i'm obsessed with the idea of miss holloway having given up what she cherished most (being remembered) in her deal with the lords in black but now it's just hitting me so hard that oh my GOD what if she made the deal asking for immortality purely because she didn't want to fall into obscurity and be forgotten but THEN in order to get that she had to give up the thing she cherished most WHICH WAS THE WHOLE REASON SHE WAS MAKING THE DEAL IN THE FIRST PLACE so she technically gets what she wanted but it's cruel and unhappy because those manipulative BASTARDS that's so FUCKED UP now i need to go watch nightmare time again so i can get more miss holloway because if i don't eventually learn all her lore i am going to CRY