Courtesy of my sister in law. She's currently living with me so she hears me talking about this story constantly. I sat down and explained the full plot to her for 2 hours the other night. She is such a trooper for listening to my unhinged ramblings for that long (and for agreeing to be a beta reader regardless of this)!

Ooc: please just appreciate me. I feel so good in my Janine cosplay.

I often felt trapped. Growing up I was trapped in people's expectations. What my parents considered proper and likable. So much of my childhood was just me realising shit about myself and kicking it under the fridge for my older self to rediscover.

Sometimes it feels like I just moved in that body. Like I was born yesterday. It hurts to think that my best years were stolen away because I was diffrent and no one understood how. I missed my childhood. I didn't play like the other kids did, I didn't run around and got in troubles like they did. Maybe because the expectations I had for myself and the standards I held myself to were too much for such a small child.

I was lost and no one took the time to tell me to live now because I wouldn't have time later.

Sometimes I feel like I have been around for centuries or even millenia yet I feel like a small kid stuck in a play pretend. A 12 year old pretending to be eighteen. A pre teen in University.

The world is moving too fast. My life goes by at incredible speed, yet to the Earth it is all so slow but ever changing, shifting, evolving.

I yearn to be a kid again, I want friends with whom I can play fight like baby wolves or cats, friends that will run with me and play hide and seek in the woods.

I yearn for a chance to be childish without judgement, shame or remorse. There is a kid in me that awaits for the day when I will finally let down my walls and let them play.

But no one is ready for that conversation yet so I say it here. Sorry for the vent.

happy birthday!

Really goin' through it right now.

I reject your "Dick is the only responsible sibling" agenda, and bring you it's superior.

I wanted to draw emo Charlie so bad and Vaggie with short hair

Need a childhood friends AU or something

Just wanted to say sorry for not posting art very often! One of the drawing/concepts I'm working on has been taking quite a while, since I want to make sure the characters is to my liking. As of now here are the things to expect for the next few weeks (art wise)

A mushroom themed character (working on her as I type this actually)

Some toh fanart (yes I finished the show and I'm in love)

Shit post art

My eclipse (from fnaf design)

I'll probably show little sneak peeks along the way of eclipses design process, since I'm really trying to make it perfect

Anyways that's all! Have a wonderful day/night :)

the gang's all here!! kerchow!

PAEDENNNNN A little birthday sketch for my dear friend @hippo141 who was the one to introduce me to dndads in the first place 💛

LoveyBug went on a date on Valentine's Day! I wonder if her partner liked her outfit?

(he did. he liked it a lot.)

Woe, grollow wip be upon ye

Ooc. Idk. I don't want to abandon this account. But idk how to keep it afloat.... I feel so defeated by this idk why

Do you think that Laura and Marisha are deliberately making their relationship somewhat toxic and unsustainable or do you think they see the relationship as healthy? It is just so different from all of the other relationships they have been a part of and not really in a good way. Would love to get your perspective on it if you have one

I am honestly unsure. I would like to say it's deliberate. Prior to it becoming canon, in fact, I, and a lot of other people who were less than enthused by Imogen and Laudna's romance and weren't entirely sold from the start, made the case that we expected they would be talking to each other and would put together a compelling story, not the dull fluff so common in fanon. While whether it's compelling is a subjective judgment, we know for a fact they didn't talk to each other. We know for a fact Marisha was surprised by the question of "Can I kiss you," and Laura was surprised by the answer. We know from a 4SD not long after (4SD #16, Kiss and Tell) that several episodes later they still hadn't talked. We know that Marisha perceives Laudna as holding Imogen back (and that Laudna perceives herself as doing so) from the Rose City Q&A. We know that from 4SD #20 (Episode Twenty) that Laura doesn't like conflict in narrative and Marisha does, and that Laura was thrown by Laudna's regression following Ashton's attempt to absorb the shard (4SD #19, Shard Candy).

I don't know if it's deliberate or not; I don't have any extra insight that isn't public knowledge any fan can easily access. But man, it doesn't feel like these are two actors on the same page about what's going on.

I've touched on this before but mostly in tags or whisper posts but I've always felt ill at ease with a number of for lack of a better term "fandom-approved opinions" and one of the ones that has baffled me the most is this idea that Marisha and Laura have exceptional chemistry. I watched Campaign 1 knowing the endgame ships but deliberately avoiding the fandom, and Vex and Keyleth did not even once occur to me as a thing. I watched the first year of Campaign 2 without a ton of fandom interaction because I was avoiding additional C1 spoilers and it seemed crystal clear that the obvious ship was Beau and Yasha; it felt like Beau and Jester only even had enough potential for me to multiship it as my general "whomever Jester picks" for like, 30 episodes. And yet people - people who didn't even ship either of the above ships and in some cases disliked them- would just say "oh man I can't wait until we get to a campaign where we can finally explore Marisha and Laura's incredible chemistry!" and it's like. I feel like I'm the kid in the Emperor's New Clothes on this! I understand that chemistry is to an extent a matter of taste and subjectivity, but it just increasingly feels like people looked at two campaigns of tables where Ashley was frequently absent and said "well, if I want an F/F ship that's between two of the women in the cast, I guess this is what I have to work with" and repeated to themselves that a flat pamplemousse La Croix was a Piña Colada until they started to believe it. I mean if someone wants to explain it to me in good faith I suppose be my guest and I will try to take it in, but it feels like people just treat this as incontrovertible fact and if you doubt it they're like "don't you have eyes" and it's like, well, pretend I don't. Explain like I'm eyeless and five because I have never understood this. They both have more chemistry with every single other cast member; it's not all romantic but man, I didn't even buy Laudna and Imogen as platonic best friends of two years. I have never had this problem with any other pre-existing character relationships Marisha and Laura have played, platonic or otherwise. It's literally just them. I just never feel like they're quite on the same page.

Back to the relationship between Imogen and Laudna onscreen, this was easily the best conversation since the start of the gnarlrock fight, and it is my hope it doesn't fizzle out the way that did. You can't keep kissing Laudna whenever she fears she's lost forever to Delilah, Imogen. Or you can, but that won't fix the problem. Again: are you disgusted? Do you feel betrayed? If you're not, why did you say that? If you are, how will you move past it? Do you want to be with someone who never feels like they're good enough for you? Laudna, do you want to be with someone who, no matter what they say, you feel you're holding back?

Early in the campaign, my feeling was that of our current situation, switched - Imogen felt her powers were a burden and a curse and Laudna kept referring to them and to her glowingly. It's just...ships passing in the night, no pun intended here. I hope it's on purpose and whatever comes from it is a good story - and either a tragedy or a happy story could be a good one. But I have a nagging sensation that Laudna wants out but is afraid to say no, and Imogen is afraid to let go, and I honestly don't know if the actors have realized this impasse and how the characters might resolve it, one way or another, besides the insufficient bandaid of a kiss whenever the conversation gets too uncomfortable.

Dogboy stu here, dogboy stu there, how about some HYENAboy stu for a little bit of variety (this idea wouldn't leave my head until I finally doodled it real quick) ((this is my first time ever touching a furry art style and it is BLATANT))

Yeah, Billy's still a cat. Once a catboy always a catboy.

me trying to "lets compare hand sizes! 💜 look, yours are so much bigger than mine!! 😊" my way in to his pants