cis people just don't get it tbh

(edit: i added a watermark bc some of u cheeky fuckers like reposting art w/o credit ....)

This is me Stacie.

Day 20 of 25 days of moodboards

💗 My gender 💗

My requests are open so feel free to ask for one. I'll make stimboards and moodboards just clarify which one you want!!

I have been identifying myself as a demigirl for quite a long time, but in fact I seem to be hesitating between an agender and a 100% woman. There was a moment when I woke up and felt absolutely like a girl, I thought "damn it, how to become nonbinary again" lol. And sometimes I didn't feel any connection with any gender at all. There was a strange feeling that I made a mistake with a demigirl, although I often feel like her.

It was like a genderfluid, but I don't encounter masculinity and other genders other than feminine. Moreover, I absolutely do not want to feel like a man.

I didn't know what this fluctuation in the intensity of femininity was called. Therefore, I sometimes felt discomfort related to gender.

Flipping through the tape, I came across several unfamiliar genders and began to search them in wiki. That's when I found myself! This description completely describes me!

I'm the girlflux!

and I use she/her and they/them pronounse

I'm 75% female and the remaining 25% are the screaming of wretched genders existing in limbo moulded into a cool rock

Thinking about my gender

Okay, so I got to thinking recently "what the fuck is my gender?" and so here's my present best attempt to put it into words.

I can't find another word to describe it, so I'm going to attempt to describe it with "biokainotogender". This is almost definitely not the best word due to its length and not really flowing well. My second choice for a describing word is "biopunkgender". It's more straight forward, but somehow it feels less right, probably because it's just two words shoved together in a way that doesn't quite mesh with how I like words to be made. So, biokainotogender is based off of "bio" (in this case short for biology but could also just mean life in general), the greek root "kainoto" which means new (but afaict it also refers to change and that kind of newness), and of course "gender" which means gender (idk how else to explain gender, sorry).

Anyway, so, my best description for what this is is a sense of gender based on the concept or practice of altering your own body/biology, or altering biology in general. Like, the concept of implementing functional body mods (eg. replacing sections of my skin with cells that produce lightly mineralized chitin, or reprogramming the cells of my hair to produce a stronger hair and a strong blue pigment, or reprogramming the cells of a certain patch of skin so that it's super permeable and will allow almost any compound to cross into my body) is extremely gender. Or the character Dr. Gross from Adventure Time (though obviously they have some fairly loose morals) is gender envy (especially after they become more mod than human).

Anyway, my personal gender fluctuates between three genders, biokainotogender just being the hardest to describe. The other two are "god empress" as a gender and much more common "woman" as it is on the common binary. My gender just bouncing around in the round edged triangle where those genders are the corners.

i cannot tell you how much i hate this binary-gender shit.

or gender stereotypes.

just fuck off

Ok but I hadn’t really thought about it until I watched bungo stray dogs but this man is my gender goals:

Except it’s specific like I wanna be him but afab with smol tatas and go by all pronouns. That’s basically my goal for my gender expression. To be smol cute and androgynous

AHHHH OKOK BUT WAIT IF I WENT BY SHIPS THIS WOULD BE MY GF ABD THIS IS SO SOMEONE OF MY TYPE(honestly women are my type as long as they’re nice and have a sense of humor but I do love some goth girlies) :

I would totally date someone like that. I would also date someone who looked like this

If they were in actuality a girl.

Just saying. I love masc and fem androgyny.

I desperately want their soft fem/masc androgyny and idk how to describe and I love it and I want it. Gimmie. *grabbie hands at screen like tiny child* I WANT HIS EYE LASHES AAAAAAAAAAAA IM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID HOW IS HE MASCULINE WHILE ASLO SO SOFTLY FEMININE I LOVE HIM BOTH OF THEM ATSUSHI IS SO CUTE AND AKUTAGAWA IS SO GRUMPY AND MY GENDER IS CRYING

African Wild Dog related genders!!

Pictusgender - A gender related in some way to African wild dogs

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Paintpictusgender - A gender that looks like the coat of an African Wild Dog

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Pictustuffgender - A gender related to African wild dogs and stuffed animals

💚I finally decided to coin my gender flag💚

Binary Green-Boy Flag

A type of Xinboy: Identifying as binary male and greengender in a monogender way. Though this is not exclusive to monogenders. If this resonates with you, you can be multigender with binary green boy happily in your collection💚

Flag inspiration

Transmasc Flag | Xinboy Flag | Greengender flag

Although the transmasc flag is a part of my inspo, this is not tied to your gender assigned at birth. You can identify as Trans, Cis, or anything in between along with this identity.

Because I find it fun: here's some suggested pronouns! you don't have to use them obviously! I don't use half of these lol

He/him/his/his/himself

Gre/green/greens/greens/greenself

Xin/xeno/xenine/xenic/xeninity

💚/💚/💚s/💚s/💚self

🟢/🟢/🟢s/🟢s/🟢self

🟩/🟩/🟩s/🟩s/🟩self

Coined by me, requested to by me, for anyone💚

hello everyone

i just feel like ranting about my identity in front of anybody who will listen, so, here we go

so my gender is like a universe. it's complex and has many galaxies. but there is one main galaxy, where the core of my gender identity is. i feel as if the other galaxies of my gender are largely unexplored, just like how galaxies apart from the milky way are unknown for the most part.

let's focus on one singular solar system now. the sun. there are many suns in my gender, but i consider most of them stars, far, far away. this is the main sun, which i call "aðalstjarna". unlike the sun that our earth orbits, this sun is blue and way larger than ours. it's like sirius a in a way. around this sun, grand orchestral music can be heard. the heat is deadly and this sun feels inherently masculine in nature. despite it being in the center of this solar system, it's not the center of my identity, but it's always there, loud and clear.

as we move away, to the planet closest to the sun called hiti. hiti is a small, barren rock, with a resemblance to our own mercury. there is no atmosphere on this planet. despite this, creatures live in the shadows of this planet. the creatures called "synd". the synd are small, strange creatures that have seven legs and look like a type of bug. it is unknown how the synd evolved to inhabit the uninhabitable. this planet is inherently strange in nature.

the next planet has a pink coloration, due to the sands being pink. this planet is a desert, a desert adeptly named "eyða" there are many living creatures on this planet, despite it not being in the goldilocks zone. the creatures live off the steam in the air, instead of liquid water. this planet feels gender-neutral in nature

the third planet is perfectly sustainable for life, having vast, blue oceans and green lands. this planet is called "þula" there are thousands of different species that live here. some are small and run fast, others are very strange and look like elephants made of shadows. there are advanced civilizations with technology beyond our comprehension. this technology would look like magic to humans. this planet is feminine in nature

stay tuned for part 2

Positive affirmation for today

I’m like fem but in a scroungy living in filth kinda way but occasionally if i have the energy dressing up most often still androgynous. But in my few fem moments I either want to be a traveler with boots and a dress or a specific flavor of fantasy. So a she/her? But after you always have to add a question mark in fear it might not be true. Do I know if it’s true do you? Nope. No one ever will. Not even me

The more I think about it, the more my gender seems like an eldritch horror

Distinctly inhuman

Vaguely draconic

Deeply connected to both space and the ocean

On the fringes of reality

Incomprehensible to humans

Omnipresent

At this point in time my gender is really weird like I am a little boy and I am an old wizard with stacks of books around him. I am a man. But yet. At the same time I don't wanna be perceived at all, I want people to literally see right through me. Not in a metaphorical way but literally. I want to completely rot in the woods on a warm summer day or just decay in my bed. I'm a ghost.

Here’s a in-depth explanation of my gender and sexuality because I’m afraid to tell anyone irl.

Sexuality: first and foremost I am aro-ace. I experience no sexual attraction at all and I’m fairly sure I don’t have romantic attraction as well but it’s hard to tell sometimes. Definitely somewhere in that spectrum though. I have really strong platonic feelings toward some people and depending on the person also strong sensory attraction. Sometimes I really want to be friends with someone but the idea of them touching me makes me want to vomit. I’m not necessarily opposed to being in a romantic relationship, but I also am not entirely sure what makes a relationship romantic (if anyone wants to explain this to me, please do!) I think a qpr would be a better option then a romantic relationship just because of the fluidity that comes with it. I definitely feel aesthetic attraction and get a feeling when I see a pretty person. I also watch thirst traps some times, but honestly I just do it cause they have cool outfits. I get the same feeling by looking up aesthetic outfits on Pinterest or seeing cool outfits on manikins in stores.

Gender: gender is confusing and I hate it. Not really but seriously why is this so hard to figure out. I’m AFAB and for most of my life have never had a problem being cis, until all of a sudden shit started happening like a sudden uncomfort with she her pronouns or my name, and occasionally my body though not as much really. And then it changes sometimes, like I’ll be super very much a girl one day and would rather stick my head in a pit of snakes then be a girl the next. I haven’t ever wanted to be a man, so I have thought about some form of nonbinary, but that doesn’t feel right either. At this point I have given up on trying to find a good label to describe it and focusing on pronouns. She/her is sometimes good, and learning about neos has also been helpful and sometimes I like to go by voi/void/voids or sometimes it/it’s. And everything keeps changing which is very annoying. The changing makes me think gender fluid, but them I think like, my gender doesn’t really fluid, it more vibrates. If you put a point on a price of paper that was girl, my gender would be moving just a little bit off of it in all directions and also go through it some of the time and just sort of stay woman or woman adjacent, but never really move very far through the gender spectrum. Most days I just ignore it and if something makes me uncomfortable I just cry lol.