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aromanticannibal · 5 months

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Ok, Feldup recs post!

Mostly my opinion (which is wildly positive) on his most recent album, Stared at from a Distance.

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Warnings, this entire album talks about Feldup's SA from a woman twice his age. It's hard to listen to, it was hard to listen to for me, who suffered through no such experiences and isn't triggered, squicked or made uncomfortable by many things.

First, I'd advise that you listen to the entire album all at once (which breaks throughout if needed), in order and with lyrics (there are subtitles in the linked video). I promise it's worth it. Now for my favorite songs :

Stared at from a Distance (2nd track, 12:06), is obviously incredible and one of my faves. It's pretty long and is way more explicit on what it's talking about than Waters (4:55), the first track (which I really liked too, the music video for it is excellently made as well). I really love the way the instrumental and beat switches throughout to accompany the story, and the end of the song made me think I was going to cry (I just needed to sneeze but tbh it's still crying material). Really good, if you listen to only one song in the album I think it should be this one. (Side note, I'm also wondering if I didn't hear part of that song when I was at Feldup's concert - it was before the album was out, but you know. I don't think I heard all of it, but maybe I just forgot).

Naked and Afraid (3rd track, 3:11) is very good and picks up very well after the second track. It makes you understand that this album really is a story you're following, and you're going to get every detail of it. The following track, Dizzy (4:11) is transitioned to so well I thought it was the same song (it's also excellent), and Fear of Abandonment (4:07) right after is like. Painful. /pos

Shove it (6th track, 03:39) is honestly terrifying to listen to, and it works very well for its subject. I don't even have much to talk about for this one, it's just really good. The 7th track, Moment of Sobriety (5:30) managed to be even scarier, because of how real it gets then (if that makes sense. The whole album is painfully real, and it reminds you of this regularly).

Crying as a Weapon (8th track, 5:20) is where I had to take a break. I think it might be one of the most relatable songs for many people who were abused, not just sexually.

Death of an Illusion (9th track, 10:23) is the other very long track of this album and it is, unsurprisingly, incredible, and one of my absolute favorites. It's also one I could relate to a lot, and its progression is very satisfying. It Never Leaves (9:09) is similar to Death of an Illusion, its continuity, and its ending made me incredibly happy.

The last one, To Love Again (4:49), is the song I enjoyed the less, musically speaking, but one of my favorites nevertheless, and a perfect ending for the album in my opinion. It also has a shift in the... well, not the narration, but I guess the message, somewhat (trying not to spoil because it's so incredible to realize to me), which entirely convinced me this is actually my favorite album of all time construction-wise.

In conclusion, Oh My Fucking God this is so incredible.

Feldup is a great person who writes incredible texts and makes excellent music. The constructions of his songs and the way his story is told throughout eleven tracks is beautiful and heartbreaking and hopeful, and it genuinely is currently changing my brain chemistry /hj. It is so good. It's on Spotify and Bandcamp for sure, and I think it's on most other streaming services, and you still have the Youtube video I linked at the top. Please give it a try.

I'll quickly give my favorite songs from his other album, A Thousand Doors, Just One Key, but they're all really good too : Falling Apart (2nd track, 4:08) which is his most known song as far as I'm aware and is a fucking banger from the first notes, Mental Health (6th, 4:25), Attention (3rd, 3:54), and Stockholm (10th, 11:21), which holds one of my favorite lyrics ever (There is no cure/I am the disease).

Anyways, have a good day or night, stream Feldup's music.

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purplesurveys · 9 months

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What is something you’re behind the times on? TV shows (idk anything that's on Netflix or any of the streaming apps anymore) and younger celebrities (idk who anyone is anymore).

What are you brainstorming ideas for right now? Miraculously enough, nothing. Work has been unforgiving the last few weeks and weekends but it's slightly slowed down for now, so I'm allowing myself to just...not...think...for today.

Do you have a neighbor who plays real annoying music? No. Some of them will have music playing very loudly occasionally –usually if they hold a party – but I've never found it annoying as most of the time it's songs I like too. We also have a neighbor who every now and then will be heard taking saxophone lessons and it feels like they're serenading the whole neighborhood haha. It's great.

Do you miss someone? No.

What’s something you’ve had a toxic reaction to? Nothing like this has happened. There was food poisoning in the past but I don't think that counts?

Have you ever had a severe allergic reaction? I haven't. I've gotten rashes from grasses and certain fabrics but they all went away within half an hour or so.

What do you want to be for Halloween this year? Idk I don't really care for Halloween costumes anymore. If anything, I'll get a soldier costume and DIY my shoulders to look 3x wider and say I'm Jin.

If you don’t know, what are some ideas you have? ^ Well, there's that.

Are you happy at the moment? I'm feeling happy and very relaxed, but ergh am I hungry. I might take a break from this survey first so I can eat chips, heheh.

Do you have a headache? Continued from last night. No, I don't.

What color are your glasses, if applicable? White.

Do you still look in the toy aisle, or do you pass it by? Every time I see one I do, but I keep my browsing to the action figures and Funko Pops.

List a great $1 store find: It's a little over a dollar but I saw a pair of sunglasses that looked great on me and turned out to be only ₱70. Didn't have to think twice about grabbing it off its shelf.

List a great garage sale find: I've never bought anything from a garage sale.

Have you ever had a friend push you away for no reason? Sure, that happened with me and Cheenie when my soon-to-be-best-friend-at-the-time and I were becoming closer by the day. I guess she thought we were starting to become bad influences due to our vulgar humor, so she broke free from our little circle and just stopped approaching us ever again.

What are your summer fashion essentials? Just a bunch of airy pants and sleeveless tops so that I don't end up cranky.

Do you have a 5-year plan? I don't like making plans that long-term because I tend to not take failure very well. Instead, I like going with the flow but with a purpose, if that makes sense? Like I'm fine just going wherefuckingever as long as I get to achieve something every now and then – which has been happening so far anyway with the promotions I've been getting every year.

Who is one celebrity you would like to meet? Post Malone. Dude just seems like a fun and easygoing person to be around.

Who is one youtuber you would like to meet? Smosh or Rhett and Link.

What are your fall fashion essentials? What is fall?

What was your favorite outfit to wear this past summer? I didn't really have a favorite thing to wear back in April/May.

Where do you buy most of your clothes? Shopee or H&M.

Do you post on youtube regularly? I have never posted anything on there.

Do you have your own website? Nope but it's definitely been on my mind for some time now to start a blog of some sort, mainly so that I have some kind of portfolio to show if in case I wanna shift to a writing-heavy job. For the most part I've been trying to think of routes or gimmicks wherein I can somehow merge my equal passions for both BTS and wrestling.

What do you sell, if anything? I don't regularly sell things, but I recently sold a few of my BTS photocards to make some extra cash on the side.

Do you think you would be a good salesperson? Nah. I'm extroverted but not to the extent that I'd use that ability to sell to people. I'm too shy for it, hahaha.

What are ten positive words that describe you? Ambitious, passionate, sensitive, determined, considerate, and idk that's all I can think of.

Are you getting excited about fall?!?! Whatever man, we don't get your four seasons here.

What’s your favorite school supply to purchase? Notebooks, especially in college :D I remember being excited about pastel highlighters too!!!

Do you keep a planner every year? Nah. I've been terrible at keeping them, and I know I will continue to be. What I do instead is have a to-do list on Google Sheets that I religiously update every day.

Do you write a lot? Yes, it's a big part of my job.

What’s your favorite color pen to write with? Just black.

Do you go to church? Yes. Against my will, but yes I do.

What’s your favorite fall drink? Please stop talking about fall hehe.

Do you use a sunlamp? Nope.

What’s your favorite thing about Sundays? Other than it's a weekend, nothing. All I do on Sundays is dread that the next day is a Monday, anyway. I usually can't even rest on Sundays without feeling some slight sense of dread.

Do you like candy corn? It's not as bad as overreacting people make it out to be, but I wouldn't eat it even if I was bored.

What’s on your to-do list for today (or tomorrow, if it’s late)? Finish my croissant, finish my doughnut, take 2-3 more surveys, ENJOY THE REMAINDER OF MY WEEKEND. I might watch Run BTS later too.

Where do you buy calendars? I don't need one; mine is on my phone.

Do you like to wear skirts? Never. They make me feel exposed and conscious, and it's always awkward when I'm going up the stairs/escalator.

What is your name (first and middle)? You're only getting Robyn from me. :))

What are your sibling(s)’ names? I don't feel like sharing them tonight.

What would you have been named if you had been born the opposite gender? No clue. My parents never thought of it as they learned that I was a girl only when my mom already gave birth to me. In other words 1) they wanted to be a surprise and 2) they didn't have the chance to think of names had I turned out to be a boy.

If you had another sibling, what would he/she be named? No idea, but I do know that for a boy they leaned towards Spanish names.

Do you like your name? I love it now. I used to hate introducing myself as a kid because I got bullied for Robyn 100% of the time, but as the years passed it grew on me more and more. People got nicer too – the "Oh, a boy's name?" eventually transformed to, "I love your name!" and that really helped with my self-esteem.

What does your name mean? Bright fame.

What would you name your daughter/daughters? I've listed my favorite girl names more than a dozen times on here and I don't want to have to do it again hahaha.

What would you name your son/sons? ^ Same thing.

Do you want to have kids? Not anymore. They make so much fucking noise.

What was your favorite vacation you went on as a kid? We didn't have much money in my younger years, so as a kid I just really treasured the weekends my parents would take us to the local water park :) They would do everything to make us happy with what they earned and it continues to mean a lot to me to this day.

Were you happy as a kid? No. Life at home was very turbulent and not at all ordinary. I had to mature pretty early on and I think that's what also made me struggle to make friends.

Which Barbie had your hair color? Idk. I didn't like Barbies and never played with them.

Do you have any toys still from when you were a kid? No.

What were some of your favorite toys as a child? My cash register, all my cooking toys, my Blue's Clues telephone, Beyblades, and idk if they count as toys but also my Pokemon pogs and cards.

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