what even is the difference between pretty skinny and scary skinny at this point

Nesta Fancast

Elizibeth Gilles- Nesta

Age- 29

Elizabeth Gilles is Nesta. That's it. If you've seen her as Jade in Victorious or as Fallon in Dynasty, you know what I'm talking about. She's pure attitude. She knows how to play a complex character who seemingly doesn't give a shit. This bad bitch is the ONLY one I will except to play our resident Hellcat.

Maybe I should grow out my nails. So I can properly rip the gross, shitty flesh off me.

recovering? eating 3 meals a day? in this economy????

lost 4kg🙏🏻 11 more and i’ll be at my second gw

When the ana becomes low-key orthorexic so you can eat more cottage cheese rice cakes than usual 😼

Today is a lot easier to not eat, possibly because I've had more protein. Hopefully it keeps up because the last few days I've had dizzy spells and headaches.

I've had such tiny portions and no hunger. The impulse is still there. I mean I work in a place that sells snacks and made to order foods like fried snacks, if I didn't that'd be strange. But here I am. Able to brush it off as immediately as it comes.

Praying this keeps up.

Family getting in the way

A lot of the time I can't skip meals because my family would notice. Is it ok to eat 2 or 3 times a day, restricting as best I can, or do I need to take drastic measures?

Late night musings #1

Scrolling through Tumblr makes you realise how fucked up we are, when it comes to beauty standards and eating habits.

As my page is about my weightloss journey, this app has curated my interests in such a way that if I was susceptible to bad ideas when it comes to dieting, I would have succumbed.

There are pages upon pages romantisizing the idea of starvation and how, if you put your minds to it, you can do it...

There are pages upon pages talking about 200 - 400 calories per day diets...

There are pages upon pages sharing body goals of having thighs as skinny/fat as a water bottle...

I understand people have to vent and share their thoughts (and I love how free-ing and non-pc this space is) but I think it is imperative to share your thoughts and at the same time write down what has led you to that thought and how your thought is/ can be wrong.

It almost feels like people like knowing that there are more fucked up people like them and rejoice in it, rather than seeking to rectify the mindset.

I know it is easier said than done but I just want to say, please don't starve yourself and pleade don't just have coffee, monster, water and chewing gums as your meal for the entire day.

Please stop romanticising these debilitating issues.

#i don't even wanna tag posts that talk about sylvie with the sylvie tag anymore #bc even when i'm talking about why i like her & her story w/o romance is important to me #and how she seems happier & i hc her as aro/ace #i alwaysss get someone who starts talking ab how she's cLeArLy in love w loki #like #i literally just said it's not about romance what part of this is an aro/ace friendly convo do you not get #not everything is about your ship #i like her as her own character #who does not need to revolve around potential romantic feelings for loki #if you can't talk about her without bringing up loki then...

had for breakfast, very filling! 30cal~

would u try

God, I love looking at (masc) thinspo, but it fucking kills me inside.

I know, even if I get that skinny, I still won't look the same, cause my bones are all wrong.

Ribs too narrow, hips too wide, limbs too short, collarbones - nonexistent.

Just - fucking - end - me. Fuck having a physical form.

hello I came back they took me off the antipsychotics idk if u can tell tho

J..C. : Sometimes you need someone else man, that’s how it be

Me : Yeah I guess so I think it’s just hard for me cuz I want so badly for it to be someone who it’s never going to be.

12:00AM texts with my best friend - I don’t care if you see this or if you still talk about me on the internet. - depression & obsession don’t mix well.

-t.k

Prayer circle for everyone tryna keep their diets and calorie counts during the holidays we're struggling but we're going