#life. not that he’s like. not. but also he’s not. shdhdhdf
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genuinely as soon as im capable of growing facial hair im going for george harrison in his mustache era hair. including mustache
#like once dysphoria leaves me alone enough to grow out my hair a bit#im going to be very george harrison about it#in the shaggy 70s hair way#wait. do you know what realization im coming to#my uncle raulie looks just like george harrison#i mean. not JUST like george harrison. but like i think he might have the same hair inspirations as myself#anyway. im looking at pinterest. i had at first looked up george harrison hair for like#there’s this particular era of george harrison where he had this hairstyle named arthur. and i was going to do that for my next haircut#i changed my mind and did it shorter just because of. social dysphoria and also physical dysphoria#but anyway. arthur era george harrison is one thing but im starting to really like the idea of having 70s shaggy harrison hair#i know it really is just because of the mustache. im jealous of his ability to have a mustache#but the whole look would be so rad. i’d be unstoppable. with 70s shaggy harrison hair#shaggy hair is definitely the way to go when you’re me it’s just that i can’t grow my hair out at all#without people taking it to mean i changed my mind about being trans#anyway my two big hair goals to have sometime in my life is. 2000s scene boy hair. and 70s shaggy harrison hair#so. if you’re planning on knowing me later in life. be prepared. shdhdhdf#anyway i never did put away my phone. but pinterest is nice and so is songs and so is talking to my friends#me. my post. mine.#delete later (probably)#will reblog in a second with examples also#so i cant do that setting. but don’t rb if you’re not me
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here is the silly photo i got with him also
#my hands were shaking from being too excited. but here is me and the singer/lyricist/guitarist of one of my most favorite bands in the world#except for he’s some guy shdhdf they aren’t very famous but they are so so cool and his voice and lyrics are incredible#and guitar too!! but no like his voice is my range and so so beautiful and the words are all so strange and perfect#what a pleasure to repeat the words passed down from daddy.. breaking bread with twelve close friends until your early thirties!!!!#heavy metal fog orchard of god chewing my fingernails off lead me out into the trees like a child quietly!!#a pound of flesh rots in the trunk and i’ve got no excuse cause i cut it out of myself!!!!#right now i just wish i could get some gateway drugs and crawl around in your atrium til i die of old age up in your left lung!!!!#just to name a few. of my favorite lyrics shdhdhdf#across a long and storied career. of like seven years of music where the first ones are a lot more weirder and gross than the others#so anyway i’m talking. but here is me with poolboy seth and i’m very happy to have spoke to him again and got established#i really really want to open for poolboy one day. they’re usually openers which means that if they headline i stand a chance#anyways. here’s me and poolboy and i’m gonna go to bed now. but i have an autograph and a photo and what else can you really want in life#all i need is for my band to reverse its violent awful breaking up of a couple weeks ago and put out an album. so that poolboy can even hear#but no chance of that. so anyway i just need to go to sleep cause i’m pretty tired. but tonight was a good night. i hope everyone is well#also i’m moving out in one week exactly so wish me luck about that too. but anyways goodnight i hope everyone has a good night#me. my post. mine.#delete later#friends only
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actually so relieved to run into this weird vent art from like a week before my partner broke up with me and remember how i was actually profoundly unhappy when we were together. like i literally would have broken up with him within the next couple weeks probably. all it would have changed if he hadn’t broke up with me would be that a valentine’s day together would be a lasting painful memory. whereas our relationship is nearly managing to comfortably fade into background noise.
#this art is weird which is why i never posted it shdhdf but i figure it goes along with self-actualization/the silly stupid angel song#i remember the same time i drew this i had drawn a monster based off my now-ex (it’s in a notebook somewhere)#and i just kept drawing and giving it more evil attributes and thinking why am i doing this it’s supposed to be my partner#but like. my subconscious fucking knew. he was basically a demon feeding on my life force#anyway i’m a fan of the bloody keyhole in my chest cause that’s so real#i love when i write or draw something and then like. months later i finally get to the realization that i subconsciously clearly highlighte#like yeah he’s demanding symmetry from me (golden ratio) and fucking clawing to get to my secrets (keyhole) and expecting me to be this#idealized and appealing figure but also refusing to give me any actual affection in response like i’m just a fucking statue to stare at#and then idk i’m bleeding golden blood because WHY NOT shdhdf maybe there’s symbolism i figure out later but i think that part’s just rad#oh and of course a halo like from THAT ONE GUY WHAT IS HIS NAME paintings#i want to say like giorgio but that’s not right. WHO IS THE GUY WHO PAINTS THE GOLD HALOS#GIOTTO i looked it up it’s my best friend giotto!!!! i can’t believe i turned my back on him…. forgot his name…. anyway i love his halos#and i was halfheartedly emulating that while i was drawing shdhdf. so anyway that’s the story of this whole thing#but no it’s so good to notice that actually i was discontented and needed to break out of the pattern. cause like i don’t think i fully#understood that i’m ALLOWED to end something i’m not happy with. so even though i deserved to i wouldn’t have done it. so it’s a lesson now#i’m aware that it’s something i’m able to do and something that i should have done. and i’ll do it earlier next time. ANYWAY sorry for this#ex talk#vent cw#i’m so normal i promise. i’m actually getting really normal about it genuinely though. basically fine kinda sorta almost. shdhdhdf#anyway i hope everybody is doing well. sorry for just throwing stuff around every once in a while and being otherwise absent#lmk if you need anything anytime!!!! love and light /gen#me. my post. mine.#delete later#ask to tag
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