floating head in cas mod!

i made a piece of cc that hides the body in cas for ease of making transparent head icons and other such edits. it doesn’t delete the body permanently, it just acts as an invisible bodysuit that can be removed when you’re done

found in the outfits category

teen to elder / both frames

doesn’t remove the feet so you can still access the body menu

⚠️ when you’re finished with it, click on the sims shoes/feet, you can then access the outfit category from there to remove it!

gif preview under cut

download at simfileshare (free no ads)

GOD i hope it works, i didn’t ask for any testers. it should though!! just please lmk if you find issues ❤️❤️❤️

dude my birthday this year has been so weird. GOOD but weird

Hello friend! My birthday is on Thursday and I was wondering if it would be possible for a birthday request with me x Paul x Dwayne? Thank you so so much💛 I’ve also been loving your recent fics! Well wishes!!!

Celebration Collaboration

Hey friend! Hope you have an amazing birthday! Of course I can write this for you!!

(I usually try to post these the night before y’all’s actual birthday so you can enjoy it all day long on your birthday🥳) update: alt ending

Dwayne x Mick x Paul (she/they pronouns used)

Warnings: no actual smut but implied, spicy moments and references throughout

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Dwayne lifted the couch in the main cave alcove and glanced under it. Nothing.

He had already tore his room apart in his search and now that he’d turned the living room upside down, he had half a mind to dig through the other boys’ rooms as well.

Luckily Dwayne abandoned the idea when he caught sight of Paul strolling into the lobby.

Paul cringed at the wreckage of their living room, “whatcha doing bud? Remodeling?” Paul asked cautiously.

Dwayne glared at him, “I got her the the perfect gift for tonight, this amazing set of watercolors and some colored pencils,” he pinched the bridge of his nose, “and I got them ages ago so I wouldn’t be shopping last minute.”

Paul beamed, “that’s great man! What’s the problem?”

Dwayne groaned, “I can’t remember where I hid them.” He sighed, “and the art store’s already closed for today, I can’t even buy new ones!”

Paul sucked in a breath, “sorry bud, that sucks. I’ll let you sign your name onto my gift though,” he proposed shooting Dwayne finger guns.

“Ok well what’d you get them?” Dwayne asked.

“Come into my office,” Paul motioned for Dwayne to follow him as he sped into his room.

Paul smirked as he bent down and dug around under his bed before pulling out a box. He opened the box and pulled out a lacy piece of lingerie by its straps. “Nice right?” Paul nudged Dwayne while wiggling his eyebrows.

Dwayne held his head in his hands and sighed. “Is that for her or is that for you?” He asked with eyebrow raised.

Paul shrugged, “I don’t see why it can’t be both.”

“No no no, you’re not doing that,” Dwayne sighed, “now we have nothing.”

“Maybe not!” Paul exclaimed, “I wrote a poem for them too!”

“Alright let me see it then,” Dwayne replied cautiously.

Paul crawled under his bed again, his tongue poking out of his mouth as he searched for the poem. Once he found it, he placed the folded piece of paper in Dwayne’s hand.

Dwayne unfolded the poem and began to read aloud. “Roses are red / violets are blue / being with you is perfect / I can’t believe my luck, / after this I’d like to take you home / for a birthday-” Dwayne crumpled up the poem, “no.”

Paul’s jaw dropped in exasperation, “this is my best stuff dude, you should have seen the six I wrote before I came up with that one.”

“Dude, why’d you even say ‘roses are red, violets are blue,’ you didn’t even rhyme it with anything.” Dwayne asked.

Paul shot him a look of disbelief, “you’re supposed to put that in every poem,” paul shook his head, “man I thought you were the smart one.”

Dwayne pinched the bridge of his nose, “oh god, what are we gonna do”

Paul’s face twisted as he thought, “I might have an idea…”

You shimmied down the ladder into the main alcove of the cave, where you were immediately pulled into a tight hug by your favorite blond vampire.

“Happy birthday baby!” Paul exclaimed as he peppered sloppy kisses all over your face.

You giggled as he pressed his lips to your lips and cheeks again and again.

Eventually he pulled away to pass you off to your other boyfriend.

“Happy birthday my love,” Dwayne said as he took your hand in his to kiss it softly, “you look amazing, you always do.”

You blushed, Dwayne always had a way of making your skin crawl in the best way possible.

“Thank you baby,” you whispered as you placed your hands on either side of his face and pulled him in for a romantic kiss.

He smiled into the kiss as his arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you into his chest.

Paul cleared his throat to garner your attention.

You smirked at him, “feeling left out Paulie?” You teased.

He returned your smirk, “you know I’m happiest with my hands full babe,” he said while pulling you out of Dwayne’s arms and into his own.

Dwayne rolled his eyes but smiled at Paul’s antics. He fished around in the pocket of his jacket and pulled out a little wrapped box.

Your eyebrows raised in curiosity as you turned to face Dwayne, still wrapped in Paul’s arms, and he placed the box in your hands.

Dwayne blushed, “we um…we have something for you,” he told you nervously, “it’s not much, but we hope you like it.”

You smiled as you pulled at the ribbon holding the box together. Once unwrapped, you opened the box to reveal a handmade coupon book.

Dwayne bit his lip as he watched you flip through it.

“One coupon for a quiet night in watching movies, one coupon for a spot at the barricade at a concert of my choosing, one coupon for breakfast in bed…” you read aloud, “you guys made this? For me?”

“Yeah babe,” Paul kissed your cheek, “do you like it?”

Tears welled in the corners of your eyes, “I love it,” you assured them.

Dwayne peered at the book over your shoulder, “You can redeem them to any one of us, or both,” he explained, “like I can take you out for a joyride on my bike if you want.”

“And I can spend a quiet night in with you!” Paul chimed in, “I may have to smoke a little to calm myself down first, but I can totally do it babe.”

“This is the most thoughtful gift I’ve ever received, it’s perfect,” you told them as you pulled them into a group hug.

After you pulled away, you continued to flip through the coupons until you found one that caught your eye.

“Coupon for a threesome,” you laughed, “oh look, this one says unlimited uses.”

Paul winked at you while Dwayne held his head in his hands. “I knew I should’ve proof read the ones Paul wrote,” he groaned.

You tore the coupon from the book and handed it to Paul with a smirk on your face, “can I redeem this one now?” You asked.

Paul’s eyes widened and he threw you over his shoulder, “hell. yes.” he said, walking towards his room as Dwayne followed closely behind.

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@pixielostboy @riz-coolgirl @bloodywickedvamp @flower-crowned-lady @sidefanficaccounttohidemyshame @cryptic-michael

(Sorry if you wanted to be tagged in birthday requests and I didn’t tag you😖 I just wanna be super clear for these since they’re personalized. So if you wanna be tagged you in these you gotta be specific lol)

I know what you’re gonna say but I’m gonna say it anyways I am so sorry this week has been quite hectic. My birthday is tomorrow so I’m trying to get everything ready for like this weekend because I’m having my birthday party on Saturday. And I’m just getting like all the stuff ready so like by the time Saturday comes I’m not stressing out about it. But I’m with you though going to the movies is such an experience and I feel like in a way I enjoy the movie more. And I found it funny because I remember telling you about seeing like different genres because you might find out that you like them. My sister was like do you wanna go see Abigail on Thursday the new horror film that came out. And I’m not one for horror films, but I figured why not try something new so I decided to go with her so I’ll have to see how it is and then let you know. I hope you are doing well today and that works well as well! 

Oh my gosh!! Happy almost birthday! 😌 Probably by the time you read this, it’ll be your birthday so happy birthday! 🥳🎂 I hope it’s a really good one and I can’t wait to hear about your party. I’m also an April baby lol.

I can’t wait to know what you think about that movie! 👀

Outsider chapter 30 is online 🥳 Though it's only the first part but still, it's here! It's a tough one, honestly. Narcissa and Draco finally acknowledge the elephant in the room and it goes as well as you can imagine.

This chapter was meant to be in one part (because honestly chapter 30 sounded right to celebrate Sirius' birthday) but since it was too long I split it in 2 parts. Next part will be posted next Thursday and I hope you'll like it as much as I do. It's going to be tooth-rooting fluff and there's that Drarry scene that just makes me melt. I believe it has the potential to be one of my favourite chapter thus far!

See you tomorrow for Solarium and until then, take care of yourself as always 🦋

Do you ever have so much energy that it’s annoying? Pfft, no. I have like no energy.

How many yellow shirts do you own? I don’t think I have any, actually. 

What is your favorite yellow shirt that you own? (What does it look like?) --

What has been the most annoying part of your day so far? I just woke up like twenty minutes ago, so it’s too soon to say. 

Do you ever randomly feel nauseous for no apparent reason, and wonder why? Yeah, I get that feeling a lot unfortunately. It’s like this wave of nausea that comes and then just goes away. 

What flavor was the last popsicle you ate? I think it was a banana fudge popsicle. 

When was the last time you wore a hat? This past Thursday.

…and what kind of hat was it? It’s a baseball cap style Stranger Things hat. 

Would you rather skateboard, rollerblade, or ride a bike? I can’t do any of those, sooo.

Have the leaves started to change where you live? 🍁 Yes.

What color pants are you wearing? 👖 I’m not wearing pants at the moment, just a nightgown.

….and what type of pants are they? --

Do you have your Halloween costume picked out yet? I’m not wearing one.

How many months are there until your birthday? 🥳 9. 

How old will you be on your next birthday? 34... D:

What is the most significant health issue you have been dealing with lately? I’m still dealing with a few that have been ongoing for awhile. 

What color shirt were you wearing in the last selfie you took? I don’t remember.

If you HAD to take a science class- any type of science class- which science class would you take? A psychology course. 

What color are your fingernails painted right now? 💅 They’re not painted. 

Can you hear anyone mowing the lawn right now? No.

Do you read every day? 📖 Well, technically. Like, I’m reading these survey questions right now. However, as far as books go I haven’t been reading as much lately as I normally do and that needs to change. 

What color was the last pair of shoes you wore, and what type of shoes were they? They’re black Adidas. 

When was the last time you talked to your mom? Last night.

What was the name of the first guy/girl you dated? Derek.

What was the name of the first guy/girl you want out on a date with? Joseph.

Have you ever dated someone you had a crush on? Well, yeah?

Have you ever wondered why a “crush” is called a “crush”? Yeah. I mean, sometimes you do end up feeling crushed. 

Do you feel nauseous right now? No.

How often do you wash your hair? 🧖‍♀️ (I won’t judge you if you don’t wash it often. lol) Like every 2-3 days.

What was the name of the best camp counselor you’ve ever had? It was my science camp counselor who went by the nickname, Animal. All the counselors had like nature nicknames.

When was the last time you had a headache? 🤕 Friday.

Do you get migraines? No. I get bad tension headaches, though.

Have you ever had to go to a neurologist? No.

Have you ever met anyone named October? Nope.

What’s your favorite quote? I have many.

Are you wearing any make-up right now? 💄 Nope.

If not, when was the last time you wore makeup? June of last year.

What is your favorite lipstick brand? I don’t wear lipstick. 

Where do you normally buy pens? 🖊 Anywhere. 

How many people do you know who work as hairdressers? List their names. 💇‍♀️ Zero.

Have you ever been to Cedar Point? 🎢 Nope.

….and if so, what were your favorite rides there? --

Name one thing you can see from where you’re sitting right now that’s orange. My little pumpkin decoration. 

Do you ever feel sad for no reason at all, and wonder why? I mean, the reason is depression, buddy. <<<

Are you feeling hyper at the moment? No. I am tired. <<< Same. Also, I never feel hyper. 

When was the last time you rode a bicycle? 🚴 Never.

What is your favorite TikTok song? There’s been several songs I’ve discovered through TikTok and liked. 

Have you ever filmed any TikToks? No.

Have you ever filmed a video for YouTube? Yes.

If you could meet any one YouTuber, which YouTuber would you choose to meet? One of the many ASMRists I watch.

Do you have any big regrets that haunt you? Yes.

What colors of jeggings do you own? 👖 Black and gray. 

Do you have any stomach issues? Yes.

What are you sitting on right now? My bed.

When was the last time you had pizza? 🍕 Back in May. 

Do you like the name Ellery? I don’t think I’ve ever heard that name, but no not particularly. 

What was the name of the main character in the last book you read (or are currently reading)? 📖 Emma.

What is your middle name? --

Which popular middle name do you like better: Ann or Lynn? Lynn.

Which spelling do you like best: Ann or Anne? Anne. 

How many famous people can you think of with the same name as you? List their names. I can’t think of any that go by that name, but Lady Gaga’s and Nikki Bella’s real name is Stephanie. 

Which name do you like better: Felicity or Fiona? Fiona.

When was the last time you met someone new? Recently. 

Can you see a teddy bear from where you’re sitting right now? 🧸 Yes.

If you could join one dance class, which type of dance class do you think you’d most like to take? Growing up I always kinda wanted to take a hip hop dance class if not for the whole wheelchair thing.

What is your favorite musical instrument? Piano or guitar.

Is anything on your body sore right now? Always.

Does anyone in your family have diabetes? Yes.

When was the last time you went on a date with someone? About six years ago.

…and was the name of the person you went out with? Ty.

Do you own a pair of pink pants? I own a pair of pink Barbie sweatpants. 

How many lights do you have turned on in your home right now? I don’t know, I’m still in my room with the door closed and my light is off at the moment.

And last but not least, did you enjoy this survey? Sure.

🌈FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS OUR LEADER, KIM JOONIEEEEE🌈

 Hehe Hello, I waited until it was a day before your birthday to post lol Here I am again on a lovely Saturday/ Sunday for y’all. I would have come on Thursday like I use to back then but it would be way too early lol So, I chose Saturday hehe. Also, GOOD MORNING/AFTERNOON to all of you and ARMY who are not in my time zone lol I know that by the time I post this it will be at 7pm pst time.

  But, how are y’all this week? I hope you have been having a good week Joonie. 🥳 ✨Happy 28th/ 29th BIRTHDAY, HONEY!!!!!!!!! ✨You have finally caught up lol I still like telling you that. Haha Thank you for being born, but most importantly thank you for being someone who has filled warmth in all of our hearts including your own, because pouring into yourself is a gift as well. 💝As long as your doing well both physically and mentally that is what matters the most. More than ever I realize that these days. Hehe your parents brought a really warm, moving, and kind person into this world and that is a heartwarming sentiment for today. At least in my eyes it is. I have been thinking about that a lot even more recently for my birthday too. I have not ever told myself that even though my upbringing was not always the most ideal or my relationship with my parents wasn’t always the brightest, they brought me here and I finally see what I do, what I say, and how much my heart and energy is capable of and I am grateful and thankful for that. They brought me here and I feel more awesome each time I grow. It is a small thought but still one that is moving. I like to think it is. So, I really mean it when I say it about you here today too. ☺️ I read about this one thing that was said about parents and raising their children and someone said something that was thought provoking: that you know you raised your kids well if they are doing better than you in the sense that you raise them to be, think, and live even more beyond than what you expected as individuals of their own. That they think differently and are doing more beyond in their hearts than you ever thought you could as a parent. I think it is a nice sentiment to say, because my parents never really ever outwardly said they are super proud of me just like an okay or encouragement whenever I did something, but these days even my older sister tells me that she is surprised by how I think and how I talk to her and my dad even gives me these stares where when I talk with him he looks proud of how I am developing mentally. I feel that sense of doing them proud by doing right by them by growing into who I am becoming each day. I think you are the same too. Just look at how much you have said and developed and I bet your parents have that look of not just being proud but raising someone like you who is doing more and beyond than what they possibly thought they could do as well. You know they raised you right by the way you are changing others lives and developing into your own person. I think that is insane and just amazing. 👍 I had to stop writing for a bit to gather my emotions because I teared up a bit being able to say it even more intentionally and real this time.  Breakthroughs are nice.

   For your birthday, I got a lot of videos too. Haha some behind the scenes and just talking some TMI, to actually talking to you because it is awesome that I can talk to y’all through videos now. Haha I feel less nervous and more comfortable each time. Haha I hope you can feel the same too.💜 I will say to not blast the volume up because I got to testing the sound and in some parts I laugh a little too loud and it sounds better when it is in medium audio lol I made a couple videos where I am actually talking about certain topics because I just got to thinking about them at that time and I wanted to have a conversation with you and ARMY and Bangtan lol But, please note that although I may sound like I am confident in a thought I express I am in no way saying it is the right or correct way of seeing things. I wanted to talk to bring about different perspectives and just have a discussion about random things I have been thinking about as if we are sitting across from each other and just talking about anything. lol I miss you too and I wanted to have a random conversation with you for your birthday. Hehe Let me get into your gifts. YESSSSS!!!!

   This year I wanted to dive into a set of photos that inspired me awhile back but I never got around to creating them and I thought  why not. It is from the TEAR CONCEPT PHOTOS. LOL The O version concept photos. I loved them so much I had to bring it back! I laughed at the fact that you made a water bottle look so damn good. Lol So, I went looking for a water bottle. 😂😂 I got rugs, a smaller Fender amp, and a bunch of mics for this and I had fun. The editing was sick too because there was new filters and lighting I found and it really gave the photos a lot of their own edge and vibe and that is what I wanted to express with them because you brought it out with the concept photos.  These photos are before I cut my hair fully and they are from way back in late June. I HAD THEM READY SINCE THEN LOL 😆 I am excited they came out for you today.  But, I did enjoy that era very much and the different concepts of light and dark.  I liked the concept of mics and the amp wires and it reminded me of music and the idea of being wired to it. How music wraps a person enamored by it and yet how music needs a person to be expressed and give it meaning whatever that may be.Like a symbiotic relationship that is just natural, yet heavy, light, confusing, happy, frustrating, and loving all in one.  I felt that as a person growing up with music and your drive to it since your youth, music has possibly given you that feeling. Very drawn to it, yet like it is a part of your body, like it is the very thing you need at times, but the very thing you sometimes want to be away from.  I don’t know how to explain it but thinking of how I was posing with the wires, chords, and mics I thought of that. The things you use to make music and hear it, being aligned and sculpted to the body of one human being like they are meant to be. I loved that idea in my head and I wondered of how music is for you now compared to when you yearned for it in your youth. These photos are in a sense in honor of how I see you with music. Very connected yet at times you may want to pull the mic off because you don’t need it to express the lyrics in your mind. Your voice alone is all you need. To have seen you for awhile with music and the way you express your feelings about it very tenderly like as if music is a deep and sincere friend to you is something that really moves me about you. When y’all were talking in the latest FESTA video I was so moved by how the way you spoke about music. It was as if it was friend talking about not feeling truthful to another friend and finally  admitting it and coping with it. Like as if you feel you have been not true to the music you have always felt so much with in your earlier years and just admitting that you no longer want to be that way with it and find your way back to that old friend. I am all over the place with this, but your relationship with music reminded me of how even the things we cannot see are just as powerful.  You don’t need to see music to feel it and respect it. I see that you feel it and respect it so much. I think that quite possibly the fact that you have that relationship with music is why you see things a certain way. You have been appreciating the smallest of things and in return you gained eyes that see life and heart in things that may seem trivial or mundane.  I think it’s awesome. Hehe I hope you can enjoy the photos for what they are. You inspired them. 😁

   For the second gift, I will bring up the origami videos. Muahahahahahahaha I think you might have guessed it, a GOLDEN KOALA. ✨🐨✨ The Koala origami video that I found was meant for bookmarks lol but I made it big enough to stick to an arm. They are meant to stay in book pages. Lol But, it is so coool!!!! I think a koala really does fit your energy. They tend to just go with the flow of the day and tend to be very kind and nurturing. It reminds me of you. I say nurturing because you have this energy at times that is very tranquil when you speak or you give your response to certain things. It is like even when you try to snap or say something back to even negativity it comes off as calm and witty. Lol Very poise yet with a hint of reminding others that they have a choice to not think the way they do and that there is still time to change.  The way you speak and your tone is very nurturing at times. I like it. I read somewhere that Koalas as spiritual animals tend to be there to remind people to be more present in their lives and to have compassion. I think you can be quote compassionate haha and you seem to be living in the present very much these days. You are our GOLDEN COALA. In Spanish we spell it without the “K” and we say it with a “C” instead. Lol Cool ain’t it? Or should I say, kool??? LOL However, you may still see it spelled with a K at times. Haha The second piece is the one for your wish, baby!!! IT IS AN ORIGAMI BONSAI TREE!!!!!! YESSSS!!! YOU READ IT RIGHT. Lol I am excited because it was my first time making a mini bonsai tree through paper and it was nice.  I had to trim it and stick some minor details and I made the mini flowers with care. Ahhh I thought you would love the peacefulness of a bonsai tree and so I made one for you. I read that bonsai trees can also mean luck and I hope you can get your wish fulfilled with this little one. 🙏 Wish with intention and I hope it can come true. Enjoy the videos lol I hope you can all laugh a bit with them. I hope you can also remember what you said in the past, about becoming a tree in you 30s and 40s. I remembered this quote from you: “You know in your 20s, you have so many thoughts, they’re like many branches in a tree. If my brain is a tree, there are so many branches, there’s sadness, desperation, devastation, there’s happiness, hope, everything. But, when you get old, it gets cut…we have to feel pain and have to experience many things. But after that in 30s and 40s, if you got so many branches in your 20s… you will someday become a beautiful tree by your 30s and 40s.” This is just very beautiful and I love that you said this. It also adds to the sentiment of the bonsai tree for you. Let’s become trees JOONIE!!! Hehe it looks like right now we are still working on those branches but we are getting there one day at a time. 😉

   Time for me to bring quotes from your interview because I love reading what y’all have to say each time. Let’s go!!

-“It’s a given when you’re and artist: you have to be the one and only.” It reminded me of and episode of Gintama that I watched and I forgot which character said it, but it goes like this, “it’s not about being the first one, but the only one.”  It is like saying that anybody can do what you are doing but can they do it the way you give it life and meaning? No. Only you can. It isn’t about being first or top, but about longevity and being the only one still going at it the only way you are.  I love it.

-“Our glory days aren’t now- they’re still ahead of us.” This is a nice way of seeing the future in a manner that is not so filled with fear but hopeful to keep moving toward it by not letting what you have done so far define it yet. Glory is when you feel it and not a destination and I like how this quote kind of express that. More is always ahead if we all keep working toward it.

-“I think I need to try taking a step away from myself for a minute. I think that way I’ll know what the work I’m doing right now means to me and what it is to me.”  Damn. What you said here is hot. Lol the emotional intelligence is glowing in you lol and I love this healthy relationship you are building with yourself and what you really want to do. I think it is amazing that you can admit this. Taking a step away from ourselves is hard to admit at times because we all want it all right here and now and it can be hard to pause and stop. It takes great discipline with your own self to be like “I need a break and I need to do this right.” When I read your interview I was already in my two month journey and this hit home. I needed to pause myself and it worked for the best because I was aware that I can’t be for anyone if I can’t be something for myself first.  FIGHTING , too, Joonie!!!

-“I think it’s time for us to move beyond astonishing people and think again about what kind of messages we can send people now.” This is just my opinion and I hope no one gets mad over it, but to me I really disliked how y’all looked so astonishing to people because Bangtan is beyond just “wows” and “the hottest band right now” as an ARMY I will admit that it peeved me that only heads turned whenever you did something astonishing when you were always special to me for the longest time it is like people only saw you all as the shiny diamonds when the sun came through and y’all always gave me a lot of heart in your words even when the sun hasn’t shined yet. You were always precious to me and you were always capable of so much and giving so much in my eyes. I didn’t really care about popularity or reaching charts or numbers and I am glad I can admit this. I only ever cared because it mattered to ARMY and then to y’all. When y’all said you wanted certain things it made me care more, when ARMY was working tooth and nail to accomplish so much behind the scenes I admired it and it made me care more, but in the grand picture that was not fulfilling to me much compared to what I already felt for y’all and ARMY all this time. It was more of “if they feel happy with this, I will do my best if it makes them happy, but I have been filled with more joy and happiness than any number 1 can ever make me feel.” This is just me though.  It is different when you are the artists with different ambitions than it is for the listener at the other receiving end and I get that. But I wish to express this to you, Bangtan and ARMY today. I just love you and no astonishments will ever top that. I am always proud of you, but I always have been because you added life and color in to my world even for a just a bit each day. Overthinking with my grief of the people in my life who left in the essence of death I think this way because I remembered that I always cry and remember people in my life not because of what they wore or what they had or what they did but how they made me think, laugh, and made me just love them. I never go and think about Ana or my grandma and think “wow her shoes that she wore this day really is so overpowering over what she gave me in the time she had here” I think of the times they talked to me and told me I was doing something wrong lol and how they reacted to my stubbornness and were just so patient with me because they were kind and loving. It’s not that I am throwing accomplishments out the window because I think it’s nice to honor those parts of our lives but that it is not everything to me. I can tell you I did my marathons and it’s nice to tell myself that I am proud of doing that and that I got finished medals but in no way do I think that when I die I want the people/ person who loves me to think that about me as the first thing they remember me for. I want to know they yearned for my presence because they wanted me around because of who I was and how I made them feel. I also think that even changing one person’s life is something to be proud of as a person because it takes a lot to do that, sincerely. But, after saying this if you don’t like me it’s okay because I can’t control that but this is how I have felt and I always felt so guilty with myself but I can no longer say things and do things just because I think that is what someone wants to hear. I feel many things and I want to be real with it even if I am disliked for it. It comes from my heart and I want you to know. You don’t have to agree either. 😇

-“… I need to focus and take a look at the clues in my hands and find the solution in there.” Another hot sentence from you lol I am just digging these responses. It is true, the problems we all have are solvable by what is right in front of us. We just tend to make it hard because we find it easy to blame things on other things than to see that we are just as much at fault for not trying to solve the issue.  The solution comes about when we can admit that we are just as capable to hold accountability for the issue and get through it by reasoning with our whys and hows.

-“I don’t believe in maintaining the status quo.” JOON YOU ARE LIKE THE HOMIE MACHIAVELLI AND IT IS INSANE.  Niccolò Machiavelli would love you lol he literally once said this and it is one of my favorite quotes of his : “I’m not interested in preserving the status quo; I WANT TO OVERTHROW IT.”   Y’ALL RENEGADES LOL I LOVE IT!!!! DOWN WITH THE STATUS QUO!!!!!!

-“Things that are so natural, we can’t know for sure whether it’s all setup or not, but either way, it never feels artificial.” It made me think of Bangtan and ARMY. The love is natural, but sometimes we don’t know why the universe had it that way, but it ain’t fake and you feel it.  💜

-“Because people always think the grass is greener on the other side.” This one called me out indirectly because I use to think that way, but you can water your grass even with your sweat and tears and it won’t always make it greener. When you expect something to be better after so many efforts you miss the bigger view: you can always move away from what is already dead and start new somewhere but only after you cleaned up your dry field of dead grass. Meaning do the inner work and properly let it go before moving on. You don’t always have to wait for the rain to come, sometimes you need to make the moves. Your grass is already greener the moment you see that you can change the narrative at any point. Thank you for those words Joonie. Haha

-“BTS is family to me.” AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *HERE IS JENN ON THE FLOOR FULL OF EMOTIONS* I never get tired of y’all saying you are family and actually meaning it.

-“…I want to attain some kind of everlastingness.” I love how you think of things as timeless and memorable. I don’t really hear a lot of people wanting to be timeless. It is like romanticizing the idea of being forever in the hearts of others through even something ever flowing like music, lyrics, and the feeling you evoke in others through it.

-“Ultimately, if you don’t want to have any lingering feelings or regrets, you have to try. If you don’t you’ll never know, right till the day you die.” This one is going in my quote book haha yes, I found my quote books from high school where I wrote different quotes and I was such a dork back then but I was happy that I found joy in words. I wrote so many of them down and this quote will go in there haha You just have to not be afraid to say yes and accept that things can go one way or another and live with knowing at least you tried. That’s wassup!

-“…maybe in 2022, it might just be enough to convey something while being purely my sincere self.” This was kind of hard for me to swallow because it gets me wondering how many times you just felt so restrained to not be your pure sincere self and it hurts to think that you felt that way. But, life hurts in many ways and being restrained by many things is something we all feel through our own circumstances, but I think I will cry even more if you were ever in front of me and told me that you finally feel okay to be you. I would only ever want you to be finally at peace with that.

-“Even I’m not really satisfied with myself sometimes.” Same. Haha You will go through life feeling many deaths of unsatisfaction until you reach the rebirths of pure satisfaction. Both don’t last and they come and go. Hehe Just like a phoenix. I like to think it that way.

-“I think I just have to keep on following my own path. It’s the one thing I know for sure. I think I’ll just have to keep on drawing to find out if what I’m drawing is an elephant or not.” I like how near the end of your interview you contradict what you said with this quote lol and it is nice that the interviewer, Myungseok Kang reminded you by rephrasing what you said earlier through the interview with this, “you’ll know once you do it one or two times.” It reminded me of when you said “you have to keep on drawing” you just have to keep going at it until it clicks and then you will feel it right. It just may take one or two times to get an elephant drawn out. 😌

  Back at it with the last gift haha the JOONIE PLAYLIST. I went out into another tree park and took photos for a bit for the lyrics. Haha Enjoy the trees. 🙌 The playlist is full of different vibes, but they somehow have an alike energy to them. One that is nice to go about for a walk, a bike ride, or even a night time drive. They have this chill essence to them. I heard most of the tracks on night drives here and there through the past month and I thought of you with a lot of the tracks. Very calming and with a hint of vibin’ haha. Joonie vibin’ lol I love the sound of that very much. The first track is one of my favorites by Mokita. The lyrics to LONELY CITY had me crying. Lol These lyrics are for you: “It’s a lonely city when the neon’s bright/ And you’re not with me to shine your light/ And the skyline’s empty, nowhere to hide/ It’s a lonely city, it’s a lonely night/ Every night when I walk past the station/ I wonder if I should just go/ And get out of this town and just face it/ IF YOU’RE NOT HERE THIS ISN’T HOME.” If you are not here and if you were never here, Bangtan would not be whole and I would feel something would be missing. You are at the heart of many things and many people. 😭 I mean it. I  love the track MIRROR so bad, the album NEXT by Daul, NOAIR, plan8, and CHANNEL 201 is solid. I really brought that track to share with you too. The album is good and I love the vibes of MIRROR. 👌 Yesss!! Haha I also really loved CRUEL WORLD by Active Child and Jim-E Stack. The track is to remind you that I am here for you too. These lyrics resonated with me: “We’re thrown into this life/No raft, no savior/ Masked in self-contempt/ And wrapped in cotton cloth/ And it’s just like a prayer/ The way you showed me you care to be there and because/ Keep your head up, hold your head up even though/ It’s a cruel world.” I just thought it as hopeful and I felt that maybe sometimes you feel thrown into this world with nothing to help you or hold you up and I felt that or awhile and it is nice when someone tells me they get me and they keep telling me to keep myself up and afloat. So this is for you too, because I care. ❤️ LOVED BY U by TOKiMONSTA and morgxn  is also one that is heartfelt in the lyrics and I thought of you too. These lyrics tho: “I wanna live life, nobody’s ever done before/ And with you by my side, I KNOW THAT WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD/ And I know that it might be hard, but I know that it’s worth it/ ‘Cause I’ve never been love by, by you before/ Letting someone love you is letting someone hurt you/ So do what you’ve gotta do, and I’ll be standing next to you/ If you gotta be loved by someone, I wanna be love by you” my heart 😭 The vibe is chill in the track but the lyrics make my heart go boom boom. But I love how it it realistic with the idea of love and how it is both work and not always perfect. I loved how it says letting someone love you is letting someone hurt you because when you let yourself love you are not free of imperfection and even the hurt that can come from it. It is natural and it happens, but it’s about if it is worth it to you. Love is work, but it is about it being the work you are willing to do and work at each day when there needs to be work done.  When you find the work/ love you feel is worth fighting for you can change the world whether it is big or small.  FLOWER by view and Jimmy Brown is also dedicated to you. These lyrics say it all: “Baby you’re my flower/ Thank you always.” 🌼 CUTE. You are my flower. You are ARMYs flower. You are BANGTAN’S FLOWER. You are like a tall daisy.🥰  I also got the track called DANCING IN THE RAIN by Blu and Exile because the track is nice and it gets you thinking an relating to the idea of depression, pressure and being lost and finding your reason to keep going.  It talks about the pressure of making music and I thought you might resonate with the lyrics. Even though I don’t make music I related to some of the lyrics. I loved these lyrics: “And the music made a way when I was hopeless/ He told me to remember the rain it’ll diminish the pain” It is kind of like saying that when you feel that it gets too much, remember the days of rain you experienced on the way to where your are at now to remember what you came to do. The pain a person may feel at the moment can heal if you remember the times when you were in pain and weathered it out until the sun came out. Kind of like, when you learn to be one with the rain, you can appreciate those times more when the sun comes out but it gets too hot to bear in a figurative sense.  The last song I wish to talk about is BEAUTIFUL BOY by Karol G, Ludacris, and Emilee. It is so cute and reminiscent of Sean Kingston’s track Beautiful Girls but this version has a mix of it. That last song is me saying that yes you are our BEAUTIFUL BOY Y TE QUIERO. (I love you) 😘 I wanted to end it with that sentiment. The lyrics are hella cute. I love these ones: “ Baby, dime lo que me hiciste, viste/ Tú no eres normal, ¿de dónde saliste?/ Cambiaste lo que estaba triste, viste.” Translation: “Baby, tell me what you did, did you see? You are not normal. Where did you come from? You changed what was sad, did you see?” It is like saying, you don’t know how much you helped changed me for the better and I hope you can see and that you are special and not from here. Lol I love it. I wanted to give you that sentiment. Hehe And yes I did bring back some Fall Out Boy with WILSON and Thirty Seconds To Mars. Lol I added DANGEROUS NIGHT and so badly was going to add BATTLE OF ONE because I love it so much and also THE KILL because THE KILL was my anthem in the past lol I loved the music video so much too. Just the parallels and the idea of feeling suffocated by people and even myself with my thoughts really was me back then, but I love Dangerous Night and it is a nice track I loved of theirs too. I thought why not add it to you list. Hehe I hope you can all enjoy some tracks and also ARMY. Hehe Happy listening in HAPPY JOONIE DAY! 🎶

  I shall go to enjoy Joonie day this weekend. Hehe ALSO, I say this in the last videos, but 🌝HAVE A LOVELY CHUSEOK JOONIE, ARMY, BANGTAN AND BTS CREW! 🌝✌️I know it is that time of the year where I wish you a nice Korean Thanksgiving. EAT DELICIOUSLY, HAVE A LOVELY TIME WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY, AND ENJOY JOONIE DAY! I have to do some cleaning and do laundry haha I will do my best to eat well too. I will come back. Thank you for being here today too Joonie! THANK YOU FOR BEING  OUR LEADER AND DOING WHAT YOU CAN ALL THESE YEARS! WE SEE YOUR EFFORTS AND YOU DID WELL, BABY. LET’S KEEP GOING. HEHE FIGHTING! 💪Have fun everyone and I love you. I PURPLE U! I am so happy I can say borahae again. 😭💜 Be safe and take care. Enjoy the posts on tumblr lol there is a bit and it is random. Haha 🎂HAPPPY BIRTHDAY KIM NAMJOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUR GOLDEN COALA!!! HAHA 🎂 BYE BYE !

With mucho amor,

Your Jenn 🌼🐰🌼