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I JUST READ YOUR STRIKER HEADCANONS AND IM DROOLING RN
I think he likes it when you make him fight for it sometimes. He likes the power struggle. Wrestle with him in bed, make him hold you down, make him tie your wrists together to keep you from flipping him over. If he wants to dom you, make him earn it.
Also? Heavy on the gunplay. It's never loaded of course and you have a safeword should you ever need it, but seeing that little twinge of fear in your eyes when you realize you can't keep fighting him, he won, you're powerless, AND he has a gun pressed against your temple? Delicious. Makes him feel strong.
Could I maybe request something like this?
yes oh my god this is literally what i was thinking when i made those hcs NONNIE U READ MY MIND ♥️
🥀Cw: smut, a bit of fluff, established relationship/consent, reader is gn but there is one use of m'am/sir, powerplay, scratching, biting, gun kink, overall filth
🥀minors dni
you collapse against the bed as striker pins you down, beating you easily in yet another wrestling match. the mattress dips from your combined weight, and striker used the opportunity to lean down, whispering against your neck. the combination of thefeeling of his breath ticking your sensitive skin and his raspy voice makes you shjver. "aww, how sweet," striker coos, mockingly tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear. "did ya really think y'could beat me, poppet?" you squirm beneath him, his hips planted firmly above you with his thighs caging you in place. you buck your hips upwards, eliciting a hiss from striker as you grind against his prominent buldge. his tail rattles slightly, curling up around your thigh as, with one hand, he grabs you wrists and pins them down above your head.
"fucking brat," striker spat, using his free hand to grab your face, forcing you to look at him. his cowboy hat tipped forward, falling of his head as he leaned down to kiss you messily. you giggle when the hat falls to the side, but the giggle soon melts into a moan as striker grinds down against you. "fuck, doll, look what you do t'me.." striker murmurs against your lips, and you let him slip his tongue into the cavern of your mouth as the hand on your face travels down to your neck.
suddenly, with all your might, you push up against him, attempting to flip him over onto his back. striker lets out a throaty chuckle, tsking when you whine out his name. "y'wanna be on top, sugar? too damn bad," his voice transcends into a growl as he makes quick work of your pants and undergarments. he pulls apart from you to quickly undress himself, and while you remove your top, you also use the time to admire his toned body. "like what ya see?" striker smirks, crawling on top of you again, his hands finding purchase on your supple thighs. he gives your ass an appreciative squeeze before gently teasing your entrance with a finger. "y'ready?" he asks, his voice adopting a softer, serious tone. "if ya want to stop, we always can." you smile, grabbing his hand and pulling it closer to your needy hole. "i know, striker. and i know what i want- i want you, and i want you to touch me." the corner of his mouth twitches, fighting off a crazed grin. "y'really are such a doll, y'know that?" striker whispers huskily, plunging a finger into you. you gasp at the pleasurable intrusion, soon accompanied by a second finger as he stretches you out.
"o-oh! ffuck-" you gasp, keening as he curls his fingers with mind numbing accuracy. striker brushes your hair out of your eyes, watching your face twist in pleasure as you pant. he can feel you practically sucking in his fingers, and a sudden idea strikes him. "open up," striker commands, grabbing his gun from the bedside table. your hole clenches around his fingers and you throb at the sight of the weapon. without hesitation you open your mouth, drool pooling on the edge of your lips as he shoves the gun into your mouth. you gasp, shocked by the cold sensation of the metal against your tongue. you can feel your orgasm approaching fast, the coil in your abdomen squeezing tighter by the second.
suddenly, striker pulls his hand away, relishing in the muffled, needy whimper that slips past your lips. "aw, d'worry poppet," he chuckles, pumping his cock a few times before aligning himself with your hole. "i'd never leave ya unsatisfied". striker thrusted in slowly, watching as your aching hole swallows his cock in a vice-like grip. "o-oh!" you gasp airily, thighs clamping around his waist as you claw down his back. striker begins to move, slowly but surely thrusting into you as you adjust to his size. it takes everything in him not to loose all restraint and fuck you senseless, especially with the way your moaning his name like a prayer. your hole was tightening around him and your wanton moans grew louder and louder, signifying that you were close.
you clench around him impossibly tight, the pleasure becoming almost unbearable. "striker- oh fuucnghh-" you gasp, your words muffled by the gun stil in your mouth as the coil in your abdomen snaps. your mind went perfectly blank as you ride out your high, striker cursing up a storm as his orgasm follows immediately after you. he pulls out, spilling his seed onto your stomach and chest.
striker gently pulls the gun from your mouth as you come down from your euphoric high, wiping the tears from the corner of your eyes and gently massaging your sore jaw.
"y'okay, bubs?" striker asked, gently cupping your face as he collapses beside you. "mhm," you murmur, leaning in to press a gentle kiss to his nose. "just a lil' tired..." striker chuckles at your reply, gently kissing your forehead. suddenly, an idea struck you, and you crawl on top of him. striker watches you with amusement as you straddle him, his teeth glinting in the moonlight streaming in from outside your window.
"not too tired for round two, i see," striker snarks, and you shush him. "if you want to cum, then i suggest you stop talking," you reply, and striker swallows hard. "yes m'am/sir," he whispers, wetting his lips as you grind down against him. "i promise i'll behave," he murmurs, eyes glistening with lust as his hands travel to grip your thighs. "we'll see about that," you reply, already knowing your in for a long night.
I HAD TO HYPE MYSELF UP FOR THIS ONE 😭 this will probably have a pt2 w sub striker cuz i cant resist the opportunity- sorry i haven't posted in like a week ive been fighting demons (anxiety and burnout 😭) but i really wanted to finish this! i have a few more wips that will be posted soon, and im considering adding marvel/the mcu to the list of fandoms i write for cuz ive been falling back into my marvel phase lmao. ANYWAYSSSS I HOPE U ENJOYED!!!!
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bruh i wrote this on a whim. but it needs to be said.
tw: manipulation, yandere. Nothing too much. It’s pretty mild, but it’s dazai so idk what to say.
bruh if this flops im gonna actually cry tho. I actually used my brain to write this. even tho I used causual language and this ain’t that formal ughsdfhlkdsj. but also sorry if it’s really bad. I didn’t even proofread this I just copy and pasted it into tumblr. Also, if the ending’s kinda messy or if there’s like grammar mistakes... pls tell me I literally am so braindead rn i can’t read
would also tag people this was inspired by but this is actually half shitpost and that would be hella rude of me to do that so. lmfao. (translate: i don’t have the balls)
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I see so many people thinking that Dazai would fall for someone cheerful, and bubbly, who would approach him first.
Honestly, I disagree.
I think the opposite. Maybe it’s because I see part of myself in Dazai (and Yozo from the No Longer Human), or maybe because it’s simply because I’m not a bubbly, happy, person in general (but i wanna be with him jkjk unless… ) but. I personally disagree with that headcannon, I don’t really see it happening. Obviously, there are cases of characters liking an innocent, sweet, bubbly darling (cough. Nikolai. Chuuya. Akutagawa. Atsushi.) But, for Dazai… I feel like that would be too boring for him. Not as in he wouldn’t like it that way… but it would be too easy for him, ya know? Like there’s no challenge, there’s no… interest in doing that. Why would Dazai want someone so open, so innocent, so bubbly and kind, who would listen to anything he said? That’s not even genuine, that’s fake. Everyone has their own secrets, their lies, and they create a fake mask for everyone else to see. They wouldn’t want to show their true self… because it’d make them not only look bad… but also we’d all be extremely vulnerable. And violent.
Dazai knows this better than anyone else. I’d like to think, anyways. And innocent people like that, whether genuine or not, usually would deter him because they’re… too easy to pursue. Despite being a good liar himself, I don’t think he’d want someone who would fake the niceness, because it would be obvious from the start. Dazai doesn’t strike me as someone who would enjoy breaking his darling down (that’s Fyodor’s thing bro would definitely like someone who is fake). He has some morality, he doesn’t like using mind break. After all, that goes against what Oda told him to do. However, he’d definitely enjoy mind games, he’d like to pick you apart to get to know you better. Better than you know yourself. And once he does, he can leverage you however he likes to be his ideal woman. Even that manga q and a (I’lll find the link later) said that Dazai likes all women because he can make them into what he wants. Someone who’s outright innocent and kind wouldn’t be able to achieve that effect for him. It doesn’t offer him the challenge, it doesn’t offer him any kind of challenge in just manipulating someone innocent who barely hides anything. That would be a bad thing, and even his skwered sense of whatever morals he has would disagree with it. He wouldn’t even be able to fall for someone like that. Simple-minded people, just aren’t for him.
So, in prose, I’d like to offer an alternate idea: Dazai would like a darling that’s, obviously to a similar intelligence as him (otherwise they’d be… too easy), but very distant. Not as in a “they have a mask on”, kind of way. But in a. They’re apathetic, cold, and aren’t great at communicating kind of way. I think it’s an interesting dynamic. The first time when Dazai sees them, he may not even think much of them. Neutral cold face doesn’t say many sentences and wants him to leave. Maybe a slight fear of him, that he approached them. However, as time passes by, Dazai realizes he likes them. He genuinely craves their presence. He notices the way you don’t exactly know what his motives are, he enjoys the way you flinch when he touches your hands, or blush and do not know how to respond to his comments.
He sees all of it. And he wants to see who you really are. Behind your true mask. Maybe you’re a narcissist. Maybe you’re just a kind innocent person. Or maybe… you’re just as empty and lonely as he is. Whatever you are, he’ll eventually turn you into what he wants. It’s just a matter of time.
It’s like he’s looking at a Christmas present, and trying to guess the contents inside. The curiosity kills him. He wants to look at what it is now, but he can’t. He can’t. Until it’s Christmas day. So in the meantime, he’ll do everything except pull down the thin wrapping paper, and the apathetic, cold face you put on for everyone around you. It’s rather difficult actually, you do a pretty good job at covering your true self. You’re a skilled liar, you can control any physical reactions you have towards his questions.
But that just makes it all the more addictive.
The second you slip up, even just for a tiny. Little. Bit. Dazai is able to pinpoint a lot about you. It’s almost like he tore off a corner of the wrapping paper on his present, and he’s knows a lot about what it is. It’s more than he expected. It was just one facial expression. A face of shock, to anger, and then you calm yourself to the best of your abilities again. It’s barely noticeable to the average person. But that’s the thing. Dazai isn’t average.
He’s the smartest man you’ll ever know.
It makes you feel conflicted. And you’re aware this is probably where Dazai wants you to be. And it is. Dazai finally was able to make a dent on the thin walls inside your mind. The walls that separated your true self, from others. And he’d pick and tear down these walls continuously until he was able to see inside.
But for Dazai... it’s his Christmas day. Dazai felt like his efforts... his waiting, his long awaited efforts were finally rewarded. All it took was one little slip on your behalf, one tiny little tear, for the wrapping paper to completely fall off. And as it lays discarded on the floor, Dazai admires the gift. He admires you. Your mind is such a vulnerable place. Yet in its own way, it’s beautiful and fragile. He feels like he physically cannot tarnish it. Yet... you’re so much more different than he thought.
You’re niether a kind person, nor a violent one. You’re not broken, you’re not depressed nor anxious nor scared. You’re not nearly what he idealizes so much, and you’re not some insane slave to your ideals. No... what was inside that box and wrapping paper all this time was similar to a piece of piece of glass. Plainly boring in its own way... yet beautiful if shaped in the right hands.
You’re a blank slate. Sure, you have your own trauma, your own struggles, desires, and wishes but... he’ll still do as he wants to you.
And you won’t have a single say in it.
You’re a blank slate. A canvas waiting to be drawn on. And draw on you he will.
He’ll admire you, he’ll protect you, he’ll... do anything and everything to make you love him. You’ll.... you’ll learn to love him.
And in return, you’ll be the only one who will see and understand his true self.
#yandere dazai#yandere dazai x reader#dazai osamu x reader#yandere dazai osamu x reader#yandere imagines#yandere x you#yandere dazai osamu#yandere bsd#yandere bungo stray dogs#dazai x reader#bsd x reader#bungo stray dogs x reader
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How are you faring with fic popularity? Does it feel so rewarding to have so many interested readers and asks, and comments constantly coming in, or is it pressure™? Would you rather write for a less alive fandom or a thriving one?
Hey anon, what an unexpected and weirdly touching ask. Thanks for like, caring to ask the question?
The honest answer is, a mixture of both! I'm not going to sit here and pretend that it's not lovely to be inundated with positive feedback on a scale I've never had before. It gives me a lot of motivation to write and continue writing, and when I get anxious or upset about the quality of my own work - which still happens a lot, I'm only human! - it's easier to fall back on a wealth of other people's nice words when I only have mean ones to spare for myself. I'm not going to be disingenuous or pretend otherwise, in many ways it rocks!
But I do absolutely feel pressure. I get more stressed about the quality of chapters as I post them, bc more people reading means more people to please! I also see the disparity between my fics and agonise over the reasons, on bad days, but that's just bc I'm an anxious person lol. *Drake and Josh voice* I cannot control the rate at which the kudos come!
Often in moments when I don't like my writing or get stressed I fall back to: "Well I'm feeding myself and myself alone, so it doesn't matter, I'll just write the story *I* want to read. " This mental exercise gets harder to do, the more people there is... though not impossible! It is still my go to for "fuck it and post" days.
But so far, it's been much easier when Im in a good mental health place. I had a semipopular fic in another fandom this year, that went on hiatus when I had a big wallop of depression, and that sucked bc I got a lot of "write more" comments... when there was a reason I wasn't writing. This fandom has been a lot more patient with me but I've also been more active, so overall apart from a few blips it's going well and has been a pleasant experience.
Honestly, I think my peak fandom experience was early access bg3 in the early days, which was a sweet spot of "active but not overwhelming"! But this isn't a judgement on current bg3 fandom or an ingratitude for my current popularity bc I am not about to complain! This is just informed by the simple fact that up until two months ago I was a fandom lurker who literally showed up once every 8 months, posted a fic then peaced out lol, and now I have to check my inbox on tumblr *and* ao3. Oh, woe upon me! Not emails!!
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i cant stop thinking abt this so i have to take it to tumblr, but GODDDDDDDD this is SUCH a ctntduo song in the perspective of cquackity im collapsing to the ground and exploding into a million pieces
ive been a fan of this song for a very long time, but for some reason never realized how much of a ctntduo (well, mostly cquackity) song it is. i rly rly would love to write down ALLLL my thoughts on this bc im unreasonably brainrotting rn - but FUCK am i terrible at analysis, so ill just give some simple 1k word food for thought. feel very welcome to add on any more interpretations
these lyrics kinda speak for themselves i mean cmon
Catch my breath and hold it for me
I'm wasting my time, trying to make up my mind
im not rly sure how to interpret the first line other than a kiss (especially shotgunning, with the mention of the cigarette later on n just general "catching my breath")? and im so sorry
but, if we are to commit to the kiss narrative; the second line would be cq trying to figure out as to whether hes in love with cwil, "wasting [his] time, trying to make up [his] mind". he sees this as a waste of time not only because it frustrates him and its smth so difficult to figure out compared to how miniscule it seems, but he knows cwilbur will just leave him eventually anyway, so why is he thinking so much about it?
also the "and hold it for me" line could be accentuated by cq wanting cwil to hold onto smth of his (in this case his breath ig lmao). coincidentally tying into his desperation for legacy - but in a much more personal and intimate way
I'm sitting here as the chandelier is whispering in my ear
Saying, can I get a cigarette? No you'll never be mine
idunno how to interpret cwilbur as a chandelier (if i saw him as the sun of their dynamic then that would def be smth, but that title belongs to cq). if thought of broadly, could be cq viewing him as smth of value? his light? a holder of many candles? just a pretty object? fuck knows
but, nonetheless; the "chandelier" is cwilbur, whispering into cquackitys ear, either literally whispering into his ear, or just cwil trying to persuade him. could be some sort of silly mind game where he'll ask if he can get a cigarette, in his little cwilbur way, and somehow get smth out of it. like, he'll ask, and wether he does or doesnt get the cigarette, thatll insinuate smth. the "im sitting here" is just cq sitting in his office as cwilbur annoys him btw lol
cq then declines. he tells himself cwilbur will never be his, so he shouldnt try, its not worth it. (the line could be interpreted as a way of saying "we'll never be in such a peaceful setting where you can ask smth from me so casually", idunno)
and if we're going into the shotgunning side of things; cwilbur could be asking for a cigarette to do the same thing quackity did to him - resulting in the "no youll never be mine" as cquackitys (mental or vocal) response. like, "no, your breath will never be my possesion (mine)". AND AND if we're stretching this further; the "no youll never be mine" could mean cquackity not wanting to hold onto smth of cwilburs, not wanting to commit to a thing he knows will fall apart (or, also, evaporate haha). this can be seen competitively aswell
Can you come around tonight?
And sing me a lullaby
even if cquackity tells cwil to get out of his country, and keeps pushing him away, he doesnt actually mean it. he wants cwil to come and he likes their competition, their dynamic, the attention, and he realizes hes lonely without it
the lullaby could either mean cq wanting cwil to sing him a song like at nikis bday party, or just wanting comfort from his rival. he could be yearning for their relationship to become softer, more vulnerable, less hateful, something so sweet as a lullaby, even if he knows its impossible
Just take my heart and break it
Can you come around tonight?
cq again thinking falling in love is worthless, or wanting cwilbur to just get it over with and break his heart already so they dont have to keep the painful momentum lingering on. maybe give cq a final reason to truly hate this man
yet even when cquackity wants cwilbur to get it over with, his yearning persists, and he again just wants cwilbur to keep coming, keep pursuing him
its also a juxtaposition to the softness from the pair of lines above these, where cq knows he cant have the lullaby, so might aswell go for what he knows is possible - something harsh. what hes used to
I might be the enemy
But nothing quite hits like you (No)
cq acknowledging their rivalry, understanding if cwilbur wouldnt wanna come over or stay with him .
but he also acknowledges the way "nothing quite hits like [cwilbur]", in the metaphorical sense of a drug. hes addicted to their rivalry, aswell as cwilbur as a person. if we wanna stretch this further, it can also funnily coincide with wilburs drug van beginnings, now cwilbur being the drug
the "(no)" in the end could be cq telling himself to stop feeling like this, stop wasting time on his rival, when hes got other things to do. to stop thinking of cwilbur as smth he cant let go of
SOOOOO FUCKING POGTOPIA ERA CORE WAAAAAAA
Take this pen and write for me
Oh write me a song and I'll try to forget it
these first 2 lines can be interpreted as nikis bday party, singing and writing (parody) songs to each other. iirc cquackity would ask cwilbur for songs, but dont take my word for that lmao. also a thing to note is cq offering smth to cwilbur (a pen), to get smth in return (a song)
i have some thoughts on the "ill try to forget it" but no clue how to write them down tbh. sorry
Oh I'm standing there, as the man upstairs
Comes crashing through the ceiling
Saying where's my fucking cigarette?
With fire in his eyes
the "man upstairs" is obv cschlatt, "crashing through the ceiling", "fire in his eyes" as hes being harsh and demanding, cq just standing there having to take it. "man upstairs" can be either interpreted as god (which we wont be interpreting as but might aswell mention lmao), or someone in power - which obviously cschlatt is. holding both legal and emotional power over cquackity
this could be either pre-nikis bday party (white house incident), post (the contract signing thing), or just cquackitys time with cschlatt in general
the bitterness of schlatt demanding "wheres my fucking cigarette?", which has him expecting cquackity to give him something, give him what he wants, because he knows he'll get it as cq has no other option - can be juxtaposed by the more gentle whispering request of "can i get a cigarette?" by cwilbur from earlier in the song, where depending on the tone theres a possibility itll have strings attached and be a manipulative tactic, or just be a simple casual request from a friend. if we're going for the softer route; then cwilbur doesnt know whether he'll get what he wants from cq, so he doesnt demand it. he just asks, takes his chance
Can you come around tonight
And sing me a lullaby
Just take my heart and break it
When you come around tonight?
I might be the enemy
But nothing quite hits like you
my interpretations r the same, but this time, with the "when you come around tonight", he knows cwilbur is coming. its their routine. plus cq no longer has the "(no)" at the ending line, as hes accepted his feelings now
though what could accentuate that difference further is with the last set of lines
But as all my patience
Starts to dry
And my feet leave skids across the sand
Then I'll know that you've won
cq could be growing impatient with cwilburs incompetence, or smth to do with him growing impatient at how theyre afraid of seeing each other after what happened in ho16. theres 100% potential for a better interpretation though
then we have the sands of las nevadas being skid ofc. this could be interpreted as cquackity kicking the sand in frustration at the prospect of wilbur winning or cq losing (haha) his patience. OR with the more proper definition of skidding; cq frantically searching for cwil as hes left for utah, leaving "skids across the sand" (<- and if we're going with this narrative; the "but as my patience starts to dry" applies to him searching for cwil but losing his patience, or losing his patience at how theyre afraid of seeing each other so he takes the first initiative, but not finding him)
he realizes their competition has ended, and while it doesnt particularly fit their characters to have any of them win - in cquackitys perspective it could either be cwil winning as hes gotten a happy ending, or having yet another person in his life leave him in the dust (or, well, sand)
And I'll run
Back to where I came from
i actually dont rly know what to interpret this as if im gonna be honest
i guess at face value with the "cq searching for cwil" narrative, him going back to las nevadas, or more specifically his office, sitting down in defeat (also another possible case of cwilbur "winning", cq not being able to find him). could aswell be cq going to the lmanberg crater? if we're taking the "back to where i came from" more seriously. even though cq didnt come from lmanberg, i guess its the closest thing to where he came from in the dsmp in this sense, and ties more into cwilbur
"though what could accentuate that difference further is with the last set of lines"
now going to what i said a little earlier, what i mean by it is what makes cquackitys newfound acceptance more emotional is the way its immediately followed by cwilbur leaving him, his heart being taken and broken just as he asked, but not how he wanted. which makes the word "skid" a lot more potent, as hes frantic in his search for the man hed finally accepted his love for
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and yknow whats the most fucked up if u havent actually listened to the song yet?? the slot machine noises in the bg. please this is such a cquackity song
also, as im almost done writing all this, i realize the genius page has a few parts of the lyrics wrong that were different in the official spotify lyrics thingy (like the "(no)" from the second set of lines just being an "oh", and the "no youll never be mine" actually being "i know youll never be mine" lmfao) - but i dont think they make much of a difference anyway, so who cares, this is abt psycho-competitive minecraft boys
ok. im done now. if u read it all then i may offer u a kiss. goodbye
#tntduo#c!tntduo#c!quackity#c!wilbur#c!schlatt#<- a little bit#long post#quinnotalk#tumblrimp#Spotify#rb
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i’ve got my work laptop out and my phone in hand to live react to this chapter 😼
omg i kneww it was the fkn student he punched. satoru’s so sweet to not want to drag her into a courtcase though.
kafka 😩🫶🏼💕 ive been on such a kafka kick lately omg (not so much reading his actual works but looking at kafka tumblr quotes 😔 i feel motivated to actually read his works now) also the way he sees her?? we’re so beautiful to him 🤭
“what a fucked up way to describe it. a child, small and defenseless against an unyielding force. where was the justice in that?”
☹️☹️☹️ ok i’m teared up. wtf.
“for all her strength and boldness, there was this fragile core to her. one that the world, am i, seemed intent on bruising.”
😩🤚🏼 i feel for reader fr she can do no wronggg in my eyes omg i can FEEL the stress of all this fkn research & trials gone wrong omg. she’s such an empath and it’s takin a toll on my girl over here
OHMYGOSHHH she saw the lawyer papers plsss higurama you had one job 😓 also i know im supposed to hate how secretive n stubborn he is but something ab his habit of shutting reader up w kisses 😩🤚🏼 i like my men toxic like that LMFAO
yaga laying innnn on him omg i love the consequences of his actions catching up to him. the forbidden romance is forbidden romancinggg. THE ETHICS COMMITTEE….hmm i mean considering the power dynamic i think satoru would def be the one to take the brunt of accusation if they were caught 🤔 i really wonder if reader would receive as heavy of a fall from grace as he would
omg the elevator stuck scene 🫣 PLS HE CONSIDERS FUCKING HER IN THE ELEVATOR!!?? IM SCREAMING. also they need to stop talking ab thisss in the elevator omg ppl might be listening or recording 😔 where is higurama w the legal counsel.
i cant tell if its my iced coffee giving me palpitations rn or if its your fucking writing (most likely latter). i looove how theyre resolved to try n keep each other tho :”) despite facing the things going on rn.
sheesh those lab results lmao that patient’s liver gotta be fucked 🤣 Oh WHAT ITS SATORU’s LIVER 😨 NOOO.
aw a signed kafka book?!? 😩🤚🏼 lord…
im on the basketball scene and ugggh first of all basketball satoru?!?! NEED. just imagining his arm muscles flexing while he’s shootin a shot 😩 also he’s sooo whipped for her oh my god. need a man who loves this deeply.
OHY MY GOD A SPARE TO HIS APARTMENT ITS SO REAL. ITS ALL FEELING SO REAL RN. SCREAMING. TRYING SO FKN HARD TO HIDE THE SMILE ON MY FACE RN.
oh god i cant ice ant i cant the hydropmorphone this sshift in energy i cant. to the bathroom for my ten min i go because i alr know imma need to scream for this 😭😭😭
NO WAAAYYY HE’s DOIN DRUGSS OFF OF HER IM ABOUT TO LOSE MY GODDAMN MIND. OH MY GOD IM CLUTCHING MY PEARLS RN. OVER SUGURU’s FUCKING DESK?!????
OH. MY. GOD. SATORU IS THE FUCKING DEVIL. HE’s THE DEVIL. I……….I JUST GOT TO THE END. I COULD DEADASS SCREAM RN. THE— THE GUMPTION. THE GALL?!?!? TO LICK HIS FUCKING FINGERS.
i…….🧍🏻♀️i’m literally shaking. im SHAKING like IM the one w a panic attack or withdrawal rn. you ate this chapter up. you ate this chapter ALL the way fucking up and i could cry rn. no words. pheewww AND IM SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON W MY DAY AFTER THIS?!????!
fuck.
girl you make me cry with your comments! 😭❤️ yes, satoru is such a sweetheart for dealing with the lawsuit with money that she wouldn't have to go to court, even if that means he would have to swallow that bitter pill. green flag!!
and yes, pls pls read kafka! there are a lot of short books and stories of him that are just like a four hour read but so worth it, can't recommend that enough!!
OHMYGOSHHH she saw the lawyer papers plsss higurama you had one job
higurma must have done it on purpose i'm so sure!! like i wrote it, but still am not quite convinced it was a coincidence ahhh! and him shutting her up with kisses is EVERYTHING. bit toxic okay, but EVERYTHING.
the forbidden romance is forbidden romancinggg.
yes, the forbidden romance is catching up to them, how would have thought. like satoru was not even trying to hide it that much, but now he's surprised?? he's so stupid.
PLS HE CONSIDERS FUCKING HER IN THE ELEVATOR!!?? IM SCREAMING.
yeeeessss!! he really considered it a split second as he knows that will work quite good to shut her up ahaha he's so miserable with talking and feelings. but he sure knows what he's good at and how to use that. 🌚🌚
im on the basketball scene and ugggh first of all basketball satoru?!?! NEED. just imagining his arm muscles flexing while he’s shootin a shot
yes!!! i want to rewrite this scene out of reader pov just to be able to describe a bit of how this mf handsome man looked in this scene for us to please ahhhh.
also he’s sooo whipped for her oh my god. need a man who loves this deeply.
he's down bad for her and this will be his undoing. but yes, everyone deserves a man how's on his knees for his girl!!!
NO WAAAYYY HE’s DOIN DRUGSS OFF OF HER IM ABOUT TO LOSE MY GODDAMN MIND.
he's so fkn feral omg, like he really got some nerves doing that aahhhhh. also over suguru's desk ahahah. still he could lick every drug he wants from my body at any time ngl.
I COULD DEADASS SCREAM RN. THE— THE GUMPTION. THE GALL?!?!? TO LICK HIS FUCKING FINGERS.
HE HAS NO SHAME!!! this man is so unhinged and i loved every second writing him like that. he maybe is about to lose his mind but he's still serving while going insane!!
thank you so so much for your comments on this chapter, is was so funny to see your reaction while reading!!! thank you so so much for your support and taking your time to write this (also on your rec on the story??? reposting this in a minute), wishing you nothing but the best! 🥲🫶🫶
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So i've just decided I'm not gonna post any art here on Tumblr just Screenshot from games and cc ( im gonna assume since its directly taken from trademarked games they will either not use it /get in alot of trouble if they use it or it will be null to them so they will skip it)
any of my personal art/writing/anything that can be scraped will go into pillowfort bluesky and cohost (ye all 3 ) i opted out in the settings but im not about to risk it and have my shit scraped
for once I'm grateful about being forever hesitant to sharing my stuff online.
Tumblr will remain my safe space of the internet and if AI want to scrape my mental health ramblings then sure buddy you do that lol cause thats the only thing here besides reblogging and posting other games.
Looking forward to the eventual lawsuit against Tumblr and thier partner "midfuckry" thou i hope you enjoy your mid ass Relationship cause it will fall apart.
Literally fuck each other untill you fuck each other over.
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tumblr didnt notify me!!! >:( !!!
yeeesss this this htisssss wil cant comprehend that those two are the same exact person!! How could they? One is the most annoying thing ever, 'an ulcer on ass' as one saying goes, while the other is the literal angel on Earth (he can fly too, so extra points on the angel scale)
How does Wil try to tackle the whole debacle in his head? also im going to lean on you for the worldbuilidng bits since i did not grow up with any kind of popular superhero media :sob: i only know some kind of spiderman stuff from game playthrough
Does he think about the fact that the reason for seeking out the hero are starting to shift?
most of the stuff until now, i've based on comics, but i'm also adding a bunch of my own ideas here because ✨creative freedom✨
but yeah, i think he struggles a lot. this part of his world has been turned upside down and it's hard to look at dream and superman respectively because now that he knows, he sees traces of the other persona shimmer through.
he has no idea how to feel about it, and in the end, he chooses the easy way out: focus on his job.
which is easier said than done when things start to change after a bank heist where he was held hostage and superman saved him.
dream starts being really nice to him at work, even declining big opportunities and suggesting to give them to wilbur instead.
simultaneously, superman starts appearing around him. helping him when someone tries to rob him, threatening the guys picking on his younger brother tommy, catching the man who broke into his dad's apartment.
wil doesn't realize he's falling until it's too late.
sure, he knew that his motives to see superman might have shifted. sure, he knew that he stopped being annoyed by dream months ago.
but now, finally having solid proof that dream is superman, he realizes that it goes deeper.
and wil has to decide if he wants to write and publish the most important article of his career or protect the identity and the heart of the man who stole his.
#all the while dream is just struggling with how to ask the pretty guy from work out lol#also i've decided to name this kryptonite au since wilbur is literally dream's kryptonite#kryptonite au#karo 🌼#ask
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i dont have time to write a diary anymore. it doesnt call to me anymore. but i know i should. so fuck it this is my diary now. i hate posting about myself online lol but literally nobody i know uses tumblr anymore. anyway just wanted to say i feel really wise lately. theres always this period every couple of years where i just feel like im totally falling apart and nothing can fix me and then a few months or a year or a few years go by and suddenly i feel the same like when i was 17, and it felt like it was spring for the first time ever and i was so in love and so in love with my friends and all music just sounded so good, and everything just feels so good and im never sober but i swear it has nothing to do with it. anyway i kinda love my life i love my coworkers at work... i have such a chill life... im kinda sad i have to move again...
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i'll probably regret asking since league of legends is known to be Not Good™ but now i'm curious. how is light and darkness treated in league of legends lore? (i've seen arcane but apart from that i know nothing)
(referring to this post and my tags on it)
ok so to answer this first a glimpse into what even "league of legends lore" is, as in the material principle of it. Best part of the entire ordeal is that literally nobody cares about league lore. The dudebros playing dont even know it, it has no active fandom (in the definition of tumblr/ao3 of 'fandom'), there's little cancelling, barely analysis, it's free. Which is great!! bc the authors took this to mean they can do literally whatever they want without scrutiny (or w very little of it) from either side. And they did good, oh did they do good. There's been gay characters since the beginning. There are /so many/ now. There's a trans character! She is referenced as such in-game and her bio tells her writing process and decisions! there's no drama over that! bc nobody knows despite all that lol. And im actually grateful for league's natural toxic defense systems because even the boom of arcane did not get the toxic fandom culture into scrutinizing and nitpicking. in short, there's like 5 of us who care abt this shit.
now the way league lore is conveyed is infinitely better than any other franchise with similar storytelling (looking at u overwatch). it's compact, the company actually puts it all in one official place, there's no word-of-god-ing whats canon is clear. side projects are easily referenced and accessible. did you know one of the trailers for the card game in the same universe kinda gives a hint as to the future of one of the main arcane charas? you could go look at it! (or ask for a link/explanation id be happy to). now, the way we learn about the universe beyound the explicitly shared things about regions and factions (and oh lord there's /so many/ of those - arcane was set in its specific regions because they were underdeveloped before!! imagine how the others are); is through the characters themselves and their personal lore. everyone has at least one (and usually many more + videos and stuff) short stories that explain their origin, connection to other characters, strives and moral dilemmas and relation to their faction and/or region. so we get to learn from a first-person account and. well. there's 162 characters to date. yeh that's /a lot of lore/.
And there's more!! The skins in the game, and especially the skin lines (ie skins for different champions with the same theme) are /canon/. Well, they're AU, in the sense of "what if this character was from this other faction/region/nation instead?" or "what if X had happened in this universe instead?" but the lore behind them is solid and applicable. So from all this we have learned a few things about the universe:
-The world they live in, Runeterra, is technically a "planet", but the universe itself is /definitely/ not like ours. It's not the kind of space we see in our physics and studies. It's a magical world! It's filled with beasts and mythological concepts, not hard mathematics and logic. Which is to say the 'void' of space is, in fact, a place for magical creatures to live! It's alive! it's livable, no concept of oxygen, it's travellable (with the right technology and/or magic to get there). The stars are little creatures that sometimes get lost or weak and 'fall' to Runeterra! there's a whole ass faction devoted to helping them grow and get back up. There's space dragons and 'gods' (which is a complicated concept in this universe but to abbreviate here lets call them that) that /create/ those lil guys!
Look at them!
those lil beasties ARE the stars! being shepherded! The darkness of the night sky is alive! its full of tiny creatures and scary space dragons and adventure and benevolent or mischievous celestials! (girl with the horn is one of them!)
-There /is/ a concept of the actual Void, which is a different... spacetime? Sure let's go with that. It's all consuming, the threat to all living beings, on Runeterra and beyound. It's looking to eat and consume everything, ever expanding. Some characters dont believe it even exists (its kinda on a cooldown, waking up atm); others devote their lives and turn into villains to protect the world from it. The kicker? Not only is it /alive/ itself, made of undulating flesh, but all its monsters and messengers are grabbing hands looking to grapple and drown the world as we know it inside of themselves. It's True Darkness, alive and breathing and looking to Consume.
-the concept of light is a little bit different. it's treated as good and righteous by some factions and characters, as blinding by others. the biggest fans of it, as it were, are however the nation that looks to purge everything unclean and magical, to subdue mages and any expression of things non-physical. their battlecries are 'for the light' (which is often called out by other charas as /magical itself/ ironically lol), as they slaughter and purge the lives they deem unnecessary, leaving the emptiness magic leaves behind it as a remnant. ofc this isnt as clear cut a moral lesson - the lore loves its ambiguity. an angel splits in two (simplifying lol) to 'righteous justice' (=light, punishment, purging) and 'compassionate justice' (=dark, support, helping humans with what they need so they would be kinder). the star shepherding region itself is split in sun and moon warriors. protectors of supposed invasions, shields of the light that let nothing in. and nighttime secretive warriors who do what they can to improve the lives of the little guys, who want to fill the sky and the earth with (moon)light - reflected and thus gentler, subtler, /fuller/. and the leaders of these factions are lesbian lovers who were sisters in the old lore 👀
and honestly thats not even my fav part of league lore lol. the political intrigue, characters seemingly crafted to suit me personally. there's ninja-likes who move in smoke and darkness to preserve peace, opposed by light-shining spirit walkers who seek complacency, control, subjugation! you know i never thought /too/ much abt the whole way it treats lightness vs darkness apart from the more obvious space and void faction, but damn the more i dig into it, the more obvious it is this seems like an intentional thing. there's a shining sun emperor and his servants literally made of light(ning), who created creatures called Darkin in their hubris, and who are being opposed by underground factions clad in black. damn.
(for the record league lore got a rewritten some years ago - before, the game was actually canon and the characters were competing to win the League of Legends in-lore for an ultimate price. since, the writers have decided that the characters tell stories that cannot be contained in those limits, and have turned the game into just a backdrop [it and most other games in the same universe] for the bigger story they're telling in the background. i did grumble abt the decision at the time, but now i see that it's taking a very interesting path and i love following it)
#ask#arguably league being Not Good тм is what is saving and preserving its goodness lol#sorry for the essay and thank you for giving me reason to rant about this oh my god#i love this universe so muchhh
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hey it's pretty late for me so sorry if this makes no sense or is weird but. im a junior in high school and college talk is kinda inescapable rn and it makes me very anxious but ive been following you for a while and its just really nice to see you talking abt enjoying college and having good friends and walking around in converse with a pocket copy of howl and being genderqueer and its like oh!! i dunno it seems less scary when i realize there's someone like me having a good time out there. so thanks for being you and posting about it on tumblr ig 👍
this just makes me. feel so much. bc middle school and high school kinda sucked for me and when i was that age i really couldnt see myself even surviving past then but now. i’m having the time of my life. my friend is in a band and we went to see him play at a bar last night, my roommate and i shared a shooter in the bathroom, and i rizzed up the sax player. last weekend my friends and i took a roadtrip to go see an artist (which also happened to be at a bar and we had to sneak in. college is really all about “be gay do crime” ig) and then went to a house show. bc frats and parties arent my scene. and i could tell right away bc i didnt dress or act like the people who go to those religiously. but that doesnt matter bc i wasnt alone and neither are you. even if the music scene isnt your thing, i promise there is so much more to college. you’ll find what you love and who you love. college is. the best. you meet so many people, but you also learn to love being by yourself. i walk around campus listening to music and audiobooks. i sit on random steps and in the grass and write. i do endless amounts of homework in the library or outside my apartment under the tree blasting records for the whole complex to hear. and you’ll find your people. my favorite story ab one of my friends is the time he got plastered and started puking and between heaves would recite lines of howl and the wasteland. the amount of poetry and old music posters on the wall in my living room is insane. we have tons of instruments bc we have this avant garde performance art punk noise band that we always talk about but have played like one gig and practiced twice. this got really long, but like i said, the emotions are getting to me n i’m slightly hungover (which if you’re stressed ab not really being into drinking DW i literally didnt drink until this year. good friends wont pressure you and if you decide a year later than everyone else that you wanna join in, no one will tease you. i don’t and will not smoke and no one ever tries to get me to. also if you do drink they take care of you. like i tend to fall asleep on floors and wake up on the couch of my friends’ apartments or in my own bed. people can be good- but ofc make sure you trust the right people when you’re not in the right state of mind.) and i just made this even longer and i don’t remember my train of thought but. i’m so touched by this and i feel for you and you will love it!
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sorry for not realizing, i hadn't checked your blog in months before today and i kinda figured you would have blocked me in the time i wasn't on tumblr if you didn't wanna talk. the post i replied to seemed lighthearted so i did not know. obviously no need to answer this as i won't ever see it, just wanted to say i'm sorry for upsetting you even if i won't ever know exactly what went wrong with us
i mean you still have my discord dms if you really wanted. in fact, you actually stopped responding to me, not the other way around. i didn't block you because a.) you were such a large part of my life for so long that, yknow, a chunk of my blog has some sort of attachment to yours, and i didn't want to fuck up my ability to see relevant posts if im trying to find old writing shit and b.) i always wanted to leave channels open because... again, you were a large part of my life for so long. i don't want to be your friend but if anything ever came up and there was something you needed or wanted to say i wanted that to be possible for the sake of "just in case"
regardless of if you "wont ever see it" heres my answer. even this ask answers itself for one of the reasons i dont like you. you hadn't checked my blog in months. which in itself is fine, but in the grand scheme of things - jesus fuck, man! you dipped out of my life almost entirely, on repeated occasions, unless i actively tried to drag you back in. regardless of how fucking apparent it was that i was literally on the Brink, you wouldn't be there unless i was the one to call. even after i tried to have an open conversation with you + others involved on how you were so bad at handling your shit that i thought random things i had zero involvement were my fault because no one gave me any sort of indication to what the fuck was going on.
you hung out with bullies and downplayed the deserved backlash. you don't know how to take other peoples feelings or lives seriously - something that hits me so PROFOUNDLY because your kindness and comfort used to be one of the reasons i liked your company so much. you hurt my friend. and you lied to me! and more, shit that i cant say here! and you would complain and guilt-trip about how you felt like everyone hated you and how you were such a bad friend but you so rarely made steps to actually change anything you were doing! of course you don't see what went wrong, you can't even look in at yourself without making everyone else feel like its their fault for being hurt!
and id love to say that everything ive heard from you and the people surrounding you is some kind of misunderstanding and that really and truly you dont deserve my anger. i dont think you realize how much ive sat over the past year and hoped that we were somehow gonna go back to normal. i wanted to tell you i got engaged! i wanted to talk to you about a million things! but after what i had to deal with last year (not from you, other shit entirely) i sort of learned that i cannot afford to trust anyone. you have no idea the fucking depths i went to and you are not going to know because the kind of people you seem to love aspiring to be/surrounding yourself with are the same kind of people who made my world feel like it was fucking falling apart. literally some of the most insane trauma ive endured was just brushed aside as silly discourse or jokes or whatever so yeah. not sure if i can trust that everythings all just one big mix up. messages are open but i am so angry and i cant change that even if i want to and i dont think you want to hear any of it.
and im sorry for being so lighthearted about you before i thought it was a post that would just fade into the ether like my other non-context bullshit
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I posted 99 times in 2022
31 posts created (31%)
68 posts reblogged (69%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@damnednyx
@angeloncewas
@ne8ula
@vestboyfriends
@lovejoyhellion
I tagged 64 of my posts in 2022
Only 35% of my posts had no tags
#tommyinnit - 22 posts
#dream smp - 19 posts
#mcyt - 16 posts
#dsmp - 14 posts
#wilbur soot - 12 posts
#stranger things - 9 posts
#technoblade - 9 posts
#ranboo - 8 posts
#c!tommy - 8 posts
#c!wilbur - 8 posts
Longest Tag: 129 characters
#like it was kinda cathartic seeing them be on the same wavelength after them literally being enemies 98% of the server's lifetime
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Steve and Nancy: h-
literally every single character this entire season: YOU SHOULD GET BACK TOGETHER
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#4
the contrast lmao
Wilbur saying he'll never tell us if he's here (which is really scary)
and then there's Tommy who just outright tweets his account
88 notes - Posted November 7, 2022
#3
every time we get to see c!tommy from someone else's perspective, especially c!wilbur, i realize that he's really just a kid. how giddy he got in the middle of the lobby, with his literal abuser in the room, because c!wilbur got c!dream to write in a book. the way cc!tommy acts him is just. so good.
also the genuine despair in his voice when the discs burned. the whole way back to the community house. that was painful.
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#2
me being in the dsmp fandom for over a year: yeah, i don't know if i'll like hermitcraft, it's a completely different style of content, y'know.. but they just started a new season, i'll check them out!!
hermitcraft: moon big. the world is slowly falling apart. boatem is going insane. they implemented heavy lore. also those buildings??
i think i'll like it here.
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My #1 post of 2022
im rewatching the vod rn and i just noticed that c!Tommy immediately agreed to go to Logstedshire the moment c!Wilbur said it would be a good distraction for him.
c!Tommy, the selfless boy agreed without hesitation just because he thought it would help his big brother.
246 notes - Posted June 7, 2022
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GET TO KNOW YOUR WRITING PARTNER! (repost, don’t reblog!)
NAME? Ash
PRONOUNS? She/her
PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION? literally whatever lmao! im’s, discord, messenger pigeon, you name it
NAME OF MUSES? Klaus (and also Louis de Pointe du Lac at @sangcreole!)
EXPERIENCE / HOW LONG? I think 11 years now?? I first started during my freshman year of high school...so y’all can do the math lmao
BEST EXPERIENCE? Oh gosh, there are so many, I’ve met so many lovely people through tumblr rp!! I think one of the highlights was meeting a friend through my Louis blog, who then asked me to start a Vampire Chronicles podcast that kind of blew up, so that was really wild?? The vampire chronicles rpc really popped off in like 2017-2019 so that was really fun to like have a podcast that people actually listened to, and then have people follow my blog and send in questions.
RP PET PEEVES? I don’t think I have any real pet peeves...I mean, I think the biggest thing that makes it harder for me to write with people is if we have a thread together and my partner doesn’t do anything to forward the plot. Like, I know sometimes in fluffier plots, there’s not much to move forward, but if i’m having to carry the entire conversation then it doesn’t feel like there’s much point to the thread y’know?
MUSE PREFERENCES FOR ANGST / FLUFF / SMUT? I think all 3 have their merits! I tend to gravitate towards angst just because...klaus has A LOT of baggage to unpack and he’s one of those characters who is always teetering on the edge, always just shy of falling apart, so there’s a lot of fun tension to play around with there. Fluff threads are sometimes harder if there’s nothing propelling the plot forward but listen Klaus deserves so much love and i want to give that to him. in fact, a lot of my fluff threads end up turning angsty, or vice versa, because klaus just doesn’t know how to be loved or how to be soft, so it’s really great to explore that. and as for smut...i mean, it’s kind of a given with klaus that things will get a bit naughty LOL. i’m not a huge fan of writing extremely gratuitous threads unless there’s like...an emotional or dramatic tie-in, if that makes sense. like, i don’t like just writing sex for the sake of sex, but i like the weird, funny, angsty, intimate emotions surrounding it. i really LOVE exploring characters’ relationships with intimacy, so yes, this blog will occasionally get smutty
PLOTS OR MEMES? oh my god, MEMES PLEASE lmfao i’m so bad at plotting!!! my social energy is extremely limited and while I love gushing about klaus, it’s hard for me to like commit to things and plan things out. I definitely prefer memes because they give me a general direction, but also give me the freedom to completely improvise.
LONG OR SHORT REPLIES? I have a hard time limiting myself with short replies lmao listen klaus is an agent of chaos so i feel like all my replies kind of go off the rails with him. there’s nothing wrong with short replies but like...i will gladly take all the content i can get with my rp partners!!! i swear, y’all are so talented, you could write me a novel and i would obsess over every single word.
BEST TIME TO WRITE? deadass i’ve conditioned myself so that i physically CANNOT write any earlier than 11pm. i’m usually lurking on this blog in the evening, but the actual writing doesn’t get done until 11pm-1am lmao
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? I used to think Klaus and I were total opposites just on the basis that he’s an absolute extrovert party animal and i am a textbook introvert nerd, but there are definitely a lot of similarities between us. On a surface level, my wardrobe isn’t all that different from Klaus’— I wear skinny jeans and converse sneakers every goddamn day of my life and I would absolutely wear crop tops if it was work appropriate LOL. But beyond that, I think we both have a deeply sensitive nature. I am...too empathetic for my own good, but I’m also extremely good at hiding my emotions when I want to (god, I’m the most Gemini gemini you’ll ever meet) so I’ll always relate to that side of Klaus lmao
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mid-year book freakout tag
hello!! this tag is mostly prevalent on booktube and not in the deep recesses of the internet that is tumblr, but i feel most comfortable talking about books on this app for some reason, so i just thought that this would be very fun.
let’s begin!!
1. best book you’ve read so far in 2022
- echo by thomas olde heuvelt
2. best sequel you’ve read so far in 2022
i’ve been reading quite a few series this year so it made this question a little hard to answer when i first saw it, so much so that i literally compiled a list of all the sequels i read and tried to rank them in order of best to…least best. (it fell apart very quickly). this one is for sure in the top three!!
- castor (sons of the fallen, #2) by jaclyn osborn
one ☝🏽 word: dragons
3. favorite reread
- when my heart joins the thousand by a.j. steiger
4. genre(s) you’ve been loving/reading the most
- paranormal & fantasy
the thing about it, too, is that since i first read the monstrous series by lily mayne, and then especially after catching up to the sons of the fallen by jaclyn osborn, i’ve just found myself so immersed in worlds of fantasy and mythical creatures alike; it’s been very difficult to take myself out of that headspace and go back to real world settings, and that’s something that riding into 2022, i didn’t expect. i’ve always loved fantasy, and i have considered it like an escape for a long time, but now that wish for escapism has just increased tenfold.
5. new release you haven’t read yet, but want to
- a lady for a duke by alexis hall
this book came out in may but by the gods, it is a 2022 release and i will read it soon.
6. most anticipated release for the second half of the year
- raiden (sons of the fallen, #6) by jaclyn osborn
as i’m writing this, there officially is just three more days until i see the nephilim brothers again, im so hyped.
7. biggest disappointment
if i know a book is not doing it for me, i don’t really have any hard feelings because most of the time, i knew what i was getting into so i wouldn’t be surprised if i wasn’t vibing with the story. however, there’s this recent read i tried to pick up, feeling oddly excited about it just because i was in that kind of mood to take a risk and i….had so much trouble with the writing, it pained me so much.
a: the dead romantics by ashley poston
to this day, i don’t know what i expected from it because on the surface, i already knew i might not love the book and yet i read the first chapter and it was like getting my heart broken. and for what?? i have no idea, but for some reason, there was something about this book that made me want to like it and yet i couldn’t even finish it. it apparently made people cry reading and i’m one of them; but it was all out of bitter disappointment so alas….
8. biggest surprise
- soul eater (monstrous, #1) by lily mayne
i wasn’t in a reading slump, per se, but from february to april, i had been consistently reading up to seven books. not out of choice, but out of pure coincidence as these seemed to be the highest count of books i could read in a single month during this time. i don’t know why that was, but it just is.
this book, though, just as i had already reached the seven book count in may, made me completely grow obsessed with this series. the fact that it had five published books already and was still ongoing completely disrupted what became this expected reading goal and i love that.
also it’s about monster fucking. there’s really good plot and a sweet as hell romance for each book (moth & charlie, my loves) but again….monster fucking. a series where human survivors in a dystopian setting fall in love and have sex with monsters who entered their world through a tear in time & space was what pulled me out of my semi-reading slump….that was not on my bingo card for this year.
9. favorite new author
- lily mayne
i have to give her a lot of kudos for everything she’s done (see: above) plus!! her writing!! it really is pretty brilliant, she deserves the semi-popularity i’ve noticed from her books’ ratings on goodreads.
10. fictional crush
- junichi takayama from the lore & lust series by karla nikole
i am obsessed with him. if there’s one thing to convince you to read his & jae’s book (“the awakening”), it’s him. it’s this dominican-japanese angel who has a killer sense of style and an attitude to match. the fact that his book doesn’t nearly get enough hype….very disappointed.
10. newest favorite character
- mina rahman from a show for two by tashie bhuiyan
at first, i didn’t think i felt much about her character and then i saw her get guilt-tripped over things that weren’t even her fault and i realized at the point that i would destroy the world for her happiness, i mean—
listed: main characters who deserved better (and she does get that but all that conflict….yikes)
11. book that made you cry
- fragile remedy by maria ingrande mora
(see here).
12. book that made you happy
- café con lychee by emery lee
happy tears, y’all. this book literally had me sob in happy tears near the end, what in fresh hell is that about?
13. most beautiful book you’ve bought so far this year
- the midnight girls by alicia jasinska (x)
14. what book do you need to read by the end of the year?
- flip the script by lyla lee
this author’s social media presence is completely out of this world, like she’s engaged as hell when it comes to connecting to her readers and she succeeds at it. her promotion of this book, specifically, made me feel very excited for what this story has in store and then a booktuber’s (@/perpetualpages) review of the book (x) has me even more hyped. i have a copy of my own that i can read at any time so i do hope to pick this up very soon.
15. favorite book community member
- @/ perpetualpages
#❣️#this took me two whole months? 😭 what is wrong with me??#why do i put so much effort into things that is likely to only be enjoyed by me??#have to spread the word about these books and this was still fun to write so maybe yeah it is worth it#also the key here to breaking past my procrastination was just talking about one book for each prompt#rather than trying to list five for each & every one like some disillusioned overachiever#long post#booklr
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i’m not sure if you’ll ever see this (bc your answers are pretty far apart) but i’ve been reading your stuff since 2018 and i’ve always put off ebyt and when i finally wanted to read it, it was taken off tumblr i believe. but i finally read it!!!!! my gawd i’m sure you have many asks/replies ab how good it is but it rEALLY IS GOOD. EVERY ONE OF YOUR FICS IS GOOD. and i just got done looking at your jk stalker hints post and i’ve been listening to hatefuck for the past hour. you’re so talented that i’m wanting to READ IT AGAIN BUT WITH THIS SONG ON REPEAT. you gave 20/10 spooks and had me waking up last night over every little noise. overall i loved it, it’s so easy to fall for someone as pretty as jk and look over all the red flags, no matter how big they are. idk how else to express myself bc it’s literally that good but i love you!!! your writing is most definitely top tier!!!
YOUUUUUU MY DARLING ARE SOOOOO SWEET OMG 💓💓💓💓 im so happy you got a chance to when i put everything back up and that you enjoyed it so much, it rly makes me so so so so happy!!! i rly appreciate you sending me this too and letting me know your thoughts and feelings 🥹💓
AND WOW SINCE 2018!!! youre an og fr omg its been like 6 yrs :o TYYY FOR STICKING W ME AND EVEN STOPPING BY OVER THE YRS THAT I HAVENT BEEN ACTIVE 💓 i rly appreciate and love that 🥹🫶🏻
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i love subnautica but dude is it buggy as shit lmao although! its one of its charms since its funky most of the time ESPECIALLY when its not happening to you. like i had a peeper stuck in the corner of my lifepod just rotating?? and it would close its eyes when i would come close or a shine light on it and open them back up when i go away or close the light. or like when a poor spadefish or boneshark gets yeeted across the ocean for no reason. is it funny to look back on a warper coming out of the sea to you like some fucked up little mermaid or a chelicerate busting through a ventgarden to attack you? sure. but is it fucked up in the moment? NO. the latter happened to my sister while i was there to emotionally support her on her way to get alan's whateverthefucks lmao. she loves and prefers below zero majorly over the og mostly because it was the first one she played and she grew attached to it over the beta,, she hates where they ended up with the finished product. i played like half an hour of it in the beta decided it wasnt for me. i get SUPER jealous of the seamonkeys and the mineral detector tho. ayoooo rip to you consolers but im different B) pc is superior in the way it literally lets you fuck around with however you want and you bet i Will Play God whenever applicable! what else do you play? also now that we are talking about games i have to tell you. i love you and and your writing. but the feelings ive felt when i read you put him in plat............. my boy should have been at least diamond from the start im still in tears from that chapter i still havent recovered to this day how could you do my boy like this. how could you doubt his epic gamer skills and gaming time management issues like this. please explain yourself before my entire life falls apart at your feet. also me, an adc main, reading "accidentally kill the large-"
my boy was holding it in by shEEr power of love. especially after they nerfed the fuck out of adc to the point mfs will be rolling up the lane with double ap or a fucking yasuo. why is there always a fucking yasuo on enemy bot lane. and why do they all share the same zombie braincell. yone did not die for this bullshit. and to answer your question it depends on where im sending the question from lol. like on mobile there is like a 300? i think? character limit while on mobile and something similar on pc if i go to your blog site and choose ask from your theme. but here is the thing. if i go to your blog from tumblr/user instead of user.tumblr, then click ask, it literally gives me the same box as if im making a post. so no text limit whatsoever and i can freely send pics and stuff, pretty neat B)
nah i think at the end of the day doing whatever makes you the most comfortable and happy regarding the uploads is the most important! i just liked having multiple days of something nice to me ya know? not necessarily the fact that it was split. and i love them both!! the reason i call it texas touya fic is because one, when i started reading tomura was still more like on the sidelines and it kinda stuck two, it rolls of the tongue easier than texas tomura i guess? but i love them both T-T both as texans and in general! oh and dont worry ill probably bore you till you tell me to go away or something and and and! have a nice day!
I almost wish my game was as buggy as yours sounds. It sounds hilarious and game enriching. Mine doesn't like to glitch up but that probably because I played on PS4 and 5. Right after original launch of plain Subnautica, I got to the lava castle but the containment area wouldn't load so I had to start a new save. Hours down the drain.
^legit me after going through the entirety of the game again. Reapers, warpers, ghosts, and sea dragons biting chunks out of my ass all over again. But it was soooooo fun. It's one of my fave games.
OMG the backseat support gamer!!! I had one of those too for my second play through of oh Subnautica! Good on you to emotionally and psychologically hype your sister for the spookiness. I really liked below zero the first time I played it since I was just super hyped to have more Subnautica period but playing them again, you can definitely feel a substantial difference in atmosphere and replayability. Below zero just felt cramped and not as scary while Subnautica was open to terror from any direction. I totally understand your first experience being your favorite though. Whoa! You played it in the beta??? That's awesome! I'm but a lowly console peasant (until I get my PC fixed 😈) so I had to wait for console release.
OMFG DUDE. I was literally going to make him diamond II or even master BUT I didn't want a mega mind gamer in the comments to be like "erm, tomura wouldn't be diamond. It's hard to get to diamond!!11!" So I lowered his stats and you know what's CRAZY?! Me and a friend were talking about this exact issue and she brought up how he should have been at least diamond and I said the exact same story lmao. So I will go back and edit him into diamond 💀 he deserves it. The CS steal is so real 😔 so uncalled for. So unsophisticated. Okay but playing yasuo is fun, going against a yasuo is cancer. The wind shield is op. (When I'm playing against a yasuo) but sucks balls and blocks nada when I play him. (It's a zombie braincell hivemind that we all take turns with)
You're a Tumblr pro dude. 💀 I hadn't used it since 2015 so I'm still getting the hang of it (it doesn't tell me when I get notifs btw so I'm sorry for leaving you hanging for TWO WEEKS)
It legit means so much to me that you find so much joy in my writing and have stuck with it even with the long periods between updates. I appreciate you and the time you put into talking to me. It means a lot to me and you're the coolest anon I know.
Oh! And other games I play are pretty much anything 💀 I try to not get into competitive games like overwatch, Apex, or CSGO because I get EXTREMELY competitive and start screeching like a wounded animal. I used to play league religiously until my PC broke and my laptops can't run it (it can but it's like I'm either crashing or playing on PowerPoint) so I'm saving to get a new processor so I can play again! I mained ADC (jinx and Ashe, sometimes Tristana) or Annie on mid (LOL) BUT other than those, I prettyuch like anything. My fave games are Horizon Zero Dawn, Fable 2, Binding of Isaac, Assassin's Creed 2, and Minecraft! I play lots of survival games like ark, the forest, 7 days to die, and so on. I like simulation games Sims (obviously), house flipper, power wash simulator or even farming simulator 💀. You name a game, I've either played it or know about it.
They are my loves. They are my special boys and I care deeply for their fictional existence. As Texans, futuristic jerkwads, and in general.
No way will you ever bore me. If anything, I'll bore you
ANYWAY I will literally talk forever if given a chance 😬 thank you for talking to me! I'm always so excited to hear from you! I consider you a good friend at this point. How long has it been? Like 3 months? Maybe more???
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