ELEGY FOR KENTUCKY
Nowhere to drive, night upon night
that last summer, but back back
to the cokey couple I was crashing with
in their 26-year habit. On the way there
the same horse always dying at the curve
before I turned, like a kitschy disco ball,
onto their street, name I can’t recall.
There she lay toppled like a toy figurine.
Calm but huffing, a laboring machine
making steam, though the cold air
belonged to June, its grief. A filly
done before becoming a mother, great belly
black & wide as all surrender
& that magnificent face still against the grass
waiting on the end. There she was every time
whispering something to me, a line
throbbing, a visible heartbeat I watched
in the mirror for hours with my huge horse eyes.
I needed to see her, to make sure
she was still there. I went the same way each evening
wanting to feel something, to see
this once-immortal creature get up. Any weak thing
was welcome to finish me then & when he came
into the room with bridle & bit,
on his 26-year high, when he came
up on me where I was lying at that curve
in my mind, arms & teeth numb,
I did not resist. Just a muted yell inside for months
before it lit on me like an ancestor.
As a child, I followed my grandfather
across the street behind our house
Longfield Avenue, backside of the track
where the thoroughbreds for that May’s Derby
were trapped, bored of what they were bred for,
all their royalty within a corral.
My hand, a child’s offering, was empty
when they snorted & drew their worn noses
across my palm, yet, it was in their nature to remain
friendly toward me. My home did not keep
its promise after my grandfather died.
There was no protection for what I was
without him. Lone black filly. Finished
before becoming. She must have tired
of standing there high-headed, waiting for me
to ride her out of that war, to call out
let’s go. We are done here.
JOY PRIEST
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I think of Whitney Houston in her sequined glamour
She’s centerstage It’s 1988 Her head
Thrown back against a black backdrop She is the only thing
glowing So distant from us in the universe
of her voice She is already dying when
I hear her sing the first time When I slip inside
my rhinestone leotard white tights Before a mic
My vocal chords are still elastic Vibrating harpstring
Not yet sclerotic with unlovely smoke and shame
I’m drawn to Whitney like a cardinal on a branch
in winter Beauty too bright for camouflage Her story
a constellation twinned with mine. I love myself
because of her. Our sweet lip sweat sparkling in the flame
light. I went home inside myself too. The world became so small.
Secrets collapsing my life into a vacuum. To burn a little longer—
Whitney, you know no one is coming—you must save yourself.
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When I See the Stars in the Night Sky
By Joy Priest
I think of Whitney Houston in her sequined glamour
She’s centerstage It’s 1988 Her head
Thrown back against a black backdrop She is the only thing
glowing So distant from us in the universe
of her voice She is already dying when
I hear her sing the first time When I slip inside
my rhinestone leotard white tights Before a mic
My vocal chords are still elastic Vibrating harpstring
Not yet sclerotic with unlovely smoke and shame
I’m drawn to Whitney like a cardinal on a branch
in winter Beauty too bright for camouflage Her story
a constellation twinned with mine. I love myself
because of her. Our sweet lip sweat sparkling in the flame
light. I went home inside myself too. The world became so small.
Secrets collapsing my life into a vacuum. To burn a little longer—
Whitney, you know no one is coming—you must save yourself.
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It spreads on so thick. Good Morning!!!
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I adore how you manage to tickle these very intimate emotional moments from tiny detached throw-away sentences describing historical events. You're a master at filling in the deeply human blanks of history. I hope to one day be as good as you are at extrapolating emotion and nuance and momentary life from the often very broad strokes history is written with.
a couple years ago, I got ahold of M. L. Clarke's The Noblest Roman: Marcus Brutus and his Repuptation, and the way the book closes rewired something forever in my heart
it shifted my focus from being a spectacle enjoyer to wanting to sit around these figures like machiavelli writes about doing and ask them questions and see what reply is given, which also made the political spectacle more interesting
and a huge part of it is that one of my favorite genres is romance, and erotica is fun too. its a genre that is character heavy and reliant on intimacy and I LOVE character driven narratives. my favorite kind of stuff from my other two beloved genres, horror and mystery, tend to be focused on character moments, driven by internal and external arcs (OCN's the Guest, you'll always be number one in my heart forever and ever).
even though I'm doing circus stuff with historical figures, the fiction aspect of it is HEAVILY influenced by those genres because that's a lot of what I read and also enjoy writing. I'll never be good at writing dense political fiction spanning across a huge world (the thought of attempting anything on the world building scale of ASoIaF makes my brain hurt, and Im also not interested in doing that), but my god will I pick a guy and spend months in his ribcage imagining situations and wondering what he liked to eat for breakfast.
this was!!! really nice to read!!!!! thank you so so much, anon
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I know it's not as bad as that time where the wiki team immediately labelled him as "romantically interested in Amy" just cause he's old and a man ( he's just being manipulative to the core)
But holy shit just call him demon or like, "high ranking demon" WHY YOU DIAGNOSED HIM WITH ALPHA
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double date vibes
because the alt text has a character limit, heres the quotes:
For the Faraway Wanderers one:
(Wen KeXing) “What...do you think makes a good person? Why do people have to be good?”
(Zhou Zishu) “Think about it. If you only rely on yourself your whole life, always being on guard against everyone else, having no relationships or anyone to care for you, wouldn’t that be too pitiful? It’s too miserable, being a bad person.”
For the Lord Seventh one:
(Wu Xi) “Beiyuan.”
(Jing Beiyuan) “Hmmm?”
(WX) “In this life, you will be the only one in my heart. In the next life, and the life after. I will frever remember you, so long as my soul hasn’t scattered.”
(JBY) “I don’t know who I’ll be in the next life.”
“The head won’t remember, but the heart will. I must have said something like this is a past life.”
“I don’t...remember you saying anything like this in my past life.”
“Even If I didn’t say it for you to hear, I have recited it a million times as I watched your back.”
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Raphael comes to her with sharp edges and teeth, searching for control and finding it in the play of her body.
She thinks, sometimes, that she would find it comical if it wasn’t so tragic. Raphael demands what she would give freely. Her devil comes to her in a flurry of movement. He longs to fight and conquer, but the gates are open, her surrender tendered.
(NO ONE LOOK AT ME. I KNOW. I SPENT ALL DAY SAYING HE DOESN’T CARE. HE ISN’T SOFT. I KNOW. I RECOGNIZE MY SINS. I’M A HYPOCRITE.)
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been scrolling through your art today because the way your shapes flow is such an inspiration and i had a question pop to mind. Machete is part of a religious institution and seems to command some respect as an adult, what's his rank Like bishop, cardinal ect I found myself curious about it!
He's a cardinal!
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“Everyone wanna put hands on a piece of your life”
Joy Priest
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Commission for FanaticofBeads on twitter!
The incubus Samuel presents his recently made crop top (scissors were involved) to the appropriately mortified Fr. Javier😆
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my favorite thing about that season 2 dvd extra where the boys are standing in the dark playing a band naming game is when you can hear brendon and tommy almost break and start laughing a little bit because it just makes it sound like they are all having the time of their fucking lives
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Looking for the Beautiful Things
By Joy Priest
I live in Texas now. & in the next lane over on I-10
BIG JEFF is soaring at twin-speed toward the dusk-pending horizon
& something base & graceful has taken us over
like, if I took my hands off the wheel, we could lift into the air & become
part of the indistinguishable wave of laughing gulls above.
BIG JEFF says his license plate, which I first checked when I let him pass
10 miles back because his lights behind me
were the Second Coming (or the First Coming, in his case, if we’re making
the usual jokes about men with big trucks).
But I don’t want to make unbecoming jokes about BIG JEFF, who is
right now, accompanying me down this interstate
of solitude, not leaving me behind or riding my bumper, just gliding
beside me as if he needs someone too, as if he trusts me
& said to himself in his blue-lit interior, Hey, I’m gonna hang on her wing.
She seems to know how to get where we’re going.
She’s probably a hellcat. No balls hanging from his tow bar, just BIG JEFF
on his pearlescent Ford Super Duty, which has a row of three
headlights on each side & which, I admit, I was more than annoyed by
when he came up behind me like an astrodome
on wheels. But Texas is home now & this is the way of things—BIG JEFF
& NASA, tacos & trucks. The only state with more guns
than Kentucky, the expert at the range told me before I left. I am an expert
at beginnings, a Lone Star once again, as I have been
in every state I’ve lived—the Bluegrass, the Garden, the Palmetto, the Bay—
each time hoping I’m closer to the beautiful things.
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I got potential news (not happy, but I mean not sad). Latest justice in the dark (rumor) updates: was taken down due to legal issues (likely copyright) and they do plan to re air from the beginning at a later date once issue is taken care of and cdrama airing timing is right. Rumor is actors were requested to rake down their farewell letters. Meaning... the show is back in hiatus. Like the past several months. Except now the 8 episodes can only be watched on unofficial sites in the meantime.
Schrodingers cat isn't probably the right comparison but like. It's the potentially perpetual unknown status show. ToT
Anyway I saw 2 posts on weibo which were rumor only, mentioning airing later, and one post on weibo mentioning the reason for taking the show off was copyright issues.
On mydramalist comments someone mentioned a Twitter thread on why it was taken down, but I can't see shit on Twitter right now so im just going by what the comment said. The Twitter thing they quoted: Cao5903 (@cao5903) Staff Youku said: "Due to some unexpected reasons that could not be controlled in time, we had to take down #JusticeInTheDark to handle it. Wait for it to be okay and then replay it from the beginning."
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"God doesn't love you. Not like I do."
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