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piwstri4 · 5 months

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gossip | op81

pairing: bf!oscar piastri x college student!gf!reader

summary: oscar's fangirls love to hate, oscar just loves.

ynacc

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ynacc you think your life is hard? i've had to watch my bf's last 12 races on tv bc i had exams and expos

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user1 can u imagine being yn and complain abt your boyfriend doing his work?

user2 when tf did she complain abt oscar doing his job??

user3 atp yall just love to hate her fr

user4 poor girl has to go to college cuz she doesn't know when will her bf leave her

user5 bestie maybe focus on your own life?

user6 shouldn't she be studying or something?

user7 girl I WISH i had her problems

user8 i love that she follows his races even when she's busy<3

user9 fr i love her sm

user10 can u imagine having yn as ur gf? oscar living the dream fr

oscarpiastri miss u :((

ynacc miss u too:((

landonorris you two are disgusting

user11 lol lando saying what we all wanted to say

francisca.cgomes hits close to home

ynacc can we start like a wags support group?

carmenmmundt i agree

ynacc

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ynacc i 💥 miss 💥 you 💥 every 💥 day 💥 (last fucking race!!!)

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landonorris "thank you lando for sending me pics of my bf every hour so i stop complaining abt him not replying to my texts"

ynacc yea ty ig

landonorris not giving u a single pic anymore

oscarpiastri i miss you every second

ynacc no i miss u more

maxfewtrell thank god it's the last fucking race

ynacc lando's taking the first plane to you dont worry he told me

maxfewtrell i just want u to stop whining in the gc

user1 so lando and max actually confirmed she's fucking annoying 🧍🏽‍♀️

user2 cant believe oscar still wants her around

user3 im so sure her bf's w her out of pity

user4 yn's personal account or an oscar piastri fan account we'll never know

user5 i love how in love she is 😭😭

user6 since when does she socialize w max tho?

user7 childhood friends with lando, friends with max by default

user8 they cant get rid of her now

user9 shouldnt you be like...... doing college stuff......

user10 not even her friends stand her lmao

oscarpiastri

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oscarpiastri end of season. (i love you)

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landonorris where tf are the tulips i paid them myself??????

oscarpiastri shut up

ynacc omg first time u paid for something!!

user1 oscar's being held at gunpoint

user2 girl the grip wont make him stay lol

user3 they're lovely together!! 💕

ynacc love u more<3

oscarpiastri lies

user4 ofc u do cant you see his face lmao

logansargeant you both look fire!

oscarpiastri 🔥

user5 yn so annoying she forced him to go on a date as soon as oscar left the car

user6 where the fuck does all the hate come from??

user7 girl wtf yall dont know shit abt their relationship

user8 im so sorry for yn imagine having to deal with all the fangirls bitching her out

user9 they went hiking together 😭😭😭

user10 literal goals

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ynacc

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ynacc they hate us cause they ain't us

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oscarpiastri they hate you cause i love you

maxfewtrell not as romantic as u think it is!!!

ynacc they can keep on hating as long as u keep loving me

maxfewtrell thanks max for the picture

ynacc thnx max 4 the pic, would've loved it if u let us eat alone!!

landonorris now that's what i call being ungrateful

landonorris nice tulips and nice dinner (dont appreciate having to see my teammate every time im over)

ynacc then dont come over when im on dates w my bf 😜😜

oscarpiastri

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oscarpiastri Sip the gossip, drink till you choke.

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ynacc by maneskin babe!!!!

oscarpiastri you know i love you right?

ynacc of course sweetie ily2

user1 oscar shutting up yn haters we love to see it!!

landonorris you two are fucking cut for each other

oscarpiastri ty i know

landonorris because neither of you give photo credits you muppet

user2 man said keep talking we dont give a shit<3

user3 his fans are literally his paycheck he should watch his mouth

user4 you talk as if he wasn't a whole ass f1 driver, oscar's merch are just a side hustle

user5 this man has a job driving an expensive and elite car, his fans dont pay shit compared to his sponsors/team

user6 cant believe he's risking his career for a slag

landonorris lol get a fucking life kid

user7 lando saying what we all wanted to say

maxfewtrell about time mate, 📸 by lando

oscarpiastri yeah yeah whine about it

landonorris fucking finally thank you

ynacc now kiss!!

user8 why does she look so......

user9 ugly?

user10 ordinary?

ynacc

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ynacc Thank you so much to my best buddies and my love! Even if the three of you showed up on joggers and hoodies, i love you to the moon and back<3 (max and oscar helped w the project too)

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oscarpiastri you told me no suit and tie 😡😡

ynacc bc it wasn't a wedding (would've appreciated a nice shirt tho)

oscarpiastri noted 👍🏼

landonorris dont call oscar your buddy :((

ynacc didn't i tell you? you're the buddy now :((

oscarpiastri im her love, buddy 😘

maxfewtrell i thought i was your love?

ynacc u're someone else's love watch your mouth mr fewtrell

lilymhe Congrats! Your pres looked amazing🤩

ynacc Aww thanks sweetie ily<3

lilymhe <3

oscarpiastri

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oscarpiastri forever in love with you, my little artist.

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ynacc i cant find the words to tell you how much i love loving you

oscarpiastri ❤️

ynacc ❤️

user1 i'm 100% sure oscar likes to watch ppl fight for their lives on the comments

user2 no bc yn limits her comments section and oscar just drops shit like this and forces us to swallow their love

user3 im sure he let's people comment to block their haters

user4 no bc im sure that's the reason they get less hate now (on oscar's acc)

user5 no bc lando has three cups on his last post, they were helping yn with this 😭😭

user6 max too, yn said it in her post 😭

user7 Verstappen????

user6 fewtrell lmao

landonorris aww you bought the bouquet yourself this time!

ynacc piss off<3

landonorris ily2

zhouguanyu24 🔥

user8 he's so fucking supportive wtf

user9 love to see less hate comments after his last post

user10 someone said he keeps the comments open to block ppl lol i love his pettiness

oscarpiastri

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oscarpiastri my girlfriend shines, after all this time.

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user1 remember ladies if wanted to he would

ynacc i only asked for you to love me back

oscarpiastri i only asked for you to love me

user2 i love a hate-free comment section<3

user3 dad loves mom!!

caiocollet sir mister is ✨in love✨

user4 she's gorgeous how tf were there ppl hating on her???

user5 idk if i wanna be yn or oscar

user6 he. gets. her. flowers. all. the. fucking. time

ynacc yes he does 🥰🥰

ynacc alternatively: three times oscar gave me flowers out of nowhere

user7 yn is so fucking lucky

user8 oscar is so fucking lucky

user9 they are both fucking lucky

user10 real question can they fight?

user11 pr knocking on his door fr

ynacc

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ynacc kiss me hard before you go because missing you is never easy. (📸 by max and lando)

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oscarpiastri a kiss for every flower seems fair

ynacc i'll start giving you flowers because we're gonna be short on kisses.

oscarpiastri i can give you flowers all my life if they make you happy

landonorris all it took for you to learn how to give credits was for me to go back to monaco

ynacc how did u know i did it cuz i miss u?

landonorris please tell me i dont have to kiss you

ynacc thank god i actually like u being away

user1 people actually hated on THIS RELATIONSHIP???

user2 fr they look so cute

user3 oscar fangirls are fucking weird

maxfewtrell omg first time u give credits!! kids grow up so fast

ynacc i'll untag you.

maxfewtrell you wouldn't

user4 her fighting w lando and max 😭😭😭😭

user5 she's everything and he's just

lilymhe can your boyfriend fight?

ynacc can yours?

user6 they've been dating for a bit more than a year and oscar has given her flowers AT LEAST 7 times.

user7 he's raising the bar for us

user8 just so yall learn to not settle for less

user9 am i allowed to say that i love them?

user10 god im grateful for the ynoscar blocklist

#oscar piastri fanfic #oscar piastri smau #formula 1 fanfic #oscar piastri au #formula 1 social media au #formula 1 instagram au #oscar piastri instagram au #oscar piastri fluff

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tyunkus · 1 year

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imagine overstimulation with tyun😵‍💫 youre literally crying while hes holding a vibrator to your cunny and he just sits there looking so calm, so when youve came for like the 6th time that night u look at him with teary eyes, begging him to stop and thats its too much ( u both know u love it tho ) and he just stays so calm its scary and says something like “dont be an ungrateful slut” or like “you wanted to cum so bad but now u cant take it?”

(im not sure if u have any guidelines but i hope it passes them, if not just ignore it!)

This is what i mean when i say all solomons are telepathically connected because WHY HAS THIS BEEN THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND FORTHE PAST 2 MONTHS AND U JUST ARTICULATED IT SO PERFECTLY.

LIKE. nobody talk sbaout taehyun with a vibrator enough. it would be so sexy and hot and also SO FUN FOR HIM? imagine his pretty doe eyes looking up at urs all innocently while he makes you come over and over and over again like literally no remorse he just loves the way you look and sound when all the pleasure washes over you. cant get enough of how fucking wet you get, even if it hurts he's gonna pull orgasm after orgasm out of you to see every little twitch of your lips and flutter of your lashes he's just THAT obsessed with u.

you come for the 6th time and he's just. so inwardly pleased with himself because now you're really begging, hips bucking up towards nothing but more sensations and your eyes all teary and glossy and pretty <3 you make his cock so fucking hard just by lying down in bed all sniffly cuz he's treating your pussy so well <3 can't help but find you so cute like "aww, why are you crying? feels too good? sweet girl is sobbing because i'm making her feel so fucking good, right? right? take all of it, baby, can you do that for me?" AND HE SOUNDS SO FUCKIN SWEET hes so good at buttering you up just to rip another orgasm out of you so you're losing your mind n begging him to stop <3 but that won't work, he knows what you really want, knows that even if you're crying and sobbing for him to turn it off, you just want more n more n more cause you're his greedy little bitch <33!!!

as for guidelines i havent made up any yet but i will eventually! if im uncomfy with an ask i just wont answer it so if i dont answer urs after a week i probably just wasnt comfortable hehe

#taehyun x reader smut #taehyun smut #taehyun hard hours #taehyun x reader #txt x reader #txt hard thoughts #txt hard hours #txt smut #guys my account is just 90 percent tyun i #like #im insane #taehyun drought ENDED #i love feeding solomons we are truly #truly just insnae #ok i think that's it for now hehe

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mysticficti0n · 4 months

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Tom and Y/n HATE each other (well she hates him but he gets little butterflies from her sometimes heheheh but like he still doesn't like her) but she still is around a lot of the time bc she's Georgs cuz and she lives with his family (come up with something bc idk) and she helps produce TH music and is like their photographer kinda?

and in the first part she's like getting ready for a date and stuff happens and tom takes her for some reason yeah and he gets rlly pissed at her but then she wants to get picked up from this guys house and tom is the only one who picks up so yeah- enjoy writing this if you do ❤️

Oh em ghee- kinda jelly I didn't come up with this but I love it so so much

Happy new year everyone! I really like this idea and making it a new series bc why not, and don't worry All my attention is coming back this 2024!!! I havent preread this before posting because im tired as shit its literally 3:07 am so ♥︎

Get over it Part One

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warnings- swearing, mentions of sex, clubbing, kissing

words- 1.6k

I sat in my mirror with music blasting in the background, Bill sat on my bed flicking through a magazine with a cig hanging from his mouth "Is a red lip too much?" I asked turning to the boy who looked up from the pages

"depends what you're wearing" I got up and grabbed my little blood red dress, black lace dressing the bottom and the u-neck shape at the top "red lips all the way" I smiled sitting back down and grabbing my red lipstick and swiping it on

"Knock Knock" a voice called outside and then three people wondered In "what the fuck are you doing" Gustav laughed shoving me

"whats it to you" he shrugged sitting himself down along side Tom, Tom never looked happy unless he had some whore sucking his cock or a smoke in his hand, I stood grabbing my dress and walked out into the bathroom, I left the door open slightly as I knew they'd be asking questions

"where she going Bill?"-"not my place to say"-"oh come on"-"nope"-"well she looks like she's going to be payed to fuck a guy"-"watch your mouth thats my cousin remember" I smirked listening to their conversation, I finally got the dress on and twirled in the mirror but realised I couldn't do the button at the back, so reluctantly I held the dress up around my side and went back to my room

"can one of you do the button please" I turned my back to the group and soon I herd the sound of shuffling and someone standing behind me

"is it just this one?" the voice of Tom rang behind me and I nodded, why him out of everyone out the room? gently his fingers brushed against my skin as he pushed the button through the loop "done" he said barely above a whisper

"thanks" I spoke walking to grab my heals, I quickly slipped my feet in and stood to look back at the guys "right well I have a date to go to but I need someone to take me- who's that gonna be?" I looked to Georg first

"erm.. well I don't have my car- Tom is the only one with one" a sigh escaped my lips but it was him or nothing and I missed my date

"fine- come then" I grabbed my bag and looked to Tom

"now?" he spoke

"yes now get up were going" The boys all stood leaving my room Bill switched off my stereo then we all went down stairs and I headed for the front door closely followed by Tom "bye guys" I yelled before walking out, Toms car clicked and unlocked

"you know-" before he could finish I closed the car door and buckled my belt, Toms side opened and he climbed in "you are such an ungrateful bitch" I laughed staring ahead "I could just not take you- get that in your fucking head"

"yet your still in the fucking car with me" he rolled his eyes staring the engine "drop me at Sarahs court" we sat in silence, no radio, no nothing until we hit a red light, I could see Tom's eyes scanning me up and down "issue?"

"your dress is very showy, do you even know the guy you're seeing?" I smiled knowing exactly who it was, and So would Tom

"thought you liked slutty things, like your girl-" he cut me off my throwing me a gaze "oh and I'm meeting Brandon, Brandon Quick" I watched as his jaw dropped slightly, eyes turning thin

"you are a fucking cunt" no words were shared after that, he stayed quiet, I knew I lit the fire now and all I could keep doing was adding to it

"Yeah he called me last night, told me he missed me and wanted to see me again, asked me to wear his favourite dress.... favourite lip, and no panties either" I kept pushing watching Toms face curl into one of pure anger, before I knew it we were at Sarahs court and he slammed on the breaks. I pulled the sun-visor down and opened the mirror checking my make up, I looked to Tom once more, his face was contorted into a frown, I didn't bother saying anything and just climbed out.

I walked around the car and saw the calming face of Brandon "hey sweetheart" he spoke coming over, hand wrapping around my waist, pressing a kiss to my cheek "who brought you?" he spoke looking behind me

"just Tom- he was the only fucking one with a car" I laughed turning to see that his car was still there with him just staring at me

"I'll come say hi" I grinned knowing this would only piss him of further, together me and Brandon walked over and I pulled open the driver door "hey man whats up?"

"mhm whats up" Tom spoke, his voice low

"eh nothing much, thanks for bring madam, promise to have her home by 9" he joked, looking down at me, I purposefully cuddled to his chest, drawing circles on his peck

"great- well I'll go now" Tom grabbed the door slamming it shut and started the engine

"whats wrong with him?" the boy spoke with a tone of sarcasm

"whats never wrong with him?" I laughed pulling Brandons head down to meet mine in a kiss, there was no denying it Brandon was hot, his brown messy locks, blue eyes, a smile that was contagious, perfectly toned body, tattoos covering his torso, he was beautiful

--- Time Skip ---

I lay there, on Brandons chest, tonight was amazing, dinner, the club and the sex but I couldn't fall asleep at all, my mind was everywhere and I just felt like going home, but the only way I could get home was Tom, I sat up and went to get my phone "hey everything okay?" Brandon's voice spoke quietly, his hand rubbing my back

"yeah sorry, I'm gonna go okay, I need to be up early tomorrow" I lied, I did feel bad but I felt bad saying the truth, I'd slept over many times but today... I just couldn't this time

"Okay babe- text me when your back" I nodded leaning down pressing a kiss to his lips softly, it took a lot to pull away but I did, I grabbed my dress, shoes and bag, pulling my phone out and going out side of the house, wrapping myself tighter in his jumper, I went through my contacts before seeing Toms and I clicked call, within seconds it was answered

"what?"

"can you come get me"

"why?"

"I cant sleep and I wanna come home and you're the only one with a car"

"Y/n its fucking 4 am"

"you answered straight away so don't tell me you weren't awake" I spat

"fine-" I gave him the address and he told me five minuets, I sat on the wall at the end of the house, staring onto the quiet street until the bright lights of Toms car cleared the darkness. I got up and opened the car door to find Tom still in the clothes he was wearing earlier and a cig in his lips

"thanks for getting me" he nodded blowing smoke away

"yeah- don't think I'll do this again alright" I nodded, I felt to tired to really answer, or argue his car was warm and I was quite warn out already "why are there tear stains down your face?" he spoke, his voice slightly concerned, I hadn't even noticed anything with my face, I'd been so concentrated on other things

"oh erm... it doesn't matter" I yawned closing my eyes, it wasn't like I was hurt or anything

"no why the fuck have you been crying" I sighed opening my eyes, looking to the boy

"me and Brandon fucked okay" Tom breathed looking back to the road "better now?" and he just nodded, I closed my eyes again and soon everything was quiet.

soon I felt cold wash on my body until two arms wrapped around me, I let myself hook my arms and legs around whatever had me, my head falling into the crook of their neck "hm- thank you"

◇─◇─Toms POV─◇─◇

I did stay up- is it because I cared- no... I was more worried something was going to happen, I knew Brandon, he was my old best friend all through school till he got with my girlfriend while we were on tour. He was known to hurt his dates, not physically but emotionally and seeing those streaks down her face just made something burn inside my chest. I kept driving until I made it back to her house, the Listing's house.

"okay Y/n-" I turned my head to see her asleep "fuck" I hit my head of the back of the seat, it was to late to call Georg to come get her, and her aunty and uncle couldn't know she was getting back at 4:15 in the morning.

I got out and walked to her side, opening the door and unbuckling her seat belt, slowly I pulled her out from the car and let her body wrap onto mine "hm- thank you" she whispered into my neck, her breath cool against my skin, I walked us toward the door, I went to her bag and pulled out the keys, I had no other choice, and let us in.

silently I began walking up the stairs, she was quietly snoring into my shoulder as I held her going to her room, I gently pushed open her door and set her on the bed, taking her belongings and put them on the desk "okay Y/n lie down" I whispered helping her lie back and pulling her sheets onto her

"my head hurts" she spoke again, without thinking my hand went to her head, I rubbed small circles and scrapped her hair back soothingly, a small smile appeared onto her lips before soft snores filled the room again. I took one last look before coming away, I went to her window, pulling it shut, closing her curtains and finally shutting her door. she wouldn't remember any of this... hopefully

Like I don't care about her but- she does mean something to me, but she couldn't know that

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coldtacoshark · 5 months

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Whitney with a fat!PC

a/n(?): um hello, i dont really write but i love whitney. im fat, my pc is fat and these are just some thoughts about it? like how whitney would react to a fat pc i guess. both whitney and pc are gender neutral. more under read more!!!

໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ `

They would be groping you even more. Pretty but rough hands melting into your softness. Hearing them sigh softly, biting their pretty little tongue a bit. Those damn hands constantly on your thighs or chest, fondling like no tomorrow. They own you after all, now be a good little bitch and shut the fuck up as they unbutton your school shirt and grope you for the whole maths lesson.

You’re getting fucked against a wall, your back facing them? They’re groping and squishing your belly and thighs, muttering something about how you’re such a good, soft little slut to fuck. Made just for them, your soft skin and plush body, begging to be fucked like a whore. Loves cupping your face and digging their pretty nails into your puffy cheeks, bonus points if you’re crying and hiccuping because of their fucking, turning into a dumb, soft, ruined little thing.

Doesn’t get it when you bitch and moan about how your body looks and the things little nobodies of this fucked town say about it. They like it, they fuck it, why do you fucking care what other people think? Fine, they’ll fuck you in the middle of the street so all of those ungrateful bitches and bastards who’ll never get to touch an inch of your— no their body can stare in awe as they make the town’s gorgeous little slut bounce on their cock/strap. Now will you stop bitching and wear the fucking lingerie they got for you?

Oh if you get the cow transformation on top of that? Whitney turns into a fucking slut. They’d never admit it, openly anyways, but seeing your plush, fat body leaking milk when they have you whining on their fingers in some abandoned alley… Yeah, they have masturbated to that image of you and came 3 times in a row, in 10 minutes. What about it you fucking cunt? You better be grateful.

Whitney is anything but daft, they know the looks people give, the shit they talk, so they make sure to know they fucking love that body of yours in their own ways.

Like when you’re concentrating on whatever the fuck that old hag is spewing, they just draw circles on your sides. You giggle quietly and tell them that it tickles and fuck, you’re so cute. You’re so cute it hurts. Yet all they can manage is a ‘shut up.’ as they cover their blush with their hands and face the other direction. Fuck you, you’re too cute for your own good.

#dol whitney #degrees of lewdity #degrees of lewdity whitney #whitney the bully #dol whitney x reader #whitney x reader #dol x reader #degrees of lewdity x reader

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hypnoneghoul · 2 months

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I wish there was more we readers n stuff could do, like beyond the normal stuff of reblogging, adding tags/comments, sending asks n stuff. I try to do it as much as possible (I still forget to a lot times as well, I'll admit 1000%)

it just feels like, one persons hate/disrespect can do much more damage then one persons appreciation.

and pls dont get me wrong. Im not saying thats the writers/artists fault, at all. Thats first off, just how the human brain is programmed and secondly, its not yalls fault that shitty people have so much hate in their hearts. its just a statement of, feeling powerless to help more? I guess???

like obviously I dont think Im some fucking Perfect Bitch who's Come to Save the Sad Tumblr Artists lol. thats not what I mean.

idk this was all just a rambling stream of conscious kinda thing, sorry. if you dont want to publish this ask pls dont feel like you need to, like just delete it or keep it or do whatever you want with it.

Just know that, while theres plenty of dickheads, theres also a lot of us out here who really really really fucking appreciate what you do and see your art for the beauty it is

I het you and I think artists can feel a little ungrateful sometimes because of how one hate comment can do more than one good one. sometimes it is like that but, at least for me, the support is positively overwhelming and keeps me going on here. for me this is not something that could be thrown over by hate quickly but it won't be the case for everyone. I love each and every person who interacts with my creations and shows support and appreciation one way or another. I wouldn't be here if not y'all, that's is <3

#hypnone's asks

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luvingspence · 2 years

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𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗺 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘁𝗼𝗻

a/n: i wanna show off my favourite babygirl on ig so i made a social media au <3 also!!! this is so rushed :( i was tryna get this out quickly bc i haven’t been posting that much so im not that proud of it :(

warnings: eddies just annoying🫶

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

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y/n: ur my lover <3

tagged: steveharrington

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steveharrington: i love u :)

↳ y/n: n i love u <3

↳ y/n: and the flowers!!! i love the flowers!!!!

↳ steveharrington: ur welcome :)

buckley.robin: u two make me SICK

↳ steveharrington: don’t project ur insecurities onto us robin

↳ buckley.robin: stfu

↳ y/n: u’ll find love one day❤️

mad.maxx: where are my photo creds🤨

↳ lucassinclair: answer her‼️‼️

↳ y/n: sorry max ily ur a great photographer🫶

mikeewheeler: @dustinhendersonn come n get ur parents

↳ dustinhendersonn: they aren’t my parents 😐

eddiemunson: @steveharrington where are my flowers💔

↳ steveharrington: shut up

↳ y/n: @steveharrington buy eddie flowers

↳ buckley.robin: @steveharrington buy eddie flowers

↳ lucassinclair: @steveharrington buy eddie flowers

↳ mad.maxx: @steveharrington buy eddie flowers

↳ eddiemunson: @steveharrington buy me flowers

willbyers: con😭grat😭u😭lat😭ions

↳ el.hopps: are you ok????

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y/n: he is so bf

tagged: steveharrington

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steveharrington: i am ur bf though???

↳ y/n: well duh

↳ steveharrington: so what does ‘he is so bf mean’?

↳ y/n: u give off bf vibes

↳ steveharrington: i’m confused :(

dustinhendersonn: STEVE HAS GLASSES

↳ y/n: have u not seen them😭

↳ dustinhendersonn: NO?

lucassinclair: @steveharrington nice frames

↳ steveharrington: leave me alone sinclair

mikeewheeler: how did steve hide glasses from us😭

↳ y/n: he usually just goes abt blind bc he think u guys are gonna bully him💔

↳ buckley.robin: we would never bully u for this @steveharrington

↳ steveharrington: @buckley.robin lucas already has

↳ lucassinclair: @steveharrington all i said was ‘nice frames’ 💀

nance.wheeler: you guys r so cute <3

↳ y/n: so r u and jonathan :((

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steveharrington: she’s so thoughtful

tagged: y/n

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eddiemunson: goals😍

↳ steveharrington: shut up

↳ eddiemunson: i was complimenting u guys

↳ eddiemunson: ungrateful bitch

y/n: yw bae🫶

↳ steveharrington: i still dk why u made this but thanks i love u

↳ y/n: can a girl not just surprise her favourite boy :(

buckley.robin: does it taste good

↳ y/n: ofc it does i made it

↳ steveharrington: ofc it does y/n made it :)

lucassinclair: @mad.maxx why dont u make me cakes😕

↳ mad.maxx: why don’t you make ME cakes?

↳ lucassinclair: making u one rn🙏

dustinhendersonn: can i have some????

↳ mad.maxx: why do you want their make out cake?

↳ dustinhendersonn: bc it looks good???

#steve harrington #stranger things #steve harrington x reader #stranger things s4 #joe keery #stranger things social media au #social media au #steve harrington fluff #steve harrington social media au

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latenightsundayblues · 3 months

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TYSM @kryypt1c 4 tagging me to answer these questions im honored😭😭😭 really hope im doin this right n not embarrassing myself....

1. Are you named after anyone? Not an actual person, but my ma wanted to name me after a really famous shoe store here in my country. My dad wanted something more unique, and his solution was to switch out the 'a' at the end with an 'e'. So I guess it all started with feet in a way

2. When was the last time you cried? Rewatching the ending of Cinema Paradiso on Youtube yesterday. Like just the clipped ending literally nothing else. Its a REALLY GOOD MOVIE okay

3. Do you have kids? Reading this question made me shudder quite violently. Thankfully no

4. What sports do you play/have you played? I was such a little bitch as a kid I didn't want any activities that could get me hurt😭😭 only thing i ever did was ballet for a short while

5. Do you use sarcasm? I feel I'm above regular sarcasm in a way. I'm on some sort of infuriating post-ironic type of shit even I can't properly diagnose

6. What is the first thing you notice about someone? Prob their mood. I've always been sorta sensitive as to what people's first impressions of me are so I just zero in on whether or not the way they're looking at me means they like me or want to bash my head in with a slab of concrete

7. What is your eye color? Plain brown yawnnn

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Why can't we have both? Why not add a little bit more of Insidious or Nope to your life?

9. Any talents? Erm. Ughaghhh..... Ummm.... Drawign. ?

10. Where were you born? Brazil baybeee

11. Any hobbies? Do nice little walks around parks on sunny days count at all🥹

12. Do you have any pets? Nala my beautiful ungrateful little bitch of a cat

13. How tall are you? Honestly i dont even know😭 I don't keep track of that shit so I'd need to measure myself again, but last time I checked I think i was like 159 cm or smth

14. Favorite subject in school? English bc I've always been the best at it lmfao

15. What's your dream job? Those really boring ambiguous jobs middle class fathers in american movies have where they work with boxy computers inside grey little cubicles and hang out at the water cooler to make small talk during breaks. I want that for me

@goofalicousgooberface @hydehecticbastard so srry for calling u guys to every little game i get tagged in I'm not familiar with anyone else😭😭 no pressure

#these things r so fun i love yapping endlessly abt unimportant shit #got worried it was gonna end up too long while i was writing this. Stopped for a period of 4 seconds before not giving a shit and continuing #brother once you get me to start i will NOT stop. “what dat mouth do”? this isn't a mouth it's that bitch pandora's fucking box

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pixiecaps · 3 months

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i feel really ungrateful for feeling so sad about roier not being active anymore as he was before but i can't help it ;_; more now that we're finally getting all this cubito lore i just can't help feeling anxious about him eventually not playing anymore or something though i know that probably won't happen so soon but anxiety is a bitch

yeah im very similar when it comes to my interests where if anything slightly shifts i get this anxiety in the pit of my stomach. but! its important to know sometimes that anxiety isnt always warranted. realistically roier will not suddenly quit playing the smp if he wanted to do that anytime soon he wouldnt have logged on for the new version of the server. we also know he has a lot of planned lore with doied and hombre misterioso to look forward to in the future! as well as any lore he may stumble upon with others so do not worry there is so much content to look forward to. the only difference this year may be the fact he doesn’t play minecraft for every stream which can be good to ensure he doesnt burnout and so he can expand his content a bit. either way qsmp will stay for a while longer so theres no need to worry or get saddened. for the most part things will remain the same:) if he ever decided he’d completely stop playing he’d advise his audience and its clear that is not what he intends right now. hope this helps u a bit anon<3

soz for responding late i was post limited

#anon #pix asks aaaa

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evermoredeluxe · 3 months

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bestie can i get some advice? i moved to london and i’m 3 months in and i fucking hateeeeee it here it’s a nightmare but i feel stuck and idk what to do :(

i moved to california in 2020 and lockdown was highly enforced still, and i literally just remember being down in the dumps fighting with my mom. this is gonna sound useless, but i think you just gotta power through it.

i will say that whenever you feel like you made the wrong choice or you’re regretting it, try to do something outside: go to a local coffee shop or a bookstore or a park or a restaurant or just roam the streets. try to explore small things in your neighbourhood and fall in love with it. also, it’s totally fine if you call your friends or family and just vent. i used to think they will think im being a bitch and being ungrateful, but that’s just the brain being mean, so do call them! also, making friends outside of school is so hard, but try! that will help.

also, just wanna say that if you do ever move back, don’t beat yourself up about it, just look at it as a courageous thing you tried

#anonymous #replies

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apparently, apparently, it's scientifically confirmed that people tend to take partners identical to themselves; whether it be personality traits, interests in topics, or physical appearances. and, well, you know what this means for me

i cannot deny that the men i like have 0 ass. none!!!! kaeya was a blow to my ego and i know aki will serve the same. im sorry but darlings all bone down there-- i slap him on the ass once and my hand simply implodes. sweetheart if yer ass is gonna be this tight your pussy better be tighter than it i guess??

and i can't believe the same applies for me!!! the clap of my cheeks will not, nor ever, alert the vatican, and im still unsure on how to handle that

anyways ive waited a very long time for a man who passes the minimum threshold that wears a suit; all this talk about cat boys and dog boys and not an actual tie to substitute for a leash on the casual daily... and here we are! here we are :-)

cupcake ajshsjhdhdhd,,,,,,,, it sounds like the new "my tastes are quite specific" </3 /j

“how big is that ass” “no ass” “oh. new assless malewife.”

I always console myself that Kaeya has amazing chest because otherwise the disappointment becomes too big, he deserved to be not so flat ( #`⌂´)/┌┛

dear, finish it — Victor and Yuuta probably don't have anything either. one spends almost all the time in the lab, the second neglects food and looks too muscularly lean for his own good, like a good twink; neither has a slimthicc figure.

... honey, I'm not sure if you really want this, because if their pussy is even tighter, it will be a real problem.

if your hand implodes when you just want to slap their ass, then what happens if they are even tighter and you try to stretch at least with fingers and they suddenly squeeze because of excitement? you don't need fingers anymore?? how are you going to justify yourself to others later "why are your fingers broken"??? "pussy was too strong" or something like that? </3

darling, darling, greed has consequences, come to your senses before it's too late; you need whole fingers /hj

... of course, it's certainly worth it, but it still sounds like a very embarrassing situation.

and i can't believe the same applies for me!!! the clap of my cheeks will not, nor ever, alert the vatican, and im still unsure on how to handle that

I'm sorry, I'm very sorry, I'm very very sorry, but minus on minus gives a plus — and this explains a lot in this situation </3 /j

"the clap of my cheeks will not, nor ever, alert the vatican" sjshsjshjdhdhdhhddsjshhdd

the real problem begins if it becomes difficult for a person to sit because of the bones; while there is no such problem, I would gladly trade my figure for something thin, because I have the opposite problem — animals hate me, but if they can sit on my hips or hands and fall asleep on them, then everything is fine, as long as I don't touch them in any way, and I feel used and insulted.

listen, if I can't touch your head, then look for another soft spot, these thighs can't get at least a little less thick not so that someone ungrateful rests on them ヽ(｀⌒´メ)ノ ill-mannered tiny brats

thick enough that any guy without a nice ass can turn to me and nothing will change with me because genetics is an evil bitch apparently

therefore, any non-skinny favorite now has the same problems by the way, I don't want to be the only one

"who passes the minimum threshold" darling it sounds so dhdjdjd </33

... Did Victor wear something like a suit? It seemed to me that he had a tie and a vest...

It sounds like you've been waiting for someone you can drag by a tie like a leash, and I can't say I disapprove of that. On the other hand, I can't help but feel respect that almost every man of yours is someone with an existential crisis and elements of depression, as if you specifically choose a special breed and this delights me /ser

There's some kind of sensor inside you for guys like that, huh?

In any case, now a guy in a suit has appeared in the collection of dogboys and catboys, and that's fine, because it's really hard for me to classify him as a cat or dog — but that's why he wears a suit with a collar, isn't it? <3

#.spicy♡#[📂] — voice from under the bed #🧸.t*

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i just watched sharpay's fab adventure and im in LOVE, peyton is EXACTLY what sharpay deserves, and im glad she FINALLY got a happy ending!

as a resident sharpay stan since the ripe age of 5, im really happy with how much shes achieved since she graduated high school, a leading role IN NYC?? love.

if only everyone in hsm could see her now UGHHH

also i rewatched hsm 2 and finally watched hsm 3 and can i just say i hate kelsi so much. AND so many of these kids are just ungrateful?? they complained about the manager at the country club saying hes terrifying?? i have never met a more well mannered manager in my LIFE. fucking wish i had that type of manager at MY first job.

also YOU ALL WANTED JOBS??? WHY'RE ARE YOU COMPLAINING?? YOURE WORKING AT A COUNTRY CLUB WITH ALL YOUR FRIENDS?????????? AND ITS YOUR FIRST JOB?????

also taylor in hsm 2 was really stoking the fire cause first she tells gabriella that these weird rules her sister told her aboutig dating and then later on lies to gabriella saying troy asked for sharpays opinion on his new shoes. not to mention for some reason no one sees troys new position as an golf assistant as a good thing? bitch he has some sort of power now, FUCKING help your friends out to get into higher positions!! you have sharpay who will LITERALLY do your bidding.

not even talking about how much troy did change when put in a position with more freedom and power like thats all on him, how're are you NOT gonna help chad out????????????????? hes LITERALLY always talking about U of A and you just DON'T TELL THE BIG WIGS ABOUT HIM?????? thats on you bitch NOT sharpay.

#sharpay evans #hsm #i fucking LOVE sharpay #rant #long rant #sorry #also this seems like sharpay is writing this post #biased towards sharpay obv #ALSO KELSI GOT HER JOB AS A PIANIST AT THE CLUB #SHARPAY EVEN TOLD HER PERSONALLY ABOUT THAT YET SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT HOW ITS BORING #YOURE FUCKING LOVE SONGS ARE BORING #i am really heated sorry bout that

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bro why are there so many bitch ass fucking loser anons in your ask box atm tf is going on?? 'i'm fucking asking everyone and nobody is responding to me' maybe bc youre a weird fucking ungrateful and entitled creep but mh idk

the only thing i like about you are your writings 😠 nothing else 😠😠 and thats why i take precious time off my day to tell you how much i DONT care about you and how much i dislike you - LIKE HUH?? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE

+ THE BODY SHAMING??? IN 2023?????? THROWING AROUND INSULTS LIKE A FUCKING MANNN LMFAOOOO ARENT YOU EMBARRASSED

idk this whole ask just reeks of jealousy and envy likeee poor anon has nobody to flirt w bc nobody likes a disgusting piece of dirt like them )): poor anon has low self esteem and therefore tries to make a gorgeous gorgeous girl feel bad abt herself ))): poor anon is too stupid to google how to make gradient fonts )))):

anyway slay im so proud of you for finally standing up for yourself bc you let these mfs walk all over you for way too long!! also i hope you dont let these pointless insults get to you bc youre literally sososo sweet and important to all of us!! ily my pretty baby <33

(also also i didnt plan on writing a whole ass essay ksks it just happened oops im sorry 🥴🥴)

~🫧

so real and true like their ask genuinely made my jaw drop like how are you this bold and comfortable enough to be so disgusting to someone… like im not just a writer im a REAL HUMAN!!!! words hurt!!!!!

n yeah the fucking “i only like ur writing” was so odd like obviously you also like my blog theme too! since youre being rude and mean cus i didnt see ur previous ask abt it 😭

the body shaming was so… mind boggling idk T_T like idk im very insecure abt myself n the fact that they clearly have no regard for others feelings makes me sick like how can you just be gross and mean over the silliest things????? what????

literally ur so right like sorry anon that youre rude and mean and no one wants to be around that kind of energy???? but dont take it out on me jus cus my nonies r cute and sweet and adorable -_- n agh stop !!!! thank u for the compliments, sweetpea :( i adore u srsly

thank u for bein proud of me :D im quite proud too, im soso tired of people thinkin they can treat me bad n get away with it >:T ur important to ME btw my beloved lil bubble nonie <333 i love u sunshine thank u for sending me this <3 words cant describe how much this msg means to me :(

n ps pls dont apologize for sendin a “long” ask T_T i love talkin to u sweetie <3333 ur always welcome in my inbox n ill do my best to answer !

#♡.signed. sealed. delivered.#♡.sweetheart: 🫧

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ep46 (2/3): go off wen ning!!!

oh this episode has so many great romantic shots of lwj catching wwx and dramatically cradling him in his arms and gazing tenderly at him and taking care of him physically and looking horrified and caring when he learns the truth. it's like his number one role in this episode from this point on

THERE HE IS!!!!! much like jyl's ep25 speech, this is wen ning's absolute best scene. the best scenes of both jyl and wen ning, gentle and deeply loving side characters with little political or cultivation power, involve them defending wwx, someone who looked after and protected them in turn. it's happened so rarely and it's so satisfying to see it come down like that

come to think of it, most great lwj scenes are of him doing the same thing

oh gosh lwj looks almost disgusted when he sees jc draw suibian. like 'really??? HIM??? ugh'

WEN QING!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 YOU HAVE BEEN MISSED BELOVED!!!!

oh he is NAILING the 'the man I love went through torments untold and I utterly failed him when it mattered and now I hold him in my arms and gaze at his face and wonder how I could have been so foolish' look

I love that wen ning has such a precise and detailed memory. it's fitting as a companion and defender of wwx, who famously has a poor memory even when it comes to himself. it's so good for wwx that wen ning and lwj both witness and carry wwx's struggles so he doesn't have to do so alone. im getting choked up

oh and he just tears into jc in this scene. mwah. so so satisfying

and look how passionate he is! quiet, timid, kind wen ning, whose default expression is solemn awkwardness or a shy smile, outright shouting at this sect leader. and rightfully so!

his is his SISTER! and jc shouldn't forget why he's here! wen ning isn't here to punish or kill jc or even really hurt him. he just wants him to know who he owes his life and success and strength and sect to - people he's abandoned, people he's tortured, people he's sworn to kill. it's a bitter pill to swallow, and it's devastating for him, but wen qing deserved to be remembered. and jc needs to understand what exactly wwx did before he can decide to torment him for eternity or whatever he was planning

jc sobbing should also be satisfying, but honestly it's just sad. he makes me tired. isn't he tired?

thank GOD wen ning said this because a lot of people take wwx at face value especially when it comes to jc and it's important to remember that wwx wasn't being sincere in a lot of circumstances, both before and after the war

oh god and now he's remembering all the things he did to wwx and the things wwx said to him before he left to get his core 'restored' oh god oh fuck this is why he apologizes later. this is what it took. thank you wen ning 😭 I will never ever call wwx an idiot for not communicating things he was clearly too traumatized or in too much of a precarious position to communicate but I'm so glad someone did

THE SINGLE TEAR MAKES A REAPPEARANCE

I love the 'grabbing a sword hilt in determination' thing that both lwj and wwx do

GET HIM!!!!

GO OFF!!!! this is probably the meanest thing wen ning even says in this scene and it's literally just the truth. people who call wen ning cruel for this are weak bitches. 'uwu jc lost his entire family' yeah so did wen ning and jc failed to help them even though THEY saved his and his sibling's lives. jc always scolds wwx for not being grateful but he's so ungrateful and self-absorbed himself. 'wq turned down his marriage offer' was that seriously the fucking best he could have come up with

anyway wn and lwj united in taking care of and defending wwx is such a lovely partnership 🥺 for so long he's been taking care of everyone and all alone and refusing help and now the two most loyal and loving people still alive are looking after him and making sure he's okay. it does make me emotional

awww yeah romantic lotus pond night boat ride with a third wheel slash servant (?) wwx sure directs him to row like one

oh god...this line really hits. when you and your family are facing extermination from literally everyone in the entire world, when everyone is treating you as less than human and calling for your blood, when you're utterly alone in the nightmare, then having even one person stand up for you and advocate for you, just one person who tries to save you...yeah I would remember that too. but then wen ning always remembers the good people do for him. he was loyal to wwx as soon as wwx was kind to him, bc it was something wwx does regularly but that never happened to wen ning before.

man arguably wen ning lived by the 'forget the bad, remember the good' that cssr told wwx. I feel like I've already said that

as tangled and silly as the timeline is for nightless city, I don't find it hard at all to believe that lwj, hearing some shit went down and the wens turned themselves in, first went to nightless to advocate for them. failing that, he ran back to BM looking for wwx and found a-yuan. he took a-yuan to CR, put him in with a medic, and then booked it to nightless.

...actually now that I write it all out, it does sound a bit unlikely. but lwj WOULD delay going to wwx if a-yuan needed him, and the travel time for the wens and the time wwx spent asleep could account for the time lwj spent desperately flying back and forth all over the jianghu

oof yeah I joke about lwj not communicating shit but really...in this situation I can see why to an extent. yeah, lsz deserves to know his identity and family. the wens shouldn't be absorbed into the lans and lost from the world forever. god knows there's enough real world examples of racist adoption that contributes to genocide and loss of culture (see, white adoption of indigenous americans and aboriginal people). but I can see him not wanting to tell a child that hes the last survivor of a mass murder bc there's no comfort he can offer. he didn't even really know them. it still would have been better if he'd told him, obviously. people shouldn't but cut off from their families, even dead. none of the wens should have been forgotten. but I see why. and I see why wen ning is doing the same thing

#cql re-rewatch

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tomorrcwz · 9 months

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★ . . . 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋, 𝐒𝐕𝟓

pairing: f1 grid x fem!driver!reader, sebastian vettel x reader

there's nothing harder to stand up for yourself time after time in a sport that doesn't treat you right, so you decide to leave at your high when nobody expect it — only your lover does.

warnings: reader is younger by seven years (seb's 35, reader 28), takes place in 2022

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f1 after years of gracing our tracks both, aston martin driver and four times world champion sebastian vettel and y/n l/n, the second driver of red bull and current world champion, are hitting retirement. Danke Seb, thank you y/n!

charlesleclerc 🤍

gridsgettingrip can't believe both of em leaving now, no one talk to me

lewlew can't wait to see a track free y/n. the audacity to not even announce her exit like seb did. the bitch just left out of nowhere

sebbybestian yes so true !! she didn't even say goodbye to her fans landolover she thinks she can do whatever she wants bc she finally won 🥴 sebbybestian y/n is an ungrateful bitch,, she didn't deserve to be a world champion

yukitsunoda parents 😍

dannyricdikk yuki?? girlnomore my guys clearly drunk from the celebrations yesterday lol

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sebastianvettel & yourusername a slightly wild (crazy) family but a family nonetheless 🖤 we're incredibly exited for the next season, do us proud boys!

danielriccardo haven't had such a good celebration for years. happy retirement and don't forget to visit me, your favorite 😁

carlossainz I don't agree with the last part maxverstappen no one does — I'm definitely y/n favourite, we were teammates pierregasly no way, im her favourite landonorris im clearly her favourite you bastards ☝🏻 yourusername kimi's my favourite 😌 kimimatiasraikkonen thanks firecracker, you're my favourite too

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sebastianvettel cat's out of the bag, i'm her favourite. danke Liebling (translation: thank you lover) for making my dream of a family come true 💚

comments have been limited!

lewishamilton congrats guys, hope you received mick's and my small gifts ✌🏾

sebastianvettel small? you bought the little ones a Mercedes car for kids (thank you btw)

yourusername I'd do anything for you sebby <3

sebastianvettel want to fulfil my wish of having at least five kids, Liebling? arthur_leclerc let the woman have the baby first before thinking of siblings 😔 yourusername agree w arth on this topic but you know I can't resist you lover sebastianvettel ah i know you cant resist my charm. want a reminder of what we did hours ago? 😏 yourusername wouldn't mind that hon ❤️‍🔥 charlesleclerc ow come on dirty folks - unbelievable, need to bleach my eyes now yourusername and here i was thinking of naming you godfather ... sebastianvettel we need another one ig sebastianvettel that won't be a problem and you know that :) charlesleclerc oi I take it back !!

mickschumacher love you guys, congrats on being officially a dilf and a milf ❤️

yourusername thanks micky, see you soon! liked by sebastianvettel

#formula 1 fanfic #formula one imagine #formula one social media au #f1 social media au #f1 imagine #f1 x reader #sebastian vettel x reader #sebastian vettel imagine #sebastian vettel fanfic #sebastian vettel

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323398149 · 2 years

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Ayesha called me stupid again. She said stop being stupid, why are you so stupid

Then my brother came upstairs and they called each other stupid

Then ayesha said she's never going to speak to me again and has lost all respect for me

Then my parents came upstairs and said that I was ungrateful

So yeah and Joe's gone so I just have to sit here and somehow survive tmr on my own. And then survive the next few years or however long until I can leave. I need to leave as soon as possible.

But I'm apparently crazy so where do I go? I need to be kept away from people because people don't like me. But then I get sad but I guess idk like what other option is there? I obvs can't kms so idk what the plan is. Where do I go? What do i do? How do i stop everybody from being upset with me? Do I speak or not speak? When do I speak if I do? What do I say? I have no idea. I always do it wrong. I'm so stupid. Lol I guess she's right, I am stupid. Last time she called me a dumb retarded bitch because I forgot about a task I was supposed to do. Today she called me stupid because I couldn't read and listen at the same time. Those are things I've struggled with my whole life. And I used to hate myself for them. Then I learned to stop being so angry with myself and just accept them as my shortcomings, and embrace them as part of life. But when capstone failed it just made me so upset. Because they're major deficiencies. Im not competent. Maybe my dad was right. I never should have bothered with university. Maybe college was where I belonged. I should kms lollllll like gah nobody likes me in the entire world. I'm an arrogant shit. I'm literally a nuisance once people take a closer look. They like me at first but starting with uber, they've all ended up hating my guts. Like so deeply disliking me. I try to keep my mouth shut and say and do and be the right thing but it's not good enough. I feel like they perceive me as rude and inconsiderate and generally awful. I just don't understand if I'm dumb or not. Sometimes I feel everybody stuck and it drives me to push through and figure the thing out but at other times everybody is doing something supposedly simple and easy but I just can't grasp it. I'm idkm idk what's wrong with me. So yeah I guess my point would be that I had convinced myself that it was okay to have these deficiencies and still love myself but now I'm going back on that and having to relearn hating myself for this stuff because idk because the embracing it stuff is not fixing anything externally. Like I felt better on the inside a little while but now the outside environment is coming in and I'm getting hit with it anyways. So it was a temporary solution that gave relief for 2-3 years but I've gotta figure out a proper solution now. Uber said he had never met someone so confused and scattered or something like that. The meds help with the scattered part but I guess not enough. Like it helps enough to make me feel better but i guess that's not good enough for the people around me. They still don't like it. So idk what the plan is. I just wish i could disappear and not exist but that's not an option so I'm going to read that dale Carnegie book again. I wish i could just be better. I wish my brain could be fixed. I'm sorry for existing and taking up so much space and energy. I wish I could go away and take my shitty away from people but idek how to do that or where to go. I don't know anything i guess. I am stupid and incompetent and useless and miserable and ugly too apparently lol and obviously extremely awkward and weird and apparently I make people feel uncomfortable. Gah why can't someone just get rid of me.

I think I figured if out okay so what if the solution to becoming smarter is to read? And that also gives me a place to go that isn't here. I mean that used to work when I was little, right? Idk what else. I would need a job to move out. Even then where would I go? I'm stupid and incompetent and useless.

See also a big reflection is that I'm no longer looking and waiting for the person who is not gonna be upset with the scattered. I used to think eventually I'd meet someone that loved me and didn't feel upset with my brain. But after this semester I don't really think they exist. It was make believe. That was like a unicorn. Someone like that isn't actually out there. They're not real. It was my imagination. So if I am gonna try and blend in and do life like everybody else and get a job and get married and have kids and all the stuff I need to learn to act and disguise the confusion. I need to sort through it as quickly as possible. I need to have game plans and tactics and systems to figure out what to say and how to behave more efficiently. I gotta figure it out cause otherwise idek idek what happens if I don't figure it out. Maybe someone will just get so annoyed with me that they'd just hurt me, i wouldn't be surprised if i just accidentally pissed someone off that bad. Because i accidentally do it for little things all the time. How do i just listen? And respond? Gaaaaaaaah so annoying I h8 myself

#personal #ss22

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