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#like this is how normal i come across to people she actually didnt know i even knew what jjk was until she saw my playlists
vigilskeep · 1 year
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so interested to hear your thoughts bc i love your supreme ability to take a haphazardly-written bioware arc and turn it into a thematically-coherent masterpiece. how does one do this with sera??
i could never get into her personally (found the way they wrote her voice a little contrived/“haha funney swearing and crude jokes”) and i struggled to figure out her core motivations somehow simultaneously being the red jenny “sticking up for little guy” stuff but also a complete alienation from elves and the actual people she wants to protect?
also found it weird how you can just 😭 kick her out any time when you can’t do that with anyone else afaik. i mean i didnt like her but ?? that was a Choice bioware
ah the big sera question
first of all, upfront, i adore sera. this is just a matter of personal taste that people are going to have or not have, and that’s completely fine! (although people have said before that my talking about certain characters has made them give those characters a second glance, and i hope i can do the same for sera for people who maybe haven’t given her a full shot !!) i am just personally delighted by her. i love the fun of her design and i love her combat style and i love the way she talks, how you have to think through what she’s saying to follow where exactly the line of thought went, and you don’t always get everything but that’s okay bc hurry up we’re already onto the next thing! as someone who uh doesn’t always find it the easiest to communicate verbally, i find it very relatable and freeing and charming that she talks as she pleases and dares anyone to challenge it and expects them to catch up. i love the side she brings out in people in banter and i’ve never regretted bringing her along in the party. i think she’s very pretty. i’m getting distracted we could be here a long time
one thing that really helped me figure out how i could play a seramance was bouncing between potential inquisitors until i got one that could use the way the inquisitor and sera’s interactions are written. a big flaw of the writing is that it pushes your character into a box. partly because of the style of comic relief it’s attempting, it forces you to play the “normal” one who can only be fondly bemused by sera at best and can never be unconditionally supportive, even the nicest options available sometimes coming across critical or condescending. the way i’m personally making that make sense to me is playing an inquisitor who has lived a fairly secluded life and is bewildered and stilted and awkward as she tries to navigate a kind of relationship she’s not accustomed to with a kind of person she’s not accustomed to. but she really is earnestly trying. and sera seems not to always get her either, so there’s this process of trying to figure each other’s language out that i’m personally finding very endearing!
obviously that isn’t for everybody. your inquisitor is whoever you want them to be! that’s just one way i’ve personally responded to the question of how you can take the admittedly flawed writing and work with it, and i’ll have to adapt something different with another inquisitor with a different background.
there’s a lot of specifics i don’t know about her backstory and where her story is going—as i say, i know a majority of spoilers, but i don’t have all the details—so i can’t completely elaborate on my thoughts on how she was written until i have all the information. i’ll have some more coherent comments on my actual opinion of sera’s writing as a whole then! but i will say as a final note i honestly find it a little startling how saying completely insensitive things abt elves rarely stops human characters from being continual fandom favourites—and that isn’t, like, a condemnation, i’m thinking of major characters like leliana and morrigan and anders and dorian who i love as well, that’s the nature of the setting and genre of dragon age and the questions it explores—but meanwhile sera, who is an elf and suffers from internalised prejudice that’s against herself as well, seems to be the one who gets so much of the heat? i’m just putting that out there as food for thought.
wait one more thing sorry. when she talks about the little people and the friends of red jenny and it’s confusing who she’s standing up for, i have to say in her defence i think it’s more than a little unfair to expect her to be remotely comparable in clarity of direction/ideology/purpose as the other inquisition companions and advisors, a sweeping majority of whom are major political figures or otherwise trained professionals in their 30s and 40s, when sera is literally just a random person in her very early 20s with a hell of a lot of initiative and talent. of course she hasn’t figured things out she’s too busy cutting her own bangs. you know?
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thedeathwitchescats · 2 months
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Do you have any ideas/headcannons about Renee/Andrew/Neil ?
This is the best question anyone has ever asked me because absolutely yes I do. Ill keep this to [mostly] canon compliant ones for simplicity. Apologies in advance
Renee and Andrew started dating relatively soon after he went to Palmetto and told no one about it. For Renee it was mostly to avoid judgement and for Andrew it was because he didnt care about other peoples opinions. Wymack, Abby and Bee know though. Bee because Andrew told her, Abby because Renee told her and Wymack because Wymack knows everything
I always still pictured Andrew as being biromantic but still not sexually attracted to women, and Renee was saving herself for marriage ((after she was born again obviously))
When Neil appeared Andrew was immediately infatuated, but still very suspiscious, and Renee was also warry, the two of them had many deep discussions on the roof about whether they could trust him or not
((Imagine a world where Renee sometimes went with the monsters to Colombia, and also Andrew hadnt stopped Nikky from making advances on Neil for this one to make sense)) Renee was there for Neils first night at Columbia and she was the one who told Andrew that Nikky kissed Neil unconsensually ((no Nikky slander in this post, i am well aware my opinions of this man are niche)) and it was after this that Andrew made a conscious effort to get Nikky to stop making Neil uncomfy
Renee was the first person that Andrew let hug him after he left the Spear household, it was during his first year midterms, he was stressed and riddled with medicated anxiety. Renee asked if she could give him a hug because it helps her to calm down and after that Andrew started to breathe easier and decided that, when asked and with granted permission ofc, he kind of liked hugs
Andrew figures out that he is head over heels for Neil pretty early on and has a conversation with Renee about it. She tells him that she also seems to have feelings for Neil and they decide that they are going to slowly approach him and try to figure him out. Cut to the convo at the store where Renee is getting Andrew a bday gift and Neil is there, Renee tells Neil some details of their situation ((being that Andrew is gay but that they are still together because they have a very deep bond and sex isnt important to either of them)) And Neil is confused but understands and supports. Renee tells Andrew that she genuinely can not figure out what is up with Neil and Andrew decides to leave it alone ((in Andrew fashion which equates to calling Neil family, giving him a key and calling it home, letting Neil drive his car, putting Neil on his insurance for his new car, giving Neil an entire new wardrobe- you know, normal shit))
Also in this world Renee was the one who has Andrews other key, not Nikky
Renee and Neil actually start formulating a relationship while Andrew is in easthaven (("you took his car and now your taking his girl" or whatever it was specifically that Nikky said i cant remember atm)) And when Neil goes to the nest she knows as well as Kevin. She tries to stop him but after he tells her it is to protect Andrew she nods solemnly and tells him to take hers/andrews knives to keep himself safe
When Neil gets out Renee picks him up from Wymacks apartment and is angry and upset and that is when she kisses him, gently as to not hurt him buy fierce enough to get her point across. She breaks down and tells him everything and says that she never should have let him go. Neil is stunned and doesnt know how to react. This is when the upperclassmen ((who were all scattered around because theyre in Renees dorm room)) find out about Andrew and Renee
When Andrew comes back and is very obviously traumatized Neil decides not to push the issue and to let Andrew be the one to approach him
Renee starts going to Columbia with them weekly now that their secret is out. Her and Neil dance while Andrew watches protectively. Renee is still a very traumatized individual but she has softer edges about pda and physical touch. Her and Neil kiss in the crowd and Andrew realizes he is done for
"Doesnt mean i wouldnt blow you" happens in front of Renee instead of Kevin and she is proud ((if not a tiny bit shocked))
Andrew and Neils first kiss on the rooftop is short and Andrew talks to Renee who assures him that Neil would have said something if he was hurt and Andrew, who didnt know he was capable of regret, finds himself regretting it all
Neil and Andrew start working on communicating, because all good relationships have communication even the "not relationships"
Right up until Neil starts getting spooky count downs and ominous bloody messages from papa dearest, then communication is a little limited
Andrew and Renee know that there is something going on with Neil and are worried but he wont say anything about it and is acting normal, if not happier
When Baltimore happens he tells Andrew "thank you, you were amazing" and he tells Renee "get to the bus safe" before he disappears into the crowd ominously
Renee didnt stop Andrew from choking the life out of Kevin and called Jean in a blind panic to see if he knew anything
Kevin started speaking and she reasoned that Jean didnt know anything
Renee was just as angry as Andrew and all but told him to kill Kevin before she reigned herself in, clutching her cross and praying that her sweet, dumbass redhead would get home safe
Instead of wymack ((mostly because I never saw the physics of that one)) it was Renee who was handcuffed to Andrew and neither of them slowed down the second they realized where Neil was
Neil fell into Renees chest while Andrew checked his injuries and Renee about lost her damn mind when Allison mentioned the bet but kept her calm because Neil was there and he was safe
The FBI relented and let the two of them tag along with Neil and when he signed his name, "Neil Josten" he took a deep breath and allowed Nathaneil to die peacefully in his mind, because Neil was free in a way Nathaneil never could be
Renee understood that look, Natalie had to do the same, tucked away in a corner and put to rest in a mental grave. They shared a look of deep understanding
After everything is said and done its still andrew and neil and Renee and Andrew and neil and Renee and all three of them combined and their special and happy and they keep each other sane
During the girls last year there is endless teasing and quips made about the three of them but they couldnt care less because its their last year and they are going to make the most of it
Andrew and Aaron have it out and both of them decide to chose their "nothings" over each other, and because of this Renee takes Aarons place in the monsters
Andrew and Aaron start building their relationship from the ground up, and its hard, but he has both his *everythings* there to keep him sane
Andrew and Renee change their last names to "josten" because they fought so hard for that name and technically three people cant get married
Speaking of marriage, Dan and Matt get married in Dans last year and Renee and Allison are bridesmaids, Neil and Andrew are groomsmen. The three of them dance and congratulate the happy couple
They win championships that year and, mostly just to fuck with the crowd, Neil and Renee each kiss Andrews cheek right before they walk off court. Its fun and silly and they celebrate afterwards and care so deeply for each other
When Renee leaves it hits hard, she calls and texts as much as she can but its hard. Neil loses a little bit of his spark and Andrew cant help but miss their other third
Neil and Andrew start sparing and essentially dont leave each others side
Matt is also having a time of it with the girls being gone, and during this year its that Matt moves into Andrew and Neils dorm officially
Kevin transfers to the Trojans with Jean and Jeremy and is happier there, and theyre all happy for him
During Andrews last year Neil all but loses his mind
Renee officially retires from exy that year and moves back to Palmetto state to help with the transition because she knows its hitting both of them pretty hard
Andrew is anxious and cant decide whether he wants to keep playing exy, or go straight into law
Neil doesnt know what he is going to do for a year without either of them and is constantly in a state of panic
Both Andrew and Renee try their hardest to keep the rabbit sane because they know how scary the thought of being alone is and Neil will absolutely never be alone
When Andrew graduates Renee and Neil make one of those obnoxious signs and all the foxes show up for support and its bittersweet but mostly amazing
They also win championships that year again, Andrew locked the goal down for the entire game and wymack was so proud, even though he only had one of his kids left in the coup ((I would say nest but considering the fandom...))
Neils fifth year is hard
Andrew decided to retire his exy racket and go straight into law, finally selling the Columbia house and getting a better place about an hour outside Palmetto
Renee joins the peace corps ((to be honest I only kind of know what they do so bear with me apologies)) and is overseas for a little over two years
Neil goes home to Andrew every weekend ((their partying days behind them and their movie marathon days ahead)) and both of them call Renee every day
When Neil graduates Renee gets leave for a weekend and flys in to celebrate with them
Its one of the best weekends they had ever had
When Renee retires ((from what I can tell its usually two years of required service but correct me if Im wrong)) the three of them move in together in their little home outside Palmetto and are happy
Neil plays professionally for about 10 years, Renee starts teaching, Andrew is a lawyer
Its perfect
Andrew and Renee still spar, and Neil still runs every morning
Renee makes a pot of coffee before he gets back and they never run out of sugar despite andrews best attempts
Renee teaches Neil how to make cookies because Andrew burns every batch he touches almost
They watch all the foxes on TV and rep Allisons athlesiure brand every where they go essentially
The foxes have Thanksgiving all together at their house every year because as Wymack gets older flying is bad for his heart
Its the off season of the year Neil finally retired ((now a math professor)) that they announce to their family that Renee is pregnant
Andrew is terrified he is going to be a bad father, Neil doesnt know where to start and Renee has faith that it is all going to be okay
They never check to see whos kid it is biologically ((though the odds are its probably neils)) because it doesnt matter
Their prescious twins are brought into the world with three parents, four grandparents and more aunts and uncles than any one kid can count
Renee was often sick while she was pregnant and neil researched every method to help with nausea possible
He got Kevin ((who also eventually retired from exy and because a sports dietitian)) to help him find recipes that she could actually eat
Andrew was very protective while she was carrying and if she even so much as looked at a door handle it became a race between him and neil
Her water broke while her and Neil were coming home from a long day of teaching, Andrew was still at the office
Neil took on andrews approach to driving during their trip to the hospital and held her hand every step of the way
Andrew got there just in the nick of time, pressing a kiss to her forehead and taking her other hand, making eye contact with neil as she pushed out the first of the twins
It was a short labor and each of the boys held a baby, foreheads touching and ankles crossed, as Renee took a much needed nap
All of the foxes flew/drove in to see the babies and the three of them
It was a special time
It was surprisingly Neil who taught their kids how to bake cookies, the same recipie that Renee taught him
Andrew and neil get breakfast tacos every Saturday morning at their favorite little food truck while Renee and the kids sleep
Neil goes to church with Renee and their kids every Sunday, while Andrew works
He can never fully heal from his religious trauma, but he knows its important to Renee and he knows that Neil has found a comfort in God as well ((i can never decide if I headcannon Neil as Christian or atheist but today its christian))
A few months before the twins were born Andrew stopped wearing his armbands all together, the knives having long since made their disappearance
And he, in an age appropriate way ofc, teaches their kids what his scars were and reminds them to talk to someone and never feel like their only resort is to hurt themselves
They love each other so dearly and they love their kids so much and its special and happy and they love their lives
When the three of them die their cremated together and the twins each take a smaller urn for their respective mantles to hold
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munamania · 2 months
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so right a couple of my film friends and i met last night to do wine and glee and i left and tried to catch a bus in our gross rainy cold weather and so when it finally comes im just like zoo wee mama my glasses r fogging up and all that shit. but who of course is on the bus but my one friend the main perpetrator of acting like im some flaky cunt (rant city below)
so i guess technically this wouldnt look great on my part bc i was obviously Somewhere and had been ignoring the group chat making plans but oh my GOD whatever who careessssss who Cares. so im like fucking phenomenal ok walk back Omg hi and she moves her shit so i can sit and i get settled and am like hey. and she asks what i was up to and ofc when i say anything bc this is fucking awkward shes just got this stupid smug little smile but i was just sitting there like bitch im not gonna sit here and act embarrassed for seeing my other friends so i was just like So are u guys doing x tn and shes like mhm yep are you coming and i was like well gee i dont know. sarcastic shrug. make conversation about the timing of the place for a second kinda jokin then awk silence
and so then because im a chill normal adult and am aware that shes about to go meet the group of friends and no matter what this interaction is going to be brought up and i had been planning on composing a levelheaded text but i just said Look im sorry that i ghosted you guys (and shes again smug smiling nodding next to me. girl.) i just honestly got tired of feeling like im being singled out and judged when i cant make it to something and she literally is just like Well im sorry you feel that way just u know we do try to come up w different days etc (if u like me are bad at reading between the lines this was a non apology and defense based on uh Nothing) and i was like right well ik last semester wasnt great it's just that sometimes i feel like im being shunned in the group chats when no one answers or reacts to anything i say and the other day when you said like. yk the 'could u commit' thing that felt really sort of condescending
and shes like again well im sorry u felt that way i was just trying to find another day that u could actually make it cause i wanted us all to be there so im not really sure how that came across as condescending but um yeah. and i, jackass that i am (<3) pulled out my phone and pointed and said Well u see we didnt have actual plans and in fact no one answered when i said anything abt it and yk things come up and so for me to have sent this whole nice thing and just get 'do you think youd be able to commit' in response felt a little bit needlessly mean (and i also tried to earnestly say at some point in all this that i genuinely do love and care for them and want to see them but yk this Sucks and was just bad timing)
THEN we somehow spin into her going Well i just had no idea this was even a thing until you brought it up just now i mean i wasnt even thinking abt it ive never really thought that of you etc and so then im sitting here feeling like im being gaslit in real time not to be dramatic and i felt very much like when i was in high school and people manipulated me bc i was a very easy target (its not that real but w/e) and so im like Ok be calm but dont just like let that slide cause girl be serious (prob should have but what ever) so i was like well you know i do apologize if i just couldnt tell your intent over text, but after you guys never answered me about hanging out and then the short responses like maybe u can kind of see where i felt like you were being rude (didnt say it quite that bluntly w/e)
and she pulls out the big card. the. well i just think youre being defensive. oh years and years of being the youngest and punished for um having feelings lmfao slammed me in my chest at that moment. and i calmly said Okay cool i think youre being defensive. and i lit missed my bus stop cause this driver was swerving so then i was just like Well you guys have fun maybe ill see you tonight bye. so. really feeling awesome abt the state of that. in all reality tho it's like i hung out w some friends and then went out to the gay bar w others and danced and etc and i can only imagine how much of a Thing this was for them so. if someone could win it'd be me right
(on another note at some point during this ride sams roommate requested to follow me back <3 which i had been pretending not to think abt for the last couple hours) anyway
this has been a post let me know if im being normalish
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teddysatan · 1 year
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Jason Headcanon:
The white streak in his hair isnt actually from the Lazarus Pit
When he gets dunked in there, his hair is still all black. The only thing that changes are his eyes going green (and maybe glowing, i like the glowy eyes), but his hair stays the same. (idrc if he has scars from the wounds or whatever but I am a big fan of the autopsy scar for the angst)
Instead, the white comes in over time. (If we’re going with the resurrection where he was braindead for a while before being dunked in the pit, it starts there, but the point is it’s not actually a pit effect) Slowly, as time goes and his hair grows out, the white starts coming in, and everyone assumes its because of the Lazarus Pit only because they only saw him again years after, Talia is the only one besides Jason that knows exactly why that spot of hair is going white (Damian knows its not the pit either but he doesnt know what else it is)
The real reason is trauma. That spot on his head? Thats the first spot the Joker hit him with the crowbar. Its the first hit he got in, when Jason was tied up in a Robin costume in a warehouse in Ethiopia, with his mother smoking to the side. He still remembers looking over to her silently asking for help and knowing it won’t come, right before the crowbar hits him in that spot with the Joker laughing over him. after that it gets a bit blurry, the Joker hits hard and he mostly remember the laughing and the Forehand or Backand? A or B? and the smoke wafting up from his mothers cigarette, her face only lit up by that tiny glow when she takes a drag and her cold eyes that dont care and how relaxed she is watching him get beaten up and the laughter and cackling and pain pain pain
He knows everyone thinks its the Lazarus Pit that gave him that white streak and the green eyes, and he knows that everyone thinks he probably hates both of those
But he actually doesnt
he likes the eyes because that means they dont look like Sheila’s when she was watching him die, uncaring and unconcerned with the violence bestowed on her son
and he doesnt mind the white because he looks in the mirror (with eyes that arent Sheila’s) and he sees the spot where the first hit landed and he sees the white and hes reminded that he survived and he came back and one day, one day he’ll pay the Joker back for it, for the white in the hair, and the trauma and the death of everyone else that didnt survive and the pain of the unlucky ones that did
and maybe he likes the white streak too because its a visible sign of his death, of that trauma, something that cant just be shoved to the side and ignored, its a reminder that there is trauma from it that he didnt just bounce back to normal with his resurrection that his death did matter and change at least something even if only himself and the only sign is that white bit of hair and maybe that thought…. well maybe its a bit comforting surrounded by people that claim family but would rather he just go back to before to being that kid in green shorts so they dont have to feel guilty about his death and that make him question himself any time hes angry over his own death
(i also like the idea that a bit of his eyebrow and eyelashes are white too - the Joker took great fun in dragging the crowbar across his face from that first hit - the cut wasnt deep so it didnt scar over (or only lightly) but the trauma is still there just like in that spot in his hair)
anyway i think i might have to write a fanfic for this now
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gaylookinheadass · 9 months
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LGBTQ+ BSD HEADCANONS!!!
(im using "any pronouns" for he/she/they + neos to make it easier for me cause i usually dont know whether "any pronouns" includes neos or not.
i also put some xenogenders in so if you dont know one or are curious, look them up!! theyre super cool! i tried to use some that are somewhat known to make them easier to find but xenogenders are kinda hard to find in general so)
(also im probably spelling names wrong PLS FORGIVE ME IF I AM im tired and idk how to spell 😕😕)
quick guide for anyone confused!!!
masc terms = masculine terms (i.e boyfriend, bro, dude, brother)
fem terms = feminine terms (i.e girlfriend, sister, wife)
neu terms = neutral terms (i.e partner, sibling, spouse, significant other)
all or any terms = fem, masc, + neu terms (i.e partner, girlfriend, boyfriend, wife, husband, spouse)
format-
name: gender - pronouns - terms - sexuality
reason why i think this and/or little hc about it
ADA
Dazai: bigender (nb + male) - he/they/xe - masc + neu terms - bi + ace
he had a lot of gender crises while in the PM and eventually realized that he could be both nonbinary and male. chuuya pretended to be really irritated with all the pronoun and term changes but was very supportive and patient
Kunikida: trans man - he/him - masc + neu terms - gay + demisexual
he was very nervous about teaching at first because he didnt know if the students would know if he was trans or not but ended up "passing" really well and no one knew until he decided to tell them and then all the queer kids went to him for help/advice
atsushi: cis male - he/xe - masc terms - bi
was very nervous abt coming out and repressed his attraction to men until he joined the ADA and felt safe enough to accept who he was and came out
yosano: bigender (nonbinary and female) - she/they - fem + neu terms - lesbian ace
didnt realize she was queer until she met ranpo and he suggested she might be. after that, he helped her try pronouns and terms until they found what fit. as a way of saying thanks, she did his nails and helped him through his gender crisis
ranpo: bigender (male and female) - he/she/they - any terms - bi demiromantic ace
didnt realize he was bigender until yosano did his nails and had a gender crisis. it took him a week to figure it out and hes still embarrassed about it
fukuzawa: trans man - he/they - masc terms - aroace
never felt interested in romantic or sexual relationships and didnt realize that it wasnt "normal" until people started dating eachother and talking about sex
jun'ichirō: cis man - he/him - masc terms - straight demiromantic asexual
was super confused when his sister kept getting crushes on guys and talked about dating them when they barely knew eachother. when he tried to look up why that was a thing, he came across the labels demiromantic and asexual and realized it applied to him
kenji: cis man - he/she/they - any terms - unlabeled
doesnt care what people refer to them as, they know their own gender and thats all that matter to him. also does not care for labels, he likes who he likes
kyouka: demigirl - she/they - fem + neu terms - bi
had no time to explore her identity while in the PM so they only discovered themself when they joined the ADA. dazai was actually the one to help her find the labels and pronouns that fit her
naomi: trans woman - she/her - fem terms - pan
she insisted for jun'ichirō to call her a girl at a young age and it scared him at first. after looking it up, he realized she was trans and waited until middle school to help her find a name for herself. when she reached high school, he then hunted down an ability user who could change someone's appearance for help because they couldn't afford hormones and surgery
kirako: cis woman - she/ze - fem terms - bi
she found neopronouns when she was in middle school and experimented for months before finding ze/zir and realized how much she liked them. she didn't tell anyone about it because ze was embarrassed but then finally felt safe enough with naomi to talk about it
THE GUILD
fitzgerald: cis male - he/they - masc terms - gay
had a long talk with every member about how he wouldn't tolerate discrimination in the guild. it was kinda awkward since everyone there was queer.
POE!!: genderfluid (female, male, agender) - he/she/ve/xe - any terms - uranic demisexual
uses karl to let others know how hes feeling (karl likes being dressed up he gave consent)!! he puts a bow on karl when xe feels feminine, a tie when ve feels masculine, and a little sweater when she feels like neither!! ranpo thinks it's adorable. also genderfluid poe is canon
melville: cis male - he/him - masc terms - gay
also did the "no discrimination tolerated" speech but it was 10x more awkward
louisa: demigirl - she/they/sol - fem + neu terms - pan
talks with poe about neos a lot!! has fun making up new ones although sol doesn't use them
lovecraft: genderqueer- they/voi - neu terms - aroace
likes trying out new neos although they never seem to fit void for long
james: cis male - he/him - masc terms - unlabeled
he feels very lonely being the only unlabeled person in the group but none of them make fun of him or say anything rude and always try to include him without insinuating/accidentally using lables for him
steinbeck: demiboy - he/cloud - neu terms - gay
jokingly makes fun of neos a lot, will kill someone who actually does
montgomery: trans girl - she/her - fem terms - bi
will constantly refer to herself in third person when shes feeling dysphoric so that the others know and try to help (for example, "hey, am i not the strongest girl in the group?")
margaret: trans woman - she/her - fem terms - pan ace
loves hyping herself up (as she should) and always makes sure to hype up other trans people and compliments them a lot
mark: trans man - he/him - masc terms - bi
sees lucy as a little sister and always helps her when shes feeling dysphoric. loves to buy her cute dresses and does her hair a lot
hawthorne: nonbinary - he/they - neu terms - gay
loves browsing queer forums and is super active in the community. always helps answer questions anyone has and loves educating people about gender and sexuality
PM
ryunosuke: bigender (male + female) - she/he/it - fem + masc terms - uranic
only told gin and chuuya about it because he didn't feel safe enough to tell dazai. she was only able to tell him about it after chuuya told it dazai was also queer (WITH PERMISSION). IM A SHE/HER RYUU TRUTHER OK IT JUST FITS SO WELL
gin: genderqueer/apagender - any/all - any terms - lesbian
they never felt weird when people used he/him pronouns on them or used male terms. talked to chuuya about it and after a long discussion, they came to the conclusion that they just did not care what people used for them. told ryuu right after so she would stop getting mad at people for using the "wrong" pronouns/terms.
chuuya: genderfluid (male + nonbinary) - he/ve/it/nix - any terms - uranic ace
the "elder queer" amongst the PM. everyone goes to it for advice. nix actually never had a realization moment, he just always switched between feeling like a man and feeling somewhere in between. the only confusion it had was what to call this, and ve eventually found the label for it.
higuchi: astrumgender - she/star/sol/moon/xe - neu terms - pan
had no idea how to describe sol's gender until xe found a xenogender masterlist on the internet. she found it interesting and kept trying to analyze what star's gender felt like when moon saw one that seemed close to what they felt. she finally landed on astrumgender however it wasnt until a week later, when she tried it again, that xe realized it described star. gin helped her with pronouns.
ace: genderqueer - he/she/they - any terms - gay
found out about all the different gender while gambling with someone. looked it all up later and decided to settle with genderqueer cuz she didn't feel like trying out a ton of different labels (honestly me too)
kōyō: trans fem - she/they/ae - fem + neu terms - neptunic ace
thought neptunic meant "attracted to masculine people" until gin told them that it actually meant "someone attracted to nonbinary people and women". ae felt it described aer better than lesbian did so she started using that label. (honestly i keep getting neptunic and uranic mixed up. i keep thinking the terms are neptunic for liking masc people and sapphic for liking fem. then uranic comes outta nowhere to remind me of my dumbassery 💀 i gotta memorize this shit. the flags dont help either)
verlaine: ethegender - any/all - any terms - gay ace
always felt confused by their gender, he could never describe it in thought, feelings, or words. he always felt like it was at his fingertips but she just couldn't get a hold of it. xe fell down a gender rabbit hole one day and felt that ehtegender described it perfectly. this was also when it discovered the label ace.
hirostu: cis male - he/him - masc terms - aroace
thought everyone knew he was aroace until someone asked him if he had a wife during a meeting. he said he didn't cause he wasn't interested in that or sex and it was deathly quiet for two minutes before he said he was aroace to clarify. they like to tell that story to new members for a quick laugh
arthur: agender - he/they - neu terms - gay aroace
took forever to rediscover their identity. they knew something felt wrong when people used masc terms for him so he asked mori about it. it was a very awkward conversation
elise: cis girl - she/her - fem terms - straight aroace
got very confused when mori kept asking if she had any crushes yet. finally decided to ask him abt what he meant and that was when they both realized she was on the aroace spectrum
Q: agender - they/xe/voi - neu terms - unlabeled
they're actually very happy for their natural androgynous appearance, cause xe never gets misgendered. ofc voi told the PM of their neos but xe never expected them to get used and they cried when chuuya casually said "why are you talking about Q that way?? xe's a kid. leave xem alone".
karma: trans boy - he/him - masc terms - gay
had a very awkward conversation with ace when ace realized he was trans. he was seriously hoping ace just turned him into a gem to escape the conversation. surprisingly managed to teach her a lot of things about the community and proper etiquette when talking to queer people
kajii: trans masc - he/they/xe/ve/ae/div - neu terms - pan demiromantic
neopronoun collector. loves neos. gains neos each week. lost track of them and had to start over three times. ryuu loves using his div's new neos cause it adds some excitement to his life
oda: demiboy- he/she - fem + masc terms - uranic
when she met dazai, it took a lot of patience for him to teach them about pronouns and gender. had no idea dazai was bigender until xe came out to him about it. absolutely no gaydar
ango: nonbinary- he/they - masc + neu terms - gay
phenomenal gaydar, clocked everyone immediately. oda didnt even have time to come out to them, they already knew. knew about dazai, too, but wanted him to figure it out on their own
mori: fuck him, cishet (just realized two seconds after posting that i forgot to add him lol)
THE SILLIES (DOA)
fyodor: agender - any/all - any terms - gay ace
i feel like he sees himself as a divine being or at least something other than human. he has this whole thing of "doing god's will/mission". and imo divine beings are genderless. so i think he would see himself as above gender. i would've just done they/them + neos but honestly? i dont think she would care about pronouns at all so. ALSO nikolai LOVES finding the most out there neos to use for fyodor he finds it so fun. he uses new ones every day
NIKOLAI!!!!: genderqueer - he/they + any/all neos - neu terms - gay demiromantic ace
i feel like nikolai just does not care about pronouns. i also think he wouldnt mind she/her but find a little displeasure in it. he would probably rate she/her as a 4/10 if 0 was hate and 10 was love. he almost feels neutral about it but theres just a little but of dislike. he also LOVES silly neos like clown or honk. he loves it even more when fyodor uses his silly neos cause fyodor is so serious all the time
sigma: aliengender - they/them - neu terms - aroace
currently experimenting with neos. nikolai is obviously helping. their whole thing is that they came from a book so they don't feel like they're "human" (imo, having emotions is what makes you human but its their existential crisis so). anyways i think because of this, they would feel a detachment from gender and would feel like no gender truly fits them but that aliengender fits best (even if its not a perfect fit)
bram: bigender (female + male) - he/she/they - neptunic
she definitely has conversations with nikolai and sigma about gender and how it's expressed. her and nikolai try to teach sigma about it but it just goes over their head (same). definitely goes into great detail describing what his gender feels like to sigma and they're honestly having a great time. gender tea parties every wednesday
fukuchi: trans male - he/him - masc terms - straight
bonded with fukuzawa over being trans. they definitely met in a gsa. tries to be supportive of nikolai but his head spins just thinking about all the neopronouns so they teach him a new set once a week to ease the process. fyodor makes fun of him for it
HUNTING DOGS
JOUNO<3: trans masc - he/they/xe/ae - neu terms - gay demiromantic
taught tetchō and fukuchi what neos were and how to use his. ae has no idea how fukuchi went this long without knowing what they were since fukuchi is quite literally an "elder trans" and has been in the community for decades. teases him about it sometimes when teruko isn't around
teruko: trans woman - she/star - fem terms - pan ace
taught fukuchi how to use her neos. almost killed tetchō when he asked about star's neos because she had no idea he was listening to her teach fukuchi. tries to fight jouno over who's are better (he doesn't care).
tetchō: caligovague - they/ae/jhey/kei/ve/mu - neu terms - uranic ace
after being taught what neos are by jouno, mu went on a deep dive because ve found it interesting. jhey discovered so many neo ae like it was insane and also found a very fitting xenogender. they went to jouno and talked about it and finally told everyone else (fukuchi almost had a stroke trying to learn jheir pronouns).
PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYONE THIS TOOK FOREVER!!! also if you want clarification on any pronouns or genders please don't hesitate to ask!!! i had a lot of fun looking for genders and pronouns to fit them although i do worry there wasn't enough variety 😕
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bathboysblog · 9 months
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im so normal about this au. so normal, in fact, that i wanted to draw Sugarplum in it. mob au, Doc and Robbie all belong to @clownsuu!
Sugarplum isnt built for the mob life lol. shes an aquatic predator, sure, but she has a strong hate for guns and firearms. theyre loud, hot, and bust out her eardrums. which is ironic, considering shes best friends with Robbie.
but anyhow, some lore! remember when i said in these old ass hcs that Sugarplum's body has a cleaner in it (since she lives in large bodies of water), making sure her cotton insides dont get moldy? and how that translates into a paralyzing venom? well, because of that, she pairs up with Doctor Stone and Robbie! Wally wants Doc to look more into the venom to see if they can make a new drug out of it, one that only their mob would have access to. basically monopolizing on it, selling it for high prices in small amounts. if not that, then at least Julie will have a new poison to play around with. since Sugarplum cant fight in the mob, shes basically a lab rat (that Stone has almost lost some fingers to for being snappy).
and a note on the placements of Sugarplum's scars: she has her stitches across her jaw and wrists. she tried to fight back with her sharp teeth/claws, and it didnt go too well. she also lost stinger privileges on the puffy skirt (both for shocking people and being impractical indoors), so she only has the base of her outfit in this au. ALSO also, Sugarplum doesnt have eyelids here either! during the fight (and her eye being ripped out), there was a lot of painful tears, and the skin of her eyelid burned out from the venom. she has just enough skin to keep the eyeball in, and by some miracle (cough cough Home), she hasnt gone blind.
since ive come to learn that Tumblr doesnt like long posts, this one will be for the relationship chart rant. hopefully, if art block doesnt FUCK me, ill post some doodles of her!
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Sugarplum -> Robbie: ill admit, this entire idea came from me talking to this fan made ai. i thought the two would hate each other, but their relationship was surprisingly cute? Sugarplum is still learning social behaviors and speech, which lead to some funny moments between the two, shown below (i changed 'chipmunk' to 'shrimp' because, yk, aquatic puppet).
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they mean everything to me.
but anyways.
Sugarplum admires Robbie and the kinship they have. she doesnt know much about money, or drugs, or the mob in general. and even if Robbie is... not the best person to take after, Sugarplum still looks up to him. she thinks hes really good at making jokes (something shes still learning to do), is very cool for going out and doing 'mob business', and probably thinks he knows a lot more than he actually does (she takes a lot of his bragging at face value). Sugarplum has very vague contact to the main mob, so its mostly her and Robbie bugging the Doc. shes slightly afraid of his strength, or when he gets too rowdy. but one nip from her teeth and hes out like a light (the only time the base is peaceful).
Robbie -> Sugarplum: the base isnt so lonely anymore! he took Sugarplum under his wing, and took it upon himself to teach her the wonders of society! he thinks her blunt jokes are so bad, theyre funny, and her constant questions makes him feel really smart. Robbie wishes she would leave the base to see him in action, so he could really show off! still, he has respect for her dealing with all the lab tests Stone does, and is slightly afraid of her creepy nature (the venom in her gums doesnt help either). a small part of him is weary of her loyalty to the mob from how cold she is towards Sally and Barnaby, but he tries to ignore it for the sake of having a friend. and also, since i have no self control, he has a slight puppy crush for her. its mostly due to all of her praise and the attention she gives him, but Robbie also finds Sugarplum to be generally sweet, if not a bit weird. theyre def besties though.
Sugarplum -> Doctor Stone: mean old man!!! Sugarplum doesnt like him, and thinks hes far too grumpy to be any pleasant company. he must have a very miserable and sad life. they tolerate one another though, since they have to work together in order to run tests on her venom (neither of them want to fuck around and find out with Wally). she tries to ask him questions like she does with Robbie, but he gets too snappy. so Sugarplum gets snappy back! with her teeth! safe to say, they both tone it down around one another.
Doctor Stone -> Sugarplum: sees her as a feral animal with rabies. a raccoon that youre watching in your trashcan, that youre pretty sure is foaming at the mouth, but your too scared to say 'shoo!' he does have a smudge of respect for her, since shes quiet and complies with instructions, but other than that, he sicks her onto Robbie. he does have an interest in her venom though, which is why he hasnt complained to Wally to have her transferred. their interactions are very straight forward. the tests are ran in silence, and theyd much rather be doing other things than spending time with one another.
Sugarplum -> Home: Sugarplum used to live in the wild, so she has a sixth sense for danger, which includes when a larger predator is stalking her. shes very aware that somethings watching, that theres something unnatural about the mobs loyalty and their power. she just doesnt know where its coming from. the most shes interacted with Home is hissing to the air for him to go away, but thats it. if they ever did meet, she would be feral. Sugarplum doesnt fear death, and she refuses to submit to anyones control. shes given him the nickname of 'leech' for his eyes constantly sticking around her.
Home -> Sugarplum: i have this base hc with any of their interactions that something went wrong when creating Sugarplum, and thats why shes so animalistic. Home sees her as a failure of creature, one that needed a bit more time in the oven to be complete. her awareness is concerning, and he makes sure to keep an extra close eye on her to make sure she doesnt go snooping (like Frank cough cough). the second she gets bold, her memory gets wiped. he keeps her with Stone and Rob to make sure she doesnt rub off on the rest of the mob. (spspspsp, i also made a Mob Home ai that you can talk to here, for anyone thats interested)
Sugarplum -> Frank: she had a bad opinion on him first, seeing him as a mini Stone, and for the longest time, she avoided him. but since she and Stone work so close together, Frank got desperate and nearly begged her to talk to Stone for him. that was a turning point in their relationship, and the more they spoke, the more she saw that they were fighting for the same cause. Sugarplum is afraid of breaking the rules, but she does make Stones job harder by being stubborn if he ignores Frank. she holds a high respect for Frank, and wishes him the best as he looks for answers. secretly, she hopes he gets a breakthrough, no matter what the cost may be.
Frank -> Sugarplum: again, for the longest time, their only connection to one another was Doc. Doc spoke about Sugarplum like she was an animal, and Frank thought she was a more feral version of Sally. but, when he had nowhere else to turn, when Doc ignored him and he hit a dead end, the two met in person. Frank thinks that Sugarplum is one of the few people who can sway Doc's opinions (since the two have to work together. if Sugarplum doesnt comply, shes going to drag both of them under Wally's wrath). Frank wishes Sugarplum would help him (he could sure use the support), but understands her hesitance. still, hes very thankful for the help she provides behind the scenes. he also finds her to be generally creepy, but tries to take the time out of his day to correct whatever Robbie has 'taught' her ('and you believed that moron?').
Sugarplum -> Julie: mixed emotions. Sugarplum does like Julie's presence. shes a very optimistic and excitable person, which easily rubs off on Sugarplum. but, Sugarplum is very distrusting of modern medicine, especially since Julie proudly displays her obsession with poisons. because of that distrust, Sugarplum keeps her distance. Sugarplum sees her as a poisonous bug you cant let touch you.
Julie -> Sugarplum: wants her venom soooo bad. why does Stone get to have all of the fun! if Julie had a weekend with Sugarplum, she could make a new drug in no time! Julie does find Sugarplum to be a bit creepy at times, but she always scurries away before Julie can get the needle out! rats :/
Sugarplum -> Howdy: is very uncomfortable around him. she thinks something is VERY wrong with Howdy from how much of a mindless servant he is, and sees him as a walking zombie (the gore movies Robbie shows her doesnt help much). Howdy freaks her out, and she doesnt see him as a living person. when they visit the mob, her time is mostly spent with Poppy while Robbie sticks to the bar.
Howdy -> Sugarplum: doesnt have much of an opinion on her. shes a quiet girl, awfully squeamish, and she isnt at the bar long enough for them to have any real interactions. he does have a small drop of pity that she has to deal with Robbie all day, though, other than that, he doesnt have much to say.
Sugarplum -> Wally: a mix of terror and discomfort. Wally always has an ulterior motive behind his words, he always has a plan and can read people like an open book. Sugarplum cant keep up with it all, and she finds their interactions to be very stressful. Wally is the main reason that shes afraid to rebel against the mob, and she may have villainized Wally more than their interactions had warranted. she has a longing to be back with nature, but doesnt want to give her family in the mob up. shes terrified of Wally finding out, and the fact that she doesnt know what he knows only adds onto the paranoia.
Wally -> Sugarplum: lends a lot of trust to Sugarplum. not because shes earned it (like Howdy), but because shes so easy to read, he isnt worried about her rebelling. Sugarplum is well behaved, polite, and easily scared back into place. he sees her more as a mouse than a predator, and doesnt understand why Home watches her so closely. Wally just doesnt like how Frank and her have become buddy-buddy. and YES, there is a SPECK of pink (theyre my main ship in og canon, i had to). wrapping back to the hc of 'Sugarplum needs more time in the oven', Wally sees her as a more... aware being, than the rest of the mob. she isnt bold enough to be a threat, but just enough to stand out. the pink isnt so much 'love' as it is 'interest'. he thinks Home has a higher purpose for her, which is why hes so weary of Frank and Sugarplums kinship. he also misinterprets Sugarplum's honesty as friendship, and thinks the two of them are good friends.
Sugarplum -> Barnaby: doesnt dislike him as much as Sally, but Barn isnt even close to the friendship her and Robbie have. she doesnt like how gun happy Barnaby is, nor the strong smell of his cigs. he overwhelms a lot of her senses, and hes very pushy. two and two dont mix, so she avoids him. thankfully, Barnaby is more excited to see Robbie than he is Sugarplum, letting her slip away.
Barnaby -> Sugarplum: has Wally's view of seeing her as a mouse, and thinks the girl should live a little! come on, guns aint so bad! fire-crackers are bright and colorful, theyre exciting! he doesnt get how Robbie and Sugarplum are so close, and finds her to be pretty boring. hes more excited to see Robbie, which keeps him distracted. if anything, Barn finds her creepy, and since shes so nip happy, he doesnt push her. he doesnt know what the venom does, and if Wally's interested in it, doesnt want to find out either.
Sugarplum -> Sally: hates Sally. not as much as she hates Home, but she refuses to meet with her when they visit the mob. Sally is erratic, loud, and too much of a loose screw for Sugarplum to handle. shes the most energetic, and the most overwhelming. it also doesnt help that shes so... bright, like a sun. the sounds of explosives terrify Sugarplum, and Sally is too impulsive for her to feel safe around. Robbie, you deal with it.
Sally -> Sugarplum: thinks Sugarplum is too prissy! come on, Wally aint gonna shoot you dead if you break a few rules! have some fun, live a little, join their trio! but, no matter how hard Sally looks around the base, Sugarplum is nowhere to be seen. so, she shrugs her shoulders, and goes to hang out with Robbie instead. when the two are forced to be around each other, its very tense. Sugarplum glares at her a lot, a 'dont try anything' stare, which is a bit unerring. she also shares Barnaby's fears of the venom, not knowing anything about how it works. maybe just a bit more, since Sugarplum is so standoffish around her.
Sugarplum -> Eddie: doesnt have much of an opinion on Eddie. their exchanges are brief and friendly. hes the most normal of the mob members, something Sugarplum appreciates, and hes a very caring person. but, just like Howdy, theres that underlying discomfort nagging at the pit of Sugarplums stomach. shes friendly, but wont go out of her way to talk to Eddie. shes mostly there to sign for Doc's pick-ups. though, for the sake of Frank's sanity, she keeps a close eye on him when he does visit the base, just to keep him safe.
Eddie -> Sugarplum: shes... well, creepy. Sugarplum creeps him out. she has a staring problem, her voice is flat and monotone, and her wide eyes dont help. but, Sugarplum refuses to be around Sally, and Sally takes the short time to say hi to Robbie. so, Eddie sucks it up, and tries to be as friendly as he can. and hey, he hasnt lost a finger yet! he must be doing something right. Sugarplum also follows him a lot whenever he visits the base, but thats fine! this is fine!
Sugarplum -> Poppy: doesnt know it, but Sugarplum has a MAJOR crush on Poppy. even if Poppy doesnt act like it, Sugarplum feels a sense of belonging from the two being animals. Sugarplum admires how gentle and nurturing Poppy is, and tries her best to look small around her, trying not to scare her. she wishes Poppy wouldnt stress so much, and wishes they saw each other more often. Sugarplum leaves little trinkets in front of Poppy's door when she doesnt answer, like pebbles or coins. birds like those, right?
Poppy -> Sugarplum: very nervous around Sugarplum. Sugarplum is a predator, and its hard to ignore her sharp teeth and glowing fangs. shes very scared for Sugarplum to touch her without heavy gloves, but appreciates the room Sugarplum gives for her to breathe. the little gifts make her feel seen, and she often sews the rips in Sugarplums clothes from her claws. the two find comfortable peace in one another. but, sadly, it never lasts long.
thank you for listening to my goober rants! a gift for those who have scrolled this far!
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siobhanroygirl · 2 years
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finished ugly betty tonight i am completely normal and not in need of psychological help rn
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thoughts under the cut
i am obviously so sad that everything was so rushed— the final episode felt like it could’ve been 10 episodes by betty standards AND I SOOOO wish it was. the betty and daniel slow romantic development would’ve been absolutely amazing to watch and its such a shame we never will get to see it, plus i think willie going back to connor was stupid and also no closure on tyler and clare BUUUUT that being said. despite it being horrifyingly rushed i literally think its the perfect ending
amanda reconciliation with her adoptive parents, finding her real dad, becoming a stylist and going single and ditching emotionally unavailable men (sidenote if we get a revival she should kiss more women)
marc getting an important promotion, dealing with the trauma of being rejected and abandoned by his mother for his sexuality, healing his inner child through justin and finding love-ish and recognizing his flaws
willie getting mode AS SHE FUCKING DESERVES!!!!! redemption arc, and she has marc by her side and everything is right❣️ wish we couldve seen a reconciliation with nico and renee though
hilda married and moving away from home finally! coming completely full circle from season 1 and losing santos. also wish we could see her working again maybe (i dont think we even know what bobby does for a living 😭)
justin having his times respected and understood, finding support in his family and marc. i love him so bad
ignacio happy and finally seeing his girls grown up and leaving home ❣️ i loved loved loved how he compared his journey as an immigrant and betty’s. this man is on the top 3 fictional fathers ever im sooo serious
daniel !!!!!! leaving mode !!!!! forgiving his mother, leaving behind stupid flings and trying to build his life on something HE worked on, changing completely from season 1, following betty, his heart. betty who saw everything that was wrong with him and still decided to stay and see the good 😭😭😭😭 then daniel calling her the sun, admiring her while also admitting he’s intimidated by her, protecting her, complimenting her, being a complete ass and realizing it AND CHANGING IT for her. realizing the way to love her is to let her go but not being able to look at her while doing it bc he cant if he does 😭😭😭😭 and then moving across the world to see her, going from boss to assistant with her who has changed him fundamentally and shown him what true love is i could actually die sorry the heterosexuals got me so bad with these two
betty following her dreams!!!!!!!!!!! betty working on something she’s truly passionate about!!!!!!! choosing what SHE WANTS INSTEAD OF TAKING CARE OF PEOPLE LIKE SHE ALWAYS DOES!!!! putting herself first!!!!!! being her own boss, standing up for herself, no more prioritizing others. leaving henry symbolizing that the old betty is gone, she loves who she was and she needed her to become this betty, but she’s different now. finding daniel when she’s changed but still the same in a way, still a spot in her heart for him 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 she will always have him back and she missed him 😭😭😭😭 she needs a new assistant 😭😭😭 IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
daniel and betty together in london as completely different people and in completely opposite positions from season 1 but still gravitating towards each other, reaching and finding each other in the midst of all this change because they know each other more than they know themselves like im sorry they are soulmates oh my god [dies a thousand deaths]
anyway i love this show so damn much jesus. with like 7 more episodes this ending could’ve developed so beautifully but im fr happy with how things turned out? ofc somethings i’d change like daniel burning the resignation form and calling her an “investment” (kind of makes sense in the context of the episode/arc because it was all about regressing to oldselves before changing but damn we didnt even get a proper apology from him, again probably for time reasons), but yeah in terms of where the characters should be @ this was honestly ideal to me.
i love this silly little problematic ass show and i never wanted it to end. betty is so dear to me and i will always carry her around inside of me my entire life, her bond with daniel is so special, wilhelmina is my queen and i live to serve her, marc and amanda are like my entire inner monologue at this point. ugly betty in general is so special to me and i never thought i would become so horribly attached to it. it was problematic as hell a lot of the times and handled others with so much love and care. it has so much heart. so, so much heart. i’ll love this show forever
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ladyoftheblades · 2 years
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the ones with the porn name
EDDIE X READER
an: this fic is based on the anime “nana” basically reader and eddie meet the same way nana o. and nobu do. also i am not from the us and i have no idea how schools work there besides very basic level stuff. ALSO i tried not to use y/n too much but i failed, i am sorry. I am not a native english speaker
summary: highschool is a bitch, especially if you are the so called school freak and for what ? liking unpopular music and fantasy games ? needless to say eddie munson had given up on finding like minded people in this hellhole. but what he didnt excpect was the quiet girl from english to be a secret rock fan
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it was a well known fact Eddie Munson could not care less about school. About anything actually. Making new friends, grades , society, conformity etc. It was all irrelevant to him. His only goal was to finally graduate senior year and run, far, far, far away from Hawkins High. All the bullyinng, name calling, rumors would finally stop. For the most part atleast. He really wasnt excpecting anything to come out of his -hopefully- last year in high school.
so imagine his surprise when Y/N L/N walked into english clad in a Joan Jett t-shirt. 
as far as he knew Y/N was... he didnt really know how she was. They sat across eachother in one class only exchanging the occasional hello before lessons. All he knew of her was what hed gathered during the year and what he had heard other people say about her. He was dumbfounded upon realising they might have more in common than what he had originally thought. 
as she approached her seat she didnt even bother to spare him a glance, quietly putting down her bag and sitting.
Eddie debated wether or not he should talk to her. What would he even say ? how would he say it ? would she maybe be intimidated ? wait why was he overthinking this so much ?. As he pulled himself from the fog of thought surrounding his brain the teacher stepped in. great he thought. Atlest now he had time to figure out his strategy.
class was as class is; boring. Yet a certain joan jett fans mind was less preocupied with literature and more with a long haired mans gaze not leaving her frame. She did not know why Eddie was starring at her, and she refused to look his way as she couldnt read his expression. Was something wrong with her appearence ? did her hair smell ? what was his problem ?  Her eyes remained on the board; not reading what was on it simply staring into the empty spaces begging for him to look away. In those moments she wished the earth would open up and swallow her whole. He must have been looking at her for more than half of the class. Not that she could tell. She was too busy wishing to die of embarassment.
Eddie reached into his backpack, wich was mostly empty, and pulled out a piece of paper and a pen. Not to take any notes for the class, no, he had other plans. Better ones.
Y/N couldnt make out his movements but she was glad his stare was giving her a break. After a few seconds she saw something flying on her desk from eddies direction. Looking down she identified the object as a ball of paper. 
“i like your shirt ;)”
Y/N looked at the note. Then at Eddie. Then back at the note. He wasnt scrutinizing her ! thank god she thought.
Oh god she hates me now doesnt she ?
Eddies train of thought was running at 100km an hour, faster than the speed of light, in the time he did not receive a reply he went through all the stages of grief and of regret. He tho-
Then he felt something falling on his hand.
“thank you”
that was it. In his hand had fallen a note, the same note he had sent flying to you was now back in his posession. The content of the paper, right there, underneath his note was her response. It wasnt anything remarcable, it was a normal response. Still, he felt a huge weight lift off his shoulders. He took the paper into his hands thinking of how to continue the conversation. Sadly he didnt get the chance.
⚠️IMPORTANT⚠️ ! A/n: this is shorter than my patience idk if i like it or if its even worth continuing or publishing. I will put this out and if it gains a bit of attention i will commit.
PART 2 IS UP https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/ladyoftheblades/689202000935698432?source=share
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imvriix · 2 years
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hello! it's me again hehe, i saw your request table but i didn't see if you do headcanons, anyway if you do; some headcanons of hild in love? (with feminine pronouns, please) if not, feel free to ignore this request! please and thank you <333
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summary ;; — falling in love was something she never imagined she would experience, but you proved her wrong.
featuring + contains ;; — hild x fem! reader, headcannons.
a/n ;; — headcannons are completely fine.
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shes more of an observer than a speaker, and shes just that bit more analytical when she has a special interest in you. she notices things like the little things you do when you feel a certain way, body language, your tone of voice, etc. she likes to watch, especially when you dont know she is so that she can see you how you truly are when your alone. although she sometimes tells herself that she was just observing you to be able to know you better, a lot of the reason is that she finds you beautiful. as in mesermisingly attractive.
she cares more about your opinion, i see her as the type of person to prefer to go her own way, but she trusts you. she trusts you and she lets herself relax around you and lets you take care of her and drag her around a bit.
she'd also be protective. she does all the hunting and careful, extra measures herself. she says its because she was more used to these types of things, but in reality, she doesnt want you getting hurt. this also applies to other people, she's wary of you being around others, whether they seem nice or not. part of this is due to her jealousy and possessiveness, part of this is due to her being worried about you. either way, she doesnt like it and will shamelessly pull you to a side and tell you.
back on to her jealousy, she wouldn't be obvious when ever she feels envy. she'd be more intense around the person who she is jealous of, as in frequently ignoring their presence, secretly glaring at them whenever you arent looking, etc. she seems normal to you, although she is seconds away from stealing you away to go to somewhere else where she is sure she doesnt have to deal with people coming onto the girl she likes.
she is pretty calm and cool about realising she likes you. she doesn't think about it much, she simply realises she likes you more than anyone else she comes across. she doesnt become any different, because if she liked you since the two of you met, its likely she was already protective around you to begin with. she just didnt acknowledge her behaviour yet.
i think her love language would be acts of service (giving), quality time and maybe a little bit of physical touch. if she likes you, she wants to be with you. she doesn't want you away from her for too long as she would likely jump to conclusions and worry over your safety. this is why she would prefer doing this for you rather than you doing things for her, as she doesnt want to ever be the reason you get hurt.
she would be hesitant at first with touch, but if you initiate it, she would find she actually enjoys it and would become more comfortable with the idea. she likes physical touch and finds it comforting, but she is awkward in initiating it. over time, she grows a little more confident in initiating, as in holding your hand, laying her head on your lap or shoulder, simple and sweet actions. she will always be a bit nervous about it, but she does get better. one of her favourites are probably kissing your cheek or forehead.
she loves proper kisses, but they fluster her. youd probably have to be the one to kiss her, and no matter how many times you do, its always going to leave her blushing, especially if its random.
she wants to be seen as someone you can rely on and trust, because trust and loyalty would be the number one things for her. she would never leave your side unless its for things like hunting, and in fighting, she would either get you to a place where she'd know you'd be safe or protectively place herself in front of you if there was no opening to get you out. whether she's dying or lost a limb, she will try to protect you until the end.
she doesnt want much back except for you to return your loyalty. though she would never want it as in you hurting yourself for her, but rather you never leaving her for anything else as she knows she wouldnt leave you for the world either.
she would want someone she knows she can turn to whenever she wants, that she doesnt have to keep her guard up for. all she asks is for you to stay with her.
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Mad science-Fujiko again, sorry it took awhile to answer
Just thinking about Fujiko’s emotional reaction, she’s schocked she didnt see the betrayal coming of course, but its more that she feels stupid, than personally hurt. (I think to her, its like missing the obvious signs of a storm when she’s normally good at reading the weather)
Whats far worse is the feeling of helplessness and the realization her efforts have been for nothing. She tried to keep her friends safe and instead she’s probably got them killed. She’s about to lose everything.
Also thinking on how she might go about convincing Jigen when insisting she was betrayed too doesnt work. Explaining herself? Telling him that she fucked up because she was afraid and desperate, because she couldnt stop thinking about what would happen if she lost her friends?
No way, Jigen wouldnt believe it in a million years.
She can try to give him all the information she has on the person who’s actually behind the disaster and the experiments they worked on, but he’s not gonna believe her until he sees she’s told him something true, perhaps something about the new zombies or mutants theyre fighting.
Ah hello my little friend! It’s nice to see you again :3 I hope your having a good day! I wrote a little something the last ask you sent!
It’s right here 
But yeah that would be how I would think it would go.
A key word to describe Fujiko to me would be duplicitous. No one really knows what or more specifically WHO’s side she is on, and when asked by people if she could be considered trustworthy Jigen would probably admit that it‘s "not an easy question to answer." Thought we have all seen that Fujiko can be trusted to repay her debts to people who help her, she has betrayed more then aided enough for her to be greatly considered untrustworthy, especially by people who take the trust of people very seriously, like Jigen.
To be honest, I think the reason why THIS particular “betrayal” would hit so hard for Jigen especially is because of the situation they are all in.
The world has basically ended. No one, besides those who know the contents of the USB, knows where the infection has started, but at this rate, it really doesn’t matter. The undead have been spotted in nearly every major city from New York to Texas all the way to California and that’s just in the US alone. Across the ocean outbreaks in major countries like Europe, Britain, France, Germany and China are all commonplace. Certain places may have dealt with the undead and have found a way to deal and aid other places in order to help their recovery, but others are still struggling like in the US.
This is far bigger and far worser then anything the gang has had to deal with. This isn’t some rival gang trying to move in on a score. This isn’t running from the Cops. This is the big deal. And yet to Jigen it’s seems despite that all that, despite everything trying to kill them already, Fujiko still couldn’t seem to help herself by betraying the group ONCE again. Regardless of her motives or not.
And what’s sad is Jigen would have given her a chance again. He would have believed her when she said she didn’t know. But the problem now is that he’s not thinking straight. He see’s this as another betrayal. Plain and simple, no surgery coating can change what this is. But now because of Fujiko, one of the few people he himself has left in this crazy world where everyone is trying to EAT them, is dying. 
Jigen knows if he loose’s Lupin that he is going to absolutely loose it. He had little to hold on already before the world went crazy. Not to mention he had already been struggling with feeling like a failure following the death of his niece the beginning of the outbreak. Now if Lupin dies that’s the last straw, it will kill him. Because Jigen’s not like his sister, he struggles connecting with new people. Maddalena doesn’t, she’s built a community around herself to deal with the changes the world has given them and the loss of her daughter, she has made friends.
Jigen HASN’T
Jigen CAN’T
Jigen can’t just make new friends like his sister does. It’s not who he is. He already struggles with the one’s he has. Plus his trust issues actively just refuse to let him get close to other people, especially new people. Constantly scrutinizing every motive like it’s a farce or a soon to be attempt on his life. 
Lupin is basically the only thing he has left in this crazy world that he can trust. That he can love. And even if she didn’t mean it, there’s a big chance Fujiko just took that all away. 
The ONLY THING keeping him from putting a bullet in her head IS Lupin. As long as Lupin is alive, he can’t kill her. Because the one thing Jigen tries not to do is break promises. He already broke the promise to his sister that he would keep her kids safe.
He failed.
It almost killed him
He won’t break this promise to Lupin, not as long as Lupin still breathes.
But time is not on Fuji’s side with this one. . .Even if it turns out she was telling SOME truth, the fact of the matter is, Jigen isn’t gonna want anything to do with her if Lupin doesn’t make it, he already hates that he has enough of a conscious not to throw her out of the QZ to fend for herself, if he had his way he’d have thrown her out on her ass. But nope. . .he knows he can’t do that..
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Hello Ruckis!
Through a friend I came across your blog the other day and I'm really enthusiastic about your drawings! But I'm also curious about what the characters Xerxes and Geragera are about!
I asked my friend if she could tell me more about the two, but she said I should bish ask you instead! Well and now I'm doing exactly that! Can you maybe give me some rough information about their story?
I'm really interested!
I would love to talk about my characters??? Thank you for asking! Honestly I expected this much popularity from Geragera but I was not expecting Xerxes to be a close second.
PS: oh my god I went overboard I need to add a cut below because a summary would not do their stories justice. I hope you like reading I am so SORRY-
I'll give a tiny excerpt from each story for others who might be interested
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Xerxes: As a child he lived in a tribe of Jackalope with his mother and father. He was closer to his mother than anything else. Being a hybrid and noticing that he wasn't the same as his peers made him nervous...
...He figured since there's a very high population of malevolent or mischievous ghosts, demons and ghouls that like to haunt and hunt the people of Xedor, as well as the fact that in his life he had seen a lot of death around him as Jackalope's lifestyle also make them susceptible to complications and therefore death, Xerxes decided to take up exorcism as an occupation.
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Geragera: He was a part of the royal family of Xedor. His future was foretold by a great sage named Adzukihi. It was told he would cause several great calamities and that he would be be killer of thousands, potentially millions. That paired with the royal family figuring out about his father Dexter's history of coming from a long line of of clinically insane criminals notoriously known as "the Bogsworth's", keeping the kid alive didn't bide well. Dexter not wanting to kill his unborn child and Adzukihi not having the heart to, Dexter passed the egg off to her to protect. She panics and figures that sending him back in time would help.
As I may or may not have mentioned Xerxes is a hybrid between his mother, a vampire bat, and his father a Jackalope with the help of magic from his mother. This resulted in curious features such as longer funneled ears, cotton tail, and tiiiiny wings that he usually hides under his clothes and cape out of shame because they can't hope to lift him off the ground and only serve as a means of making him look cute (which he hates).
As a child he lived in a tribe of Jackalope with his mother and father. He was closer to his mother than anything else. Being a hybrid and noticing that he wasn't the same as his peers made him nervous. He was even distant with his own father, if not only because his father didn't know how to parent a child who has different care standards than a Jackalope. He wasn't trying to be distant, he truly just didn't know how to bond with his kid without making it awkward. His mother unfortunately was slain, as the land of Xedor isn't too fond of Vampiric types and she unfortunately ran into a particularly bigoted group. Luckily this was not before she had the time to teach him how to hunt to satiate the taste for blood responsibly.
Obviously this development hit him hard. It's one of the few times where he was actually able to express intense emotion (as normally he is stoic and has trouble emoting). From there on he felt an intense desire to hold more power. He was tired of being pushed down because of genetics. Because he was vampiric. He lived out the rest of his young life with his father, whom died later from complications and illness. Luckily he was up there in age and was completely satisfied with his life. Having both his parents died and little to no attachment to his clan, he set out to leave his tribal life behind and go to the castle town in Xedor in search of a new, easier life where he didnt have to worry about fighting to survive as much.
Now keep in mind, Jackalopes in this story are very primal. Outside of basic human intelligence, they hunt, farm, etc, on their own. They view technology as unsavory and unholy because the God of Neo-Earth, Kitsuneoctua, has a distaste for tech. The way they view it the closer to nature you are the closer to God you are. Meaning that the life of luxury and power Xerxes set out to obtain would be frowned upon by his tribe and he is most likely not welcome back into it as to not taint their lands.
The first thing Xerxes set out to do was find a well paying job. He figured since there's a very high population of malevolent or mischievous ghosts, demons and ghouls that like to haunt and hunt the people of Xedor, as well as the fact that in his life he had seen a lot of death around him as Jackalope's lifestyle also make them susceptible to complications and therefore death, Xerxes decided to take up exorcism as an occupation. Seeing as it would be a very well paying job at the time especially considering Xedor neighbors Neverliv Woods which is dead undead central. He was initially hired as a joke as it was ironic for something like a Vampiric to be an exorcist. But then he turned out to be actually good at his job and made a name of himself, especially considering the severe lack of exorcist that their were.
He got himself a cheap place to start, but with his well paying income he managed to buy the infamous mansion up on the hill that had been marked down by an astonishing amount. Nobody had been able to buy it in years. The only reason it hadn't been torn down? Tales of ferocious monsters abiding in that house, eating anyone who dare enter it. Xerxes figured after all the ghouls he had handled it would be no problem.
Come to find out that said monsters was just a fellow Vampiric living there, who was also a witch. Xerxes spared her. The two were in the same situation after all. Given the house was technically now in his name legally Xerxes became the man of the house, with Jijinko as his co leader.
He also had enough funds to try out gambling and then he got addicted. Yay! His impulse control is awful and he cheats more often then not but at least he has more of a name.
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Now as for Geragera I'm gonna start with after his soul was reincarnated on Neo-Earth, which all starts with him being thrown into a portal leading to the past! As to why he was thrown into the past, he was a part of the royal family of Xedor. His future was foretold by a great sage named Adzukihi. It was told he would cause several great calamities and that he would be be killer of thousands, potentially millions. That paired with the royal family figuring out about his father Dexter's history of coming from a long line of of clinically insane criminals notoriously known as "the Bogsworth's", keeping the kid alive didn't bide well. Dexter not wanting to kill his unborn child and Adzukihi not having the heart to, Dexter passed the egg off to her to protect. She panics and figures that sending him back in time would help. And thus Geragera was thrown into a river some several hundred years back. He hatches and raises himself in the wild for years until he meets a curious face. At this time period animals are evolving but don't quite have human level intelligence, and the humans are just now starting to recover their race. Geragera in the pond he stays in meets a woman named Guffaw. She seemed awfully kind! She played with him, talked to him, even taught him how to speak. To him it seemed like she could do no wrong. How naive Gera was.
When he grew a bit older she basically abducted him, taking him to an island that conducted cruel experiments on these rapidly evolving animals in attempts to create an army of super mutants. Gera of course started getting the worst of it seeing as he was the most advanced out of these animals thusfar. That's where his hatred for these hairless monkeys that stole him from his home so they could hurt him started. But he was no fool, oh no, he was a quick learner. Watching his "fellow scientists" build and create as well as snooping and prying, he began to pick up technical know-how.
Some years later he lead a revolt. Alongside a strange white dog that could breathe fire. The place was burnt to the ground. Most of the humans slain. Including Guffaw who was taken out by Geragera himself. He wouldn't allow her peace though, oh no, he vowed to take her first name as his last and carry her with him as he carried out acts of bloodshed and violence. Just so she could be as volatile in death as she was in life. To this day that old building still stands. Empty and abandoned.
From there Geragera paired up with the strange white dog whom was dubbed Ruckis and returned to the wild. Literally hundreds of years later Jijinko finds the two, thinking that it was just some homeless lost kid and his dog. She took the two in only to find out that this "kid" was actually older than he looked and the dog wasn't actually a primordial dog. Obviously it's at this point Ruckis and Geragera also figure they aren't normal modern animals either, having lived for hundreds of years and Gera's growth being stunted.  The reason she thought this was because they didn't talk at first and Ruckis favored walking on fours. As they grew closer to the household the dynamic duo started being more vocal. Geragera was allowed to stay not only because of attachment reasons but he genuinely does help protect the house from intruders, bring back food and even help with house technology.
that's only like half of Gera's story if you could believe it. Tysm for asking and letting me talk about my characters, I hope this wasn't too much of a read!
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Avatars and Rocky starts
Cw: Mentions of almost drowning, forced marriages, violence.
Summary:jon meets Jerico's avatars, whom he didnt even know they existed.
->Only mutuals allowed to reblog,
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Its not always that Jon gets a break, but after his whole trip across America, hes jetlagged to shit. Which leads him to his current situation.
Hes getting ready to go out, he ties up his coat and fixes up his hair a little. --Im ready to go!--He calls out towards Jers room.
Jerico comes out looking as stunning as ever, she smiles and gestures towards the door-- Shall we?
Jon,though a little flustered, nodds and walks down the corridor to the bookshop with his girlfriend in toe. As they step out, they see the overcast Sky above,grey and rainy.
--It never lets up,does it?--He mutters a little annoyed, stepping into the passenger Seat of the car. An old vintage Mustang in a dark Teal color.
--nope--jer answered,settling down on the drivers Seat-- I Like it though
--Well youre associated with storms, no surprise there--He replied, putting on the seatbelt-- so,run me by the plan again?
--Im going to visit a few people, then we can go Grab lunch-- she answered-- do you need any more details?
Jon thinks for a moment, she knows his need to be in controll of everything, its what makes him feel safe.
--My avatars--She replied gently.
--YOUR WHAT? YOU HAVE- how do you have avatars?!--He exclaimed as she turned on the car.
--Ill tell you everything,settle down Jon--jer said Gently, stroking his knee soothingly before pulling out into the street and Driving down it.
Noticing his freak out, he clears his throat and takes a deep breath-- sorry its just- ive seen what avatars can become- it doesnt...it doesnt work how it works for others?
He sees her shake her head, understanding of his concern-- I have few avatars,and well- I try to make sure not to hurt them, theyre not human but...theyre not Michael level of not human
--So..theyre not insane?
--Theyre not, quite sane actually-- she replied, eyes not looking away from the street, a little empty.
--So...what are your avatars like? Like- they dont go insane or anything,How do they work? -- he asked,aware of how differently Antiquarian operated from the other beings.
--Theyre like...normal people. They get things for me you know? One of them gets me antiques,others get me books or transporation. But I take good care of them, I Keep them well--jerico explained, stopping ar the stop light and stretching a little.
--Im not used to that...--Jonathan confessed--How you take care of them, you actually care. Theyre not tools,theyre not playthings,theyre people you care about
She smiles and turns to him,leaning in to kiss him Gently and briefly. He barely has time to kiss back before she pulls away-- just like I care about you-- she pauses for a moment-- well,youre special,you get privileges
The archivist looks away,skin darkening a little-- oh uhm...I uh..--He looks away scratching his bicep.
Jer giggles and pats his thigh, to then Keep driving-- but yeah, I treat my avatars almost like...my children yknow? I Keep well,I Keep them healthy and safe, if they need my help I help. That sort of stuff
A thought comes into his mind but he doesnt say it, he doesnt know if its appropiate to say-- you surprise me more with each day-- he says instead,hand going to rest on her thigh.
She smiles and turns a corner--Cmon,youl distract me and we'll crash
--Ah thats not a me issue,love -- he answers smugly with a grin.
--Damn you archivist, you and your charming allure-- she replied slowing down to take the hand on her thigh and kiss his knuckles.
--Guilty as charged,im afraid-- He pulls away all flustered, and he sees her reach for the radio to turn it on.
The car drive is somewhat calm with sparse conversation and jerico vibing to the music on the radio. Jon,being the lovesick puppy he is,watches With loving abandon at how his girlfriend moves and sings along. Shes bright as the sun in those moments.
After a while,they reach their destination. The car gets Parked, and both step out. Jon looks upon one of the buildings, a small rustic café, nothing big or particularly eye catching, just cozy. Above it an old sign read "Seafoam Cafe"
--Who are we here for?-- Jon asked, opening the door at letting her go through first.
--Azariel, she procures hard to get books for me--jer explained, stepping in and walking alongside him to a booth.
--Like leitner's books?--He asked a little concerned.
--Nono,dear god NO--She exhaled with exhasperation at the mere thought of it. She sits at a booth and gestures him to sit by her side. --Those are off limits,im talking like... books with limited copies or those who are heavily censored by one entity or another
--Oh gotcha--He answered,taking off his coat-- and what book are we here for?
Jer smirked-- Oh youll see-- along comes a waitress to take their order, after both order some light breakfast, she adds-- oh by the way,can you call up the owner? Tell her Lady Racounteur is calling her
The waitress nodds and leaves,Jon smirks--Lady?
--Azariel insists on calling me that, ive tried to make it stop but.. shes stubborn--She shrugged it off,before taking off her jacket and feeling Jon help her out--Oh,thanks
Feeling a little mushy,he kisses her lips briefly and sheepishly says--its...its nothing
--Youre so sweet
--Cease
--I mean it!
--Well hello Lady Raconteur--A third voice says beside them, both turn to see a black girl with a slight hispanic accent, her hair is a bright white and tied off into space Buns,she wears a small lacey bolero and a black dress with tights and short boots.
--Azariel!--chirped jerico with a big smile-- good morning
The girl sits infront of them all happy and bubbly-- good morning, im guessing youre here to pick up that gift?
She nodds while Jon ignores the conversation,his eyes settle on the choker around Azariel's neck. Its that same symbol as the one hes got in his own necklace. A one eyed octopus in a stormy sea. The gold its made of looks pretty New, a little polished.
--Thats her insignia right? --He blurts out in a moment of recognition--Antiquarian's I mean i- I have the same one--He lifts up his own necklace to show It off.
Azariel grins with a child like happiness--Oh yes it is! Who might you be?--She turns to jerico-- is he another avatar?
--Oh nono,he is my boyfriend--Jer explained with a beaming pride in her voice. Jonathan goes a few shades Darker and he looks away.
--Oh pleased to meet you then!--The youngest avatar chirped-- lovely choice!
--Thank you--Antiquarian replied all sweetly,Jon sulks as he feels pretty flustered. The two ladies catch up, Like theyve been old Friends forever.
When their food arrives,Jon manages to calm down and ask-- s-so,how did you became an avatar?
Azariel's smile faltered a little and cleared her throat-- ah well, y'see, before my Lady over here came into my life,I was in deep debt to some people. Anything to fund this little place of my dreams
She stirrs her tea lazily in deep thought. Her eyes lost in the swirling liquid in the cup--Lady Raconteur here was a regular for the coffee part of the shop, one time she came late at night, and I was...cornered by these people...she uh... took care of them and my debt
--I was going to let her to free of charge but...--Jer trails off,taking a sip from her hot chocolate.
--I knew that what I saw,That Giant wave of well...you know--She follows up,though Jon doesnr know what she means-- was real,That she wasnt human,but she was such a sweet patron that I...invited her inside,asked her what she was and well...I accepted being an avatar, I mean she saved my life
Jer shrugs it off-- I did It out of good Will...but she wouldnt hear it, in the end she insisted so much that even after I explaimed everything she just...accepted
The archivist finds it endaring-- oh so youre telling me you defeated an eldritch being with the mere Power of human insistence?
She rolled her eyes at her boyfriends antics--Okay Simms, get it out of your system cmon
--Nonono,im gonna savor this-- He says,leaning in with a smirk-- Ive seen you take hordes of things down and what does you in is just...one human
Jerico sighs and takes a sip from her tea,Azariel giggles with mirthful joy and adds--You two are so entretaining to watch
--Im afraid we wont be here for an all day performance, still gotta visit the others-- Antiquarian replied,trying to put a stop to her boyfriends lighthearted mockery.
--Though im sure youll convince her to stay if you insist enough--he adds as a final comment, ignoring the glare from his girlfriend while he finishes his drink.
--But yes, she saved me,im here- it mustve been five years now--Azariel said to defuse the tension-- thats why this thing--she points at the disk with the insignia-- is not that old looking
Jon nodded in understandment-- mines...quite old actually
The avatar looks at the necklace,squinting a little. Theres barely any shine to the pendant, if gold could be corroded,it wouldve been nonexistent by now--jer never told me how old this pendant is -- he turns to his lover and asks-- how old is it?
He sees her start to count on her fingers in that dead language she uses sometimes, it sounds like the lulling crashing waves and a deep deep reverberating growling harmonies of the deep.
--Is she counting...?--He asks as his eyes widen.
--In centuries? Yes-- Azariel andswered non-chalantly.
--She just keeps going...
--III think it was originally made in the neolithic era--Jer finally answers-- first of their kind
Jon just stops, looks at jerico with wide eyes as his mind struggles to understand just how old the thing around his neck is--Are you mental?! This should be in a museum!
Antiquarian just shrugs-- You deserve it, anyway, im done. Azariel?
Azariel nodds and gestures them to follow her, they go to the storage room of the place, small and a little cramped, filled with boxes that contain books and supplies for the coffee shop.
She pushes a seeminglh normal wall and gestures them In-- welcome to my humble Office
It was rather small YES,possibly underground,but its cozy and quite comfortable. Cream walls, one half circle Window to let the sunlight in and a few shelves and boxes with a few hanging plants that looked a little too alive.
The avatar goes to Grab one specific book, not too big or too small. Its like an old leatherbound Journal that looks like it has seen better days-- so my Lady here has been looking for this thing, its really old.
Jer smiles and signals Jon to Grab It, she has a big big grin on her face filled with warm and excitement-- what is it?-- he asked, a little confused.
--Read it-- his girlfriend says.
So he does, the first few pages are unassuming until he spots the notes that have to do with the fourteen fears. More and more knowledge he starts to notice, then he stops and looks at Jeri-- oh my...god. -- he breathes out-- I...this is so helpful
--I had to make up for my lackluster insight on it all. Technically I just...helped. yknow? The information is yours to decode
Jon chuckles and hugs his girlfriend tight,--Im sure elias Will be happy to see it-- he said with obvious sarcasm.
--He'll be screaming with joy im sure-- she followed up squeezing him.
--Thank you love-- he murmurs,kissing her briefly.
--Dont mention it-- jer answers nuzzling the side of his face-- And thank you, Azariel
The avatar smiles wide--Anything for you,my Lady
Antiquarian looks at the time on her phone-- we Better get going, im hoping to get to Rudy's by the end of the morning
--Yes,of course. Do send my regards to him and Yuzuki--Azariel said,guiding them back out-- and Tell our lovely fisherman to be nice
--He needs the reminder?--Jon asked and the avatar scoffed,not answering the question.
Soon theyre back on the road towards their Next stop, the antique store. The drive is mostly silent with the radio playing barely audibly--
--what did Azariel meant with telling the fisherman to be nice?
--Ah, well Rudy's a bit of a....special case. Hes got a sense of humor thats very acid and comes across as really mean-- she answered-- hes a good Man, jusr rough around the edges
He blinks a few times-- I was hoping the other two were as nice as Azariel was...
She scoffs lightheartedly-- theyre not...That sweet but theyre good of heart,you know?
--I trust your judgement--He answered,looking out the Window.
Once at the antique shop, it was mid morning. Still that same rainy street, overcast Sky with that awful grey, and a wind thats starting to pick up as if to usher a storm. Jons about to ask if jer is the reason for the increased wind but he keeps it to himself.
Above the store,a pretty sizeable one, is a sign that reads "mother of pearl Antique shop" with the same thing written in japanese. The sign has that 1920s art deco and it looks old but well kept.
The store has that english look to it and its all in those brown,beige,cream colorations. As they enter through the white Doors, a small bell rings above, theres a few people here and there, Theres soft jazz music playing.
--wonder where she is now--Jeri mutters,Jon looks at her weird-- usually she has other employers cover the work here,but she did tell me she'd be here today
--Well, we can go look--He says,taking her hand a little shy.
--Yeah, cmon-- they walk around the place in comfortable silence for a little bit. They look at the Many oddities stored around, the halls they walk by arent crammed but theres certainly a lot going on.
--Soo..how did yuzuki find her way into being your avatar?--He asked, walking closer to her.
--Its kind of a dark story-- She explains,looking at some of the old portraits thar looked a little too haunted. She swears the eyes follow her as she moves
--eh, ive heard worse
Jer nodds and says--Well,Yuzuki was being taken from japan,her home,to the UK. She didnt want to go and her father forced her. To Marry her off rich or something. Every day and night she prayed to anything that would listen to sink that boat into the depths of the Atlantic.
--Then?
--Well, I answered. I sunk that ship so far into the Ocean. Yuzuki washed up on the shore and thanked the sea- me for it.  She started leaving me offerings and one morning I appeared by her side, she thanked me with a tight hug and well...she Wanted to serve me.
--Im guessing you explained her what an avatar was?-- he asked,stopping look at the old books.
--No,at firsr she just got me relics,antiques I needed. She had a way of talking herself in and out of situations. The years passed and Yuzuki told me she wanted to spend her life with me, i had been so good too her so far...--She explained,looking at him briefly to see his handsome face-- I had given her a home, a place to work...
--Basically a New life--He answered, pulling a book out of the Shelf.
--Yeah, and Well, I relented. I told her of the dangers but she said her New life had to have me in it. So I agreed. I named her The Collector, for obvious reasons
--You...named them?--He asked,putting the book in his bag.
--Youre literally titled "The Archivist",let me have fun,simms
--okay, okay. Sorry,please continue
--Azariel is The Scholar,Yuzuki is The Collector--she makes a pause to see a small miniature boat in a bottle and take it-- and Rudolph is The Scourge Of The Deep
--We were going pretty normal until we reached Rudolph-- he half joked, standing infront of a nice ornate fullbody mirror-- oh hey, Thats a nice mirror
--Yes it is--Jer agreed-- we should take it home...
--Im afraid thats not a good idea,my Lady-- Another voice comes from behind them. Jonathan turns to see a tall,elegant woman wearing a chestnut brown coat with fur across two large panels on the neck and at the end of the jackets wrist.
The best way he could describe her was as if she was stuck in the 1920s, that same make up, that wavy short hair and dark Teal flapper dress.
--its very much haunted--The avatar continued,taking a drag from a ciggarette using a long black Holder.
--Yuzuki,there you are-- jerico said warmly with a big smile-- how are you?--She walks up to her to give her one kiss on each cheek and then bowing at eachother
--Im quite alright, slow day-- yuzuki answered,eyes setting on jon--Who might he be?
--I am her boyfriend-- Jon answwes-- Jonathan simms,Head archivist of the magnus Institute
The japanese woman looks at him for a moment-- the eye has claimed you,this is most odd my Lady. Havent see two entities dating ever since...Michael
Jerico visibly flinches and shakes It off-- do you mind uh. Showing me what you got for me?
--Yes,apologies-- the avatar answered,waving one of her workers over-- show Lady Racounteur item 1414. Please
The worker nodded and took jerico away, Jon is about to follow when hes stopped by the owner of the place.
--aht archivist. Its not safe for you to see it, its unstable and Jerico is going to fix that right now. I do not want you going mad -- Yuzuki said, watching the Man step back a little annoyed.
--Fine, ill wait.
Theres a brief silence, broken by Yuzuki-- you fit well for the role The Eye has given you, I do hope theres no ulterior motive to your interest in my Lady
He growls under his breath-- Im not out to get her,I could never do it. Trust me,if I could change patrons I would.--She smirks a little at that last part--what?
--Ah nothing-- she answered,giggling to herself.
--What is it?--he asks again
--You wont take it well
--Try me
She sighs and takes another drag-- Well,you dont have the characteristics of someone whose an avatar for The Antiquarian.  Youre too paranoid, read too much into it, to enjoy stories, the calm of the Ocean,you cant be paranoid over if the pages Will cut you or if the sea Will swallow you. Theres a certain whimsy to it that cant be enjoyed if youre running yourself into the ground with paranoia
Jon blinks at her slowly, he cant even be mad because shes right-- I am her boyfriend, that ought to count for something... right?
Yuzuki shrugged with a conciliatory smile-- perhaps,truth is I do not know much about how all this works. Maybe you'd do a great avatar for her and im wrong.
Feeling a little vindicated, he puts his had in his pockets and smiles. --Perhaps-- He answered with pride in his voice.-- I think i'd make a great avatar for her-- he added,not Like he'd say it to jericos face
In all his little pride induced bliss he doesnt hear the avatar's Scoff that has the same energy as an adult playing along to a childs nonsensical tirade.
Jerico comes back a few minutes afterwards with a box that heavily carved along with runes and passages in what seems to be a dead language. A magical Nuke is in there.
--What do you have there?--Jon asked,pointing at the box,both worried and curious.
She shrugged--Contingency plans
--Care to explain?
--Nope
He sighs and nodds--Fair
Jerico laughed and with a wave of her hand, the box gets consumed by a roaring wave. Then it subsides and the box is gone.
--Ah Yuzuki, one more question--Antiquarian adds, pulling the avatar to the side,away from Jon--Jon here is looking for some sort of..gorila skin? Magic in nature,has to do with the unkowing,can you check?
--Yes,of course my lady--She answered-- y'know--she added with a conspiratory look in her eyes-- Jon said he'd make a great avatar for you if he could
Jer's heart warms up, she coos and puts a hand on her chest--man, thats so cute.
--Y'know, if uh...our watcher ever falls, maybe he could make an avatar...I personaly dont Belive it. Hes uh- theres something missing. No offense
The Antiquarian snorts-- None taken,hes good at what he does, the sea isnt really his calling
Yuzuki only chuckled,keeping her thoughts to herself before both walk back to the archivist. Jon insists on paying for the book and the little ship in a bottle jer got,but the avatar insists that its a gift.
--Im guessing youre going to see Rudolph yes?--She added as her patron and the Man stood there on the sidewalk.--
--Yes
--Tell him to watch his mouth
Jer can only snort-- I can certainly tell him,not that it would make him change behavior-- the antique shop owner nodded in understanding-- Goodbye, Yuzuki
--Goodbye,my Lady
As they drive away from the store, Jon looks out the Window with a few things on his mind. Thoughts that he knows he shouldnt share, because theres always some grey to everything.
--Yknow,its been two times that two of your avatars said that this Rudolph should watch his mouth--He states,trying to push away his thoughts-- what are they so worried about?
He sees her hesitate as she makes a turn to the left,the wheel turning to its respective side-- Rudolph has a certain way to react to people, especially those close to me
--jealousy?--he asked.
She shook her head-- protective
--Well...that I can respect--Jer purses her lips ,as if she knows something he doesnt-- can I ask how he became an avatar?
The streets and buildings were a blur as she drives down the streets,still somewhat rainy and grey. Theres a sudden shift on the air as they go a bridge overlooking one of the branches of the River thames, Jon sees shorter builders and cobblestone paths thick with sand between the cracks they form.
At this point he doesnt even ask.
--Well,he was a fisherman back in the 1800s. He was working extra time to pay for his two daughters' medicine, he went to fish on a really bad day once--She explains-- a big storm reached the place he was fishing at, it rocked his humble fishing vessel and he almost drowns...
--Jesus christ--He breathed out.
--I was around the area, it didnt take me long to find his struggling form. I scooped Him in my arms and dragged him to the shore, I pulled what water I could from his lungs...he was fine afterwards-- she followed up.
Jonathan looked at the little village they were Driving down, nobody seemed to even look at the Mustang-- and then? -- he asked.
--He knew that whatever I was, wasnt human. He explained his situation, why he was doing what he was doing, all while laying there on the sand-- jerico answered, recalling the memory almost fondly-- he invited me to his house for dinner,to thank me.
--If he had a wife I hope she didnt take it the wrong way. Her Man Bringing home a beautiful woman? Recipe for disaster--He half joke,unaware of the little flirty undertone to his voice.
She chuckles a little flustered--No, he explained the situation to her right away, and I think the wife could sense it too. That im not human I mean. But regardless, I loved the food, I loved his daughters that were having a heavy flu, and I decided to help them out
He smiles--good to know you never changed
--what can I say,im that good--jeri half joked-- I helped him get a New boat, get the medicine for his girls. Hell, I helped them get the kids to a good school, a good college and a good marriage.
--How much of that was...--He was reluctant to say the Word-- Magic?
--most of the money was magical, the marriage part was more of my well- aptitude to detect bad people--She answered.
--Your little escapades with Elias would beg to differ -- Jonathan said with a shit eating grin,still looking out the Window while the glass fogs with his breath.
--I said im good at detecting them, whatever I decide to do with that is something different-- She answered, holding back a few giggles.
--but im guessing Rudolph was very eager to return the favor-- He added.
--Yeah, even his wife was on board--She confirmed, scratching the back of her neck-- I of course was on the fence, they didnt want to adore me as a goddess, I had mentioned the thing about the avatars and they got the idea in their head. --Jerico finally parks outside one of the larger,mostly empty docks-- I told them that I had never had any avatars, That I wasnt sure what toll it would take on them
--But im guessing that they didnt care
--Rudolph,always the sweetheart, offered himself as an avatar-- she leans on the back rest, arms folded over her chest.
Jon unbuckles the seatbelt and shamelessly sits on her lap, resting on her chest. He didnt want to go out into the cold yet.
His action is such a routinely thing for her that it doesnt even phase her-- I wasnt sure at first but,as you can guess, he didnt want to hear any of it. I accepted, I could use the company anyway since onyx wasnt around at the time
With her arms around his waist, she nuzzles his face and Snickers a little as he returns the gesture-- He was the first avatar I ever took like,ever in my life. I wasnt sure how it all worked,what rules I needed to follow--She explained-- and at the time I didnt have any issue with the eye, so I asked it...
--Well shite--Jon scoffs--You? Asking for help to the eye?
She rolls her eyes and says-- again, I didnt hate it yet. Anyway,it told me that I made the rules, that my avatars could feed me if I wanted to,it wasnt too sure on if their sanity would be affected-- shrugging,she adds--not that it would not admit that it didnt know something. We guessed that it wouldnt happen,since im more of a force of nature,something they can sort of understand, so...
--Hmm,thats good--He answered-- then?
--Well, with my first ever avatar, I wasnt too sure on what to do with my life other than Keep Rudolph and his family company--She replied-- eventually his kids grew old,so did his wife...peaceful deaths all of them thankfully. Of course,its not something easy but if you ask him,rudolph wouldnt change a thing. So I guess he did his peace with it
There was something oddly powerful in that, making his peace with grief and loss,and not regretting such a big choice.
Jerico pressed a soft kiss to jon's jaw, adding-- we should get going
--Cmon,five minutes--He answered,cuddling closer.
--Fine,five minutes
《Come into the water
Do you wanna be my baby?
Are you waiting to touch me?
You look so good, but I keep my hands
'Til you come into the water》
The radio plays Gently,on low volume as to not distract their conversation. He sighs in comfort as he shuffles into a comfortable position, taking off his glasses and letting them hang against his chest.
Jer Strokes his forearm with her thumb,eyes closed and head resting ontop of his.
《Maybe I'm the same as all those men
Writing songs of all they're dreaming
But would you tell me if you want me?
'Cause I can't move until you show me》
The archivist hand goes to her face, tracing her jaw with his fingers. He tries to see his face but not with his eyes,but with his hand, brushing over her cheekbone and bridge of her nose, down to her Lower lip.
He can feel her giggle,all afluster,the sound gets stuck in her throat. She laughs to play off her feelings but he already knows,and no Powers needed, he simply knew his girlfriend
She leans into his touch, his hands feel the stay hairs to the side of her face and he pulls them back over the Shell of her ear, soft butterfly touches. Then he opens his eyes a little just to guide her head a bit to the side with the tip of his fingers that press against the curve of her jaw.
Jonathan kisses her, briefly,short. Still loving and warm,doing whatever his heart tells him to. Finally, a proper break.
《I didn't know I had a dream
I didn't know until I saw you
So would you tell me if you want me?
'Cause I can't move until you show me》
When he pulls away,she instantly kisses him again,holding Him close.
By the end of the kiss her forehead presses against his as he lets out a shaky breath,feeling safe for once in the years that hes been hunted by paranormal things.
It almost makes him crumble,he channels that shaking feeling into melting against her,he doesnt say anything but he doesnt need to.
She squeezes him a little,like a plushy. Jerico kisses the bridge of his nose and smiles.
Five minutes go by,and they get out of the car. The world outside is still that damp,rainy cold,still grey skies and  a misty dock that makes it feel almost like a hazy dream.
Jon is still drunk with the very sweet moment he just lived,so hes quiet as he walks alongside jerico, holding her hand.
Theres a few lanterns hanging on posts,light defused with the mist,making them look ethereal as the boats tied to the dock move back and forth with the waves.
Its oddly cozy,seagulls squak and a few bells ring. The air smells of salt, fresh and utterly freezing,but nice.His exhales get mixed with the mist, vapor getting lost in the blanket of condensation.
They reach the end of the pier where a Man is tying off a boat. This Man is huge, about 6'2, very well built.
Black hair tied up in a half bun, curls tight with humidity, he wears a simple white button up with his sleeves rolled up and the first few buttons undone,worn looking jeans and heavy rainboots.
His hickory Brown skin doesnt even seem to form goosebumps, utterly unpjased by the cold.
--Rudolph--Jerico calls out.
The Giant hunk of a Man turns and from a scarily serious face, he softens his empression-- ah,my Lady,good morning
She smiled, happy to see him--Good morning
His eyes fall to Jon and he just utters a mildly dissappointed and somewhat annoyedxhis shoulders drop and his eyes go half lidded,clearly holding back a scowl--...oh
--oh?--Jon parroted,a little confused and feeling a little insulted-- what does that mean?
--Jon,drop it-- She warns,voice stern and clearly not up to dealing with whatever shitshow was going to go down.
--Nono,what does he mean by "oh"?-- he insisted,turning to Rudolph.
--Youre supposed to be the Smart one,if she tells you to stop,then stop-- the other Man answered,brow quirked upwards and folding his arms over his chest. Almost defiantly.
--And im asking you a question,what do you mean by "oh"?!-- Jon asked again,jerico notices the whisps of green coming from his eyes that seem to glow brighter with the mist.
She flinches and purses her lips,mistakes where made.
Rudolph could shrug off the Effect of the compelling If he wanted. But he doesnt-- im just dissapointed
--Dissapointed?!--Jonathan echoed,voice cracking as he feels very offended.
--Out all of the people she could get, she chose you as her consort. You look like a wet cat, no offense
The archivist through gritted teeth turns to jerico-- say something! Hes being disrespectfull
She looks at him and says--I told you to drop it, youre a whole ass Man, figure it out. -- with her best resting bitch face.
Rudolph just smirks and turns to the woman--Anyway my Lady,the thing you asked for is in my captains cabin
--Thank you--She replied,-- ill go get it, you please do make sure nothing happens to Jon-- she kisses her boyfriends cheek and lets go of his hand,walking onto the ship.
--i can take care of myself!--Jon protested
--Do you want me to remind you all the times you got kidnapped?--She asked whilist still walking to the cabin.
He kept quiet and soon shes gone, rudolph sits on the short wooden pillar he tied one of the ropes around. Out of seemingly nowhere, he pulls out a fish gutting knife,twirling it around his finger a few times before checking the sharpness of the blade.
Jonathan heard the other Man curse in that ancient language jerico spoke, and from his pocket he pulls out what looks like a literal stone,but the surface is slick and looks quite sharp. And so he starts to sharpen the Knife silently.
--How do you know that language?--The archivist asked,unsure on what to do with his hands since he cant hold jericos.
--Im her avatar,of course I know it--He answered,not bothered to look up and meet his gaze. -- Jesus, you work with the Institute, you should know that
--Well excuse me if i do not like the idea to read all about my literal partner. Thats creepy-- he replied, folding his arms.
--Thats just basic knowledge,bruv-- he replied,voice thick with his english accent,not posh,a mix of all the accents in the uk--hell youre an avatar
--Im quite New to this whole avatar thing!--The archivist protested-- and im not being handed a manual for this
Rudolph looks up from his Knife to him,with what seems to be pity,but as soon as he makes eye contact he loos back to his hands-- I dont s'ppose other avatars help you out much
--The only one that does always gives me the smallest of hints. Not all of us are blessed with such a good patron,youre lucky
Finally he can say it out loud, he wished he could have a patron that didnt leech off of him,that it didnt feel like he owed it its life. That hes not under its control.
Jericos avatars got a loving,sweet patron that asks for nothing in return. They had true loyalty and camraderie, not whatever the hell he had.
Rudolphs keeps quiet for a moment,understanding his Point-- yer blessed too, in some ways- you dont know your patron,you do not care for It. If something happens to it, all the better for you. We dont get that luxury
--Yeah but you dont have to feed It or you die. Its different. -- Jon answered with scorn.
--touche. But you dont suffer with it when it feels sad,or alone, and you do not agonize knowing that there are things you simply cannot help it with even if shes suffering.
Jonathan rolled his eyes--youre talking about a friendshipp rather than a pact you made, you got to chose It ,*i* didnt. So excuse me if I dont feel lucky
Rudolph puts away the stone and grips the Knife and the archivist feels like hes about to get gutted--fair enough
--Also what is your damn problem with me?
The avatar looks the Man up and down-- its not personal
His companion scoffed-- bollocks
--Think what you want, im trying to weed you out--He answered,gaze unbothered as he twirls the Knife.
--I dont mean jerico any harm
--All of them say it, sorry if I dont Belive it-- he replied,clearly not sorry-- after everything with Michael id rather not have her be with men that end up in a tragedy
--Im not gonna
--You dont know that-
--And you dont know either!--Jon protested, pulling his arms away from their crossed position,voice roaring with anger-- what makes you think ill die or forget jerico? Good lord,have you seen her?! I dont think The Eye or anything in this world could make me forget her. Think whatever the hell you want but im not leaving her behind
--Hmmph-- Rudolph answered,sounding somewhat impressed-- very well archivist,you made your point. I take back what I said
--Good! I expect an apology
The Man shrugged-- im sorry
--Apology accepted and- wait a minute-- the Archivist looks at the man-- you were trying to weed me out.
--Finally you catched on, I started with a personal insult to see if if you'd take the bait. You did--the avatar answered, all smug-- I figured personal insults would make anyone mad,as soon as I got jerico involved, thats when you bared your teeth
--Why you little sh-
--i wanted to see if you'd stand by your Word, you clearly didnt show any signs of fearing me even if I was bigger,stronger And I was armed with something you knew I know how to use.
--You couldnt just...asked?!
--Actions speak louder than words-- he replied.-- congratulations,archivist, you passed. Not Many people do.-- both hear approaching steps from the ship.
Jerico steps out of the vessel with a leather bag, all happy--well,I think we should start heading back to london if we want to make it to lunch
Both men share one look and play along-- youre right,love-- answers Jonathan,fixing his glasses that got a little crooked in his little outburst.-- lets go
She turns to Rudolph who stands up and smiles-- Rudy,pleasure to see you again
--Same here,my Lady. Please do come by my home soon, ill make dinner. Bring Yu and Az-- he makes a pause, directing a look of mutual respect to Jonathan-- and this one too
Jer snorts and pulls the big Man in for a brief hug. -- Will do. Thanks ,again
--Its nothing my Lady,its the least I could do. Hope he likes it.
Thats when Jon notices the same pendant hanging around Rudy's neck. That one eyed octopus made out of gold that looks really,really old and exposed to the elements.
--I hope so. Anyway,lets go Jon
Jonathan nodds at his fellow avatar and offers his arm for jerico to take. She does and as they walk away rudolph adds--He'd make a fine avatar of yours,by the way,hes certainly got the ferocity for it.
She only smiles at it but the archivist turns to see the other Man step into his ship and getting lost in the mist. And he couldnt hear a hint of mockery in rudolphs voice.
With wide eyes he walks back to the car and off they go to london.
Both find a nice little restaurant to get lunch.Sitting there and eating, Jon Asks...
--So...what did Rudolph get you? More contingency plans?
Jeri chuckled,pulling out the small bag-- nope. A gift for you actually-- she shows Him that same amulet hes got but even older,with one aquamarine gem in the eye of the octopus. -- first pendant with my symbol that was ever made, it got stolen and tossed around and once it sunk in the Ocean, couldnt find it until now...I thought it would be a nice gift
His eyes widen as he takes the impossibly old pendant and changes the one he previously had on-- i- dont know what to say other than...thank you,I love you-- he scrambles to take her hand and kiss her knuckles.
--I love you too,im glad you like it. -- she answered with a smile.
After lunch,they return home. Jon changes into a green cardigan and his pijamas, as hes about to go down to the library to find a good book to read he hears jerico from the kitchen.
--So? What did you think of my avatars?
He stands there on the corridor that runs across all the rooms in the small appartment. His hands trace the carvings on his New amulet and just goes-- Theyre....alright-- he clears his throat-- thank Rudolph for getting this,tell Him the Institutes doors are always Open for him if he needs something...
And before she can answer he goes downstairs with quick nervous steps. But jerico smiles and has to wipe a small tear on her face.
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A lady at church caused me to lose my religion. via /r/atheism
A lady at church caused me to lose my religion.
My mom was a single mother who worked fast food, so after school and summers me and my brother had to go to daycare. We made good friends with some siblings, a sister Diana and two brothers David and Javier. David was the older brother, and I think me, Javier, and Diana all looked up to him. He was so funny, and we we would all get in trouble a lot. Like if one of us was introuble we all probably were. Many times my mom and their mom had gotten pulled to the office and sat down next to each other, while us guilty kids would try to peak in the window. We were the crew of kids who ran that place for years.
Eventually, me and my brother left the daycare and unfortunately lost touch with them because we went to different schools in the area. I didn't see Javier again until I was in middle school and our area's high school had given the feeder schools free tickets to the theme park. He walked past with quite the limp and a scar on his face so I didnt recognize him at first, but we both did a double take before saying hey. I asked him if his brother and sister were around somewhere. He broke the unfortunate news. He told me they had all been in a crash years earlier. He and David had been thrown from the vehicle, but David didn't make it. Thats why Diana didn't like to leave the house anymore and that's why he had the limp and scar. I apologized and gave him a hug and told him I was glad he was alive. We said goodbye after a few minutes of talking. I walked away thinking about David, and how my old buddy had died.
I found out we all had actually went to the same church. A couple of years earlier my church had started a neighborhood service specifically for kids in the area, where they would pick them up, feed them, play games, and teach about the bible seperate from everybody else(The side of the city the church was located and me and Javier lived was considered the bad or poor side of town, even though most people at the regular church came from the other sides of town and had money). It was crazy that we had been literally across from the parking lot from each other many times. I went to church or bible study 4 times a normal week so it was often. Despite also being from the neighborhood, I went with my grandma so I went to regular church.
Years later, we all ended up at the same high school, but ran in different circles. We always smiled or said hi in passing. I was volunteering for vacation bible school with a bunch of other members of the youth group. I normally just helped in the kitchen make silly themed snacks. At the end of the last day I went to the gym. The children's director got up and started talking to all the kids(age 4-12). It started off well enough with her saying she hoped everyone had a good week and whatnot. Then she told the kids she was going to tell them a story.
I'm paraphrasing but this is pretty much the jist of what she said: So we've been talking about Jesus all week, and I know a lot of you have already accepted him into your hearts. For those of you who haven't want to tell you about a boy I used to know named David.He was one of the funniest little boys I ever met. He would come to neighborhood service with his siblings every week and every week I would ask him if he wanted to accept Jesus into his heart. He always said no. One day I told him if he didn't accept Jesus he would go to hell. He still told me no. I wanted his soul to be saved but he did not want Jesus. Later that day him and his family were in a wreck and David diedcry break and I have to live with the fact that he went to hell and is going to burn for eternity. Jesus saved his brother and sister because they accepted him, but David didn't allow himself to be saved. So I'm going to ask you all one last time if you would like to join me up here and be saved, so if you die on the way home you will be in heaven with Jesus.
The whole time I stood there mouth agape as 20 to 30 kids got up and ran to the stage. Some were so tiny. I walked away and went to the bathroom and stood there washing my hands profusely. I couldn't believe this woman just used my friends death to scare a bunch of kids into accepting Jesus. I couldn't believe she tried to make it out like she was a victim of him saying no. I couldn't believe she told them he was burning in hell.I then thought back to the first time I had ever gone to the church. I was 4 years old, one of those tiny kids. It was my first time being old enough to go to vacation bible school. It was the end of the week. I have been anxious ever since I can remember, so I remember jumping up when they asked us if we wanted to be saved from burning in hell. I realized that everything about my religion had all began with that point. Maybe it didn't come with the awful story that these kids had just heard, but it was still based on fear. I was one of those kids. I thought about it for months. I finally decided that I didn't want to believe in something just because I was afraid, and decided to take time to figure out what I actually believed in. For the first time I allowed myself to question things. I read the Bible from front to back, and didn't put the contradictions in the back of my mind like I was told by all my bible study teachers. By the next summer, I identified as agnostic. I no longer allow that fear to dictate my decisions. I saved my fear for important things like spiders, lightning, and the general public. I decided to find out who I really am and as it turns out I am really gay which I never would have allowed myself to think even for a second before, for fear of hell. Before, I was homophobic and generally a judgemental nasty person, because that is what that church taught me. Now I do my best to not judge anyone(aside from hate-filled people), and am actually a chill person.
Its been over 10 years and I still live in the bible belt, so you can imagine all the bad experiences I've had with Christians since... nothing will ever top the time that lady decided to talk about David.
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Sat sept 17
I was with a group of people like my circle of close friends but I didnt know anybody we all seemed close there were two guys and 3 of us girls, one of the guys seem to be really close to me, we were in this cubical however we were all traveling on a bus the bus inside was bigger than a regular bus but it looked the same as a regular bus on the outside I notice the woman driving had glasses and short blonde hair, they were other groups but I didnt pay much attention to them. We were traveling somewhere like a field trip I guess , no sun but it was light out we got to this place outside I think it was like a zoo or something but my group got lost somehow we meant to drive the bus back to pick up the rest of the class to leave but I had to make a wrong turn because of the train coming across the tracks and I lost the main street we were on so I'm driving this bus thats all black on the inside with cubical station seats but normal on the outside , there are moments when I feel like I will lose control but for never driving a bus before I gain control pretty quickly I remember the road trees on the side hills we must be in the country somewhere, my small group of friends try helping me navigate mainly this girl its now night and I know the rest of the class is worried about us so I try to drive as fast as I am able to get back to them I find a highway that helps me circle back we then get to this huge cafeteria it seems like a church event is going on we enter the cafeteria and I remember I have no money but the guy in our group buys everyone baskets of fries I remember sitting at a table and dipping some fires then I get the craving for some hot chocolate with I get up and go over to the fountains tons of cups and bowls for us to take with us when we leave I grab this container thats like a soup cup for some hot chocolate maybe even room enough for a bit of coffee added I can seenthe glass coffee pot full in front of me, some young boy behind me ask me how old I am I quickly remember that even though in this dream I'm with a class like group I am my real age outside my dream, so ask him 'how old do I look' knowing that my appearance it younger than my actual age , I walk back over to my circle of friends and the rest of the class reunited with us ,one of the girls in my circle is fussing with a pastor about something she is holding her clear tumblr cup with her drink inside she asks that I come over, I place my hands over hers and we change the color of the cup the pastor is shocked then neon color of the cup begins to rapidly change a few more times. We have to leave and its dark out I see all the busses begin entering the gate to pick up their classes but we parked in a different spot we begin to run to the front gate there is mud on the ground but I don't remember it raining somehow I get lost again but it the teacher mia with me we were on this road her and me its dark as we walk I notice a hanging wire she doesn't see it at first I grab her and pull her back and I heard the electric spark we climbed down in this ditch to go around I notice another one to the far left we begin to crawl up the hill to get out of the ditch when I notice the wire like its alive stretches towards us like a snake with no head I push her behind me and I stretch my hands out as if I mentally force it to turn off, we end up inside this apartment but its no ordinary apartment building everything seems cubed all the rooms and apts there's this girl that tries to attack me but I knock her unconscious I notice she has a collection of knives and swords and I begin to steal them I put everything in this drawbag I'm wearing as a backpack and most of the kuckleknives and foldable blades I place in my fannypack ,her mother comes home but doesn't see me in the house I quietly try the old white doors to see which one is the exit I find it as I hear her begin to close in on me, I make it to the hall and find mia she tells me to wait for the elevator cart to slide by before crossing we both have our arms wide open holding onto the sides of the walls as
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hella1975 · 2 years
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I GOT TICKETS FOR JJK 0!!!! IM GOING WITH MY BROTHER BC I HAVE NO ANIME FRIENDS BUT STILL, IM GOING TO SEE IT!!!
shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut the fuck up i want to be you so bad
#how does it feel. to live MY DREAM#i feel bad you're clearly excited and im just here like >:((((( IM SORRY#im already so pissed that i have to wait for the deadline like a fucking local#like mappa dont you get it im not like other jjk viewers i know this media intimately what do you mean i couldnt watch it on xmas eve#AND NOW I CANT EVEN SEE IT IN CINEMA BC NO ONE I KNOW IRL WATCHES IT#LIKE SOME OF MY HOMETOWN FRIENDS DO BUT THEY ARE CURRENTLY SCATTERED ACROSS THE COUNTRY AT VARIOUS UNIS#actually wait hold on i just had a thought#basically today my friend messaged me bc she found my spotify (pure terror moment i was absolutely bricking it)#((like have you SEEN how sus my spotify is all it would take is 'what's this playlist for?' 'why do you get so many likes?' and im DONE))#and OF ALL THINGS she sent me a pic of my itadori playlist being like 'im gonna need an explanation'#and i was like shit shit shit fuck fuck mayday#but i worked with it super well with a cheeky lil 'lmao yeah most of my playlists are just inside jokes dont ask'#and she was like 'no no it's not that. my friend sent me vol1-6 of jjk' WHAT SORRY FUCKING WHAT???#SHES READ UP TO VOLUME 2 AND SHE JUST??? DIDNT SAY ANYTHING??#like this is how normal i come across to people she actually didnt know i even knew what jjk was until she saw my playlists#like that's how good an actress i am we need to address the manipulate mansplain malewife of it all#SO WHAT IF SHE GOES WITH ME? VOL 0 WONT BE TOO CONFUSING FOR HER RIGHT? IT'S BASICALLY A PREQUEL ANYWAY#OMG OMG BESTIES#okay im going to spoons with her now i might subtly drop it into convo and pretend to be normal about it wish me luck#ask#jjk
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gabrielsaiki · 3 years
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saiki k headcanons lets go (eventually saiteru only, but for now it’s every character and is just)
1. nendou didn’t really care at all when saiki told the friend group about the whole psychic thing. nendou was just like “oh okay :] wanna get ramen” while everyone else was in shocked silence.
2. aiura and teruhashi didn’t like eachother, but one time chiyo invited both of them to her house and they clicked. aiura painted her nails (teruhashi s), and treated her like a normal person. made crude jokes around her and everything. teruhashi was drawn to her and now they’re best friends.
3. the first person in the friend group teruhashi turned her perfect mask off for was kuboyasu. she just figured he’s so chill that he couldn’t care.
4. saikis love language is quality time, believe it or not. but not quality time where they do 473847 things, quality time where they just sit in the same room together. maybe across a table doing homework , maybe going to a small little restaurant and eating while having eachothers hands on top of eachother on the table. he loves it (he wouldn’t admit it tho)
5. saiki knows what everyone wants (ofc since he can read thoughts), and he always like will fulfill their needs. he won’t admit that he likes helping them. (ex: __ is thirsty. out of nowhere they see a waterbottle in their backpack. saiki makes them think it’s always been there so that he doesn’t seem like a good person (shiver me timber’s)!
6. nendou is good at comforting people. not in a “it’s gonna be okay bb” way, but in a “i’ll distract you” if he sees someones sad, he goes up to them and is like yo buddy wanna get some ramen?
7. the reason teruhashi always calls herself the perfect pretty girl in her head is bcuz she doesn’t rlly believe it herself.
8. saikis really good at birthday presents, but he doesnt care for them unless he cares for the person. (he pretends to not care for his friends and get them shitty presents when its rlly exactly what they wanted) (did that make sense)
9. kaidou is the type of guy to give the person he likes one of his dark reunion things (ex: he gives arent his little arm bandages and gives him a tutorial on how to kill the dark reunion)
10. (add on to #3) kuboyasu hangs out with teruhashi a lot. idk i like to believe they’re best friends.
11. teruhashi took a liking to nendou bcuz hes nice and he repels people so she can just take a break around him.
12. yumehara and aiura date i don’t make the rules ...
13. hairo is actually fun to hang out with. he’s a very loyal and determined guy lol
oky saiteru now loool (so saiteru antis stop reading here)
1. they make food together. like saiki will make cake and coffee jelly and teruhashi will make the actual meal. saiki insists he doesn’t need an actual meal since his metabolism, but teruhashi says it’s bs and makes him eat his greens. he gets angry but obviously loves it anyways.
2. they end up going to the same college and obviously since god is in teruhashis side , they dorm right next to eachother. it’s become a routine (since saiki and teruhashi both have morning classes) for teruhashi to just give him a coffee in the stairs when they’re going down in the morning. also for them to go down the stairs together. teruhashi doesnt know how the hell saiki always manages to be there but shes not complaining. in reality it’s because saiki (he won’t say this outloud but) reads her mind to see right when she’s gonna leave.
3. teruhashi finds saikis teleporting the absolute coolest thing ever, so saiki always takes her on dates across the world.
4. saikis insists that using his powers to do things teruhashi wants is “100% necessary” and that if he didnt do it the gods would come for him
5. when saiki told the crew about his powers teruhashi fainted into his arms, woke up in his arms, realized she was in his arms, fainted again, and then apologized for fainting twice. then saiki said its okay and turned his lips up the tiniest bit into what could maybe be a smile and she fainted once again. 
6. when saiki lets teruhashi use his first name she passes out. also the first time he says kokomi instead of teruhashi she passes out.
7. teruhashi helps saiki embrace his powers.
8. teruhashi and saiki rlly are invincible together.
9. sometimes for shits and giggles saiki will scare the shit out of teruhashi by just talking in her brain whenever she’s thinking cute things (or things in general) about saiki.
10. teruhashi always talks to saiki in class through her brain. he ignores her like 99% of the time. ex: “saiki this class is so borinnnggg” in the brain and then outwardly she’s like glowing and smiling and saiki finds it the funniest thing.
okay that’s it sorry if they’re shitty they’re my personal ones okay bye
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