#no I’m not gonna do the other characters. these alone took like 3 weeks to finish lol | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lynnlovesthestars · 6 months

Note

Hi! I’m new to your blog and have been loving all of your works!

If you’re comfortable with it, I was wondering how you think Astarion would react/feel about a virgin tav/reader who went through SA when they were younger, and wish to wait until they are both completely ready and comfortable with being intimate?

Hii, I can definitely do it, though i will merge it with another ask I received- asking to write hcs about Astarion learning Tav is a survivor.

I will say, making it with the hc has been a little easier on me, usually when i write about SA i spend an insane amount of time making sure i'm comfortable and you (readers) are as well, and i hesitate a lot before publishing it *(queue up scars and blood, that I wrote on an impulse after a nightmare, and it took me a solid week before publishing it)*

ANYWAYS.

ofc I hope this will be of comfort to you, and it won't trigger you.. sometimes all we want is to find solace into our favourite characters, so i wish tonight this will in a way comfort you...

and if anyone needs to vent, or talk, feel free to hit up my dm's, they are a safe space for anyone and i'll always offer up comfort.. we don't need to struggle alone, and sometimes being heard is what we need to make a new step forward<3

As always, my little stars, excercise kindness! we don't know who's gonna pass by this, and we don't know how hard it can be for them.

This being said, I hope you'll like it!

Headcanon: Astarion learning Tav is a survivor.

Pairing: Astarion x reader. Warnings: mentions of past trauma and SA. wc: 1.7k

-He starts suspecting something about it around the time of the tiefling party. He had offered to sneak out while everyone was asleep to "enjoy yourselves", but you refused right away. He definitely picked up some involuntary movement you did that told him there was more to the "I'm not ready". You probably flinched or jerked away, usually it would go unnoticed, but Astarion could recognize the subtle harshness hidden behind your reaction.

-He doesn't want to pry into it, as much as he needed to know as much as possible about you- he says for the sake of his undead skin- he wasn't entirely confident you trusted him enough to share your past. Also he wasn't sure he could handle someone confiding in him, but he would never admit it. At the end of the day, all he knew about social interaction were faint memories of his magistrate life, or means to survival. He simply wasn't sure he could have the empathy to deal with someone else's emotions, both in good and in bad.

-When you meet the gur, and you start peering into his past, he can't hide the very obvious rock in the shoe, Cazador and his spawn life, and it is because of the gur that you actually open up to him. When he starts going deeper and deeper into Cazador's orders to him and his repulsion towards sex, you do feel like you can share something so intimate, that's been heavy on you, well since it happened.

-The first time you mention it though, you are very blunt.

-"And honestly I don't know anything else besides disgust for it" He'd admit as he bit the inside of his cheek.

"I'm sorry, Astarion" You'd start, you wanted to hold his hand to comfort him, cause that kind of pain you knew. "I understand how you feel though. If you need—" He cut you short, anger was bubbling quickly in his stomach. You swore his face almost reddened in anger as he raised his voice.

"No, you don't" He was one sound shirt from hissing at you. "You cannot understand what it feels like" He'd sneer at you. "No one can understand what it feels like to be stripped of your bodily autonomy". In a way the harshness in his voice was like a slap to your face, cause you did in fact know. From the other, you didn't expect your brain to beeline directly towards that sealed drawer in your brain where you tried to hide the haunting memory.

“I went through it myself, you shithead” You got up, uncaring of whatever reaction he could have in that moment, and you just left.

-He was taken aback, on different levels, both because of your sudden shift in mood, because of the blunt reveal, and deep down because he was sorry, though again he’d never admit it out loud.

-You ignored him for the rest of the day, avoiding his stare and disappearing in your tent right after you were done setting camp, and that unsettled him so much that he was weighing the possibility of apologizing cause, of course, he didn’t know.

-You skipped dinner, and even when everyone else was asleep, you didn’t come out from your tent to take your usual nightly walk. The pang of guilt was becoming more like a stab as he saw the light in your tent still burning, and the faint shadow of you moving around restless.

-He prepared a peace offering, a bowl of the leftover stew, as he had to muster the guts to apologize.

-”Sorry, I was an asshole earlier, I brought you food” He blurted out right after he knocked on the wooden support of the tent, and he was surprised when you still let him in.

-Initially it was awkward, cause you were eating and not saying anything, but after a while he mustered up the courage to offer his shoulder to you. “If you even wish to talk” He’d say.

-You told him a bit of what happened, without going too much into detail, since you were still shaken from the memories that resurfaced.

-Since then he started to learn your boundaries: how to catch your attention without startling you, what were triggering topics for you, how you liked physical touch, and how it triggered you as well.

-In a way he becomes very protective of you, especially if you open up more often about your trauma, and you can see it.

-He made sure everyone respected your boundaries, whether it was Gale with his weave thing pulling you too close, or a stranger breathing on your neck, he was always ready to remind them of their place.

-”Don’t you see our dear captain doesn't want to be that close?!” “Keep your hands to yourself, they don't like being grabbed by the wrists” “Get away from her, before I stab you”

-He noticed how you always double checked the perimeter of the camp before the sun would set, and before getting in your tent you’d always look around in the distance, trying to spot if something was out of place. So he joined you in your routine, helping you check around and make sure you were ready in case anything could have happened.

-As you get closer, and you both open up more to each other, he even suggests he moves his tent closer to yours. “I can keep an eye around” Was his explanation, when he first brought it up.

-And it helped so much with your sleep, you felt a little safer.

-If you didn’t feel safe at night, he’d suggest putting your tents together into one. Maybe it was a way to keep you closer, or he needed reassurance, but he made sure you knew you could place your bedroll anywhere as far or as close to him as you liked.

-Eventually as your bond would deepen and deepen, and you’d grow fond of each other, you found yourselves rediscovering your touch together. It started with your fingers tapping on his arm as you were walking, or a strand of your hair being pulled behind your ear. Some nights you’d sit close in your tent, and would hold hands, caress each other’s cheeks, and slowly even reach out for a kiss or two.

-It was a slow process, where you really got to know each other like no one else ever did. You could read each other like a book, yet you never shied away from asking each other for consent for anything.

-”Can I hold your hand” “Can I kiss your cheek” “Can I rest my head on your chest”

-The thing you both struggled with the most, was falling asleep holding each other. You’d panic very quickly when you would feel your chest becoming tighter. He’d move away as quickly as possible, and give you the space you needed.

-When he confesses he has been falling for you, it’s time to approach the very delicate topic of sex. You opened up about the fact that you wanted to wait ‘till you were ready, and he agreed without hesitation. Of course because he understood where you came from, he never asked for any help either, if he’d feel like he needed some release, he’d disappear for a bit and deal with it himself, without making you feel like a burden.

“I just want to make sure we are on the same page on this” You’d say as you crossed your arms, almost as if you wanted to fold yourself in and away. “If you want to have sex, I can’t right now” You’d start saying, but stop on your tracks for a second. “Wait, not that I can’t. I don’t want to have sex at the moment” You’d correct yourself, confident in your statement, he wasn’t even thinking about it, though he respected completely.

“I get it, and it’s okay my love” He’d say, patting your shoulder, and wondering whether he wanted to hold your hand or kiss it, he wanted to let you know he truly understood. “I don’t want to either” He smiled, and in that moment it was like both you two finally breathed. You’d reach for his hand to hold it in yours.

“It’s not because of you though” You wanted to explain to him, you were so close it was something you were ready to share, especially since you were slowly walking towards a different level of intimacy together, he had to know. “I want to do it when we are both ready”

“I understand, my sweet, there’s no need for explanations” He’d smile again, one of his fangs slightly poked out against his lip. “You said you don’t want sex yet, so it’s no”

“I’m a virgin” You’d blurt out, and that was something he didn’t entirely expect.

“Oh” He’d say at first, but as he noticed your cheeks slowly warming up, he pulled you closer to him, his forehead against yours. “It’s okay, I don’t care about it” He’d exhale. “As long as it’s you, I don’t care about anything”

-When you reach Baldur’s Gate and finally you settle in the elfsong tavern, you made sure you always had a corner of time dedicated to helping each other relearn touch.

-You'd lay next to each other in different levels of nakedness depending on how you felt at the moment, and you'd spend your time tracing each other's features. Whenever you'd feel comfortable enough to venture into a new thing, he'd ask for permission.

-"Would you feel comfortable if I touched your hips?" "Can I trace your scars with my fingers?” “May I pull you closer?”

-You didn't fight time, you didn't rush towards sex. It came slowly and it was a process full of ups and downs. Some attempts ended up with you both sobbing, too overwhelmed. Other's ended up with panic attacks. Eventually though, after a lot of work together, you reached a point where you'd be able to make love.

-it was a very soft moment between you two. It involved a lot of comforting, kisses and patience, but it was something so profound, it wasn't only about shared pleasure, but it was about connecting your bodies and your souls. In a way it was like a wedding for you two it was the peak of trust you could have with each other.

-He'd whisper so many times how proud he was of you, how much he loved you, and how glad he was that you were the one that would spend their life with him.

-Tears eventually arrived, they were the tears of two souls that finally had reclaimed a bit of their freedom. It was the cries of someone that was finally healing.

591 notes · View notes

pshcomforts · 3 months

Text

➳ fine line | psh.

non!idolsunghoon x fem!reader, non!idoljay x fem!reader (kind of)

“there’s things that we’ll never know”

synopsis: you like sunghoon, and sunghoon likes you but it’s not that easy.

warnings/content: written in third pov. not proofread. angst! a little bit of fluff? cursing. age gap (by like three years). reader can’t swim. open ending!

comments, likes, and reposts are appreciated :)

word count: 3.6k

a/n: fictional characters — dae (jungwon’s partner), min-su (heeseung’s partner), ji-woo (jake’s partner) and mei (some random girl). this was originally uploaded on my old account but it got taken down so.. enjoy! also written around heeseung’s birthday.

༘˚⋆𐙚｡masterlist⋆.✧˚

current song playing: fine line by harry styles

↻ ◁ II ▷ ↺

2:21 ────────|─────────── -3:56

“are you gonna keep staring or are you gonna make a move?” min-su asked with a disgusted expression.

y/n’s head snapped at the question — “uhm..” she took in a harsh gulp after breaking eye contact with sunghoon’s tall figure in the distance.

“you really have to do something else other than stare.” dae commented, head shaking from the disappointment. the girl rolled her eyes as a response with a slight scowl. “how can I if it seems like he doesn’t even want to talk to me?”

“girl, you make it seem like YOU don’t want to talk to him,” ji-woo intervened.

“shut up! i don’t know how to!”

her friend’s face morphed into a mischievous grin. “i can always tell jake to ask him what he thinks about you.” y/n’s mouth dropped at her words — “UH, no way am I making you tell your boyfriend about my crush on his best friend!”

“oh heeseung could help too.” min-su interrupted.

“and jungwon!” said dae with a smug smile.

“you guys are ugly! i don’t want anyone’s help on this, especially if you guys are all in relationships with his close friends.” y/n yelled, slight humiliation hitting her cheeks as her face became flushed.

“girl, why not?? it’ll help you get with sunghoon faster!”

“no! i don’t want to be in a relationship with him, i just like him! well.. i mean, i can see myself with him but… i don’t know! and plus, he’s three years older than me..”

y/n let out a deep sigh at her friend’s faces once she came in eye contact with them. “i know i know.. but i feel like he doesn’t see me more than just a little sister…” her head drooped low at the finishing thoughts. “does he even see me as anything else other than that?”

dae giggled at her words — “oh, you definitely want something more.” the others bursted out with laughter as y/n remained a little frustrated.

“girl, you want sunghoon, just admit it!” ji-woo yelled with a beam that highlighted her dimples.

“i can’t! i won’t! i’m leaving.”

with the last words said, y/n left her friend group as she hurriedly sped elsewhere; not forgetting to hear min-su’s echoing words — “BITCH, COME BACK!”

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• °:. *₊ ° . ☆

days and weeks passed after the conversation. the whole friend group (including the ENHA members) eventually agreed upon having a sleepover at jay’s house in celebration of heeseung’s birthday.

y/n and ji-woo arrived together, while dae and min-su came with their significant others. jake and sunghoon arrived together as well, whereas niki and sunoo carpooled.

“finally! long time no see!” sunoo exclaimed, going in for a hug with each of the girls and dae.

“so glad we can finally do this!” ji-woo yelled, as she found her way to her boyfriend’s embrace; in which leaving y/n alone.

“go ahead and feel comfortable guys, my parents are out of the house for the week so it’s just me.” said jay with a grin.

y/n’s cheeks blushed at the boy. though sunghoon was the obvious one she liked, she couldn’t help but feel her heart race towards the silver-haired boy. she shook away the thoughts though after coming in eye contact with min-su who was silently judging.

“shut up” — y/n worded to her friend, before searching for sunghoon as if on default. the boy seemed slightly pissed as he walked away from the scene, a cold look evident while making his way to niki. she couldn’t tell if it was just her who had observed how bitter he suddenly became.

she grasped ji-woo aside, breaking her away from jake who was still talking to her. “did you see hoon?” her whisper was harsh, an anxious tone apparent in her voice as her grip became tighter on her friend.

“ow, y/n! i did sort of see but jake was still talking so i didn’t notice a lot. he did look a little mad though?” she reasoned.

“BITCH, what was that look sunghoon just gave to you and jay?” their friend, min-su interrupted with a gasp.

“wow, you’re actually away from heeseung?” y/n snorted a laugh while the girl rolled her eyes. “shut the fuck up. did you see sunghoon give you that look??”

“i think someone’s jealous.. i mean- who said that?” dae joked. the four cracked out laughs as they remained further away from the members.

“you don’t think he could be..?”

“girl i wouldn’t be surprised.” ji-woo said with an eyebrow raise.

“mm.. no, i don’t think so. maybe he just wanted to talk to niki. i don’t think he’s jealous…”

“you know what, y/n?” dae called, heads turning to the boy who had a smug grin. “maybe you should just talk to sunghoon.”

y/n rolled her eyes. “bitch, you know that it’s hard for me to do that!”

as min-su was about to give her input with a dirty joke in mind, heeseung intervened with an arm slinging around her. “sorry to break this group huddle, but can i steal my girlfriend?”

“you always steal her from us.”

“sorry but i just want to be around my baby on my special day.”

the others fake gagged at the comment. “yes, yes, just take her and go away, geez birthday boy.” y/n said with an appalled look plastered.

the boy grinned at her words; the obvious displeased tone deafening out in his ears as his attention went to his girlfriend, dragging her away from the group.

“love, come here for a second?” jake called out to ji-woo. she looked back at her two friends who still had the same disgusted look. “oh, just go ji-woo!” y/n yelled, pushing her away so she could reunite with her partner. “you should go too, dae. jungwon looks sad without you.”

“but what about you!”

y/n’s lips curled into a soft smile. “i’ll be fineee. just go to your boyfriend like they did!”

the boy remained persistent in staying with her, though eventually leaving for his boyfriend as well once y/n confirmed it’d really be okay.

she sighed at the sight in front of her; all of her friends with their lovers while sunghoon was near niki and sunoo. her eyes stayed on him for a few seconds, heart thumping just from the admiration of how gorgeous he was. eventually, they wandered to where jay’s figure could be, which was in the kitchen of course.

“hey jay,” y/n softly beamed.

he greeted back with a smile — “hey y/n” —attention still persistent on the marinated meat for dinner.

“can i help?”

jay gave a playful laughing scoff at her words. “wouldn’t you rather be in the living room with niki and them?”

she shook her head. “i don’t really have anything to do, and i feel a little bad that you’re doing it all by yourself honestly.”

“alright, if you wanna help then you can put some gloves on and mix the marinade.”

y/n complied with excitement surging through and soon began helping the male with dinner preparations.

as long minutes passed, she continued to work around the kitchen with him. meanwhile, the couples stayed in their own spaces while the remaining three played on the shared nintendo switch.

“y/n, don’t do that!” jay yelled from the kitchen, her loud cackles of laughter immediately intensifying after.

“what could be so funny over there?” sunghoon mumbled under his breath. a scoff left his mouth as his hands tightly gripped on the controller.

“you that jealous?” niki snorted.

the older male rolled his eyes as he felt envy starting to build up. “no.. why would i be? y/n’s too young for me.”

“your excuses are becoming worse, hyung.”

sunoo let out a laugh at niki’s words — “they really are, why can’t you just admit that you like the girl?”

hoon’s eyes slightly widened. “shut up! don’t say that too loud; dae, min-su, and ji-woo are literally near us.” he harshly whispered to the maknaes.

“they’re lost in their own world, hoon. seriously, look at them and tell me they’re not in their own world with our members.” niki remarked with a laugh.

“you could be like that with y/n too, just saying.” said sunoo with a devilish smile.

“it doesn’t seem like she even likes me. she always ignores me and doesn’t talk much to me when she can clearly talk well with jay or you guys. seems like she likes him more to be honest.” his head darted towards the male in the kitchen who was still chuckling and being playful with her.

“maybe you just haven’t taken in the fact that you guys are both introverted?? and maybe she doesn’t know how to talk to you because you barely respond back?” sunoo replied.

hoon let out a sigh at his members’ words. “I don’t know..”

“you overthink this too much, hyung. i heard from someone that she’s literally been in love with you for so long! also, how have you guys not talked much when you’re in the same friend group?” responded niki.

sunghoon’s heart immediately raced at the potential thought of his crush liking him back; blocking out the question asked. “does she really..?” he bit his lip as he awaited for a response, only to be interrupted.

“i’m gonna be grilling outside but we also have a pool, so if you guys want to go for a swim, you guys can!” jay yelled.

everybody grinned at each other, racing out of the back door to swim in the said pool.

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• °:. *₊ ° . ☆

splashes of laughter were heard in the air as everybody swam in the cooling water.

y/n remained persistent near the shallower parts of the pool while the rest splashed around. ji-woo attempted to stay near as well but could only be pulled into the deep water by her determined boyfriend.

dae was with jungwon, giving soft squeaks of laughter as they were sweetly playful. from time to time, y/n could hear the sound of their laughs tangling in the air with soft music exuding in the back.

min-su and heeseung were in the pool as well, but would always go back to singing their favored songs that’d echo aloud. followed by ji-woo and jake softly humming along.

y/n took in the sight in front of her again. her eyes followed each of her friends and the joyous moments they were experiencing. something she wanted to experience.

she softened at what she was observing. her friends have truly never been this happy and she loved it.

“hey, you okay?” a familiar voice said, snapping her into reality.

“hm? oh hey, hoon.” she nervously replied.

he beamed a half smile as he took a seat next to her. “they look pretty happy, don’t they?” y/n turned her head to respond back but paused.

he was observing just like her. she fought back a smile as her eyes twinkled with affection. “yeah.. they do. i’m so glad they all found their other halves.” she said in admiration.

“now it’s just your turn huh?” sunghoon gently turned his head to look back at her. his demeanor was softer than she was used to, and it made her heart flutter.

she cleared her throat and looked away. “we’ll see what the universe plans for me” — her voice almost weak from his simple question.

“almost sunghoon’s time isn’t it?” niki suddenly boomed.

y/n’s brows curiously furrowed at the boy who swam near them. “it is?” she stupidly questioned.

“yeah.. sunghoon’s been talking to mei. isn’t that right, hyung?” his eyebrows wiggled around playfully. the obvious teasing tone of getting the poor girl jealous wasn’t clear enough as she felt her heart sink. her mind went blank as everything else became a numbing pain.

suddenly finding it hard to breathe, she stood from where she was and laughed off the heavy feeling. “oh that’s right sunghoon, how is it with her so far?”

her attempt to look fine was a success as hoon didn’t notice the sudden change in becoming tense. “oh.. mei? it’s fine.. i haven’t talked to her in a while.” he mewled out.

it was like taking one step forward and three steps backwards. their moment of potentially being more had been ruined; and with the thought of mei in mind, it seemed like everything had taken a pause.

y/n swallowed the lump in her throat as she forced the tears away. “well uhm, i should go to dae and them. i wanna see if they’re tired of being in the pool yet.” she stood from where she was, feeling her legs become like jelly as her lips trembled from holding in the pain.

the heartbroken girl walked away with deep breaths. she fought the urge to breakdown and cry, leaving niki and sunghoon in the shallow water.

hoon let out a slightly frustrated sigh. “what was that, niki??” his brows pushed together in an irritating way.

“sorry… i thought it’d help..”

the maknae mewled out another sorry before leaving to sunoo.

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• °:. *₊ ° . ☆

y/n let out another deep breath before arriving to dae and jungwon at the other end of the pool.

“hey guys,” she gently said.

her shaky voice had apparently became noticeable as dae stopped his movements to carefully look at his friend. “what’s wrong y/n??”

in an instant second, her eyes watered at the question. ‘fuck!’ she mentally cursed to herself. “i knew it was a bad idea going to you, dae!” she yelled before speed walking away.

“WHAT? Y/N COME BACK.”

he followed after her, catching min-su and ji-woo’s attention as well. the loud questioning of ‘is she okay’ came to mind as they all followed behind and left their significant others.

“guys it’s fine!” the girl tried to defend.

“girl you’re on the brink of tears. what happened? are you okay?” min-su said.

“uhm.. yeah…” her voice cracked as she softly smiled at the aching feeling.

“stop lying!” ji-woo yelled.

y/n broke out another smile as she admired how caring her friends were. “it’s fine guys.. seriously! i’ll tell you when we’re not surrounded by them.. but let’s go back. i don’t want them to wonder why we’re having our own group talk.”

“girl if sunghoon made you cry, you just let me know.” the dimpled girl threatened.

everybody giggled in unison as the other two agreed. eventually, they all went back to their significant others while y/n decided to stay near jay. she couldn’t stand being a third wheel, and sunoo had remained around niki and sunghoon; so jay was her best choice.

“you’re really not gonna go in the pool?” asked the boy who was barbecuing.

“i can’t swim jay.” she replied back with a head shake.

“oh that’s right… seems like hoon can’t swim either.” the name call caught her attention and almost immediately, her eyes landed on the 5’11 boy.

sunghoon continued to stay around the shallow parts of the pool where he was before. her heart stopped for a moment as the repeating words of him and mei were in her head.

“that’s funny,” she mumbled.

jay’s face scrunched at her monotoned voice. “if you don’t think it’s funny, you don’t have to say it is.”

her lips curled into a soft smile. “no i didn’t mean it like that jay, geez.” she rolled her eyes as he smiled as well, turning his attention back onto the grill.

“how are you and hoon though?”

“shut up, i don’t want to talk about him right now.”

“so you guys are going through something then hm?”

“jay.. please.”

he widely grinned at her plead. “fine, i’ll let it go.” she beamed a ‘thanks’ before changing the topic to something for both of their liking.

from time to time, sunghoon turned his head to see how they were easily conversing. he let out an annoyed scoff. “maybe she does like him..” his hands clenched in fists as the continuous words that fell out of sunoo and niki’s mouths were drowned out by jealousy.

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• °:. *₊ ° . ☆

after long minutes passed, dinner was finally ready. throughout the various conversations everybody had, hoon and y/n had none together. in fact, they didn’t even look at each other. a few glances would be made to each other but other than that, no one dared to make a peep.

when dinner had finished, a cake had been brought out to celebrate heeseung’s birthday. a bright smile was plastered onto his face as his girlfriend stuck by his side.

loud laughs and joyous occasions were shared upon one another. everybody sang happy birthday to the boy who was contented enough for a cake.

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• °:. *₊ ° . ☆

when the long day had come to an end, everybody found themselves settled into the living room with warm blankets and soft smiles.

little murmurs of “this was so fun!” and “we gotta do this again” were heard before all had passed out for the remaining night. all except y/n.

she stepped out to the backyard after making sure everyone fell asleep. a sigh left her mouth as the heavy feeling in her chest came back. “fuck..” she whispered, after situating herself in the same seat of the shallow pool, letting her legs dip in. her breath hitched while inhaling another breath of air. she thought to herself that she shouldn’t be this bothered about someone who wasn’t hers.

“you okay?” the low voice said, shocking her as she immediately recognized who it was.

y/n subtly sniffled her snot back inside before looking at the direction of the voice. her heart dropped just by looking at him.

“you’re awake hoon?”

her voice weakened as he awkwardly chuckled while taking a seat next to her.

“i saw you come outside so i just wanted to see if you were okay.”

she nodded at his explanation. “i’m fine..” but she wasn’t. and it seemed like her excuse wasn’t convincing enough, but hoon let it go.

it had become awkward and tense too soon. they had always slightly been like this, but it only seemed to intensify this time.

sunghoon took a deep breath, wondering if it was something he should say but he had to know.

“do you like jay?”

his question was sudden and it had y/n whipping her head to him.

“i’m sorry?”

“sorry that was sudden.. but is jay the one you like?”

she kept her eyes on him in search for how he meant his tone to be but he couldn’t even look at her. the awkward boy was too scared to even say such a thing.

“why would i like jay?”

“well.. you seem to enjoy being around him and… seems like he likes you back too.”

y/n eyes closed at the tightness in her chest. she liked him. how could he not see that?

“i don’t, sunghoon. and i’m sure he doesn’t like me back either.” she confirmed with a gulp. her gaze observed how soft his body language had become.

“i uhm,…” the girl paused for a moment. she felt her heart in her throat as the conflicting thought of confessing tortured her. “.. i don’t like anyone right now..”

the searing pain in her heart increased as she mentally cursed to herself. she wanted to tell him that he was all she’d been thinking about, but how could she when she remembered he was talking to someone like mei?

“oh.. okay.” — was all hoon could mutter. he was pleased and yet, somehow still devastated. she backed off of confessing and he didn’t even realize it.

it was then that things got quiet. they didn’t know what else to say to each other after the sudden call out.

their eyes remained to stare at the starry night that had come upon them. perhaps they partially enjoyed the quiet scenery together while partially still finding it difficult to break the silence.

“y/n?” hoon suddenly squeaked.

✩ ‘we’ll be a fine line’ ✩

his head turned to face her. “hm?” she looked back at him.

“are we okay?”

her heart shattered and she felt the pulse hitting her hands with the words spoken out. she forced a half smile that had reassurance written over it.

“of course we are sunghoon..” she breathed for a second. “we always are.”

he reflected the warm smile back but nothing else was done. “good.. i hope we remain friends and become reliable to each other.”

“yeah.. me too.” she mewled out, fighting the pressure that had been suddenly pressed on her heart. “i hope you can get with mei soon, hoon. she seems great for you.”

y/n compelled a smile onto her lips while his grin slowly dropped (and she didn’t notice). “oh yeah.. mei.” he mumbled with a sigh.

given that he didn’t deny how he liked the girl, she took it as a sign that she should back off so something could happen with them. but she didn’t know that the only girl he could ever love was her. hell, he was head over heels for his friend that he had to play the long game with. the only reason why he didn’t deny liking mei was because he thought y/n liked jay, and couldn’t find it in herself to admit it.

“we’ll always be okay, right hoon?” she hesitantly asked.

“yeah.. always y/n.”

they both swallowed down their feelings as they kept eye contact for a moment, admiring each other from the bottoms of their heart before looking back at the night sky. sunghoon gulped down a harsh reality check as he wished they remained eye contact a little longer; to stare deeply into her eyes like she was holding the whole universe.. his universe.

“always, hoon..”

✩ ‘we’ll be alright’ ✩

★・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・★

191 notes · View notes

ohtobeleah · 1 year

Note

I’ve already submitted one request but I have like 8 of these bad boys in my notes so here are two more if any tickle your fancy. Happy 4K!

#PL2

14-Stuck together for a long period of time and 28- “If I kissed you right now, what would you do?”

3-The aftermath of a bad fight and 35 “You wanna bet?”

I really liked this pairing and I noticed there wasn’t a specific request for a certain character so we just rolled with it: it’s Payback angst time.

Warnings: Reader Insert Death. F-18 crash. Crush related injuries.

You and Reuben probably hadn’t had a conversation in the last six months that ended well. All the conversations you’d tried to have all ended with someone in tears or threatening to take the kids or the house or file for half of everything the other owned. In all honesty, all communication between you and your husband, well—soon to be ex-husband, had broken down over a period of about a year and nothing, including couples therapy, seemed to help.

But that didn’t mean you still didn’t love him with all your heart.

There was no one more a fault in your complete marriage breakdown, but it was clear that when Reuben finally took the plunge and moved in with Hangman, he got to keep your kids. Not your actual kids, Kip and Sidy—your five year old twin girls got to see their daddy whenever the hell they wanted, he lived just down the street now. But Payback got the kids, the dagger kids. That was clear as day.

So it made it harder to love the man when all he did was look at you like you were the last person on earth he wanted to talk to let alone work with.

“Absolutely not Sir—“ Reuben stood with his arms crossed over his chest as he stood his ground. “I’d rather take the write up for insubordination than fly with—“ Before Reuben could even spit out your callsign, Maverick was stepping in to defend you as you stood by with your helmet slung under your arm resting on your hip.

“Then with your wife?”

“Ex wife—“ You mumbled under your breath but just loud enough for Reuben to still hear you. “The Navy doesn’t allow partners to fly with one another.” You looked to your husband who you couldn’t recognise anymore as he scoffed at your insight. “They’ll allow us to fly together now because I filed our separation papers in the clerk's office just last week.”

“Fanboys out on paternity leave for the next few weeks.” Maverick turned his attention back to Payback who looked like he was ready to up and walk away from his entire career. “And Omaha is out sick so it makes perfect sense to pair the two of you up.”

“In what world?” Reuben scoffed as he took it upon himself to walk away, leaving you and Maverick to stand in the silence of your broken marriage.

“He’s fine.” You smiled softly, hiding your own heartache. “I’m sure if he just removed the stick from his ass he’d feel a hell of a lot better.”

“You two gonna be alright?” You didn’t know how to answer as you turned to look at Reuben over your shoulder, just how the hell the two of you ended up so cold and distant you’d never know. “Because if it’s really that big of an issue I can put you with Phoenix and Payback can I have Bob?”

“Uh—“ You shook it off, not wanting to not be professional—that was the main priority right now. Being a professional when all your husband wanted to be was a child. “No, we’ll be fine Mav, promise.”

“Good, alright then.” He smiled, tapping your shoulder as you pressed your lips together and nodded. “Wheels up in ten.”

***~***~***~***~***~***~***~

“I hope you know that I hate this just as much as you do.” You settled into the back seat of Paybacks double seater fighter jet. Mickey—bless his soul, had three Polaroids of him and his wife Macy tapped to his control panel. It just served as a reminder that although you loved Reuben with all your heart, it wasn’t enough to salvage the shipwreck your marriage had become. “But I’ve got your back.”

“Let’s just get this over with—“ Payback groaned. “Ready when you are Looney—“

“Luna.” Correcting Reuben as you shot him a death glare that was unparalleled to any other look you ever gave him, you hissed with intent to kill. “It’s Luna you jackass—“

“Copy that Lieutenant.” Payback replied as he maintained a steady altitude waiting for his green like to be given for the course the two of you were about to run through. “You know this is your fault right?” There was a reason the navy didn’t allow married couples to fly with one another. “If you hadn’t filed that paperwork with the clerk's office—“ It was because they knew that the likelihood of children being involved was about ten times higher. “Then we wouldn’t have been paired together.” But with a shortage of people on deck and with new assignments bordering upon the horizon, it was inevitable that your and your soon to be ex husband would be paired up for today's flights. “If you hadda just waited like I said then maybe—“

“Reuben! Can we not do this right now!” You hissed back as you tried your best to remain as focused and as professional as you could be. “There’s no point arguing about what could have and what should have been done or not done because we can’t change it now.”

“You wanna bet?” Reuben snapped. “All of this could have been avoided if you didn’t file that paperwork!” Payback wasn’t mad that he was flying with you, he wasn’t mad that you were his WSO because he knew he was in good hands, but he was mad about the fact you filed the paperwork so soon.

“Why are you so mad about me filing our legal separation papers!”

“Because it just proved that you’re done trying to figure this out!” You didn’t have an answer and the cockpit you shared went completely silent. Oh.

So even though Reuben signed the separation agreement and signed the papers that said you were in the process of divorce and even though Reuben was the one who moved out into Jake Seresins bachelor pad and although Reuben was the one who initially brought up separation in an argument late one night before, he was mad at you for giving up. “You never wanted to try for us!”

“I can’t do this with you here—“ You held back your tears as you shook your head. “I’m not going to do this with you here so either you treat me like a colleague or we ground so I can tell Mav I overestimated your ability to handle this situation professionally.” Payback went silent as he tossed up the options you had given him. Choosing to continue on and fly the damn course.

It was, as it turned out—the wrong choice. It was as if fate had other plans for you and your soon to be ex-husband. It was like death himself had loomed over the pair of you and strategically lined up all the steps to have your husband’s Super Hornet turning into a flaming beast that was out of control and hurtling back towards earth at a steep that was unmanageable in a situation that was unforgiving—a bird strike to the right engine that totally wiped you both out.

“Shitting off left engine!” Payback exclaimed as he relayed to you and to whoever was still live on coms what he was doing. As dark smoke plumes streamed out from the right engine you felt yourself choking up. What about your beautiful babies?

“Reuben we have to eject, we can’t save it!”

You snapped out of your trance-like state to speak sense into the father of your children as he did everything he’d been trained and told to do in an event like this. “Please, we have to eject it’s the only way! We’re in hydraulic failure! There’s nothing left to save!”

“Payback, Luna—you can’t save it, punch out!” It was ultimately Mavericks' voice that spoke enough sense about the chaos unfolding around you that your husband listened and finally gave into the fact that he couldn’t save his F-18. “Eject eject eject!”

“Luna, we gotta punch out.” Payback confirmed. “You first!” You listened and followed every protocol and did all the steps in order which should have seen you ejecting from the cockpit as it barreled towards the ground at an immense pace. “Y/n! I said eject!” Reuben shouted as he began to panic, watching the altitude fall every passing second. “Y/N!”

“It’s not working, it's not working!” You cried as you tugged and tugged and tugged on the yellow and black striped handle between your legs. “It’s not working oh my god—oh my—!” Within a few seconds of disaster, the ejection handle finally sent you flying—tumbling freestyle through the sky as you reached for your chute, pulling it as you pointed your feet towards the ground and felt the tug of the chute filling with air.

Fuck that was close.

“Payback!” You shouted as you watched your husband float down in his own parachute, sending him a thumbs up and he gave you one back.

It all seemed to have gone according to plan. You were alright, Reuben was alright from what you could gather—your kids still had their mother and father. As you headed towards the ground, controlling your chute, a major gust of wind picked you up and carried you through the gully—sending you flying into the side of one of the rocky mountains at a force that was unforgiving in its very nature. “Fuck!”

With a *oof* On impact you crashed against the rocky exterior and fell a few stories to the ground below, catching sharp edges along the way that would surely leave bruises for days if not weeks to come before you hit the deck hard. “Oh yeah, yeah that’s gonna hurt for a few days.” You seemed fine as you rolled over, looking up at the sky to see if you could find Reuben in the clouds.

But all you saw instead was a boulder hurtling down towards you, before the pain took you out.

***~***~***~***~****~***~***~***~

Reuben Payback Fitch was a lot of things. But a good husband was not even close to being on that listen. The two of you had married young, had gone through all the trials and tribulations of the Naval Academy together, had gone through separate postings and long distance. You’d gone through flight school and ranking’s together. Had two beautiful twin girls together.

You were Reubens best friend and he was yours, and in that very moment when he saw you lying unconscious on the ground with a bolder crushing your legs? Payback thought he’d lost you forever before he had a chance to say he was sorry. For everything. Sorry for how much he’d hurt you. Sorry for how much he wished he could have been the man you deserved and not got stuck with. Sorry he wasn’t able to give you the love you deserved, the life you deserved or the attention and admiration and support you deserved.

“Y/n!?” He called out as he landed slightly rocky. “You alright?” It was probably a stupid question, but as Reuben ditched his chute and ran over to where you were trapped, he felt his stomach drop. “Oh god—“ Kneeling down beside you, Payback tapped your cheek. “Baby, hey you gotta wake up for me.” He cooed softly, trying to mask his own panic. “Come on, Lieutenant Fitch wake up for me.”

At the sound of your husband’s gentle voice coaxing you back to reality, a floodgate of pain overcame your nervous system as you groaned and screamed out in unimaginable pain.

“Hey, hey, hey, hey, easy—“ Payback accessed the situation and boy was it not good. Your legs had been entirely crushed by the weight of the boulder rock that had fallen after your impact with the side of the cliff face. “I’ve got you—“

“I really don’t feel good.” You cried as you tried to free yourself. “Ahhh!”

“Stop, stop, here, I got you.” Payback cooed as he situated himself behind where you laid. Placing your head in his lap as he held your hand for support. “Search and rescue are probably out looking for us as we speak.”

“What if I don’t have that much time?” You said as you coughed up a little blood that panicked Reuben to new heights. No—you couldn’t die right? No, you wouldn’t leave him like this? He was supposed to try and get you back. He thought he still had time. “Reu I don’t feel good.”

“I know, I know but you’ve gotta stay with me alright, you’ve gotta stay strong because you can’t leave me here.”

“Oh please—“ You sighed as your eyes felt heavy and your arms felt weak, you were losing so much blood, Reuben could see it leaking up your thighs, soaked into the Normex of your flight suit. “This is cheaper than divorce right?” You tried to chuckle softly but it turned into a full bloodied cough.

Fuck.

“No baby, I never wanted to divorce you.” Payback tried his best to keep his cool as he leaned down over you to kiss your forehead, he took notice of how cold you were. “I’m just a fool who should’ve worked harder to show you how much I love you.”

“Reuben—“ You coughed again as your legs grew weaker and weaker under the pressure of the rock trapping you. “Please don’t lie to me.”

“I’m not.” He was quick to say. “I’m not lying to you Y/n, if I could take it all back, these last few months, I would in a single heartbeat.”

There was a momentary pause on your behalf as you mulled over your next step.

“Okay—“ You leaned into your husband, knowing that you wouldn’t fear death if he took you now. “Here’s what we’re gonna do.” You thought that if you were going to die here that you may as well be reminded how much you were really loved. “You’re gonna tell me three, no five—no.” You coughed up a little more blood as Reuben held your hand a little tighter as tears began to stream effortlessly down his cheeks. “Seven things, you’re gonna tell me seven things that you love about me, seven reasons why this is all worthwhile. You and me.”

There was a momentary pause on Reubens behalf as he mulled over if this would be his last chance to tell you how much he loved you—his last chance to apologise.

“I—I love how your neck smells in the morning.” He began as he cried and felt you in his arms. Shaking as the reality of the situation began to settle. How was he gonna tell your baby girls that’s you weren’t coming home.

“Okay.” You sighed, trying to focus on his voice and not the pain. “That’s one.”

“I love how every one of your toes looks like it came from another person's food.”

“Oh my god—“ You laughed out in pain as you gritted your teeth.

“And I love how you’re so honest and fearless and—“ Payback paused, really thinking about the things he wanted you to know he was grateful for. “And I love how when I’m sick you take care of me like I’m on my deathbed.”

“Okay—that last one counts for two.” You smiled softly up at your husband. “You’ve got three more.” He didn’t hesitate to keep going. Seeing the search and rescue efforts coming your way. “I can tell you I just adore this.” You added, reaching up to touch the worry lines on Paybacks forehead. “When your forehead gets all wrinkly when you’re worried.”

“I love the way you cut your crust of your toast even though you end up eating them both!” You and Payback both chuckled as you looked up at him and he looked down at you, your head still resting in his lap as his legs fell on either side of your body.

“I love your loyalty and your kindness to the girls.” You cooed. “They love you so much.” You paused for a moment until. “And I love how you still suck in your gut when I walk in the room.” That got Rueben as he laughed softly and kissed your forehead. You were much colder than a few minutes ago.

“I love how you didn’t dump me when you found out I was so in love with you.” Everything felt like it was fading, but you heard your husband loud and clear.

“And I love that you still married me even after you met my parents.” There was nothing more Payback wished he could do with you right now, than to go back to the night that he first met you. The love of his life, his best friend, the mother of his children.

“Please don’t leave me Y/n—“ You wanted to respond but you didn’t know how. It was like all of your abilities had been taken away. “No—no darling you stay here with me, with the girls, no no no—“

“Take care of our girls.” Oh take him back to the night you met. You’d been stuck here together for a long period of time but there was no way in hell Payback was leaving you. “I love you.”

“If I kissed you right now, what would you do?” You just looked at your husband and he knew, he knew this was it as medics ascended onto the scene. So he kissed you softly and ever so gently. As Reuben pulled back he saw your eyes were closed. And he knew—

He knew he just lost the better half of him.

***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~*

Leahs 4k celebration 🎊

#Leah’s 4k celebration 🎊#payback #reuben payback fitch #reuben fitch #Reuben TopGun #top gun maverick imagine #top gun x reader #reuben fitch x reader #Reuben fitch x female reader

102 notes · View notes

nickwildelvr · 7 months

Text

Genshin rant that I have to get out bc no one has talked abt this but

BIGGEST PET PEEVE is when people make childes dad abusive or homophobic because he sent childe to the military bc ik that sounds bad OUT OF CONTEXT but lets put this into his fathers perspective ok. His “timid and hesitant” 14 yr old boy suddenly goes missing for 3 days and has come back a completely different boy. He is now an egotistical violent maniac. He HURTS people, PICKS FIGHTS WITH EVERYONE, imagines tearing off BIRDS’ WINGS. And even though his dad was extremely worried the last straw was when childe took place and POSSIBLY EVEN STARTED a HUGE BRAWL with CLOSE FATALITIES. HE ALMOST KILLED PEOPLE. Do u realize how scary that is to see that type of drastic change from your own child(e). (I had to) THAT MAN WAS SCARED OF HIS OWN SON. THATS SCARY TO SEE??? and in this little town of morepesok it’s not like there’s fucking mental hospitals let alone ANYWHERE IN TEYVAT so at that point what else is there to do. I mean u CANT just let him get worse as he gets older he’s probably gonna join some gang or smthn. So “he had no choice but to send his BELOVED SON to the fatui”. It’s not like he did it to make his son worse or to hurt him, plus childe was FAR from hating it and still loves his job. Plus he gets big bucks too 🤤❕

And I do not for one second think that childe resents his father for it. Now I still definitely don’t think they have the best relationship when it comes to opening up though, or anything emotional, maybe their past plus as dash of toxic masculinity in there. I feel like they would both avoid the topic too, maybe sometimes it’s a little bit stiff between them. Childe would probably be a little more closed off to his old man than he is to his mom yk cuz there’s no way he’s not a mamas boy. BUT THEY STILL FUCKING LOVE EACH OTHER AND HIS DAD ISNT HITTING HIM OR CALLING HIM SLURS LIKE GOD. Leave that man alone he loved his son more than anything and still probably does.

I’m sad childe isn’t that major of a character to the point that we would probably ever get a close look into his relationships with his family let alone his father but that’s just my personal take on their dynamic. I just am GETTING TIRED of people saying this like “I bet childe hates his father” “his dads probably homophobic” “poor childe he got sent the the fatui :((“ MAYBE BC HE ALMOST KILLED PEOPLE???? Like what That’s on him bruh 💀

I removed the drawing I originally put bc anything angst that I draw makes me cringe so bad after a week 💀💀💀💀

24 notes · View notes

acingthistest · 7 months

Text

Prinxiety Week: That's How You Know

Prompt 1: Movie Night

tags@prinxietyweek

summary: Virgil and Roman had been sat in the living room for a couple hours. Tonight was their movie night; it was a way to bond with each other. They’d been doing it for a while now.

TW: none :D (though please notifiy me if I need to add anything)

Characters: Virgil, Roman, and Patton (who's only briefly mentioned)

I wrote this intending it to be romantic, but I think it can be read as platonic Prinxiety as well

It was shortly after Virgil’s acceptance when they had started. Roman wanted to try and get to know him better. Though he didn’t have much to go off of in regard to an activity they could do together. He knew that he liked Disney, which was a surprise to Roman initially. So, one-night, Roman asked Virgil if he wanted to join him to watch some Disney movies. It took a lot to convince him, until eventually, with some assistance from Patton, Virgil had finally given in.

“If I say yes this time, will you leave me alone.”

“I promise, though I’d doubt you’d want that.”

“Fine, if it’ll get you to stop.” Virgil had said, rolling his eyes.

It had been awkward at first. Neither of them had been saying anything, and while that would be basic etiquette for movie watching, the silence was rather uncomfortable. Until one off hand comment turned into another, resulting in a mini debate with the two as the movie played in the background. It was nice sharing opinions on each subject. To see things from a different perspective. Even if one of them was all dream-like and fantasy filled, while the other was dark and pessimistic. Yes, they disagreed on most things, but the times where they both already had the same opinion were almost magical. Finding out they shared a common observation was wonderful since they had already expected the other’s counter argument. From that point on, they decided to do this at least once about every 3 weeks.

They were now currently in the middle of “Enchanted”, both dressed casually Roman comfortably laid up against Virgil, while Virgil messed with his hair. Roman didn’t mind though, even if it was messing up his good hair day. Every day was a good hair day in his books.

“He is so you coated, and I hate that I know it.” Virgil remarked, staring at the screen. He was referring to the movie’s resident prince character, Edward.

“He is your standard Disney prince, so it makes sense why you get that vibe.” Roman chuckled, his brand was adjacent to a Disney prince. In the words of Logan, it was a reasonable conclusion or something like that.

“But I think it should the other way around?”

Virgil began to braid a small section of Roman’s hair, rather than just running his hand through it, as their conversation carried on.

“Eh, I’m around you more often. It feels right to say it this way.”

“Well I appreciate your company.” Roman spoke softly. Reaching to the nearby bowl of popcorn they’d brought over.

“You better, you’re the one who asked me to be here the first time.”

Roman gasped at the shift of tone in the room. Though he honestly shouldn’t have been surprised.

“You’re the one who asked if we could continue movie nights!”

They had taken a break due to the events that had occurred as of recently. Some things became a little much.

“You didn’t have to say yes.” Virgil scoffed.

“But I did want to continue these.”

“Then stop complaining. You got what you wanted.”

Roman turned his head up to look at Virgil.

“I guess I brought this upon myself.” He stated, smiling as he readjusted himself.

“Stop moving, you’re gonna mess me up.” Virgil uttered. Roman obliged and refocused his attention on the movie. Virgil tied the two braids he had made together. Just one last finishing touch he thought to himself. Virgil tried to be discreet adding it in.

“Not bad if I do say so myself.” He admitted aloud, grabbing Roman’s attention away from the movie.

“Wait lemme see.” Roman summoned a mirror in his hand. He stared at his reflection, seeing what Virgil had done. Two neatly done braids adorned with mini stars in them.

“Where did you get these?” Roman asked, turning to face Virgil and pointing to the stars in his hair.

“A master never reveals their secrets.” He answered with a wink.

“The suspense is going to kill me from the inside, oh no!” Roman said sarcastically. They both laughed at the statement and continued to watch the movie. When Patton entered the living room in the morning, he walked in to see a sleeping Roman while Virgil was scrolling on his phone. Virgil waved to Patton as he let out a small squeal of delight.

#prinxietyweek2023 #sanders sides fanfiction #prinxiety #roman sanders #virgil sanders #i rushed this and it shows

26 notes · View notes

scholastic-dragon · 1 year

Note

Ahh so I’ve had brain cancer since Feb of 2019 (it’s come back 3 times and i just came home from the hospital yesterday so this is why I’m asking) but Quill has been a huge comfort character to me through this. I’ve always seen him as my older brother and imagining him being there for me (especially since his mom had what I have, probably hits him hard) had played a HUGE part in getting me through this. If it’s okay to ask, how do you think he would react fo his sister figure going through this- like how would be support her? (I know it’s weird to find so much comfort in a fictional character but he’s really helped me through this emotionally tbh)

Hun, it is 100% alright for you to have found comfort in him. I hope things get better or continue to stay good for you and I hope this brings you comfort <3

Peter Quill x Sister!Reader

Through Thick and Thin

Word Count: 613

Warnings: talks of cancer, mentions of Quills mom (illusions to parental death), little angst, big fluff,

Summary: you and Quill have a heart-to-heart

"Easy now, there ya go," Quill gently took your arm, helping you down the steps of the hospital.

"I know," You force a laugh, exhaustion creeping through your joints, you just want to get back to the Milano and take a nap.

Quill doesn't let go of your arm as your reach the pathway, gently pulling you along to the parking local where the ship was.

He put himself in between any and all people that could possibly bump into you, insuring you were fully covered and protected from anything. He had been doing this more and more recently since your sickness started to come back.

"Pete, I'll be okay if you let go of my arm," You side eye him ad he nudges a garbage can out of the way.

"I know," He scoffs but doesn't let go.

You don't press and allow him to take you back to the ship, holding your hands as he helps you up the landing ramp.

He kicks open your bedroom door and sits you down on your bed.

You tried not to be annoyed, he was just trying to help, but in the last few weeks he'd glued himself to your side. He never let you do anything alone and never gave you any room to breath.

"Alright, do you need anything? Water? Food? Maybe a change of clothes?" He snaps his fingers at his last question, going over to your dresser and pulling out some clothes.

"Pete, I'm fine really, I can do it," You stand up, putting your hand on his arm to stop him.

"Yeah, I know," He sighs. "But you don't have to,"

"What's this really about, Pete?" You cross your arms, taking a step back from him, watching him shrug and look down at your dresser.

"Nothin' I'm....I'm just watching out for you, I don't want you to be alone-"

"I'm never alone!" You snap. "You haven't left my side in weeks and even if you did, I have the others to keep me company, I'm not alone," You sigh, dropping your arms and glancing down at the floor. "I didn't mean to snap like that, I can just tell there's something else bothering you,"

He sighs, setting the shirt he grabbed on top of your dresser, closing the drawer and turning to face you.

"The....the thing you have now.....it's what.....it's what my mom had," His eyes glass over, voice cracking, face flushing. "And I wasn't there for her, and I won't let it happen with you," A few stray tears spill down his cheeks. "I can't loose you too, you're....you're like a little sister to me,"

You move before he finished, wrapping your arms around him and squeezing him. Your fingers clawed at his leather jacket, trying to pull him closer, your own tears threatening to spill over.

Gently, he wrapped his arms around you, resting the side of his face against yours, chest shaking with sobs.

"What happened to your mom....it's not gonna happen again, I promise," You whisper, swallowing the lump in your throat.

"I know it won't, I won't make the same mistakes again," His voice croaked, you could tell he was holding back tears of his own.

"Pete, you didn't make any mistakes-"

"I wasn't there when she needed me," You felt the tears fall from his face and roll onto your cheek. "That's not gonna happen with you, I'll be here every step of the way,"

"You promise?" Your own tears spill past, blurring your vision, you close your eyes and tuck your head into his neck.

"I promise, we're family, we stick together through thick and thin,"

47 notes · View notes

xnchxntmxnt · 2 years

Note

Hiiii i pull a 5star? Uk me. Drabble w my guy Reki Kyan w the prompt Love At First Kiss. Interpret that anyy way you'd like I'll be looking forward to it <333

dude,,, you already got my whole rant about how much i loved this but to sum it up just. REKI.

Hi.

Fandom: Sk8 the Infinity

Characters: Reki Kyan

Warnings: one really brief food mention, swearing, potential second hand embarrassment

Notes: guys i love him so much you have no idea. my little sunshine boy he deserves every single kiss ever. also thank you koi for proofreading for me <3

gn!reader

Reblogs > likes

There were so many ways he could have said that differently

Sure, he was an idiot. But that much of an idiot? Really?

Apparently so.

Here was 18-year-old Reki Kyan, sitting on his bed, staring, as he realized he just said “hi” when he was about to kiss the person he had a major crush on.

The two of you had been going out for a couple weeks after a long time of him complaining he didn’t know how to ask you out to his friends at S. Joe was nice enough to help him out, and he charmed you enough to convince you to go on a date. Since then, he’d (unfortunately) shown you he was not that charmingly awkward teenager he tried to come off as, but was instead just the awkward part.

It took you a moment to process what the hell he just said before you started laughing. It shattered the silence enough for him to fall back on his bed, covering his face with a pillow while you continued to break into a laughing fit.

“What the hell, Kyan?” you teased, only to start laughing again. He groaned—this is where he was meant to die apparently. Smothering himself in a pillow because of the embarrassment.

You calmed down and slowly pried the pillow out of his hands. Still with a smile, you mocked, “hi.”

He hid his face under his hoodie sleeve and groaned again. “Leave me alone!” he complained. He didn’t want to know how red his face was at the moment.

“Aw, come on, it was cute,” you said, pulling him to sit up. You poked his nose with your finger, making his face scrunch up. “You’re an idiot, Kyan. But a cute one.”

“Thanks for the reminder.” He rolled his eyes but smiled nevertheless. “Not my finest moment, I know. I was trying to uh…ask you…something—” In that moment he realized you were looking at him with that gentle “this is my idiot” smile, and the eye contact just about did him in. “Y'know what, it, uh- it doesn’t matter! Doesn’t matter what I was gonna say. Do you wanna watch something? Or, I’m actually kinda hungry, do you want something to eat or—”

“Kyan.”

“Yes?” he sqeaked.

“What did you wanna ask me?”

He could feel his face grow hot again when you asked. Just a few minutes earlier you had been so close to kissing, and he wanted to seal the deal, but that was the wrong thing to say to break the tension in the room.

Either way, he took a deep breath and looked at the suddenly very interesting weaving in the denim on his jeans.

“Would it be weird if I kissed you…?” he mumbled, unsure if you actually understood what he said or not.

“What was that?”

He looked up finally, deciding to just go for it. “Can I kiss you?” he asked, probably a little louder than he wanted.

You smiled at him and brushed a little hair out of his face. Your hand stayed there, resting on his face, making him feel like his heart was going to beat out of his chest.

“If that’s what you want, sure. You said you haven’t kissed anyone before, so…”

No teasing. That was good. He knew you wouldn’t try to say anything mean, but in the back of his head he was worried you’d laugh at him and call him an idiot for real.

“I…trust you? If that’s the right word. But if you want to, then—”

Any other words he tried to spit out were silenced against your lips. In the movies, first kisses were always described with fireworks and butterflies and all sorts of corny things like that. He always thought that was stupid. Now that he was actually kissing someone, and that someone was you, all he felt was warmth and comfort.

He wasn’t sure if he was a good kisser or not, but he tried his best. Both of your hands held his face, so (without pushing too many boundaries) he let one of his rest on your hip. It was just more warmth and it felt incredible.

Your hands slid back to lace behind his neck as you pulled away, resting your forehead against his. He chased you for more before realizing his need for oxygen.

If you let him, he’d kiss you forever. In your arms, he felt like he was home, and he rarely felt anything that felt better than that.

“Hi,” he mumbled as his eyelids fluttered open, scanning your face for any sign that he did something wrong.

Instead, you just smiled. “Hi, yourself.”

taglist

@emswordss @kodzukoi @sirimirihiro @momoewn @tama-jam

#//ᴏʀɪɢɴᴀʟ ᴡᴏʀᴋꜱ #birthday event 2022 #//ᴏɴᴇꜱʜᴏᴛꜱ #reki kyan #reki kyan x reader #reki kyan x gn reader #reki x reader #reki #sk8 reki #reki x gn reader #reki kyan sk8 #reki sk8 #sk8 x reader #sk8 the infinity x reader #sk8 the infinity x gn reader #sk8 x gn reader

122 notes · View notes

carlos-tk · 6 months

Note

nice ask week

hi D! it's nice ask week! What made you start watching LS and what was it about the show that made you spiral into fandom?

Hi Rae! Thanks for the question! 💗 Apologies for how long this took me to answer. Work took over my life this week 😢 Now buckle in for a stupidly long story 😅

Firstly, I had watched the original 911s first and half of its 2nd season whenever they aired (2018/19 thanks Wikipedia) and then totally forgot all about it because again #life 😅 I did hear about a spin off whenever they announced it but I guess the only info was that it was coming soon. Wikipedia is helping out and it seems it was May 2019. I didn’t really pay it much mind because by then I had already stopped watching the og.

So I move on with my life and don’t think about either series until September 2022. I saw a youtube clip of a scene: the throwing each other against the wall hookup from 1x02. I watched it and I was like.. OH?!👀🔥🥵 Saved it to my YouTube watch later and again forgot all about it because back then I was doing full time shift work and had no time to breathe let alone watch anything new 😂 (kicking myself because I could’ve been here a year ago) 😭

Cut to this year. I can give you an exact date i rediscovered 911 verse. May 17th 2023!! 🥳 All because of the Tarlos wedding.

Twitter is probably the platform I use the most cos it’s got all my sports content😅 Anyway I happened to be on the discover/trending tab and one of the top hashtags was #TarlosWedding which was airing that day. I clicked it to investigate and scrolled through. It was full of pics and fanvids of the wedding and again I was like OH 👁👁. I liked a bunch of the tweets to revisit and moved on with my day. A few days later because I had liked all that stuff, Twitter keeps recommending me more content. So I find myself back on YouTube and watched these:

and then a series of random scenes and I was like... okay I need full context for all of this. Another month passes and it’s probably end of June/early July and I’m like let me see if this is available anywhere to watch in Australia. I find it on Disney+ and they have seasons 1-3. This is finally when I watched the show. And then I could not stop thinking about it. S4 is no where to be found though. So I google and see it’s halfway through airing on Channel 7 here which means it won’t be uploaded to Disney+ for a while. So then I’m like UGH 😒😩😤 I wanted to binge the whole season like I had for the others. I kept tabs on when it would finish airing on TV and eventually the finale airs August 14th. The next day I start it and binge the whole season on 7Plus over a few days.

Now that I had seen their entire story so far, I was full blown hyper fixating. Like they’re on my mind ALL the time. I’m reading a book or watching a movie/show and thinking about Tarlos in place of the characters. I’m listening to a song or reading a poem/lyric and being like oh that’s so Tarlos coded😂😂 At this point i’m like oh no 😅😅 The fandom life is coming for me.

Then the biggest surprise of all I start getting the urge to write fanfic again! Which is insane because I had not written anything in (redacted) years. Like nearly every time as I was about to sleep, I start having ideas and rambling it out in my notes app at stupid hours like 2am 😂😅

Next we have the writers/actors strike and I’m like 👀trust me to find a new obsession and everyone is on strike and I’m gonna get nothing new for ages. Then I remember AO3 is a thing that exists and find my way to the 911 Lone Star tag and start reading fic again. Any spare moment I had I was itching to read whatever I could get my eyeballs on. I said to you the other day that I read your gym!AU first and look I might’ve read a random 1k word one shot or two but nothing I can actually remember like yours 😂🥵 I think the added pictures and texts made it so memorable because 1. I did not know you could do that on AO3 2. Rafael is like the hottest guy I’ve ever seen 😅😅 and 3. It was just so damn good 🥵 Sm*t with feelings and I am there. You teased the feelings a little and if/when (no pressure btw) you decide to revisit this universe just know I’ll be first in line 🙋🏼‍♀️ and the reason I can recall it as the first is it’s the oldest AO3 tab saved to my safari reading list 😅

By this point I’m reading fic through the end of August and September constantly. A few I read had peoples Tumblr links in the end notes so then I remember that Tumblr also exists 😂 I come over and lurk, explore the tags, look at all the beautiful gifs, look at a few peoples blogs and make a mental note to maybe join Tumblr again. I had 2 blogs back in hs, 1 fandom specific blog that got abandoned during my last year of hs and a sports/tv-series one I used a little in the years after hs but then again #life and I didn’t touch it after like 2016.

Come September 2023. I made a new email, signed up to Tumblr again, and requested an AO3 invite. Learning how to use this site again was wild because so much had changed since I last used it. I saw something about getting mistaken for bots so I spent a little time making the blog look nice and like an actual person exists before I bothered to follow anyone or any tags. October rolls around and I finally start using it every day and now I’m here with all of y’all 💗

Sorry for the extremely long story and again sorry for how long it took 😅😅

#nice ask week #asked and answered

3 notes · View notes

dailycass-cain · 1 year

Text

Batman vs. Robin #5 concluded this week and after four prior issues, it decides to bring a certain someone into this. So how did Cass fair in the final issue? Well, let's get into my thoughts.

I'll be honest starting off and say this mini wasn't the best. I just feel the whole series has been rather meh save for a few moments sprinkled here and there (Bruce/Alfred in #1 and Talia in #4).

The whole stuff with the magic users Nezha does to them (particularly Black Alice) was quite unsettling. But I get it as a writer you're upping the stakes from the prior story with the character. I get that the Robins fight against Batman in #3 was more Bruce having to deal with all of them being OOC with one of the mystic weapons and Nezha. Though noticeably absent physically Cass was mentioned in the issue just not to be counted as backup.

A theory that proved right as the entire issue was Bruce fighting former Robins (or one current in Tim). Still, I had my fun poking at Cass for having to sit out entirely (along with Duke) not having to job for the issue.

Once that tie-in came out, I was kind of surprised to see in this issue Cass was in it. Artist Mahmud Asrar didn't have to go this hard for Cass but he did. Like hearing about this page and then reading it. I admit it. I smiled at the art spread alone.

Course the inner fan in me is like, "Where's Duke? And what happened to Kate? She was literally in #3!" To be honest the inner fan is right. Kate should've been called as mystical problems is her forte.

Course the counterpoint as to why she wasn't, "Right the series would've ended sooner and Kate hasn't dealt with spooky shenanigans since Gotham City Monsters THREE years ago."

Cass's reason to being there is a solid Damian plan though as he brings in the "big gun" to stall more. Plus the panel alignment near Cass. Nice.

Yes, Cass jobs to Nezha (as does the rest of the family). I'll allow this jobbing since this "the big bad" took out a bunch of heavy hitters between this issue and Lazarus Planet.

The fact that writer Mark Waid kept showing her landing blows and being an active thorn in Hezha's side until he powers up to knock all of them save Tim out? I'm not gonna be critical of that.

This is how jobbing is done. The threat is big and Bat-Family (and Monkey Prince) here is buying time. Time for the DC Magical users to get their revenge on Nezha and boy do they.

I'm satisfied with that because that's what it was building toward. So that leads to the second thing Cass contributed to this issue and again I'll give Waid credit on.

So when Damian reveals the second stage of his plan (aka the one he told no one in sacrificing himself to save his father). Enchantress offers another option.

Honestly, even out Cass would make that sacrifice too. Really, all of them would. But I'm not gonna be all, "HEY! Give Cass this moment." This is Damian's story with a Cass appearance.

This isn't bad for once, but then this is following Gotham: Future State and I've yet to recover from reading that garbage.

This appearance was just a fun nod to Cass and gave me a good bone which I happily gnawed on. Now am I going to go how this appearance makes sense given where Lazarus Planet: Dark Fate #1 left Cass? Cause I feel at this point explaining it would be like this.

Does this save the entire series? Eeeeeh not quite for me. But hey this series got me twice (that gorgeous Zatanna variant for #1 and this issue).

Still, I'm willing to begrudge the issue hit all the right notes. Save for Kate being brought in to buy more time. I think Babs would've been better suited for the Oracle section.

Though final side note unrelated to Cass. Babs hardcore this issue. Everyone is going hand to hand to smack Nezha-possessed Batman. Barbara Gordon on the other hand:

Geez Babs! 😲😲😲😲

#dc comics #cassandra cain #my thoughts

15 notes · View notes

bubblep0ppy · 11 months

Text

hello, i’m nine and i’m here to tell my truth, as ridiculous and stupid that sounds, because you people have been only reading one side of the situation and i don’t think that’s fair.

i joined with nailea devora to a group recently after more than a year of not even getting near to groups in general because as a lot of us know, people can’t control themselves and the hate they throw on a daily basis is honestly gross and my mental health can’t deal with that, but alas i was back for something i thought was fun, playing a dumb nepo baby who gets whatever she wants and plays dumb about it but in reality she had her ups and downs. she took me a while to figure out because i do love my characters and writing them

during the first party of said group, there was a mixup and characters had to dress up and poppy’s group (she was the manager) decided on cowboys, now tell me, what would you do? because i jumped onto pinterest and found several pictures of nailea wearing a cowboy hat and i picked the cutest ones i found

did i check her age at the moment? no, because nailea is 21 years old and my character as well... why would i (and i quote someone from said rp) carbon date the pictures of my character?

so i posted it and kept the party, poppy was around all day and as of the day i dropped her, she had the most tweet count in the entire group (if that tells you anything)

during the party she was flirting with another character she liked since day 1 and they’ve been talking and it wasn’t a sexual relationship, just flirting like literally everyone in that group or the entire rpc for that matters

him qrt that picture and poppy jokingly said “you let a cowboy ride you” or something like that, she never said anything actually inappropriate on main because she didn’t even say it on dms.

and this is when things get wild because the yuqi fc started fights with everyone and i get that some characters are just assholes, i love villains in media, but in my opinion, some kind of ooc talk must exist before you right on attack someone on main, out of good manners at least (but we all know not everyone has that privilege)

poppy ended up blocking the yuqi fc out of principle, she wasn’t gonna let some biter bitch to ruin her night (which ended with her sleeping alone btw, seeing as how much they care about my character’s sexual life)

after that, the yuqi fc kept posting indirects or very direct attacks to my character, at one point it was all they posted and ignored it, i don’t like to get into drama that way and if they couldn’t kept poppy out of their mind.. well everyone has haters, right?

this went on for WEEKS and poppy only cared about it when her friends sent her ss of the post cai made, and she was annoyed because her friends used to confront xem only for cai to laugh about it and not even give a good explanation

i talked to the admins about changing my fc or even drop the group but i was convinced to stay because i haven’t been done anything bad.

guess what? the bullying kept going.

when i dropped the group for a day, i was tired of it (and other problems my chara found herself into even though it wasn’t plotted, again) and as soon as i left, cai mun posted an “apology” to the tl saying how it was a ooc thing that went ic for some reason.

now to clarify, i have no idea who this person is and honestly i don’t want to give them the privilege to meet me or talk to me because someone with that much hate in their person is just not someone i want in my life.

they claimed that the picture with the cowboy hat was of nailea being underage, which i can’t say 100% sure, but nailea deleted all of her underage pictures from instagram and this one was posted 3 years ago, when she was 18/19 years old.

yes, younger than the limit for the group, but that doesn’t mean she was underage or even that i was using that to “infantilize” her, poppy was a very complex character and i don’t see how someone who was blocked for 90% of the time could say something about the way i played her...

and speaking about the “sexting on main” i never did that and feel free to stalk my old account, the only “racy” thing i posted was a tiktok and it wasn’t even that graphic and again, it was posted for another person poppy was talking (not in a romantic way)

but i don’t know, let the person obsessed with mario bros and calling themselves a “princess” for the entirety of the group to tell you who’s being childish

#twitter rp #rpt

5 notes · View notes

m0chigang · 7 months

Text

August Wrap Up ✨

I’m not gonna lie, it took me 2 weeks to read just one book because I didn’t want the characters to go away, so I hid reading fanfics (yes, it’s a theme, fanfics help me avoid shit, sue me). And because of this I read a lot of comics or graphic novels to kind of balance things out. As always, I’ll try to not spoil anything, but just in case, spoiler warning.

1. Aristotle and Dante Dive into the Waters of the World - 5/5

This is what took most of my time, I didn’t want to let these boy go, and honestly, I don’t know if I regret continuing after the beautiful ending of the first book because… WHAT THE FVCK WERE THOSE LAST 200 PAGES???? And most importantly, what the FVCK WERE THOSE LAST 10 CHAPTERS??? My heart was doing flips, I was crying like no tomorrow, and I ended up happy. I loved the book, it’s an incredible saga, and it’s so easy to read and follow along. Dante and Aristotle are so lovable, you just want to be there for them, and the topics in this one are just… all I can say is read it. You won’t regret it.

2. The Girl from the Sea - 4.5/5

Did I cry over this high schooler? Yes. Did I question my life because I need more than that ending? Also yes. Did I love the drawings? Obviously. It’s just adorable and queer, and heartwarming, and heartbreaking, and all I want is for these amazing beings to be happy. AND IT HAS SEALS. SEAAAALS. Honestly, I would make this a 5 star, but I need more.I need a sequel, I can’t be left like this.

3. The Boy Who Didn’t Love - 4/5

I now people shit on Wattpad a lot, but I still enjoy the app because it’s what made me fall back in love with reading, and I’m including this Wattpad original story because fvck it, I make the rules. Can someone explain to me why this diagnosed sociopath is a better partner than “sane” people? I was hoping for him to do something to make me hate him, and nothing. I resented the girl a bit, but that is it. They had great communication, he tried to understand her as much as he could, and he sounded hot af when he manipulated people. Maybe I’m the problem.

4. The Sad Ghost Club 2 & 3 - 4/5

I finished these comics (finally) and I loved them. i felt seen. Socks is me, I am Socks, and I have felt a lot of their feelings. It’s just comforting to see the struggles of other people and that you are. Ot alone in your struggles. Its a message I kind of needed after these last few years, so I obviously love it.

5. The Witch Boy Series - 4/5

These are 3 books, The Witch Boy, The Hidden Witch and The Midwinter Witch. I’m sure there will be more, but for now, those are the ones I read. They are adorable. Just out of this world adorable. I know the target audience are middle schoolers, but that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy it. I will show these to my little brother, because I feel like he will like them, and it’s a way of seeing that it’s okay to feel different from others and and sometimes you are not the only different one. Challenge tradition 😤

#reading #book tumblr #reading challenge #what i read this month #Aristotle and dante dive into the waters of the world #wattpad #the girl from the sea #the sad ghost club #the witch boy #the hidden witch #the midwinter witch

4 notes · View notes

figsandfandoms · 1 year

Text

✨2022 Writing Year In Review✨

I was tagged by @lassiesspanishaccent so here goes!

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 25!! Holy Hannah. That’s a bit skewed by the fact that I participated in Flufftober this year.

2. Word count posted for the year: 62,626

3. Fandoms I wrote for: Psych and SG-1

4. Pairings: I was quite the multi-shipper this year lol

Juliet/Shawn (Psych)

Daniel/Vala (SG-1)

Gus/Selene (Psych)

Carlton/Marlowe (Psych)

Carlton/Shawn (Psych)

Shawn/Gus (Psych)

5. Story with the most:

Kudos: “One night in the chief’s office” (225 Kudos)

Bookmarks: “One night in the chief’s office” 49 Bookmarks)

Comments: “You've got comments “ (56 Comment Threads)

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why):

I think I answered this question in another AO3 round up or review, so hopefully I answer it the same this time haha.

But I think I’m most proud of two works: How many one-night stands equals a relationship? and One night in the chief’s office.

For How many one-night stands equals a relationship?, I’d say I’m proud of the poetry of it.

For One night in the chief’s office, it was my first major M/M smut, and I’m proud of how it turned out, and proud of myself for pushing through with it.

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why):

I honestly don’t know. This has given me the opportunity to read over some of the fics that don’t get a lot of attention, but I’m still proud of them and proud that I wrote them.

Do I think that the writing could have been better, that maybe I could have spell-checked a little more? Sure. But I wrote something and created something. So, I’m proud of them.

8. Share or describe a favourite review you received:

Oh gosh. Like Swattie said, I love each and every comment I’ve received. I don’t think I’ve deleted any of them from my inbox! (side note, does the AO3 inbox have a limit???).

That being said…

The ones that really stick out are the times when people have told me I’ve written the characters ‘in character’. The characters I wrote for are an eclectic bunch, and getting their tone and style of speaking down pat can be hard. So I love it when people tell me that I write them in characters.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard:

Hmm… I’d say maybe the beginning of 2022, when I got such a horrible round of migraines. At least two a week for about a month or so. Back then, opening my eyes was hard, let alone writing a fic.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

Writing for Cam in Cameron Mitchell's Diary was kind of surprising. The idea for the story came outta nowhere, and I hadn’t really thought of writing from Cam’s perspective.

11. A favourite excerpt of your writing:

I’m gonna cheat and pick two:

From ‘How many one-night stands’

He nods, and they kiss and hug and touch and undress each other and try to make each other feel good because they know this feeling won’t last long. He pours kindness and caring into every clash of teeth and tongue, telling her without words that it’ll be okay, that she’ll be okay.

I hit the poetry hard with this story, but this is my favourite line.

From ‘You’ve got comments’

Shawn thought for approximately 8.5 seconds before he enacted his plan. It was twice as long as he normally spent looking before leaping, so he gave himself a literal pat on the back before starting.

That line makes me giggle.

12. How did you grow as a writer this year:

I took more risks this year, and my writing has improved.

13. How do you hope to grow next year:

By doing what I did last year- keep trying new things and seeing what happens.

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

The Santa Barbara After Dark discord! Swattie, Birdy, Noz, Avotah, Aut… You all are so amazing!

I’ll also be sappy and say my husband is my biggest cheerleader. He cheers me on and takes over household chores so I can write. He’s my best friend and I love him. Love you babe!

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

Chapter four of Flufftober- Psych stories was partly inspired by my husband and the way he supports my powerlifting.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

New wisdom? I don’t think it’s ‘new’, but I would say ‘don’t be afraid to write something different’. you never know what might happen.

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

I’ve got a couple of WIPs that are almost finished that I’m looking forward to getting over the line.

Other than that, I’ve got a couple of ideas that I’d like to get started on, as well as an original work.

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

@emachinescat @missmultifandommessdom @r1ver-6r-6

3 notes · View notes

mirrorthoughts · 2 years

Note

For any OC you feel like talking about today :) :

🍁Where does your OC go when they need to have some time to themself? Would they ever have their own “comfort corner” filled with all the things they like? Do they have a favourite spot outside that feels like its theirs and theirs alone?

and

🌾 Describe your OC through the eyes of someone absolutely head-over-heels in love with them

Awww! Thanks so much for the question, @asher-writes! And the open choice xD

I think I‘m gonna write about Anton Asper. I don’t think I’ve mentioned him yet, he‘s one of the main characters of my current original story :3 he‘s not a POV-character though. His partner Sasha Weber is.

Since this post got rather long… more unter the cut xD

Anton is a potions master and a very secretive man. He‘s in his mid 50ies and owns a shop together with Sasha which mostly sells a lot of books - non-magical in the front and magical in the back - as well as his potions and charms and other spellcraft-y stuff that Sascha works on.

Both of them have a certain reputation thanks to them being „war heroes“ for defeating a dark lord about two decades prior. (Sascha was seen as „the chosen one“, Anton was one of his teachers and allies at the time) So there is a certain public opinion (and pressure) on Anton he does like to avoid.

🍁 Where does your OC go when they need to have some time to themself? Would they ever have their own “comfort corner” filled with all the things they like? Do they have a favourite spot outside that feels like its theirs and theirs alone?

Anton‘s place of comfort is his potions lab. He can close out people and opinions and concentrate on creating and fiddling and experimenting with his potions. While he does like to be alone there he also likes having Sascha with him since his partner a) can actually be silent if he wants to and working silently next to each other is one of Anton’s favourite pastimes and b) Sascha is just as intelligent and creative as Anton himself - just in different aspects. They often end up testing combinations of Anton‘s potions to Sascha‘s creations and sometimes Anton even pauses with making potions to just work on one of Sascha‘s projects (or vice versa for that matter).

His outside comfort place is everywhere he has his peace - alone or with Sascha - and the possibility to find herbs and other ingredients, may it be his own roof garden where he grows his most used herbs or anywhere else in the world.

🌾 Describe your OC through the eyes of someone absolutely head-over-heels in love with them

… that would be from Sascha‘s eyes then xD alright, let’s let him have the stage, huh? ;D

Sascha: „Well, Toni‘s gorgeous, for one! I love his graceful movement, all confident and sure. He can be very imposing and when I met him the first time I felt absolutely intimidated by his dark eyes, dark hair and light skin. It took a while to see him laugh at all which happened mostly after the war when we started to get to know each other as friends and not only as… people on the same side fighting for the same cause. I’m proud to say that his crow‘s feet by now are mostly from smiling and laughing instead of the scowls and frowns he used to wear around his students. He‘s still very light skinned even though I actually got him to take a few weeks off with me over the years so he didn’t see as much of his potions lab in those days, but his skin doesn’t keep the darker colour very well. He always has to be careful about sunburn, too. And don’t tell him I told you about the adorable freckles that appear when his skin gets darker - he always denies to have any! Toni’s still rather self-conscious about his nose and I’m still sad that me and my peers didn’t help any with that when I was in my teens. Though I do like the shape of it even if it’s crooked and a bit too large - a lot of space to press kisses to! Toni also liked to keep his hair about shoulder length to keep it out of his face while working, though by now he keeps it a bit longer - in a low ponytail when working - because he likes me playing with his hair in the evening. And I love letting my fingers glide through his hair, too, it’s so silky and soft! And on the topics of fingers, uhh… I love Toni’s fingers- hands! I meant hands! Well… both I guess? They are longer than mine and just as graceful as the rest of him. Watching him cut herbs and other things is… uh… not very helpful when I try to keep my head on work related topics! Otherwise… hm. I think he looks gorgeous in everything he wears though I mostly see him in his robes since those protect him from potions spills etc. At home we mostly like to lounge in comfortable wear that’s not clinging as much to one’s body. Though when we go out he does strike a handsome figure in slacks - mostly dark of course - and simple shirts. He does like to roll up his sleeves a lot - he’s mostly used to about elbow-length sleeves due to his work robes - and well. You won’t hear me complain about that!“

So much to Sascha‘s description of Anton/Toni xD…

Hope you liked the answers and thanks again for the questions!

#seikaze #sei's writing #ask game answers #Asher-writes

7 notes · View notes

alwayscryingoverdannyb · 2 years

Note

1, 2, 22, and 26 please :3

sorry it took me so long to get around to this, I’m a soggy noodle, but I was super busy with pre-vacay preparations and work -.-

1) who is/are your comfort character(s)? obviously not a character but Liam Gallagher and his music have been my comfort thing for so long I’m having trouble remembering which character I “ran to” for comfort before him :’D but I’m gonna say Kaidan Alenko. he was such a comforting character that his absence in ME2 spilled into my real life and when things got tough I thought “what would kaidan do?” he’s the most well-adjusted romantic partner and ergo, 100% the dream guy you’d want IRL. but aside from that he’s just smart and nice and good company overall so :3

2) lighter or matches? I do love zippo lighters a lot! But as I’m not a smoker, I don’t carry one on me so I don’t really keep any operable, tho I do own a couple. Mostly souvenirs :))

22) what type of person are you? That’s a broad question so the answer might be a bit all over the place but here goes :D I feel like I’m full of polar opposites, as a gemini would be. when I was a kid, I was told I was exceptionally mature in my thinking but at the same time quite infantile in other regards. With some people I have a general reputation of being friendly and easy-going but my closer friends know how up-and-down and fickle my moods are.. I wilt when I’m alone too much but at the same time I get abruptly “overpeopled” and then I’m absolutely useless until I crawl into a hole and recharge.. I’m not a a very disciplined person (I’m often late, I can’t adhere to a routine, procrastination is my middle name) but when I really put my mind to something, you couldn’t stop me if your life depended on it. (e.g.: when I’m really into running, I exercise any time of day, any weather, no excuses. when I started playing the guitar, I practiced 1-2 hrs every single day. now it’s only several times a week but mostly bc I’m so busy with other stuff and I’m not home much.) so I feel like inside me there’s two different personalities and my life is a learning curve where I’m trying to figure out how to navigate them so that it results in one functional human being.

other than that I’d say I’m unimaginative and terrible at thinking out of the box, but as the other side of the same coin, I’m great at learning by copying and emulating others. I also like to think I’m a decent listener and a good host :))

26) a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times? I imagined how the conversation with my boss during his farewell party will go down -.- I feel the need to convey to him how much he means to me without sounding creepy. I am also afraid I will cry. yet again. but the party’s on October 5th so I’ll worry about it after my vacation.

#thank uuu fishy #btw I still have the fish on a string in the dining room and I look at them every day #personal #answered

2 notes · View notes

majoringinsarcasm · 2 years

Text

I understand the frustration of not having a Confession scene from Blake and Yang yet, and I do believe V9 would be a great place to have it if they’re working out issues and dealing with secrets. However I do have a few gripes that are Personal, Not Trying to Bash Anyone Who Feels This Way, and is just Me Venting

Just in general I don’t think they are trying to queerbait. A slow burn relationship is not the same as constantly hinting at more but dripping back each and every time. Blake and Yang have been progressing Forward, from strangers to teammates to friends to realized romantic feelings. I don’t think it’s been Too Long Without A Confession at all.

We have V1 through V3, the Beacon school arc, the everything is fine until it isn’t arc. V4 and V5 they are separated and working through their, I’ll say family issues? But it’s Blake and the White Fang stuff and Yang dealing with PTSD and learning how to use her prosthetic and to find her new goals and Will to get back out there. Then in V6 they are clearly learning how to be together again after I’ll say maybe two months apart? The time skip between 3 and 4 I think was six weeks and then we have 4 to the end of 5. It’s kinda awkward. Blake saying she’ll protect Yang and not understanding why that upsets her. Them facing Adam and realizing that they protect each other best, not one saving the other like it was before, when Yang rushed in and lost her arm and Blake leaving to keep her out of danger. Then it’s right into V7, and Atlas and Ironwood and the walls falling and the Ace Ops. They have cute moments, go out dancing, talk about serious problems. That continues into V8 and doubting their personal choices for fear of how the other will see them.

Hell Renora who have been Together for upwards of five years, maybe 7 or even 10 depending on when they met, only kissed in V7. And then didn’t Confess until V8 when Nora got hurt. And even that was a moment of silence hidden away from the utter lack of sleep and peace they’ve had since things weren’t south. Blake and Yang didn’t have that moment alone to properly talk things out and express how they feel and that’s not by accident. It took Nora nearly dying for them to have that talk. Nora was frustrated by how Blake and Yang seemed to connect easier, which is her looking in from the outside.

With the way they’ve been going nonstop I think it’s perfectly fine they haven’t had a big confession moment yet. Bc if they were planned since V2 or if not it doesn’t take away from how their relationship is different. Ren and Nora are everything to each other. Yang and Blake grew up in different circumstances with different priorities and had to open up to themselves and are still clearly holding things back. Yes it’s frustrating to wait and the fear of it being a lie when all the haters and homophobes use their lack of confession as a way to debunk them. But I don’t think CRWBY would put in these moments if they were just gonna be platonic, not with the parallels to Yang and Adam, Sun and Ilia, Yang outright saying “what if I needed her here for me”.

They are both afraid of something. They both clearly care about each other and share a different bond then they do with Ruby and Weiss. And that in itself is hard without all the magic. The wait will be worth it once they can work through whatever it is they keep hidden. And surely others will say they waited too long. But when would you have had them confess? And what impact would there be in the story that a later confession would ruin or get wrong?

Also just a personal annoyance but I’m a big fan of the bisexual Blake concept even if none of the characters ever get labels. And the way people will dismiss Sun for simply existing and saying he’s the reason for the queerbait baffles the hell out of me because. Even if she didn’t have a little crush at the beginning she was still very much into Adam. So like. Remember bisexuals exist when you bring up Bee queerbait bc it’s not Yang with the Four people who had a thing for her, with more than one gender being in those four.

TLDR: I think Bee confession is likely in V9 and the wait in my eyes has been perfectly built and a wonderful slow burn bc I don’t see where in the show they could’ve had a meaningful Renora type of conversation about it. Also keep in mind Jaune and Pyrrha didn’t even get a big moment and they were still seen as romantic before Pyrrha kissed him. Bc we as the audience know how they feel. They just haven’t told each other which I think might be why ppl are upset but again. They’ve had little personal time just the two of them for a Big Moment like everyone seems to want.

0 notes