i don’t know. it’s interesting. the fanfiction that represents tony the most honestly is almost always the fanfiction that’s not about him. the stories where he hovers in the peripheries. the stories where steve flirts horribly with sam, or bucky and natasha kill men with nail files, or phil and clint finally do something about their terrible, burgeoning, unspoken loves. the stories where tony only swoops out of the sky to benevolently rain gifts upon the avengers, like a manic pixie fairy godmother, where he takes morgan out on play dates with kate bishop, where he bullies steve out of his incredibly stupid self-imposed hermitude, where he takes pepper out dancing while the rest of the avengers stare on in repressed, semi-jealous, stiff-upper-lipped longing that tony stark, somehow, is the only team member in a (semi) functional long term relationship. side-character!tony is crisply tailored, and never woobified, and a huge gossip, and bad at secrets, and incredibly, relentlessly competent. i love side-character!tony.

i've been thinking a lot the past few days weeks months

i can't tell if i'm losing myself or if i even knew who i was to begin with

our therapist actually suggested that we might have osdd-1b today, and that we should sit with that concept and see how we feel about it. we have really mixed feelings about this. on one hand, it feels good that our therapist is starting to recognize all of us as separate members of a system, but at the same time, we don’t feel like we’re disordered enough to qualify for a diagnosis like that. 

we talked a bit about our trauma, and he suggested that there might be more to our situation than meets the eye, and that our trauma holders might be keeping more to themselves and not really sharing the full story with us. he also suggested that we try to be in touch with each other as much as possible (which really isn’t an issue for us, since most of us like to hang out near the front and we’re always talking to each other throughout the day).

idk it’s just interesting since we’ve been doing so much research online and interacting with systems here on tumblr, to have someone outside of online spaces recognize that our experiences are valid and that we might be a bit more disordered in this particular regard than we think. we don’t think trauma is required to be a system, and there’s no way around the fact that some of us do have endogenic origins. this is all just a lot and pretty confusing for us, and we don’t quite know what to make of this yet.

pearlsgem ↝ mulderpng

what the fuck is the outsiders name and why did you whisper it instead of just saying it out loud daud

the last time i did one of those multi fandom personality quizzes they said i was some uncomfortable mix of gaius baltar, tyrion lannister, and tony stark — which is really. such an unnecessarily long-winded way of calling me short.

In a mood today 😬

sorry followers oops

i love using neopronouns!!

i’d consider myself alterhuman (or simply a hawksbill sea turtle) and neopronouns have been an awesome way for me to hold onto my aquatic identity while inhabiting a human body. some of my pronouns are:

sea/sear/seas/seaself

turt/turt/turts/turtself

flip/flipper/flips/flipperself

wave/wave/waves/waveself

tide/tidal/tides/tideself

reef/reef/reefs/reefself

i hoard pronouns like a dragon and treasure so i kinda expect this list to grow… i’m always bugging parker or margo to ask them to use more neopronouns for me haha i can’t get enough!

-kip

just a real quick thanks to all of you for sticking around!! thank you sO MUch for getting me here, if you’ve got any suggestions of how I can give back to you all for getting me to this milestone don’t be scared to let me know!! Again, thank you for a great art year and I hope to keep giving content for years to come *✧･ﾟ

ive been sleep deprived for weeks now and this morning after pulling an all-nighter playing doto i actually said "by the void" when i tripped over something in my closet and.... im like kind of disappointed in myself lol