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f1rodrigo · 5 months

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sweet relief | l. norris | part four

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ it's so reckless of me...

summary: in which you fall for your best friend’s teammate and keeping it a secret proves to be harder than you intended. or when all you need is sweet relief the rest of the world fades away. pairing: social media au || lando norris x piastri bsf!reader fc: olivia rodrigo <3 warnings: language

inspired by the song ‘sweet relief’ by madison beer

ALL PARTS HERE

a/n: hi i'm veryyyyy sorry for how long it took me to get this one up but it has a bit more than the other parts did & its currently finals week so the end of the semester is always very busy so i didn't have much time to work on this. hope you enjoy xx

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📍 Tokyo, Japan

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user1 SHES IN JAPAN EVERYONE UP

user2 miss girl...this caption...the rumors...is it lyrics...what does it all mean%^&(@&@(!

user3 this caption after all the rumors ohhh my girl dont give a fuckkkk

user4 can't tell if this is her confirming or denying

⤷ user5 ...or living her life and not paying it any mind

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user11 max fewtrell in the likes oh i am Thinking

lilymhe prettiest girl <3

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landonorris DOUBLE PODIUM!!!!!!!!!! Congrats mate! Thanks @/mclaren 🧡

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mclaren Very good, very nice. 🏆🏆👏

oscarpiastri Well done mate 👊

riabish 🙌

user13 ANOTHER PODIUM THATS MY GOAT

user14 who would've thought... wow i am so proud

user15 mclaren double podium i used to pray for times like these

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oscarpiastri One for the mantelpiece 🏆 and driver of the day too!! you guys 🧡

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user18 SOBBING MY EYES OUT

landonorris Congrats mate!!

⤷ oscarpiastri You too mate! (and i'm not talking about the podium 😉) ⤷ landonorris ...I take it back ⤷ user19 oscar piastri what the FUCK is that supposed to mean

yourusername I AM CRYING LIKE A PARENT DROPPING THEIR CHILD OFF FOR THEIR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

⤷ user15 yn & lando parents to oscar has now been confirmed

yourusername so beyond proud of you oscar 🥹

⤷ oscarpiastri 🧡🧡 ⤷ user20 cannot imagine how she feels watching him all her life through karting till now and getting to witness his first podium oh my gosh im crying again ⤷ user21 STFU NOW IM CRYING

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luhafraser · 3 months

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Let me be clear: although many think I don't have a real life, I do. I'm not just a Tumblr account... I have a family, dogs and a cat. I'm currently recovering from bronchitis 😮‍💨🫁, and dealing with the school holidays 👧🏼🛝 and lots to do at work. 🤯🤯🤯 That's why I'm not at all sorry for being MIA... I have my priorities, my family and my health...

I've said it a few times... Sam and Cait's shitshow is just a pastime for me... So back off, nasty Anons... You're wasting your time here🖕😜

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It's not a real timeline, but look at this amazing script... Brilliant... 😝🤣

1) Sam in London; 2) a "fan" says Sam was with a "female friend"; 3) Susie in London; 4) P's innuendos; 5) Susie posts latergrams in a hotel room and gym, it looks like one of rooms at the Firmdale hotels; 6) P says she won't publish without a real evidence 🤣; 7) Susie returns to her home; 8) Another "fan" says she saw Sam on a flight to Gran Canaria; 9) Sam shows himself in a mysterious room on IG Live; 10) Sam's small group of stalkers (surprisingly, they're not the evil shippers 😜🤣) certainly discover that it's not a room in a luxurious hotel (the kind Sam usually stays in) ***(Sam has people monitoring his online steps and who he follows on Instagram, etc... Nothing new there... But I'm curious how someone who isn't a fan gets "here"?! And this fandom have some here, they are not fans of Sam and Cait or Outlander. See below 😉); 11) P releases the name of the new blonde; 12) the current blonde posts several pics/videos showing some gym in Gran Canaria and an airbnb Villa; 13) Sam's voice appears in two of the blonde's videos; 14) B posts the blonde's airbnb Villa; 15) The war of the "queens of Mordor" begins (I don't believe anything about this war, but it's funny and keeps people entertained, just what SamCait and PR want); 16) B says that airbnb Villa is not the place where Sam did his Live; 17) B goes back on what she said, and shows that the male SH and the female SH are in the same Villa 🤣; 18) Chaos begins in the fandom; 19) Sam appears in Austria/Audi Ambassador stuff; 20) blonde posts with her son at her home (latergram... 🤦🏻‍♀️); 21) Ok... Susie, Sarah, who will be the next S? ⏰️

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Script to look like James Bond... Women and cars... ?! 🤦🏻‍♀️😬 No, you are not Bond, Mr. Heughan... Sorry! 😝😂

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But on the other hand...

You know.. I'm not on the "gay train", but hey... I can't blame anyone who thinks he's gay. And have you noticed how several women, linked to Sam, are always traveling to paradisiacal beaches or going to gyms with their gay friends... ?!? You don't even need to follow them on Instagram to know this, there are accounts here that posted everything about them... All that was missing was their blood type... 😝🤣

"Hawaiigate Oops Gran Canaria gate" didn't seem like a good script to prove that Sam occasionally has affairs with women... Even because the place is known for...

But, it certainly moves things around here... Just saying 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

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OMG... Laughing a lot with #Samarah... 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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And Sam/PR decided to fix a flaw in the script and his speech, something that became a joke in this fandom, at least among shippers...

There are women in Glasgow, people! After 10 years, he finally had time to meet a woman there...

Amen 🙌

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I find it very difficult for a taurus man, who calls himself a romantic, who is used to staying in hotels like those from the FS and Firmdale chains and who has already made this type of comment...

Taking his supposed girlfriend to a place with these reviews... 🤔😬😂

After 10 years, Sam knowing how this fandom is, being the guy who claims to preserve his loved ones, would he leave breadcrumbs for "fans" to create a new story if he was really dating this woman? I'm amazed that she, with a son, gets involved in this shitshow, but who will know her reasons.... Even Cait used her pregnancy and child in the Belfast promo.

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Let's see if Sam will follow P's wishes and take Sarah to the TCND event... And let's pray 🙏.

I see THE RING 👰🏼‍♀️ #Samarah 🤣🤣🤣 This didn't even take 7 days, it seems! 🤣🤣🤣

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I still spend my free time looking at what SamCait shows and what this fandom says because I want to see the end of this shit, when Sam no longer has P or B and his onlys... One day Sam and Cait will fall into oblivion and that's why that they keep feeding this whole circus... What, or rather, who would Sam and Cait be without all this crap? I think it's funny that Sam pulls all this on himself... Except during promo, he's the one who moves things around here (right now Gran Canaria gate, Austria trip, Scottish Sun article, a new company with an enigmatic name... It could be SDFGINEEDTHISSHITSHOWCVBN 😝🤣, "Audi Quattro",...). But to me... This seems like something from someone protecting their loved ones, taking on all the shit for himself. Although, every now and then Cait needs to show that she is alive and with her husband by her side.

I watch and wait... And I know I'm not alone in this! 🧘🏻‍♀️😜

#sam heughan #caitriona balfe #sam and caitriona #outlander #shit show #fake life #it's a shitshow #fandom #outlander fandom

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vltnoire · 1 year

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slipping through my fingers

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ suna x reader

what it’s like when suna attends his daughter’s graduation.

You had never in your entire life seen Suna so overly emotional excluding the whole week after your daughter had been delivered where he wasn’t able to look at her without tears threatening to spill from his eyes.

Currently sat in the passenger seat as your husband drove the two of you to your daughter’s high school graduation, you find it rather amusing how silent he’s been throughout the entire ride other than the sound of his stuffy nose which is enough proof that his emotions have already gotten the best of him.

Your sudden snort ended up with you receiving an eye roll from him.

“It’s not funny. You’re gonna cry too. I know it.”

“Never said I wasn’t.”

“Then stop looking at me like you’re gonna crack up any moment.”

You burst into laughter.

“I swear I’m not making fun of you or anything. I find it . . . cute actually. You know, that you’re in your dad mode or whatever. Also, I saw one of your retweets last night. What was it again? Something about how admirable it is for a man to take his son fishing, but there is a special place in heaven for the father who takes his daughter shopping. Seriously Rin, how corny of a dad can you be?”

“Okay now you’re just making fun of me.” He sniffled quietly.

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Just as your daughter’s name was called out, she walked up the stage and received her diploma. With your phone in your hand recording the moment and a tissue in the other that was drying the tears in your eyes every now and then, it’s impossible to not take notice of Suna’s constant sniffing and the tears that stained his face.

“That’s my girl!” He yelled out. You were quick to move your phone from him to your daughter zoomed in.

“Now that our daughter’s have graduated and they’re going off to college soon, what do ya have to say as a dad Sunarin?” Atsumu, who sat a row behind the two of you, interrupted your husband’s emotional moment. Now recording them, the corner of your lips turned upward awaiting for what your husband had to say.

“As corny as this will sound and as I will be, of all the things I’ve done in my life, being your father and loving you is by far the biggest achievement yet. I remember you taking your first steps and putting my arms out to catch you and you didn’t need it. Or your first day of kindergarten where I would look through the window to make sure you were okay. Teaching you to ride a bike, waving as you left for camp, dropping you off at junior high then high school. And each time as it is right now, the same as it will always be.” Despite his words that came out shaky and a little unclear, it didn't fail to make Atsumu tear up as well.

“I totally wasn’t expecting that from you but damn, you’ve definitely got it worse than I do, bro.”

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As you laid next to Suna that night on the bed, you scrolled through your homepage on Instagram and came across a post from your husband that comprised of a picture of your daughter in his arms, a video of her smiling with only her two front teeth and learning how to ride a bike, a picture of her weeping as she solved mathematics practice questions on the dining table and lastly a picture of her smiling as she held her high school diploma on stage.

You certainly got a laugh out of his caption.

sunarin25 It is admirable for a man to take his son fishing, but there is a special place in heaven for the father who takes his daughter shopping.

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atsumiya caption is Real 💯

aranojiro Such wise words 🙌 Congratulations d/n 😘

t.oikawa congratulations beautiful girl! @/d/n don’t forget to check your mailbox for a surprise 🤭

bokoutarou AWW the way she smiles doesn’t change 😭

kurootetsu.17 I still remember when that kiddo threw up all over you 😂 Now she’s all grown up 🥹

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theecunt · 1 year

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Omfg y'all i just had a major epiphany !!!! 🤠🤠 + Success story 😸

( warning ⚠️ : veerrryyy long post )

So basically .... I usually just scroll loa blogs (as one does) and i always saw something like "consciousness is the only reality" or "imagination is the real reality"

And i was always like "girl wtf is you talkin about 🧐" and i never read them cuz i didn't understand it and i didn't want to overcomplicate the loa anymore 🙄✋

(Note : i still don't know if this is what they meant . This is just what I think)

Fast forward ..... I was at school. Bored. And i was just reminding my self of my rules bcuz I'm tryna work on my mindset

And just kept on thinking on how fast 3d conforms to the 4d

And i realised it !!!

They were right . The 3d doesn't matter. The 4d is the only reality 😲

Lemme elaborate 🤓

(⚠️ warning I'm kinda bad at explaining things so bear with me 😃)

First things first ,

what is law of assumption?

"an assumption though false if persisted will harden into fact"

So basically if you think it's true , it is

Now let's see what 4d and 3d is ,

4d = inner world (imagination )

3d = our outer world (aka the 'real reality')

So now that's clear let's move on 🚶

Now what if I told yall that 4d and 3d are the same thing 😶‍🌫️

Yup u heard me right .

It's true 🤷

How ???

I'll tell you how .

So basically the 3d mirrors the 4d right ?? It has to . That's the fckin law

That's it's only purpose (and this is why it's stupid to react or give power to 3d )

If it's true in 4d , it's true in 3d

Simple right ? Then why do ppl not get results

Bcuz they think it takes time for 3d to conform

We all know that the 4d is instant. All loa blogs say it

Again, if it's true in 4d it's true in 3d

So , if 4d is instant then 3d is instant

Bcuz 3d only reflects the 4d

This might be confusing 😝

So let's get mathematical 🧑‍🏫

4d = instant

3d = mirrors 4d

So , 3d = instant

Therefore,

(4d = instant)(3d = instant)

4d = 3d (both instant)

Also,

4d is imagination and 3d is the real reality

If 4d = 3d

Then, imagination= real reality

Thus ,

Imagination is the real one not the 3d ✍️

if I have apple 🍎 in 4d i have apple 🍎 in 3d . There is no other option . Loa can't fail .its impossible .

It's just like law of gravity : if something goes up , it comes down

Law of assumption: if it's true in imagination then its true in real life

You don't wait for gravity to work . It comes down just as instant as it went up

If it took 4 secs to go up . It takes 4 secs to come down . Not 5 . Not 10 . 4 !!!!

THERE IS NO FAILURE IN LOA . YOU CANT FAIL . ITS IMPOSSIBLE 🙌

Conclusion

It isn't "the 3d will reflect the 4d"

It's "the 3d reflects 4d"

No will , no going to . It does . That's it

If u say it takes time for 3d to conform it implies that 3d and 4d are 2 different things . It's not .

Persisting doesn't mean think from ur desire 24/7 . It means think of ur desire . Know it's done and move on. Do something else .

Now onto the success story 🥳

(I know a lot y'all looove to read success stories to believe in something. Which is fine ☺️ we all need motivation from time to time . But don't be dependent on them )

Ok so it's kinda "small" success story. But it proves everything i mentioned above so...

Anyway so I was going Back home from school (after this epiphany)and there is this road with a divider thingy so that 4 wheeler vehicles won't come . Anyways it's been removed for a while and i was just thinking

"oh that thing is gone . Hmmm. I guess cars are gonna come on this road "

And in less than 5 seconds a fckin car comes from the opposite side ‼️

And it's no coincidence bcuz my whole life i have NEVER seen a car on that road . Even my mom was like "oh that's weird cars don't come on this road "

So yeah that it .

Read until it sinks in . It could be a lil confusing a first

Or don't if u don't want to . U make the rules . 🙂

Bye babes 😘

#mindset #self concept #master manifestor #loa #success stories #manifesting #epiphany

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you-remind-me-of-the-babe · 2 years

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✨Hey! Look at me posting again! ✨

I have been having a rough start of the school year, but things have shifted recently and although it might mean more work, it will be better over all for my mental heath, so that’s good!

I’m working on the next chapter of How to Avoid a Scandal (part 2 of their spa getaway, if you’re in the know) and guess what? I’m going to the real Ojai Valley Inn and Spa for a day trip tomorrow! My mom just turned 60 and I’m taking her as a gift. Plus, you know, fic inspiration never hurts. 😝 Did I write the following snippet so I’d have something to share today? Yes, yes I did. But it’s getting the wheels turning! 🙌

Simon

I feel fucking amazing. Like I’m walking on air. Baz and I have just finished dinner. (And probably more wine than we should have had, but who’s counting?) A slight breeze is blowing as we walk through the resort grounds back to our suite. It’s nice, and I find myself pulling Baz tighter to me just because I can. Our arms are linked together and when his hips pull up next to mine it makes me sigh a little.

“My whole body feels like liquid.” I hear my voice before I’ve realised I’ve said it out loud.

Baz chuckles. “That’s probably because you’re more Merlot than human at this point.”

He makes it sound as though we’re completely shit-faced but I don’t feel that far gone. I feel buzzed and content. I doubt he’s that drunk either. I’ve got my arm through his but it’s not like I’m propping him up.

“What I meant was that my muscles feel like liquid. From the massage,” I clarify, and I’m proud my words don’t slur together. Because I’m fine.

I love you all and seeing what you’re working on, even though I haven’t been writing and sharing as much lately. Hopefully soon! Thank you for the tags today @palimpsessed @martsonmars @johnwgrey @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @confused-bi-queer @facewithoutheart @artsyunderstudy and also for the tags last week @tea-brigade @fatalfangirl @stardustasincocaine @nightimedreamersworld @bookish-bogwitch @prettylightsbigcity @whatevertheweather @whogaveyoupermission @castawaypitch @cutestkilla throwing some additional tags to @aristocratic-otter @captain-aralias @ivelovedhimthroughworse @raenestee @toonysart @takitalks @onepintobean @forabeatofadrum @asticou @ic3-que3n @wetheformidables @yellobb @ionlydrinkhotwater @moodandmist

#how to avoid a scandal #corb 2022 #snowbaz #baz pitch #simon snow #carry on fanfiction #my writing

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baura-bear · 8 months

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OK MAURA FIRST OF ALL BANGER POST!!! AS FUCK!!!! 💯💯💯 and now i will take the opportunity to dump. a bit of info + thoughts about david and his fav polish books.

as i mentioned!! pan tadeusz (mr. thaddeus) by adam mickiewicz is definitely one of david's favorites. it's basically a very important (for polish folks obv) epic that tells a story about a bunch of people in a traditional polish manor house, it has elements of love and also mentions uprisings (fighting against the oppressors at that time) and i just. always imagined david's grandpa (before david had to leave poland) also telling davey stories about both the uprisings and how life used to look like in a manor like that or at least a village nearby! and i think davey just loves to reflect on that and his favorite part is definitely the description of how life looked like and how the house looked like and. yeah.

while talking about mickiewicz! he's just a well known poet and i think david likes his ballads in general. they're all from the romanticism epoque and so they're a little mystical and very dramatic (which davey learns to appreciate with age i imagine?) and he definitely loves some of the quotes from these. example (rough translation of course) "a heart isn't a servant, it does not know what a master is" and. i think that one little quote helped david connect with his queerness a lot especially!

ok moving on. i mentioned wesele (wedding reception?) by stanisław wyspiański. it got published in 1901 soo 2 years after canon but whatever. and basically it's a drama about a polish reception in a small traditional village style but its main charm is that it's also a critique of various polish attitudes at the time! i won't dwelve into it obviously because it could be boring but i just think that it would give david a grand old time with connecting all the subtle references to actual real life events and he definitely just loves the symbolism

and also. latarnik (light house keeper) by henryk sienkiewicz! a very short novella that tells a tale of a man who's supposed to turn the light on in a light house every single night, but one night he gets a shipment of a few polish books (such as pan tadeusz) and he gets very emotional about it because he spent 40 years away from poland and. i think david relates to that a little? he definitely misses his home at least a little (or at least some parts of it) and. yeah

and !!! you mentioned david loving long and good descriptions!! well then henryk sienkiewicz is known for that (and that's also usually why a lot of people [read: teenagers that have to read his books for school] don't like him)!! quo vadis, krzyżacy (teutonic order), potop (deluge) or w pustyni i w puszczy (in the desert and the wilderness) are all chok full of loooong descriptions of everything and davey would love that.

okay holy hell that turned out to be a little longer than i wanted it to be but ! i just have so many thoughts about david and his polish heritage! rant over. tee hee

Had to pause reading several times to giggle and scream into my pillows. DAAVVVEEEEE I’m just sitting here making different sounds trying to figure out how I can verbalize how much I love this. The thing about his grandpa reading to him??? 🥹🥹🥹scream sobbing. AND THE THE HEART QUOTE AND DAVEYS QUEERNESS HHHHHHHH OH MY GOD th thank you so much for sharing I am cradling this information like 🤲

I need to find this one fic I once read because it was just 🙌 idk why this made me think of it but I’m gonna find it and post it on here because I need the world to read it

#asks #David jacobs

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cdmagic1408 · 11 months

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Hello! Hello!! Hello!!!

Quest Masters! Friends! Followers, old and new! Anybody who’s reading this! Greetings all!

Soooooooo…uh…yeah…I uh…I kinda disappeared for quite a while there, didn’t I?…he he… 😅

but FEAR NOT! Because everything’s cool!

Well actually…it’s MORE than cool because as of two Fridays ago, I AM NOW OFFICIALLY A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!! With Magna Cum Laude honors!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! 🎓 😃 🙌

Long story short: THAT’S where I’ve been

Long story long? Well…I might get into that later…maybe, maybe not...we'll see...there’s so much more I want to say right now…like no joke I was legit going make this one of those on-and-on rambling posts, in fact I really did type this as one of those posts at first cause I tend to be a rambler lol...

but then I realized it was a little too much, I mean for real if it was too much for me I knew full well it’d be too much for you all 😵‍💫

I’ve just come back here! And I kinda wanna take it slow in a way, you know? 🙂

Really the important thing is that I've returned! And I’m gonna start posting regularly again beginning today! 📝

After spending the first of my two weeks post-graduation getting cozy back in my hometown again, I’ve been spending this last week or so prepping my return here, figuring out what I want to post and what changes and adjustments I want to make...one of them being creating and putting in a much needed updated pfp and header! Which I've done, uploaded, so I can check the box on that! ✅

But yeah there are more updates to come obviously cause believe it or not, the very huge posting block I had all the way back in fall/winter is gone now and I have a full note list of things I want to say and share on here! Including a new blog series idea that I believe will benefit me, you guys, and won't take a whole lot of work...you’ll see what I mean later… 👀

So again...HELLO! good to be here! and I'm excited to be with you all again too! I am finally free from the school/working world for the time being, and while I spend the next who-knows-how-many months looking for an internship that’ll hopefully land me a full-time job, I can honestly think of no better place to be than to come back here and express myself again! 😄 ✍️ 🎨 🖌️ 🎬 🎞️

#day in the life of cd #real life update #cdmagic1408

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waitingformyfavoritesongs · 1 year

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4:11 pmpdt 4:12 Tuesday 4 April 2023

Incubus probably f*cked the 2 women trump f*cked. 4:13 pmpdt

4:17 pmpdt his face is always changing. They probably made it look 👀 like a face you should trust when you should NOT. They employed all psychological tactics. 4:19 pmpdt

4:19 pmpdt outside skull 💀 acid pain right side above ear 👂. Roof of mouth 👄 acid pain. 4:20 pmpdt

4:21 pmpdt I bet he doesn’t want the world 🌎 to read my blog Bcz all my suspicion is probably TRUE!

6:02 pmpdt I had an Instagram story I posted when they tortured me so much that I became shaky. I can’t (left eye 👁 pain 6:03 pmpdt) what I see is what I get: a fascist? Coercive? Torturous lecherous god who treats people like trash 🗑 but fakes people out with façades. 6:05 pmpdt tummy nausea pain 6:05 pmpdt he hides everything by falsifying documents. 6:06 pmpdt he edited probably all my photos. He made teachers 👨🏻‍🏫 like my Java teacher in high school 🏫 give me an A I didn’t earn. I think 🤔 he gave it to me for effort and for being nice to him. 6:08 pmpdt

6:09 pmpdt but I did put a lot of efforts in art 🖼, English, and math 🧮, and p.e. Read fast food nation the book 📚 in paper back? They probably mentioned about super sized chicken 🍗 legs 🦵 6:11 pmpdt anything? Is possible with god, including dumb jocks, which was most likely real Bcz why would it become a wide spread long lasting saying? I’m not trying to insult. I’m trying to say that is what I was. 6:13 pmpdt in some sort of way. Maybe you can understand? I spent a lot of time at home 🏠 alone. 6:14 pmpdt

6:16 pmpdt if you want to be a greedy jerk and take away from me, stealing my ideas 💡, which is the intellectual equivalent of raping me, and live a lavish lazy lifestyle, it speaks more about you than it does about me. You like to take away from those who operate at a deficit 💸 and who have to put in more effort than you to get stuff done. My art 🖼 was born from my pain and struggles. And you took it away so easy. You’re friends with the devil 👿. I lived without finding my own authentic happiness trying to find happiness. I tried to do well in my classes. I earned my transfer to uc Berkeley. I only did 1 math 🧮 class which was review of algebra. Acid burning 🔥 hot pain back? And butt. 6:24 pmpdt I worked hard in p.e. All my life. I was told I had s*xy legs 🦵 and a nice butt. S*xier than stroh’s butt. It was strange but I think 🤔 the incubus miñion knew it and I’d (gum pain 6:26 pmpdt 😞) look 👀 in the bathroom 🚽 mirror 🪞 b4 showering 🧼 and the sight of my own butt made me want to have s*x with a man 👨. 6:27 pmpdt

6:32 pmpdt idle hands 🙌 are the devil’s playground? Trying to remember the saying. 6:33 pmpdt you think 🤔 he’s going to save someone who will lie about lyrics? That’s like the laziest of the lazy. You can probably only save yourself by displaying any redeeming qualities. Like, confession? I did intaglio printmaking. Even though I had eczema I finished 2 semesters of printmaking (acid skull 💀 brain 🧠 pain 6:36 pmpdt) I guess what I said/wrote above is wishful thinking Bcz if god is lecherous without integrity? Or at least some smarts about work ethic you’d think he’d place some value on something! 6:38 pmpdt

6:42 pmpdt some people formerly told me I was pretty. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ what to believe anymore. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if they were desperate for vag. But I’m trying to remember if some women told me, too? Maybe 🤔. I m not the prettiest... or was... even though someone told me I was the most beautiful woman in the world 🌎! But maybe he was desperate. When he was very attractive he had a girlfriend in every country 10 years before he said that, and I had an attraction to him in 2003. He was nice to me but I guess I wasn’t enough back then (acid hot but pain 6:46 pmpdt) again to another guy. Not good enough until later when I got into UCB, or after graduation 👩‍🎓 6:47 pmpdt never good enough for incubus. 6:47 pmpdt

6:48 pmpdt even when I did algebra it felt like a lot of work. I think I remember it being that way. I even worked backwards? I forget now how but I have a vague memory of “working backwards” (cramps 😞 6:49 pmpdt) to check if I really got it right/correct. 6:50 pmpdt all those graphs 📊 parabolas hyperbolas outliers. Art drawings always felt like a lot of work. Everything felt like a lot of work. 6:51 pmpdt

6:51 pmpdt I felt I really had to do the work myself. Bcz I needed to learn the skills so I can work. So I can be smart. 6:52 pmpdt and I did it with learning disabilities. 6:53 pmpdt I didn’t have a complete understanding of god. Not the way incubus does. 6:53 pmpdt or incubus friends do. 6:54 pmpdt I didn’t put all the pieces of the puzzle 🧩 together. I put in a LOT of effort. And all you devil 👿 friends want to ignore, negate, write off my efforts and my struggles. 6:55 pmpdt

6:56 pmpdt you do that to justify your bad behavior? 6:57 pmpdt I think 🤔 I now understand your logic. It makes sense. God had all his bases covered. The Greek philosophy says you don’t have excellence/righteousness. You have to display it in all your actions in everything you do. I learned that years ago. But now I’m being told it’s a lie. I guess it was psychology to motivate me to work harder and be behaved and celibate. I understand now, that god is saving me from the bad that is in me from my dna 🧬. It’s awful and not awful? All at the same time? I guess I lived in denial the whole time. Thinking I was good, and probably got a little confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ unfortunately but turned around in time before doing much worse, and that maybe my small actions served as learning lessons to prevent worse things from happening in the future. 7:03 pmpdt but now I get it. Now I really feel it and really? realize it. 😞😖😭🤢 7:04 pmpdt this is disheartening and sad. 7:04 pmpdt I really thought 💭 I could find someone to feel that best friend connection to if I fixed my brain 🧠 from all the brain 🧠 trauma. 7:05 pmpdt

7:24 pmpdt even if they confessed and everything came out they would probably all continue to punish me destroy me. And they would probably all continued to be saved and keep doing what they always did. 7:25 pmpdt I’m not looking forward to anything. 7:25 pmpdt

7:26 pmpdt it’s the way it’s always been. Why should expect real change. God saved who he wanted . They’d survive every thing probably. They’ll probably get house 🏠 arrest and a blingy ankle thing and probably still allowed to go every where. 7:28 pmpdt it would be a complete joke. 7:29 pmpdt

7:41 pmpdt so I guess all men rape then. Some are better at hiding it than others. So s*x trafficking I guess doesn’t matter to incubus god. And men who prey on young teens are forgiven then. Which is why no one will help me, and it’s highly probable they got the wrong man 👨 for Sierra LaMar’s case but incubus doesn’t care. As long as he himself is not caught. Antolin might be innocent of everything and thought he had to try to be good so he does non lazy stuff like trim trees 🌳. 7:44 pmpdt

7:45 pmpdt acid hot pain on butt. This world 🌎 is confusing. @_@ but I understand it now. I guess. Unfortunate. I don’t think I will ever reincarnate. My flesh will probably remain on this earth 🌍 and maybe 🤔 this earth 🌍 will become lifeless. 7:47 pmpdt

8:04 pmpdt if you ever heard 👂 of Mensa you might have seen testing is timed. If you can answer the questions in time like a fast rabbit finishing the race before the turtle 🐢 then you are smart. I see that I was gas ⛽️ lit 🔥 about the 🦇 bat (Hebrew) daughter hair. I think 🤔 I’m seeing a confession on maroon 5 story symbolically. I believe it. Who ever came around to touch me, even though the spots on my body they touched should have been a sign of intimacy it all felt very not intimate feeling. Except for one move but I guess it was a joke to them to tip things into their favor to trick me for some purposes I don’t yet know. They touched above my but rubbing that area in circles, daintily kissed 💋 my lips 👄, felt something inserted about 2 inches in to my vag back in 2015 and a quick kiss 💋 back then but I was too scared 😱 and ashamed to say anything/report it, and in 2022 end of the year b4 moving in with my aunt again only to move out again Bcz she wasn’t genuine about wanting to live together, while I was in the shower 🚿 they came in for 30 seconds and touched me with my back turned. 8:23 pmpdt 8:24 pmpdt incubus is messing with autocorrect again. Incubus likes to mislead people for his own gains. 8:24 pmpdt I have no memory of laying in bed 🛌 with incubus but he wanted to mislead me last year completely with all the things he did it seemed really like he wanted me to believe him even though it was all a lie. 8:26 pmpdt

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some27-url · 2 years

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I think I figured out why I'm stuck on Inclusions right now.

So I've talked to a couple of y'all about this but I don't have ADHD.

Or rather, that's the truth according to a large portion of my support system. I don't have ADHD because I've never been diagnosed. (Also, have you ever said "diagnosis is a privilege" to someone close to you who doesn't spend any time on tumblr or tiktok? bc I certainly have and boy HOWDY is that a foreign concept for most people.)

I am currently in the process of seeking diagnosis. Several years ago, after already suspecting for a long time that ADHD was a factor, I decided to go ahead and just treat myself like I have ADHD. Reminders for everything. Altering my environment to minimize distraction. Designing the way I accomplish tasks around making sure there is ALWAYS a check in place making sure that the task gets done, even if I set it down and walk away.

The way I handle knives in my kitchen. My routine when I get home from work. The way I organize my fridge. The way I make my grocery lists.

I could go on.

Finally about a year ago I suddenly remembered that I had made that decision and that's why I did things the way I did them, and I had at this point had a real doctor who I was seeing on a consistent basis for the first time in my life, so I asked her what I needed to do. She referred me to someone and said they'd call, and they never called and... well frankly I forgot that I was waiting on them 😅

I started writing Illusions last summer, fully writing both Nora and Mac as having the disorder from the jump... and thinking about it has been sort of a constant reminder that, yeah, I really do have this disorder, and, yeah, I really could be receiving help for it which could enable me to do things that I want to do (like go back to school, write a book, advance in my workplace, focus and be present socially (i hope) instead of having my heads in the clouds, be less emotionally volatile... FOCUS while I'm driving???? and not suddenly wake up going 40 in a 25??? as someone with HELLA anxiety about car v pedestrian accidents you would think that this wouldn't be a problem for me????

So the more I've thought about it the more courage I've had in talking to people about it and particularly in talking to my doctor about it. I finally told her "I think I have ADHD, please help me those people you referred me to (for vague "mental health problems I'd like to sort out" bc I didn't want her to think I was drug seeking or just chasing the latest mental health fad) haven't called yet please please please help me make this happen I wanna LIVE"

And only 2 months later I'm poised to have my first appointment with mental health services tomorrow. 🙌🙌🙌

And I know it could be a long process... or it might not!! Someone close to me was in therapy seeking diagnosis for almost a decade before they received meds. Someone else I know got slapped on aderall within a few months.

SO wish me luck on that bc I'm not sure how the appt is going to go (I realized a couple days ago when my husband asked if I could give examples of how ADHD affected me that I can't bring those examples to mind on demand so I started making a list when I think of them. It's not v long but I'm hoping it will at least give me a jumping off point) but that's not the point of this post.

The point of the post is to say that RJ and Leo are talking about her ADHD. And I don't think they're going to talk about his but also would he bring up that like "I think everyone's brain works like that though" because that's how his brain is too? Sort of? Obvs they have some different inattention and memory and focus issues but baseline is the same... So then they have to deal with that... and also the whole time I'm trying to figure out what words need to come out of their mouths and what their appropriate reactions to each other would be I'm also getting hella distracted by MY brain and MY appointment coming up and -

I had to stop just now bc the baby woke up from his nap and it kind of derailed me and I don't want to invest the time to figure out what I was going to say. Except to say that, like it takes maybe an hour to get really engaged and focused on writing anyways, which is a struggle bc my writing sessions are often only 1.5-2 hours at a time due to my role as primary caregiver to a toddler (and to multiple emotionally needy dogs, just btw) and now on top of that struggle with focus, the material itself, like, SHOVES my attenion away from the task. Two handed shove off of writing dialogue about ADHD and onto obsessing and thought spiraling about my own. 😭

Anyways I g2g now bc the baby needs me and I'm not gonna proofread bc ain't nobody got time for that. Brass tacks: Inclusions is almost impossible for me to make progress on right now but there is seriously SO MUCH to the story past this point so I have a lot of incentive to work on it... eventually. It's just that I'm getting really burnt out on having my precious writing time result in two new lines of dialogue and an hour of thinking in circles over and over and over and over again about my stupid fucking dumb brain that won't work right.

So I might write some other stuff for a while. 😭

#personal #holy moly writing gives me a headache and i ain't even getting things done!!

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staboteur · 6 years

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🙌🏻🙌🏻 double trouble!!!!

Send a 🙌 and I’ll introduce you to an NPC related to my Muse.

//oh shit dude well i guess that means I’ll talk about someone in René’s life and someone in Will’s lmao

//alriGHTY so for René... I know I talked about her a couple times already, but during his 30s, he hung out with an amazing lady named Marina. She’s from... I think when I first wrote about her I said she was from Martinique? Yeah, something like that. Either way, she worked as a freelance sniper (and scout, but not in the way tf2 works like professionally or whatever like she’s eyes in the sky style support). She ended up teaming up with René on a particularly difficult assassination/cover up that involved infiltrating the base of a powerful gang boss. They ended up working well together, with René going in and doing the dirty work while she provided him with assistance from above. They ended up working together for awhile longer, and got really close. They didn’t end up in a relationship because Marina died during a mission after losing in a sniper battle (she was good, but the other guy caught her by surprise and got her). René was devastated. The mission was a success in the end because she died while watching René’s back as he left the scene, but he vowed after that to never work with anyone else ever again. All it led to was tragedy.

//And now onto Will! I think I’ll talk about his parents? His parents... Oh god, they had names at some point but I can’t remember, so I’ll just call them Mr. and Mrs. Paladin. Mrs. Paladin was very much the matriarch of the home, even though Mr. Paladin was the one out working (bc societal standards of the 1920s-1930s wOO america sucks). She basically controlled every other aspect of Will’s childhood life, although he only noticed to the extent of feeling mild discomfort while around her. She set up his relationships with others and was currently going through the process of ensuring that he got that scholarship to go to a semi-prestigious college in their area (so he would get a good education and have his name attached to a good college but still remain under her control... I like to think they lived in Maine or someplace like that, y’know, New England, just... Northeastern America). She was also the one who pushed him to be on the football (american football, not soccer) team in high school, as well as aim for difficult classes (like studying literature and foreign language and things like that since she wanted him to be a lawyer). He didn’t really care at all if she was forcing him to do it, since somehow he was just ‘okay, well I kinda like English, and people tell me I’m pretty smart, and I like playing football with my bros so I’ll go with it!’ or something along those lines. He was a bit of a pushover at the time, a real sweetheart, although pushing him over the edge is really not a good idea (poor jolie learned the hard way but this isn’t about her). Mrs. Paladin, fortunately, never realized what her son was like once he was pushed over the edge because he ran away from home after he uh... kinda murdered Jolie. Mrs. Paladin was heartbroken after losing Will, and when Will next visited home (probably after finishing his contract after RED.... Post-war AU anyone?), he only caught a glimpse of his mother, who would be.... in her 80s or 90s by that time, and since I honestly can’t bear hurting my poor soft boy any more, he got to make amends with his mom before she passed of old age and passed their home onto him.

#//yeaaAA #//anyways #//there the boy goes #//the boys #//i had far more to say about will's mom than marina lmao #//i mean its hard to say shit about someone rene only knew for like #//3-4 years or so #//and then she just mcfucking dies #//so yeah #//also jolie was a bitch so yknow #your-future-husband-just

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