I know the cbat meme was over a month ago, but I still think it’s funny. I enjoy making silly edits, it’s relaxing for me. Let me know if you liked it or wanna see more of this!
when i say “i think blame is largely pointless” i mean that, when you knocked over my mug and it shattered on the floor, it would’ve made me feel a lot better if you’d helped me sweep up the pieces than it did when you explained to me the convoluted sequence of events that led to ceramic shards for my cat to step on when he came to investigate. it’s like, i get it, you don’t want me to think you did it on purpose or carelessly, but to be honest, mostly it’s just that what’s left of the mug is on the floor and i don’t want anyone to get hurt stepping on the leftovers.
when things got a little more complicated (not that they ever weren’t, given how we started), i had to think about the difference between blame and causality. you may have caused the mug to break, but it wasn’t your fault, just an accident of the sort we can really only go so long without. the first time we had a bad misunderstanding and both got hurt, i assumed it was the same thing- just a bit more unfortunate, since both our hands brushed that mug before it found its way to the ground. it took until maybe the third time, when you said it was because “we have communication problems” that i started to think in terms of responsibility instead of simple chains of “x leads to y.” the fifth time, the big time, at least to me, i realized that “we” wasn’t quite the right word. see, after watching you nudge the mug closer and closer to the edge every time i looked away for weeks, flinging swears and “hate”s when i tried to push it away from the brink, only to barely admit there had been an issue at all when you realized you didn’t want the mug to break, i think it’s you.
ive sort of lost count, since, of the times i ask you something and you lie, whether from omission or just falsehood. and its always normal shit, too, like “is there anything you need?” or “do we have plans for wednesday?”
i wish i knew why. maybe it’s weird to try and fix your problem that’s hurting me, but, well, i’ve called guilt a self-serving emotion enough times i think it would be hypocritical to use yours as an excuse not to try. i wonder about it a lot, if maybe it’s because you’re afraid to think too hard about any one thing, so sometimes your response to your roommate’s “your apologies suck” is a laughing emoji.
maybe you’re just not as nice as i thought. and wouldn’t that be something
I don't want to start lexposting again but clex shippers are really missing out on clex where clark is the obsessive weirdo. Or rather, they're both obsessive weirdos but Lex really IS just thinking about power and enmity and Clark is the one developing a romantic complex about it. Of course there's not as much canon basis but isn't that what fanon and AUs are for?
Julian and Sofia are a thousand times better together than Julian and Laura. I do think the latter two were cute but like... they have NOTHING on Julian with Sofia.