bungou stray dogs

I know people love the "You used corruption believing in me? How beautiful." scene but it just doesn't sit right with me that many of you don't know that's a creative translation and what he actually says is "You're gonna make me cry." i dont know why this matters so much to me but it just does. the original line has so much more impact. especially for a character like Dazai, who has never shown human reactions —like crying. and yes i know that he's just being sarcastic but it's still. You're gonna make me cry, he says it like he knows that Chuuya knows it's not true. Like even though they both know he wouldn't really cry, he still couldn’t find anything else to explain how he felt at that moment. Like if he could cry, this would be the moment he did. IN THIS ESSAY I WILL—

a cool detail i noticed is that in the first ending of bungou stray dogs there's a shot of shin soukoku with dazai where atsushi is facing left, akutagawa is facing right and dazai stands in the middle between them. they copied the same shot in season 4's ending but this time akutagawa faces left, dazai faces right and it's ataushi who stands between them. in season one, atsushi and akutagawa are strangers, facing completely opposite sides. and dazai is the one who connects them, the one thing they have in common is their relation to dazai. in season four, akutagawa is facing the opposite side of dazai, meaning that he's not chasing dazai's approval as much as he did back then. and now the thing that dazai and akutagawa have in common is their relation to atsushi, who is as close to both of them as the other, and now connects the two. even though dazai used to pull the strings of akutagawa, now the only bond the two of them have is their relation to atsushi —who has, in a way, changed them both for the better.

(Atsushi and Akutagawa are dating)

Atsushi: here, i brought you coffee

Akutagawa: you remembered my favorite order?

Atsushi: of course. how many times have we tried to kill each other?

Akutagawa: *smiles softly* thanks babe

Dazai, watching them: what the fuck.

in Bungou Stray Dogs "I want to kill you" means "I'm secretly in love with you but I'm too tsundere to admit it"