Wish I knew better (tyrus fic) - chapter one

T.J.'s pov

As I listened to the next song on the playlist I began to feel like there was a ball in my throat

I was stuck between not wanting to cry anymore and wanting to do nothing but cry I mean how couldn't I? I was broken up with not even 2 days ago or maybe i broke up with someone I'm not sure how it all went down. It was a small fight i didn't expect it to get this bad but here I am.

As “what ifs?” field my mind I turned up the music and thought about the past weeks.

I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was heartbreak and misery.

4 weeks ago

basketball practice was taking longer than usual,  everything was fine until Mason caught my attention “Hey, your boyfriends outside he doesn't look happy.” he took the ball and patted my shoulder yelling a good luck as he was behind me.

I opened the gym door to see cyrus right outside, like mason had said leaning against the wall. Mason again was right he didn't look too happy. “Are you okay?” I frowned which seemed to upset him even more. he pushed himself off the wall and turned to me “We were supposed to study today.” He looked tired I guessed he was waiting around awhile “I'm sorry cy, I really don't remember planning that this practice is really important how long have you been waiting?” I sat down on the bench in front of him “maybe an hour” cyrus sighed. uncomfortable silence formed between us and I began to think of all the ways I could tell him I had to get back to practice because this was as i said an important practice. My thoughts were interrupted by cyrus' “it would just be nice if you cared a little more, T.J.” the comment caught me off guard and all I could do was scoff “I care tons about math cyrus you of all people should know this by now.” I shook my head and I could feel myself getting irritated cyrus knows how i feel about math he knows how many hours I have worked on it.”yeah i know you care about math but I wish you would just care a little more you didn't even study for your test last week.” He sat down beside me “What are you keeping track of my studying schedule now?” I stood up “look cyrus, I don't need an assistant you don't have to keep reminding me when I have and haven't studied.” He stood up too “well if I don't who will?” I took a step closer as I said “I don't know how about my coach all my teachers,Amber,my parents, everyone in the damn world?”

“You were doing good T.J. you got a C in math and now your down to an F” I could tell cyrus was getting annoyed and hell so was I. “You're really not listening are you?” I pushed my hand through my hair. “Why do you feel the need to constantly fix what's going on in my life? at times cyrus it feels like I'm your project and not your boyfriend.” and it was true I love cyrus but every week he wants to take on another one of my unfixable issues and it's overwhelming. sometimes it's good to just forget issues exist for awhile. “I don't treat you like a project T.J. I'm trying to hel-” “if you want to help me just go” i cut him off being louder than i intended to be I felt bad shouting I did but i had to get back in there and he had to understand i don't like him constantly talking to me about my problems i could see tears start to form in his eyes as he turned around without saying anything “Cyrus wait” I called out but he wasn't planning on turning around i knew he wasn't, I knew how he got when someone raised their voice at him so i did the worse thing i could have done in that situation, I went back into the gym and practiced for our upcoming game.

Hey guys lmao I don't have a title for this and I've only ever written in their person pov soooo this is practice

Prompt idea from my pal: @tyrusflavoredtea

SJDHSJ this is part 1/3