Jo was 10 when her dad was killed on May 16th, 1995. She turned 10 in April, so that means she was almost finished with 4th grade.

I imagine Ellen would've had her take absences for like 2-4 weeks. But when she got back to school, everything was different. All of the sudden, everyone in her grade knew she existed, and they'd offer condolences (as best as 10 year olds can) and classmates who never gave her the time of day before were suddenly being super nice to her. She didn't fit in before, but now she stuck out like a sore thumb. And what's worse, everyone pitied her. Gawking at her in the halls, the cafeteria, and the playground, as though she was a 3 legged puppy in an animal shelter ad.

Her grades took a nosedive. After all, she'd been behind from the time she missed and she couldn't bring herself to care about making any of it up. Ellen received calls from the school about her behavior more and more. Things like not completing her homework, refusing to participate in certain activities, "disturbing imagery" (as her teacher put it) in her work, even picking fights with other students on occasion.

It wasn't any easier at home. Apathy seeped into every facet of her life. Things she used to enjoy didn't interest her anymore, and they only reminded her of her dad. Ellen was there for her as much as she could be while still running the Roadhouse, since they couldn't afford to take time off. She had been angry since the day she told Jo he'd died- though, Jo was used to her mother being angry while her dad was hunting, so for her to be angry after he died while hunting made sense. She had no reason to even consider she was really mad at John. But she didn't understand why her mother would get upset if she mentioned him or asked if he would be stopping by sometime.

Ellen and Jo had always butted heads, but it only got worse with Bill's absence. Bill served as the mediator between them, so without him, there was no one to translate the other's perspective. Jo started shutting her mother out and isolating.

One day while Ellen was busy working downstairs, Jo went through her father's things and found his journal. She hid it in her room and read it whenever she got time alone.

Over the years, whenever she missed him, she'd reread his journal. Eventually she had it memorized, but it still brought her comfort to see his handwriting, to hear his voice in it. She felt as though she was back in his arms, sitting on his lap as he told her the epic adventure of his latest hunt across the country. It was the only thing that made her feel close to him again.

"Sakura had never felt so validated in her love until she met a man made better by her burning."

The Void Between Fireflies by @renaerys

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Devour

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Will I ever draw Jong Woo without covering him in blood, you ask?

Stay tuned and find out.

this has nothing, absolutely nothing to do with the brain rot I’ve been experiencing (blame hardware/DIY frankie - OMFG I’m so excited to share him with you)

*hot being anything from watching them, knowing they’re doing it, etc etc.

also, pls feel free to expand or throw thots into my inbox in this. cause I am feral and suddenly DIY is hot to me.

New Woman Fiction, Supernatural Femslash, and Reading Women's Writing: how useful is the ‘wave’ framework for forming histories of women’s political activism in modern Britain?

Abstract: While scholarship around women’s writing has grown significantly in recent years with the rise of gender studies, historical studies of women’s fiction as a form of political activism are still lacking. This essay aims to address this gap in the literature through critically evaluating the helpfulness of the wave framework when used to re-assess New Woman fiction of the 1890s and Supernatural femslash fanfiction of the 2020s as women’s political fiction, in particular reference to George Egerton’s short stories and 'Sapphicnatural' fanfiction about the character Jo Harvelle. Ultimately, I argue that using the wave structure as an analytical framework is an important academic exercise in re-evaluating our understanding of women’s writing, but should be employed alongside wider critiques of feminist historiography and literature.

i wrote an essay! about how sapphicnatural authors are following in the footsteps of the new woman feminist writers of of the 1890s! it's 3.1k and was originally written for a university assignment so is a little limited in scope - but full of interesting fandom studies as well as historical and literary analysis (if i may say so myself). a massive thank you to @kerryweaverlesbian for volunteering to edit this before i handed it in !! of course feel free to let me know what you think of it and, most importantly, enjoy!

“WEBTOON authors try not to sexualize high schoolers challenge”

Challenge difficultly level: Impossible

ive never even done.. mini studies for them..

little photodump from september 🎃

friedrich was so funny when he gifted jo shakepeare’s folios and then turned around to say he doesn’t like her stories for having too much killing and salaciousness

Hunting was something Jo always dreamed of but her mother kept her sheltered from. Stories hunters in the bar told about driving all over the country sounded like heaven when she felt trapped in her mundane little life. Hunting for her meant freedom.

But for Dean, it was never something he wanted to do. It was something he was forced into. Hunting stole his innocence and his childhood. He also watched Sam eventually grow up into hunting and how it kept him from living the life he wanted. For Dean, hunting is a prison. Like he says at John's grave in 2x20 What Is and What Should Never Be, "But why? Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? What about us, huh? What, Mom's not supposed to live her life, Sammy's not supposed to get married? Why do we have to sacrifice everything, Dad?"

Dean and Jo share the fact that hunting made them feel closer to their fathers, but they have diametric outlooks on hunting itself.

they should let girls that are so so tired pass exams without studying

i can do this and i am smart enough (repeating this obsessively)

inspired by the tweet under the cut and whoever came up with the jance nerd x bad boy au here !!! (srry it's 3 am too tired to check)

Guess who has almost finished watching Strangers from Hell?

Lee Dong Wook is such a pretty man — even when he’s playing a murderous dentist, apparently. I just couldn’t help myself.

I feel like I’m having five simultaneous epiphanies when it comes to my art and it’s a little overwhelming. But hey, I’m making a lot of progress so I'm not complaining.