I have an exam on Wednesday that I'm crash-studying for because I have clinical all day tomorrow so I won't have time after today.

And @kithtaehyung aka SATAN won't stop sending me fuckin thirst trap clips of Yoongi, SOMEBODY GET HER

My name is literally in the credits of TOTK and I’m still rooting for Baldy Gate to win GOTY lmao

wait. the piofiore sequel is on switch now. hold on.

Okay, so here's an observation:

As a person who's constantly on check with what they feel and do (reflecting on probably 90% of social clues and information) I've discovered an interesting titbit: sometimes I pick on people's feelings (men, it's mostly of men) of being uncomfortable around me. And when the interaction is over, I circle back to that conversation in my head, trying to figure out what was it that bothered them. Was I being too loud? Or not mindful enough? Did I happen to speak over them at one point or maybe take up too much space? 'Cause it feels like it. And then I'm like: Oh, wait. I did not, in fact. I was polite, as I usually am, I took up exactly as much body space as they did, I talked with the same volume, but the thing is - I'm a woman. So it made them uncomfortable. And then they transferred those feelings to me. But I'm good, actually, I didn't do anything wrong.

It's just that for a woman acting as an equal feels impolite.

So there's that. Never knew I'd discover this deep of an effect gender socialization has on us. Thought I'd share.

Omg I just started watching svu too

i’ve been watching it in bursts! like a frenzy of episodes and then a break of a few days / weeks, and then another frenzy of episodes.

I've never been openly rejected before until today. It's weird, it's like mixture of annoying, frustration, resents and some other things I don't know. It's strange, but drunk so who knows what's real~

oh jeez my laptop stopped working 🙃

Just wanted to say that I love your text posts!! I also really enjoy that they look like similar to kakaotalk, I think it's a nice touch!

Aw thank you!! I also thought that was interesting! I dont have an iPhone and i know that most people in korea use ktalk anyway so i thought it would be an interesting change!

14 FEB 2024

1 tahun dari aku nulis kesedihanku di hari valentine di level 21 JCO, pura2 ngomong bhs korea, mendambakan yoongjae soeeun dan wondering kapan my turn dikasih Tuhan..

Tentu aja aku berharap tahun Tuhan kasih cerita bahagia yang lain, seperti manusia lain, seperti yang aku harapin.. memang ceritanya udah jauh berbeda, dan aku bisa aja hanya kalut sama pikiranku sendiri, expektasiku sendiri, pengertianku yg egois dan terpengaruh iblis2 dunia..

Minggu ini mungkin terjauh bisa dibilang aku sm gwanghui.. i mean gabisa bilang, tapi aku mulai merasa disia2in, gak dianggap, dia gak care and menjauh banget daripada minggu2 awal dan waktu kita di tintin..

Kamis abis lifegroup sebenernya aku udah manyun karena pulang doa rabu n meet hyojin sojin dia bner2 kesel sm warung or entah kenapa dia di mobil bner2 cuma diem doang, bahas visa lah, liat kakao talk lah.. benci banget aku, emang aku supir.. mau2 nya dia banget.. gatau perasaan aku doang atau gmn, sbnernya pas pergi sih baik2 aja, dia pake baju wrc santai, aku pake baju biru mudaku yg tanktop.. kita jg sneng2 cerita juluk2in satu sama lain ttg wangjanim lah, gmn dia blg nuna tuh beda, dia bukan org indonesia.. trus gatau kepengaruh pas malemnya pas hyo tanya: durinen couple? kita sama2 nyaut, ani, trus gw tambahin munsuriya.. gatau dia tersinggung apa engga, aku jg ya gengsi lah uda jelas2 dia deny ani.. trus dia jelasin knp dia ke bali: dia joking krn ada nuna, demi cewek dia ke bali, trus emphasize: just kidding, gw tambahan: ara, nado ara!! itu baik2 aja.. makan jg enak2 bgt, sm sajangnim dikasi byk bonus, duo daegu jg blg aduh kalian berdua lucu banget dll.. kita bner2 ky cute couple yg udah saling ngerti each other and perfect, dr ngom rs international bali n jg tmenku ada channel dll.. dia jg suru aku makan cheonnya, dll.. trus bye2 n kita doa ke bali budha, aku pilihin yg dia kira2 suka tp kynya ttp dia gasuka, trus masi bercanda2 aduh ini cowo ganteng di zoom, aku jg gamau kalah aduh ini yeppeun yeoja..

Beres doa jg masih becanda2 bikin video ke oliv, dll.. tp trus diusir dia BT, d mobil senderan sndiri, baca2 ktalk badmood sendiri, gw jg nyanyi2 sendiri n diem aja: EMG GW SUPIR. kynya kelamaan bareng bikin BT n we need to put distance. Besoknya dia blg: nuna aku k sanur duluan, aku jg rada BT udah dia dtgnya telat, tp aku jujur enjoy aja sama anak2, males jg pas dia dateng jd harus adjusting dll. Dia dtg gw cm ngom: jm berapa woy.. trus aku dingin, tidur2 aja sndiri, dia trus gw suru naik kayak sm anak2, cm ambil iphone dia, dia sempet tarik2 gw hwuijangnim ayo, gw gamau.. foto2, biasa aja, ngasi makan anak2, becanda2 pas makan, bayar2, popmie, baso, joget tiktok jgjujur gw slalu luluh sih at the end of the day, betapapun gw mau dingin n lg sebel banget.. di mobil masih trauma sm kmaren, tp rada membaik, bs sync geunde dedega nana cuahae.. tp ya dia main2 hp kynya janjian sm temennya n bener aja dia minta rekomen kafe n nemuin temennya dr soccer group yg kmaren.. cowo sih tp yawda gt aja..

Hari jumat aku jg sibuk urusan rumah melaspas, aku takut, tp dia jg gak seems peduli, aku sm bella aja, pulang makan sm pram, tidur siang, trus aku lari, sambil sedih jg dia ga kontak aku apa2, aku jg gatau salah gak aku gaajak dia ke rumahku.. trus aku lari 5K, lagi dnger mideumin opsineun: tak orangnya muncul lg ambil gojek.. aneh banget ga? mnurutku itu Tuhan kasih jawaban sih, sbnernya tetep dia orangnya, cm timingnya aku harus tunggu aja dua2nya masih dalam proses.. yg 1 masih denial n feel like so much to prove dgn batu, moody, childish dan gengsi setinggi langit.. yg 1 baperan, gengsinya, lemah dan self controlnya kdg kurang, takutan, menjalankan smua bdsk feeling and how people treat her, imajinasi setinggi langit, tp bagusnya DIA PUNYA TUHAN YANG MEMBELA, yg kehendaknya gabisa diganggu gugat pun sm 2 keunikan 2 manusia ini..

Lanjut sabtu sincia aku bner zoonk ga ngapa2in, aku uda takut n feeling2 sndiri dia kontekan sm E n k dance class nya or gmn.. aku post foto di IG jg ga di like, benci banget.. hujan jg seharian.. tp aku recover n nyanyi2 aja sendiri..

Minggu membaik, dia greja seharian, lagu koram deo: One thing I seek & enhyeroda yg aku suka bgt krn dengerin healing voice terus.. gw jg pas sore akhirnya wa duluan, dia sih bales imut gwang2i tenten~ au ah gelap..

mana kita pake baju kembar lagi sama2 biru muda, di mobil cerita, td abis ibadah pagi aku telp halmoni haraboji, papa, nuna chukadeul, mreka blg aku kurus banget n disuru cepet balik.. kita beli jeruk di grand lucky (aku berdoa itu kita di masa depan akan selalu berdua beli grocery rumah tangga).. trus kita telat bareng, di greja si E duduk di tengah2 kita lg wkkww bgt.. aku sih uda kebal, bebal, cuek.. bella pulang duluan, kita forum, dede ngilang, trus pas pulang aku suru dia kasi apple nya ke ibu kim, dia sneng trus kasih kita mandu: tnya ntar gatchi mokgo ya.. kalian tinggal bareng kan? trus kynya E agak dketin dia gt, dia diem aja.. dia gendong khan, E gendong terry, gw sih cuek aja ngobrol2, KH geli kynya dideketin E trus dia kasih khan ke aku suru gendong tp dia pegang2 terus, elus2 terus selama khan di tanganku (mery, ibu kim, E bengong aja liat adegan itu).. aku seneng bgt, my pisces mind pikir itu sperti masa depan kita gendong2 anak (DUH MARSHELLA), aku blg gwang2 ini gendong si khan, berat, dia: aheuaheu gamau.. suru aku gendong, getok!! balik k ruangan pun dia dket2 aku sambil main rubrik, aku blg baegoppa... trus kita pamit n makan ke arena seneng bgt.. bner2 ky date.. psen bnyak banget, enak.. ngobrolnya bner2 panjang lebar aku sampe gatau lg, deep banget ttg Tuhan, misi, ngom jangronim & pengorbanannya.. dia blg: geugoneun oksuni mission, taekyuni mission, andrewi mission, samwoli mission.. aku diem aja.. pas ketemu eka n istrinya yg cantik, dia kenalan jg, n komen: so white.. cantik mgkn maksudnya, trus cerita aku blg pasti at least ada 1 org yg aku kenal dsni..

Aku cerita dr kecil aku slalu dia sekolah TOP, (aku, yoora, oliv, eka dr 1 uni d jakarta, tmpt org kaya, ky yonsei) tp aku beda sm temen2ku, mamaku cm dr salary.. kesussahanku, nightmare ku yg udah leat n kanpa aku suka hemat simpen2 uang krn masalaluku.. dia blg: background km bagus gt, knapa km gak ke stable church? Krn Tuhan lg process km: pure as gold apa gt ayat alkitabnya, trus kasih link youtube and nyanyi2 berdua deh kita lyric lagunya..

Cerita betapa hidupnya susah, dia ngerasain smua kesusahan yuni, dede, E, krn dulu dia jg sll miskin gt, baru skrg aja Tuhan kasih dia lebih.. hr ini reno sm E ga perhatiin sermon.. gmn caranya kita bikin mreka tertarik sm firman n lebih serius.. dia blg darakbang itu perlu.. itu gmn dia sm jihoon selama setahun melakukan.. dia harus setir 2 jam ke ansan, tiap dia lakuin apa jihoon gamau dnger, sampe skrg jihoon yg doain dia tiap hari, aku slama januari ga bales dia apa2 nuna, cm reaktion aja krn spiritual stateku lg gabaik.. tp dulu jihoon beda bgt, untuk itu aku bersyukur sm Tuhan n kita harus lakuin sm anak2 skrg.. aku blg tau gak, aku tuh susah bgt lakuin itu sm E, dia tuh beda bgt sm aku.. aku gak suka kl ditnya, lebih baik dia gaada d group kita, tp aku tau bukan itu yg Tuhan mau.. jd aku coba lawan kedaginganku n ajak dia ktmu terus, itu pun dia masih ga trima kasih.. aku beliin dia ini itu, sperti byk sacrifice tp aku coba lakuin, krn aku mau iikutin kata Tuhan..

Trus ada lg makdeg aka dia tnya: tmen2 nuna yg dr belanda cantik? maksudnya mau minta dikenalin apa gmn? km bnr2 ga nganggep aku, gak pertimbangin aku?? itu aku sakit hati banget gwanghui!!

trus ya pokoknya panjang mlm itu, dia yg bayar smua lagi, ktnya ini celebration.. aku paksa share dia gamau.. trus pulang, dia blg keburu ga beli buah? aku coba ke pepito sesetan, kita cute bgt lg, pilih2 buah, kejar2an krn aku titip buahku di keranjang dia.. dia suru aku pilih buah.. rekomen snack, aku suru beli kue marie ktnya jinja nuna ky papakku.. wkkwkwkw sialan.. aku suru beli hello panda dll. akhirnya dia bli bir jg, ttp gamau disuru tuker tas, charge samsung, mau2 lu lah.. batu.. aku k mobilin ambilin hpnya yg ada card hanabank, aku suru cepetan.. dia suru aku bliin eskrim coklat (brani2nya).. trus ya pulang dg hati gembira, muter2 parkiran krn dia wangjanim mau yg dket.. sneng sih bgt mlm itu.. tp trus dia ganti profile katalk malesin bgt selfie d ikea gt, pas amanda jg ganti lagi.. kdg mau curiga tp ya gatau yee, kedaulatan Allah..

Senin aku sibuk seharian parah krn pak david dll, jg aku mau buatin tteokkuk, n smua ekspektasiku.. dia wa aku bales ky 3 jam kemudian krn ttg dede, dan aku harus bible study while aku worry mau buatin yg perfect buat dia.. pas aku tnya huhu dia malah d beachwalk entah sm siapa.. aku suru telp kl pulang, dia ga ngomong2 sampe aku tg jm 12 mlm.. kynya itu puncak kekesalanku sih, smua salah paham n aku yakin dia jg gatau smua ini n ga peduli.. sedangkan aku ngarep beribu2 ngarep..

selasa gaada babibu apapun, aku sibuk n ktemunya malah di argos pas aku lg stress bgt mau telp bu ursula pak willy.. dia manyun2 walau ganteng n putih bgt pake baju abu.. pgen aku peluk tapi dia gak even pamitan sm aku pas mau pergi les: gondok banget kan aku bner2 kesel.. sampe mlm pun gaada bilang apa2, ga berhub. pokoknya gatau lah knapa..

hari ini valentine, aku expect apa kek, dia darakbang n kerja seharian sm bella. aku dsuru nyamper aku males, trus yooni sm aku ngedate aja.. dia yg send n dia respon d group (pinter jg gw kadang2).. kita cm berhub di group solideo n dlm doa intinya setiap hari.. saling gengsi gamau wa duluan.. dia sih wa ttg abdi n mo ngapain besok.. aku bales seadanya.. pas doa baru dia yg muncul dia tnya: wae honjaseo? aku BT aja ga aku bales, cm blg: genyang.. suara gw kedengeran gak? yawda doa n aku liat dia post d IG ikut riot, dpt pocky valentine (selamet yee 1 group dapet smua), n doa.. dia tuh kl productive baru seneng, heran gw.. tp hatiku teriris2 bner2 sedih aja ky kita jadi jauh banget, n seopen or cerita2 ky dulu lg dia slalu cerita hari2nya.. aku sedih banget n hati aku tuh sakit banget ya Tuhan rasanya.. aku ky harus belajar lepasin genggaman satu2, mindset yg bener biar gak tjaksarang n aku doang yg naksir.. aku tentu saja limited n ga ngerti Tuhan lg proses aku yg pasti, aku pun kehilangan rasa syukur akan the fact that the one is already brought over here, itu aja udah miracle.. banyak pertanda2 lain, kecocokan yg luar biasa, tp mmg timing n jalannya masih muter aja dulu.. tapi yg pasti sesebel2nya, aku gak give up doa untuk kebaikan dia, masa depan kita bersama dan kedaulatan Tuhan akan hubungan kita.. Maafin shella ya Tuhan, slalu mau buru2 dan dibutakan sm ekspektasi shella sndiri, berikan shella pengertian, kebijaksanaan utk handle kondisi ini.. shella suka n gemes bgt sm KH.. i hope we'll be united as God intended.. ILOVEYOU LORD, ILOVEYOUKKH

TilkTalk Medical Lawyers Networking Website Review

TillkTalk Medical Lawyers Networking Website is an exceptional platform that caters specifically to medical lawyers seeking to connect, collaborate, and stay informed.

TilkTalk Medical Lawyers Networking Website Review Introduction Medical Lawyers Networking Website Welcome to Til;kTalk, a comprehensive online platform designed exclusively for medical lawyers. In this review, we’ll explore the amazing features and benefits that Til;kTalk offers, inviting you to join this thriving community of legal professionals. So, let’s dive in and discover what makes…

View On WordPress

副业赚钱必备！这些引流技巧，让你轻松月入破万！最新市面上价值660一年的国际微信，ktalk助手无限加好友，解放双手轻松引流【脚本+详细教程】

You can't tell me this pic isn't scratching an itch for every (white) Y/N out there. He could be the mafia boss you're forced to marry. The vampire king making a deal in exchange for your life. The CEO that knocked you up begging you to marry him. The rival of your fashion empire asking for a truce to win a competition. The economics professor that believes you're so smart even if you don't.

The possibilities are endless, I'm so happy for y'all 🥲

thinking about that time my friend called my partner my “stardew valley boyfriend”

u know, literally so little things are better than moving away from your hometown and just going: "well good thing that is dealt with. Suck my ass I'm not gonna pretend anymore"

I am so unapologetically weird now. I shamelessly make excited sounds when I see the animations I love. I hop through fences and slide under turnstiles with glee because I lost my dometry pass card AGAIN but oh well what will you do, and I dance at forests at night because the music in my headphones is good and makes my body move and I let it move. I made a routine of feeding crows on my way to the university because YES I do want to be the crow lady, I also carried a huge fly agaric to my room because the mushroom was beautiful and you know how my roommates reacted? They said, "Ah, K's at their thing again. And there I thought the day was gonna end badly. " The girls think I'm one of the coolest people they know and I'm not saying this because I'm full of myself or anything, they legitimately told me! They said they loved how passionate I was and that I wasn't afraid of it, and I am telling you this now too to let you know:

people actually love it when you are you.

And if they don't, they are not your people.

So you know, stay weird. Full of love. Stay full of love. Be be be you please. A stranger from the internet promises you it pays off so it must be true. (Of course it is.)

And also check out just how big and pretty that mushroom was.

Peace.

em lng b wlng pke sa ktalking stge

It's starting to bother me how tiresome it is to assert boundaries. Like, it's nice because asserting your will reinforces your sense of identity and can charter a sense of self-made consistency into your life however the inertia and pain points of shutting people down or having to negotiate with overly rigid people is just ughhh. Like it's worth it and everyone should but man, tiresome