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journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit
#snap chats#im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE#my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did#i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn#thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway#i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so#im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that#when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right#i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer#ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is#cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan#didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT#my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit#and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait.#point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3#ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE
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Made this for Day 1 of Portal Drawtober: “Portal 1 or Portal 2?”
(Guess it also applies to day 2: Favorite character? Cause I Live for GLaDOS!)
Why not both?! I really like Portal 2 of course with it’s more in-depth story and of course our Queen of Aperture’s newer model!
This was an attempt to make a mixed bag version of GLaDOS with a more logical bridge between the games
(Prompt List by @chelltastic)
#my art stff#portal drawtober 2023#portal 2#portal GLaDOS#portal fanart#portal#was in a rush to post his before a class but now commentary in the tags!!#ok so I was originally planing to do a full turnaround since each side seemed interesting enough to get an angle of the basics: front. left.#right. and back#but I Got Tired last night so I just finished the front and her left today during my lunch#miiiight do the other two (four actually since there’s two of her double the work yeesh) sometime later#but I really like how these 4 angles can put regardless!#can put -> came out*#heh also the note at the top says she fell on her head oof#that’s my quota for the week of portal drawtober#I’m pretty busy this and next week though so no promises just hopes to get something out on someday next week#besides procrastination doodles though#but I want to Try for these drawtober prompts#after all they are so great#/genuine :)#okay byeee till I self reblog tomorrow!!#my art
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Everyone PLEASE look at my loaf
#today was a good day in class until it wasn't#anyway i got sad/mad later in the day so now i need to show people my cat in order to feel better. look at the boy#my cat#мой пост
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i look away for FIVE SECONDS QSMP!!!!!! FIVE SECONDS!!!!!!!! THEN SUDDENLY PHIL GOES LIVE TUBBO GOES LIVE PHIL GOES LIVE AGAIN!!!! CHARLIE SLIMECICLE IS IN LORE!!! HEAVY LORE ON ALL ENDS!!!! EVENT YESTERDAY EVENT TODAY!!!! MCC!!!! EGG LORE MIGHT COME TO AN END???? NEW MEMBER????
HOURS AND HOURS OF CONTENT TO WATCH IN SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME AHHHHGHHGHHHHHHH
#ahyes an original post#qsmp#god forbid i have classes and homework lol#ive got one and a half phil vods one tubbo vod AND the events vods for both of them#then charlie's lore and then everyone else's lore before the event tonight#and mcc is today and im watching ranboo's pov and i want to later watch other's pov but that's tomorrow#and i want to be caught up for when he egg lore happens and i think it's tonight
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I am so on my love each other soap box today. I’m going to be insufferable for weeks.
#Katie is rambling 2k24#got to talk to the class I was modeling in today about a lot of things#and it was really nice#I feel like I portrayed the importance of love and helping people really well#and helped someone who also suffers with a lot of the same anxiety and imposter syndrome stuff I do#see at least one path out of that#:) I feel good about today#writing this down because I know my brain is a lying liar and will try to twist that around later
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#i feel so lonely now bc i have no one to talk to sksksk#my sisters gets mad whenever i try to talk 2 mom and she just slammed doors nd got irritated at me#nd my mom is so stressed nd in a bad mood so she just got annoyed when i tried saying smth to her#so ig i should just vent to my bestfriend beloved diary confidant thats been here for me for 5yrs<3333#anywayyy today was rough.. i woke up w a headache after 3hrs of sleep :((#but still had to get up nd get ready nd eat boxed mashed potatoes for breakkyy 🤢🤮 (it's so gross after eating it everyday lol)#then w my hunchback nd achy stomach i went to school. it was frustrating bc ppl r so fkn rude#they bumped into me at the bus nd i had to sit like a weirdo caging my left stomach side from everyone. had to elbow some dumb fkn guy bc he#pressed his backpack into my side. so i had to basically push it away from me lol he thought i was so weird. but move tf away asshole??????#got to school nd checked myself in the mirror nd i was so pale i look like absolute garbage its annoying :((#it was next to insufferable to endure class bc my head hurt so bad (it was the worst part i think) nd i couldnt sit up straight so my back#hurt so bad too sksksks :<#but i managed to write a little but on my assignment#then i left a bit earlier bc i couldnt stand it anymore i was feeling so bad#wrnt to the library bc i had to return some books. could only carry two small ones tho so have to go back multiple times sksksk#felt soooo bad but ate some more disgusting mashed potatoes nd took a nap w an ice pack. took a migraine pill even if it upsets my stomach🤣#now a few hours later i feel better physically#buuuuuut im so miserable im not even kidding#idc if it sound pathetic or fatty but genuinely that moment w a cup of coffee nd a small chocolate treat everyday makes me feel sm better#like im not kidding!!!!! it does a lot for my peace of mind sksksk T-T#im so miserable bc i cant eat anything still im so hungry :((#and im weak. im pale. my skin's dry. it's itchy bc of malnutrition... i feel faint nd dizzy nd slow nd just not good at all#im so frustrated i hate this sm i wanna feel strong and healthy!! i dont wanna be constantly hungry. i wanna go to the gym nd go for walks#i wanna be able to sit up straight nd not get back pain!!!#i know i know it's only been 8 days since surgery and it takes time to heal i get it..... :(#but theres just too much going on and im so sick and tired of it all#mostly i just wanna be able to eat and feel strong bc i feel so weak nd i miss food so much sksksksk
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I will read the most inane and useless stuff for hours just for my own interest/enjoyment, but reading academic papers is like pulling a tooth 😭😭 like I genuinely think I'd find the info interesting but the fact that ik it's in pursuit of doing an assignment somehow manages to kills my motivation 100%
#step 1. you pick a research topic you find genuinely interesting#step 2. you have to research and read papers abour this topic. hey dont you remember you find this interesting??#i just remember going on deep dives learning about random historical figures#but absolutely god forbid i read anything in the pursuit of actual schoolwork#i think its mostly that i feel constantly under duresss when im reading it yknow?#all i can think is: im going to have to write something about this#lol just need someone i can blab to about politics and maybe it would actually work out for me#but ugh yeah theres just such a palpable difference btwn reading smth for enjoyment and reading something 'for work'#here is an example!#in my one class i think my prof put The Prince as a reading#i didnt even look cause im liek yeah i aint reading all of that#fast forward a year later: oh my god! i wanna read machiavelli so bad! i wanna feel intellectual 🥰🥰#literally bought myself a copy of it .....#i think im too self aware. id like to remove all sense of context from my brain#literally spent hours today watching documentaries that are actually pretty relevant to my one course#<- but note. they werent FOR my course. i was just doing ir for fun! i wanted to learn!!#but if i got assigned a hour and a half docu for class....that shit would not be getting done#ugh yeah anyways i have two research papers this sem#and its so fucking annoying bcs its so open to my choices. like here. you can pick smth you find genuinely interesting#and you guys literally witness me constantly learn info and want to apply it#but the thought of having to write a paper for school(god forbid) literally keeps me awake at night#its just yeah. wish i could remove that particular barrier from my brain#bcs some of the things i do for fandom are literally borderline research papers#like. read and research a bunch. write about it to other people. apply the info(in fic/drawing/meta)#and really the topics are not so different from my actual coursework#but when i contemplate having to research and write for school it just flatlines my brain#need to start forcing people to watch me borderline seminar so that it feels more fun and in-line w what i do on here#the fernando card post???? practically a research paper. god. my brain is so bad#catie.rambling.txt
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i just simply think that felicia hardy.
#⋄ ⊰ cat got your tongue? › ooc. ❜#that's it#no other thoughts really#going to be here later <3 heading to the gym rn and i will have classes today
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Finally paying off a credit card and seeing a ton of rain in the extended forecast were the kick in the butt I needed, so I'm now officially a member of the YMCA. 😊
I kinda need a gym membership for treadmill access and Planet Fitness is like $25; while the Y has more local locations that are closer work and home, also gives access to a pool and group fitness classes, AND includes access for Greg all for $65. So, not cheap but I think a better value.
#really pumped about the pool#and i think theres a few group classes right after i get out of work and i love that idea#it was supposed to be all rainy and gross today but the storm rolled in later than expected so i got to squeeze a run in
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video games....
#mine#i love my steam deck sooooooooo much im so happy i can actually play games again like a big proper library of them#and everything#everything on steam AND emulators is available to me. do you know how many games that is!#i started a new beegee3 playthrough on the HARDEST DIFFICULTY (!) today. which is also a single-save difficulty#and im in one of the most difficult parts of the game right now (level 4) and kind of nervous lol#but at the same time im really proud of myself for learning the game to the point i feel comfortable challenging myself in it#and im happy i get to at all :D i love you video games#and sooner or later ill come back to stardew valley cause there was that big update and i have some games on my wishlist too#and its not verified yet but i might play that pomeranian making the house dirty game cause it looked cute#oh and yakuza also because my friend got two of the yakuzas for me#YAYYYYY GAMES#also kind of sad though because tomorrow i pack and sunday i go back for babys last quarter of college#and im worried about how busy its going to be with classes and job apps and then of course actually graduating#and moving out and haivng a job and stuff#when all i want is to enjoy being able to play video games again.... sig#sigh*#WHATEVER...future mes problem#oh i almost forgot...one of the best parts of the deck imo is the versatility because with games like beegee3#you can play it in controller mode which has its pros and cons but you can also swap to computer mode#which also has its pros and cons so like. i can adjust as needed#when im just exploring or trying to loot an area etc i go controller#but when im in combat i go computer because the hotbar is REALLY helpful for decision making#its really nice to have the option to choose since no console players have that it seems#and the only pc players who can do that are the ones who have and are willing to connect controllers#and most of them dont seem to be into that#but im really glad to be able to do both#ok done yapping now
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cant stress how obsessed i am with yamaguchis shirt
#snap chats#this is rgg related because i said so shut up ANYWAY#i DID steal this from twitter but i need to share it every with everyone so im not sorry#the person i stole this from rt'd a photoset from themselves and in it motomiya wearing The Silliest outfit ever#but ive already shared too much. ive already gone off topic too much we're moving on#i will bookmark it tho cause it makin me giggle#anyway if you cant read it. and id be so happy to type out what it says.#it says 'can't miss it!! you've got to go to nepal they have a big festival called Maha Shivaratri full moon night in february'#dont know why it makes me giggle it just does. like fuck man maybe i SHOULD go to nepal in february <- maha shivaratri is in march next yea#anyway everyone be nice to me today i have a spanish exam later and it Should be easy#but i was fighting god and the devil last night trying to sleep because my cramps decided to kick my ass EXTRA hard#I NEVER GET BAD CRAMPS WHYYYY DID IT HAVE TO BE BEFRE AN EXAM WHEN I NEED GOOD SLEEP !!!!!!#im lucky my spanish class is in the evening but god it was so painful#the last time i experienced pain as bad as that was when i was trying to sleep after busting my wrist#so awful.... i hurt a lil now but i'll get through it#ok bye let me study up just to reaffirm some Spanish Knowledge with myself
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"It's been another year, huh."
Reki chuckled as he set down his paintbrush to pick up his phone. A notification flashed across his screen, Langa's Birthday surrounded by far too many emojis reminding him of the date. The reminder was set to reappear every year, even if it had been so long since the last time he'd seen the guy. And Reki knew he could have deleted the reminder — he didn't need it after all — but he couldn't bring himself to do such a thing. This felt like the last piece of his youth, one that he couldn't just delete, as easy as it seemed.
Out of habit, his fingers slid across the screen, unlocking the phone. It took a bit of scrolling before finding the conversation with Langa, the picture of a 17-year-old boy biting into a sandwich making him chuckle a bit more. A picture from a lifetime ago; a picture of when time seemed to have stopped for them. And clicking on the conversation, it made Reki realize how long ago it truly was.
It had been deserted for years. He could still see the last words Langa had sent him almost half a decade ago: "Maybe next weekend? I have too much to do this week." The rest had just been Reki. It had just been Reki answering. And then it was a few months later, Reki wishing him a merry Christmas. And then more months later, wishing him a happy birthday. Then it was the yearly text, the happy birthday text which never got a reply.
He didn't have to keep doing it. Langa never answered anyway. For all Reki knew, Langa had changed numbers over the years! But still, his fingers tapped at the screen, an over-excited "happy 24th birthday man!!!!" being sent off. And just like every year, Reki watched the screen, hoping, praying for something to come his way.
He knew it was wishful thinking. He knew Langa wasn't going to answer. Langa probably didn't even see his messages. And yet, he still waited, watching the screen, hoping for something to come up. Maybe if he were patient enough, someone would reply. Probably not, but still.
A few minutes had ticked by the time Reki set his phone down. A few painfully slow minutes had gone by, nothing but the stillness of the world reminding him of his own existence. That was it. There wasn't going to be anything, just like the year before and the one before that. And yet, Reki knew he'd be at it again next year, this time for the big 25. Maybe for 25 Langa would reach out.
It had been a while since the last time Reki's heart had jumped the way it just did. It had been a while since the last time he had jumped on his phone, grabbing it as it chimed against his workbench. It had been a while since he had been this excited, grinning from ear to ear as he unlocked his phone, checking his texts. But just as quickly as it had appeared, the grin faded.
"Error — The number you are trying to reach is out of service."
So that was it. They didn't make it to 25. They hadn't made it. What Reki thought would be forever really wasn't. Forever never existed, did it?
He set his phone down, pushing it away alongside the lump that had formed in his throat. There was no reason for this to hurt so much; he hadn't heard of Langa in years, so why was this time different? Friendships aren't always forever, he knew that, but with Langa? He had hoped it would be different. But it hasn't, had it? Everyone leaves eventually.
#oop-- i wrote big sads#ill wrote something happy eventually#just gotta find a happy song that'll spark inspiration y'know?#ill alsp upload this to ao3 later today#i got class soon now so see you later lovelies!#reki#kyan reki#reki kyan#langa#langa hasegawa#hasegawa langa#renga#sk8 the infinity#sk8#lils writes
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ok i survived yom kippur. but it took every single scrap of strength in my body and i’m not completely better yet
#purrs#food#ask to tag#got my period thursday… bad cramps friday and saturday to the point where i had to go home early saturday (we were working lol 🤪)…. woke up#sunday with a. headache that got worse and worse throughout the day… 5-6 hours into the fast was in agony and felt like i was going to ****#so i… broke the fast and ate something at like 1am. then woke up in agony at 5am and then again at 9am and had a breakdown / fight with my#mom and then spend the whole rest of the fast deathly nauseous and my head hurting worse than ever. broke the fast an hour before everyone#else did (only ate a tiny bit) and then during the fast breaking dinner i started freaking out bc eating wasn’t making my head hurt less so#my grandpa told me to go lie down with a heating pad on my head and i did and slept for like 2 hours and it helped. finally feel better but#my head still hurts faintly and im scared it’ll come back. also i didn’t do my homework and missed class today to fast so im fucked#ive had headaches like this before but this is the worst one in a LONG time. it wasn’t a migraine bc those are in one specific spot iirc but#this was like… my ENTIRE face and the source of the pain migrated from my jaw to my temple to the bridge of my nose to the back of my head#etc etc and it kept moving around and was so sharp i didn’t even have the strength to open my eyes or walk around. and i think it was making#me interpret hunger as nausea. also i took my temperature bc i was flashing hot and cold and was like 2 degrees under normal body temp and#felt so weak and shaky and had body aches too. lol 😍 hpefully the worst of it is over but my head still hurts a little and im so scared itll#happen again. that was by far my worst fasting experience ever#delete later
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#oooof... sleep was rough bc my face was super itchy. all of a sudden i got rashes in my face yesterday ?!?!? i have NEVER gotten that wtffff#hopefully it's just temporary nd will go away. it's still a tiny bit itchy but not as bad as yesterday :o#istg my life is a JOKE!!!! a joke!!!! rashes?!? what? maybe stress nd anxiety?? idk it's wild tho i cant deal w this#so i couldnt really fall asleep but i rested for a few hours#then i got up. took my dog out. had oatmeal. called the surgeron clinic.#and like... i told them abt my weight and they said im underweight?! and that my bmi is 18.9 and u need to have 19....#i told her that i cant gain weight bc i cant eat anything. that i cant have more fat than i already do bc then it hurts too much#she said she'll talk to the anesthesia doctors and call me later. she hasnt called yet#i rlly hope they understand the situation?? and that i can still have my surgery bc what else am i supposed to do???#ughhhh why cant anything ever just be easy and smooth for me??#i am sooooo tired of all these hardships piling on top of eo#then i walked to school.. took me an hour and im spent now bc im so weak nd malnutrioned skskskks#and im in class... it's a long one. still more than an hour left :'( my head hurts#ugh i just wanna be fine for once in my life#but yeah im like 75% thru all the hard things i need to do today#just need to finish class nd then walk home nd then hopefully get a call back and then i can relax (as much as i can lol)#i hope the itching goes down (still wtf is my body doing? i have no patience for it anymore) nd i hope im not too underweight for surgery om
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Cody’s I drew on the 20th so I’d have time to like make a final version as a painting or an inked drawing with markers added in. Smh. The narcolepsy won.
#I wanted to draw some after work but I finished at 6:17 and I’m very tired shit#my boy!!!#guy in my class liked my cody earrings and fit#he was like it’s Groundhog Day first and foremost (he likes Groundhog Day a lot) but they should have someone dressed as cody pick up phil#commander cody#sw#the clone wars#we will see if after a short break I got anything in me to get a more like less rough sketch of this done#I wanted to maybe do him holding his Helmet like armor knight under his arm but I figure out a pose I liked#I was thinking like art deco style for this whcih I haven’t done before so it would be a fun challenge#wanna at least post this today. so I’ll feel less bad when I post the more completely one later#captioned#my art
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THEATRE ‼️ 💛 💥🔥✨🧡⚡️
#theatre gives me shrimp emotions that are sometimes hard to articulate other than ‘THEATRE ‼️💛💥🔥✨🧡⚡️’ but yeah! theatre! i love it so much!#the other week in the theatre class i’m taking this semester we got in groups and in turn performed a scene from twelfth night#which was super fun! it was the scene where viola and and olivia meet for the first time#and it was really neat to see how each group interpreted it#i was the olivia of my group and i made her really assertive / almost kind of aggressive because i interpreted her as trying to hide her#curiosity about viola beyond a very confident/assertive exterior; but some people played her as openly curious; or super mysterious;#or what have you; and it was so interesting!#the department is currently doing twelfth night (which is why we’re studying it in class) so a few classes later the actors playing olivia#and viola came in and performed the same scene; which was also very unique! it was SO COOL :D#they also talked a bunch about their interpretations of their characters and i got some really interesting insight into the characters that#i hadn’t considered before (for example viola’s actor said that she and the director are throwing around the idea of viola dressing as a#man in order to keep her brother alive; because at that point in time she thinks he’s dead)#and when they were done the costume designer for the same show talked to us about her process and showed us a slideshow of her renderings#+ some other relevant stuff which was super cool as i don’t know very much about costume design in general#i learned so much it was soooo cool :D#AND THEN today i saw the production of firebringer i’m working on which was also so cool but i think i’ll make a separate post about that#once i can gather my thoughts#but yeah! THEATRE ‼️💛💥🔥✨🧡⚡️#my words#elliott’s theatre adventures
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