hello everyone :) crowdfund for rent is going nowhere so i am remaking the post. i was able to raise $105, but that all went towards groceries for the next week or two, as i was running very low on food.
my current goal is at least $760 - $700 for rent, which is due in under 6 days, and $60 for my phone bill, which is due in 2 days. please help me if you can. i dont have anywhere safe to go if i get evicted, and as an ambulatory wheelchair user on multiple medications that make me sensititive to heat, i can't survive on the az streets where it is already like 95f-110f now.
When we were teenagers, we lived apart. Seperated by three states. Saw each other as much as we could, but some days were worse than others. I scared myself several times during those years. We would make plans to meet, and just before I saw her I would wonder if this would work. If maybe my feelings were jaded for her.
But they never did. We would see each other and I would remember how I fell in love. She is soft. Warm blankets in a cool home, the sound of a dryer in the next room over. We longed to live together. Now, we do.
The world is in a semi-permanent golden hour when my love is home. We play Billie Holiday and help each other cook and clean. It is an easy existence after the toil of our younger years.
She gives me safety and comfort, love in all ways. When i don't want to take my medications, she lays with me and talks to me gently, because she knows it will make me sick if i skip a day. When I dont feel hungry, she makes a large plate with things she knows i like and sits next to me on the couch, offering me a bite for every bite she takes. I always take them.
When she is upset, I ask her how i can help. Sometimes the answer is a hug, and i hold her tight enough to remind her I will always be here for her. Sometimes she wants to be ledt alone, so I'll put on music or take a nap or go on a walk, and try asking again when I see her next.
I love her. Our lives are peaceful. We are one and we are two. Symbiosis at its finest.
"I want to love you on purpose. I will choose you everyday, especially on the days when the darkness clings to your being and refuses to let go. Loving you is the best decision I have ever made. I hope one day when we are grey and old, when the creaks and groans of our bones harmonise and your eyes sparkle like the north star that guides the ship of me home, I hope then, our fingers will be intertwined with our hands on my lap. My eyes will find yours and I will remind you that I choose you. "
-A series of love poems i wrote for her that she'll never know about.
The gender euphoria this compliment gives me is everything 🫶🏿 I love being a woman - don't get me wrong though, if I could have all the parts: I would. That's ideal.
Give me all of the sexes & genders please 🥹 Especially as a woman with PCOS - I already naturally have all the hormones (estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone). My gender is pretty lady, my sex is female and hormonally I'm non-binary/enby. I'm also most comfortable being feminine presenting and even when I'm masculine presenting: I'm still a pretty boii :3