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anosrepasi · 2 years

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So I said i was getting back into The Old Guard but also tumblr sandman content has infected me and this idea has been stuck in my head since i realized that i adored the character of Hob Gadling and thought, oh dude what a great character foil for another immortal character who goes through uhhhh, a lot of similar experiences but does no where near as well with it.

aka. What if Hob Gadling and Sebastien Le Livre became drinking buddies. Part two is here

Call it his age but Hob can’t help but feel that the world sends its boys to war now, rather than its men. The nations rally their youth to glory and service, in the name of queen and country, and ship them off to win the war on distant shores. Most come back in boxes.

He can only watch so much of that before he’s stopping by the nearest recruitment office and putting his latest fake name forward for the draft.

It’s a silly notion, that his presence can change the tide in what’s already being called “the great war.” He’s not looking to change the tide per say, but if he can save a few dumb kids who haven’t gotten the chance to live yet, well, then a few years invested in being a soldier again will be well worth it.

He’s got nothing pressing going on anyway, not for 76 years at the earliest.

So Hob Gadling fits the mantle of soldier back on his shoulders again, muddles through his training to neither fall behind or exceed expectations of a normal man his age, and gets himself shipped off to France to fight the Germans.

It goes as well as expected.

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He cycles through units, and ends up staying near Ypres more often than not. His name mysteriously never ends up on the list for the men who’ve done their time on the front line and are reassigned to support or leave. He sticks close to where the fight is and doesn’t get friendly enough with anyone to cause an uproar about his lack of leave time.

He can’t die, better him here than somewhere else.

That doesn’t mean that he doesn’t start to recognize his comrades on rotation though.

They’re young fools, the majority of them. There’s an occasional old-timer like himself, and he can see the moment of recognition across the trenches when he’s stationed with someone else who’s seen war before. There’s a slight nod and that’s that.

As the war progresses however, it gets far more difficult to tell the old guard from the new. War ages a man, this one especially.

One of the boys in his present squad, down to five until more reinforcements can be brought in, cracks a joke one quiet morning that he’ll head home and be mistaken for his uncle when his parents meet him at the station. Hob hears a quiet scoff, “Better old than dead.”

His eyes glance up to the man on guard, a man around Hob’s age or slightly older. He’s quiet, keeps to himself in the week since he’s been rotated into Hob’s unit. He’s vigilant, in a way that Hob can respect as a man who’s more aware of his surrounds than he lets on.

“Cheers to the words of Private Book, wisest man this side of the western trench complex.” Hob runs his mouth without thinking and Book’s eyes flicker down to him before returning to his watch.

“Un sot trouve toujours un plus sot qui l'admire.” Private Book says quietly, and Hob can’t help but have his interest suddenly piqued by the quiet words.

The man quotes Doyle but with an accent far more perfect than any Englishman who had a primer in French. Maybe he’ll have someone interesting to discuss literature with out here after all.

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The Germans get lucky and manage to aim one fucking shell near perfectly into the middle of their particular stretch of trench that evening.

Hob comes to surrounded by the overarching noise of active warfare and the contrasting silence of everything around him. The nearest allied trenches are occupied at the moment so he has a moment to collect himself and come up with a plan before he’s set upon by either his allies or trench sweepers.

His stomach twists and protests as instead he forces his lungs to cough up the blood and dirt mixed in his mouth and tries feebly to call roll. “Smith. Karlson. Book. Turner. Any of you make it?”

The dead do not answer and Hob sighs, cursing and shakily getting to his feet to survey the damage. It’s not good. He’ll have to move, but he stops by each body and gently closes their eyes or position them into some sort of posture of rest, rather than a tangle of limbs.

Its when he’s saying rights over Turner, bless the kid’s hopeful soul, that body next to him jerks and shudders back into life with a gasp.

Hob has failed to die many a time, but he’s yet to see someone else come back to life in all his years. Getting caught by surprise isn’t a necessarily ridiculous response. He falls back, away from the body- man?, on instinct and offers his own short curse when the body of Private Samuel Book sits up with a groan and sighs when it catches sight of its hand knitting the flesh back together on the side that caught the blunt of the shells explosion.

Samuel Book looks up and freezes when he catches sight of Hob, the next moment both men are speaking in unison, “How the fuck did you survive that?”

#my writing #Hob Gadling #sebastien le livre #Booker #will this become a fic? yeah probably #is it totally nonsensical? oh yes #but i think hob deserves more friends and would be a good influence on booker #will it change anything for either canon? oh no not at all #also woe is me i fucking hate war history and tactics and i had to google pretty much everything about the setting to write this intro #the sandman #the old guard #also! so many typos! I am heading to bed! I wrote this in an hour of hyperfixiation! I need to be up in like 6 hours form now!#please excuse the typos this is proof of concept!

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plutoswrath · 1 year

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Hi, could you please do saturn in Taurus culture please?

Hello!

Saturn in Taurus: The Dream of a Good Life

🥀 (not proof read, please excuse any typos or grammatical mistakes!) So we have Saturn sitting in a Venus ruled sign, a fixed sign that is too, so we do talk about restrictions when it comes to a general sense of feeling good and what we desire to accumulate. Obviously we will have to talk about material possessions, but don’t worry this won’t be the only thing I’ll focus on (there’s more to it).

🥀Financial/material trauma gang rise!!! this is the Saturn sign that has people obsessed with material and financial (in)stability because often times (financial) security wasn’t given to them. They could’ve grown up in an environment were they experienced (some sort of) poverty, financial trauma, etc.

🥀Realized early on what it means to work for money and what it means to invest it, as well as the consequences of spending it without any second thought. ‘Luxury’ or a well off lifestyle could’ve been something they work towards or that wasn’t achievable in their early years.

🥀Potentially might have bad spending habits and therefore experience

🥀Instability and irresponsibility is a major trigger; this Saturn placement can make you bound to set routines and believes that are rooted in fear of loss. I don’t think this placements makes you money obsessed as in wanting to be rich, I think at best it can teach you gratitude and especially living and enjoying the moment BUT Saturn in taurus can make you a scaredy cat of the future because of this immense fear of loss and not having enough, especially if other placements and aspects play into it

🥀That being said, there can be a general affinity to finally have what others seem to achieve and accumulate easily. It’s not o my about the pretty clothes and going out for dinner once per week but also about an inner sense of acceptance and peace. Saturn in taurus makes you very strict with yourself.

🥀Taurus is known for the potential to endear, be patient and work thorough and long term. Once their mind is set in something they work towards it. Saturn in Taurus teaches the native endurance as well, but not because they want to but because they had to. Often said endurance was paired with material and societal limitations, it’s a feeling of having no other choice, therefore a feeling of discomfort/depression can grow within these people. These people can feel more so exhausted than people who have taurus placements in less afflicted positions or in malefic planets. Here, the endurance can come close to silent suffering while working away one’s youth and potential. These people can work very hard and are comfortable doing stuff on their own. There's trouble asking for help and taking it easy on yourself.

🥀What really is prevelant here, is that thes epeople can have a difficulty really enjoying the outcomes of their hard work. Enjoying things just because is even a more foreign concept for them. There's always a fear of loss and a feeling of having to wait in order to enjoy things involved. One example could be saving food for 'special moments' just for it to be rotten when you grab it out of the corner of your fridge. Waiting for the sake of waiting. Being fed up and then overindulging, just to fall back into abstinence. A vicious cycle of punishment.

🥀Again, there can be a set belief that one doesn't deserve good things, or at least, that good things don't come easy in life. Honestly, this Saturn placement can make one very depressed and create the mindset that one is supposed to stay small and miserable in a way. Saturn Taurus is loyal and devoted at best, blinded by their beliefs at worst, so the concept of letting go and that it is oaky to change your mind in order to fit your desired way of living is empathized in this placement.

🥀Since Taurus is Venus ruled, I also want to mention that interpersonal relationships can be hit by Saturns influence too. Just because taurus is earth ruled doesn’t mean it’s disconnected from the social side of Venus, a lack of security or permanence in relationships can be prominent here, therefore they search for people who are committed and know what they want and if they want something long term (platonic, romantic, etc.)

🥀Persistence is key here and knowing what you want! Especially when the native grew up with a 'lack of', they can subconsciously try to make up for it in superficial, meaningless ways. What they want and work towards will crystalize over the years. It's important to define the value system because taurean energy works heavily with a set value system. That's how they are able to prioritize and make the best and most use of the fixed energy.

🥀Earth sign energy has the tendency to age like fine wine, especially if it's paired with Saturn. With age these people will learn that they deserve good things in life and that hard work actually will pay off when it's done for the right reasons: the things they want to accumulate! The house of the Saturn placement will give more details what exactly will be highlighted when it comes to these difficulties.

🥀With the 6th and 2nd house it can be the job, or how you manage your everyday life and physical health. Spending money on self care, searching for an apropriate work environment, etc. With the 9th it can be higher education, what you decide to study, your religious path. With the 7th house it can be partnerships and with the 8th it can be intimate connections and finances. With the 12th house it can be mental health, finally deciding to actually invest money in your own healing. You get the idea.

🥀Anyways Saturn in Taurus people will learn how to finally enjoy life, think of the 9 of pentacles . You'll be able to sit in your own, blossoming garden one day and won't feel as cynical and depressed looking at it. You just really have to have a clear image of what it is you really want and allow yourself to have it. Once you embrace that you are allowed to have good things in life, seeing and feling that will become easier because you're more open for it (if you're mentally ill like me that's not as easy done as said but still a good thought to keep in mind lol).Instead of seeing the cup as half empty, it's half full in that sense (or at least you'll see it for what it is: just a glass of water, not too little, not too much).

credit: plutoswrath, 2023.

#replies #anonymous #saturn #saturn in taurus #astrology #zodiac #astro notes #astrology notes

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seapandora · 4 years

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Tell Me Why

Peter Parker!CollegeAU x Reader

Warnings: angst, not a happy ending, swears (Like a lot of them, beware). Typos

A/N: So my friend gave me this idea. Obviously this kind of fanfic has been written before. Its not a new concept. Just enjoy it. I hate angsty fics myself, at least those that don’t end happy, but oh well. I´m stressed and a little pissed so here it is. I havent proof read it yet, and probably never will. I tried to write it as non-descriptive as I could but I probably messed up somewhere. Please reblog with your comments and help a gal out.

Words: 1011

6 pm

Not a sign of Y/Ns boyfriend of two years. Well he could just be a few minutes late, he had an exam late in the afternoon, after all.

7 pm

Still no sign Y/Ns boyfriend. Y/N was starting to get pissed off. It wasn’t the first date he had missed or skipped or whatever he said he did. It was annoying and this date was important. It was their anniversary. Y/N looked up and around the diner, they had ordered and was eating their fries currently as they looked up at the TV. It was a live feed showing Spider-whoever taking down some criminals. Why couldn’t Petr be like that? Y/N thought, show up just in time. They sighed and finished their fries before dumping a 20-dollar bill on the tabl and leaving the diner. They got to their car and jumped in starting it up to get the heater on. It was January and New York was bloody cold. Why ahd no one told Y/N, New York was a cold ass city during the winter months. Had they known they would have never moved there. They turned the ignition on fully and drove to the campus. They ahd their own small apartment there and knew they wouldn’t be bothered by Peter. He would probably wake up tomorrow morning with an excellent excuse to why he had skipped anniversary dinner.

Now you may wonder, why would they have their anniversary dinner in a cheap diner? Well, you see, that was the spot of their first date. Yeah, duh, cliché, we know. Y/N sighed as they parked in the only empty spot of the campus. Maybe they´d pass by Neds dor and hang with him. They made their way up the stairs and knocked on Neds door hich was just three doors from their own dorm. Ned opened the door and frowned. “Ehum, now isn´t the best time Y/N” which was weird because Ned never ever ever said no to a visit from Y/N. “He´s here isnt he?” Y/N asked and groande loudly. “Fuck me, fuck this. Tell him to go fuck off will you, and oh tell him Im fucking done with his no-show bullshit, alrigth.” Y/N continued and behind Ned, Peter popped his head out. From what Y/N could see he was half naked.

“Shoot, Y/N I got so busy, I was just about to go to the… you know.” He said and smiled awkwardly. “Go where Peter? You don’t even remmeber do you? And I dated you for two years, what a fucking waste. I came to New York for you, Ive spent two cold ass winters here for you and this is how you thank me. I really thought that you of all people would understand the importance of a relationship.” Y/N said as they felt tears spring in their eyes. They wouldn’t cry in front of Peter though, no he didn´t deserve that. Those tears were reserved for Y/Ns pillow and their pillow only. Before they could say anything more Y/N turned and ran towards their own dorm. They unlocked the door and got in quickly before locking the door behind them.

The bed was tempting, but shower came first. It was important to maintain a healthy routine, plus that mascara would not make the sheets a happy sight to see in the morning. Y/N took a good, long shower, they had earned it. Washed their face and hair because it was time for their me-time. Once they were out of the shower they put on a face mask and got themselves a drink, just a regular diet soda. Alcohol had been strictly banned after the last party and well, Y/N didn’t want to risk her education that she had paid a lot for, because she had alcohol in her dorm. They heard the door but didn’t bother and instead put in some earbuds and turned on some music as they waited for the face-masks time to be up. Once it was they massaged the extra serum into their skin before brushing their teeth and heading to bed.

Peter was on the outside of their bedroom window which wasn’t hard as Y/Ns dorm was on the first floor. Y/N really didn’t care though and they didn’t want to talk to Peter. They walked over to the window and turned the blinds. Peter was left standing out there in the cld watching as the person he loved shut him out completely. He knew he had messed up, but he wanted to make it right. Why would Y/N let him make it right. Y/N wanted to talk it out with Peter, but that wasn’t an option right now. They werent sure when it would be an option. Probably not for a long time. Peter had ditched them one too many times and it hurt them. They werent sure what was going on but had to fear the worst in case of protecting themselves. Of course Peter had an affair. Could it even be called an affair if they werent married or at least engaged. He had something on the side of what they had. Why else would he be late or never show for dates, why else would he come home drenched in sweat. Why else would he spend so much time on his phone with someone named Happy.

Y/N honestly just wanted the truth, but they werent ready for it. They needed time to think and process. And they needed time to heal. They checked their phone seeing several calls and texts from peter. They unlocked their phone and quickly went into his contact and put him on mute. They did the same for Ned as they figured Peter would try to go through Ned to get in contact. Y/N went to bed and curled up closest to the wall with a pillow against their chest. In the words of Tauriel `Why does it hurt so much?´, they thought and then quickly remembered the words of Thranduil although they couldn’t get themselves to think of them.

#peter parker #peterparker x reader #peter parker x you #peter parker fanfiction #peterparker fanfic #avengers fanfiction #spiderman #spiderman fanfiction #spidermanfanfic #college au fanfic #fanfic #fanfiction #angst #fanfic angst #avengers #marvel

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go-diane-winchester · 5 years

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Why destiel shippers should not speak about destiel endgame?

@the-winchesters-ruined-my-life asked the following question.

Thank you for the ask. A short while back, my prim and proper side, would have responded diplomatically that its a merely ship, an artistic platform, and therefore does not warrant any hate from most level headed people. However, I have to realize that even art activates the tolerance threshold. I used to read destiel slash out of curiosity. There are many more like me who dipped their toes in the destiel cesspool, only to recoil in disgust when they realized that it was probably going to give them gangrene. Destiel was a sweet little ship, once upon a time, until things dramatically changed for the worst. Most people who ship destiel are extreme by design because that is how the meta writers designed their thinking. Non heller fans contradict each other. I don't see that with hellers. Some upper echelon hellers says something and these fans just accept it without question. Take for example, the following post, recently penned by @anti-anti-destiel, lamenting the impending end of SPN.

The first flaw, is the OP's name. They are glitching the tags with a name like this. Everything and everyone has an anti tag. What makes destiel so special that it must never have an anti tag? That is manipulative and delusional because nothing will disappear just because you wished it away. People that are going to despise destiel are growing, whether OP sticks her head in the stand or not.

Anyway, here is the post, which I edited where necessary and italicized. My responses are in bold.

....Season 15 will be the last, with another 20 episodes.

There has been talk about queerbaiting in the past, and whether or not SPN will go down in history as a show with a slow-burn queer romance, or whether it will be forever known as the most queerbaiting show in existence.

This is why non-destiel fans get infuriated. If there are any ''good'' destiel fans out there, why don't they tell this entitled princess to stop ruining the reputation of a show that has genuinely made people happy? SPNFamily is very ironic when you want to tear apart a show that gave made you smile for 14 seasons. This alone makes me wonder if there are any ''good'' destiel shippers out there. The other hot topic is that of queer baiting. Notice how queer baiting is NOT up for debate. I have seen the master list of ''proof'' that SPN is queer baiting. The parallels, metaphors and prop analysis are extremely insulting to adult human intellect. Performing Dean is perhaps the most biphobic concept I have ever come across. There is a reason these meta writers don't want their head canon's discussed because they know that people with logic with wipe the floor with them. I can almost picture Jensen bursting into laughter if he ever read that master list. It is that nonsensical. The meta writers claim they are being queer baited, and everyone believes it. Nobody questions the writers. Why?

All the cards will be on the table in the writers’ room.

Dabb is destiel friendly.

Bobo is destiel friendly.

Davy is destiel friendly.

Steve is destiel friendly.

Meredith is destiel friendly.

Buckner and Ross-leming are ???

Singer is ???

When a meta writer writes something like this, how come low level destielers don't ever question her? Why not ask her: if Dabb and gang are destiel friendly, then why is it that Cas didn't even get invited to 300th episode family dinner party? They practically forgot about him. BuckLeming are NOT destiel friendly, because Leming [along with Misha] claimed that an episode with a turning point was coming up. Turns out there was no turning point. Leming and Misha were just making a mockery out of the destiel fans. Why is it that Leming was called out for that lie and NOT Misha?

And why is it that the most important people in this equation are always left out? Both Jensen and Jared have said time and again, that destiel is not part of SPN canon. How come they get left out? Do you think their opinion doesn't matter? And if it doesn't, then why is that? I would really like to know.

Other numerous cast and crew are destiel friendly. And before someone starts, regardless of previous statements, Jensen is more friendly to the idea than you may think.

Why don't any of the destielers ask this meta writer HOW she knows that Jensen is friendly to destiel? One fool told me that Jensen told her during a photo op that he was OK with destiel. But yet he says on stage that destiel doesn't exist. Now, why would he do that? What makes these idiots think that Jensen is two-faced or spineless. This meta writer said it, and everyone believed it. Not a single person decided to cross-examine her regarding her claims. Jensen doesn't like destiel. He destroyed the only panel he shares with Misha. I think getting death threats from hellers did it. I don't blame him.

Our main barrier is convincing Pedowitz and the Network Powers that be that it should happen. Fandom has campaigned, tulpa’d, prayed, begged, etc. We will know by May, 2020, what the decision will be.

So she wants to rally a bunch of delinquents to annoy and aggravate TPTB. And what fandom is she talking about. There are many fans who HATE destiel, because of Jensen's death threats, as well as arson, kidnapping and vandalism threats. Ordinary fans of SPN are fed up of destiel meta writers speaking up for every one of us. The destiel fans are only a subsection of the overall fan base. We would prefer if they didn't speak for us all. Pedowitz has already acknowledged only J2 as the leads and TPTB has told them that the show will go for as long as they want. So TPTB are acknowledging the leads opinions. Neither of the actors are going to say yes to destiel.

We have seen the hints in Dabb’s era, where it could go. He is ON BOARD, people. Whether you want to believe it or not. It’s so close to being fully textual canon.

What did she see in the Dabb era? Cas admiring Dean's looks? No, he admired Sam's looks. Dean telling Cas he loved him? No, he said that to Sam. Dabb is giving every other pairing its day in the sun, but not destiel. Why is that? I think it has something to do with the reputation destroying queer baiting accusation. This person is fooling you in order to stay relevant. I can tell you now, there are personal stakes involved in shipping. In order to stay popular and relevant, meta writers will spin mile long yarns. Meta writers are like a step up from a slash fic writer. In a weird way, they are revered without any merit or qualification. That is how gullible the destiel fan base is. They never probe a claim. And they never just enjoy their ship. Everything has to be about canon destiel, ship wars [their latest victim is sastiel] and they never acknowledge criminal threats. Being loyal to them means that you are popular with the bad crowd. Let that sink in.

So while some may be preparing for the eventual let-down, it is completely acceptable to keep the faith. If it doesn’t happen, it won’t be the fault of writers, cast, or crew.

Oh, no it will be the fault of the meta writers, like this joker, and Misha Collins. Misha has actively queer baited his fans for ten years. Its funny how Jensen is the bad guy for saying that destiel doesn't exist, but Misha is such a kidder if he says anything destiel and even cockles friendly. Misha Collins is the only person on the cast, crew and writers who actively and vocally pushed destiel consistently for ten years. So much so that he ignored sastiel. He changed that at Nashcon for reasons unknown. If you want to lash out at anyone for destiel not being canon, please go ahead and lash out at Misha. The only one who gave you any hope was Misha.

In conclusion: I have only met one destiel shipper [receipt on my blog], who acknowledged that destiel shippers were becoming ghastly and that Misha was egging on the troublemakers. She admitted that she didn't approve of his behavior. Other than her, I have not come across another. Other than this one person, nobody else deserves my empathy. When SPN ends without destiel being canon, prepare for the hellers being mocked by all and sundry, due to all the many enemies they earned for the threats, attacks on J2 and the vandalism. No one will feel sorry for them, because they ruined this fandom. Remember, Destiel is not a religion. Loving and believing it is not a prerequisite for being an SPN fan.

Excuse the typos.

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