as you may recal I had a hysto in 2022 (July I think) and then in August I got a concusion. Fun!
Well I had a 1 in 100 complicationgiving me a physical disability that I don't like talking about. If you know, you know. y'know?
Anyway. Settled into GVA, got Klaus, decided to get this thing sorted instead of just dealing with it.
Step 1 CT scan. Just waiting for my timeslot. Ianto's at home with Klaus as I have no one to hold him for me at the hospital. My IV port is freaking itchy!
One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.
I am having thoughts about autism and rebellion. I often describe myself as 'a lazy emo' or 'a lazy punk' in that I have the attitude but none of the energy needed to 'look' the part.
And I do think that's accurate, but it also occurred to me that I didn't necessarily 'rebel' in the most obvious ways.
I found a burned book today and it triggered something of a core memory for me. I don't know how old I was but I was in elementary school. I was walking along the beach in my home town when I found the remains of a burned book.
Being raised in Catholic school I knew that burned books were 'morally bad' in the eyes of some of my elders. So, logically, as a little autistic rebel I decided I should read this book. So I took home a scrap of page that had a partial author name and a partial book name on the other side.
My brother helped me google-foo to figure out what it was - this is how I know I was in elementary school. I started actually using computers in high school and had no clue how to figure out what book this was.
Anyway, brother helped me find it, I then got it out of the library. and... well It wasn't /my/ cup of tea. But I kept doing it. I only remember 3 of the books I read this way, but there was lots.
Prey by Michael Crichton [the first one]
Blood Music by Greg Bear [very interesting and very outside of my normal reading habits]
Rick Mercer's The Book [fun political rants from the Rick Mercer report in written form]
The book I found today was a religious novel by Rhonda McKnight called 'secrets and lies' and... well I can tell from the description that I would not like it, and from the scraps I read today that it would aggravate me to read 60+ chapters of it. But... memory unlocked.
I wonder if this is an autism thing. My rebellions were... quiet.
I read during mass, I read burnt books, I went for long walks at 3am - but didn't drink or meet up with friends... I just walked. My rebellions were not internal but neither were they flashy.
3000 year old petroglyph of a man running away from a big snake. With erection. It is one of the many Rock carvings in Tanum, Sweden and was painted red so its easier for tourists to see.
We have officially reached a viewership level that has never been obtained by another museum before! All of us at the Sacramento History Museum are in disbelief.
We would have never thought that our institution, a small nonprofit museum in Sacramento, California, could reach this many views, but we are incredibly thankful for all of those who take the time to watch our videos and for your support.
In this video, Howard letterpress printed a headline announcing “Sacramento History Museum Reaches One Billion Video Views On YouTube” while using our Washington hand press, which was manufactured in 1852!
There's definitely some story mileage in a British dude with no cultural sensitivity whatsoever still wanting to return every artifact that Britain has ever stolen out of pure self-interest because one of those motherfuckers is Maximally Cursed and he can't tell which
i will never understand why more people in their 80s don't commit felonies. you reach that age and surely there's something illegal you always wanted to do but didn't bc Consequences
dammit, GO FORTH GRANNIES!!! rob an armored car! hold up that bank! tunnel your way into fort knox! what are they gonna do, sentence you to 20 years? good fuckin luck with that