a lidded container commission, just finished yesterday

1920s 1930s ish neanderthals quick portraits!

I love Aziraphale because he's expected to be hard, to be a warrior, but he chooses to be soft. He's not gentle, kind, and good because he's an angel. We've seen what the other angels are like and many of them are anything but. And there's no doubt that he could be that warrior if he wanted. He was issued a flaming sword, after all. But he gave it away and seemed none to eager to use it when he finally picked it up again. No, he is who he is because he chooses to be that way again and again.

I adore that. In a world that's often so hard and in a system that expects him to be just as hard, he chooses to be soft. To be silly. He learns to dance even though angels don't dance. He learns magic and French the human way. Successful or not, he likes playing parts, living it up as a double agent and newspaperman. He wears glasses because he thinks they're nifty. He enjoys eating food and going to the barber not because he has to but because he likes being pampered. To be fussy and indulgent. Despite strength and miraculous powers, he makes himself vulnerable so that he can be coddled and rescued.

And it's not like it's easy for him. He has to struggle against what's expected of him and against judgment from the other angels. He was worried about doing the wrong thing before the beginning, before there was even really a concept of the wrong thing. He's so terribly anxious but he doesn't let it stop him from trying to do real good. He did his part to save Job's family, even when he was certain he would fall for it.

Most difficult of all, he loves. Is in love. A thing humans do, he says to the Archangels in S2. So that's not just some easy, natural, angelic thing for him. It's very human and very scary because it's not really something he's meant to do and especially not with a demon. But he pushes slowly forward as best he can. He risks small touches and can't help but wear his heart on his sleeve with that all too expressive face. He's the angelic embodiment of heart eyes. Because he wants to love and be loved.

This isn't all he is, of course. He can be bitchy and petty and hard when pushed. He can be the warrior he was built to be. Those aren't bad things. Just enough of a bastard and all that. But just enough also means they also don't define him.

Which is where my frustration comes in. I understand the desire to flip the script sometimes. I like to do it myself from time to time and definitely think Aziraphale should be allowed to take charge. But it feels like, more often than not, large parts of fandom have taken those moments and made them all of who he is. Of the two of them, he's often made to be much more impassive and distant than Crowley. It's Crowley who is more emotional, who is more overcome physically. Despite the fact that it's almost entirely Aziraphale in canon who reaches and touches. Despite Michael Microexpressions Sheen putting so much open heart into Aziaphale's face. He isn't allowed to be soft and needy, comforted, coddled, and rescued. To be the one who yearns and lets himself be weak with it.

Just... let him be soft and silly. Let him be the person he most often chooses to be.

WREAK HAVOC UPON HEAVEN AND HELL

there is a fic for this now

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Alright, I'm sure people have talked about this Astarion line from here to the nine hells, but I'm going to do it anyway:

"I am so much more than what you made me."

Cw: Astarion's abuse and trauma

Like many who love and appreciate Astarion, my feelings come from a place of understanding, of relating to him, and, maybe somewhere deep down, of wanting for him the catharsis I may never get.

This line is that moment of catharsis for me (disclaimer: moments of catharsis vary from person to person, you may need to look inside to find yours).

Because at this moment, Astarion means what he says.

For 200 years, his entire life, his entire identity, revolved around Cazador-- either around getting him victims, fearing his repercussions, him controlling every element of his life (food, housing, safety). Not only was he made into a spawn, a pawn, a sacrifice, but he was forced to lose all sense of who he was or could have been. Molded to fit Cazador's exact purpose through decades of torment.

But when he says this, when he spits these words right before Cazador's kneeling, pleading body, he's able to shove everything Cazador has done to him right back into the man's face.

Cazador thinks he's still capable of exerting this control over Astarion, that he's broken the man beyond repair, so much so that in this moment he still has the audacity to beg with him. But, with this line, Astarion is taking that power back, he's reclaiming himself forcefully and without question.

No "I could be" or "I am capable of" -- simply "I am." Again, he means it.

Throughout the course of the game, Astarion rediscovers that he's more than his body, he's more than his usefulness. He's allowed to be his own person, find out who he is. And he knows, more than anything, that he's more.

This line is such a beautiful reminder that, no matter where you came from, no matter who tried to mold you or twist you or break you, you are more. No qualifying statements, no hesitations, no doubts.

Anyway, it's my favorite line, thank you for reading my brain thoughts 🫰🏽

figure studies 7 April 2024 — babygirl porsche by day, daddy's lil monster by night

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yes I wrote all the text myself i'm an artist and a masochist. by the time I realized this was not a quick sketch, he still had no hands, and i had a headache. done is done is done.

u kno i just started a new play through and when u first meet gale he does the slow blink that cats do when they trust u and he spent a whole year with only a cat as company …. hoping these r connected…. he’s so babygirl

you are so right, anon!

also let's face it, tara at some point probably gave him unsolicited dating advice. like, this is who we're talking about here:

we know she snoops too:

Tara the Tressym: However, I will not press you further. Your private correspondence is just that, technically. What kind of companion would I be were I to sneak a peek? NodeContext: A little telling, like she plans to read it [the letter] later

and:

Tara the Tressym: I won't pry for specifics, Mr Dekarios. Not when I can sneak a peek at your letter while you sleep.

Thinking today of how much of an idiot (affectionate) stede really is.

He really heard Ed describing how the past few weeks (with Stede) have been the most fun hes EVER had, and Stede makes this sad ass gay little smile

(GIF Via @seraph-novak)

That is NOT the smile of a man thinking "oh im so glad i made him happy" thats the smile of a man thinking "wow im so glad i got to be with him during the best weeks of his life"

At MOST its pride that he created little ~☆events☆~ for Ed to enjoy.

And you KNOW he doesnt believe hes the reason Ed is happy because when Ed OUTRIGHT SAYS IT he has the gay audacity to be SHOCKED.

(GIF Via @tehtariks)

AND THEN, BECAUSE THAT ISNT ENOUGH, STEDE BONNET LOOKED THIS MAN IN THE FACE, MAKING THE BIGGEST GOOGLY EYES IN HISTORY AND HOLDING HIM LIKES HES A FUCKING DELICATE FLOWER

(GIF Via @seraph-novak)

AND THOUGHT TO HIMSELF, YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS MAN WOULDNT MISS ME IF I RAN OFF. IM NOT THAT IMPORTANT TO HIM. IF I GO BACK TO MY WIFE AND KIDS SURELY HE'LL JUST MOVE ALONG AND NEVER THINK OF ME AGAIN.

Stede Bonnet, youve done it, youve officially surpassed me as the most useless, insecure, and oblivious gay ever to live. Congratulations.

At some point I’d like to make a longer post about this, but it’s really cool to see the ways Mako’s and Bolin’s bending mirrors each others. Both of them are mostly self-taught and have a lot of non-traditional moves and styles. And it makes sense that they would learn or practice things together or that one would imitate the other. Anyways I saw these two gifs side by side and it made me want to make a longer post about this at some point in the future. For now though, look at how similar their bending is even though they have two completely different elements!

"I am Yoo Joonghyuk."

Watch me again!

Neanderthal backflip

Hazbin Hotel pixel doodles

I wanted to try pixel art so I made them in school instead of doing work lmao

I plan to make more so comment more characters if you want, but I might not get a chance to make more tomorrow tho cause it's my birthday :D but I'll make more soon (:

AlanScrath nation, your meal is ready, enjoy:3

"The Devil". New plot element unlocked🌚🌚🌚 Scratch cathes Alan at the end of Initiation 5: Room 665. Or maybe…that was Alan's plan all along😈

Actually it all started with THIS. Like, any reason they had to pin Ilkka down like this? Other than indulge themselves in his absolute helplessness? No? Thought so

After these photos I knew I had to draw Alan pinned down like that🌚

In case you thought I wasn't still obsessed with them or something,

Kirbtober Day 20: Castle

genuinely forget sometimes that people still ship jily. i guess i just figured that everyone in this fandom is hot and sexy and cool, but i guess not 😔