y’all ever just

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM SO FUXKING SICK AND TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS I CANT FUCKING TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

When someone says "you're not that su1c1d4l, if you were, you'd already be gone"

me when ana causes nervous breakdowns, fainting, shaking, blurry vision, distractedness, irritability, nausea, etc: ☺

me when ana causes hairfall: 🤯😱😰😥😢

i didn’t ever recover i just said i did <3

tw sui ideation, hospital mention

saying i was hospitalized isn’t enough, i need people to know i was so low i wanted to off myself, that i was so throughly destroyed inside that i contemplated destroying my physical form too.

I often think about how I want to die… but I don’t really want to die, I just want to not feel like this. I just want to not be here in this reality where life is painful. I want to go somewhere else where everything is ok. I really want to live actually. I want to live and be happy… but I can’t.

needing to die so bad rn

I’m so sick of apologizing when I’m not the one who should be sorry.

My mindset and feelings about things and people are constantly changing, I don't feel like the same person half the time

you know your addiction is bad, when it’s the only reason you wake up every day

Can people comment reasons to not k1ll y0urs3lf

Im struggling to find reasons rn

i feel like im missing out on the whole teenage experience. day by day i while my time away behind books, scars and calories.

B!tches try to commit but are scared when they close their eyes to wash their faces (I'm b!tches)

Every year of my life I've been told "it's going to get better. You just have to wait." When I was 10 I was supposed to feel better at 13. When I was 13 I was supposed to feel better at 16. At 16 I was supposed to feel better at 18. At 18 I was supposed to feel better when I moved out. I try to listen, I try to look forward to the future, but nothing changes. And my biggest fear- the thing that scares me more than anything in the entire world- as that I'm going to wake up one day, old and alone, and realize I wasted my entire life wishing it was already over.

God, I hope this year is my last.

If cutting bad, why blood so pretty?

everyday is a day closer to me kms 🤞