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ziegenkind094 · 2 years

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hello i saw on ur twitter that you read alot and do you have some book recommendations? im open for anything

1 The Prince of Milk by Exurb1a = if you're like me and can't read any mr. gaiman books bc his writing style bores you to death then this might be for you. really fun cosmic horror/ scifi book. there's some gore, lots of death and a character who's been battling constant suicidal thoughts with several suicide attempts under her belt, so pls be careful

2 The Book of Lost Things by John Connolly = it's about the dark and twisted nature of fairytales, plays during WW 2 and covers difficult topics like loss and death. There's also some murdering and sick experimentation going on, like sewing a human's head on an animal's body etc.

3 Prosper's Demon by K. J. Parker = quick and fun read with an interesting take on exorcism and demon handling. loved the main character's interactions with the demons and how he solved his problems in the book lol

4 Afterlove by Tanya Byrne = sweet book about girls falling in love and then unapologetically staying in love for the rest of the book. srsly, they're so sweet :')

5 All of Us Villains by Amanda Foody and Christine Lynn Herman = YA about teenagers killing each other in a blood tournament with an intersting magic system. pretty dark, lots of blood and injuries, actual death and, of course, feelings. funniest straight bait i've seen in a while, promising gay romance (not confirmed yet but it's hinted at and I hope we'll see it come true in the sequel). it's a bit of a pynch situation, just with more murder :)

6 The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern = it was recommended to me as a love letter to literature and it really didn't disappoint. one of my favorite books I've read this year. also gay with lovely characters and a stunning world, but has unfortunately one-dimensional and flat villains. it's literally about being gay and liking books (didn't like the pop culture references at the beginning but thankfully that stops after a few chapters)

7 Bunny by Mona Awad = AHHHHHHHH I LOVED IT SO MUCH. really, really, REALLY fucked up. I srsly don't recommend it if you don't like horror and gore and murder. feral women becoming even more feral, committing some actual atrocities most dark academia books don't dare to mention. the main character is bi. the book even made me tear up at the end bc of how it handles the topic of loneliness and despair

8 If We Were Villains by M. L. Rio = you probably witnessed me losing my mind over this book on twitter when i live-tweeted my reading journey. nothing has changed, i still think about this book daily. it's one of the books i'm gonna draw fanart for once i'm done with all of my exams. i can't put into words how much i love it, it makes up like 60% of my personality by now. oliver and james are the bitches i will still cry about in 30 years. the book has one of my favorite endings of all time tbh

9 The Secret History by Tonna Tartt = We've all read it. It's one of my favorites

10 Piranesi by Susanna Clark = it's one of those books you shouldn't know ANYTHING about when going itt, which makes it hard to recommend bc I refuse to say anything about it. If you like dark academia then maybe give it a try. I loved it a lot. it's weird but has a very special place in my heart. pls don't look up th plot. pls don't. srly

11 Wicker King by Kayla Ancrum = it has a really interestng fantasy concept i wish we would've seen more of. it's about two best friends becoming more and more obsessed with each other while losing themselves in their.... uh.. "game". really felt for them and their desperation to stay together

12 Horseman by Chhristina Henry = a dark retelling of the legend of sleepy hollow with a trans main character who i ADORE and still think about daily. again, lots of death and gruesome, gory scenes. really cool concept. have i mentioned that i love the main character? bc i really love him

13 Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro = if you're interested in scifi that's not a grand and overwhelming space opera than pls give this book a try. it's about AI and the appreciation of life, how do deal with sickness and destiny and loss without losing hope Hope these help a bit. idk why but i prefer reading about unhinged and sad characters in summer. makes me feel good somehow <3 sorry if these are too depressig for you!

#yeah i love reading #yeah...#yeah #maybe ask me in a few weeks again #i have some more promising books lined up i wanna read next

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flamboyant-king · 1 month

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Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding.#words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

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httpiastri · 17 days

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#just wanted to post that ask abt pauls mom so not more ppl send it in thinking no one else did <33 hehe #but just wanted to say that im gonna be taking a little break from here #just a few days maybe a week or a lil more #going through some really exhausting things irl and everything is just making me overly sensitive rn #so im just trying to not go crazy heh and tumblr always has a way of making me spiral even more #though it's kinda hard bcs reading everyone's messages and asks always gives me so much energy #so i might come in just to read asks and then disappear again ahah #so thankful for you all <333 i'll be back soon !!!#going to be thinking a lot about pepe to not go crazy #especially 🎀 anons latest ask #nearly made me cry istg #okay im really going now #bye for now!#(deleting this when i come back)(or earlier idk)

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chennnington · 2 months

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It's kinda pathetic how I just googled "how to call in sick" cause I have never done this in my entire life. What do I say? How hard will the doctor judge me? Will she agree that I'm sick enough? Do I just go "okay" and go back home to my desk and work if she thinks I'm fine? And even if she agrees I'm sick enough, is there any paperwork? Do I have to make any additional phone calls? Won't it be easier to just work instead of trying to figure this out?

#by now I think I know how things work and I have some coworkers I can ask who won't laugh at me #my main issue is that it'd feel like lying #I mean sure I cry at work every day or feel paralyzed and I have some physical stuff going on that may be the result of stress #but I'm also alive and breathing and my job is just being on the computer and reading and typing #you can pretty much always do that unless you're in a coma #and a doctor is mainly focused on physical health. maybe they have the same opinion on mental health as the external dude?#like 'we all have problems. deal with them yourself and don't bring them into work cause that affects the entire team'#I guess you could call 'pull yourself together' my life motto cause I've heard that from so many people for my entire life #and as they say: if you have the same problem everywhere then you might be the problem #I guess I just have to try harder instead of whining and running away #I always sucked at running anyway #and I have an entire weekend to beat myself back into shape for the next week #haha actually I have a sword seminar and tournament on Sunday so others will do the beating up #unfortunately it's unlikely that I'll suffer any serious injuries that'll put me in hospital #but maybe breaking a few fingers would be enough for a short break?#cause with my lack of proper gloves that's not impossible #but then again I once broke my hand and it didn't count as being sick and I just kept attending my college lessons #maybe if they break all my fingers so I can't type. but that's unlikely and takes at least two hits I think

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liebelesbe · 5 months

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should I go to the cinema again next week... as a treat... 🤔

#maybe another sneak preview even #I don't think my roommate will want to come with me again bc she didn't really like the last movie #& most other ppl we asked to come with us were scared it was going to be a scary/brutal movie (which it was) so none of them will want to #come either...#but I think there were a few ppl we didn't ask maybe I can find someone else. maybe my OTHER rommate even she'll be back next week!!#doddie redet

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musical-chick-13 · 1 month

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Trying to determine whether I'm brave enough to post this chapter update in the character tags.

#I usually tag the ship name out of courtesy for anyone who might want to block it #and because like. I DO want people to find it if they actually want to read it #but this is...okay if this were a more CONVENTIONAL fic I would absolutely put it in the character tags.#but it is not. a conventional fic. and people scare me.#ugh maybe I turn off anonymous asks again for a few weeks.#I hate doing that but. I'd rather not risk getting told how horrible of a person I am for simply depicting a complex topic in a story #OSTENSIBLY this update will happen on. Sunday. but there is an ASTRONOMICAL amount of editing that has to happen before then.#and one of those days is going to be. completely not available to me probably.#(<-has to do a Scary Thing and will probably need all day to prepare for/decompress from it)

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dipyronegirl · 7 months

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i have once again been discriminated against for my accent

#i’m kidding it’s not discrimination at all it’s just #i live in rio de janeiro right. and we have a very specific accent that’s different from all other states #we drag our sentences (so it sounds a bit lazy??) and we pronounce our S like an X #like. take the word ‘bolas’ (balls). we say bolash while literally every other state just says bolas like the S in the word ‘say’#anyway. our accent makes us sound like players somehow; it’s hard to explain #and the carioca (means from rio) stereotype is that we always find shortcuts to everything; to get what we want without working for it #and it’s partially true tbh #but for some reason (i have no idea why) my accent specifically is very very strong (& i only found out ab it a few weeks ago)#and it makes me sound even more of a ‘player’. i asked ppl to be honest w me ab it and they said i sound like #a drug dealer or someone ‘shady’ that works w something illegal #and like i’m lazy and don’t care ab anything and maybe don’t take things seriously #and i mean all of it is true. kind of #but it’s shit that ppl can guess all my flaws just bc of my accent #sorry im rambling i’m so annoyed by this. i’d change if i could but idk how to speak differently fr #and ab my flaws. well i know i /can/ change them but idk how. i’m trying and i hope i become less lazy and more interested in serious thing #(cause yk. my biggest flaw is that i can’t bring myself to give a fuck ab the things i should care ab like responsibilities and shit)#god i’m rambling again im just so ughhh #text #giocore #about me #language

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despairforme · 10 months

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So 'daz how it is, huh?

#[ he mad bc i'm not spending time with him WOOPS ]#[ been super busy with my boat again! ]#[ now she's all set and i can go sailing next week :D ]#[ ALSO you guys send me so many asks :O WHAT ]#[ - excited - ]#[ you're so kind to me t-t !!! i really appreciate it! ]#[ i'm driving home in a few hours so maybe i can write when i get back :D ]#[ - when i'm working on my boat i stay at my parents' house bc it's so much closer to my boat - ]#[ two hour drive home -v- ]#[ hope you guys are doing good!! ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.

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policemanofprincesspark · 3 months

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I'm not acting like I treat them the same. I already said that I think Louis has more faults than Harry. Send another ask if you want my personalized list.///

Please could we have this list? I like the way you write and engage with anons.

Okay. Keep in mind this is all just my opinion.

Louis's faults:

• Using rude language

• Slacking at his job

• Promoting toxic masculinity

• Holding misogynistic views

• Not speaking up on important issues

• Promoting drugs

• Proudly absent father (only counts if F is his son)

Harry's faults:

• Promoting Zionism

• Holding misogynistic views

• Not speaking up on important issues

• Promoting drugs

They do share some, but Louis does win the competition for most "bad" traits, at least in terms of quantity. When you weigh their worst traits against each other—in my opinion, Harry's is promoting Zionism and Louis's is being a proudly absent father (if F is his son) or promoting toxic masculinity (if F is not his son)—they're about equivalent with Harry's being a little worse.

Call me lazy, but I don't feel like elaborating much on these for a while. I'll probably make individual posts that go more into these traits as time goes on if they do something that pisses me off. I'm not in the mood to research and show any examples, but maybe in a month or so if someone asks me to elaborate on one point, I will. Sorry.

#ask #louis snark #harry snark #yeah don't ask me to elaborate on these for a while because i'm not in the mood #maybe in a few weeks or so #again sorry #babygate

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katya-goncharov · 10 months

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can't wait till i quit my job can't wait till i quit my job can't wait till i quit my job can't wait till i quit my job -

#ugh i'm just so annoyed that they keep putting me on overtime shifts #i'm only supposed to do 17 hours a week and that's all i signed up for! but literally like 90% of the weeks i'm scheduled in for or have #worked i've been put on extra shifts. and it's never just like a few hours extra. it's always an extra 6 hour shift at stupid early in the #morning and extended hours on all my other days and whenever i try to very timidly suggest that i'd rather not do too much the managers are #just like oh but you said you were available at those times! and like yes i did but i thought i'd maybe get one overtime shift a month! not #literally every fucking week. and just because i'm technically available on some days of the week doesn't mean i never have any plans then #so you can't just schedule me without asking! and it's about mentally coping too because i really feel like i'm going to get burnt out. i'v #barely had any time to do my university summer work and i've already had to reschedule a tutorial because i got put on extra shifts that da #and ugh sorry for ranting AGAIN but it's just making me feel so stressed and awful. i really don't want to do those extra shifts but it's #something i feel like i can't really say no to and i just didn't think employers would be so entitled like that. just scheduling me in #constantly as if they have this unquestioning right to my free time #emma vents

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 4 months

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