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starview-cafe · 1 year
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Do you forgive yourself?
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Wheatley: Go on and get comfy now... I've got quite a lot to say about this.
Wheatley: I'll start by saying this... I am aware that what I did wasn't right. I'm aware it was... very wrong, actually. I've had a LOT of time to think about just HOW wrong I was. Nothing but time, actually. For about 3 years, I was stuck orbiting this rock. Every time I'd pass by the Earth I'd think about it. For 3 years! And I never once started to feel better about it... I actually think I felt worse as time went on. So, believe me. I am very, very aware of what I've done.
Now, I could sit here all day and give you the rationale for why I acted the way I did. But I don't want to do that. I don't want to sound like I'm just... trying to write it off as being nothing. Like "I was such a victim, and I was completely justified!" Because it's not like that at all. I tried to hurt people. People who had done nothing wrong! ... Well... one of them had done nothing wrong. Let's be honest, the other one totally deserved it--BUT!! BESIDES THAT... The only reasoning I can give you in good conscience is that... I am a right and proper moron. But, at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter WHY I did what I did, now does it? What matters is... I've done it. And I'm not proud of it. Not one bit.
I can sit up here, feeling terrible and sorry all I'd like, but, looking at things realistically,  it's not going to change anything that's happened. You can't change the past. That's all already happened, hasn't it? No matter how hard I wish that I could take it all back, it's just not going to do a bloody thing. I don't … look, I really don't want it to sound like I just don't care. I do! But... I mean, augh… you can only think about something so much before it stops being helpful! I don't think it's doing ANYONE any good for me to continue to dwell on it. 
Do I forgive myself... that's.... that's a bit, pointless to think about, isn't it? That doesn't matter so much, after all I'm not the one to apologize to. I didn't do myself wrong. But I was a horrible monster to her. If anyones forgiveness of me actually has value, it would be hers. But I couldn't even apologize to her if I wanted to... which I do. I want to quite badly. But... even if I did... let's say that I could apologize to her. If I did... I can't control whether or not she forgives me. Apologizing doesn't automatically mean you get forgiveness. And that's completely fair! No one involved has any obligation to forgive me at all. It doesn't matter how sorry I am or how much I regret it. That doesn't play a tenth of a part in it.
I almost think it would be selfish of me to even try to apologize at this point. Do I think reaching out and saying I'm sorry would make her feel better about what happened? Well, no. I doubt it. At that point, it'd just be for me and my closure. I don't want to subject her to percieving me again just for that. I have to consider what she would want, too. And I feel like she would just like to be left alone.
It's like... like if your high school bully reached out to you 11 years after graduation and said "Oi gov, remember all the times I flushed yer gob in the loo? Yea, dreadful sorry for that mate." like, would that make you feel better?? No, of course not! You'd be like... "why the hell is this daft codger talking to me again..." It's just not helpful to anyone!
I can't simply take back what I've done, no matter how much I want to. But I'll tell you--I'll tell you what I CAN change. I can change what I do now. My options after that day are A. carry on being a proper bellend or... or, B.... Don't. Be better. Do better. And you know… I'd like to think that I am.
Do i forgive myself? Well, the answer is no, I don’t. I don’t forgive my past self for what he’s done. That’s why I’m trying to be better, up here.
Wow that was... I know I said I had a lot to say but... that was a LOT to say. Hah... I've just thought about this so much, and never had anyone to really... talk to about it. Just sort of built up, I guess.
Well, thanks for listening, anyways.
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this started off as me pestering gay men and now people are breaking through the house regularly and bringing SCPs into the fucking place and doing twisted science experiments
what the fuck nightwing
This blog knows no normalcy,,
I still love that this thing started by y'all ignoring a majority of what was said on the original post and doing whatever the hell you wanted with it /pos It gives my life a sense of chaos that I didn't realize I needed-
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ask-the-drones · 2 months
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here, have potato
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kaylinalexanderbooks · 5 months
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Behind the Scenes Writing Ask Game
So behind the scenes won the poll, but I thought I'd do an ask game with it!
✍️ "when did you get started writing?"
✏️"what are your current WIPs about?"
📜"how did you get started on your WIPs?"
📝"what stages are you currently in your WIPs?"
🖊️"how does your magic system work?"
🖋️"what inspired you to write your WIPs?"
📖"what has surprised you about your WIPs?"
💻"what perspectives do you write in?"
🖥️"what types of writing do you do?"
❤️"what are your favorite scenes from your WIPs?"
😭"what are the biggest challenges writing your WIPs?"
❗"how many WIPs do you have?"
‼️"what has stayed consistent across all drafts?"
⁉️"what do you do when stuck on a scene?"
❓ask anything you want!
If anyone wants to reblog this to play with too that's totally fine with me!
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restingobject5757 · 8 months
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@lllamagoddessofficial
Honestly would have posted this sooner if it wasn’t for my busy life. But here it is! I honestly love this au. Being special needs, I love puzzles. Honestly could rack my brain abound one for hours. So, for this au, Sans adopted MC when she was a baby. Most of his life had been consumed by work, and it was draining him, and he thought he could put his everlasting life to use by adopting. She quickly became an important staple in his life and in the lab. She had mostly been raised in the labs by the time she was 5. But one day sans had an important checkup, something about a chamber and system. She was still too Little to understand, but that’s all she could really remember upon waking up.  
Once she woke up, she was hungry and needed to pee. But the clothes she was in weren’t hers, and were way to big, that big orange shirt, yeah that’s not a dress, they made it into one.
Upon waking up she heard Sans’s voice and was excited, because yay its dad! She dose exactly as told and walks into the first test chamber. At the moment Sans was looking at something important like a power core, well the automated messages played and Red watched the test. He would re-watch the first test later.
“The new subject has awoken and has started the test, Sex Female, BPM 80, Temperature 35.5c, weight 35 pounds, date of release-.”
“Weight is inconsistent with record, Check again.” Sans said to Red, believing the number to be an error on Red’s part.
“Checking… Weight 35 pounds.” Red would be able to find that out using the pressure of the floor panels.  
“Number is insufficient with record. Test subjects are recorded to be 170.6 pounds. Check pressure panel for damage.”
“Panel is not damaged. Subject weights 35 pounds.”
“Pressure panel is damaged, weight is inconsistent with record, Check again.”
Well, they are “fighting” Mc would be just struggling to reach the button. Trying everything to just push the button. She’d seen lots of people do it before, but she was still little. It would take hours before sans asked the important question.
“What is the current subjects age.”
“Record says there 5 years old.”
And its at that moment that he finally passes the power core duties to Red so that he can finally get a look at the new subject.
“Note, all subjects are timed as part of the test,” Sans’s automated message would read out.
“Dad! I can’t reach! I need help!” Mc would be griping top panel of the button. Her legs just dangling as she tried to find something she could lift herself up with.  
Sans at that moment would be hit with a wave of parental instinct. however instead of acting, it just makes him freeze, not knowing what to do next, checking and checking all the records he had. Maybe there had been a mistake. The cameras were broken, something.
But no, there was no mistake.
“Dad please help I can’t reach!” Mc would sound a little scared “Help I’m going to’ fall!”.
But that fear would be stopped by the feeling of ground beneath her feet. Sans had made a little stepping stool out of the panels. A little set of stairs so she could reach the button. “Thank you!” and her happy little self would push that button. But instead of going onto the next puzzle that was planned, it’s a soft room with rams and stairs and pits of foam. Its an unfinished puzzle, but right now it’s a cool playroom.  Basically, he makes her a big loop of rooms. The relaxion chamber, the first puzzle and the playroom. This is just until he can figure out what he’s going to do.  
Head cannons:
She is the princess of the labs; she could get away with murder if she wanted.
Sans had made a green space to grow her food.
“Her Test” as it called is just her house. It’s a big open concept with plenty of space to play.
Those cored are what connects Red and sans to those bodies, seeing as how they still need to take care of the labs. But this leads to them sometimes being stepped on.
 Skull doesn’t have to deal with that because they are put into his back. They still can get grabbed though.
Mc always wanted to be a tester went she was little, but sans didn’t allow her because she was too little, but now she can do all the fun “grown up puzzles.” Yeah no, sans had baby proofed the heck out of it.
Mc is turning 6 soon, she likes jokes, puzzles, drawings, toys, and soft things. She’s also super trusting as well.
Sans’s body is skinny and light, but it is strong. That blue part is squishy and is made with a gelation that can heat up, and the silicone is meant to simulate skin. His body was meant to resemble his original one as close as possible.  
Red, is well red, He also has the same silicone and gelation combo, however he was given the height advantage to reach Mc if she got stuck somewhere high. The Eyebrows were to give more expression, seeing as sans was rushing to get his model done, his is vrs.0, well red has vrs.3.8.
Skull now unfortunately skulls head was too big to fit into the spares. So, he is a mashup of vrs 0 to 3. But his model makes up for that with more of the silicone and gelation. Its so that he can give her the physical contact she needs.
As for Hit, well he’s the reasons Mc isn’t in a shock collar.
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scrawnym4 · 3 months
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Hihihi I love ur wheatley design so much i wanna give him a smooch ok bye
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he appreciates it
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oh boy i hope i get a strike!!!!!!!! i sure love bowling
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admin sel here! ;
i couldn’t tell if they were turrets but i decided to use turrets to make it a little bit more sillay goofae ^_^
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Hello dearest mutual of mine uhm thoughts on wheatley portal 2 ?
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He is very cool!!! Cute little sphere. Dumb of ass and pure of heart. I think he is misunderstood by the fanbase and just needs a hug. But he also needs to be yeeted across the room for the bullshit he pulled. But also needs headpats because I can't stay mad at him. I love him 💛💙
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portal-au-ask · 9 days
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*teleports both glados and wheatley into an emty room and enables character fighting*
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...you do realize what you have done lmao
he is DEAD.
ofc ima revive him next ask directed to him
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First off, loving the whole clown Stolas thing, idk why this hasn’t been thought of and it’s so cute!
What do you think clown Stolas’s big famous act would be?
Like how Fizz I think it’s him doing the large scale acrobatics using his robot arms and stuff or Blitz probably juggling, throwing swords, or doing clown stuff with a horse or two.
Thank you! And I do agree that its quite cute. However, im not sure I'd want to keep things in line with the main helluva plot. Like maybe stolas and blitz are on better terms in thus au?
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I definitely wanted to incorporate some of his magic into his act!
Opening a small window into the universe with his juggling props as his loose border while a few stars fade in and out of vision!
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starview-cafe · 1 year
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@amethyst-big-dumb
Amethyst: …Oh. Kinda forgot this was a café. I'll take a latte then. Aaaanyway… Man, don't say that about yourself! I betcha a billion bucks that there IS someone out there who could love you. Not me, cuz I'm kinda way younger than you and stuff, but maybe they're even right here in Spaceport! Somebody who can see you for who you really are, not just the Intel- er, funny haha café robot, and adore you, and help you when you're feeling sad and everything, because they genuinely want to see you happy… That'd be a dream come true for you, wouldn't it?
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Wheatley: Although, JUST gonna put it out there… if I ever were to LITERALLY fall at any point, augghh, man! It really would be nice to have someone there, ready and willing to catch me. Able. Also able, that's… that's important. Someone with the upper body strength to really follow through with… catching me.
IF that ever were to happen. You know… As a hypothetical.
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redkehlchen · 4 months
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kindly asking you to draw virgil if you're up for it!
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There he is! :)
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oh tarra
ask by @anideterm3
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Two truths and a lie
Thanks @badluck990!
Rules: post a 24hr poll with two truths and a lie about an OC!
I don't talk about Carla enough
I already did Robbie and Maddie
Tagging @captain-kraken @aziz-reads @blind-the-winds @mysticstarlightduck @little-peril-stories @eccaiia @mk-writes-stuff @writeouswriter @writingsfromspace @buffythevampirelover @sleepywriter00 @frostedlemonwriter @pb-dot @cowboybrunch @tracle0 @tjreidwrites or anyone who wants to hop on!
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TSP tag list (ask to be +/-): @thepeculiarbird @illarian-rambling @televisionjester @fairy-tales-of-yesterday - as always y'all can hop onto this tag if you want
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I want to bite wheatley
affectionately
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Affection received!
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lumashiki · 7 months
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A soft reboot/expansion of the QnA! Apologies for the questions on here that I didn't get to..! Don't be afraid to ask it again! They don't bite! ^^
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