I want to love you
and not be terrified
of it, of you
of what it could change
but I would love you poorly
if I loved with anything less than my full heart
and I would love you wrongly
if I didn't cherish each piece of you
please give me time
if you can grant me patience
I am creature of selfishness and fear
and you make me want to be brave
but casting off the long played roles
is more difficult than anything I have tried
but I swear
one day my lips will tell you all
-- until then, I am always half honest by Abby S
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you should have told her,
that she gave you butterflies
and made your palms sweaty
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that her voice was the one
you'd hear in a crowded room.
that you wanted to listen to that laugh
for the rest of your life.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that when she kissed your cheek
for the first time, it fixed your
broken heart and re-
awakened your soul.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that night you were scared.
that to love her,
would mean you'd be in ruin.
you couldn't face what it would mean
if she didn't love you.
you were scared that eventually after
all this time to listen to your heart
you'd loose her and her love.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
outside on that cold january night
that she was worth the risk of heartbreak.
that looking into her eyes hoping
she wouldn't see past your facade,
that the truth was beating out of your chest.
you should have told her the truth
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that if you kissed her it wouldn't
be a meaningless kiss.
it would always be more than that.
she'd always mean more than that.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
you were falling in love
before she fell for
someone else.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that seeing her with someone
else was slowly breaking your heart.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
that you could be that
person she wanted.
that you'd love her forever.
but you didn't.
you should have told her,
to stay.
that when she left you'd be
missing half of yourself,
you'd only be half whole.
but you didn't.
i should have told you,
i loved you
but i didn’t.
things i should have told you, but didn’t.//t.c
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but she’s a hero, you know. the strong kind, the hold-up-the-sky kind, the too-good-for-this-world kind. she’s a hero, and she doesn’t deserve this.
because she is kind, too-good-for-this-world kind, and i think that’s what makes her a hero. her heart is too big, and she carries it in her hands and i think it’s as heavy as the sky anyway and even if atlas was never a hero, she is.
and she’s a hero, and she doesn’t deserve this, but we all know how this story ends and even if you rip out the last page it doesn’t stop the story from ending.
she’s a hero, she is, and one day it’s going to kill her. because her heart is too big, and she carries it in her hands, and no one can hold up the sky forever.
— heroes are only heroes until it takes its toll // p.s. (edit for @1-800-hellyeah)
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"people who see the soft and quiet and beautiful will always want to hurt it"
— soft, by Oliver J. Allen
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Shouting into the void
Hoping something feels called
To answer me back with
A hello or an ily
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Some people need compassion, and cannot find any. Others cannot find compassion within themselves to share with others. That all people have compassion in their lives, actively, both to receive and to share, this I pray.
james lee jobe
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i am a graveyard; a mausoleum of old wounds and discarded desires, a cemetery of abandoned ambitions and girls i could have been.
i am a mirrorball; shattered and shining, a collection of jigsaw pieces crushed together to make a half-hoping, half-desperate facade.
i am a daughter; treading on uncertain tip-toes, tired and faltering, voice hoarse and knees bruised from years of begging to be loved.
— i am trying; l.h.
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You took something from me
A hope you never gave
A ray of starlight you never meant shine
You took my belonging
My welcome
My love
And turned it away
And it hurts like i was broken
Like I was crushed and left to die
But nothing was your fault
A simple mistake
A slip of the tongue
A moment's bliss for thousands
But now it's gone
It healed something in me
It gave me a place to be
(What you got to be when you took it back)
Just me
Read the tags
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I want to go back,
To the threads of this
third interconnected space
but the past is not a home
but a haunt.
I don't know who or what
became stagnant, or if my
roots just became too big
for the pot I was planted in.
You moved on, and that's good
and fine, and yes it's selfish
having been the first to drift
but I'd have liked to wish
you well in the leaving;
Maybe curiosity will pique your interest,
and you'll find my reply, three
maybe four years delayed.
I expected things to be the same,
but there are still old loves, new joys:
I missed you, I hope you're doing well.
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Messier 31
You remember at the speed of moonlight reaching Earth:
1.25 seconds.
Enough time for a head shaking no. Or turning away indifferently.
Not enough for a warm embrace. Let alone to hold someone from falling apart.
Perfect time for profane words, though.
You remember in momentary flashes that only last for the duration a smile is forming. Or a single teardrop rolling down the cheek. Or a laughter made of corn popping. Or a heart made of glass breaking to pieces.
I could list more things in the span of the speed of sunlight reaching earth: 8 minutes and 20 seconds. But, will you remember them?
Because you only remember glimpses at the speed of moonlight reaching Earth:
1.25 seconds.
Enough time for a single affectionate stroke at your back.
Enough time to intertwine fingers with your beloved.
Enough time for a thank you.
Enough time for ‘I love you’.
Yet, you want eternity.
Or, at the very least, the speed of light from Andromeda reaching Earth, 2,54 million years, just to remember the glint of galaxy, in your mother’s eyes.
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the days I love myself
are few and far between
for the world moves so fast
that I am unable to notice
when I have gained something precious
when I have learned something new
everyone I once loved has disappeared
and nothing new has filled the emptiness
All I have is yearning
this bitter brittle feeling in my bones
and no place to direct it
_ the days after a hurricane by Abby S
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darling,
believe me when i say,
for me there was no one else but you.
but in this story,
this is the way it ends
with history keeping us apart
and calling it a tragedy.
darling we were so much more than what history made us | letters of a lost love.//t.c
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but they're a hero, you know. the strong kind, the hold-up-the-sky kind, the too-good-for-this-world kind. they're a hero, and they don’t deserve this.
because they are kind, too-good-for-this-world kind, and i think that’s what makes them a hero. their heart is too big, and they carry it in their hands and i think it’s as heavy as the sky anyway and even if atlas was never a hero, they are.
and they're a hero, and they don't deserve this, but we all know how this story ends and even if you rip out the last page it doesn’t stop the story from ending.
they're a hero, they are, and one day it’s going to kill them. because their heart is too big, and they carry it in their hands, and no one can hold up the sky forever.
— heroes are only heroes until it takes its toll // p.s. (edit for @1-800-hellyeah)
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I recently celebrated a birthday and it wasn't a truly happy one, but still better than some I have experienced in the past.
— Excerpt of another year of growing older, by Oliver J. Allen
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winter morning by James Crews
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Eeehahahahdughdhvishdkghskskrntjsjsgfj shakes him I like how this turned out. Tee hee funny Surge lore
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