I wonder how many years left I have putting my socks on while standing up.

This year:

Broke up with someone I’ve been with for 5 years but terrorized me.

Bought a car without a down payment (sorry credit score).

Found a great job unexpectedly.

Proved to myself I can still climb through mountains on an backpacking trip.

Didn’t collapse when two of my immediate family members moved out of state.

Let myself feel all the bad and the good feelings, not giving myself as much shit for it.

My gorgeous and talented (and yes, inked lol) baby sister is in the running to be the next cover model for Inked Magazine! Like her, I would LOVE to see a plus-sized model grace the cover of her favorite magazine, and it would be amazing if that model was her.

Voting starts February 5th.

If you'd also like to see more body positivity in the world (or if you feel like making my day a little brighter, and/or agree that my sister's beautiful!) please vote for her using the link above when the time comes. Never mind the prizes - the validation alone would do wonders for a sweet woman who's struggled with her body image all her life.

So I'm still sort of processing sorting how to talk about this but I'm probably going to be quiet on here for a bit

Because Wednesday we were in a car accident, me and Mom and Kiddo, and while Kiddo and I are okay, Mom's in the hospital with a cracked sternum.

I've already made a post on the LOP site that I'm just taking the rest of the year off. I'd been planning on taking December off in the first place and I just don't see myself updating much in November, because I just can't worry about deadlines with my art right now when I have legal paperwork to worry about.

Mom is probably going to be okay eventually, but she's in a lot of pain, so I want to focus on helping her, too.

I'm basically typing this up laying in bed so I have that last thing done before I try to sleep so I guess I'll wrap it here.

I got told I was being let go today.

Christmas is going to be fun 🙃

Fuck.

tfw something awful happened and u cant rly do anything abt it atm except roll around and worry abt the future and the family member that got badly hurt

Yall should i change my theme yay or nay(NOT an april fools prank i aint that cruel)

It is possible that I have slight depression which, to be honest, I tried to ignore bc I’m delulu

so i've been on T for 2 months by now and i gotta say, the most interesting change thus far is that i've suddenly started taking my coffee black. in my dale cooper era

Can everyone stop dumping their problems on me? Not only is their life shit.

~ Nemo

And again 😣

Hey y’all, you know how there’s been a few times I’ve asked for money because I had unexpected repair bills or an injury that was keeping me from working? Well guess what, now I have both. A gnarly sprained ankle two weeks ago and a busted water pump on my work vehicle last month. And on top of that, the doctors didn’t take the sprain seriously so I couldn’t even get a certificate for medical EI (and I can’t work if I can’t walk), and I’m going to have to throw hundreds more into rehab for the ankle because that shit ain’t covered (and neither are the hundreds in fillings I needed recently). I’m bleeding money and sinking into the red fast, and can’t do much of anything about it.

In short,

I know I’m not super active on Tumblr these days, but if anyone has enjoyed my musings and writings and visual content over the years, or simply wants to throw me a bone, you can find my ko-fi here ❤️🙏

(No pressure or guilt btw, I know there’s other people in worse situations than mine. My housing situation isn’t stable long-term but is for the moment, so it’s not an emergency. But no one will know I need help if I don’t ask, so I’m asking.)

i have no idea how to do this assignment and it's due in less than a week

The way this album has become a LIFE RAFT for me is frankly frightening

You know what really sucks?

Seeing someone you aren't friends with anymore ALL OVER social media.

Like I deleted you from my Facebook and IG, why are you still all over the place?! I hate having common friends with irl people like goddamnit.

Go the fuck away and go bother someone else! Ugh.

I hate that the only reason I have both FB and IG is to keep up with the friends I still have from where I used to live but it REALLY FUCKING SUCKS that the person I had the worst falling out with I have ever had with anyone is still friends with these people.

I wish I could just be like "y'all she's a fucking backstabber" but like they know. We all worked together, like we all saw what she did. Eh, whatever, my bestie that still works with her basically wrote her off too after this chick burned her bridge with her. I guess we're the only sane ones now, ironically enough, cuz we helped her get rehired at the place.

Blaaaah whatever I don't even live up there anymore so who cares, just hate seeing her name everywhere 😐

Since I started wearing earplugs to shows (way too late in life I’m practically deaf in one ear) walking into a venue without them in while a band is playing is a very jarring experience. Wear earplugs at gigs, kids. Take it from your post hardcore post kid