How am I supposed to act like we’re just friends when you still mean the world to me

to say i miss you doesn't even begin to capture the despair your absence has brought me.

— mae s. (journal entry to the one i still love)

you were supposed to be the one. you were supposed to be different. you were supposed to be mine.

and all you ended up being was another lesson.

Closing the chapter

The worst pain is being in no contact with the one person you’re still in love with, who at one point in time sent you texts that made your heart melt. Butterflies every time you saw them. And now you love them only in silence from a distance. Slowly being forced to close every chapter you never wanted to end. 📖

Everything in me left but my heart stayed with you.

-innerink

During all the times I told him to leave, I never actually expected him to do it

Have you ever been so close to someone but you were never in a relationship and when you both stopped talking, it felt like a breakup.

my grandma used to recite the saying "is it better to have loved and lost or to have never loved at all?" and every time my answer would be that i would have rather not loved at all.

she would smile then, and say "then you did not love". i didn't understand what she meant. of course i had loved. i had a broken heart, didn't i? i had the scar to prove it, the inability to eat. i had loved and wished i hadn't. i loved, i thought.

and then i met you, and i fell in love and then i lost you and now i understand because i would feel this pain over and over again just to love you for five extra minutes. i would fix my heart and hand it back to you without hesitation. "look! it's all better now! you can try again" i would tell you, i would cry it out hysterically while waving my taped heart in the air. i would love you a million times knowing i would lose you and i would not care as long as i got to do it. i have loved. i have loved so completely.

mae // what a bittersweet thing to understand.

why does no one talk about how friends can break your heart so devastatingly intimately sometimes a million times worse than romantic partners

why does no one talk about friend break ups…