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almaasi · 6 years

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reaction post typed while watching SPN 13x22 “Exodus”

“WATCH THIS SHOW” they said. “IT’LL BE FUN” they said. cue me being very stressed out for two hours straight

02:38pm

am i looking forward to this, with absolute confidence that nothing terrible and unfortunate will happen because it’s the deadly duo writing this and it’s near the end of the season and last episode was the whiplashiest of whiplashes? NOPE

am i gonna watch it anyway? .......yeah

hopes: nobody we care about dies

02:43

I DID NOT WANT THIS RECAP

SAMMY DID NOT DESERVE THAT

but also i still haven’t seen a captioned giftset of the moment cas said to dean “dean, he’s gone, we can’t save him”

‘cause wow as far as destiel moments go, that’s a heck of a lot of trust for dean, and a heck of a lot of concern and care on cas’ part

02:46

lucifer: your name is jack

jack: and yours is lucifer

i don’t even know why i laughed but i did??? i don’t think that was meant to be funny

02:48

lucifer: don’t you think that’s his choice?

cas: no

the abusive dad vs protective family saga continues

also i just realised for MONTHS/years? i’ve been using the 24-hour clock on my laptop and didn’t even notice how much i didn’t like it until just now, and i just changed it, and AAH THIS IS BETTER IT SAYS 02:49 INSTEAD OF 14:49 AND I DON’T ACCIDENTALLY TYPE 4:49 WHEN WRITING THESE POSTS

actually in terms of abusive parents vs protective families (expanding on what i said last week), i kinda feel like right now the writers are kinda toning down how bad it can be. lucifer’s so chill about this, kinda, and i’ve known families whose estranged parent is almost a perfect match for lucifer’s behaviour here:

they’ll offer the kid an incredible gift without telling the other parent(s), something the kid can’t refuse because of how badly they want/need it, and the parents can’t refuse without being the bad guy(s), and the whole family then becomes eternally indebted to the abusive parent and is obliged to give them money/time/rights with their child, with the threat of violence, property destroyed, access to said property removed, or instigated legal proceedings if they refuse.

plus the kid is often too young or innocent to understand, they just see an extra parent who gives them nice things, and for a kid from a broken home with not enough to go around, they don’t see the downside, and they maybe never see the threat their parents are under. or they’re physically or mentally abused by their parent(s), but think it’s okay because the parent(s) “apologises” or bribes them with nice things. or if the protective parent(s) try and keep them away from the abusive parent, the kid sees themselves as being deprived of that parent’s love

long story short, people can be shitty, and lucifer probably has the potential to be much worse than just standing around and having a casual discussion

i feel like the extended winchester family verbally defending jack is not gonna be enough, and lucifer’s gonna wanna take back sam, and destroy more while he’s at it

like an “if i can’t have it, nobody can have it” sort of thing

03:03

eyyy felicia day is in the credits

03:04

hug!!!!!!!!!!!

nawww the lil tiny nuzzle dean does with his chin before pulling away

03:07

YEAH MARY YOU PUNCH THE DEVIL IN THE FACE

!!!

AGAIN!!!

cas kinda looked like he was expecting that

03:09

i was busy admiring how mary’s hair was perfectly curly

and then by the next shot it was all limp and sad

if the weather was humid i guess it melted the curl between takes

but also MARY WHAT THE HELL

YOU DON’T WANNA ABANDON ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE AU

BUT WHAT ABOUT YOUR SMOL NEEDY HERO CHILDREN

??????

i mean i get it bUT ALSO NO I DON’T

also my face is >:| because they cut to cas and lucifer in the middle of mary and dean having a super important conversation

usually it’s not jarring but THAT WAS JARRING

eehh the deadly duo trademark is all over this

03:15

sam: mom doesn’t wanna leave these people.

sam: ...

sam: so let’s take ‘em with us

YEAH NOW THAT’S A PLAN

MUCH BETTER

take charlie and bobby too okay please

..........aw man now i said that, i get the terrible feeling that one or both of them is gonna go out in a blaze of glory instead, or stay on the sinking ship for no good reason other than because the writers don’t know what else to do with them

edit: i mean there’s still next episode.... (best case, they all survive and get storylines next season)

03:20

see all the stuff lucifer is telling jack is true, and it does remove the blame from the CONCEPT of lucifer

but the personality is lucifer is BAD AND ABUSIVE

like you don’t have to commit horrible crimes to be a bad person to be around

he corrupts the will of others, he tortures them emotionally, he manipulates them

none of those things are first-degree murder, or the great oppression of the entire human race, but they are Bad Things For A Father To Be

03:23

lucifer: i have done bad things, but i just want the opportunity to get better. doesn’t everybody? don’t you?

i actually feel sick ‘cause this is sooooooo very very dangerous

cas was right, talking to lucifer is bad

yeah, he says all the right things. anyone could give him the benefit of the doubt, and perhaps say sure, lucifer’s changed ‘cause he has a kid now, but he PROVED in bringing sam back to life that he hasn’t changed

and not just because of the “i’mma bring jack a gift he can’t refuse thing”, but the “i’mma kill sam again if he doesn’t agree to this” thing

lucifer is a manipulative, blackmailing, flaming trash baby and jack needs better. lucifer might treat jack himself with genuine love, but he’ll destroy everyone and everything around him in doing so

03:28

also? i relate so hard to the fact dean, sam, and cas all see and know the real lucifer, and lucifer’s putting on a show for jack

i think the people i’ve personally felt the least safe around in the past, especially growing up, are the people who are perfectly sweet when you’re in company and then become bullies as soon as the adults/parents/protectors are out of earshot

and there’s no way to prove to your protectors that you’re being hurt because all they see is “a nice person” or “ohh they’re such a sweetie”

i mean it’s the other way around for team free will and jack, where tfw see the real thing and jack sees the perfect angel but yeah

03:42

ketch: take the b&o railroad......straight to hell

good line tbh

03:43

angel to ketch: i’ve sent for an expert in these matters

probably gonna be other ketch

03:44

WHOA DARK CAS

WAY BETTER

he has a twitchy hamster face

where does misha get these ideas

i kinda wanna draw whiskers on dark!cas ???

03:46

THE FACT DEAN CAN GIVE CAS INSTRUCTIONS JUST BY FLUTTERING HIS EYELASHES

and the way he moves his eyes is so soft and gentle and subtle too

it makes my heart feel a thing tbh

even though cas is torturing someone

ugh nonverbal communication is so sexy

03:52

DARK CAS IS GERMAN ?????

and there’s........something misha-like in his smile?? that’s weird

03:54

I AM INTENSELY UNCOMFORTABLE

his two different eyes are cool though

maybe it’s just a trick of the light, or a very subtle contact lens

03:55

fuck yeah that coat

but why is he german, other than clearly being a nazi-inspired character

is it just me or is this legitimately the scariest of all misha’s characters

i want to run away and hide

actually i kinda wanna cry

03:59

that’s better

GOOD CAS, PLZ DESTROY NAZI CAS

04:02

ketch: “well helloo~”

ketch: “are you... actually saving me? about bloody time”

gayyyyyyyy

biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

also maybe definitely a destiel parallel from that time cas beat dean up to stop him saying yes to micheal

04:05

um?????

that smile when real!cas dragged the blade down dark!cas throat ?????

04:08

jack’s like LET ME DO THE THING EVERYONE’S BEEN TRYING TO DO FOR MONTHS/YEARS

IN ONE HOUR

04:11

fuck yeah mary

lookin all swish at the back of the war bus

04:12

????????????????????

??????????????????????????????????

hOW DID THEY GET THE BUS THROUGH THE TUNNEL THAT HAD THE VAMPIRES IN

DID THEY TAKE THE MOUNTAIN ROUTE THAT WOULD’VE TAKEN SEVERAL DAYS???

WHAT???????????????????

04:16

MY HEART IS POUNDING

C’MON EVERYONE YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

04:17

mary, bobby, ketch, charlie, jack are safe!!!! SAVE EVERYONE!!! QUICK QUICK

NOBODY LEFT BEHIND PLEASE

except lucifer maybe

except that would probably be bad in the long run

CAS IS SAFE

YAH C;MON!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I’M SO STRESSED RN

fuckin feel like i’m trying to pull ducklings one by one through a fence before a dog gets them FUCK

/sobs to self

04:19

I;M GONBA HEVA FUCKING HEART ATACK FUHF

04:20

WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE BLACK GUY

DO THESE WRITERS LIKE.. HAVE A FETISH FOR DEAD BLACK PEOPLE

WHAT THE FUCK IS THEIR PROBLEM

AND THE CAMERA ALWAYS LINGERS MORE WHEN IT’S THESE WRITERS I’M PRETTY SURE??? someone do a test, go find all the dead black people and check which writers/editors/directors leave the camera lingering for longest

istg these writers do it more often and for longer

04:24

aw MAAAAN :C

dean’s “gaBE nO” though. :c :c :c

04:26

everyone except gabe :c :c :c

(and no lucifer...........like i said, great now, baaaaaad in the long run)

04:29

nobody mentions cas but he’s still there, looking all pretty and being a good, wholesome bean

04:30

SEE? BAD

VERY BAD

04:33pm

it ends

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man that was

........a lot

overall a good ‘un but STILL VERY STRESSFUL

i need a nice calming shower after that, i smell like !!!!!anxiety!!!!

9/10, loses a point JUST BECAUSE OF HOW STRESSFUL IT WAS TO WATCH. THIS WAS NOT FUN AT ALL

BUT STILL GOOD??

I DUNNO MAN I JUST WANT A SHOW WITH THESE EXACT CHARACTERS JUST HANGING AROUND AND BEING NICE TO EACH OTHER AND FALLING IN LOVE AND HEALING EACH OTHER EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY AND BAKING CAKES AND RAISING CHILDREN

to be fair though, my endless almost-what-i-wanted-but-not-quite dissatisfaction with this show keeps driving me to write 81+ fanfics where nice things happen

win-win????

but this show would still be better with dean/cas cuddles let’s be real

#Elmie watches things #13x22 #exodus #season 13 #spn spoilers #deadly duo #post of postiness

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slut4mysme · 7 years

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If you are accepting requests, may I ask for a minific where Seven tries to push MC away after she was taken for ransom, or something close to that? I love your blog, have a nice day (Or night)!

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Safe & Sound

He felt his heart pounding against his rib cage as if it were about to rip out of his chest. Actually, it did feel like his heart was going to be ripped out of his chest. They had you.

You guys were out and about enjoying each other’s company and joking around. One minute you were right behind him, arms reach away. The next moment he heard your muffled screams as he saw you being dragged into a van.

His feet were pounding rapidly against the pavement as he ran back to the apartment. He cursed himself as he searched his messy home for some keys. “Fuck, this is not the time to be-”his thoughts were interrupted when he heard a loud ping from his computer.

“Bring $1,000,000 to XXX in XXX in 3 hours or the girl dies.”

“Fuck,” he thought to himself angrily. He wasn’t mad because of the money, oh no he had more than enough of that and was willing to give it all up for you. He was pissed because he brought you into this mess.

He was at the rendezvous point two hours early. Each second that passed by he felt himself become more anxious and impatient. He knew that he had no leverage so he couldn’t risk pulling any punches this time. It felt like years had passed before he saw two large black vans pull into the empty lot. How

He felt anger course through his veins, he wanted every single one of them dead. “How dare they?” The heat that was rushing through his veins was soon replaced with ice. The men had finally pulled you out and you look so tattered. Your body was covered with cuts, duct tape sealed your lips and your eyes were filled to the brim with tears. He heard his heart stopped beating; he wanted to cry, to scream. To vent all of this pent up anger and frustration somehow.

But he couldn’t. One step out of line and you could get hurt even more. Or worse.

He tossed the duffle bag filled with money over to the men and waited as patiently as he could. One of them henchmen walked over and searched the bag, counting the money and making sure there wasn’t any type of tracking devices. Seven’s patience was running thin, he wanted to run fight every single one of them for even thinking about holding you for ransom. He hated that he was at their mercy, that he couldn’t do anything more to help you.

“Boss, we’re all good.” Seven felt himself let go a breath he wasn’t even aware he had been holding.

He watched as the henchman that had been holding you placed a tender kiss on your cheek as you flinched away from him. Seven’s eyes were ablaze and he felt himself clench his fists tightly. The man let out a throaty laugh as he pushed you towards Seven. You began taking small tentative steps towards him on shaking legs. He heard the vans start up and peel out of the lot quickly. He bolted running towards you as fast as his feet could take him.

He grabbed you and buried his face in your hair as you both sunk to the cold hard pavement, sobbing in each other’s arms. He felt his heart swell; he finally had you back in his arms. He promised himself that he would not let anything else happen to you, ever again.

It’s been a little more than a month now since that incident. In the beginning, your loving boyfriend was extremely over protective and super clingy. Not that you minded, you enjoyed being showered with his affection.

It began to slowly dwindle down and a cold front replaced it. Seven was back to working ungodly amounts of hours, ignoring you and honestly being mean. He was pushing you away. You tried to be understanding, given his past; that kidnapping probably scared him more than anything. But he was seriously hurting your feelings.

“Saeyoung, babe can we please cuddle?” you asked as you stood behind the redhead typing away furiously at his desk.

“Are your eyes not working? I’m doing work, stop bothering me,” he replied curtly. You felt yourself flinch. He hasn’t touched you in three weeks, didn’t he miss you like you missed him?

You were stubborn and not giving up now. You leaned over and wrapped your arms around his neck, planting soft kisses on his neck and cheek as you whined, “Babe, please”

He roughly reached up and pushed you away from him. You looked at him, shocked to see him pissed at you? Shouldn’t you have been the one that was upset with him?

“Can you leave me alone? You’re fucking annoying, I need to work so I can provide for your ass, the least you could do is leave me alone when I’m working.” he angrily spat.

Anger flashed in your eyes, you took a deep breath to calm yourself down. You knew his tactics. “Saeyoung, I know what you’re doing. Stop trying to push me away. I am not going anywhere. I love you and I know you love me.”

“Do I? After everything that’s happened MC, I honestly don’t know if I do anymore. You annoy me more than anything in the world and I don’t think that’s love. I can barely stand you now.” he said nonchalantly as he turned and went to type something.

It was a good thing he couldn’t see you visibly flinch at the harsh words he threw at you. Your eyes were filled with tears as you turned. It was too much, after everything that you went through with him, after everything you went through for him? You didn’t know if you could take it. You were going to leave, maybe take some time to cool down but you needed to know one thing. “Where did I go wrong Saeyoung? What did I do to make you start hating me?” you whispered.

He didn’t move a muscle. There was a long pause before either of you spoke. “Honestly, I’m not a fan of used goods. Maybe that’s what turned me off, sorry I guess,” he said.

You felt your entire being shatter. You could hear your heart pounding in your ears, your heart was physically causing you so much pain that you had to take some deep breaths so that you could regain your composure.

You had had enough; you sacrificed everything for this man and his love. You couldn’t deal with him pushing you away anymore. You tried to convince yourself that it was because he loved you. Honestly, what did you know? He could mean every single word that left his mouth but you were too naïve and lovesick to realize it.

You got up and began packing your bags, you would stay with one of your friends but you were not coming back here again. You just couldn’t anymore.

He watched you leave, as you went to go pack your things. Leaving his life forever.

It was a bittersweet moment. He was happy that now you finally had the chance to be happy and safe. You could be with anyone else in the RFA or any other man. They would cherish you like you deserved to be.

You could go out on dates and not have to watch your back. You would not need to sleep with one eye open. You could have a safe and serene life.

It was a bit sad for him, though. He had never loved anything as dearly as he loved you. He wanted to spend every moment with you but he knew he couldn’t. Not if it was going to put you in danger like he had.

He spat the cruelest things at you. He knew that was the only way to get you to leave. You loved him far more than he ever deserved to be. He was blessed and while it was short-lived he will never stop loving you.

He couldn’t be selfish. As much as he wanted you by his side, he knew you deserved better. He was a villain in real life, cruel and unforgiving. When did they ever get what they wanted? He didn’t mind playing the bad guy once again, though, as long at it meant that you would be safe and sound.

Sooooooo you didn’t specify if you wanted fluff or angst hehehe. SO WHAT DID I DO? HOPEFULLY BREAK YOUR HEART. Well I hope. Like I said my writing skills are a bit rusty so I’m not too confident in this piece hehe. Welp, who is amazing for reading my dumb writing? Uh yeah that’s right you :D Thanks babes love you MUAH XOXO

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