its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

me + all my mutuals when izzys getting a favourable arc in s2

this might be personal, but how did you know you were aro? asking for a friend!!

also, got any tips for joining the lmk art fandom?

ah! good questions.

i realized i was aro bc i’ve been asked out three times by three seperate friends and i would always say yes with the mindset of “they’re my friend, it’ll be weird if i say no, and i want them to be happy” which was the first red flag — romantic relationships should be for the pleasure and benefit of BOTH people, not just one. it’s not a transaction; it’s supposed to be a mutual thing.

i kinda glossed over that because, again, they were my friends and i want to make them happy, and kind of tricked myself into thinking i liked them romantically because i liked being around them (there’s a difference between platonic love and romantic love that i didn’t know yet, but looking back, whatever i felt for them was definitely not romantic. just wanting to be around your friends because you like their company doesn’t have any romantic connotations, really).

i think at one point one of them kissed me and i did not like it. and that made me realize i didn’t like the relationship at all. and i had to sit with myself for a bit to realize why. im not gonna go into too many personal details but aromantic was the conclusion i came to. i wasn’t happy with it, but it fit. and eventually i’ve just come to accept that about myself :)

for joining the lmk art fandom? i’d just say draw what you like tbh. dont worry about appealing to people, your art is for you :)

alright i opened my google doc! time to write something good and be productive!

me: opens a fic draft from last night that i wrote drunk

the fic:

AGHHHH COWBOY!YOONGI HORNY JUMPSCARE

It always rubs me the wrong way when people characterize atsushi as too much of a sweetheart. Like he IS a sweetheart but he's also snarky and sarcastic and most importantly he's very very angry. Do not forget this.

good news for all my haters: im not coming back. not properly. i think social media and being around ppl in general is destroying me so im gonna just focus my energy on other stuff

ill probably still be a little bit active occassionally but for now i think il just stick to posting art etc. im moving to sheezy.art (which is down for maintenance rn but opens for registration again on fridays!) bc the energy there is much nicer for me.. but ill still post on here and insta. im also gonna be working on building my own website again!! so bookmark it and maybe some day itll have cool stuff on it.... :]

hiii i need advice so bad ty . basically ive been on 2 dates w this girl and both went amazing etc etc and like i genuinely like her so so much but ik her feelings r likely not as intensely reciprocated (again...2 dates) . rn there is a v cute boy in my DMs and i know i COULD have liked him had it not been for the fact that im already very interested in smn else but rn i just like him as a friend . anyway he clearly has romantic intentions towards me (he said so) and i want to turn him down but not in a way that's like....necessarily forever ? like ... "as it stands right now i just want to be friends w you bc i have the biggest crush on earth on this girl rn but if things dont work out...maybe" how do i say this what do i do

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MAN! AHH!

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i hate that this website has location based ads now like it's one thing to promote the local grocery store chain to me but i am seeing ads for my workplace now :/

AHHHHHH

i feel like i see posts like this so much and it's kind of weird bc this applies only to like. a very specific subset of people (ppl who are into phineas and ferb + aware of the "two nickels" thing being repostet a lot) which is like. a subset of people in a fairly specific age range (the right age to have watched phineas and ferb so like. idk 15 - 30 year olds probably being generous) AND are active on specific social media platforms to have seen this joke repeated a lot so it burrows into their memory bc most people who just casually watched phineas and ferb aren't that likely to remember this specific moment (i know i didn't without the meme). and idk this is not a big deal i just find it interesting how often people online will post about something that is extremely specific to them and the social circles they move in as if it's a really universal experience

Vio and I were talking about this on Discord yesterday but man I do not blame Mudclaw and WindClan overall for being sick of ThunderClan holding Firestar's heroism over WindClan's heads. Like yes, Tallstar does have a point in wanting to keep relationships good (clan xenophobia is exhausting to read about at this point) but there's also a point here about giving land to someone over herbs. (set up an actual trading system) The giving tree comes to mind where ThunderClan can dangle their good deeds over WindClan and take and take and take and take at WindClan's expense until there's not much left to give.

Maybe it's just that I've been in this specific situation where my gratitude was taken for granted and held over me but like. I get wanting to get out of that. And especially given what Onestar goes through, I don't blame him for shifting his beliefs to align more with Mudclaw's anyways cause he was STILL getting exploited.

hoo