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#pseriouslyschizophrenic
spicybrain81 · 1 year
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pxppet · 1 year
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Mute people are humans worthy of respect.
Non-speaking people are humans worthy of respect.
Semi-speaking people are humans worthy of respect.
People with disorganized speech are humans worthy of respect.
Deaf people who don't speak are humans worthy of respect.
Autistic, disabled, mentally ill and all of it. We deserve to be treated like and thought of as real people with as much to offer as other humans. The lack of speech doesn't make us "useless" or "stupid" or "like talking to a lamp." Mute people of any kind have just as many thoughts and feelings and actions to offer as those who speak.
Life is still worthwhile and peace and happiness are attainable for us. We will find people who care to make the effort for us to be understood. You will feel yourself breathe softly again some day. You deserve it.
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schizobit · 8 months
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GOD i wish schizospecs could do literally any unmasking without risking going to a ward or worse. i feel like the only place i can actually express what my reality is like is online, and even then there's always the risk of someone trying to aggravate my symptoms.
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schizosupport · 1 year
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Psychosis and schizo spec experiences are messy, and complicated, and often don't fit the societal narratives.
Many psychotic people have experiences that look like symtoms of other disorders, and strict categorization and separation between symptoms and disorders often don't take schizospec and psychotic people's experiences into account.
Schizophrenia, as an example, is commonly classified as a neurodevelopmental illness, and comes with a range of experiences of neurodivergency that do not neatly fit into any one box/neurotype, yet can be both very disabling and very profound. Similarly, most schizospec people are prone to dissociation, and there's an overlap between plural people and psychotic communities.
For this reason and others, I'm not a fan of separatism in the neurodivergent community, which too often targets psychotics, by focusing on proving that this or that group is not "crazy" like "those people".
Occasionally this takes on some insidious forms within the different communities, where "deviant experiences" of odd symtoms that don't align neatly with the narrative of the associated disorder, are dismissed as fake, problematic, harmful - occasionally as ableist in and of themselves. This narrative is actively harmful to psychotic people.
I'm not a fan of arguments that hinge on the notion that large numbers of people are lying or mistaken about their lived experience, and sincerely, as someone who has read an unreasonable amount of research throughout my studies, psychological science is interesting, and useful, but it is never exact, and it is full of biases, blind spots and bullshit science hidden behind statistics and overreaching conclusions. Pointing out bad research is not "anti science", it is in fact pro science. I am a scientist.
I consciously reject the notion that the diagnostic manuals are anything more than a semi competent attempt at making a comprehensive classification of symptoms. This doesn't mean that these constructs aren't hugely influential, or that they don't describe real symtoms, but it is important for Mad and Neurodivergent activism to move beyond this reductive understanding of mental diversity.
So while I'm happy to provide info on the definitions of various disorders etc, because it has real world applications, I am more interested in what we all have in common, and in finding solidarity across diagnostic borders.
In the end, my solidarity is with the weird kids. The quiet ones, the fucked up ones, the ones who don't feel like they belong or fit anywhere. With symtoms and experiences and diagnoses like an ill-fitting set of clothes.
I want to fight the stigma, but I don't want to fight it by assimilation. It is not our job to be "normal" or "easy to understand and categorize".
I want radical inclusiveness, and I want it now. I want the judgement of harmless odd behaviours to stop, I want the mental health communities to stop fighting each other and throwing each other under the bus in the name of being palatable.
We don't have to be palatable to be worthy. We don't have to fit into a neat little box to be taken seriously. We are all deserving of non-judgemental love and support.
Our goal should not be to be neurotypical, it should be to live happy and fulfilling lives within the circumstances we were dealt.
Us psychotic weirdos need better options than to be monsters, or to be invisible.
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jenniferleecopping · 7 months
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short little comic doodle about psychosis and insomnia xxx
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stephensondheim · 5 months
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ghosttcryptids · 6 months
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So let's be open and honest about mental health.
I have Psychotic Disorder NOS (tho I self dx as Schizophrenic as i have a lot of the symptoms for Schizophrenia...my team just doesnt listen to me and im past pushing for a dx of it)
I'm currently headed for a big episode (for me, my warning signs include: increased hallucinations, increased delusions and decreased ability to fight back against them, losing interest in everything, neglecting myself, loss of appetite, racing and confusing thoughts, and what I personally call 'soup brain' which I don't really know how to explain but think of brain fog but...worse)
So why am I telling you all this?
Because I'm now in the age range where people commonly develop Schizophrenia and I want to tell people about the ins and outs of Schizophrenia before I temporarily lose my ability to function properly.
(These are from my experiences and from Mind, a pretty well respected mental health charity here in the UK, and from sources across the web. Feel free to correct some stuff if its wrong or add to this post!)
I'm gonna start with myths:
Myth: schizophrenics are dangerous and are likely to harm others.
Truth: schizophrenics are more likely to hurt themselves, and are more likely to be victims of abuse. We have a 5 to 10% chance of killing ourselves within 10 years of our diagnosis.
Myth: schizophrenia is rare
Truth: about 1 in 100 people will experience a schizophrenic episode within their lives.
Myth: no one recovers from schizophrenia
Truth: 25% of us will go on to recover without any further issues
Myth: schizophrenics only have paranoid delusions
Truth: there are a multitude of delusions we can have, from paranoid to grandeur to mixed/unspecified. I personally have mixed/unspecified. Also, the delusion type can change over time.
let's move onto the very early warning signs, I.e, the lead up to a person's first episode.
This stage can look a lot like moderate to severe depression.
- lack of interest in activities
- little to no connection with your emotions
- difficulty concentrating
- disorganised thoughts
- unable to look after yourself (I.e, eating, personal hygiene, etc, etc)
- avoiding people and wanting to socially withdraw
- hallucinations and delusions (tho sometimes these don't appear until later and you might not experience the stereotypical types, like auditory hallucinations, they happen in over 70% of us.)
Now, finally, what can you, a non-schizophrenic, do to help those going through an episode?
1. Do not confirm or deny delusions. Instead, try to keep it neutral.
2. Contact the appropriate services, so their GP, CMHT, Urgent Care, Duty Team, or an Ambulance. NEVER call the police on us, unless we are in physical danger or a victim of a crime. (I'm sorry that these are UK centric...)
3. Follow the care plan that we've been given.
4. Focus on how we are feeling rather than our experiences.
So yeah, if any fellow schizophrenics (or psychotic peeps) want to add on, feel free to do so, I'd actually really appreciate it, especially if you're from somewhere other than the UK!
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ptsd-phoenix · 7 months
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Huge shoutout to those who have been diagnosed with the same (mental) illness as their abuser(s). Who fear they might turn out to be abusive themselves because of their diagnosis. Who get triggered by the name of their diagnosis and the symptoms it brings because it is so strongly associated to their abuse. Whose abuse has made them scared and prejudiced of people with the same diagnosis and are now unsure and conflicted on how to feel about themselves. Who have a hard time researching their illness and treatment options because the association to their abuse triggers them too badly to continue reading about it. Who may end up discovering articles and videos warning people about their diagnosis and falsely claiming that they are abusive because of their diagnosis, but feeling strongly that the articles are correct because of their own experience being abused.
I see you and you are strong. Your diagnosis does not make you inherently abusive. You are nothing like them. You are your own person making your own choices. Abusing people is a choice, so as long as you do not make that choice you have nothing to fear. I hope that with time and possible therapy you are able to accept your own diagnosis as a seperate thing from your abuse. They are not inherently connected, they only share an association. Don't lose hope, I believe in you.
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angiethewitch · 2 years
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it's so funny to me how one of the basics of recovery with schizophrenia is maintaining a good sleep pattern but also schizophrenia causes sleep disturbances which makes the psychosis worse which means recovery is harder and then doctors suggest you sleep better but you can't and then they insist you're just not trying hard enough
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vergess · 5 months
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Hey fellow psychos of tumblr, quick question about content warnings (CWs) and math posts:
If you happen to know any other tags/blogs about psychosis that I could put this in/send this to, let me know? I'd like to get as many results as possible before I go around requesting a CW. I remember how nasty people got about Goncharov lol
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vagfullaweed · 2 years
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Question for fellow people with psychosis, especially schizoaffective/schizophrenic
Is it normal to have intense, interconnected dreams that are so connected to each other that it feels like you are living a double life when you sleep?
They are getting scarier and scarier as nights pass
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schizoboyfreak · 10 months
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i do not believe in god. not in that he doesn't exist, but in that he doesnt love us. he is real and he hates us. he is an almighty and we are his unloved bastards.
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wheelie-sick · 10 months
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I feel so embarrassed about some of the things I said and did while in psychosis. I've been coming out of an episode for a couple of months and it's so upsetting to look back and process it all because I just get so embarrassed by my delusional self.
this wasnt from my most recent episode, this was from 2021 but still
I'm just processing that I really did, in fact, tell many people in my life that I'm psychic and can talk to ghosts (I am not! I can't!) ...... and also that I was talking to the Norse gods and that they had chosen me, and also that it was my destiny to bring lost souls on Earth to the afterlife and just. now that I look back at it all it feels so obviously untrue?
I used to go around to roadkill and perform different blessings on them so that they could pass into the afterlife because I believed that was my job. all of the traffic saw me (thank god because I would not be here if they didn't) and this was when I lived in a small town so everyone knew who I was. they. all. know. and they probably remember because when you see teenager standing in the middle of the fucking road doing witchcraft on a dead squirrel you don't forget that!!
I just wish I could go back and undo it and make myself no longer psychotic because all of these memories make me want to turn invisible. I don't mind people online hearing about it but the people I know in my real life?? the people I interact with daily??? it makes me want to shrivel up like a raisin
and they all pretend that they don't know about my schizophrenia. everyone pretends that they believe the abilify is for "anxiety." that or they all have come up with some absolutely wild ways to explain it all away.
it's just so frustrating. it often feels like psychosis takes away my autonomy. I didn't get a choice in doing those embarrassing things I never stood a chance at not having embarrassing memories.
!! I have religious psychosis. your religious beliefs might be true but my beliefs were delusions. do not try to talk to me about your religion at all !!
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schizobit · 8 months
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please dont "reality check" strangers. it can be helpful and grounding if its a close friend and youve discussed it beforehand, but you could seriously hurt someone trying to "snap them out of it". psychosis doesnt work like a tv show.
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schizosupport · 1 year
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Psychosis and Schizo Spec Flag Time!
My dear friends of the community! For a community in which so many of us have been called a freak at some point in life, we've had a distinct lack of a coherent freak flag to fly!
Well, no more. There's a new flag in town, and she's a beauty!
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The flag is preceded by a number of other flags. @psychotic-pisces collected a number of them, and proposed yet more, here, and there have been other versions and attempts through the years. There can be many flags, and no flag is more right than another, but we did feel that our community might be in need of a simple yet recognisable flag, that would still be rich with symbolism. This is our proposal!
I shall refrain from waxing poetic about the elements of the flag, but the references are as follows:
The symbol used in this flag was proposed by @actuallyschizophrenic here, and has seen fair use in the psychotic and schizo spec communities around these parts.
The colour stripes in the background match the current flag most commonly used for disability pride.
The background is purple, because 70% of all previous proposed flags were purple, suggesting a cultural connection to the colour in our community.
The symbol sits upon a waxing silver-lavender moon, referencing not only tales of lunacy, but also the dichotomous nature of our illnesses, negative/positive symptoms and more.
Finally, the moon acts as a prism on the stripes, creating a disjointed feeling, that we associate with psychosis and disorganization, among other things.
The flag doesn't have a name, I think anyone in the community can call it what feels right. Schizotypy flag, psychosis flag, lunacy flag - you name it! I call it the lunacy flag, but I have provenly bad taste, so call it what feels right!
This flag was a collaborative effort in a community discord for schizo spec folk and psychotic people. There's no way I could have arrived at this design on my lonesome, and I'm forever grateful to our loving, creative, smart and awesome communities!!
Special thanks to a very cool, kind and talented person who goes by 'Orange' in the server, who created the vector file of the finalized flag, which can be found (on Google drive via tumblr) here!
And a userbox template bc why not..
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Let's go fly our freak flag! 🧠🔥🎉
Other formats, color annotated version and image description under the cut
Long format:
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Square:
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Version of the flag with names of each colour for accessibility:
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Image ID of flag: A rectangular flag. The background is purple, and in the middle there's a circle. The circle looks like the moon, with one side in darkness. The moon is dark grey and light silver-grey lavender. On the moon is a symbol commonly associated with psychosis and the schizo spectrum in white. A beam of stripes cross behind the moon from each corner. The stripes are light green, light blue, light grey, yellow and light red. They are similar to the stripes on the disability flag. The beam shifts position behind the moon, so it is parallel above and below the moon, but not directly connected. End ID.
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openedmaw · 10 months
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not to Personal Problems post but anyone w/ schizophrenia or related disorder, do you experience the self doubt of "if i was actually [insert schizospec disorder] then i would have to be worse off than i am now" or the whole "i know this looks like [schizospec disorder] from the outside but i know my internal experience and it doesnt feel like [schizospec] to me"
and if you do, how do you work about getting over it?
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