not a girl in the slightest but oh what the scene queen i am

QUEER FREAKS :33

i’m so ungodly happy about this i had so much funnnnnn

WIP ask game: Untitled Document last modified August 23rd 2023 (the first one) ?

Does this mean show us your unfinished WIP ?

I haven't heard of any specific sort of "WIP Ask Game" before but that's what I'm interpreting/understanding this question to mean? Let me know if I'm wrong though, or just send me another ask explaining what you actually meant 🥲

Anyway here's a piece of my unfinished WIP from August 2023:

My WIPs tend to be extremely messy and full of typos/grammatical errors, so sorry about that.

Kirby is my personal MC, and if the formatting is in any way confusing at all then it's because Kirby uses interchangeable any/all pronouns (he, she, they, etc) and I still haven't really hashed out how exactly I want to write for them, or how to write for them in a way that feels and reads naturally.

Mutual 1: ughhhhh I hate him I hate him so much I want to kill him and rip him apart with my teeth!!!!!! [Picture of character who is present in their url, avatar, and background photo]

Mutual 2: if another customer asks me to scan their 59 expired coupons I will dismember myself in front of them

Mutual 3: shitting again!! #diarrhea #ibs #girl dinner #student life #cottagecore

Mutual 4: poll should I move to Nebraska yes/no

Mutual 5: I need [character from children's cartoon] to vivisect me and then gently stitch me back together so I can unbecome and be remade

Mutual 6: what if we all killed our selves together. On the count of three

Mutual 7: [16 reblogs of the saw bathroom scene]

Mutual 8: baked a pie today there is still beauty in the world 😍❤️💗😌😊👍✨🥰💕👌🥺

Mutual 9: love tastes like acid in my mouth I want to rip it out of my chest but it's taken root like an invasive plant and it's covering all the walls with its vines and I'm drowning myself in pesticides and the gardener (my therapist) is shaking his head in disappointment. This metaphor has gotten away from me

Mutual 10: finally finished that little project. Not super happy with it but at least it's done [picture of 12×8ft tapestry, hand-embroidered]

Mutual 11: do you guys think they're more of a boygirl or more of a girlboy. Here's some evidence to consider [15 pictures of gerard way in mini skirts and lab coats]. Discuss.

Mutual 12: -and it's absolutely ridiculous to imply that Koko the gorilla knew real sign language when if you do even a little research you'll see that the scientists were reading too much into her responses, there was zero grammar present in her communication, they didn't even consult actual deaf people and the whole thing stinks of wishful thinking. Op should be ashamed of themselves. Also fuck Chomsky

Can a scene girlboy and a emo boy really be in love (i haven’t found out the emo guys name yet)

gotta say as a fellow girlboy dandy is giving me so much gender envy. the gender is immense and its not even thursday.

i am having SO much fun with the gender. i'm flinging genders all over the place. it's like the scene in the great gatsby with the shirts except only the fun aesthetic part and no meltdown later. however beloved anon it is like very much friday

I have been rotating various trans leo hcs for your neglect au in my head ever since you made that post about it the other day. My current favorite is girlboy leo mostly because I also currently hc girlboy casey, and i can just picture a scene with all the brothers hanging out with casey, and one of them asks casey what the deal is with his gender anyway, and casey explains a bit in a casual reply, and none of them really get it but whatever, and leo is quietly off to the side, Agonizing, because He Gets It, but also Steaming Mad because he does not want to have anything in common with their weird sewer neighbor. Anyway, your au is very fun to think about, thank you for sharing.

ough. this is a great idea actually, yeah.

i think your so spot on. Leo would be one of those people like, "Uhhh you cANT DO THAT!! everyone would be a girlboy boygirl if they could, but we CAN'T so !!! shut up!!"

Rupert Brooke (3 August 1887 – 23 April 1915) was an English poet known for the idealistic war sonnets he wrote during the First World War. He and his poetry became national symbols of the glories of war and patriotic sacrifice, used as propaganda by the likes of Winston Churchill and Elisabeth II—though the particular sonnet Klinger recites in this scene, “The Hill”, has a more ambivalent tone.

He was also bisexual, and was described by author Margaret Anderson as having “a girl’s beauty”.

Doubtless, of course, the script’s choice of author here had nothing to do with queerness and everything to do with the sad and funny irony of Klinger, of all people, enthusiastically reading poetry that romanticizes dying in battle. Brooke himself died in World War I, age 27—in an army hospital, from an infected mosquito bite. 

But as always with this show, a queer reading is readily available if you want one. And I do want one! I love you, bitrans girlboy.

(A final bit of trivia: if you look closely, the book in this scene is not actually poetry at all. It’s the complete plays of Bernard Shaw.)

new shirt + piercing !!

i know you love tamaki but thoughts on each of the other hosts? my favourite is mori <3

full disclosure tamaki was my first real conscious fictional crush at the ripe age of 11 and TO THIS DAY i have to pause the show during the piano scenes to recover my dignity so he will always be my number one. my everything. my absolute love interest of all time. i could write essays on him for real. i HAVE written essays on him. that being said i can absolutely talk about the other hosts bc im literally obsessed w this show

haruhi was the gender blueprint. truly. girlboy swag. she and misa amane death note were definitely like. the two most influential characters on my personal style in middle and high school. this doesn't say anything good about me. she is also multifaceted and well characterized in a way that's SO refreshing for a romance protagonist. character of all time. also btw im the exact demographic this show was written for meaning i was a tamaki/haruhi truther from the very beginning. where is the tall blonde prince boy to my short stupid gnc bitch. when is it my turn to be happy

hikaru and kaoru. yes i know the twincest thing is weird but i am CHOOSING TO IGNORE IT because 1. the show is making fun of shoujo tropes. its SATIRE GUYS and 2. they are literally so well characterized that it MAKES SENSE THAT THEY DO IT. ugh. anyways kaoru was always my favorite of the two bc i love a man thats in tune with his own emotions. i like hikaru in theory but i think if i knew him in real life i would murder him. i am also obsessed with their characterization and backstory in general bc their specific brand of trauma is one that i so rarely see represented in media and i think they had a very realistic response to it?? like they're genuinely very well written characters i like them a lot. i could also probably write an essay about them

kyoya. im obsessed with him. hes a genius. hes an asshole. he runs a literal profitable business pimping out his besties. girls somehow like him despite him never actually showing affection to any of them in canon. hes literally the worst person alive. hes genuinely kindhearted despite everyone in his life attempting to beat it out of him. hes GAY. this is a joke mostly but i truly think that every decision in his life post-middle school is made because he is obviously, painfully in love with tamaki and also completely oblivious to this fact. like the show might attempt to make you think that hes got a thing for haruhi but literally every decision he makes is for tamaki's benefit (the manga is even MORE explicit about this btw and it makes me insane) and the entire time hes in denial about the fact that tamaki is literally everything to him. it's hilarious. "and so kyoya met him" uhhh fellas is it gay to consider the single most important event in your life to be meeting another man

i kinned honey in middle school for real and every time i think about it i want to die. i unfortunately still like cake. and rabbits. and i am still blonde and short. i might be haunted by this character for the rest of my life

i didn't get the appeal of mori at first tbh which might be a result of watching the anime 2 million times but never reading the manga LMAO bc he really is just a filler character in the show. but hes fun and i like him well enough. im sort of hoping he gets a little more room to be a real character in the manga tho bc ive like. just gotten out of the chapters that were adapted directly into the show so we're in uncharted territory now. im waiting for his chapter im SURE its coming

neka/picrew credits: x / x / x / x / x / x / x

promo hour??? HIIII for the love of god HELLO!! i’m cupid (he/him) and i can be your um… idk… scene girlboy lovecore fallen angel dogboy gacha gamer mutual?! i’m ayato’s fiancé too! carrd is linked in my name if you wanna know more about me! nice to meet u :3 💘

(also i follow from @cupitan , so, that’s me!!!)

rewatching nope thinking about the crazy girlboy sex scene i wrote in a wine drunk craze at 11pm while listening to the soundtrack during the last writers retreat….. cant wait to get back to that place

hi, im Rae and this is my blog intro.

he/him, it/its.

this is a dump for all of my nonsense. i like scene content and bright colors and.. i dunno music and like.. just old internet stuff. I like rave stuff, hardcore.. hyperpop, metal.. satanism. i like taxidermy and bones.

im not really looking for mutuals but you can follow me and my system host will probably follow back on the main account.

i don't tolerate transphobes/radfems/terfs idc cry about it. also homophobes.. and ablest motherfuckers. just don't be an ass on my account or anywhere near me.

This is a safespace for he/him lesbians and non-binary people and neopronoun users and other systems. AND GIRLBOYS AND BOYGIRLS AND BOYMODERS and anyone who fits somewhere in that general area.

asking genuine questions about my system or me as an alter is fine but don't be ignorant. it's not hard to just treat me like a person thanks.

ENDOS AND "SYSTEMS" WITHOUT TRAUMA if I catch you interacting with me or the host blogs I have gods revolver in my hand right now. BLOCKED /srs

1, 10, 15, 18, 34 (and 21 but only do that if ur ok with it bc i know stuff like that can get Too Real too fast sometimes)

Which labels do you use?

Hmm bi, queer, trans, nonbinary, butch. It started ironically but I've become very attached to girlboy and similar mashups. Under the NB umbrella I vibe with genderqueer, genderfluid.

10. Something that gives you gender euphoria (whether you’re cis or trans)

Oooh man, a bunch of things do. Getting to dress and present how I want. Any time I get to drastically change something about my appearance. Strangers being unsure of my gender--which used to be very dysphoric for me. People shaking up what pronouns they use. It started as a joke but I really came to like the internet's use of mishmashed words like "girlboy" or the sudden male implication of "babygirl"--language that really messes with gender and gender roles. And oh what a lovely source of euphoria it is to connect with people about gender. Friends, people in queer scenes, through books, my lovely girlfriend. I am very fortunate to have a lot of spaces where I can Be and where I am Seen.

15. How has your identity changed over time?

I first realized I was bi at 16. Realized I wasn't cis at 19. And realized I was nonbinary at 25. My sexual identity has been pretty consistent, which has been "whatever." Gender has been a bit more complicated. At different times of my life my expression could fit under a "transmasc" and "transfemme" umbrella. I'm not sure either term fits me per se, or maybe both? I feel like the implication of "genderfluid" covers this oscillation. I've gotten more comfortable with ambiguity and not knowing exact language for it, something I wouldn't have imagined for myself almost a decade ago.

18. How old were you when you got to attend your first Pride? Who did you go with?

My first Pride was in 2016. I had wanted to go for several years before it, but I always went back to my hometown for summers in college and couldn't get people to travel with. I went with my two best friends from high school, who had been 2 of 3 out queer people in our high school. I was not the third.

34. What are you needing most right now (what would make your life easier or more fulfilling in regards to existing as queer)?

For people (myself included) to stop being a dick about conflicting or confusing labels

For more people in the trans scene in the US to develop a more militant style of resistance right now. We need more "queers bash back" sort of energy. And if that's not someone's style right now, at minimum not intra-community pushback to it. Really tired of watching trans people take a more aggressive stance against genocide only to get policed by other queer and trans folks.

21. What message would you give to your younger self?

Oh man. So much at so many points. I guess in the most general sense....that you'll figure it out. It's okay to change your mind and try things out and not get soooo stressed out about the exact words to use. Labels are not finite resources you are stealing if it turns out not to fit. That at 18 you'll finally get to finally have lifechanging autonomy and that it's okay that that's actually terrifying too.

The worst period of my life was when I was finally on my own but didn't know where to go from there and didn't think I'd ever see what I wanted. But oh, once I made it through that period and got to take control, it got soooooo much better. And it keeps getting better. So much will change in your life in ten years, and ten years of getting to make choices for yourself and live your own life? That's a lot of change and exploration and I've not reached the end of figuring things out. And for the first time the not knowing is actually exciting and not so daunting.

Tagged by @sug-kuk , here are 5 songs I've been listening to lately :3

1. Halling fra Numedal by Chateau Neuf Spelemannslag

This song makes me feel like I'm on a long trip in a winter landscape on wooden skis with a trusty dog going on some sort of whimsical quest hihi

2. I'm a Man of Constant Sorrow by Tia Blake

It's just SO PRETTY and I love how she sings of being a troubled broken man with the softest feminine voice in history, it has girlboy swag and queer qualities

3. Marigold and Gray by Tops

Very very melancholic and pretty. I love how mellow and heartbroken it sounds

4. I Was Home by Sunflower Bean

I love this song because it's mostly about nothing happening, the absolute mundane, and that feels a bit freeing almost. I was home, then I wasn't, that's all. Also the instrumentals are sooo good (the whole album is also good)

5. Big Daddy of the Rhythm by Dead or Alive

This is possibly the best title of a song ever, he's the big daddy. Of the rhythm. And I love how he sings "BIG BIG! Daddy of the rhytm!!! HAH!" Over and over, and also "I SEND A SLOPPY KISS TO YOU~ MWAH!!!". No notes, perfect, would fit perfectly in a nightclub scene in a campy gay movie

Silly Little Pinned Intro Post

Hi! Though all of us have SFW personal social media, we decided it would be fun to create a Tumblr account to chronicle our pregnancy journey as a polycule including the sexy aspects of it since we all have pregnancy kinks of varying sorts. Here we are introduced in alphabetical order!

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Guess I’ll be starting this off. I’m Charlotte, I’m 32 and I’m a trans woman who uses she/her pronouns. I’m a stay-at-home mom who also runs an Etsy store selling LGBT-themed fibercrafts.

Glenn. 31. He/they. Butch. I’ve only started dating these folks recently but I already feel very valued and loved. I’m not currently pregnant but I had a child with a previous partner.

Name’s Frankie. I’m 29 and I use she/her and he/him pronouns, just be sure to mix them up. I’m the resident girlboy fagdyke and I’m currently pregnant with twins. I work as a tattoo artist and I’ve also got a lot of tattoos and piercings myself.

I’m Horatio. I’m 27 years old and I’m a pan trans guy who uses he/him pronouns. Even though I’m pregnant I’m still hard at work pursuing my PhD in English, and considering that I had my first kid while I was still in grad school I think I can get through this. I’m married to Judah.

Jo. 37. She/they. Trans butch. Probably won’t be posting here much. I work as an electrician.

I’m Judah. I’m 26 and I use he/him pronouns. My husband likes to call me “cis+” because I went through the process of questioning my gender before coming out the other side still identifying as a man. I met Horatio in college and I knocked him up while he was in grad school, oops. I’m a stay-at-home dad.

Sup. I’m Nadia and I’m 24 and I use she/it pronouns. I’m a trans girl and I got a super cool surgery that means that I can carry a child. I’m currently pregnant with my first kid and I’m nervous but mostly excited and grateful. I also stream on Twitch.

I’m Roxxi! I’m 27 and I use xe/xem and it/its pronouns, but you can basically use any neopronouns for me as long as they’re fun :3. Cringe culture is dead and I killed it myself, I’m a scene kid who’s all grown up now and, unsurprisingly, I’m pregnant :3.

Heyyy I’m Spencer. I use they/he pronouns and I’m 22. I met Nadia at a con and the two of us hit it off pretty quickly and well the rest was history. Just a hairy pregnant trans guy cosplayer I guess.

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Some of us may end up posting on this blog more than others. Feel free to send us asks and we’ll try to answer all of them in a timely manner.

[Disclaimer: this is a pregnancy kink roleplay blog. All the characters and events that are depicted are entirely fictional.]