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sugarwithtea · 2 years

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shut up and kiss me (m) | jjk

pairing : boyfriend!jungkook x fem!reader

rating/genre : m (18+) // smut, pwp, established relationship

summary : Your boyfriend couldn't resist himself when you walked out in that dress and especially when you started arguing with him.

word count : 2.2k

warnings : swearing, extensive making out, grinding, teasing, oral sex (f. recieving), slight handjob, fingering, multiple orgasms, multiple sex positions, unprotected sex (y'all be safe), riding, dirty talk?, nipple play, overstimulation, praise kink 😔, confessions of love between sex, the reader likes to be a lil dom at times but it's mainly jkay, and h o r n y j k!!!!

note : this is my first drabble and the first attempt at writing pwp. idea was so spontaneous. hope y'all like it! thankyou so much to @highly-functioning-mitochondria for beta reading it ;)) love ya nix <3

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"Because I wanted to fuck my girlfriend"

All your words die as his lips swallow them.

You are up against the wall as his mouth devours you whole. You hear him slamming the door with one of his hands while the other lands on your waist and kneads the flesh there. He pulls away and speaks against your lips.

"Shut up and kiss me." and he attaches his lips to yours once again.

Almost immediately you feel him glide his tongue over, asking for entrance which you give eagerly. He places his free hand beside your head and kisses you with new found vigor, pressing himself flush against your body.

"Jungkook." you whimper when he dips his head to kiss a trail from your earlobe to the base of your throat, going down and down until he pauses at your breastbone.

"At last I have you all for me." he says as he falls to his knees, kissing your bare stomach as his hands fiddle with the hem of your crop top playfully.

"Do you know how hot you looked the whole night? Especially when you got angry at me for getting us out of there early."

He pulls your skirt down in a single motion and his eyes glint when he sees the black thong you've been wearing.

"Oh so you ushered me out quickly because you wanted to fuck me?"

"Because I wanted to fuck my girlfriend." you can feel the smirk in his voice when his hands grip your inner thigh and swings your leg over his shoulder, kissing your sex through the fabric. Your breath hitches as you tilt your head back and he pushes aside the cloth and marvels at your wetness.

His words had spurred you on and especially his eagerness to want you. Your wetness was quite evident, almost dripping when he used a single finger and rubbed it against your folds. You audibly let out a moan when he brought that finger to your cunt, still teasing you and not putting it inside.

"Jungkook, don't play right now." you hiss out as he leaves a chaste kiss on your inner thigh.

"Eager now, are we?"

"Learned from the best." and he dips his finger inside you as soon as you say these words, almost as if he was spurred by them. You inhale sharply at this as he lets out a low, raspy laugh.

You look down and see a pair of dark, lidded eyes staring back at you. He curls his finger inside you as you arch your back, all while holding eye contact with you. Oh god, if it's not the hottest thing he does every time. He almost immediately latches his mouth at your clit and you feel all your sanity run away.

You moan at his ministrations at your clit, as he deliciously devours it, your hands finding solace in his dark, thick locks. He sucks at your clit and you tug at his hair tighter, heaving your body up and down. As soon as you tug at his hair, he lets out a low moan, sending vibrations through your pussy, unnerving you more and more. Another finger of his teases your entrance and he sloppily makes out with your pussy. He stretches you out with his second finger when his eyes catch your sight.

Chest heaving up and down, eyes half closed and almost rolled to the back of your head, eyebrows knitted in pleasure and lips swollen by the extensive make out and him biting on them, you looked like a fucking goddess to him. The dim lighting of the room only made you look more alluring and the rising tent between his legs started making him uncomfortable.

All night he had been trying to compose himself but yet slipped when you placed your hand on his thigh in a casual conversation. He couldn't do anything but smile it away, all your friends around you having dinner. He was not ashamed at being horny for his girlfriend and wanting to take you there in the restroom but he knew you would have been, and he wanted to treat you right, no matter what.

He grins as he finds himself between your legs, eliciting lewd noises from you and humming out praises to turn you on more. He curls his fingers inside your sex hitting your g spot and you might just rip his hair out from the intensity with which you are gripping him. You bite at your lip to stop yourself from shouting out loud when he says,

"Don't do that. Wanna hear how good I'm making you feel, baby."

Oh no. You could feel your arousal trickling down your thighs and seeing this, Jungkook picks up his pace, now hitting spots inside you that have you withering against the wall. You could feel your orgasm building up by every passing second and when you look at him staring at you with that goddamn lust in his eyes, kissing your clit and rubbing at your folds with his thumb skillfully, you break down for good.

You roll your eyes back as your orgasm washes over you, tugging at his hair tighter and shouting his name loudly. He laps at your cum like a man starved and the high takes over your mind as you soon fall limp in his hold.

He stands up and you look at him through half closed eyes, grabbing at his black button up to pull him closer. Jungkook states you straight in your eyes when he brings his fingers to his mouth, licking them clean of your cum.

Oh, you are absolutely fucked.

Opening up his buttons from the top you kiss his chest and speak against it.

"You. Inside. Me. Now."

He laughs heartily and within the next second, his thigh is wedged between your legs, your pussy sitting right on it, him moving his thigh against it. You whimper against his chest as you unconsciously grind on his thigh. Holding you by your waist, he sneaks a hand around it and grabs your hair, pulling it down sensuously to have access at your neck and dives straight ahead to nip at it.

All this while, you feel the urge to have him inside you again. In any way, you want him. You stop moving and pull him closer to your lips by the collar,

"What did I just say, babe?" you ask him sensually, yet with a sense of dominance.

He leans back with his eyes wide in amusement as he speaks,

"You want me inside you." and he grins that fucking grin again, one that makes you want to have him lodged inside you all night and day, to have him fuck you senselessly.

"So stop wasting time." you lead him to your bed with your hold on his collar and make him sit on his edge. You climb up onto his lap and start kissing him once again, tasting yourself on his tongue as he fights you for dominance and eventually wins. He grabs you by the waist and sets you aside, standing up to undress himself.

You have seen him naked millions of times but still can never stop yourself from staring at his oh so perfectly sculpted body with a completion similar to that of a Greek god. His abs are on full display and his thighs look inviting as his hard dick slaps against his taut abdomen. You almost drool at the sight of it standing all veiny and big.

Soon, you find yourself getting rid of your crop top and him settling against the headboard, pulling you onto his lap by your wrist. He eyes your breasts excitedly and dives down to take one of your nipples in his mouth. He swirls his tongue around it and then captures the already hardened nub between his nipples. You whimper incredulously at this and grab his shoulders.

You rake your perfectly manicured nails against his chest and bring them down to his cock, taking it in your hands and fisting it slowly. The gentle act makes Jungkook jerk a little at your breast and he grabs the other one to stabilize himself.

You start jerking him, giving him a lazy handjob. He moans between your breasts, alternating between them when he suddenly stops all movement and holds your hand to stop yours too.

"You wanted me inside you, yeah?"

You stare at him with a hint of a smirk and heave yourself upwards, with the support of his shoulders while nodding a yes. He takes his cock and aligns it with your center when suddenly you lean back, your hands now resting on his knees and body arched back.

You angle yourself in a way so that your folds rub his bare cock, wetting it from your arousal. He lets out a surprised groan at it and tilts his head back against the headboard from the pleasure. You then take his dick in your hand and smear the pre cum gathered at its tip across his cock covered in your arousal. Aligning it with your center, you sit on it and both of you gasp at the contact.

"Oh my god, Y/N. You're so fucking tight." he rasps out.

You unconsciously clench around him and he grabs your waist tighter. Slowly, you start to move on top of him. Sheathed inside your walls, his cock hits all the right spots even when he’s doing the bare minimum. You couldn't stop the lewd sounds coming out of your mouth. Your nails make marks on his shoulder as you pick up pace and soon enough you are bouncing over him, your ass slapping his thighs continuously.

The moans he lets out are fucking heaven for your ears. He connects his lips with yours and swallows all the noises coming out of your mouth. He moves under you, thrusting upwards slowly. Soon enough, it's him pounding into you while you tug at his hair and nip at his earlobe, moaning right into his ear.

He leaves open mouthed kisses at your neck and holds you tight against your body as he starts a ruthless pace of thrusting into you. The lewd noises coming out of both of your mouths can make anyone and everyone feel embarrassed, the wet noises of the pounding being the cherry on top. You feel your second high build up and you start chanting his name while trying to hold yourself.

"Ah Y/N." he groans and feels you clenching around him continuously. He knows you are close and that's when he pulls out of you suddenly, you disappointingly whimpering with a pout at the loss of his cock inside you and flips you over.

In a few seconds you find your cheek pressed against the mattress and ass hovering in the air. He wastes no time in entering you again and bottoms out in a single motion, continuing to fuck you mercilessly. You cry out loud at the spots he hits inside you in the new position driving you into a state of ecstasy. Your orgasm inches closer and closer as the knot starts building up. You fist the sheets tightly and shout his name as the headboard creaks against the wall.

He grabs the sheets beside your head and kisses the top of your head.

"I fucking love you so much, babe." and he chants your name like a mantra in between his erratic moans. His confession (which you had heard a million times) was the final straw and you tumbled down the edge, your orgasm making you shout his name out louder than ever and then fall completely limp under him.

The ecstasy that drives your state of mind is crazy. You could feel yourself almost floating when you register Jungkook's scream of pleasure in your bliss.

Tears mark your face as you feel yourself slipping out of your high when the overstimulation hits you. He collapses over your limp body while shooting ropes of cum inside you. The heat and feeling of his cum makes you roll your eyes back as he slowly regains his breath over you.

Pulling out, both of you cringing at the feeling, he settles down beside you and pulls you flush against him, your tits pressed against his chest.

"Do you know how beautiful you look when you're all fucked out?" he kisses your nose and looks at you with adoration in his already fucked out eyes.

"Stop it, Jeon" you say as you playfully squeeze your hands tighter around his torso while looking at him with flustered eyes.

"Okay, okay" he giggles but soon his eyes get dark again, the ones which remind you of a moonless night and fantasies you better not mention.

"Fun fact, my love."

Oh my god, his voice has gone an octave down. You smirk a little at him being horny again and obediently nod your head to hear him further.

"I almost cummed in my pants while eating you out."

That's enough. Your bliss flips a switch and turns into lust as soon as you hear those words and a shiver runs down your spine straight to your pussy, it aching once again to feel something inside it. You entwine your hand around his neck and pull him closer, his lips having a hint of a smirk and eyes lidded with horniness and amusement.

"Shut up and kiss me, Jeon."

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oneatlatime · 2 months

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The Awakening

Season 3 let's goooooooooo

These Fire Nation cells are absurdly spacious.

I do love that Momo's first reaction is kisses.

Not a cell. Oops.

Well that was confusing. I was arguing so vociferously that the SWT weren't pirates and then they go and gank a ship.

Mai girl get it! Questionable taste in men, but I love to see a lady getting exactly what she wants.

Mai: "how are you?" Zuko: *existential dread* Mai: "babe. Shut up."

Aang says he's the only one who's completely out of it, but Appa's behind him in full faceplant mode.

Actually, by the hair growth standard established by Zuko, Aang's been out 5 days at most.

Season 1 bitchy Katara is back again. I hate season 1 bitchy Katara.

I'm impressed by how much of these characters' identities is tied to their colour palettes. I see all these water tribe guys walking around in reds and blacks and I have no idea who I'm looking at.

Aang's eyes are back to brown this episode.

I love that Katara has no idea how she healed Aang. Superpowered does not mean superlearned. So much more believable than supergenius tweens.

It's the old ladies! They're wearing croissants on their heads. Why not.

This is a cool way to do exposition. A royal proclamation narrating a flashback.

These Dai Li don't know shit about loyalty huh.

SONG! HI SONG! I MISS YOU!

CORNY BABY & FAMILY! HI CORNY BABY & FAMILY! I DON'T MISS YOU! My guy why haven't you unpacked yet.

Given the welcome Zuko gets from the Fire Nation crowds, I'm thinking the exact cause/terms of his banishment were never made public? They're hyping him up like a wrestling entrance. That doesn't track with someone known to be honourless.

I want whatever's in Bato's bowl. Those noodles have him mesmerised. He's staring at them like they're telling him the secrets of the universe.

Are you telling me that Appa successfully landed on the deck of one of these ships without sinking it?

I love how Gaang's reaction to everything going wrong is to go find their dad.

STOP GOING ON ABOUT THE INVASION PLAN. IT WON'T WORK. STOP.

"Yep! The whole world thinks you're dead. Isn't that great!" Sokka. TACT.

Sometimes Sokka's brain gets too far ahead of itself.

Poor Aang. Not many people whose deaths are wrongly cause for celebration live long enough to see those celebrations.

How do the topknots fit inside the helmets?

This is silly beyond words. It's a two second throwaway gag but they're so into it.

Aang saying "I hate not being able to do anything" to the girl whose whole existence was not doing anything until recently is certainly a choice. And honestly, wasn't Season 1 Aang's whole point not wanting to be the Avatar? Actual responsible adults are handling the problems for once. He should be ecstatic.

I just realised this Fire Nation disguise ship plan means there are people in the Southern Water Tribe who know how to run coal powered ships. Neat.

One of the things I really love about Avatar is how much love they put into the side characters. This guy on the left is a nameless mook, but in the three to four lines of dialogue he gets, we see a world of political and bureaucratic headaches and a bunch of normal, humanising emotions (who hasn't been angry at that one coworker who can never be bothered to email?). The writers didn't have to give him that much personality, but they did!

Also, how often do Fire Nation ships get captured, if two pieces of bureaucracy not lining up causes this guy to jump to that conclusion, rather than think the bureaucracy messed up?

Someone in the Fire Nation has invented extra buoyant metal.

Turtleducks are scared of Azula. Turtleducks are good judges of character.

An awful lot of this episode is flashback footage.

Toph is a missile launcher. This is all I wanted out of life.

For the first time ever, Aang gets to play the role that Sokka plays in every bending heavy battle.

Since when can Katara do bending moves this big?

Sokka once again harnessing his ability to speak the opposite of what he wants into existence.

They said they passed through the serpent's pass a few days ago. Clever foreshadowing I completely missed.

Don't you love it when all your problems cancel each other out?

Aang. This is not the hill to die on. Also please don't throw tapestries around in a room with unguarded candles until you can firebend.

Wow Aang is just taking all the wrong lessons from this. And he's stealing Zuko's lines.

Turns out the Firelord is just some guy with an unfortunate goat beard.

Katara finally gets a chance to be her age, complete with nonsensical emotions and misdirected anger. I hate bitchy Katara but I love seeing her expressing the root of that bitchiness. And I love how illogical it all is, and that she acknowledges that! Emotions ARE illogical and messy!

Contrasting Hakoda winning Dad of the Year with Ozai setting off every alarm bell known to man is a choice. A really good choice. But wow. Not subtle.

I knew Azula always lied, but to her own dad/Firelord too? That's a dangerous move.

Aang. What are you doing. Stop.

Leave the door open. Peak sibling move.

In a turn of events that should surprise absolutely no one, Zuko's been played like a fiddle by his sister and is now as trapped as ever. The surprising part is that Azula thinks she can get away with lying to the Firelord too. Don't know how that's going to go for her long term.

So much for me saying the Avatar universe doesn't do ghosts. This season opener is surprisingly backwards-looking.

No offense to ghost Yue, but I think the saving the world she's referring to is the time she and a massive fishman saved the world, not strictly Aang.

How did they get past the blockade and find the right island?

I cringed at Katara's knee slide.

How are they standing on that island or breathing the air if it's hot enough to do that?

Final Thoughts

...what was that?

Seriously. This episode was a disorganised and aimless mess with the occasional gold mine of characterisation bobbing around. Did the writers not have a plan for what would happen after season 2 ended? This episode feels like the writers had as much plan as the characters did. If I was feeling charitable, I would say that this episode was a hot mess as a metanarrative commentary on Aang and the world's state, but I'm not feeling charitable. I think this episode was just a hot mess.

First, the good bits.

I liked that Sokka was very in character. We've seen before how he can run away with an idea to the point that he forgets to mind the human element. This episode's Sokka felt very much like Sokka. I liked that the beat up Sokka quota was replaced with 'Sokka dares the universe to play chicken and actually wins for once.' His optimistic characterisation this episode didn't grate like his inexplicable optimism did in Ba Sing Se, because here he has a reason to be happy. He's got his dad and a plan. Being around his dad and their people has done him good.

I like Toph the Ballista.

I like the noodle hypnosis.

I loved Katara's emotional blow up. It doesn't matter how noble or important the cause, leaving your kids for a cause is still leaving. I love that she points out how illogical her emotions are being. And I love that Hakoda creates a no-judgement-all-comfort-safe-to-rant zone for her. She's been waiting to do that for a while, and some of it came out at Zuko last episode, so it's been established that she's at boiling point. Fun fact: Katara has now had emotionally fraught venting sessions at Hakoda, Zuko, and Jet if you squint. I don't know what to make of the fact that the show has grouped these men into the same category of 'safe for Katara to vent to.'

I liked a couple of the throwaway gags, and the throwaway characters.

I liked the framing of Zuko's reintroduction to his father. Great use of angles and shadows. We've had two seasons of build up to this guy as the Biggest Bad, and the scene of Zuko kneeling in the throne room while Ozai paces around and delivers the world's most menacing praise felt big enough to be the crowning glory of that payoff. Especially contrasted to the loving father daughter reunion of equals it was interspersed with. But...

The bad bits.

Why did they immediately undermine two seasons of hype and all of the episode's menace by showing the Firelord as a gullible idiot who can't spot a bold-faced lie coming from a tween? I am legitimately pissed off that they defanged him as a threat so soon after introducing him. And I don't think showing that Azula can successfully lie to the Firelord builds up Azula as a threat - I think it also undermines her, because it's a stupid move. This episode could have introduced the biggest bad and reinforced the threat posed by last season's antagonist. Instead, it completely neutered the biggest bad and made Azula look like an idiot. I am actually mad about this.

Other stuff I didn't like: Aang's whole deal. Of course he was going to lose his mind and not be ok about what went down in Ba Sing Se. But he's never this dismissive of his friends, and a huge part of his early character is the fact that he would absolutely love it if some qualified adults stepped in and did the job he was unwillingly born into. Aang this episode felt self-centred and out of character.

Zuko's usually not this dim. I had figured out the angle Azula was going for by the end of the turtle duck pond conversation. Why can't he figure out for himself why Azula has redirected the potential blame if Aang is found to have survived?

The pacing felt off. The A plot flipped between action set pieces and emotional stuff. The B plot was purely talking. But the action set pieces felt out of place in an otherwise quiet episode. I get that you need something to interest the 8 year olds hyped up on sugar who only want explosions, but I think this episode would have been a lot better without the 'Aang almost drowns but gets a pep talk from a couple of ghosts who say exactly what everyone else has already said to him for two seasons but for some reason Aang listens this time and it works.' Why couldn't we have had a quiet episode?

Speaking of, why are Roku and Yue randomly popping up? Last time Aang talked to Roku, it took a trip into the Avatar state and the destruction of a very stupid general's whole army base. The ONLY person who's talked to Yue since she died is Sokka, and that took a magic swamp. I just don't get it. I don't get why they were there, why they said what they did, why those particular words in that particular order worked on Aang when no one else's words were getting through. I don't get why hiding out in the Fire Nation is the plan of choice over chilling with the Southern Water Tribe (other than because the plot says no responsible adults allowed).

The action piece with the Snekky Boy was fun. Even if what set it off was contrived (which it was), I think it was a fun watch and the only action the episode needed.

This episode was also so dark that I spent more time contemplating how much I really need to clean my screen than watching stuff happen.

I got so pissed off at this episode that I totally forgot about Mai. Go Mai! I am WEAK for romance arcs that boil down to 'Girl sees boy. Girl wants boy. Girl gets boy." Go Girl! Like I said above, questionable taste, but if it's what she wants, then congrats on getting it. I love Azula noticed and is like 'my resident goth appears to be broken.'

I have decided that Toph carved an underground harbour like the refugee station on Full Moon Bay and stashed all the water tribe ships in there, because those ships are too pretty to scuttle.

If I could surgically remove that scene between Katara and Hakoda and insert it into some other episode, I'd never watch this one again.

#atla #avatar: the last airbender #avatar the last airbender #The Awakening #unlike my s1 & s2 DVDs this one isn't bilingual #I can only conclude that the Fire Nation hate the French

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ssreeder · 2 years

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Ok ok so the SWT is gonna want all the deets about Sokka's life changing field trip with Zuko, which is a conversation (a lot of conversations) I'm so excited for. Sokka's tangents, Zuko's general personality, the horrific details that either make them both shut down or are glossed over casually. Just *chef's kiss* these are what give me joy to think about because the angst!! The drama!! The feels!!

But anyway, ANYWAY, important desire of my soul that has been on my mind for [redacted timeframe that shows how unhealthy my attachment to this fic is] is can Sokka please please please namedrop "prison pals" when he talks about his and Zuko team up? Like, just pepper that phrase throughout his sorrid tale to the confusion of the SWT and Zuko's eternal displeasure and I will die a happy human after screaming a lot.

Sokka: our friendship started as most do, with us plotting to escape while washing dishes and ending with brutally murdering the prison warden. It was a great bonding experience. And we did it as a team. As pals.

Zuko: no, don't say it.

Sokka *gleefully*: as prison pals!

Zuko: I hate you.

I’m super excited to write more conversation between Sokka & the SWT… he just needs to chill out a bit before that can happen lol.

Idk if anything will change with Zuko’s award winning personality but maybe when he doesn’t burn anyone or light anything on fire people will begin to trust him…? Maybe? We can only hope lol.

PRISON PALS NAME DROP….. Yes. YES. yes.

It needs to happen… I might have a little something cooked up dealing with that but the way you casually dropped that dialogue has me grinning.

I can’t wait for the boys to get some alone time so they can get cozy & playfully tease one another again…

Hopefully I let that happen lol.

#prison pals #prison pals!#I miss them #they haven’t been together in like 5 chaoters #& sokkas dad is eyeing them #& so is everyone else #LET THE BOYS BE GAY TOGETHER PLEASE #ugh I love you anon #your ask is amazing #sorry it took me so long to get to it #sorry to those whose comments I haven’t answered either #I love you all I’m trying!#liab #ria #ask

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parkers-gal · 3 years

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tom holland

insomnia - reader can’t get to sleep; tom finds out why

driving in the rain - fluffy dinner date and rainy drive back home

workouts and warmth - when all tom wants is some after-workout cuddles

from across the living room - announcing your engagement to your families

the one - you want to move out and get your own place as a couple, but tom doesn’t. nikki talks to him.

anything for the twins - tom massages reader’s boobies during her period

moms, makeouts, and mishaps - nikki walks in during your makeout sesh

simple acts of intimacy - a fluffy 3.1k words worth of blurbs

silver surprises - the reader surprises tom at a premiere

twenty questions - questions ensue after tom & reader get stuck in an elevator

my gut - spinoff of twenty questions with claustrophobic!reader (tw/ anxiety + attacks)

stealth mode - tom & reader scaring each other

unicorns vs pegasuses - tom shuts the reader up by kissing them

a good story - tom meets reader at a meet & greet — friendships blossom to lovers

deal breaker - tom wants kids, but the reader does not

his lap - reader asks for help in overcoming an insecurity; tom misreads the situation

pool day - pool day w/ tom + the boys

hot - the reader picks a certain song that reminds her of tom - the boys go wild

grounded by rocks - tom talks about you in an interview for cherry

your hands - when all he wants is a simple head massage

late flights - in which tom takes too much time with the fans

nobody wanted to - where only one person makes it out alive

way more than 50 - the hollands trick the reader into thinking they did something they weren’t supposed to

why [ pt ii ] - sweet cupcakes, and a not so sweet breakup

what looks suspicious - nikki doesn’t exactly approve of tom dating the reader

something sweet - reader drops off small gifts while tom’s on set

he remembers - when tom finds the letter

missed you - reuniting w/tom after four long months

soft gangsta - tom tries to dress edgy; the reader is unconvinced

the shoe game - reader & tom play the shoe game at their wedding

too much - when the reader has a rough time with work, tom comforts them

losing grip [ pt ii ] - a losing battle between the reader and a hereditary disease causes heartbreak

your captain america - protective!tom holland of young reader (age gap)

sexy genius - reader is a fan of (and meets) jake gyllenhaal

teddy bear cuddles - tom wears an oversized hoodie

nonsense - the boys think the reader is meddling with tom’s work

circles before yourself - rule #2 - osterfield!reader gets caught with tom

seventeen times - when the reader is having a hard time in lock down, tom tries to help (TW // depression)

pixie dust hair - tom assures insecure!reader that the pixie haircut looks good <3

a few more months - reader passes out during a run; tw // excessive exercising

tiktok au’s

body ody ody - tom gets a little jealous over a few social media comments

sweats in the supermarket - getting tom hard when he wears sweats

put your records on - trying not to kiss each other first

mood killer - saying dirty things into tom’s ear

say it back - pranking tom by not saying ily back to him

two different ways - tom choking the reader to get two different reactions

brutal - doing the “did you mean to post this?” trend on tom

worst thirty minutes of my life - playing a drinking game with tom to see who gives into cuddles first

my girl’s cuddles - crawling into tom’s lap

even - buying hot leggings & taping tom’s reaction

goofball - a silly way to reveal reader’s pregnancy to tom

end the debate - “i found out why my boobs are small” trend

slam the car door - doing the car door prank on tom

water bottle wars - the boys ask you and tom questions about each other. wrong answers result in sprayed water

get you back real good - you & the boys prank tom after watching a scary movie

peachy - sighing / moaning in front of tom playing video games to get his reaction

my princess - tom does a tiktok where he guesses all your answers to everyday questions

dad!tom

needles and needs - when scarlet has to get shots, you realize she may not be the only one that needs comforting

all my girls - scarlet meets her baby sister for the first time (dad!tom)

everything i love about u - tom is afraid baby red might hate him for leaving home too much

a little extra help - stepdad!tom being the best dad to your daughter

through the tears - pregnant!reader goes into labour, and baby holland meets the family

first feed - tom watches you breastfeed for the first time

warmth from the love - baby holland’s first Christmas

first words - baby holland speaks for the first time

breaking the internet - when your pregnancy announcement crashes multiple apps/websites (pregnant!reader)

breaking the internet... again - when baby holland breaks the internet

boyfriends and brunch - when jade brings home her boyfriend (aged!up)

big sister + how are babies made - telling scarlet about the baby on the way (pregnant!reader)

too many kids - the reader’s dad has some commentary about the twins

mumma’s girl - tom gets jealous when scarlet isn’t a daddy’s girl

angels - a little skin to skin time with his best girl

family man - after a nasty breakup, tom finds out you had his child

cheesy uncles - telling paddy he’s going to be an uncle

ag!reader (more to come !!)

y’all really get nasty - tom and the fans discuss ag!reader’s songs

my favorite things - ag!reader performs in front of the mcu cast at the grammy’s

34 + 35 - the boys react to reader’s new song(s)

34 + 35 remix - the boys reacting to the remix

his remedy - the boys react to positions deluxe

neglected - AG!reader breaks up w tom because of their job; tom searches for answers

low-key wants him - reader talks about how much nonna (+ her fam) loves tom

see u soon - reader interacts with tom while on stage for the swt

a few spilled secrets - AG!reader performs on jimmy fallon’s show.. tom and her confess a few secrets

for the first time - when the reader breaks down crying while singing about her ex, tom is there to comfort her

dance with me, rain on me - reader has a hard time on set, tom to the rescue

every tomorrow - the first album release night after your breakup

here we go again - introducing tom (+ the boys) to your celebrity friends

condoms or safety nets - the boys react to AG!reader’s song “safety net”

we’re not engaged - AG!reader announcing to the world why they no longer have a fiance... (fluffy)

the late late show - AG!reader & tom do spill your guts or fill your guts

pain from pleasure - dad!tom goes through a birth simulator — controlled by the reader

never have i ever - tom & the reader play a game on the late late show

fluffy hair - ag!reader has a zoom interview with zach sang. tom makes an appearance

fighting off the haters - ag!reader and older!tom holland (age gap) attend an award show after going public

run your hands thru my hair - tom reacts to ag!reader’s song “my hair”

stick to acting - tom tries to make a beat for ag!reader

practically twins - reader meets sebastian & anthony at comic con

damn lucky - black!reader wears her hair naturally during an interview

what a piece - reader talks about tom related songs & tattoos

flip it - tom talks about reader in an interview

at the door - older!reader & tom fight off haters

a headcannon of ag!reader being a marvel cast member

a headcannon of tom & the reader attending the avengers endgame premiere

styles!reader (more to come !!)

bathroom kisses - makeout sessions with tom and styles!reader in the bathroom

yeah, he is - tom holland x styles!reader meet the styles family; protective older brother harry makes an appearance

unparalleled love - older brother harry styles makes a speech at reader’s wedding

grilled - date night for tom & styles!reader is a bit difficult with two kids; older brother!harry to the rescue

baby showers and brothers - dad!tom & styles!reader are going to be parents

potential boyfriend - tom has a crush on the reader when they first meet

ts!reader (more to come!!)

trust me - tom & the reader defend her after nikki doesn’t approve

your london boy - tom & co. + the world reacts to “london boy”

boy of my dreams - tom being proud of the reader for winning a grammy

rapper!tom

tom records your sounds during sex for his music (hc)

tom talks about you in an interview

concepts: one , two , three

professor!tom

my pretty girl - tom gets jealous when reader gets many valentines

other reader tropes

cherry - reader is a screenwriter for tom’s upcoming movie

no shouting - singer!reader needs some help after paparazzis are too much (based on a video of tom)

pregnancy belly - actress!reader has to wear a pregnancy belly for her role, and the boys tease tom about when it’ll be real

we march - actress!reader being a huge feminist

passions & pediatricians - pediatrician-to-be!reader meets tom

politics - reader’s granpa is joe biden (requested) and tom meets him

extra support - psychiatrist!reader helps tom on the set of cherry

you made it big - tom holland x actress!reader at the after party

partition - the boys react to famous!reader singing partition

senorita - singer!reader makes a music video with shawn, who’s tom’s new best friend

miniseries

boomerang: one , two , three , four [completed]

peter parker

making amends

➢ enemies to lovers ; college!peter x super soldier!reader ; 30k words ; sorta slow burn

cheeky guy, favorite thighs - college!peter doing a tik tok challenge — between the reader’s thighs [tik tok au]

a little nicer - doing the prank on peter (”you could’ve been a little nicer to me today”)

start searching - first make out sessions with our best boy :)

hidden hickeys - the avengers think innocence of peter, until they’re proven wrong

the team - part two of hidden hickeys; reader meets the avengers

all of you - late night talks about your future with peter :’)

like you wouldn’t believe - reader tells mj about her & peter’s awesome sex

slip from my hands - roommate!peter comforts the reader after a nightmare

i’d wait for her - college!peter parker needs to come to terms with you and your boyfriend

shut up and kiss me - soft make out sessions with peter :)

all the good things in the world, and i get you - insecure!reader needs a little reassuring

modern chivalry - peter being a gentleman on the subway

eggnog and mistletoe - peter helps you love the holidays

the force awakens? it sleeps - a little extra comfort & care from our favorite baby boyfriend

a prince - wonder woman!reader meets spider-man (& avengers) in a mission

steve rogers fics - peter finds you reading fanfiction abt steve rogers

fanboy!peter

fanboys and bracelets - fanboy!peter parker goes to famous!singer!reader’s meet and greet

fanboys and phone numbers - fanboy!peter parker continuation

showing around - fanboy!peter gets VIP access; some dancing ensues

stark!reader + avengers!reader

if you knew feelings - the avengers want you & peter to break up

sleeping - peter misinterprets a few important questions

the may to your ben - college!best friend!peter parker x stark!reader fluff

race ya - peter confesses his feelings for rogers!reader after a mission — on comms

frat bathrooms - stark!reader joins the avengers where she sees college!peter, the boy she slept with at a frat party

rainy days - reader doesn’t like rainy days, a certain wall-climber changes their mind

already got her - jealous!peter makes a public confession

flustered!peter

a nervous one - flustered!peter parker sees cheerleader!reader in her uniform

one day soon - flustered!peter parker x affectionate!reader

all better - flustered!peter parker does some lab flirting with reader

dad!peter + pregnant!reader

unplanned [ part ii ] - reader gets pregnant... breaks up with peter to avoid it all

burrito wraps - reader worries that baby parker might be cold

a name to remember - latine!reader & peter give their girl a special name

you’re magic - a certain wall crawler hears two heartbeats

sgt. bucky barnes

first cuddles - bucky asks to cuddle for the first time

harry holland

golden light, the love of my life - the boys tease harry —on a live video— for being whipped

it won’t f^cking open - harry lends a helping hand

how much i - those three magical words are exchanged for the first time

cuddly koala moments - time the reader just needed harry’s warmth

anything for hands - the reader cuts harry’s hair on instagram live

your other best friend - the reader is sam’s new friend, but harry thinks they like tom instead

you’re my anchor - harry has an anxiety attack, but the reader knows what to do

what’s his [ pt ii ] - when everything thinks the reader should date tom instead, harry snaps

whipped fries - harry brags about the reader winning the pub quiz for them

tell me, show me - the reader makes harry flustered by playing w/the strings from his sweatpants

keep your cool - tom setting u up with his brother // nikki being wary

ag!reader

you’re such a dream to me — ag!reader writes r.e.m. about harry

harry styles

intoxicating - soft bubbles baths with long haired!harry

frayed braids - reader braids long haired!harry’s hair

others:

harrison osterfield

not anymore - when harrison comes back from filming, he’s determed to win the reader’s heart

irreversible - when relationships fall apart, people fall apart. (infidelity)

circles before yourselves - rule #1 - harrison x osterfield!reader (sister) when brothers talk, bad things begin

think of her - harrison asks your family for their blessing [holland!sister]

steve harrington

together not never - steve discovers the reader is pregnant

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waywardavatarenthusiast · 3 years

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ATLA Cast Reactions to Sokkla

Team Avatar

Zuko: Sokka would tell him about his feelings for Azula first. He would think it was some sick joke and be really confused when he realized it wasn’t. But he knows how much Azula has been through, and he would definitely give Sokka the shovel talk.

Katara: Would be livid. First thing she would do is yell at Sokka and say he’s been blinded by Azula’s beauty. Would start viewing Azula as a temptress of the sort. Eventually, she would see that they’re both just in love and find it kind of cute. She’d never say that out loud.

Aang: Thinks they are cute and look good together. Doesn’t understand why on Earth Sokka would do this. But he understands what it’s like to fall for your best friend’s sister.

Toph: Assuming she still has a school girl crush, she’d be annoyed and confused. Azula is mean. Suki she understood, but why her? Irritated that another girl has swooped Sokka up. Wouldn’t care when she grew out of the crush.

Suki: Would go crazy ballistic. A new side of Suki would be seen. She’s hated Azula for awhile now, and told Sokka all about it. This whole time he’s been attracted to her?! Would not go over well.

Team Azula

Mai: Would not understand and would not care to understand. Happy on the inside that Azula must now experience boyfriend’s little sister syndrome.

Ty Lee: Thinks they’re so cute. Wonders if Azula thought he was cute too while they were chasing the avatar. Sokka didn’t accept her advances tho...she doesn’t care about him. But how did Azula manage to get a guy she couldn’t?

The SWT

Gran Gran: Does not like Azula at all. Too Fire Nation and too bony. Like all grandmothers, thinks Azula should eat more and gives her double sea prunes but only because if her grandson has to love a Fire Nation girl she will be well fed.

Hakoda: Wants Sokka to do whatever is best for him in his life, but notices his taste for...strange girls. All his friends think Azula is a deadly spy and will eventually kill his son.

The Royal Adults

Ozai: Hears of his daughter’s...attachment from his cell. Denies it. Sends letters to Azula regarding arranged marriage. She doesn’t open them after the first one. Thinks the water tribe barbarian that has taken out his fleet now wants to make his daughter Sokka’s bride to finish his honor...is not okay.

Ursa: Really wishes her daughter would find a nice Fire Nation boy who treats her right. But Zuko and Iroh don’t seem to think nations have anything to do with anything so she shuts up.

Iroh: Still does not like his niece. On Sozin’s Comet anniversary, when Team Avatar goes to the Jasmine Dragon, he notices their...affections. The hand holding, the nuzzling, the awful closeness. Sees them kissing outside the shop and runs inside to spill the beans. Everyone is unfazed and tells him they’ve been together for months. Iroh invites Sokka for a long talk about how there are beautiful girls who aren’t crazy over oolong tea. Doesn’t go well. Azula shows up with her boyfriend.

This was super fun to make and I hope you guys liked it! Tell me if you think they’d have different reactions :)

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multishippingtrashfire · 4 years

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ok i know you already did zuko getting sick headcanons, but Sokka getting sick headcanons pls 🥺👉👈

Of course Nonny,

- Some background: i think pre-Republic City, as Zuko is still a fledgling Fire Lord (so around 3 years after the War ended), Sokka is determined to be as supportive, and useful around Zuko as possible. Like he very rarely takes a vacation and when he does, it’s always SWT. He can see what the stress of being Firelord does to Zuko, so he just wants to alleviate that by being helpful.

- Sooooo when Sokka gets sick, he absolutely will tell no one (even worse than Zuko). Sokka in this time period gives me “i will go red in the face trying to hold my cough in” vibes.

- He’ll look a little sweaty and people will ask him if he’s okay, and he’d lie and say he was just exercising, going for a jog and they’d be like “In your meeting clothes???????” and he’s like “yes. SWT tradition to bring good fortune to the meeting”

- Sokka is also not subtle, so without a doubt, the guards and other people around him know he’s sick, except for Zuko because he is an ostrich with his head in the sand.

- Sokka’s getting progressively worse (throwing up in vases as he walks to meetings, leaning on walls as he walks, constant sweating), when Iroh finally tells Zuko Sokka’s sick, Zuko is honestly scared. Because 1. how could he not notice this and 2. Sokka is his rock, so what’s he gonna do.

- Iroh advises Zuko in his wise-old Iroh way, to go take care of him.

- When Zuko finally sees Sokka, he’s straight to the point

“are you sick?”

“No....” Cue Sokka’s deer in the headlights look

“Sokka, I know you’re sick. You have to lay down”

“no it’s just the sniffles”

“Sokka, please get in bed, I’m worried.” And Zuko could only say this with his eyes squeezed shut, because he is very worried and his composure is slipping.

Sokka gets in the bed, because he’s never been able to deny Zuko anything.

- For the next 3 days, Zuko cancels all his meetings and nobody says a word, because right now, they know they would be bbq if they tried to question his choice.

- Zuko is constantly making tea (under Iroh’s instruction) and having the kitchen staff bring soups.

- When Sokka’s fever comes on, he collapses on the floor and Zuko practically faints in fear. He nearly sends for frozen river frogs because he just wants Sokka to be better.

- At first, Zuko doesnt get in bed with Sokka because he’s scared his higher than average body temperature, will make his fever worse. But then Sokka starts whining for him and Zuko can’t resist.

- He rubs down Sokka’s body with a cool washcloth, and hums Fire Nation lullabies to Sokka, so he’ll sleep.

- And in his delirium, Sokka rhapsodizes about how hot he finds Zuko and how in all honestly, Zuko hangs the Sun in Sokka’s sky and it’s nice to have a Sun and Moon looking over him.

- When Sokka’s all better, Zuko says fuck it and plants a kiss on him because life is too short and Zuko will hate himself forever if he doesnt take the risk now. Sokka is understandably very grateful, and jokes about how he wishes he had gotten sick sooner.

#Zukka #Sokka #Zuko #ATLA #My Writing #Ask Nick #Headcanons #Prompts

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memo1005 · 4 years

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Any Azutara Headcannons in mind?

I love this!

So in a post-canon AU with redeemed Azula:

- Azula and Katara fought the first time they saw each other again (ala Measure Each Step); Azula would’ve drowned in the ocean if not for her swimming skills and Katara’s pity, but she ends up exhilarated at fighting an equal in ability.

- Azula and Katara are not afraid to call each other out, and it’s what they first like about each other.

-Katara makes the first move because Azula can’t, for the life of her, recognize social cues—she’s still learning.

- If there’s anything Azula dislikes about Katara, it’s the other’s need to discuss her emotions. Her first reaction is always to close off, but when they talk it out, she’s left feeling better.

- If there’s anything Katara dislikes about Azula, it’s that need to close off and repress everything. She eventually learns to let Azula go off on her own for a while, and Azula always comes back to her.

- The first time she visited the South Pole, Katara kissed her in front of everyone to Azula’s both mortification and and amusement. Sokka teases her mercilessly, but it’s worth it to see Katara happy, and of course, Hakoda’s exasperation.

- Azula works as Zuko’s right hand which allows her to spend time with Katara in the Southern Water Tribe. She sometimes spends months away, and she’d get letters from Zuko asking her to come back for this and that, but she’d write her advice and would sign it with “Fuck off.”

- On their third year dating, Hakoda volunteered Azula for ice dodging. Katara was worried, but she trusted Azula. Sokka also went along to her relief. Azula was very surprised to receive the mark of trust.

- Katara was weirdly jealous when Ty Lee and Mai became friends with Azula again, because she thought something had happened with Ty Lee, and she feared they’d take time with Azula away from her. Her fears never materialized.

- Katara doesn’t like Fire Nation food, but Azula loves trying everything in sight in the South Pole, provided it’s clean and won’t give her food poisoning.

- When they’re both in the Fire Nation, Katara hates Azula’s need to rise before dawn, waking Katara with her. Azula indulges her on free days, and they both stay in until lunch.

- Azula joins Katara on her nightly trainings. “If I’m strong at my weakest then I know I can suceed,” she answered the one time Katara asked her why. Katara felt both pride and sadness for her lover.

- Katara only dislikes Azula hanging with Toph, Sokka and Mai because they often start trouble... for fun. Azula goes along with them, calling it a social experiment.

- Katara and Azula once went on a double date with Sokka and Zuko; that lone date was enough, and they never attempted one again. Azula and the men thought it was fun to have a date to the library, and it was the longest day of Katara’s life.

- Katara and Azula also rarely go on double dates with Mai and Ty Lee. Mai likes to provoke Azula, and Azula responds in kind. She realizes it’s how their friendship works.

- They both share a love for travel. Katara would flippantly say they need a vacation, and soon enough, Azula would have a list of places and activities ready. Their expenses are paid for by the throne; Katara likes to think of it as part of the Fire Nation’s reparations.

- When they travel, Azula often sets a day for learning something new. Katara tags along depending on whether the activity is interesting or not. Azula once went on a hike studying snails for medicinal properties, and Katara had to promise her favors so they could return early.

- When Ursa was found, she welcomed Sokka for Zuko with open arms. It was harder for Katara, and when confronted about it, Ursa said she’d been hard on her because she wanted the best for Azula, and Katara realized in her own way, Ursa was compensating for Azula’s childhood.

- Aang was very surprised when he learned of their relationship, but he was very supportive. He gave a great speech on their wedding day.

- They get married in both nations. Katara likes the validation, and Azula does it because it’s tradition, and having both sides of family and countrymen witness the day is important to them. The SWT wedding is a simpler affair while the FN is very grand as per tradition and law.

- Azula and Zuko fret often over who should provide the heir to the throne. Since the Fire Sages and the nobles won’t shut up about it, she goes to a local orphanage one day with Katara who is very confused. Azula randomly settles on a toddler through a game she makes up. She presents Izumi to Zuko the same day.

- They compromise in the end, and they eventually live in Republic City. It’s more convenient to travel to the FN and the SWT, and it’s more than okay because all their friends live there. Zuko is the only one left behind living far away, and he abdicates early to finally live freely with Sokka.

Okay lmao this got long. Ask me on another day about modern aus.

#azula #azutara #katara #atla #avatar: the last airbender #zuko #sokka #zukka #mai #ty lee #mailee #my headcanons #my asks

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cobraonthecob · 4 years

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list of my anti-LoK feelings

Excluding the Gaang’s treatment and trying to be spoiler free so that i can tell my brother about this, let’s go:

oh no it got long

none of this is in chronological order

- Poor mishandling of the concepts/conflicts (the Equalists being led by a bender)

- K/ya and Bum/i being treated poorly by the Air Acolytes simply because they aren’t airbenders

- Bloodbending being the only bending subset art that’s demonized (meanwhile lightningbending gets to power Republic City)

- Harmonic Convergence - just random people getting airbending instead of people discovering they have airbending because Air Nomads are nomads and are likely to have descendants everywhere and it’s quite possible that the reason why Air Nomads are the only nation with a population that’s made up of 100% benders is because they gave nonbending children away to other nations, those kids carry on the genes but noooo it’s the most spiritual art or some random bs.

- the name of Republic City - whyyyyyyy you could’ve named it the People’s City in Chinese or something

- Bu/mi getting airbending and apologizing to a statue of his dad for not being enough

- Te/nzin being the only Cloud kid with a family - because apparently airbending can only be passed down if there’s an airbending parent instead of bending being a wheel spin, coin toss, and draw of the hat chance combined with genetics so both Bumi and Kya could’ve had kids,,,but they didn’t.

- “There’s LGBTQ+ rep!!!” yeah one of them is in the Fog of Lost Souls and a terrible person, Ky/a’s sexuality was confirmed in a comic that a good majority of the fandom doesn’t read bc the ATLA comics are notoriously abysmal, while Korra and Asami were shoved in last minute

- Kor/rasa/mi being shoved in last minute and that’s not because Nickolodean wouldn’t let Br/yke do it, they literally had no endgame ship until the last minute.

- the Spirit portals. Ah yes, make the Spirit World more accessible and make the Northern Water Tribe have an easy way to invade the Southern Water Tribe

- Water Tribe War of Why Would the North Want the South Except for an Ego Boost - oh stars i could write an essay on this: first of all there’s no reason for the two to unite - they’re on opposite ends of the world, two nations are between the two tribes so the constant travel between the two tribes is just too much. Secondly, we don’t do colonization in this household but apparently the North wanted to be like So/zin-Azul/on-O/zai’s Fire Nation. Thirdly: why. just why.

- The Western fashions and architecture - why is there a big ol’ statue of Aang in Republic City waters a la Statue of Liberty style -_- and why is there Western fashion asfjakjfkdj give me qipaos and i’ll shut up about it. (literally if everyone was wearing a qipao to be fancy i would give LoK less grief except for like “kind of boring but at least you tried”)

- As/ami is treated as a side character instead of one of the main four because she’s “Not a bender” (being removed from major fight scenes)

- Asa/mi being everyone’s emotional support and no one gives support back (sounds like someone we know...coughkataracough)

- non-benders having their roles being downplayed, and I don’t mean the Equalists being scary and then poofing out of existence after the first season. Benders get to be in all the action, but non-benders are mainly left out and only brought in to prop up the benders

- immemorable/bad lines/immemorable characters (I can’t remember who was in what spot lol)

- the Spirit World looking more like Spirited Away rather than what it originally was (someone drew a bunch of Spirited Away LoK AU and I thought it was a bunch of Spirited Away screencaps until I saw little kid!Ko/rra and was like “????”)

- “spirits should live in harmony with humans” - world proceeds to get invaded with “spirit vines” along with ATLA fans going “wait what about spirits like Koh the Face-Stealer or an angry Hei Bai”

- non-con kisses. love triangles. didn’t need that but okay

- WHO PUT A WESTERN WEDDING IN AN ASIAN WORLD. WHY ARE YOU WEARING WHITE. DID SOMEONE DIE.

- wait i just looked up the screenshots for that wedding and now i’m mad again

- WHY IS THERE A EUROPEAN DRESS HERE. GET THIS OUT OF HERE BEFORE I CRACK MY KNUCKLES AND REDESIGN A WHOLE DRESS FOR Z/HU LI

- I do not care if they’re Water Tribe. This world was inspired by China, we’re applying the full-on white outfit = mourning color to all nations because I can and I will do that.

- relationships having drama and I mean the type of drama that makes you groan and turn off the TV

- Bo/leska being played for laughs (switch the genders and this whole ship is a nightmare upon nightmare)

- Tenzi/n looking like an A/ang clone and doesn’t even have a hint of anything to suggest he’s half SWT - would it have killed the designers to give him Water Tribe arm wrappings????

- okay I said i wasn’t going to talk about the Gaang but I’m talking about Tenz/in so whatever. anyways neither T/enzin nor any of his kids look like they have SWT heritage and like. skin color can skip a generation and get into another. One of the Cloud grandkids could at least be a little tan instead of the entire family being the same skin tone. Ik/ki could’ve had hair loopies. Me/elo could’ve had a SWT name, and R/ohan could’ve been a waterbender.

- Ko/rra going to confront Zah/eer with Mak/o, everyone thinks that because Ma/ko was with her for a very emotional time that they’re probably going to get together because that makes sense, right? Heck, both of them are there for each other in the Big Emotional Scenes.

- The framing of the K/orra-Za/heer confrontation - Zahee/r is higher than her/is equal to her height, visually symbolizing that he still has power over her. This is very different from TSR where Ka/tara faces down her demon (Y/on Rha), all cards are in her hands, he’s sitting on the ground while she’s standing tall.

there’s probably more but I’ve salted enough for now

#nightfalcon posts #nightfalcon rants #anti lok #lok salt #lok critical #long post

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hollywoodx4 · 6 years

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Thirty (Eliza)

Friends, let me tell you something. I love Eliza Schuyler so freaking much. I love her as a historical figure, I love her as a character in a musical, I love the women that portray her in said musical, and the lovely humans who continue to share her story. This being said, of course the thing that would bring me back to this writing world for a minute would be Eliza Schuyler’s birthday. This little dedication ficlet is set within the SWTS universe (which, yes, finally I’m working on again) and is set in the future. And because you all know how deeply I love Eliza, you know that she’s going to get the future she deserves. Also, I’m going to see Hamilton next week and I’m living.

So here’s a little piece for you guys, and for the birthday of a Leo queen!

Brightness consumes her; the way it gently sweeps between rows of black curtain, just barely brushing the tip of her arm. She can feel the heat of the lights before they are on her, a wild anticipation that still sets her heart aflutter with a gentle sort of nerve. There is light in the way a grouping of human beings can laugh all at once, some raucous while others are clearly giving her PR manager an ego boost, and an excuse to continue to use her off-beat sort of humor. Eliza smiles still, shifts on the balls of her feet with the slight discomfort of a swollen stomach. She pats it, then, looks down at the rounded shape in adoration as her heart reaches out to her toddling son, who is undoubtedly causing mischief in the back of the convention room. There is applause then-even the applause carries warmth-and Emily finds her way backstage.

“They’re all warmed up for you-I know you hate the jokes but I have to do them.”

“I wouldn’t expect anything less.” Eliza’s breathing is even, readying. Emily pats her shoulder and steps back, letting Alexander take her place.

“You’re going to kill it,” both of his hands find her shoulders, pulling her in for as close of an embrace as their second child will allow. “You are incredible-I’m amazed by you every single day. You have helped so many people already, you’re going to help so many more. I’m so proud of you.”

There is so much light, so much happiness in her heart that it swells in her chest, giving room for the good fortune her life has brought her. One more breath; a moment to collect herself, and a kiss on her husband’s lips, and she’s listening to the soft clicking of her shiny orthopedic flats on the floor of the stage. The lights are no longer the brightest thing in the room; not the thunderous applause, or even the induced giggle of her son’s wobbling steps backstage. Eliza illuminates the space that she is in, consumes its beings with happiness and hope; she denies it when Alexander tells her over and over, rolls her eyes in good nature and commends everybody involved in making these wonderful things happen. But it is Eliza sitting on a sleek cushioned chair, Eliza without notecards or papers or props. It’s Eliza, completely freed, that brings forth the brilliance of the room.

She clears her throat and the room grows silent, hinged on anticipation, glowing with admiration. She lets her eyes adjust to it all, scans the room as part of a self-made rule. There are women her age, a few who seem slightly older scattered between them. There are some men, even, who seem to sit up further in their chairs, even more eager to receive a new page of knowledge. It is the younger girls, some just barely teenagers, that she sets her mind to remember. They’re more nervous, playing with their hands in their laps, whispering to their mothers or aunts or grandmothers or friends. They’re the ones she trains her gaze to, remembering.

“So I turned thirty yesterday-it’s crazy, really. It’s strange to feel so young and so old at the same time. I have a husband and a son, and another one on the way. I have a house, I’m finally done school…there’s so much I’ve done so far that I keep thinking back on because thirty feels so old but really, I’m still young. But for my own life, for feeling lucky to even be where I am right now, I feel like I’ve surpassed anything I thought I could have been. I’ve been thinking a lot lately, since I’ve been doing these talks. It hasn’t been long, and I’m still adjusting-luckily, my husband’s sleep schedule is maybe an hour a night, usually in his office chair, so at least I have some company.“ She gets a laugh at this, and a smirk from Alexander, whose eyes are wide and shining and trained only on her from the sidelines of it all.

“I think there’s a critical age-I think that as women, we all go through it; some great, big, terrible Mount Everest of an ‘it’ that can mean a variety of things. Some of you are nodding, you get it you’ve been there. You’ve been through ‘it.’ I think there’s an age where we start to forget who we are. We give ourselves up to these ideals that have been engrained into our minds by the media, our peers, our families, of who we’re supposed to be and how we’re supposed to behave. As human beings, we’re constantly telling each other what we can and cannot do, who we are…you are the only person who knows yourself wholly and completely. That’s something I didn’t learn until recently; until I met my husband, who has never owned me or acted like he’s an expert on who I am and what I’m going through. My great, big, terrible it was a tough one; it changed me, knocked me down so hard that I had to rebuild myself from these fragmented memories of who I was and who the man that abused me thought I was. I had this paint-by-numbers picture of myself with all of these mismatched pieces; something I thought I had liked became something I never wanted to see again. And for a while, I was silent. I stayed silent so long that my voice became unrecognizable-half the time I didn’t know what I was saying. When I left the man that abused me, I didn’t want to have a voice. I thought that if I shut it out long enough that it would all just go away-if I didn’t vocalize my pain, or tell the entire truth, that it didn’t actually happen.

Something shifts in you when you’ve been told what to think and how to behave for a prolonged amount of time. I didn’t know how to be; his words felt true, that I had to be with him in order to feel whole. I recognized his behaviors as bad ones, but his words still filled my mind even when I tried to shut them out. His voice-his words-became my own. I treated myself the way that he treated me, and what a crappy thing to do! What I didn’t realize is the love that I had for myself and the things I could do. I’d forgotten all of the little things I’d locked away for him when I shrunk to fit his mold. I forgot how much I like to paint, how freeing it is to make plans five minutes before they happen. I forgot what it feels like to laugh openly and freely, to sing and have somebody sing along with me. I forgot how much I love waking up in the morning-honestly, ask my husband, I’m actually one of those people who wakes up chatting and making smiley face pancakes.

There is so much hope in my life now; that’s why I’m here. Today, I’m here as a survivor. I’m here as a woman, a teacher, a mother, sister…I’m here as a friend. And you’re here for the same reason I am…because we’ve been through it, or are going through it. I’m here to tell you my own story, to answer questions and to give advice. But most importantly, I’m here to share your struggle in hopes that we can work through this fundamental societal problem together. We can be the change we’re so hoping to see. We can help others who have been through it, or are going through it. We can all be advocates, friends…we can do this.”

There is light in new situations becoming familiar; her innate skill of talking to people and ‘working a room’ translating into speaking in front of them, telling them about the years of her life she’d worked so hard to recover from. Her soul is filled with love within those crowds of people, old and young, human beings of all kinds holding a book with her name on it she never dreamed would come into existence, vowing to run steadfast into a hurdle that had taken her so far back, only to hurl her forward years later. And when it’s over, when the lights go out and the audience has become new friends, when all have left and gone home with newfound confidence, there is beauty in the way Alexander holds their firstborn child. They tuck Phillip into bed together, singing and caressing and showering him with the love that had been in her dreams when her life had been tumbling apart. And as Alexander lays beside her, rests his hand on her stomach with tear-filled eyes; when he tells her I’m proud of you one last time before he falls asleep, she knows that she’s done something right.

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