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dragonnnfly · 2 years

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The concept art of Hiccup’s dragon armor really went for that “half a dragon” feel, didn’t they?

Honestly though, it’s so cool.

It’s what we deserved

#he looks feral!#I love it #which one is your favorite?#mine is too left and one down #(referring to the last picture of the dragon-like stances silhouettes)#and the top left for the front facing concept art #httyd #how to train your dragon #hiccup #concept art #httyd 3 #hidden world #1k notes

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raininyourblackeyes · 11 months

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My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.

#what happened was that i was feeling really down these past few days #like mental health dead in mariana trench #and i went to visit her because she lives like 10 minutes away and has a cat i can play with #but yesterday morning a friend of mine made a fanart (i guess i can call it that) of a fanfic i am writing for the five of them #she sent it to me and said she's also working on an actual painting on a camvas of her fave scene from my original story #and i was so surprised and exicted #that's actually a too mild description #and when i was visitting my cousin i showed her the pic of the drawing on my phone and explained it to her and she just said ....ehh..#and started texting someone #i was sitting there feeling stupid and thinking wow you could have at least praised my friend's art sytle or something #and when i was getting ready to leave she asked me if i was aware my writing has no artistic merit and fantasy is trivial literature #so i should just stop wasting time on that and focus on developing my art style more for her future poetry collections #i do the art for her book covers #and added how we already have an established writer in the family so i should focus on my role - becoming a good pharmacist #and she knows how much i hate that i'm studying pharmacy like it's the no.1 cause of me hating the direction in which my life is going #finished it off by saying she feels like what she's doing in going to be really great and important on a large scale one day #and how she wants me to continue being her shadow that follows and supports her #i left went home and started at a wall for hours #i just feel so dumb for getting excited over a silly drawing of something not more than 5 people will ever read #i genuinely hate the idea of people reading anything i write so most likely writing will just remain a hobby for me #and now i feel like the most stupid person on earth and am this close to deleting all my word documents from both my laptops

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mildmayfoxe · 3 months

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omw to hardware store earlier

#photo record #face tag #i bought weather sealing stuff to seal up my door frame a little better to mixed results.#overestimated the size of the gaps & once i put all the foam on i couldn’t close the door. LMAO!!!!#so i peeled a bunch back off & now it’s MESSY but it closes & the worst of the gaps are fixed now 👍#so now i can be a little less insane about ~bad air~ getting into my room #and they didn’t have the kind of air purifier i wanted (i want to upgrade mine) so i ordered a new one while i was there too #so hopefully i will have as close to a little safe zone as i can manage #with the new air purifier it’ll change out air in here like every six minutes!!! crazy #i’ll have to go again & see if i can find thinner foam. now that i actually know what i need #struck down by hubris once again (not double checking before i left in the first place)#ok anyway now i’m gonna make frozen pizza 👍

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donnatroyyyy · 11 months

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Batman has/had some kind of miscommunication going on with every single one of his kids. The bat family is just one big miscommunication trope after the other.

#him and Dick have miscommunication about how they see each other. Bruce sees Dick as a son and Dick sees Bruce as a father #but they didn’t think the other saw them that way so they never told each other. that’s what led to their fights in Dick’s later teenage #years and dick quitting and becoming nightwing. he thought Bruce only saw him as a ward/robin so he thought that as long as he couldn’t be #robin Bruce wouldn’t want him #and if didn’t help when Bruce stopped talking to him when he left. though to Bruce it was because he thought Dick didn’t want to talk to him #and also Dick really needs to tell Bruce like ‘hey you put me on a higher pedestal then you put even yourself which is saying something and #and I don’t like that cuz that’s too much pressure for me. and also since you did it everyone else does it and has done it since I was Robin #and it’s literally just a matter of time before I break from the pressure cuz I’m not fucking Superman and I can’t take it’#and Jason with the whole UTRH thing. you know all Bruce had to say was that he had tried killing the joker over Jason multiple times and #maybe just explain to Jason WHY he doesn’t kill. a simple ‘you’re better than me because if I killed one person I’d kill everyone’#or it could even just be a simple ‘I do love you Jason youre the kid that I felt most comfortable loving’#and also maybe a ‘I don’t think anything changed after my death and that makes my death meaningless which I think goes against your no kill #rule because I hat is the rule of not a reminder taht death means something. and by that logic my death already went against the rule so why #can’t you do it again for the man that murdered me.’ and Bruce needs to make a presentation: ‘all the ways Jason’s death meant something’#and Tim just needs a simple ‘I don’t see you as work I see you as family.’ maybe even a ‘you don’t have to be the grown up in this relati #anymore I’m sorry you were one to begin with. you should’ve always been the child’#now his miscommunication with Damian goes much deeper but I’m one hundred percent sure if they sit down and air out all of their feelings it #would help a lot but I have a feeling that won’t happen #a ‘I have trouble understanding you because both your trauma and compassion run deeper than mine and I also never had to grow up to be a #weapon’ from Bruce and a ‘I don’t understand your optimism and moral stubbornness and easness why is it so easy to be good for u?’#his miscommunication with Cass stems from two things a simple ‘why are you so afraid to show how deeply you love?’ from Cass maybe a #‘I’m jealous of you because you’re better than me not only in fighting but morally and emotionally’ from Bruce should fix it #and Steph— look I’m not even going to TRY to get into that that goes SO much deeer and wider than any one else’s miscommunication #but maybe a ‘you reminded me of Jason at a time where that wasn’t a good thing’ from Bruce should start things up #for Duke a ‘I can never truly understand what you’re going/have gone through and for that I’m sorry’ from Bruce should suffice #maybe also Bruce telling him that just because he sees Duke as a son doesn’t mean he’s trying any less to get Duke his parents back #oh and babs just needs to go up to him and say ‘I don’t like that what happened to me happened for your story and not mine and I don’t like #that you don’t let me make it into my story’ and then Bruce can follow up and say ‘I see so much of myself in you and it makes me worry and #also I can never look at you without feeling guilty cuz you’re right what happened to you happened for MY story so I’m at fault’#then the two can go back to being too much like each other and sitting at their respective computers

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letterstosirsonic · 2 years

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I shall not waste time on formalities, Sire, for you know who I write these dear letters to.

The kingdom has caught word of your intention to depart, as have I.

I apologise that our time has been cut short, and that I was never able to give what your world gave you. Yet, I will never regret the love we found together.

I have not loved many people in my time.

The day I met you, a mere knave in the woods, I would never have known I would find more than an opponent. Instead, something far more valuable.

A noble king, a lover.

My liege, you are wise, brave and far strong enough to carry on without my presence.

As deeply as it pains to never again feel your warmth beside me.

For my final letter, I only ask that you remember our world.

Remember us through endless stories of our grand adventures, of heroic battles against forces of evil, tales of all magic and knighthood alike.

Keep running, Sire.

Run to wherever your heart may take you, to where your free spirit longs to be. As no matter where I reside, perhaps even lifetimes apart, I shall forever remember you.

It will never be goodbye with you, my love, only farewell.

Perhaps someday, somewhere in another life, we'll meet again.

Farewell, Sonic, Knight of the wind.

Yours always,

Sir Lancelot Du Lac

Lance.

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lupismaris · 1 year

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Oh there is nothing like the desperate relief and power trip of finally FINALLY getting the winter coat you have been chasing after for three fuckin months

#ITS MINE! MINE! LAST ONE ON THE WEBSITE AND A HUNDRED AND FIFTY BUCKS OFF AND ITS MINE #mine is a manic maniacal laugh because i have been checking madewells website daily for this coat and haven't been able to afford it #and once i could it sold out completely and they took it down from the site entirely #so now today ON A WHIM i check and THERE IT IS WITH ONE LEFT IN ONE SIZE UP FROM MINE #AND I GOT IT!! GET FUCKED #I FINALLY HAVE A GOOD STURDY WINTER COAT!!! NOT ONE THATS TOO SMALL AND MAKES ME DYSPHORIC #AND FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS

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theood · 2 months

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Sorry to beat the dead horse I live in lately but I'm so tired. A break from social media probably could help. If I figure out how else to occupy my time doing absolutely nothing. It's what I say every fucking day. Just wish I had friends. People my age around here to talk too. Even younger. Anything. I'm so fucking lonely. I love everyone I talk to online, I have meaningful connections with so many of you but I also haven't had meaningful conversation IRL in idk. Years probably. I haven't seen any of my old friends because we moved and I had to isolate myself because no one really wanted to hang out with me or could get here. And I really don't do anything, I can't be stressed. I can't be depressed I can't. I can't. I can't. Just like every adult in my life says. I don't know. I just wish I could actually see it's going to get better. Be better for me

#this is everything I've already said. I've never seen a future that has me in it. 4th grade cemented that fact for me. And I've been living #it since. I just don't know anymore #I missed out on so much and I'm so stupid. I am. I don't bring anything to the floor. I don't have any skills. Nothing worthwhile. Nothing #meaningful. What do I bring to the world except another useless body? Some sick animal left at the back of the pack to be killed off so #everyone else runs free.#nothing's working out for me. nothing's clicking into place. no opportunities. everyone's moving forward and I'm stuck behind. and it's #probably for the better isn't it? if I just fade out from everyone's lives. just stop. it hasn't gotten better no matter the effort I put #forward or the risks I take or anything.#one step forward five steps back and i fell and tumbled down the steps and i broke something and my stairs are icy and everyone else has ic #spikes. and their steps are an escalator. They're buckled in taken up. and mine are crumbling and overused and been here too long and it #just isn't ever going to be better is it? not for me. not ever.#generational trauma is a circle and i need to self cannibalize to end it. drink my own blood to rid myself of what isn't right.#no rebirth. no salvation. just an end. there's nothing to save.

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arthur-r · 8 months

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here is the silly photo i got with him also

#my hands were shaking from being too excited. but here is me and the singer/lyricist/guitarist of one of my most favorite bands in the world #except for he’s some guy shdhdf they aren’t very famous but they are so so cool and his voice and lyrics are incredible #and guitar too!! but no like his voice is my range and so so beautiful and the words are all so strange and perfect #what a pleasure to repeat the words passed down from daddy.. breaking bread with twelve close friends until your early thirties!!!!#heavy metal fog orchard of god chewing my fingernails off lead me out into the trees like a child quietly!!#a pound of flesh rots in the trunk and i’ve got no excuse cause i cut it out of myself!!!!#right now i just wish i could get some gateway drugs and crawl around in your atrium til i die of old age up in your left lung!!!!#just to name a few. of my favorite lyrics shdhdhdf #across a long and storied career. of like seven years of music where the first ones are a lot more weirder and gross than the others #so anyway i’m talking. but here is me with poolboy seth and i’m very happy to have spoke to him again and got established #i really really want to open for poolboy one day. they’re usually openers which means that if they headline i stand a chance #anyways. here’s me and poolboy and i’m gonna go to bed now. but i have an autograph and a photo and what else can you really want in life #all i need is for my band to reverse its violent awful breaking up of a couple weeks ago and put out an album. so that poolboy can even hear #but no chance of that. so anyway i just need to go to sleep cause i’m pretty tired. but tonight was a good night. i hope everyone is well #also i’m moving out in one week exactly so wish me luck about that too. but anyways goodnight i hope everyone has a good night #me. my post. mine.#delete later #friends only

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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rgg was real for insinuating treasurers are batshit insane

#snap chats #dangerous combo i was thinking about mine this morning but i also opened my canvas and forgot i had plans to draw jo yesterday #and im not mustering the will to make the post ive wanted to make for months in that I Think They'd Get Along #i think they should have bursts of violence together itd be a healthy team building exercise #theyd get along until mine found out jo left his baby in a locker and then i think we're watching the bloodiest beat down of the century #either that or the roast of the century. he might not be swinging but he's still doing maximum emotional damage #jo aint even denying that shit either he gonna let mine kick the shit outta him cause he knows he deserves it #but yeah very funny neither of them got proper education in economics yet they're left to manage funds #yeah i trust these *orphaned bitches to do my taxes. whats the worst that could happen #*technically jo aint an orphan hes a runaway but he still parentless im running with it #they'd both also get a stroke over aoki and daigo being an item. for one reason or another #ive compared mine to aoki but now the cursed option of comparing him to his dad #mental illness really does take you places you never wouldve imagined otherwise i need to be put down #i must draw them together but i cant think of anything.... very awful...#all i can imagine is sawashiro in goofy j-drama scenarios with the arakawas... its just too easy to imagine #esp after all ive done is watch tsutsumi in cutesy dramas and movies.... actual darlings for charas he plays. sometimes #im getting off topic ok bye

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flightofaqrow · 1 year

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tag refresh, relationships ( ‘+’ is platonic, ‘x’ or ‘ship name’ is romantic/sexual, ‘branwen twins’ is face value lol )

#* suddenly you're ripped into being alive = qrow + clover *#* her sentences were icebergs / the tip from her mouth / the rest kept in her head = qrow + summer *#* they're always like this = qrow + glynda *#* get my gray hairs from you = qrow + winter *#* it's all an adventure that comes with a breathtaking view / walking the tightrope with you = branwen twins *#* caught between brains and heart we both suffer = qrow + james *#* i always knew that in a crowd of thousands i'd be able to find you = cloqwork *#* they slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered = fair game *#* the world is too quiet without you nearby = earth and sky *#* something pretty magical about it = otp ** right hand witch and left hand familiar *#* love me and tell me that i'm good for you = taiqrow *#* we met / i looked up / i knew i would love you because even the sky looked different = feathered bandits *#* went from one conversation to your lips on mine = songbird *#* separate pieces of the same whole = double down *#* a person's imperfections make them perfect for someone else = calamitous harmony *#* we are products of our past but we don't have to be prisoners of it = snowbird *#* seek those who fan your flames = wildfire *#* she became more and more beautiful the longer i looked = qrow x summer *

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mrfoox · 1 year

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Talking with Fabian and whooooooooo boy that was an conversation and a half...

#miranda talking shit #Uuuh i was kinda rightfully anxious? I told him about how i am a little freak and i basically am down to date 90% of my friends #But i got told by Oliver that it could be i act that way bc i dont want to be abandoned/left so im willing to compromise however they want #Me to... So talked about that with him and yep. We finally got into the whole... 'what are we' business. Or well kinda not directly #He said he didn't want to bring it up but we basically are on the subject so... And how hes worried that i will think too much about him #'i worry the more time we spend together the more your life will revolve around me and you'll value me so much more than i do you'#'it doesnt seem fair to you so ive occasionally not talked with you because i worry about that. You're a great friend but I know how much #You think about people. And im worried if you think about me too much you'll develop feelings or I'll mean more to you than before' i... He #Isnt wrong? Thats kinda how i work. The more people prioritize me the more ill value them and cherish them? But also... Idk if he understod #That i dont actively think about kissing or dating my friends? Its just a thing i know that if anyone asked I'd be down for it. But i dont #Daydream about it or anything. But then again he said some cryptic fabian shit like 'i dont have anyone else to compare with so i assume #What we have is normal. I sometimes want to cross the line to see where i still stand with you after doing it' like bro... Im so sorry i am #I am so far from 'normal' and him having me as his biggest both friend and female/woman in his life is probably such a mess i am crying #Me: ok then cross the line and see how you feel. 'but thats the problem. You dont have a line you're so open and down with everything you #Dont really react badly' I know i... Probably am making things hard for him sometimes but this was an holy shit moment /: hes worried to #Spend too much time with me bc of how i can potentially feel? Meanwhile I'm basically 80%+ of all his social interactions 😭 at one hand i #Appreciate him thinking of me and worry i guess but... Yeah. I told him: listen Fabian. My life does not revolve around you and youre not #The only one i think about. You are safe.' his and mine relationship is my favorite but also i definitely worry bc i know how much what we #Have or talk about or act is his... Only reference for girls basically. I mean outside his mom. He's not had any other girl friends and no #Actual girlfriend. So his reference to whats... Okay and appropriate is basically dictated by me and im seeing that very clear now im kinda #Afraid. Like... Im not normal on any level. If he's basing his view on women on me hes going to have an awful time truly... Idk if i should #Be offended or flattered that he thinks he's the center of my world 😭 like hes not completely wrong. I talk with him multiple times per #Week. But i can also say hes not all i think about at all waking hours lol. I obviously love him and care so much about him but im not #In love with him. Not as far as i know anyway. I dont think of him how i do people i have crushes on for example so yeaah. It bothers me #More that he couldn't just say 'im not into you' bc thats fine. He added the whole element of 'im not sure' like buddy now im going to be #Anxious about that in the future. I guess he have no reference to crushes so he cant tell but like... How do you want me to act so you can #Tell? I want an solid answer putting in an maybe is cruel even to me. This is funny bc tbh i dont even know if i would be able to date him #Even if he said he wanted to. Bc i know his biggest wish is to be a dad and i have nog fully embraced that idea even /: 'i can feel how ego #Centered i am. Assuming im the center of your world like that' at least youre self aware sweetie. Sounded like he was at peace with all we #Said and im here like... Binch there's so much to think about i wish i could read your mind i need more information to understand all this

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bibiana112 · 1 year

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Everyone's always so mad over unsolicited criticism but you know what makes me furious? Unsolicited comfort. Me simply not expressing myself the same way as you is not a sign that I'm depressed and in desperate need for you to come to my rescue, it is not an invitation for you to act like my one pillar of reliability or to act like my friend when you do not know my life, do not know wether I do have support, do not know I chose to be in this position you feel so uncomfortable looking at and on god you just don't get to pity me for living my fucking life the way I want to

#unsolicited advice is somewhere in the middle of these two that's not what I'm talking about #I'm just so bothered that some straight old lady on the boot besides mine kept treating me like a fucking child #because I was on my own #my father and my sibling were willing to help I just felt more comfortable doing sales on my own #cause I can't bounce between scripts that easy #and she kept talking down on me and once we left on the first day she said something like ''tomorrow will be better okay?''#COMPLETELY UNPROMPTED and it's stuck in my mind so bad #someone else across from me also thought I was bummed out but one they were school kids trying to help and two THEY FUCKING ASKED #once they asked and I explained myself we continued to get along I thought it was sweet and they clearly were looking up to me #like on terms of art skill and such #it was very nice I thanked them before leaving and I assured them I was having fun but I'm just not from there and work differently #they said I was nice and asked for advice getting commission work from overseas #but the lady literally only babied me her son was also uncomfortably trying to make conversation as if I couldn't be left to my own devices #god it just makes me so mad!#I know how I look and I know me being cold in the first day didn't help my disposition be very energetic at all but gooood #who asked for life advice. not me you don't know what I'm doing with mine leave me alone #MEANWHILE that bearded dude who called the cat a dog??? Left while criticizing how I organized my shit #solid physical things I could adjust without too much effort and that would make it easier for customers #and you know what?? he left and I was thankful and Made those Adjustments because it had a clear reason why it affected him #and it made SENSE to fix it'd just improve quality of service #the guy came back later with his kids and he was super cool #anyway experiences experiences I am going to bite anyone who's that condescending to me again #Void fala aí #also i didn't know how to describe her ''old'' was probably incorrect she was your average karen age

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theater-of-dimensions · 2 years

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I love coming back to Minecraft after not playing for months or years, because some of the changes are so unexpected in the best possible way. I almost started crying today because I tamed a cat and when I got in bed to sleep it sprinted over to lay down on top of me, and when I woke up it had brought me a piece of string as a gift 😭

#Minecraft animals in general have my whole heart #I first discovered animals can get in minecarts when my cat suddenly jumped in my minecart and rode it all the way down to the mine #(different save file)#I was organizing my chests with my cat #And I heard a meow and then the sound of the minecart launching off #Turned around and there was no sign of cat nor minecart #Ran all the way down the track (which was quite long) and found my cat in the cart at the bottom just chilling #Also today in my current save file I accidentally stole a wandering trader's llama #I had a boat with chest parked next to my farm and the llama got into the boat #Also caused the lead to drop so at least I can now keep my horse nearby without relegating her to the chicken pen #Felt kind of bad about stealing the llama #But I broke the boat to release the llama and there's no sign of the trader nor the llama so I'm guessing they left together? idk #Also my cat kept getting stuck in the boat so I ended up putting it away #Also separately this cat I also accidentally stole from an NPC whoops #Last I was aware you could only get pet cats by taming ocelots #So yesterday I found a village and there were cats wandering around so I was like ok cool NPCs can have pets now too #And I gave one cat some fish to be nice and then it suddenly sat down with a collar and became mine #Oops #To be fair though I basically just did what my cousin does every time she goes to Turkey lmao #Finds cats wandering around a village #Feeds the cats to be friendly #Ends up being followed around by the cats

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ocpdzim · 2 years

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i still really want a corset. like not one of the really tight ones but one of the ones that is basically just a fashionable back brace. but i never have time to go to the mall

#and yes we do have a specialty corset store at our local mall.#it’s literally one of the only half decent stores left in the dilapidated half abandoned mall.#they’re kind of expensive but i have two jobs and don’t pay rent. i could afford it #it would make being on my feet at work SO much easier because unlike an actual back brace:#-it is Cool and won’t risk drawing jeers from ableist schoolchildren #-it can be worn sitting down too so i wouldn’t need to keep taking it on and off #a friend of mine has a corset from that shop and she took it to show her doctor #and her doctor said it was just as good as a medical brace. i have got to get one

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faust1926 · 2 years

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#negative and venting in these tags #+ I'm not at ALL grounded rn so like. u know #I don't have the proper words rn. but I'm just hoping very much today is just an off-day like most sundays have been lately.#and maybe I can be somewhat functional again tomorrow #I wish I had more positive things to talk about maybe tomorrow will be better and I'll have more positive things then #I'm just so tired and keep not being able to think well. and I just spent like 3 hours just laying down #like resting but not sleeping and I really wish I were at least more ok with being like this #cause I'm not. but I'm too tired to do anything about it when like -_- I've got spirits putting thoughts in my head #and like touching me and telling me things and I couldn't get them to go away even if I wanted to cause I'm just too tired #and their presence is so. heavy on me like their energy or whatever just Weighs u down when too many of them get close #so I can't move I just have to lay there and listen to them and it's so. horrifying #but at the same time it's like!!! the best feeling in the world it's literally better than anything. and I wish it weren't #I wish real physical things felt good to be around too :-(#I wish I could be grounded and functional and awake like normal humans seem to be even in situations like mine #one of the spirits is still touching me now. like. on my ribbcage and I don't know why but it feels . impossible to describe #or to compare to something else lol #I don't know why. they're doing that I don't know what they're trying to do with me exactly.#it's like electricity but softer maybe. not sharp. dull warm radiating pulsating pressure very alive. I can feel them like under my skin #ok it's getting late. I'm running out of what energy I have left I need to go to bed #and in the morning I'll have breakfast and take my vitamins and maybe I'll be a little better and more awake #and I'll get bloodwork or something done soon and I'll see a new therapist and maybe we can do something and my brain won't be so fuzzy #they told me to trust them tonight also. they said I'm not in any real danger and I need to just let myself rest when I need to #<- one of the angels said that I mean #even if that's more often than most people I need to like. just lay down and rest more and trust them to take care of everything & Im safe #so ok

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stillfruit · 2 years

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i need someone to punch me or run me over with a car or something i don’t care just anything i’m sick and tired

#i'm not functioning at all i hate this what am i even trying for #or i mean i'm functioning in the sense that my apartment is clean i get exercise i cook my own meals etc i can go through the motions blind #but the instance i have to Do Something uni related i just shut down nothings working and like in general as well i just don't care anymore #i have so many opportunities to meet my friends and ppl from uni but i just can't be bothered it's tiring and i don't care #yesterday i finished my meetings in the ed clinic and the doctor asked about the psychologist thing for other things #but i was like eh idk if it's gonna do anything and i know it's a dumb attitude to have but i can't help it i've lived like this for so long #like truly i just know there's something wrong with me and i'm a bad person but i also already know that i have to take initiative to fix it #but i'm just too tired and there's no point #like usually i'm fueled by spite or panic or something but i just don't feel things now #i have no braincells left anymore none #and now with my new gut issues which might stem from the ed or be genetic i'm just. even more tired than before with less time to use #because i spend hours in the bathroom #i should book an appointment for a doctor abt that but i'm just. very doubtful since it took my sister years to find out even a part of her #issues which might not be the same as mine but still #i'm too tired for social interactions and will never form meaningful connections with other people i will never get a job i will be in pain #and i don't have anything on a grand scale that i would want and all of that makes this seem so useless what am i being alive for #i'm being dramatic right now and i know things can get better and things change etc etc but also. i'm not having fun #i know i'm very privileged in many ways and incredibly thankless and insufferable and childish and so on but idc i'm tired #why the fuck did i have to burn out before i finished my bachelor's thesis and why the fuck did i choose my major when it's 10000 #times more demanding than the one my friends went to #in those courses i just throw shit together for easy 5s and in my major i'll get hanged if i don't include the doi part in citations #i mean i still have time so not all is lost but time just keeps happening and i'm not experiencing any of it #shit talking

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