in your full name? once

What brand is the shirt you’re wearing? I cut the tag but I believe I bought it in Sinsay First person you spoke to today? my mother Name of first boyfriend/girlfriend? dunno who to count First place you lived? same as currently Who was your 1st teacher? not counting pre school and Mrs. Alinka - my aunt  Last person to call you? labor office Last song you heard? Melanie Martinez - Bombs on Monday Morning Last thing you bought? silver glittery ugg slippers :3 Where was your facebook display photo taken? hospital How many people have you kissed in the last 2 weeks? nobody What were you doing at 10 this morning? waking up Have you ever dated an Emily? umm... How many pairs of flip flops do you own? 0 What is the weather like right now? perfect - hot, zephyr, clouds :D why am I not outside?... Where was the last place you went that was more than 30 minutes away? mall Something you wear all the time that you’d feel naked without? panties, unless I’m sleeping

Do you live within an hour of the ocean? not even sea Do you ever do things even though you know you’ll regret it later? sometimes I might :( What are you currently sitting/laying on? my desk chair Have you ever dated a friend of one of your siblings? no but I had a crush on one of them for a moment What do you plan to be doing 2 hours from now? eating? Have you ever been a clown for Halloween? not Halloween What time did you go to bed last night? early and immediately fallen asleep which never happens to me but I was so exhausted that I was falling on my face while I was blow drying my hair When was the last time it rained? yesterday or day before Have you ever made yourself throw up?  no way in hell When was the last time you went camping? middle school? Are you currently wearing anything orange? am not Do you know anyone who is a nurse? neighbor Would you prefer to own a lapdog or a bigger dog? lapdog Are you currently wearing any jewelry? nope Was any of it given to you? - What was the worst thing to happen to you today? health issues, annoying people, nothing new? Do you know anyone who plays guitar? I tried myself Did anyone tell you that you looked nice today? mentioned that in this survey so look above How many missed calls have you had today? two Did you graduate high school within the last 3 years? it’s been over 5 years  If not, will you graduate within the next 3 years? not applicable as you can see Which is coming next: Christmas or your birthday? Christmas Do you have any money on yourself at the moment? mhm Do you sleep in the nude? nope Do you ever walk around the house naked if no one is home? neither What is your favorite way to spend a cool autumn night? sleeping duh! Where was the last place you slept other than your house? hospital Do you have any big plans for the weekend? work in progress, we’ll see, deciding  How many relationships have you been in so far this year? like 1 Have you ever dated someone who had a child? pfft, I dislike kids so... Are you taller than 5'6"? I’m smol 

When was the last time you saw someone you went to high school with?: this year

How long have your parents been together (or how long were they together, if they no longer are): 30+ years

How long would it take you to walk to the nearest store?: ~10 minutes

How old were you when you got your first smartphone?: 25 or something

Have you ever had a parrot sit on your shoulder?: monkey for a second

Has anyone in your life ever treated you abusively?: majority of society

Do you like The Rolling Stones?: prefer Depeche Mode

What’s something you’ve been struggling with lately?: life

How old were you in 1996? 4

How old will you be in 2026? won’t live that long but 34 What song is playing? Mosimann & MARUV - Mon Amour

Are you better at math or art? art Science or History? science, I’m bad at remembering dates and names

Where did you go to pre-school, if you went at all? my town

Have you ever dated someone & then dated their sibling? I wouldn’t be able to do such a thing What do you think of the 1980’s? cool :) Is their anything living (plant, animal, etc) in your room right now? me and plants How old is the cellphone you have right now? couple years old What are your initials, using the last letter of each of your names? AA as I’m a woman - dodaj jedno A i będziemy anonimowymi alkoholikami

Are both your parents still living? they are  Can you do a handstand? used to Is it after 11am? it’s almost 5 pm What’s the longest time you’ve ever spent on the phone? talking or doing other stuff? How many pairs of brown shoes do you own? do I even own any?... Are you on any prescribed medications? plan to be sadly Would you ever or do you have a nose piercing? doubt it, thought about septum as a teenager but no longer want it

How many days until Christmas? months Is your mom over 50? she is  How old were you 7 years ago? 21 Do you know what ‘C'est la vie’ means? even tho I don’t know this language  Are you wearing anything red? leggings Do you live in an apartment? house Do you wish on dandelions? I blow them but don’t wish on them Are you drinking anything right now? I’m going to  About how tall is your father? taller than me Do you know anyone who has lived to be 100+? not personally Have you had your birthday yet this year? in February Do you read your horoscope on a regular basis? nah Do you like the color yellow? it’s one of my fav colors Are you an aunt or uncle? yes What is your hair like at the moment? fine What would you name be if your last name was the color of your shirt? Black If you could find out how you would die, would you want to know? yasss but what about date? Has anyone ever told you you should be a model? with my height? r u serious? Who is the artist/band you’re listening to at the moment? Boy Epic Is there a calendar in the room you’re in? pocket and poster type If you’re single, do you wish you were in a relationship? am in a relationship Were you born in the 1980’s? 90s What was your first favorite movie? animated Robin Hood with a fox and Jumanji also Goonies What was your first trip to the emergency room for? not counting being born too early - I was choking due to the fact I got wrong meds for my lungs, later I ended up in ER as an adult for stomachache (took me in an ambulance) Where was the first place you went today? store What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up? dream that I had Do you remember the first time you spent the night away from home? grandma’s apartment but not exact night as I was just a child What was the last movie you rented? I srsly can not remember Why did you last get angry? neighbor is mowing grass... every single day for whole day long How long ago was your last birthday? half year ago Do you enjoy helping people move or do you not like it? I’ve never helped anyone move 

Have you been taking more or less surveys as of recently? less as I was absent

We get down every Friday night Dancin' and grindin' in the pale moonlight Grand Ole Opry, feelin' alright Mary prays the rosary for my broken mindI sing the body electric I sing the body electric, baby I sing the body electric I sing the body electric Sing the body electric Sing the body electric I'm on fire I sing the body electric

Body Electric - Lana Del Rey

Bedroom Hymns  - A Reylo Fic by drnucleus

Author: drnucleus Rating: E Genre: Modern AU, Romance, Mild Angst, Semi-slow burn Pairing: Ben Solo | Rey, Minor character pairings Warnings: Healthy BDSM, D/s relationship, Male submissive, FemDomme Summary: For much of his life, hotshot architect, Ben Solo, lived a life full of privilege and entitlement. Son of a Senator and Admiral, the world was his oyster. He slid easily into the alpha male persona that was expected of him. Yet, running his own architecture firm by his late twenties he’d never expected to be saddled with the control behind every single decision. And underneath that façade lay a man, yearning to lay it all down at the foot of a powerful woman. What happens when he uncovers that side of himself and that leads him right to Rey Erso; a psychologist and domme who decides to help him navigate the world of dominance and submission in the local scene. That is until they find they’re more compatible with one another than either of them previously thought.

Story Aesthetic | Story Playlist Master Post | Story Spotify Playlist | Story Misc. Post (Paperwork) | Story Research Master Post | Hymnals & Other Selfish Prayers

I. Prelude | II. Awakening | III. Painted Faces on Parade | IV. Paperwork | V. Defying Expectations | VI. Connection | VII. Burning Desire | VIII. Fight or Flight | IX. Elastic Heart | X. Ache | XI. Pursuit | XII. Off to the Races | XIII. What Kind of Man | XIV. Collar Stays On | XV. Courtship | XVI. Walk the Line | XVII. Lights On | XVIII. In Time | XIX. Body Electric

Chapter playlist: Amber – Vitamin String Quartet (Originally 311); The Sinner in Me – Depeche Mode; Push – Madonna; Everybody’s Got a Family – Massive Attack; Body Electric – Lana Del Rey; Personal Jesus – Depeche Mode; #1 Crush – Garbage; Strict Machine – Goldfrapp

Chapter Sneak Peek

“And hold that for five breaths. Slowly inhale through your diaphragm, and hold for three… two… one… and exhale.” Mirax instructed out to the class in front of her as she moved around the room, correcting postures and praising those with perfect technique.

Towards the back Ben pushed his hips to the ceiling in pūrvottānāsana an upward plank pose in the primary series Asanas. The muscles of his arms and shoulders burned worse than any set of pushups or weights had ever pushed him before. To his right Poe huffed as his arms shook.

Mirax came over to Poe, directing his attention to his core. “Poe, try shifting your weight to your center, here,” she stated, with a hand flat to his naval just hovering above it. She did that often. Correcting her student’s postures but never touching them.

Ben supposed it was her way of allowing the student to self-correct, and grow. If there was one thing he’d learned in beginning yoga classes as per Rey’s instructions, it was a process. You started at one place and through each subsequent session you grew – you learned.

Poe huffed again and tried to shift his weight but his arms only grew shakier as Mirax walked away and he collapsed to the floor.

“Good technique, Ben, keep breathing,” she added with a gentle grin cast in his direction.

Annoyed, Poe leaned over towards Ben. “What does that even mean? Direct my weight to my center? What bullshit did you convince me to do?” Poe snarked with a loud whisper.

Ben rolled his eyes and sat down, bringing one knee in and bending at his waist, one hand around his back and the other reaching for his foot in Ardha Baddha Padma Paścimottānāsana, a seated half-bound lotus pose. Grasping it wasn’t the problem here. His flexibility had improved in the last three weeks he’d been attending Mirax’s classes. However, he still needed a strap for most flexibility things, and a block at times but he was getting better at it. Could feel his hips and thighs loosen a little more each class letting him stretch further for longer each time.

That had been Rey’s intention all along. Get him centered, limber. When she’d tried teaching him once he was back from New Zealand they’d gotten half way through Sūrya Namaskāra or the sun salutation series before they’d given up and ended up roughly fucking, half-clothed on her living room floor. He’d been the aggressor. Distracted by the way her body bent so easily and then her hands on his as he tried to mirror her example. Then, in the afterglow she’d declared that he needed to go to a real studio to learn Ashtanga yoga from a professional. It so happened that Mirax Horn had a studio that specialized in Ashtanga yoga. Meant for increasing endurance, strength, stamina and flexibility.

The first two classes had kicked his ass. Barely able to make it through the fundamental asanas after eight sun salutation series before he was gasping and his muscles giving up. Mirax had been kind, and aided him in getting set with a wheel, block and strap to help him through much of the rest of the ninety-minute class. She’d helped him afterwards, giving him direction on what to do as a morning and evening routine to increase his flexibility between classes. Simple stretches to loosen up his muscles that relaxed him before bed every night, and got him focused and ready for the day every morning. Rey had been encouraging, joining him in those stretches when they spent the night together, which often led to more aerobic activities on the closest surface.

Mirax gave the boys a disapproving glance at Poe’s continued belligerence. Ben sighed and gave her a reassuring smile before leaning back over to his best friend and silencing him. “Will you shut the fuck up? This is supposed to be quiet.”

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Questions:

1) What is your dream job; something you love doing and would be happy to get paid for?

I actually like the idea of freelancing - of being good enough at it that I can pay all of my bills, have a small savings, and be able to see a movie or something every month and get gifts for my family and friends. I sort of do this already - I do copywriting and editing and photography and graphic design and I have a new position with the local newspaper doing some writing, but I don’t make any more than $50-100 a month so that’s barely dog food. I’d like to be able to do this and be successful at it (I can live off it.) Its diverse and its never the same project twice and its what I studied so. 

2) What is your favorite summer hangout and why?

I don’t know, actually. It used to be going to Cannon Beach - not necessarily the beach itself, but the town, and sitting at the coffee shop or walking the shops and going to the restaurants. Up here in Washington, I don’t know! I’ve only spent the one summer here, and I didn’t go very many places. 

3) If you could move anywhere, where would it move and who would you move with?

Honestly, I’m right where I want to be. The only thing I’m missing is the salt air from the ocean. I’m just a little too far for that. I might have preferred living in the San Juan Islands a little bit, just for aesthetics, but its full of rich people and is very expensive and everything is only accessible by ferry which makes things difficult. I’m close enough now I can do day visits though. Where I am now, the community is more amazing than I ever hoped for, its so pretty, and there’s a lot of interesting things to do. I have actual neighbors but 9 acres of land, I can hear a waterfall on my neighbor’s property, my other neighbor has cows I can listen to at night and so does the guy down the street, I’m in the middle of not quite the woods but a wooded/farm area, and there’s a town just ten minutes down the road and a city about 45 minutes away. Its got everything I need! 

4) If you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life, which would you choose?

Why would you do this to me? I thought we were friends?! I, just, uh.... I’m going to pick an album not even out now - when Depeche Mode calls it quits I want their very last compilation/Best Of album so that I can have a variety of stuff from their career. THIS TOTALLY COUNTS. I AM NOT CHEATING.

5) When was the last time you had a good nights sleep?

I don’t know really. I’m actually really heavy right now and its disturbing my sleep a lot - I can’t get comfortable and I end up sleeping on my arms and making them numb and my neck is out of alignment and I wake up in pain more days than not. 

6) When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep?

I’d say about this time last year. I was in an awful place.

7) What is the earliest memory you have?

Other that this nightmare I used to have? (literally I had it when I was very little and I STILL remember it pretty vividly. The only details that are a bit blurry are the layout of the apartment it took place in.) Probably the day my brother was born - I was around 3 or so? I remember waking up at some point to a “stranger” in my house (I guess she was my neighbor) telling me that my grandmother was on the way to watch me, but until she got there she was going to keep an eye on me. I don’t think I had any idea what was going on.

8) What is your favorite movie series?

It really is the MCU. Just in terms of the movie industry, what they’ve done is unprecedented and astounding in how complex it is and how much quality it still has. Its very not perfect, but its really solid and really fun. 

9) What is your favorite movie from all the genres (horror, suspense, comedy, romantic comedy, drama, documentary, family, etc)?

One movie or a movie per category? 

Per category: Horror is House of 1000 Corpses, Suspense is The Shining (I’m cheating a bit here...), Comedy is The Wedding Singer (I’m not a Sandler fan but this is sentimental), Romantic Comedy is.... 13 Going On 30? I don’t know. Drama.................Hmmmmmmmmmm The Shipping News? Documentary is Best Worst Movie. Family - like kids films? The Nightmare Before Christmas? 

One Movie: Donnie Darko. Every time I watch it something new occurs to me. 

10) When is the last time you went to the park?

I don’t really go to the park - I live in the park. 

11) The stars or the moon?

Hmmm.. Stars by just a tad.

Questions I’m going to ask: 

1) What are you reading right now?

2) If you were an animal, what would it be? (Not your favorite, necessarily - just what’s the closest to your personality.) 

3) What’s your favorite thing to do with friends? 

4) Name five things that happened to you this year that were good!

5) Name five things you want to happen to you next year!

6) Snow - yay or nay?

7) Recommend something to the masses - book, movie, tv show, podcast, game, food, hobby, whatever. 

8) How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?

9) What do you watch on YouTube? 

10) Do you have a spotify/last.fm/8tracks/etc playlist account? 

11) Do you have a goodreads account?

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Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people THE LAST: 1. Drink: tea 2. Phone call: i can’t remember the last time i talked on the phone 3. Text message: maja i guess 4. Song you listened to: motown junk by manic street preachers 5. Time you cried: two weeks ago?  HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: i’ve never dated anybody 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: damn boy, i wish i kissed anybody at all 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed: i’ve had some existential crisis since i was 12 but i don’t think i can call it depression 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS: 12. blue 13. black 14. purple IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: no 16. Fallen out of love: i’ve never been in love 17. Laughed until you cried: never tbh 18. Found out someone was talking about you: no 19. Met someone who changed you: nah 20. Found out who your friends are: dunno? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: alan wilder kissed my hand in my dream today. we’re not friends on fb but does that count? GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: majority 23. Do you have any pets: yeah, i have a cat 24. Do you want to change your name: no, i like my name 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i spent the day at home eating cake with my family bc my friends from school said that they don’t want to visit me during christmas break lmaoooo 26. What time did you wake up: 7 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: finding out if i got accepted into university, moving out to another city, and depeche mode concert next year! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: few minutes ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: jesus, everything. myself mostly 31. What are you listening right now: walk me to the bridge by manic street preachers (manics again asdsdf) 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: idk?? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my brother taking baths after midnight when i’m trying to sleep 34. Most visited Website: tumblr, youtube, facebook LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: many, most notably one on my cheek 36. Mark/s: i have a pretty big birthmark on my left thigh 37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be an archaeologist 38. Haircolour: ginger 39. Long or short hair: medium length 40. Do you have a crush on someone: nah 41. What do you like about yourself: uhh not many things 42. Piercings: only my ears 43. Bloodtype: i’ve never had my blood tested so i don’t know 44. Nickname: nah 45. Relationship status: single and looking for goth bf 46. Zodiac: capricorn 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favourite TV Show: twin peaks 49. Tattoos: none 50. Right or left hand: left 51. Surgery: none 52. Hair dyed in different color: well, yeah brown is my natural hair colour and i’ve been dying it ginger for a year now 53. Sport: i hate it 55. Vacation: i hope to meet maja before the end of this summer and that’s my only plan 56. Pair of trainers: i have no idea what type of shoes i own MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nothing rn 58. Drinking: nothing?? 59. I’m about to: read some theories about the latest twin peaks episode  61. Waiting for: love?? life?? purpose? 62. Want: happiness 63. Get married: i’d like to get married but i’ll doubt i’ll ever find anybody 64. Career: i don’t wanna think about the future WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: jeez i don’t even know what a kiss feels like 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older but like one or two years older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: neither? HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: repeat after me: i’m 18 and i’ve never kissed anybody asdsd 75. Drank hard liquor: what the hell is ‘hard liquor’? i’ve drank beer, vodka and wine 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nope. i own only one pair of glasses that i wear all the time 77. Turned someone down: no? 78. Sex in the first date: no 79. Broken someone’s heart: no 80. Had your heart broken: my heart is broken 24/7 bc of many things  81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: no DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: no 85. Miracles: idk 86. Love at first sight: it sound really lame 87. Santa Claus: nah 88. Kiss on the first date: god dunno 89. Angels: maybe OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: maja, duh 91. Eyecolour: green 92. Favourite movie: apocalypse now, napoleon dynamite, trainspotting etc