drawing all over my body has definitely changed my opinion on getting tattoos. theyre only cringe if theyre overly sincere tho

tattoo just copped - heartfelt memorial to grandma tht even my ink-hating grandpa respects

future ink ideas -

circle of teeth around eye in ditch of elbow, if that heals well then an ouroboros around That

two forearm piece - detailed (think micah ulrich) labrys + olive branch on right and left arms respectively ("war" and "peace")

MITB skull somewhere? maybe shoulder? both knees?

dystopia trampstamp?

Non Sum Qualis Eram - need to figure out what spot on the body would warp and wear on it the most . to deliver the message

⚠️ somewhere silly. maybe below my navel.

MY DAYS ARE NUMBERED / MEMENTO MORI

save room to fuck off to berlin and pay 5 milion dolar for some giorgios kazakis work

inanna cuneiform

neuter symbol :p

my motivation cause i never made a list

I want to be able to wear low waisted jeans and have a belly button ring.

I want lower belly and trampstamp tattoos in the future. (Tattoos overall will look nicer on me)

I want my pants that fit me currently to fit me baggy and I would need to start wearing a belt for them.

My hair will look extra longer if im thinner (idk if im the only one who thinks this way but i feel like longer hair looks way more noticeable on thinner people??? maybe its just me)

I won’t have big boobs anymore (i hate having big boobs tbh its just leaves me insecure and the stretch marks it comes with them makes me not want to show my cleavage at times :/ i dont want them to be so weighed down and saggy anymore)

Stretch marks will look more tolerable on me (ive been applying oil on them and i could notice the slight change already, it just all has to do with consistency. I just hope i am able to get rid of old stretch marks :/)

I like my figure i really do but i just cant help but know that i will feel better about myself if it was thinner and smaller. (And I’ve been thinking about it, if I were to loose my hourglass figure and just look like every body else I don’t think i would mind it?? It just would be a bit different for me but at least i know that it wont matter until i can see the difference myself in the mirror)

My thighs + legs will be thinner (i no longer would have to feel those huge lumps near my knees and see all that back leg fat anymore. I could wear skirts and not be insecure of the weight im carrying on my legs no more.)

Clothes will fit me nicer and I’ll have more options. (I just want an entirely different wardrobe and vibe to myself.)

My face wont look as fat and neither will my arms, hands and feet. (I hate see how squishy my hands and arms are from the fat being carried everywhere in my body)

I just know I’ll be prettier and much more desirable than I am already. (I consider this to be my worst rn and normal people still want me. I can’t imagine where I’ll be when im at my absolute best.)

I want to be ready when i start having relations with guys, physically at least im not so sure how ill be doing on the emotional/mental side of things but i guess will see.

Would want to be apart of hangouts with people i used to know so they could see the new me. (To see the drastic change i have gone after the progression of 3-4 years)

Halloween :3

Skating (i wanna do tricks someday)

Fit into my new jeans ⚜️🖤 (I had two pairs of really cute jeans that didn’t fit me at all back in January, they wouldn’t go pass up my thighs or zip up. so I surprisingly fit into both of them just two months ago. Which had me so shock because I see the number go down and hear the comments of people noticing but I myself can’t SEE the change. But to PHYSICALLY FEEL and ACTUALLY SEE the difference???? wow just wow. So I now want to feel that feeling again with my new jeans. I want to be able to say “I can’t believe I once considered this to be my skinny jeans” I cant wait for those two pairs to feel baggy on me. I can’t wait to be thinner.

To finally put a stop to body checking myself after like 5 years and FINALLY loving myself (not likely lmao)

To be able to say that I did it and see the change from that one photo of myself in January (compare my body photos >>>>)

So my thighs will stop sucking my sweatpants everytime i walk in them

when im thin i wont ever have to wear her clothes again

All of them

1. last kissuhhhhh some dude somewhere at the rave. 2. last phone callit was ilse3. last text message“👀”4. last song you listened to“Hotel California” by the Eagles5. last time you criedn/aHAVE YOU EVER:6. dated someone twicenah7. been cheated onNah8. self harmednope9. lost someone specialYeah10. been depressedI mean, i think I fall into these dumps of feelings odd and that makes me just feel wierd and tired and unmotivated and hostile and idk if that can b considered depression11. been drunk and threw upyeahTHIS YEAR HAVE YOU:12. had sexYeah13. how many people have you had sex with this year?at least 1515. made a new friendYeah17. laughed until you cried...maybe18. met someone who changed youseveral19. found out who your true friends wereI suppose?20. found out someone was talking about you¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 26. what did you do for your last birthdayi went vandalizing27. what time did you wake up today9:4029. name something you CANNOT wait fora job30. last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same timein the family room 31. what is one thing you wish you could change about your lifeI wish I didn’t get my head shaved, but I don’t believe in being spiteful of the past32. what are you listening to right nowIlse rambling33. when is the last time you had sex?at the rave I think? it’s been a while 34. who’s getting on your nerves right nowNo one really. I’m pretty chill35. most visited webpagepornhub!36. favorite colourI don’t have one besides the color I wear a lot which is brown and red37. nicknamesRein, Mr Kink Man, Schmidt, and various curses form ex hookups 38. relationship statussingle ;)39. zodiac signSagittarius?40. male or femaleMale41. primary school¯\_(ツ)_/¯ some public school in St Peters Ording42. secondary schoolAgain some public school in St. Peter’s 43. high school/collegeThe Reformatory I guess44. eye colorHazel46. heighttaller than max47. do you have a crush on someoneNah I don’t swing like that48. what do you like about yourselfim attractive 49. piercingsI have a few somewhere50. tattoosone on my face, a few on my sleeves and a trampstamp 51. righty or leftyI’m both and you can tell ;) FIRSTS:53. first piercinguhhh I got an earring with dieter once54. first best friendReally never had a first of these. I can never tell.55. first hookupGretel Groeber at a party when I was in secondary school56. first bestfriend¯\_(ツ)_/¯ RIGHT NOW:59. eatingNothing60. drinkingwater61. i’m about tojump back in62. listening toilse rambling again63. waiting foran email or phone call from the art storeYOUR FUTURE:64. want kids?god no65. get married?god no66. careerI would like to be rich but I have no idea what would be good for me. I’ve been thinking traveling journalist or smth, I’ve been looking at courses for that, or a chef WHICH IS BETTER:67. lips or eyesLips all the way68. hugs or kisseskisses69. shorter or tallerI like being taller 70. older or youngerolder 71. romantic or spontaneousI don’t like romance so spontaneous 72. nice stomach or nice armsi like both 73. sensitive or loudloud?74. hook-up or relationshipHookup .HAVE YOU EVER:76. kissed a strangeryah77. drank hard liquoryahhhh78. lost glasses/contactsDont have em79. had sexyes 80. broken someone’s heartI don’t think so82. been arrestedyes83. turned someone downyes84. cried when someone diedI wasn’t allowed to85. fallen for a friendnahDO YOU BELIEVE IN:86. yourselfyeah87. miraclesNo 88. love at first sightdefinitely not89. heavennooooopppe90. santa clauseNah hon91. kiss on the first dateNo dates for me92. angelsnope 93. how would you label yourself? A homoerotic narcissistic with no perception of societal standards94. someone you pray everyday for...yeah when I’m feeling my worst95. did you sing todayyeah96. who from all your ex’s have you cared the most aboutNever had one.97. if you could go back in time, how far would you go?The 70s I think 98. out of everything in the world what do you wish forthe stability that my fiends want, but I would like less stability for me99. are you afraid of falling in love?no because I don’t believe I can100. do you like the way you look?yes, want a pic?-Reinhold