#look man idc if its off topic i gotta post some shit
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Im about to graduate omggg, as usual, no one knows about this tumblr in my life, so that’s cool. Kaylee can know idc lol. But, somethings in my life just don’t add up. I have a gf who I do love, and adore and all of this, but man our communication sucks, on her end, she just doesn’t text me or snap me for hours sometimes… for no reason lol, but snap score goes up but she doesn’t reply? Hurts a bit, I don’t feel like a priority in her life, she isn’t open with me about things, I have to fight to get answers out of her, and she just doesn’t tell me stuff. We’ve been dating for 5 months! Like what! Lol! I just don’t get it.so like what do i do...were not going to see each other for the entire summer. this is my longest relationship, as yall know they dont go too hot lololol. so many posts on here about gf’s and shit, i would be ruined if anyone found this, but this name is not associated to anything else of mine, unless someone like reverse searched the image, who knows. this is just my thoughts as they are thought of on paper, im sitting here listening to taylor swift, deciding about big things in my life. im going to maine for the summer month and a half or so, either i can have all the sex up there with my ex, a threesome, my bff cas who ive all fucked before lol, so thats funny. BUT, 3 months without her :L i wont even be able to see her at allll her dads a dick. i swear to god if we aren’t able to FT like 1-2 times a week, that is really gonna take a hit. theres no reason to not be able to ft me with airpods in, and all this shit, like come onnnnn do u really not want to talk to me. i just feel like this is going to end up in a text break up, i really dont want it. but shes stuck with me and my quirks and issues for 5 months! thats a long time! so who knows, i want it to work but it just may get so unberable at some point, im gona talk with her tho at least. also i just was reading up about how the brain processes near death experiences, and how wack the gamma rays are or something. and i recalled the time in senior year, when my friend was driving and making a turn into school across a busy road. (two years later a family of 4 got killed in the crash, actually by someone i knew in the dmv auto club, he went to jail, my friends and i did the math on the car crash - guy was going 125 mph when he hit them. 1 girl survived out of the family of 4. terrible) but, a car was really going fast coming towards us, and i thought it was gonna clip us, and i was in the backseat, i swear i had a marvel intro style play in front of my eyes, just flashing through life events, i couldnt even see the car coming per say, just the images that i cared about most in my life. and then we passed...and it was like nothing happened. this got off topic, but so do all my other posts. i just dont know what to do. she failed out of her student teaching this semester, and i felt i was at cause, but i dont think so. she said her mom was very upset with her, after the school stuff, and failing the driving test. but all she does all day is sit and watch tvvvvvv mannnnnn, ive tried so hard to get her to do things, and be productive and get her out of the dorm because i know what that life is like, failing out, and having no prospect, because ive been there so many times. ive been to 4 colleges! and she just doesn’t want to involve me, or just seems like she cares about me. i want it to work, i mean god, what breaking up for a month and a half just for a crazy sex summer? seems like an issue to meee lolol. not really looking forward to maine, but gotta do whatcha gotta do. fucking hell i graduate in 10 days what the hell its taken so many years im just numb to it i feel, everyone else cares way more than i do, and its gonna be a shame to try and express happiness and joy when im more just like thank god lol. anyway thats my late night talk i guess, lol goodnight?
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3:38 p.m. Wednesday June 30 2021
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Hey guys. We went to the mall again because it's too hot to go outside. I l1fted a bit but I did buy a blue and purple tie dyed tank top for summer and a Slayer shirt from the hot topic.
We had funsies, me and my friend were chatting and stuff. Not much to say.
I'm feeling sucky now cos we got lunch at the italianos store and I wanted to get Dulce De Leche because what's the point of going to the italianos if ur leaving with NO dulce de leche....?? Its so yummy. My mom said yes but my 11 YEAR OLD SISTER LIKE FLIPPED OVER THE CAN AND READ OFF THE GRAMS OF SUGAR AND CALORIES!!!!! liKE WHAT??? ITS NONE OF UR BUSINESS JESUS!!!!!! thanks for triggering my uh disordered eating... cos after that I wanted to cry and I just put the can back and remembered how fat I am and I ALMSOT HAD A BREAKDOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STORE LIKE IT WAS THE WORST FEELING...
Now I'm worried about my CaLoRieS and jesus it's the worst feeling... thanks sister who is eleven and REALLY MEAN?? she literally calls me short fat and ugly all the time... I think my mom and sister make me the most insecure. My mom is always ragging on what I eat how much I eat what time I eat it's the WORST PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE???? like I'm trying. You think I don't ALREADY feel bad??? Like okay way to shame your HEALTHY BMI (bmi 22) child for... eating a sandwich for lunch? I can't even. Like YEAH IM A BIT CHUBBY BUT IT HURTS MY FEELINGS FOR Y'ALL TO POINT IT OUT COS IVE BEEN INSECURE MY WHOLE LIFE AND I JUST CAN'T EVEN. I CAN'T.
.... but we had fun at the mall. So yeah.
I think I ended up l1fting like, a choker, some masks (for covid), fake nails (for my sister), and some hair bands (since my hair is crazy in the morning and always gets in my eyes)
Also some mentos XD but I won't be eating those since I feel like shitttt thanks family ily ♡ /s no I don't
Also that stuff I was talking about being upset over the divorce? Last night? I'm better now so dw.
.... I'm ravenously hungry right nowwww but. We are going to ignore that. Because hungry is good. Itz good to be hungry it means you're on the right track and if you stay hungry long enough you DO lose weight. You just gotta stay hungry. ALSO, ALSO IM TRYING TO AVOID BLOATING because if I bloat then I get insecure with no top on,,, and it's hot out, so what I wanna do is keep my tummy flat ALL DAY so I can wear like just my sports bra or smthn... i hate saying that I'm wearing a bra but like thAt's what it is if I called it anything else I'd confuse you.
If you're on this blog for the first time,,, I'm MALE, so like don't just assume I'm a girl.
I feel like I dont pass enough but also I dont really mind? Like people keep calling me a girl but I dont see it? I personally dont think I look feminine??
.... I guess when I'm naked... JAY.
and when I dont bind, and my voice, but that's about it.
Also uhm. I'm kinda a kleptomaniac. I'm gonna check the diagnostic criteria for that because... I sorta l1ft every time I go out. Even if I dont NEED anything. It's not a problem, since I'm not getting caught, but it's still a CRIME and I should try and slow it down a bit.
At least I'm not HAULING as much as I used to.... I would FILL my mfing backpack, bro. I would go nuts. So I gotta try n be more careful so I don't get caught. I take too many risks... sex!!!!, theivery!!!!, and light drugs.
But isnt that what being 15 is about? Idk. I'll post pics of what I l1fted to my l1fting blog after I remove the metadata/exit data (location data) so I don't get doxxed...
Also I dont know if I told yall this but I might get contact lenses :) I think glasses make me look ugly so i dont wanna wear em. Also i hate having em on my face all the time it's just plain annoying.
4:18 p.m. update: okay so we're going home.
My mom is being kinda annoying shes like mocking me... Whateverrrrrrrrr idc. Jay is at his friends house rn, Eden is busy and Erin proabably won't come if Eden doesn't come so I guess I'm resigned to biking alone tonight.... probabaly after I pack all my shit of course.
11:20 a.m. update:
I didn't end up going biking... we took the bottles to the bottle depot, I got 20 bucks, and so did my sister even though she didnt even come :P
I got home and just went online. I was scouring Encyclopedia Metallum for any good active local metal bands that I could potentially see live in a concert in my city!
I ate okay today, kinda ate more than I intended to before I slept because I was so hungry :| willpower 0 (zero)
Anyways I ate to maintain today :/ which is okay I guess.
I'm a bit upset since my dad was crying about the divorce and like I tried to comfort him and said it's okay to cry and stuff but... MAN THATS PAINFUL.... and like... shouldnt it be the other way around? I hate this. I hate everyone feeling bad. And I hate having to be so grown up.
Oh well... I was always the hound of hell, not the lamb of god.
4:15 a.m. update
Everyone wants to hang out with me XD so I gotta ask about that
Roadtrip soon.
Idk, not much to say.
I'm uh, listening to MUSIC right now. I love music and I wanna play bass again. I also feel very insecure and want to cut my junk off so that's fun.
:P
Goodnight ig
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wanna chat? pt. 14
on ao3
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14
i got my harry potter nerd on for this chapter, mostly because i wanted to write and didn't know what to write about
also, i'm glad you all liked the previous chapter <3
dipshit = adrien
fergie = alya
no = nino
dancing queen = mari
enjoy~
16:30
fergie: its 2 quiet in here
time for the #discourse
no: no
fergie: shit im blanking
i need a topiC
@the babs: someone pls
no: i refuse to support this
dipshit: Anything?
fergie: yes
dipshit: Ok give me a second
no: fuck dude i just wanted a day of chill
fergie: babe with friends like us thats just not possible
dancing queen: What are we doing??
dipshit: Hogwarts house discourse
Go
no: i cant believe i have to break up with you
fergie renamed this conversation to “hogwarts house discourse”.
dancing queen: Oh no
fergie: alright alright alright
adrien = puff
mari = puff
nino = puff
dipshit: How do you figure
no: uhhh
dancing queen: Sorry al that seems wrong
dancing queen: oh it is
it definitely is
but ur all sweet enough for hufflepuff
and loyal
and we all eat too much food
hmmm realistic one…
adrien = puff
mari = snake
nino = raven mayb
dipshit: Make Mari Gryffindor and I’ll agree with you
fergie: whaaaaaat our girl is ambitious aF theres no way
dipshit: But she’s also a really strong leader and incredibly brave
dancing queen: If were arguing over anyone Id say adrien should be a gryffindor
Oh wait maybe ravneclaw????
Hes super smart
Shit this is really hard? He could be in three???
no: the fuck
i was thinking slytherin actually
fergie: ???
dancing queen: ???????
no: listen my dudes
the hat takes what you want into consideration right?
it does it for harry anyway
fergie: what does this have to do with marshmallow being a snake which is just
not accurate
no: im getting there
dipshit: Are we going by stereotypes or nah
dancing queen: Nah
The stereotypes suck
no: im just saying
theres no fucking way if we were wizards teh agrestes wouldnt be pure bloods
and gabriel would be classic fucking slytherin
dancing queen: Ok Ill agree with that
fergie: mhmmmm
dipshit: I wouldn’t say that
no: bro even if you arent going off stereotypes
your old man is probably the mos t ambitious perosn ive ever met
like scary
mari is almost as scary
dancing queen: Hey!!!!!!
fergie: so sorting hat
no has changed their name to sorting hat.
sorting hat: sup
fergie: are u saying adrien would ASK 2 b slytherin
sorting hat: well
yeah
yeah i am
fergie: ……………
i did not consider
sorting hat: i know you didnt
dancing queen: First of all since we cant decide and Im getting mixed answers from online quizzes
dancing queen has changed their name to lion snake.
lion snake: Second of all doesnt the hat also base it off of what you value the most??
dipshit: Lion snake? Like a chimera?
fergie: nerd
dipshit: Actually the chimera also has a goat ignore me
sorting hat: what the fuck
dipshit: Greek mythology
fergie: u kno what i dont wanna kno
dipshit: Anyway back to this
sorting hat: oh yeah
anywa
yeah the hat does
but adrien wanting to please his dad might overrule that
idk my dude jk didnt exactly lay ou t the rules of this super great
fergie: jk needs to c h i l l
and ye each of the golden trio couldve ended up in at least one other house
dipshit: That would’ve been cool
Also I don’t think I try to please my dad that much
fergie: oh sweetheart
sorting hat: dude
lion snake: Adrien you really really do
dipshit: Really?
fergie has changed their name to adriens legal guardian.
adriens legal guardian: someone needs to take care of you
dipshit: I promise I’m fine
I’ve got Nathalie
sorting hat: does nathalie give you hugs
dipshit: No?
Why is that relevant?
adriens legal guardian: SHE DOESNT COUNT THEN
#HUGADRIENAGRESTE2K17
adriens legal guardian has changed their name to i love adrien.
i love adrien: turn on ur location agreste
dipshit: Please know that’s actually kind of creepy
I’m at home you don’t have to worry about location
i love adrien: hella
sorting hat: alya chill out with the name chagnes
also now im gonna be confuse d
i love adrien: i love him too but truuuuu
dipshit: ????
i love adrien: can i change it
sorting hat: last time for today??
i love adrien: ilysm
i love adrien has changed their name to cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub
dipshit: I have a fanclub?
Wait that wasn’t the smartest thing to say
lion snake: Its a good thing youre cute
dipshit: I try to ignore them
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: have u ever been on the official insta of the fanclub
bc its hilarious
and beautiful
dipshit: ….
Alya why
sorting hat: oh we totally googled you
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: mhm
lion snake: ^^^^
dipshit: That’s…..nice of you?
lion snake: Sorry if that makes you uncomfortable omg
dipshit: It’s just? Kinda weird??
I don’t mind and I probably should’ve expected it
I just forget sometimes that that’s a thing people can/will do
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: adri if it makes u feel any better i google everyone
ive googled everyone in this chat
in our class
their parents
ymself
random strangers if im able to
sorting hat: that is not surprising at all
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: ur not special
i mean u r
ur v special to me
and ilysm
but not here
everyone gets googled and twitter stalked
also tell whoevers running ur official accounts to be less lame
idc about salad u eat
dipshit: What????
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: ur social media is B O R I N G
i kno u dont run it but i still expected more memes
dipshit: Honestly I don’t look at it
sorting hat: its like the person we thought you were when we first met you except more boring
lion snake: Ok no thats not true
Because I thought he was an asshole
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: oh shit tru
dipshit: Ahhhh yeah sorry about that
lion snake: Its fine I promise!!! Weve talked about this
Its like
Super perfect adn model-y and professional andnot at all a teenage loser who stayed up until 2 watching sailor moon and eating doritos
sorting hat: fucking relatable
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: weebs
sorting hat: yo youre the one who decided to date some
lion snake: Hey Ive never asked
Adrien do you have unofficial personal social media???
dipshit: …………………….
Shhhhhh
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: WHAAAAAAAT
LINKS LINK S LINKS LINSK
dipshit: I have a tumblr but that’s it
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: oh my go d
this weekend we get 2gether adn make adrien all the social media
and we revamp his tumblr bc ur theme sucks
dipshit: ????
You’ve never even seen it???
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: i know it does marsh
!!!!!!!!
can u imagine if lb and cn had social media!!!!! id c r y
PM between dipshit and lion snake
dipshit: P l e a s e
lion snake: Oh my og d
dipshit: Please please please please please please please plEASE
lion snake: HOld on!!! Im discussing with tikki
dipshit: Plagg says he doesn’t care what we do
lion snake: Yeah we arent trusting him
dipshit: Fair enough
WHAT IF I CAN GET SNAPCHAT ON MY BATON
A LITERAL SNAPCHAT
lion snake: No
Just because of that
No
dipshit: Pleaaaaaseeeeeeeee
My lady it’ll be great I swear
lion snake: U gh
Well talk on it on patrol tonight k??
dipshit: YES!!!!
19:05 in hogwarts house discourse
sorting hat: i know weve moved on but man. fuck snape
20:12
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: do u think if i track down lb and cn and ask them for their hogwarts houses theyll tell me
sorting hat: worth a shot?
20:42
cochairman of adrien agreste fanclub: update: chat says ladybg is a gryffindor and lb says shes iether that or slytherin
so like mari
and they cant agree on cn
22:53
sorting hat: damn you adrien i cant stop thinking about this
what is mari??
what is adrien???
what am i??
al youre either gryffindor or ravenclaw ive decided
lion snake: Youre the sorting hat shouldnt you know all???
sorting hat: bruh we need the actual sorting hat for this
lion snake: Fair enough
sorting hat: lets say adrien is a hatstall and move on
3:03
PM between dipshit and lion snake
dipshit: Rise and shine bugaboo
Akuma at 3 o’clock
Literally 3 o’clock the time not the like
If you’re using 12, 3, 6, and 9 as directions
It’s not
You know what
My tracker on my baton is turned on so use that to find me
3:08
dipshit: Mari
Mari
Alright plan b
I’m gonna call you and if you don’t pick up I’m going to show up on your balcony
Which sounds creepy but also this akuma is now stacking cars and I don’t really know what to do?
They aren’t even trying to do anything else right now
Am I missing something???
I’m confused
3:12
lion snake has changed their name to ahHHH
ahHHH: IM SO SORRY
Tikki woke me up my phone was muted
She says
Waitw e dont hav etime for this
Ive gotta transform so Ill talk to you when I get there??
dipshit: It’s fine just watching an akuma build a tower out of cars
Remind me to show you how to sync Skype up to your yoyo
ahHHH: Youre on skype on your baton??
dipshit: Yeah it makes things easier
ahHHH: Huh
Al and nino didnt wake up?
dipshit: I think the akumas too far away for them to hear, but also it’s not exactly being distructive
When we actually start fighting people might start waking up but for now it’s being pretty quiet even with the car stacking
ahHHH: Well thats good they need their sleep
Wait if the akuma was quiet how did you know??
dipshit: People started posting to the Ladyblog forums and I had that open in another tab
ahHHH: ???/
Why were you up????
dipshit: Bad night
I couldn’t sleep so I put on Howl’s Moving Castle
ahHHH: Feeling any better?
dipshit: I’m sure I’ll feel better when I see you :3
ahHHH: Oh myg do
Itst oo early for this
Ill see you in fa few just stop that cat face
dipshit: ;3
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