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balkanradfem · 2 years
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Scary story about a river incident
This is going to be a scary and upsetting story, and talk about a male predator, so be warned if you’re not feeling up to these topics!
So the year is 2016, and I’ve just recently moved into the city, and discovered that if you walk very far into the fields outside, you will eventually reach a meeting place of two rivers, and witness gorgeous waterfalls. It took 40 minutes to walk there, so not a lot of people knew about this place or went there. Most of the times I would go, it was a private little field trip, and the water just before the waterfalls was incredibly deep and perfect for swimming.
I was there in the water one day in the late summer. It was getting late, but the sun was still reaching the last rays of light into the water, and I have found a neat little place on the other side of the river with sand, rocks and shells. I was having the time of my life diving under, finding pretty shells and rocks and stashing them for my treasured collection.
At some point, another person arrived to the river, from the same side as I did, but different access point. I wasn’t bothered by it, my things were hidden well, sometimes young people would come and play in the river, they usually never bothered me, so I disregarded this and kept playing with my shells.
I hadn’t realized it was a male person, and I haven’t realized that he took into the water and started swimming directly towards me, until he was already only a few feet away. He was old, but he was strong. He looked 60-ish, but his body was double my size. He was swimming fast. I was at that point, 26, but I looked younger. I had struggled to eat enough and I was underweight. I had nothing on this guy.
Before I could gather myself, he was reaching his arms around me; I was in a neat little corner with rocks behind me, and he was reaching one arm on the rock, and other around me, his goal was to trap me between the rocks and his body. I didn’t have more than a second to realize what’s going on, and guided by instinct, I dove underwater before he was able to trap me, and swam to the direction of my access point, at the other side of the river.
At that point I was practicing swimming, and I was fast, but he could probably outswim me. He hadn’t tried though. I think he was in a bit of a shock that I ran away so immediately, and he couldn’t see where I went because I kept underwater for as long as I could. When i was already halfway to the shore,my head visible, he yelled after me: “I WAS JUST TRYING TO ASK HOW THIS WATERFALL LOOKED BEFORE THE WAR!!!”
I was absolutely outraged he would, after sending me running with intense predatory behaviour, still try to play it off as ‘you’re rude for assuming, I was attempting to engage in polite conversation here’, so I screamed back: “I. WASN’T. ALIVE BACK THEN!”
That should make it clear I’m not falling for his blatant gaslighting and point out how insanely inappropriate he is, I thought. But the truth was, I was traumatized to the point where I didn’t feel safe ignoring someone yelling at me. I swam to my stuff, and at that point, he was still at the same place he attacked me, so I thought, okay, he knows now I don’t want him anywhere close and that he’s being inappropriate, he’s on the other side of the river, he can’t approach me fast, I should be safe. So I sat down. I was wrong. He saw me sit, and started swimming towards me.
I was, once again, appalled. But also scared. I grabbed my stuff and without pausing to dress, started running away. He again yelled after me in another attempt ‘MAYBE YOUR PARENTS KNOW’ and I shouted back running ‘THEN ASK THEM!!!’ as if it was not absolutely insane that I was being talked down to while running away from a predator.
 It was then I realized how unsafe it was to be 40 minutes away from civilization, while alone with a predator, next to a river. I needed to get back to the city fast, where this guy wouldn’t be able to openly chase me without anyone seeing it. I ran thru a grassy field, feeling uncomfortable, but sure that this would completely save me, because he was still swimming, and I was sure I could run very fast, and there’s no way he would still try to go after me after I escaped him twice.
Then, the unthinkable happened. He got into his car and chased me with a vehicle.
I didn’t even notice he had a car on his access point. I had only realized it when the car lights appeared on the trail behind me. It was twilight, and the night was falling fast. I was uncomfortably visible on the grass field, and I ran as fast as I could, because, I knew after this field, there was a turn, and I’d be invisible for a bit, and the turn led around a corn field, and corn field was a place I could hide in.
I ran into the corn field absolutely terrified, made sure I was out of sight and hidden, crouched down so I would be completely invisible, and then stayed still. Waiting. His car lit the road, and I could see him going, he passed me, and he reached the middle of the field, and then, he stopped. He must have realized that he should have already ran into me, and since he didn’t, he knew I was behind him. I didn’t see if he got out of the car. I didn’t move. I knew if I made a sound, if he saw some corn move, I’d be located instantly. I crouched and waited.
I couldn’t tell you for how long that car was standing there. Probably 5-10 minutes. You can imagine it felt longer to a woman hiding in a corn field. But, I wasn’t found. And eventually, the car started moving again. It went away. I didn’t move. I stayed where I was, for I don’t remember how long. I needed to be sure. Once I peeked out to the road, I looked for any sign of light. It wasn’t there. I tentatively walked to the edge of the field, where I could see more of the road. Nothing. It was all empty. There was nobody there anymore. I was safe.
You’d imagine I went home that night feeling shaken, scared, anxious and upset, but you’d be wrong. I was beside myself with joy. This was my first time, ever, that I was chased by a violent man attempting to harm me, and got away! I was at that point, victimized by 20+ years of violence behind closed doors, and I would never, never manage to get away from it, regardless of running, because the predator was a family member, and convinced me that he had a claim on abusing me, but this? It was a predator in nature, and the nature was my turf, I knew how to get around there, and my instincts had served me so well, and I listened to them properly, and just because I was so quick to get away, the predator was stumped enough to not be able to catch me! I was then, sure that alone in the wild, I was untouchable, invincible, safe from any harm. Ah, to be young and fearless.
In retrospect, I’m now getting cold chills realizing how close I was form being a corpse in the river. The corn field was the only thing that saved me. if it had been any other time of the year, and the corn wasn’t as tall and as perfect of a hiding place, I’d have been painfully visible on those fields. I would have had to attempt to hide in the grass.
Of course, 26yo me came back to the waterfalls a week later, convinced it was a ‘one-time-predator-thing’ and luckily I never again ran into that guy, I did have another close call with another dude, but it was less scary, with less running involved. I still do visit the waterfalls but less often, as I found swimming places that are closer by. This was, by far, my most dangerous encounter with a predator, tho I had about 5 more happen thru my life, and successfully got away from them all. The danger of violence towards women in public is generally much more rare because m*n usually go for women they feel they have the claim to, and who can’t get away, like daughters, wives, cousins, sisters, mothers. That kind of abuse is almost certain to get them no consequences. If they go after a woman they don’t know, it is possible a male family member would come after them, for attacking what they believe is theirs, so it’s a bit more of a risky bet. Except, of course, if you’re 40 minutes away from a living soul and next to a river, then the rules change a bit.
My perspective was that because this was a stranger, I was free to run, where as in my family, running was sure to be punished with worse violence, and I was conditioned not to even attempt it. So even just running away, scary as it was, felt freeing for me. I didn’t have any pride left so jumping into ‘prey animal’ mode to protect myself from abuse was just, a situation that would come up sometimes. I didn’t yet think of it as a proof that I’m not living in a humane society, and that obviously I wasn’t equal to half of it, for they would always be a predatory threat to me.
It strikes me still how much this predator aimed at my socialization to stop me from running, trying to talk me out of my instincts, implying I was rude for assuming anything, trying to shame me for running, while he also blatantly chased me with his car. I hope this can serve as a sign to never try to be polite or allow innocent assumptions for a male whose actions make you uncomfortable or threatened. I’d have been better not to reply, as it only gave him incentive to try to talk more, but alas, one cannot be perfect.
If you’re all worried about me, just remember I will be okay with my nature adventures and everything else risky I do, once I live in separatist space, away and protected, wielding the nature barriers between me and the males, safe from all predatory harm.
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melodramaticmelon · 10 months
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I was invited as a contributing illustrator for Singapore’s National Day art competition held by the local museum. The prompt was to draw something reminding me of Singapore with the little red dot in the centre integrated into the illustration. A lot of people usually go with food or big landmarks / the skyscape, which I felt were very human things (ew @ the Anthropocene lol) and i was going through a bird phase and dealing with c*vid so i ended up focusing on birds.
I was also going thru a small riso print obsession bc of that one tutorial floating around tumblr in July 2022 and really really really wanted to emulate the CMYK riso print process digitally, it was a super fun challenge and i think one of the few times i had felt excited about art in a long time.
The pandemic offered a chance for everyone to slow down, and I’ve observed more of my friends exploring the natural side of Singapore. In the last few years, I’ve found myself trying to pay attention to the different birds in my neighbourhood. My hope for Singapore and Singaporeans is to develop a greater appreciation for the little natural spaces we have, and to increase our collective respect and protection for the other residents of the island that were here before and alongside us. 
For my artwork, I've chosen to cast a spotlight on the Asian Koel, with its bright red eyes and signature calls—the bird that you either love or hate to hear in the early mornings. While many (including myself) have never seen it in person before, it’s a bird I strongly associate with our local soundscape.
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pinkmoondoll9shihtzu · 3 months
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WeLL here we are...i want to write s/t quick to remember the year by. cus 2023 was probly one of my most significant years of life, even tho from the surface it may appear not much changed for me, 2023 laid the foundation,,,
firstly, january 2023 i began learning to make music, which is crazy like!!!! it has absolutely given me a new reason to be lieve in myself like i nvr had b4. its like unlocking a new area of my heart, and inutuion.. its so FUN, so so fun ohhh the fun i have, provides me w a brighter outlook for the future as i will always have this melodic part of me activated,going forward. ive learned so much in just a year. idk i just love it it makes me feel wise and complete i feel like an alchemist. i cld rly say a lot on the sense of security music has made me feel in my heart :'0 but i have some other things to get to;
summer 2023 i started doing yoga which has also changed things for me dramatically i think ive released a lot of built up stagnant energy from my body & aura. since i started i feel immensely more balanced n able to work thru my emotions as they come up. ngl when ppl used to recommend me to try yoga i thout it was hippie shit but its real lol.. im finding sm contentment in day to day life than i ever thought possible, easier time being present, yet another thing i will continue for the rest of my future that 2023 has given me.
these r good things but it must b said that this year has been Soooo rough for me in certain ways, mostly due to interpersonal relationships.. some ppl had to b let go from my life this year in ways i rly wasnt expecting & for a lot of the year things were just, foggy. however as things draw to a close im feeling immensely grateful like.. every1 im close to rn are all peaceful souls & we uplift each other, i see now why the ones causing drama naturally had to fall away. even if it was painful process im feeling so supported rn, & reciprocated TwwwT <3333
idk it just felt like as i was progressing w musical understanding, yoga stuff , as well as the past few months trying to use tea and herbs to get my organs in order, i feel that.. my energetic field is rly repairing itself & so a lot of old attachments just cant keep up anymore.
i have to say, well, erm, i am really in love w slimbo and its different than anything ive ever felt in my life. we've been in love for a long long time & i dont talk about it often as i am protective of this love. but god, its just, the purest bond ive ever known and our love for each other is deeper all the time. we r both life path 27/9 & the first time we met it literally felt like.. reuniting, it felt like a celebration..i had never noticed such warmth from someone. i cld never be in such a secure place rn if it wasnt for slimbo & every day im so grateful like dude i owe you my LIFE. idk how to explain it, we are just One. slimbo is my angel i cant wait to spend 2024 & forever with <3
if u read this far....ur a true PMDhead, thanks for being oomfies w me out here on the big wide web, i hope you bloom this year, & this can be a shift in the right direction for all of us <3 i believe palestine will be free. happy new year everyone, GANBATTE VIVA 2024 <333 -PMD9LL
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choccy-milky · 4 months
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Hi! I started reading your story sometime in the last week and I’m OBSESSED! I normally don’t have much patience and can’t get myself to read anything past like 15k or anything that’s still being worked on, but your story hooked me almost instantly! I really liked the description and decided to give it a try and I’m so glad I did. The detailed descriptions you give pull me into the story and the way you seamlessly switch points of view feels so natural. I just wanted to let you know how much I’m enjoying reading so far and I’m excited for more! ❤️
AW TYSM😭😭 this means a lot, esp since ive been kinda self conscious about the length of my fic lately (and also how long its gonna end up being once im actually done LMFAO) and ik my chapters have gotten ginormous BAHAHA so im glad that even if you don't usually read long stuff you still gave my fic a try and enjoyed it so much + are looking forward to more!!💖💖so ty again😭🙏 AND as usual i'll be using this to answer other asks:
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thank you and AA im glad to hear it!! a lot of people have been telling me ive been inspiring them to draw lately and i love it (im just sorry i dont have any concrete tips to give people other than keep practicing LOL) but good luck and i hope you keep at it!!🥰🥰
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GIRL IDK, IDEK HOW LONG THE STORY IS GONNA BE, but assuming im still brainrotted even when its done then YEAH u wouldnt be able to stop me if you tried😊 (im glad you like them so much as well, ty!!😭)
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thank you!! and yes i usually have at least a vague idea of what i want in the story before i start, though a lot of it didn't become concrete until i started writing/things evolving from there. i made a big (slightly) vague timeline of the entire fic from beginning to (almost) end, and then i keep fleshing it out from there as the ideas keep coming to me/evolving, and for each chapter i make an even more detailed outline, and THEN i get started on the final chapter. so its a bit of a process bahaha, but the brainstorming is really fun!! as for any advice, im not sure. maybe just brainstorm/write down scenes and ideas that you know for a fact that you want to put in your fic, and then try to find a way to connect them to other scenes from there and work backwards. basically WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO READ, cuz like im my own biggest fan fr, thats the most important part LMAO
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LMFAO speaking of outlining future events.....this may or may not happen in the future/in an epilogue when clora is pregnant and she got those pregnant woman hormones that seb is fighting for his LIFE to keep up with HAHAHA
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ive been drawing since i was 4 years old so...a while. LOL. and if you even look back to the beginning of my blog, my first drawings of seb were SO UGLY💀💀 so if you just keep drawing you constantly get better naturally (also in response to the other ask you sent as well, i use clip studio paint to draw!)
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AW TYYY. AND YES CLORA WILL HAVE ANOTHER MC MOMENT, the ranrok confrontation is still coming, after all...👀👀 and true, idek who would win if clora and seb duelled again with neither of them holding back, but u are so right. even if clora DID win that would do nothing to change sebs mind about how protective he is LMFAO. THANK YOU AGAIN im glad you like my fic + drawings so much!!💖💖
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BAHAHAH in my fic (for smut reasons and so that they could be 17 when they did the nasty) i made clora's bday april 3rd and sebs february 12, so clora is an aries and seb is an aquarius (and yes i just checked and apparently they ARE compatible, so seb can rest. also i just read up on aquarius and damn it unintentionally suits seb so well?? LOL "Aquarius is undoubtedly the most innovative, progressive, rebellious, and humanitarian. " and "They have incredible energy, though they may not always use it wisely. They find it easy to get through life on charm and good looks." LMFAO. ok king we love that
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joelletwo · 1 month
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(second post) extensively noted im RLY unclear on a lot of endgame gintama. i am disabled and it makes me a bad reader and im irritable abt it and i dont really want anyone to explain things to me on this Specific post lol. im just thinking things thru to myself.
hard to hold a lot of sugi's gayass trauma mental processes in my head all at once. the elisions between destroying the world [math symbol] destroying gintoki who stands in the way of that as a universal constant [math symbol] destroying the political foundations of the country from the inside using connections with the same forces (this guy does NOT understand the larger background plots of gintama and isnt sure if this is correct ->) that in part got his teacher killed and set this whole thing off* [math symbol] destroying himself.
(*side note i think there was a real missed opportunity to bookend all of sugi's political maneuvering which was treated by the plot as. SIGNIFICANT. and extensive. and effective. and one step ahead of all the chars we see pre-utsuro reveals. by revisiting it after the utsuro reveals and coming down on his schemes as either ultimately fruitless and really just getting him in over his head bc he didnt understand the real forces at play OR still effective bc sorachi wanted to retroactively say he and katsura understood all the shadowy background shenanigans. but zura kind of takes over the role of political maneuverer. but worse and stupider.)
(not a WHOLE lot under the cut its just getting unwieldy as a post.)
like if he just wants to kill himself why does he have to take the world down with him (katsura planning a beautiful death seppuku line). if he's doing this out of love for gintoki (canon fact.) why does gintoki need to be broken.
but if i stop trying to untangle what materially he means by all of that then i can understand sugi's actions post-execution as kind of in parallel with my understanding of oboro and utsuro's, which is to say, they are acting on behalf of what they think are universal laws of nature both because they believe in them and also to push the world to the breaking point to test their immutability and prove their fatalistic worldviews right or wrong. [with gintoki as the main tool to do so.]
sugi's inability to reconcile gintoki's decision to save them over sensei bc he cant understand how he'd possibly deserve it + resents gintoki for going against their understood mutual sensei as number one priority + grieves for gintoki having to bear that cross. um. turns into the desire to. destroy the world that made gintoki cry -> gintoki is an unshakeable barrier of protection in front of that world -> prove that the world sucks and isnt worth protecting by making it into sugi's own most pessimistic conceptions of it from childhood that shouyou had started to prove him wrong about -> push gintoki to a point where he will realize that he chose wrong and sugi was meant to die instead
and in parallel. avenge the death of the man who had shown him a better path in life -> throw away the life that man had sacrificed himself to protect -> um if i go down this path i just start rewriting reductionisms' proofs on seppuku and bushido again. waves hand. take the contradictory tragedy as laid out.
like utsuro trying the open mind+open heart gambit for one life and then immediately giving up. and oboro. well oboro is harder to unpack and summarize for me. but he serves utsuro's goals in service of his own goal of. proving rebellion like he and shouyou tried is futile? takes it upon himself to destroy shouyou's legacy to prove it's okay that shouyou-the-concept died. idk a lot of layers going on in oboro its not important to focus on here.
the. making a half-step of progress into a better world that you're having to pioneer and imagine into existence. and then, when u fail under the world's pushback, deciding to undo all that progress with your own hands. and one guy says no, it's still possible, and im going to do it. and you're like. what if i made it as hard as possible so that if u succeed despite that u realize my dearest hopes with IRREFUTABLE proof so that i dont have to face how scary it is to try without knowing if its even possible.
WHIIIIIIIICH. i find all of that incredibly sexy on all of their parts. i enjoy it a lot i like it when humans act out of irrepressible existential fear bc fuck man. living is scary. thats basically the backbone of every gintama antagonist and gintoki [who carries on shouyou's desire to fight and win against his own nature, and thus is himself an antagonist].
whiiiiiiiiiiich. makes it so interesting that these three specifically. other than bansai lol. are the ONLY!!!!!! real casualties of the story conclusion. that gintoki DOES carry thru and realize all their hopes of the world for them by beating them as obstacles. AND they dont get to live and see the fruits of it. but im not prepared to unpack what that means narratively at this point in time.
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geographerdose · 11 months
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Celestial Screenshots Destined for Fame, Part 4:
Charlize Theron
⚠️TW: death, violence, childhood trauma⚠️
All of the information used in this article was taken from her Wiki page/biography. I am a student of astrology and thus all that I have learned in that course deserves the instructor’s credit, along with all the astrologers before him from Vettius Valens to the translators of ancient texts. I thank you for passing on this knowledge and am grateful to receive it. To protect his privacy and name (because what if I’m completely butchering these concepts, lmao) I will keep it to myself. I believe in the importance of giving credit where it is due and thus that is my intention here. I also believe in the right to privacy and thus that is my secondary intention.
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{Please note this is not a confirmed birth time. Rodden rating: C.}
👹 I was watching The Devil’s Advocate and was curious of Charlize’s age during filming (maybe 20-21 btw since the film was released in 1997). NATURALLY I had to pull up her birth chart because that is what I do…
🏆 Tenth house and MC ruled by Mercury which falls in her twelfth house and is conjunct her LEO Sun and Moon. This, my friends, is a Leo stellium.
🍇 Something about the twelfth house and fame; here is yet another example. I originally learned about this concept from Tan Astrology and her YouTube video on fame.
🎾 Leo Stellium in the 12th house coupled with Venus conjunct the Ascendant —> need I say more in regards to fame?
🌷 Venus is at its fall in Virgo, as is Aries. However, most of the time women with these are literally DROP DEAD GORGEOUS. Like shockingly so. Given its conjunct her Ascendant is obviously helping matters, as the woman is clearly beautiful. (Inside and out, with her humanitarian efforts.)
🌹Angelina Jolie and Hayden Panettiere also have Venus conjunct their Ascendant. The beauty is not just on the outside. These people have beautiful souls as well, if you look at how they give back and use that fame for the greater good.
⚠️⚠️ TW: death, childhood trauma, violence
This is solely for entertainment purposes and I am drawn to darker themes. This information is public knowledge via Wikipedia. I do not intend any disrespect and I hold deep empathy and compassion for what happened. I cannot imagine the utter terror and suffering she and her mother must have gone through on that day. If requested, I will take this down. I am an astrology enthusiast and student at present so finding examples where I get to see the learned concepts in action is rewarding and ultimately a learning experience for me. This blog is basically my “practice space” for using what I learned “in real life”. I do not have close friends or family and so am limited on charts to study. Ultimately I decided to just post it anyway since I am a nobody and thus nobody will likely even read it, lol, less likely Charlize herself but I still wanted to add this intro for the principle of the matter.
⭐️ As I was reading through Charlize’s biography on Wikipedia, I was alarmed to read about her childhood. Her father was an alcoholic and shot at her mother and her, causing her mother to get her own shotgun and shoot him out of necessity. I wanted to see what such a traumatic event might look like via a celestial screenshot.
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📦 The eighth house is considered a not ideal place to have planets and it is also squaring Saturn. Eight house speaks of death so having the ruler of her childhood placed here speaks of what happened.
🛑 Also worth noting that when this traumatic event happened, she was 15. This is a fourth house profection year. The fourth house speaks of our childhood and it is ruled by Jupiter in her chart.
⛔️ Chiron conjunct her fourth house Ruler too. Chiron in any of the angular houses (even by aspect when it is this close by degree) is going to make childhood trauma/difficulty more active since those houses are “goaded” into action via the angular nature.
🍸 See Neptune present in the fourth as well? It can represent alcohol/drugs which was also involved in the event.
🌑 She was born during a New Moon and her Spirit+Fortune are in the first house (just like I learned the other day; seeing it “in the wild” makes my soul extremely happy). When Spirit and Fortune are in the same house, often the Native will tend to mix career and love in some way. In the class example, there was a married couple that had a business together. In her case, she met her partner on the set of the film Trapped. (GREAT movie by the way: Kevin Bacon and Dakota Fanning star alongside her.)
🩼 The Moon and our Ascendant ruler can speak to our body and health. She has had numerous health issues, specifically on set, despite being healthy and I believe this is because both her Moon and AS Ruler fall in the twelfth house, which is not an ideal house to have planets in. There is some mitigation to the negativity due to Sun being in its domicile and of the sect in favor.
🎳 The Sun, Moon and Mercury are all applying to a square with the malefic contrary to sect Mars. Even with four planets involved there is no reception. They are considered in a slightly less severe position given the degrees are 5+ between all three applying to Mars. Nevertheless it is a difficult placement, especially because her AS ruler+Moon (both representing physical vitality) are being maltreated.
🚀 Mars is “dominating” the Leo stellium containing her chart ruler and Moon through a superior square to which all planets are applying. This is a textbook example.
☄️ Also because there is reception with the square from Mars (which is actually difficult given it is the malefic contrary to sect), this is also making things slightly better.
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⏱️The transits on that day:
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🩸The most alarming to me at first glance was the transiting Chiron conjunct her natal Saturn within one degree. If I remember correctly, Saturn can represent the father (so can the Sun).
🌎 Because she has a day chart, Mars is the more challenging malefic.
🌞 Transiting Mars is conjunct her natal Sun (and AS Ruler, and Moon aka her body in danger). Also her father in danger. Transiting Mars is also squaring her natal Mars.
💿 Jupiter is the benefic of the sect in favor and is capable of doing the most good but it is in the twelfth place co-present with the malefic contrary to sect (and conjunct that Leo stellium). I believe this created an “ok” outcome in that neither Charlize or her mother were harmed, according to the article, and also that her mother was not charged (because it was clearly self defense but sometimes justice does not always work the way it should IRL). It is a tragedy regardless and far from “ok”; however she and her mother both survived with their health, freedom and each other.
👾 that is all for now, folks… eventually I will finish this movie (again) but didn’t Keanu Reeves’ character have to kill his father in this movie? 🤫
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starlitcorgi · 29 days
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Hi......If you don't mind, can I ask, what are your top 10 (or top 7) favorite media (can be books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series)? Why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....
Hmmm 🤔 my favs are always changing but at the moment.
1. Gokurakugai: Alma is a precious cinnamon roll who loves his mentor Miss Tao like a sister. I really love their platonic relationship and the fact that Alma is incredibly emotionally balanced. Like he's not this typical macho guy. Probably because he's surrounded by strong female role models. It's really refreshing for Shonen and I really hope it gets an anime series because I think it has the potential to be as big as JJK and Demon Slayer.
2. Jujutsu Kaisen: I love Yuuji as a ML and I'm usually a side character gal. So it's great to actually like the lead character. I've noticed in this current generation of Manga and Anime that our Male Leads are becoming much more well rounded and likeable. I love Yuuji's strength and his resilience, he definitely deserves all the love and hugs. I also of course love Gojo and I kind of hope Mappa deviates from the manga in regards to his fate because man that hurt.
3. Demon Slayer: I read the manga start to finish and loved every minute of it. The anime series is just as good. I love all of the characters in this in their own rights. From the protagonist to the villains for me at least the author got everything right. It's Shonen at its best. To be able to make your audience love Rengoku in such a short time is an amazing feat. To care so much that you feel as devastated as Tanjiro to me the Mugen train arc is a masterclass in story telling. It's sad that the series will be coming to an end soon but I think for me this will always be in my top 5.
4. Ghost in the Shell: This is the movie that started my love of anime/manga. It's a cinematic masterpiece and everyone should watch it at least once. It was well ahead of its time and it's not surprising that it inspired the Matrix.
5. Hells Paradise: I love the manga and the anime. Gabimaru is so relatable to me, I think we share the same sarcastic and apathetic nature lol. I love it as well because it gave us one of the best disabled characters in current manga generation. Shion is an epic character for the disabled community, being partially blind myself it's nice to be represented you know? And he's not full of loathing or self pity, he embraces his blindness and uses it to his advantage. He's funny, kind, strong and handsome. He never questions Sagiri's competence, he doesn't try to send her of to the kitchen like his colleagues. He recognises her talent and encourages her to achieve her goals. In short Shion needs to be protected at all costs.
6. Chainsaw Man: when I first saw this pop up on Shonen Jump I didn't have high hopes. It seemed like a crack series but this is exactly why you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. I love this series even though it hurts me 😭. Denji is a typical hormonal teen, power is a ball of chaos and Aki is just trying to keep everything together. Plus Angel 😇 is one of my fav characters of all time maybe because he reminds me of my daughter lol.
7. Elfen Lied: this is another classic anime the violence is on par with AOT but once you get past that you have this heart wrenching story. Lucy is a monster created by her environment and the abuse she suffered. This is also one of the most beautifully animated series of all time. The art is phenomenal.
8. Solo Leveling: I fell in love with the Manwha and was so excited when it got picked up for a series. I'm loving the anime so far, though I'm two episodes behind. Due to my sight loss I have to wait for the English dub but dubs have gotten way better than when I first started watching anime in the early 2000's. I love Jinwoo's tenacity and the fact that he just cuts through the villains. He never really worries about whether that makes him a bad person. Sometimes you just want to see bad people get what's coming to them. Plus this has some of the most epic fight scenes, I can't wait to see them animated.
9. Tokyo Ghoul: I spent most of Tokyo Ghoul crying ugly tears 😭. Ken Keneki has one of the most heartbreaking storylines in all of anime. It's just painful to read/watch Gege definitely took a leaf out of the Tokyo ghoul book when writing JJK. Yet still I couldn't put it down, I'm a sucker for punishment. It's a great mix of characters as well, I love that we see goth culture mixed in there as well. You do get those Crow vibes the way it's so gothic in inspiration and the art work is stunning. I think the only illustrator that tops it is Yuta Sano.
10. Attack on Titan: AOT has been deemed controversial because of it's fascist themes. However I think it's only problematic if you think Eren is the hero in this story. I actually really can't stand Eren, it's pretty obvious that he's been radicalised by his experiences early on. The foreshadowing is strong with him you know he's not going to turn out well from the start. The real protagonists for me are Armin, Levi and Hange. Like these three are definitely trying to save their comrades and people. Whereas Mikasa is constantly having to save Eren and Eren jumps to mass genocide pretty quick. Levi almost feels like he's representing the audience with his snarky commentary. I also love Levi and Hanges platonic friendship. They really get each other and their banter is a joy to watch especially in the first season.
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Hi, I hope you're doing well. I would like to know about the dynamic of a gay couple jikook in this case (since I believe they are dating ) many times we've heard jimin talking about staying without clothes in presence of the members. So I know they're men and have shared many things lol maybe even a bath together. I also know with all the activities they do, changing in the presence of each other doesn't bother them but I'm asking myself since jikook are dating do you think they can allow themselves to shower with other members or even present themselves in a certain way in front of the others? Also, do you think they feel protective about that? (How much privacy they can share with other members). Thank you in advance and sorry for the typos English is not my first language.
Hi, your English is great. I need yall to stop apologizing to my monolingual ass about your English skills when you are conversing in a whole different language and I couldn't even pretend to hold a conversation in your native language! So thank you all for extending the effort to meet me where I am on this blog 💜 You all are so wonderful and I appreciate it!
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Now, I went on a whole rant earlier in the month on a reblog about relationship boundaries and the importance of not projecting your own boundaries on a relationship that is not yours on people you do not know. It stemmed from an anon questioning about JK being flirty on Instagram on @spankpjm blog, I'll link that here
But the main point that travels over to this post is point number 2, which was:
YOU consider flirting emotional cheating. Don’t project your relationship standards onto anyone else’s relationship. They are not and never will be the same. Its okay that they are different too. If Jimin and JK are a couple, like I think they are, what they consider cheating or what they have as boundaries in their relationship is up to them, and them alone. You don’t get a say in it at all. Again, for all we know Jikook are a couple and are in an open relationship or have regular hookups all together with their friends or they are closed yet THEY don’t consider flirting as cheating as long as it doesn’t go farther. You don’t get to make up the rules of their relationship for them or for anyone else for that matter. No one is making you conform to their standards, so you don’t get to try and say they should then conform to yours.
Just swap out the word flirting for anything else here. Sharing a shower or hanging out with each other in their underwear. Being touchy. Literally whatever you want. The message is the same. Our boundaries are not their boundaries, whatever their relationship may be, it's theirs to choose how it functions.
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Now I don't know if you are Queer or not. But if you are, you'll probably understand what I mean when I say Queer Platontic relationships are very different than cishet platonic relationships. Queer plantonic relationships often blur the boundaries of what cishet people consider to be romantic and sexual vs platonic only, while not considering that relationship to be romantic or sexual in nature at all. I am very very touchy with my friends and my love language isn't even physical touch. And I wouldn't consider touchiness a cross in boundaries in my relationship, as long as the touching/flirting stayed platonic. And what that means for me and my partner is defined by us. And our definition of what platonic touching looks like could be very different than what your definition of platonic touching/flirting looks like. That's why communication is so important. And yes, there is a difference in platonic flirting, joke flirting and intentional flirting.
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And let's just also take into consideration the fact that if you've ever done a sports team, or showered at a gym.... you've then often been showering with and changing in front of strangers. Naked in front of strangers while you get ready is okay, but naked in front of close friends who you love and trust, while knowing there is no Romantic or sexual feelings between you is not okay? Is hanging out in your boxers while at your home with your besties.... any different than hanging out in swim suits at the pool with the same people? That towel in Summer Package 2015 that Jimin wore was only there because of the cameras. Lol if they weren't filming, he probably wouldn't have bothered. Just like most men are fine just hanging out in their suits at the pool.
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Do I think Jimin and JK are poly or in an open relationship? NO. Just to clear that up this time. Lol Do I think they have boundaries they've established together over the years that they are now both comfortable with in their relationship together? Yes. Do those boundaries include how they behave together and/or with other people, including their members? Probably. Just look at 2016, it was a huge year of pushing and figuring out what each other's boundaries were. I think they are fully past that. Which would mean, hanging out at home, friends there or not, in your boxers probably would not be a boundary crossed for them. Are those boundaries possibly different than boundaries you would have in your own relationships? Probably. They live very different lifestyles than we do! Lol do we know what those boundaries are in their relationship? No, and it's honestly none of our business!
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So I think they can allow themselves to do whatever they want with the other members. As long as they are both good with it (and they seem to be) why does it matter?
Also worth noting that all these shower together comments came from when they were living in the dorms, so it's been quite a few years since stuff like that has been mentioned as happening. But again, their boundaries together as probable boyfriends and their boundaries with the other members together are their own to decide what they are okay with. If they got used to a group culture of being comfortable in little clothing, that probably wouldn't change simply because 2 of the members started dating. 🤷🏻‍♀️
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And not to bring AFTG into this, because it's fictional people and these are REAL people. But Still, lol if everyone around is comfortable, there is nothing wrong with various levels of "modesty" shown between friend groups.
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Allison's "modesty pillow" didn't stay covering her lap for long clearly. Lol and no one else cared about them lounging around their dorm in their underwear. Her friends didn't care, her boyfriend didn't care. No ones boundaries were crossed (between the romantic partners or the platonic friend group) and that's all that matters. Just because you (general you) would not want to sit around so undressed around other people, doesn't mean that everyone else is the same way. I personally wouldn't want to hang out in my underwear, but that doesn't make people who do WRONG either.
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Like for example, one boundary showed to us last year... only Jimin may touch JKs hickey, as the one who gave it to him. Lol so yes, they have them. We HAVE seen some displayed too. They just might be different than yours (general you), and that's okay.
I'm starting to get repetitive I think. Lol so I'm just going to stop here. I hope this makes sense at least a little bit and I hope it answered your question too. Thank you for the ask!
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***these images + the artwork are not my own!! these creators are unbelievably talented! and I will link everyone below! characters owned by Sarah J. Maas ***
General Commander of the Night Court., Cassian
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collision course "tell me where to put the stars. show me how the oceans keep spilling over. your smile is a blazing trail of light, shot down from the heavens. and I know how much this is going to hurt. but it's too late for me to get off this collision course. tomorrow I will tell you that I love you. and nothing in the world can stop the maddening rush of those three words." lang leav
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Hello all! Breaking up the recent Throne of Glass content with some good, ol' fashioned ACOTAR shenanigans 💟
Starting off by showing some well-deserved love to our favorite Lord of Bloodshed, Cassian!! 😘 (we love you! you're so awesome! and amazing! and we need the exact number on the wingspan, luv, ASAP! xoxo)
he's such a doll
and look at those goddamn arms mother kill me
cassian's portrait in the lower left corner (enchantedchaptersart) is-- i lack the words capable of expressing-- he is SO BEAUTIFUL
i would melt into a puddle if i saw that man walking down the street
those fucking cheekbones!!!!! R U KIDDING ME
im sick in the head
he is perfect and nesta is one lucky SOB 😭😌🥵
just saying
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and literally, his looks fall to the very bottom of the list that contains all of the many reasons as to why i would marry this man in a heartbeat
BECAUSE
cassian 👏🏽 is 👏🏽 a 👏🏽 motherfuckin 👏🏽 teddy 👏🏽 bear👏🏽 (in the body of a bear-sized, illyrian, male... on steroids)
so protective and attentive and caring and empathetic and PERFECT
i'm sorry, allow me to clear my throat:
Cassian is perfect.
Any questions?
Actually, no, because if I think about how he got Nesta a symphonia for solstice so that she'd never have to live a day without the music from the CoN if she wished. I quite literally might, just, combust into flames.
😅
he is so down bad for his wife and i am so down bad for that trope
and he's just so funny and the bestest friend to have in the whole wide world
he's GIRL DAD, ASF!! 🎀 but everyone knows this!!!!
i could cry imagining cass chasing after his girls, indulging them with princess tea parties and painted fingernails. i love him.
PROTECTIVENESS is in his nature. good luck to any soul his falls for their children bc if they can survive cassian, they will then have nesta to deal with (LOL!)
but you know he worships the ground his woman walk on. would do anything for them in a heartbeat. is thankful everyday to have them and to be together. STOP. IM TORTURING MYSELF.
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ANYWAYS,
lol
this collage is symbolic in that it shall be taking the place of, or rather, "replacing" - if you will, the first, original cassian collage i ever made! yay! out with the old, in with the new!!! woohoo!
i have come to loathe ALL of my OG collages, and I will be idealistically replacing each with time and creative juices on my side. and to be fully transparent, i am just embarrassed that it exists on this page without any explanation to its mediocracy so, this is me letting *you* know that *i* know that the original is a POS , and the collage above is my honest attempt at redemption 🤍 PS: pls know that i did apologize every time i had to crop cassian's wings out of the frame, srry buddy, u have great, big, beautiful wings! promise! 🤍 also, i intentionally did not reuse any of art from the last collage in case you're wondering, i felt cassian deserved new, considerable effort
but for the sake of memorabilia and sentimental shit, i shall upload the original here too, so, enjoy
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(the side by side comparison is, admittedly, satisfying)
artists from the original collage: (thank you, love you❣️)
nesta and cass black + white sketch by céline
cassian standing shirtless by star caster
center portrait of our general by wibell
cassian smirking right at us dear lord by vladlena
nesta and cass having a moment in bed by castle in the sky
nessian hands: flames and siphons by ssahhartt
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to the very 💖 talented beings 💖 in this world 🌍 who bring ✨ light ✨ into our lives via the vessels of art!!!! you have our gratitude!!
could you imagine a world without those cassy cheeks??? no.
SHOW THESE ARTISTS SOME LOVE!!! thank you!!!
lower left portrait of cassian and his gddamn cheekbones by enchanted_chapters_art
nesta and cass back-to-back by sallteas
nesta reading (probably smut) by lunnorart
lord of bloodshed standing stoic with his sword strapped by brookehuvalart
cass and nesta sitting pretty central, reflecting their personalities to the tee by behnsi
mr red siphon on his chest by poppypola_
cassian giving nesta a lil smooch on the forehead (presh) by _quinnasaurus
THANK YOU! GOODNIGHT!
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fun fact 🤡 (i had included in my *first* cassian post; now obliterated from this blog) i originally pictured cassian as being blonde, dirty blonde, but blonde definitely rather than the starkness of his deep brunette. ... sometimes i still envision him as such. free will exists (he is hotter as a brunette. tammy-boy ruins the blonde men in this series)
find my other collages here!
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One of the things that irks me the most about the way the world is set up in Prythian (I actually have a list of questions that I want answered, which right now stands at 47 bullet points, not including the sub-questions raised by some of the bigger issues) is the awful way that the Lesser Fae are regarded/treated by the High Fae. It gives me innumerable icks, because it smacks of racism and classism, and we’re never given more than a glimpse of the way it affects their lives. Yet, all of the main characters must be a part of it in some way, as they’re not only High Fae (or immediately adjacent, like Amren and the deeply powerful Illyrian elites) but also heavily privileged aristocrats.
So, since we’re seemingly never going to get more information, I’m writing it myself. Hubris? Well sure, I’ll cop to that. But if you’re not satisfied with the content as written, you gotta #fixwithfics. 😁
This scene is from a chapter in my work in progress, where Elain is learning some history of Prythian, which in canon is sketchy at best and nonexistent at worst (except where they insert legends as historical fact — biased and fictionalized, but thanks for your input Amren). I’m trying not to make it TOO info-dumpy, which is one reason why this part is slow going. Another is that I’m trying to make it sound as though David Attenborough did a documentary on Prythian, and so I’ve got to pull out all my distant background in academic writing, lol.
Background: Elain is researching, with Gwyn’s help, in the House of Wind library. She’s told everyone that she’s trying to develop her understanding of her powers, which isn’t totally untrue, though really she’s hoping to find information on a mysterious group of Lesser Fae who attempted to attack her in the docks of Velaris. She comes across a book called Tribes of the Lesser Fae, by a scholar named Antynus.
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Elain opened the book, whose covers were stained and parchment pages smelled faintly of mildew. “Is this book old?”
Gwyn shrugged. “Not terribly, a few hundred years at most. But the Lesser Fae are a sort of boondoggle of a research topic. Not many write about them.”
“Why not?”
With a short little trill of a laugh, Gwyn opened her own book and pulled her quill from the inkwell. “Several reasons, I think. Lesser Fae tend to guard their lore carefully, lest it be used against them as it has in the past. Which means much of their magic is mysterious, or secret. But also because High Fae number most of the scholars, and their studies of magic concern their own magic, however shortsighted that might be; academics often are just as prejudiced as those who aren’t as well educated. They just hide it better.” Her voice darkened ever so slightly. Bitterness?
Elain turned the first page to the preface.
Prythian is a land of magic.
This may seem obvious. Books on the subject are long and varied, after all, covering topics from the tilt of the planetary axis to the sub-ecosystems of the seasonal courts, protected by atmospheric bubbles penetrating down into the topography and up into the realms of the upper air, to the emotional psychology between the rulers of those courts, the natural processes maintained within them, and the powers that can and cannot transcend their borders.
But significantly less well-documented are the details of the inhabitants of the land itself. The land is distinct from its people, but also a part of them; and the magic it possesses may well be the same.
The High Fae populate these realms, but they form a privileged minority within them. Even including the powerful warriors and magicians of the High Fae rulers and cities, there is as much magic — possibly more — contained within the land itself, and belonging to its indigenous inhabitants. It is these for whom I compiled this volume, in admiration of their survival and in deference to their plight, which is as varied as the species that exist but inevitably tends toward violence and oppression. Many, like the Demifae Pegasus herds, have been hunted close to extinction; the Urisk tribes at the borders of the Summer Court have been indentured into magical servitude at the behest of High Fae masters. The Lotusae, whose blood induces deep sleep and amnesia in their prey, have endured centuries of being bred and slaughtered to use their blood as a weapon; the few remaining wild ones have been slowly pushed out of their natural habitats and homelands. Some groups have adapted well to the political realities of the High Fae rule, like the Illyrians, whose warrior traditions and warlord-ruled tribal social structure dovetailed neatly with the historical military isolationism of the Night Court. Some, like the kelpies or the witch-bred ilken, whose natural behaviors were predatory, were deemed monsters and forcibly relocated to the desolation of the Middle. Still others attempt to live apart and hold on to their lives, traditions, languages, and folkways, even when conquered, assimilated, or summarily neglected.
This work is by no means comprehensive. It is intended as a beginning. I dedicate it to them, whom the High Fae call Lesser. I have chosen a different term for them: Iriadeni, after the ancient name for this land.
The Ashkeloni of the Western Sea worship a goddess named Mezumiiru, whose cosmology is loosely analogous to the goddess the High Fae call the Mother, though they believe she drifted to earth as celestial dust when the moon cracked open in the chaos of creation. They have a proverb that says “intilit ead loroto ni Mezumiiru, bakairat ead voluridad.” It roughly translates to “marvelous are the ways of all Mezumiiru’s children; endless is their variety.”
It is my hope that that variety will someday be appreciated.
Elain looked up from the page toward Gwyn, who was assiduously scribbling in the margin of one of the pages, her copper hair draped in a wall over her face. “Gwyn?”
“Hmm?”
“How did the High Fae come to rule Prythian?”
Gwyn looked up, eyebrows jutting into an expression of surprise. Elain’s ears rapidly went hot with embarrassment. “Is that a stupid question?”
Her eyebrows relaxed, and her remarkable eyes glowed. “No, no, of course not. I just sometimes forget…”
“That I’m newly Fae, and ignorant as a summer fawn?” Elain tried to make her tone light and amused, but couldn’t be sure her shame didn’t seep through at the edges. It was so frustrating to always have to ask. To reveal the gaps in her knowledge. To never be confident in her own mind, because there were always so many incessant, important questions…
Gwyn turned toward her with an emphatic bounce. “Elain, you are not. How could you know any of this, unless it was taught to you?”
Elain didn’t know what to say.
Gwyn continued, “The history of this world is something scholars have studied for millennia and still haven’t found exact answers to, because so much of it occurred before written texts existed, when oral tradition was the only method of passing things forward, and is bound up with legend and myth.” She leaned forward and put her hand on Elain’s, meeting her eyes in a direct, challenging stare. “So without any basic instruction, there’s no way you’d have a grasp of it. Honestly, I’ve been doing historical research with Merrill for a few years now and I still come across inconsistencies in accounts that make cohesive narratives impossible. It’s maddening.”
Elain managed a watery smile. I see why Nesta likes her, she thought, shamefaced at her own initial reaction to Gwyn. She’s strong. But kind.
Gwyn sat back with a thoughtful expression. “But I think I can condense the little that I know into a brief story for you, if you want…”
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And just bc I felt like it, I threw in references to the ilken in SJM’s Throne of Glass, and Jiriki’s Mezumiiru proverb from Tad Williams’ Memory, Sorrow, and Thorn trilogy. 😁
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Hello, i hope youre doing alright!! May I ask for a Star wars romantic Match up? Thank you in advance if you do<3
I'm masc Non-Binary They/Them & Gay/Queer (male attraction). My Star sign is Leo and I'm INTJ-T if that's of any use.
I have short layered Blood Red hair, but I seem to dye it every month! My fav colors to switch are Red and Baby Blue!! My eyes are rlly dark Brown, almost Black. Im more on the short side (5"0ft/152.4cm) & what people call a baby face.
Minus all that I'm not "mean" but people always assume on first glance that I would fight them(never understood that as im quite shy upon first meet, i prefer to stay with myself), I do have a lot of fighting experience but that's only for when someone swings first. I have some hard anger issues but never take them out on people, at least I try not to, I do enjoy a good argument tho,, i also tyoically yell or curse in german when im mad my friends think its the funniest thing ever. But once you get past most of that I've been discribed as much of a protective father/brother figure by a lot of my friends, I always try to be there for the people im close with, I have the Humor of a little teenager boy dispute the fact it's hard for me to laugh with Alexithymia. (Ex; I giggle at the word balls :")) with Alexithymia I typically have a monotone expression and voice as it's hard for me to express or tell what emotion im feeling.
I LOVE listening to people talk about the simplest things they find interesting, even if it sounds dumb I prefer to listen to those around me speak. I don't like talking due to my Alexithymia and stutter, but I could talk about Space and Science for hours!
My main Hobby is writing, but I enjoy doodling my friends or landscapes!
My style in clothing is much more bright and "loud", I enjoy the kidcore theme of clothing and dress in vibarant colours! My favorite colors are pastels!!
I enjoy background Sound when it's more quiet, vibrants and pastels, reading, and science/math!
I dislike extremely loud sounds, yelling, and crowds!
I've been told my Love Language is quality time and Gift Giving, im afraid of physical touch but also extremely touch starved, I'd like a hug but the idea also scares me lol 😵‍💫..
I apologize if this was too much or a lot to read, take your time Sonor if you decide to do it!! Have a good day<3
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AN: Don't worry about it Anon, it wasn't too much! Had a few potential matches but I figured it'd be safer than sorry to take my time with yours. Hope you don't mind getting someone from the humanoid-adjacent partner pool!
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Plo Koon is one of the most down-to-earth living beings you'll ever truly meet and just an overall sweetheart.
Despite the disposition that you appear to portray- that being of someone on the more vocally or physically violent side- Plo could sense your good nature resting underneath. He never once doubted that you were a decent person.
That said, he found it quite curious that you tended to keep to yourself, given the aura you almost seem to give off with the force. I don't imagine that it would take too long for him to put two-and-two together that you were just shy, but the reason for that level of withdrawn attitude would be a question that nags at the edge of his mind.
Unlike other Jedi who would either keep their distance from you entirely or jump right into conversation (or at least try to), he was definitely on the more tactful side when it came to initiating conversations. He didn't want to make you uncomfortable, and conversely, didn't want to risk you being lonely either. He sought a healthy balance.
Amusingly enough, the monotonous way in which you speak isn't something that would bother him all too much in the long scheme of things, nor with the lack of expression. Plo is keen when it comes to communication, so if he isn't sure about something there's no doubt that he'd ask for clarification.
Furthermore, when it comes to speech patterns, you're both in a similar boat considering that his speech is slightly unique as well. He thinks about what he says, and there's this draw of emphasis he seems to put on certain syllables and words. It's not so much that he's sluggish as he is slow and deliberate. Fairly refreshing, actually.
As for conversational topics, I imagine that you both would have many things to discuss- common interests or otherwise. He doesn't mind carrying the conversation if it makes you most comfortable, but you'd find that no matter how much you stutter he'd be right at your side, gaze fixated on you and only you as you speak.
He thoroughly enjoys your rants on space, science, and the like that you both share in your free time, finding them both interesting and insightful. Quite a few things you've mentioned have drifted in and out of his mind when he's out on missions, and a fact or two has come in very handy.
Though he's less argumentative than quite a few of his peers, debates between you two are also something that he looks forward to. They can be quite amusing, although not much can quite chalk up to the feeling seeing you curse under your breath in german gives him.
More than likely, he's walked in on you while you were with his men doing so, and at least once you were shouting. The boys in white might not have known exactly what you were saying, but he certainly caught on quick.
Let's just say he got a good chuckle during those excursions.
When you start changing up your look, you'll find he almost immediately notices- especially in regards to your hair. He compliments it frequently. Your style of dress, though quite unlike his own, also interests him. He's done a bit of research in an attempt to locate where the style originated from, to varying levels of success. I don't imagine you'll ever catch him partaking, but he makes sure you know he appreciates the looks you do.
As far as amusement goes, he probably trusts the force to gauge just how pleased you are by certain situations to better get a grasp on your humor. He finds the level of 'immurity', as some would call it, in your tastes amusing... in that it's just another character trait of yours that makes you unique. He also may or may not have tipped off his men so you could have a good time hanging with them, not that he openly stated so. He'd probably tease you a tad if you questioned whether or not he was the culprit.
He finds your 'big brotherly' and 'fatherly' attitude towards those around you quite endearing, especially to those younger than yourself. He's been fairly well known to have a good reputation with the younglings (or at least Ahsoka) and has a similar relationship with her that you have with others, so it's something he understands quite well.
Of the potential suitors in the Jedi Order, he's fairly logical, which means that you are going to have a lot more leeway when it comes to what missions you do and do not go on. While others like Skywalker or Kenobi would have openly objected to you going on more dangerous missions had you been their partner, Plo lets logic take the lead and knows that you're capable of defending yourself.
That said, don't think he'll just let you partake in whatever mission you want whenever, regardless of the danger. You will be debriefed on the situation for your safety if you are going, and when the rare circumstance arises that he 100% does not want to see you on the gunship with him and his men, he isn't really going to be someone you can negotiate with. Not that you can't try- it's just that he'll have an armada of rock-solid arguments that'll be extremely difficult to counter.
He's the type that would rather you avoid violent situations if at all possible but feels much more comfortable knowing that you have legitimate fighting experience under your metaphorical, pastel belt on the off-chance it becomes unavoidable. The safer you are, the more he can focus on his work without worry.
I imagine exchanging feelings was a rather interesting situation for him given his position in the order, but when he did share them with you it was heartfelt and in the comfort of a quiet room, or hallway. Perhaps located by a balcony or window with a view.
Personally, I picture quality time as one of his love languages, which works quite well for both of you. As for physical touch though? He'd recognize and respect your fear and reserve such contact for moments he was certain you were fine with it. It probably wasn't common during the start of your relationship but became more frequent as you got comfortable over time.
On the notion of fears, Plo is the type to help you with them if at all possible, even if it takes a long time to do so. The long haul doesn't bother him much- not with how long he's lived.
One of Plo's favorite ways to spend quality time with you together is when you're drawing. He finds the process quite enjoyable, and never hesitates to compliment you on your technique. Your skill never ceases to amaze him.
He almost certainly has a drawing you've made of him and/or the boys in his quarters. Likely framed, and either sitting on a desk or mounted on a wall. He makes sure to value any gifts he's given.
Overall it's a very trusting, wholesome relationship and one that doesn't often yield issues. You simply set his heart aflutter.
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AN: There are few words to describe this relationship other than "Wholesome." It's not one that drudges up particularly chaotic scenarios in mind, but the sheer stability that comes with a relationship with this man is rather comforting. For those who got this far, I hope you enjoyed! May the force be with you, and may your day be as pleasant as the ocean's abyss is deep!
For those who are new here, I take requests. You can find my rules here.
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rize-is-writing · 8 months
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Hii! I hope your matchups are still open! If so, I would like to request one for bsd and Genshin ( if you only do one per matchup then I prefer bsd ^^). (By the way, if my English is a bit bad, it’s bcs its not my first language. So sorry!)
Im an INFP, cancer, bisexual woman. I’m 5’7 (i think lol, in meters I’m 1,71m), I have purple hair in a tomboyish sidetails hairstyle and I’m a bit chubby. I am not a minor.
Usually I really try to talk to people when I first meet them, but it’s pretty hard for me because I tend to shut off in situations that I haven’t prepared myself for or where I’m not comfortable with. But when I like someone and want to be friends (or when I’m friends) with them, I’m really intense (ig I don’t know how to describe it), loud, and excited (which at times can be a bit much for people, so I tend to try and not do that a lot)
I’d like to say I’m a warm person, I love to tell stories to people and I love being around the people I love. But I really like to be on my own too, after a day with talking to people I adore to just close myself off and to do something on my own.
I like people who give the same energy that you give them back. I’m pretty sensitive with like how people give their energy back (bdkabdks idk if this makes sense) and so if someone that I just met doesn’t look happy if I’m talking to them or if they don’t really pay attention I will get really nervous and I would be scared to talk to them.
My hobbies are: Gaming, drawing and swimming. I’m super interested in animals and space, and I rlly love watching documentaries about those things ! I also really love supernatural things/shows (although I don’t believe in the supernatural)
My dislikes are: Running, sweating (it’s so gross and you get like icky from it and euehgghhhhh) people that smile to your face and then shit about you behind your back. I hate the last one the absolute most, like if you hate me then at least show it and don’t pretend to like me.
Well,, that’s all!! I hope you have an amazing day/night and thank you in advance <333
I found your match! Come to meet them, c'mon c'mon!
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Give this boy all the love you have!
Atsushi might be a bit stiff at first, but don't worry! He'll warm up soon, just needs to get used to the possible attention as he isn't very used on receiving positive ones. But when he gets used to it, I'm of the opinion he becomes pretty affectionate himself, not clingy but responds well to the affection, with a hug, or kiss on the forehead or pats on the head. Who knows, who knows. Not me!
He is usually pretty quiet while you talk, but no problem! He is definitely listening. He simply wishes to listen and let you say everything you have to say, before giving his own input into it.
Also pretty understanding when you want to be left alone: as long he knows you aren't doing anything dangerous of course. He'll just check on you silently, if you feel comfortable about it! Without saying anything.
(He just gets worried easily)
But if that annoys you, Atsushi will stop of course! Your comfort is his number one priority.
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I know, I know. A bit of an odd-ball, isn't she?
But hear me out!
I know her lack of expression and seriousness can be off putting at some at some level, but Shenhe isn't by any mean cold towards you: she is responsive to the attention you give her, and welcomes your energy with open arms. For the lack of expression, she makes it up with her own actions and gestures (the strong must protect the sweet, as some wise man said)
An attentive listener, can be surprisingly partecipative active in the conversation with the questions she makes about what she doesn't understand or doesn't know, pretty sincere with her lack of information, such as astronomy things. Even though she is definitely most curious about animals, knowing her own lifestyle while living into nature, so I think she'll do a lot of questions about animals that don't live in the habitat she did.
She understands better than anyone the need to stay alone for a while. Maybe she too will ask it a few times because of her situation. So she won't press on it, or check too much while that, just waiting for you to come to see her first.
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muuurder · 2 years
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HI ITS ME FROM EARLIER(like wayyy earlier)! (i shall give myself the name 'meatball'
okay so i genuinely have no idea how i didnt piece together him being autistic as well as having bpd. it makes perfect sense to me. i can see the vision fully. greta being his favorite person makes sense because typically, youd feel protective over someone you love. but brahms took the extra step. he would literally do ANYTHING for her.
i also think that the theory that he hates baths is wrong. i think it would be virtually IMPOSSIBLE to stay clean while lurking inside walls which also probably have very bad ventilation, plus he isnt supposed to be alive, so... he doesnt have to opportunity to bathe. we've seen his parents and the fire happened when he was 8, so id assume he developed a few habits since he had such strict parents. they probably heavily enforced things like hygiene.
i also completely agree with him only killing cole. the fear of abandonment can make you say and do things that arent entirely healthy. people take his threats to heart and turn him into a monster but he killed cole to protect greta. i mean she did ask for him to help her. he didnt kill Malcolm, he was just in the way a few times. he had already been left by his parents, he couldnt lose greta too.
i just read your headcanons and THE COOKING ONE, I LITERALLY HAVE THE SAME THING TYPED UP IN MY NOTES. he is definitely a helper. i feel like hed stand there and wait to be given a task and as for helping, i have an image of just knocking on a wall and he just spawns like "yes did you need something".
also i can see him having a cat. youd be wondering where him and the cat are, meanwhile theyre both in his room in the walls, just having a good time.
~meatball
YESSSS. Especially about the baths oh my god. I said before but I think he’s very tidy and actually really enjoys being clean. Including clean shave too, which I can’t imagine how rough it must be to shave with his burn scars. They aren’t smooth at all.
As far as Cole, I don’t think he even planned to harm COLE either. He tried to scare him off, I’d wager he’s actually not all that violent by nature. I think the mixture of threat and the he’s taking her from me and going to hurt greta, and the shattering of the sole item that has ever been used to allow him makeshift connection (though I can’t imagine how much resentment he likely has for the damn thing), it all kinda came to a head. Cause mind you his parents also just died, he’s upset and angry like I can’t blame him and honestly good riddens to Cole. He was a bastard. Fuck around and find out imo.
I will offer you this, I think once he gets used to being out of the walls he won’t go back in too often anymore. Possibly might move out. He’s been in there for years, and I feel like the moment you have the opportunity to come out you won’t want to go back in. It’ll feel too cramped and possibly have trauma reactions. Once your out of survival it’s wild how your body collapses. I will say if he does use the walls it’s to be a cheeky bastard. The cat likely won’t go in, king loves bathing far too much lol (at least in my story line).
I also Headcanon he likely has sight issues in one eye (near the burn) and possibly asthma or copd too due to smoke inhilation on top of dust and low air quality in the walls.
Aka the moment you get him comfy and trusting you, y’all making a doctors visit. To what doctor you ask? All of them. Every single one. He hasn’t had medical attention since before he was 8.
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signedeclipse · 10 months
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Omg I love your writing sm!!
Since I saw your requests open, could I request a matchup?
Preferably a male demon and/or demon slayer :)
I'm a 5'2" trans masc gremlin with short, side-shaven brown hair and eyes. I mostly dress in black, goth clothing and accessories (i.e., pentagram earrings, bird skull rings, chokers, etc.) but I have a hoodie collecting problem (I can think of at least a dozen I have lying around rn).
Since I have adhd, I'm very forgetful and have a bad habit of fidgeting when I'm under-stimulated and over-stimulated (they range from shaking my hands violently to scratching and biting myself, not too bad tho at most all it does is leave a few marks). I'm also introverted, preferring to keep to myself, only really talking when someone talks to me, but when I'm with people I'm comfortable with I'm pretty much the opposite, always talking and joking around and being an overall menace >:)
That said I'm always tired and can fall asleep anywhere (I'm also a huge night owl which might be part of the issue)
My love languages are words of affirmation, physical touch, and quality time since I'm really vocal about how much I adore my s/o, I'm kinda clingy and quite touch starved (i mean i collect plushies ffs), and whenever I'm out of energy, I enjoy just being in their presence, doing my own thing while I recharge.
Sorry if that was too much/not enough I never know how much to put in these things lol
Feel free to ignore this if you don't want to do it/can't think of anyone who'd fit my desc :)
Anyway, take care of yourself (drink some water, eat a snack, and take a nap/go to bed depending on what time you see this) and have a lovely day/night! ♡
You got…Sanemi!
Being polar opposites, Sanemi loves you because you bring the gentle personality he hides behind all the macho attitude. He gets frustrated as fuck about stupid things all the time, and you'll just chat to him while he beats up a punching bag till it breaks, not judging him once.
He's had people try to calm him down, try to interfere and change him, but he just wants someone who likes him now and not for what they want him to be, which you are great at.
In turn, he understands your habits of scratching at yourself aren't doing  a terrible amount of harm for how well it soothes you, so he won't try to stop you aside from trying to find something for you to do so you aren't so bored.
Sometimes he just offers his arm to you, and lets you trace all the scars he has left in his skin, or fidget with his hand.
Sanemi isn't very demanding, so he'll do whatever you feel like doing. He prefers to have you there with him while he trains, though, so he's gotten used to training somewhere next to a porch where you can hide in the shade/away from bad weather.
Makes fun of you for dressing so dark, because he thinks of you as very flowery and sweet. Might say its some kind of scare tactic since you couldn't hurt a fly, but otherwise he doesn't care much for how you chose to dress yourself; so long as you are comfortable and happy.
Your hair reminds him a lot of his younger brother, and your sleepy nature only makes you two more comparable, so he feels this need to protect you in ways he couldn't his brother.
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Authors Note - My last matchup and you are very similar it's almost scary! But yes, please enjoy <3
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earthlysorrows · 1 year
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heyyyyyyy i was wondering if you'd do a pairing??? :)
i'm j, i'm 23. i'm INFJ, and my love language is quality time. i tend to be very shy around new people or in new situations, but i am very loud and outgoing when i am with my friends. i am straightforward, practical, and stubborn, i am also very protective of those i care about, and would absolutely go to bat for them any day. i have absolutely no filter. i love to help others and am an emotionally strong person. i wouldn't describe myself as sunny and am more of a moon. i'm the dad friend lol. my hogwarts house teeters on gryffindor and slytherin. i'm a taurus :)
i'm 5'3 (almost 5'4) with very fair skin, straight, fine, blonde hair that is about chest length, and blue eyes that aren't really light or dark. i have more of an oval face shape, kind of a roman nose, and i wear glasses. i also have a beauty mark on the right side of the corner of my mouth, right above my upper lip. i am on the smaller side just in general (hats don't fit my head cause its too small lol), but my body is proportional i'd say.
i am very into astrology, i used to be a dancer and i was in choir for many years. i may not be outside all the time, but i love being out in nature. i like going out into the woods and exploring, and i'm not afraid of getting dirty. one of my favorite things is to be out in quiet nature and look up and see the stars. i love to travel and learn about history, i would love to visit historical locations or museums and learn about all kinds of history. i love learning new things and i am full of random facts. i am a collector of multiple different things, movies, books, music, snow globes, etc... i want to buy a turntable soon to start collecting vinyls.
i love your writing so much and i'm glad we're mutuals :) stay lovely as ever <3
Alright so first of all, I absolutely adore the way you describe yourself.
Right off the bat being shy in public but loud with friends has me thinking that this gentleman will help balance you out as he’s known to almost always be pretty outgoing. I think if he saw you at all uncomfortable in a situation, he’d reach his hand out for you to hold. Like an anchor.
I think a sun needs it’s moon to balance it out. So with that said he would need you and your moonlight to help balance out his sunshine.
I think this guy would be OBSESSED with kissing your beauty marks. Like purposefully miss your lips to give it a peck of appreciation obsessed.
Also, he would be so invested on finding you the perfect hat or gloves that would fit you and your body. He’d always come home like “try this on!” And frisbee toss it to you.
Dancing… choir… right up his ally for sure. I also feel that he has so many knickknacks around the house from traveling. Maybe a rock he picked up because it got stuck in his shoe in Seattle. Or a twig he got because it got stuck in his hair in phoenix.
I think you and Josh would be adorable together.
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bugaboooooooooo · 2 years
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sorry it took me ages to get around to this (shakes fist at life in general) but here i am with some trademarks of your art!! obviously i think of your extremely feral scrunkly lady noire as a trademark but you already know how much i love her heeheehee!!
i think what makes her feel so scrunkly though is the way you use lines - your lineart is both clean and sketchy at the same time, like every line feels deliberate and as though it's been put down very carefully to create a specific effect, but it's also full of energy and a life of its own! like the lines have just jumped from pen to page and it's so impressive that you can make your lineart feel carefully crafted, effortless, and wayward all at the same time!!
however having just rambled about lines you also do amazing lineless work!!! i really love your style when you use blocks of colours but because you choose the tones so carefully and place them so precisely it doesn't feel blocky! it feels smooth and natural and effortlessly minimalist despite requiring a lot of talent!! hmm...maybe your trademark is how effortless your art feels despite using complex techniques and obviously requiring a lot of careful thought? because that's definitely something i notice regardless of style!!
another big characteristic of your art for me is Fashion - not only are you able to put incredible looks together, but your art style really reminds me of the sketches fashion designers make!! (i think i mentioned this before and you said you wanted to be a fashion designer as a kid so it makes sense!!)
also in terms of specific features - a mask that looks like two parts that *just* meet in the middle is definitely one of your trademarks!! also girls with 50s pin up vibes!! oh and That Outfit with the stripey shirt and trousers/skirt with a patch (with big stitches...kind of like your lady noire!! was it inspiration??)
i feel like i could babble on about your art trademarks for a long time because you use lots of different styles and they're all unique to you and have their own individual trademarks!! your art is just very special imo!! *cradles it protectively in my hands*
omg hi cory!!!!! teehee im so happy that so many ppl assosiate lady noire with my art!! (also, do not apologize!!!! *joins you shaking your fist at life*)
AAAAAAA THANK!!!!! lineart is something ive definetely struggled with in the past, so im SO SO SO SO INCREDIBLE HAPPY that it comes over as sketchy but also clean!!! gah cory. you are gonna kill me with all these compliments!!!!! and i love how you describe it as having a life of its own- i usually like using my lineart as more of a ''guide'' as to where im gonna put the colours, then like. a template to fill in i guess??? NOT SURE HOW TO EXPLAIN IT LMAO BUT IM GLAD YOU LIKE IT
AND THANK YOU!!!!!! omg i feel like such an imposter rn lol, i always eyeball stuff HOWEVER it is definetely a Struggle to have stuff not look blocky if you for exampe have two similar in value/darkness colours next to each other so im rlly happy that my art feels smooth and nice!!!! thank you!!!! and !!! AAAA that means a lot!!! its definetely not something that id be able to put my finger on myself but you described it perfectly!! not sure about the careful thought part tho, my brain while drawing is half somewhere entirely else and half like. ah yes. Vibes. No no not like That. YES. hmm. lines. no., Hmmmmmm.. !! you give me too much credit lol <3 but im glad that ive succesfully created the illusion that i in fact do Think about what im drawing
EEEEEeEEEE ty!!! FASHION!!!! fashion has definetely had a huge influence on how and what i draw so it makes sense that thats reflected in my art!! and haha ty, im glad you like all the fits i put together!! :D
and teehee YES i LOVE drawing masks that way!!! and That Outfit!! now that you mention it, YEAH it IS kinda like lady noire!! it wasnt inspo tho! (at least not consciously)! also, its rlly interesting that you said that you get 50's pinup girl vibes from my art!! i dont rlly see it, but it does kinda make sense bc i always loved the vibrant colours and vibes from them!!
WAH THANK YOU!!!!!! cory im cradling YOU gently in my hands
Whats my art trademark?? (ask game!)
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